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allpiesforourown · 3 days ago
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Hey, so sorry to be using your inbox like a fuckin confessional, but getting that dream thing off my chest literally cleared my skin and I've just got this itch that needs to be addressed so I'm taking it out on you again. Reflecting on this thought the second after I had it made me think, "Oh, I get what Shen Yuan was on about now," and so here I am, typing this shit out ig. fucking embarrassing, anyway.
So, like. I watch those gacha react videos on youtube. Like a concerning amount of those gacha react videos, man. I fuckin love them so much, even if I wouldn't admit to it under pain of death to anyone I know or love. I have a seperate youtube channel I made under a fake email that I made specifically to watch them. It's bad. I remember back when it was just me and the FF.net filter system before they added the 'Without' section at the bottom and trying to find crossover content in the LoZ tag between games. 10th circle of hell; my 13th reason. Gacha react videos in concept are heavensent for my inner child, and on the rare occasion I find one of those 'fandom react' series that are active or complete and well done, it grants me joy on par with nigh nothing else.
This being said, I understand that the main demographic for this content tends to be a handful of years younger than me. I've seen community posts on some channels mentioning their time in college, but these are few and far between in my experience. I appreciate these teen's artistry in putting these all together, because god knows I'm not, but like,,, --and I know I sound like an ass right now but bare with me-- it feels like with the conclusion of Arcane came a flood of reaction videos with no real substance. I've watched upward of what feels like thirty seperate videos --at least,-- on the show and its the same ten to twenty edits I've seen on repeat and I'm watching them by pressing the skip key and catching half the dialouge only to come out the other side tired and a little miffed. Then I feel bad, because they created something and all I did was mindlessly consume and feel entitled to complain. Ugh.
Now, Because I've been cycling through these almost cookie cutter videos for ages --I used Arcane vids as an example before because its recent and relevant, but I do have this take for a whole slew of the fandoms I watch react videos on, and I picked this addiction up in 2021 so it's been a minute-- I've begun predicting the dialouge before it's come up and projecting what I hope the author will say. If I see a video with, for example, Giyuu from kny seeing Sabito in a video, I hope to see shock, yes, but also to see him comment or think about how he hasn't seen his face in so long, you know? Just... things that aren't just "OMG!!" or making the characters eyes widen. I've found now that I seek out these videos for the slim chance that they'll provide me with the satisfaction I get from these moments of true understanding with the presented characters.
Yes, I know that there really isn't any "true" way to understand a character, and that while we are all entitled to our own interpretations of media, the insistence that mine alone is more "right" or "correct" is bullshit, but I'm not saying that my preference has to be law, only that I get a rush of happiness whenever something I like happens to pop up in a video that I was already checking out of because it failed to really,,,,wow me. This is my bias speaking, of course, but its also the reality of my situation borne from overconsumption of this genre.
But anyway, onto the main point of how this relates to svsss. I was watching a video just a minute ago --an Arcane video, big shocker I know-- where there was a line from the creator's Vander character about how he wasn't ready to see Vi so grown up, because to him she's still his little girl. I thought, "Yes!!! This!! He's a father! He's showing realistic reactions to seeing your child suddenly grown up, and while he's proud of the woman she became, he still loves her as she is in the moment!!" ....I then watched the rest of the reaction, and was left cold and disappointed in the end. I'd clicked for Viktor, got three videos of him in a twenty minute reaction when the rest was the same four edits of jinx on repeat. Love you Jinx, but holy fuck. I thought then, "God, what a waste of potential." The creator of the video had insightful dialouge, clearly a decent grasp on character interaction, and the drive to create the video in the first place, but settled for pumping out another copy of the same video they've released three times previous on the same channel.
Then I thought, "Oh, like PIDW."
I need to get a life, Tumblr user allpiesforourown. If your blog wasn't so damn entertaining, I might even go out and touch grass one day. Take responsibility, damn.
(ty for reading my rant, if you did. have a good day regardless.)
I think you watching gacha react videos for characterization might be the one and only thing more baffling than Shen Yuan reading porn for plot. Hope you find gacha videos of Vander teaching his daughter how to ride a bike
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ccruelgods · 1 year ago
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jekyll and hyde getting stuck midtransformation either due to the potion not being made with the correct measurements or because of external emotional or physical reasons. the resulting person, if you can even call them that, is just a blur of the two, some mix between reckless and logical, not able to place themself to a specific identity
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sanshofox · 11 months ago
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At this point I am really wondering how the entertainment industry, especially gaming industry, is going to uphold/maintain themselves.
One layoff after another. How are people from that industry supposed to find a new job there when layoffs are happening everywhere? Do studios really think there’s longevity when they aren’t even willing to hire newcomers/juniors so there‘s adequate supply in the work force? Because look at how it’s currently going: investors want more and more money, the workload increases, but people are getting fired, leaving a smaller team to do said work, even distributing them for 2 or 3 projects at the same time, only to crash in a burnout or in later years go into retirement. Then who’s left? AI? Are you kidding me? As if games aren’t becoming more and more repetitive anyway, because of some „safe recipe for good numbers“ strategy. Creativity and the people behind it are suffering.
It’s been almost 2 years since I saw a junior 3D character artist offer. Ever since then it’s been a desert. And it’s not looking all too bright in other departments either. It’s now even a thing in job descriptions where they want you to have „AI abilities“. So as a junior or regular they want you to feed their machine, so in a few years they can fire you. The audacity.
Another audacity are those layoffs just to rehire people for a smaller price (can’t tell me otherwise. For me this is a tactic to put pressure on the work force to say yes to less money otherwise they will stay jobless). People that made projects what they are today, who are seniors and leads for a reason, out of a job just like that. Make it make sense (it doesn’t).
Studios like ubisoft now openly saying that they want to focus on AI, like assets completely made by AI to „save time and money“ and expand AI onto more fields. Shame on them.
The way creative industries like gaming finance themselves is also their biggest poison. And I only see a solution in that by regulating investors demands and upper positions sheaningans. They can’t have „absolute power“ anymore. It’s destructive and greedy and not realistic. Games can not be linearly successful. For the game design „recipe“ to improve it needs iteration just like when you work in a project for example and work on a design that needs to be iterated until it‘s improved or solid even. We see time and time again that „business/numbers people“ and creatives do not go hand in hand. We see an extreme imbalance.
I would predict that with less creative new input and letting mainly AI do the work consumers will be less and less entertained because everything seems to be and look the same. It will stagnate. And then crumble. And the industry needs to start like it did before. And that’s what I guess for the big companies.
With the layoffs happening and not enough job offers in return I could see that big talents get together to build their own studios now and we may get an era of new successful and growing studios happening that may even replace the current triple A studios one day in the future. They may even change the financing game. We saw successful games happening through platforms like kickstarter more often. So it might lead back to a „power to the people“ thing. Having an idea for a project and seeing if enough people agree and invest to see it happening. There’s room for improvement in that system. That’s all what it leads back to; in the end the consumers need to be satisfied to make it a creative and monetary success. BG3 and larian studios was a good example for that. It’s what made coral island grow and grow too. So there‘s potential.
Feel free to comment your theories. I really would like to see what others think about the current state of gaming studios and how it will or could develop.
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prettyboykatsuki · 1 month ago
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This is a weird thought piece question so if you don’t wanna answer it’s okay. But genuinely as a character I think Katsuki is very aware of people he cares about. Almost in an Izuku type of obsessive way, maybe less intense and prone to writing it down, lol. But as I trust your perspective on him a lot I wanted to ask, do you think he’s the type of person as a friend or significant other or potential person, to be aware of insecurities?
Or to care genuinely? For example if you were insecure about your size. Do you think he would be aware of that and be silent? Or would he love the insecurity in spite of your feelings? Or does he not really think twice because he cares about you and doesn’t know you would even feel that way. It’s a weird dilemma I ran into wanting to write a piece for him and I realized I couldn’t figure it out. Hopefully I am explaining myself properly?
Thank you 😭
i understand what u mean lol dw and i think if u read some of my pieces my stance on this aspect of him is hard to grasp bc i dont often write more insecure readers. mostly bc i think its a little bit harder to write well as it requires more nuances but thats a diff can of worms jdhfkj
i think its important to understand less so what bakugou does and does not care about and moreso the way he process information - which is largely intuitive.
like i do understand what you are asking and because bakugou is bakugou - yes, i think he is probably aware of these things. he picks up on them often and usually uses them in some context when throwing insults or even in more light hearted interactions.
but a lot of bakugous informational processing is based on a pragmatic, systemic and reason based way of thinking. and a lot of what impedes that way of acting is his own emotional state. in the beginning of the series, he's a lot more insecure in himself and he projects that onto other people. it causes him to act in very irrational and ridiculous ways
however by the end of the series, katsuki s a fully processed and emotionally realized man. so he defaults to a more elevated, calm and secure version of himself that relies on what he's best at which is using his intuition to draw conclusions and implementing a reason based plan. before he was doing that just with logic.
but he has the emotional tuning to also do this in his relationships and he's taken a lot of time to learn to navigate them.
so i think in a partnership, it's unlikely that he does not know at all. i think he probably picks up on the insecurity in smaller ways but does not put a real name to it (i.e. i dont think he thinks of it consciously / actively) until something comes up which forces him too do it
and that something would be if its putting his partner in any kind of serious emotional distress or comes up frequently as a reason for their upset.
katsuki has this line he says very famously says to shouto "there's no way you could've noticed something that i didnt but lets hear it anyway." and he's being passive aggressive af lol but there is some merit to that.
he's a very keen person naturally and he spends a significant amount of time with you - so he definitely knows to an extent. maybe no actively, maybe not consciously - but just an intuitive understanding.
however, because he loves you - he will only intervene when he thinks its necessary to do so. and this isn't because he doesn't care about you, but because he specifically had to handle his own insecurity and he knows firsthand what you're experiencing in himself.
but katsuki loves you and also has a lot of faith in you. he will push if he thinks you need to be pushed, and he will assure if he thinks you need to be assured. he's a good partner in that way. but for the most part, he won't interfere because he trusts in you as a person to overcome things. insecurity is not something that can be mended by another person if it's within yourself, but it can be healed when it's reframed to you by someone who loves you.
and if you need that from katsuki he will undoutedly give it to you. but he trusts you to handle business basically. so not in a bad way, he treats your insecurities as simply being apartof you.
he doesn't have any feelings about the insecurity itself. he's not lying when he says that. but thats because he loves you more as an amalgalm of all the parts of you. his view of you is rounded out and he sees all of it as you. if he loves you, he loves you. there's nothing that needs to be changed as longs as its you. so he has no opinion on if you like or dislike something. you are you no matter who you are or what you look like.
bakugou is very explicitly not shallow. appearances in love are generally unimportant to him. he falls in love with people not looks even when people don't believe that because he's so pretty lmao
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circyexistforcontent · 2 years ago
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what paperwork would SAGAU reader do in their free time? is it just mailing letters to loyal followers or more serious things like government affairs?
SAGAU CONCEPT: PAPERWORK AND PUBLIC AFFAIRS
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❀ synopsis: even gods have to do paperwork.
❀ notes: I am winging it (meaning I have no idea what the fuck I'm doing but I'm gonna do it anyway), and I just made it to Liyue too so I'll be having a lot of fun with this. This is Liyue centered btw :]
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Well, for starters yes there will be the occasional letter that one of your acolytes has sneaked into your pile of documents. But it would take days until you notice the letter due to how high the papers are stacked.
Anyways, most of the time it is serious. Sagau darling is usually written to have an abode on Liyue and I like to think it's because that's where most of their work is related to. Due to the fact that Rex Lapis has recently been "assassinated" and during the Rite of Descension he would give advice on how to handle the trade of the coming year.
Well, since they can't get any predictions from the Geo Archon anymore they would always request for sagau darlings' presence to help them manage the trading system, to the point darling just decided "Fuck it, I'll be putting my focus on Liyue now". So now sagau darling is just there managing governmental projects and attending diplomatic meetings to discuss Liyue's finances.
Sagau darling still has to travel across different nations too since there is also Monstadt which doesn't have an active archon. But they are better at managing themselves since it's been like that for a long time. Still, you have to occasionally check up on them.
Back to Liyue, when I say governmental projects it can scale to "Wait, this is actually work" to a "I just want to have a talk with the person who made this idea". Most of the time it's the latter. Sometimes you want to bash your head onto your study table when you read the ideas. No your not signing the permit, and no your not going to allow the idiots to try and demolish a domain to replace it with a factory.
Zhongli feels guilty to see how stressed you are with managing his nation and even suggested taking the mantle as Geo Archon again if it means you will be pleased. You tiredly assure him that there is no need (because you don't want to fuck up the storyline even more) and that it's only natural for you to take care of all of Teyvat.
Meetings are usually centered around trading and finance managing, but they would also be about how you will handle the Fatui and the Treasure hoarders. You have to be very careful with what you say about the Fatui because while most people will trust your word, some won't be too kind about it and will accuse you of putting the citizens in danger. Treasure hoarders will still be treated as criminals but you get to decide their punishment.
Ningguang helps you with whatever business you might be starting. She will even help you lessen your workload and would shut down any sort of rumor connected to you. If you need some time off she will set a schedule for you to help manage your time properly.
Xiao and Ganyu don't know how to help you in this situation, well, maybe Ganyu knows what to do and might even lend you a helping hand. But what the two do know is crowd control. With you being a very famous figure (you are GOD in this world) people will be chasing after you, begging for good fortune and true love. There would be offerings handed to you in person as they say their wishes. And there is some who just want to ask confirmation if a certain rumor is true.
In that case, the two will do their best to guard you. Xiao will be harsher than Ganyu who is trying to be formal in reminding the people that you want to have space. He will push, and even threaten them with his polearm that he will consider their invasion of privacy an active threat to his grace. And that he won't hesitate to follow through with the regulation if they continue to bother you.
But that's about it, I really have nothing to say other than you're very stressed and might have grown white hairs with how much work you have. You can send more ask about this idea but just to let you know I'm not a government worker (yet) and my ideas are probably wrong.
Imagine mixing the time dilation concept with this omg poor reader-
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khaire-traveler · 2 years ago
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Is it the gods, an imposter/trickster spirit, or your own trauma?
The reason I am choosing to make this post is because I've seen an increase in the trickster/imposter spirit talk in polytheist and pagan spaces, and I feel like I have some personal experience with this that may be helpful to share with others. Whether you agree or disagree with me is entirely up to you, and I am not trying to force anyone to follow the same belief system as me, since we all have a different truth, but I wanted to share my take on things in case it can be useful to someone, so without further adieu, here we go.
I feel like there is a serious problem within pagan spaces of individuals projecting their personal traumas onto gods.
I'm just gonna outright say it: this is a very real problem within the pagan (and the polytheist) community. So, what exactly do I mean by this? How are people "projecting their traumas onto gods"?
When I say this, I don't mean to imply that people are doing this intentionally. In fact, I think that 99% of the time people are doing this without realizing it. It takes a serious level of self-awareness to recognize when one is projecting traumas onto a situation, and in my experience, therapy often aids significantly in making these types of discoveries; once you recognize it within yourself, sometimes you can also recognize similar behaviors in others (do not diagnose anybody with anything, though, or assume you know everything about them and their life).
Personally, I have done a lot of self-reflection and have become very aware of behaviors and experiences I've had in the past where I've projected my trauma onto the gods. For a lot of these experiences, at the time, I thought I was going through a situation with imposter spirits or "deity drama" (experiencing some kind of major drama with the gods), but looking back, I have spotted several underlying patterns (I suggest always looking for underlying patterns within your own situations; are your situations often very similar to each other, and do they remind you of situations from your past) within all of these scenarios - they have always been connected in one way or another, whether it be by the type of things the "gods" or "spirits" are communicating to me (what they are saying) or the type of situation I've gotten myself into with these entities (the type of drama I'm experiencing/how the situation plays out; e.g. it relates to some form of abandonment, hyper-criticism, emotional abuse, etc.).
In order to tell if these things are trauma-related, I've found that stopping and asking myself a few questions has been really helpful.
First, I asked myself, "When was the first time I felt this way in my life?" By that, I am asking myself when I first felt the emotion I'm feeling in the given situation (does this situation feel familiar, does this sense of sense of abandonment feel familiar, does this feeling of helplessness feel familiar, etc.). You'd be surprised how many times the answer to this question in a "negative experience with the gods" has been yes (100% of the time, actually).
The second question I ask myself is, "Would [insert deity name here] actually do [insert problem/bad experience here] to me?" Remember to think very critically about this question. It can be easy to think - especially if you have religious trauma - that some deity would really spend their time focused on "punishing" or berating you in particular, but realistically speaking, would a deity really spend their time tearing you down instead of lifting you up? Would they really spend their time telling you about how awful you are, how disappointed they are, how you're doing everything wrong, etc., especially if this is a deity you have been historically very close with? Why would this deity be upset with you in the first place? Now, sometimes deity DO get upset with us for our actions (and it is important to note that you may not click with every deity you encounter), but even then, keep in mind that deities are extremely mature and ancient beings; they aren't going to treat you in a cruel, or even abusive, manner. If you don't think deities are mature enough to treat and respect you as an actual person, maybe you should examine why you feel this way about them. Do you expect to be treated as less than a person by other people as well? Have you been treated this way in the past? Look for possible connections to your past traumas before completely discounting the idea that these beliefs are entirely unbiased.
With the third question, it's important to think very critically about your situation. "Why would [insert deity name here] treat me this way?" When answering this question, make sure to consider also asking yourself if you expect to be treated this way by other humans; the answer to that can be very telling. Some people also assume deities will treat them a certain way due to a deity's mythos. It's imperative to realize that a deity is often very different from their mythos in reality. Mythology isn't typically meant to be interpreted literally. Most of the time, mythology was there to explain things that didn't make sense to humans at the time, such as the seasons changing or the sun moving across the sky. Of course, that wasn't the only purpose of mythology, but it was one of the many. Along with that, deities were often paired with the cultural values of the time, such as Hades kidnapping Persephone being a common practice in ancient Greece when "taking a wife" or Zeus giving Persephone's hand in marriage without telling Demeter or Persephone first (fathers were seen as having the right to marry off their daughters, with or without consent). Consider the cultural context of a deity's mythos before immediately assuming a deity is accurately represented by it. Again, deities are extremely mature and ancient beings, so realistically, would such a wise, knowledgeable, and very mature being treat you in whatever way you think they're treating you now? Why do you think this?
A simple and easy answer for a deity acting out of character that people have come up with is "it's an imposter/trickster spirit", but...is it really? Or could it just be your personal traumas reflecting onto that deity? Do these situations feel a bit familiar to you? Do these harsh criticisms sound like something you'd maybe even say to yourself when in a negative state of mind? How would this spirit know how and when to target all of your deepest insecurities (spirits cannot just randomly read minds, in my experience)? Would it even be worth it for a spirit to impersonate a deity (think of the potential consequences they'd face for pretending to be a literal god; if humans were punished for their hubris, just think of what would happen to a spirit)? Would a deity really just allow some random spirit to impersonate them, and if so, why do you think this? Random spirits are not more powerful than literal gods - remember this. Do you think a god wouldn't at least try protect their worshippers from imposters in some way? Why would some spirit pretend to be a god anyway? What would they have to gain from you?
Rather than it being an imposter/trickster spirit "messing with you", could it really be your personal trauma manifesting itself within your mind?
A good example of something actually being trauma, within my personal life, is when I thought that Hermes was permanently leaving my life. After the fact, I blamed my experiences on an imposter/trickster spirit, but when I actually stopped and examined the situation, I realized it was a culmination of past traumas and fears coming to light and manifesting themselves within my mind. I began almost looking for reasons why Hermes would want to leave my life and told myself that he was going to "abandon" me, despite receiving tarot readings, and even some dreams, that were reassuring me Hermes was sticking around. I had constant nightmares about the situation, misinterpreted signs as being negative, and was constantly anxious about Hermes' perception of me. When I reflected on times in the past where I perceived to have been abandoned by others, I realized that this situation was eerily similar to these past traumatic events in my life. I took a step back from the situation, calmed my nerves as best as I could, and reproached the situation with a clearer and more stable mind. Sometimes taking that step back can help significantly in figuring out the true cause of a spiritual problem.
Why are deities so easy to project our traumas onto?
As is everything within this post, this is my personal opinion; you don't have to agree with me.
Personally, I believe deities act as mirrors into our subconscious. They reflect parts of ourselves that we choose to hide from, often to aid in our personal growth. Sometimes, though, they do this unintentionally, and I think it's something that's just inherent in their nature. I can't fully explain it, but it's definitely a phenomenon that I've seen time and time again within both my own practice and the practices of others.
As well as this, deities are intangible beings that we often cannot hear, see, or physically interact with. When you can't hear what someone is trying to say to you explicitly, your own biases and experiences often do the work for you in interpreting what that person is trying to communicate. It becomes alarmingly easy to assume that they're upset with you, randomly leaving your life forever, and so on. Think of a time where maybe a friend didn't respond to a text you sent and you thought they were upset at or ignoring you. When you have existing traumas involving people abandoning, ignoring, or even just being generally upset with you by not interacting with you, it becomes extremely easy to misinterpret the actions of others as something more malicious. It becomes extremely easy to project your past traumatic experiences onto completely unrelated situations and people. This is the same for deities, especially since you cannot hear, see, or physically interact with them.
What should you do if you discover that you've been projecting trauma onto a deity?
Chances are that if you've been projecting trauma onto a deity, they're already aware of it. In fact, they may have been trying to help reassure you or send communicate that the situation is not what it seems. You can find this is signs/reminders that they're still a part of your life, divination readings that everything is ok (despite you thinking or feeling otherwise), comforting dreams featuring the deity of symbols of said deity, and so on. Try looking for these signs and/or messages within your life, and see what you can find.
In rare cases, the deity may have been entirely unaware of the situation. I think, either way, it's best to communicate with this deity and tell them what you suspect has been going on. If you feel the need, you can offer an apology and maybe provide an offering as a way to make amends, but in my opinion, you never have to apologize for experiencing trauma and not knowing how to properly cope with it. Therapy exists for a reason, and trauma isn't something that you have to be ashamed of. Deities are very understanding and forgiving, and more than likely, they're not going to judge you for having potentially projected trauma onto them. In my experience, you have nothing to be afraid of.
If you're still unsure whether you are projecting trauma onto a deity or not, that's ok. Sometimes you never really get a concrete answer. When that happens, my advice is to move past the situation as best you can. You can give offerings to the deity and tell them, "I need to move past this situation with you because it is negatively affecting my mental health and well-being. When I am more stable/feeling better, we can readdress the issue," and take a step back from the problem for a while. It is more than ok to need space and time away from a deity or a situation to focus on your own wellness. If something is extremely triggering or upsetting for you, let your deity know, and take that step back that you need. You can always come back to the issue later, when you feel readier and more equipped to tackle the problem. Sometimes it just takes time for the issue to resolve itself, too. Either way, always prioritize yourself and your well-being.
Conclusion
It's clear that my stance regarding trickster/imposter spirits is simply that they aren't really a thing. This doesn't mean spirits can't be problematic (because they absolutely can), but I just personally feel that spirits aren't pretending to be gods. Spirits can certainly cause issues in other ways, such as messing with divination, causing you to feel uncomfortable/uneasy, or even being generally antagonistic towards you, but I don't personally believe they impersonate gods. It just doesn't seem realistic or worth it to me, especially when considering the fact that there will more than likely be massive consequences for such actions. It's more than ok if you disagree with me, but I'd like to ask that you don't reply to my post with an argument. This post is meant to give advice and share my personal thoughts, not start a debate about the existence of trickster/imposter spirits. To be completely honest, this is a triggering topic for me, but I wanted to make this post because I've seen so many new pagans and polytheists get discouraged or even straight up decline the opportunity to worship deities solely because they're scared of accidentally interacting with trickster spirits, and I want to reassure them by providing an alternative to out of character deity interactions. Plus, I haven't really seen anybody talk about this before, so I figured I'd hopefully shed some light on a topic that isn't usually discussed but is clearly a recurring issue within pagan and polytheist communities.
ANYWAY, thank you for reading this massive block of text! I hope it gave you some insight or at least a new perspective on this issue. Take care, and have a wonderful day/night! May your gods bless you, if you so wish them to. 🧡☺️
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313i · 4 months ago
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i did the blorbo bingo with edling :3
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for ling:
most fandom takes are incorrect: maybe it’s just me but ive seen a decent amount of people make ling out to be a pervert or just reduce him to a stupid silly character. ling yao is NOT A PERVERT! WHERE DID YOU GET THAT FROM! he would never even do HALF OF THE THINGS YOU GUYS ARE TALKING ABOUT!!!!!!!!!! and he is so far from just being a funny guy that makes the audience laugh. his motives and character as a whole are so incredibly strong and i’ve never been so fascinated with a character like ling yao. please give him more attention.
that also goes hand in hand w/ stop putting them in situations!!: he would not be looking up girls skirts or something 🙁 be kind to him i think he deserves the world also. the cast of fma consists of a bunch of 14-16 year olds who traveled across the world to fulfill what they feel is their destiny but they end up on a journey of pain and suffering instead. they are children they should be playing roblox and minecraft and brain rotting like me ……….. i need a 500 chapter fic of ling being happy and joyous and eating all the wonderful meat in amestris.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE NOT ENOUGH CANON / UNDERRATED: as much as i love greedling and understand the combo … i wish ling got more screentime alone separate from greed. he is really such an interesting and unique character with a banging design and sometimes i feel greed robbed him of his iconic features (his yellow jacket & sword) and people just forget that greedling exists because ling was strong enough to withstand the homunculus in his system + LING IS THE BODY!!! he is serving that facecard and body 24/7 because that’s all ling yao!!! i still do really like greedling because they have a lot of room for interaction but i feel like ling yao is one of the characters who is often forgotten when it comes to merch n whatnot. he’s not as much of a main character as ed of course but he is just forgotten!! he is really such a cool character i wish there was more of him everywhere
there’s probably a deep seated reason why i love him: yes. because he is me and i am him (not really). i just project onto him and he is just me at this point! i will forever be such a huge ling yao fan the first time i watched fmab i instantly got attached to him i am so happy he is alive. i hope being the king of the yao clan is treating him well though he didn’t look to happy in that one photo of him as emperor….. it’s a tough job so i get it man! i hope he explodes
for edling:
pretty privilege: they are both pretty. brotherhood art style is a bit inconsistent at times i feel but their designs are both so gorgeous (their colors complement one another!). and also the bloodhell episode. ling yao fighting envy with his cool sword and handsome face…. ed somehow still looking pretty despite all the traveling and fighting. they are pretty!!!
projection had entered the chat: well, yes! who doesn’t project onto their faves??? :p
don’t typically discuss irl because of fandom: more and more people nowadays seem to forget fma franchise as a whole 🙁 it makes me so sad because this series is so fire and i wish it would keep its popularity but it obviously makes sense that more relevant shows and animes will overtake its light. i’m also afraid most people don’t like edling (edling nation consists of like 10 people) so i just don’t really talk about fma irl at all! no one here has a Fullmetal heart..
everything else is just me wanting to bite them (lovingly) and stuff them in my pocket and hold them in the palm of my hands to show them off to the world. i do not actually want to plot their demise and i am not actively doing so. i would put them in a wood chipper in a loving manner
for ed:
has done nothing wrong: he’s innocent, your honor… everything he’s ever done has been for his family. he’s committed a huge taboo in the alchemy world by trying human transmutation but him and al just wanted their moms back. they were TOO YOUNG TO BE ORPHANS AND HAVE TO GROW UP WITHOUT THEIR MOTHERS LOVE! he ended up becoming a dog for the military but he had to do what he had to do to get closer to that philosopher stone… in 03 he did end up taking some lives too i think. he’s only 15 and never intended to Actually murder someone. seeing him after the greed scene is so incredibly heartbreaking. 03 and cos are such horrific renditions of fma (in a good way) and it makes me so sad to think that’s how he ended up??? he had so much hope as a little kid and was so full of life but by 18 he’s stranded from the last bit of family he knew and is left a depressed alcoholic who keeps losing people. edward elric has done nothing wrong..
there’s probably a deep seated reason why i love him: even from the outside HE IS SUCH A COOL CHARACTER. a character who canonical has prosthetic limbs is already so cool. knowing the story behind those limbs and his brother is so 🙁☹️☹️… his iconic red jacket!!! his LEATHER PANTS WITH HIS PLATFORM BOOTS? his striking gold eyes and bright blonde hair? how he wears his stupid pocket watch…. his dumbass belt… i love edward elric’s flamboyant style so much i’ve never seen a more bi-coded character ever. i love everything about his design and his personality is unlike most shonen anime protags and that adds to his charm. he is hot-headed and will bite your head off if you comment on his height or call him pipsqueak but he is still such a sharp and intelligent young man .. He is literally an Alchemy God…. he is so capable even at such a young age and carries himself so well because if i were him i would be breaking down crying every step of the way! he is dedicated and loyal to his cause of finding the philosophers stone to return their bodies back to normal and doesn’t even hinder once throughout the journey. he loves his brother dearly and it makes me so joyous to see a strong sibling relationship in this genre that isn’t Weird. Edward Elric is a fire character thank you for listening to my TedTalk
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sophieinwonderland · 4 months ago
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What’s your opinion on whether or not hoardes belong in the plural community? Because I’m heard some very conflicting definitions of plurality when it comes to including or not including them. I’ve also heard conflicting opinions from within the POSIC+ hoarde community as to whether they even want to be considered plural.
I’m personally debating if I want to call myself plural. My experiences communicating with external voices of objects with their own opinions and emotions feels somewhat plural. When one of my objects is feeling a strong emotion (like Luna’s near-panic attack today) I feel the physical symptoms of that. But I am still the only person in my body. My objects have their own body. I do not switch. I will never face a lot of societal struggles systems face. When I called myself plural in the past, I felt like the ways in which my experiences are very different got erased. My experiences as a hoarde were erased. But singlet isn’t quite right either.
Should hoardes be considered their own thing? Something outside the plural/singlet binary? I’m asking you because you know a lot about plurality.
I have a pretty unique view which might be unpopular with some of the POSIC community. You might know this from my Manifestations post.
I believe that headmates can Manifest in 4-5 different ways, and that it's technically possible for any headmate who has achieved one to achieve another. (Barring aphantasia or similar conditions that could interfere with some Manifestation types.) Headmates Manifesting as physical objects is what I classify as Inhabitation.
The POSIC community seems divided among psychological and spiritual lines. To me, at least in regards to psychological interpretations of communications with POSIC companions, these are headmates who identify with a physical object and are mentally projected onto it.
I actually view it as a close relative to imposition. The biggest difference, IMO, between me as a former imaginary friend and a POSIC companion is that my original form was purely imaginary where a Companion's is tied to a physical object.
Other than that though, both would seem to be projections of the brain that are externalized.
If you want my honest opinion, I think POSIC companions are plural and that every one has the potential to learn to Manifest in other ways. Such as through an inner world, imposition... and yes, even fronting. It may take effort to learn these skills, just as it takes effort for many tulpas to learn to switch. But I believe it's technically possible.
If you take a purely spiritual view of your POSIC companions, then this may not apply. But I might refer to my Hiveminds and Multiplicity post. While this is intended mostly for analyzing works of fiction because I am skeptical that true metaphysical connection across brains in different bodies is physically possible, for those who do hold such spiritual beliefs, the takeaway is that I still view hiveminds and mental links as plural, or at least plural-adjacent.
Because at a certain level, even if your companion has their own body, you're still describing feeling their emotions in your body. You're still sharing your thoughts with them. You're still connected, which means they're at least partially in your head.
And therefore, I would still consider them headmates. 🤷‍♀️
Whatever angle you look at it from, I think POSIC Hoarde's fall firmly under the plural umbrella.
If you're not sure though, try playing around with different Manifestation types and see what happens.
If POSIC Companions are just psychological headmates locked to a physical object, then it should be possible for them to learn to Manifest in a headspace or project themselves externally through imposition.
But in theory, if POSIC companions are something metaphysical that are linked mentally to their Beholder... it should still be possible for them to Manifest in similar ways. If a POSIC Companion is linked to your brain and able to transfer thoughts and feelings, they probably would be able to transfer visual images too. And if they can project visual images into your head, then they could theoretically send a projection of themselves to your brain and appear in an inner world.
It's good to experiment and test the limits of what you believe is possible.
Finally, send my love to Luna. I hope they're feeling better. 💖💖💖
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ihateedwardnygma · 4 months ago
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please elaborate (ignore how i voted i thought about it for 2 miliseconds only)
info dump time yay!!
i’d like to preface this by saying what i believe abt ed is likely a personal thing and up to interpretation… for starters he’s a fictional character + also. as with the majority of characters i enjoy, a lot of the things i love / find interesting about him tend to be things i headcanon. i don’t think my perception is necessarily the correct one and i also think the original poll has a lot of right answers… like you said lust and even if you put no thought into that vote i actually think it makes sense… at least in my opinion it ties into his pride, which is what i voted.
anyway! i believe that ultimately his biggest sin- and his fatal flaw overall- was his pride. his downfall is caused nearly exclusively by his own sense of pride and inability to let go of his ego. whether directly or indirectly, pride was at the centre of the majority of poor decisions he made: most of the time he acted out of a need to keep up his ego and save face, desperate to earn the respect of others around him.
i think ed had a very fragile self image- throughout the show, we see him sort of project things onto other people- denying them their own personhood or autonomy and acting as if this can both save him and perhaps save them too, if he gets it in his head that they need saving. he might view himself as smarter and superior to others on the surface, but this disguises a HEAVYYY case of low self esteem… the guy literally can’t function without his ego being stroked. he doesn’t particularly know who he is, and tends to define himself by arbitrary traits such as power and intelligence. when his inflated and distorted view of himself is challenged, he becomes angry and prone to lashing out. this can and does lead to him inadvertently torpedoing the rare few good things that actually do happen to him, which is, even if he is kind of an asshole, really sad to watch.
with this being said, i believe the fandom do tend to characterise him in black and white- either this pride and innate selfishness is a flaw set in stone that cannot be fixed, and this therefore makes him 100% evil and irredeemable- alternatively, people will go the opposite route and suggest he’s some kind of innocent little guy absolved of all responsibility for his actions because of his evident issues. and i believe it should be looked at with more nuance than that- yes, he’s not a good person, and yes, he’s done some downright evil things. but at the same time, ignoring that he was a deeply unwell and mentally ill individual with zero support system or help- i mean he got thrown in fucking ARKHAM when he was caught- does a disservice to the character. i doubt he could ever have been normal- i view him as CEN-coded (childhood emotional neglect) and also having multiple mental illnesses- majority of these are my own so it’s not like. Stereotyping lol- that may make it harder for him to navigate life. but i do think characterising him as purely evil or purely good are both takes that lack comprehension skills.
i went off on a tangent there and i’m really sorry!! but i wanted to clarify what i mean when i talk about ed + pride- in no way am i villainising the character nor am i saying everything’s okay bc he’s got like. 12 gazillions disorders or whatever- i just think he’s a very fun and interesting character to analyse… ^_^
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rreskk · 2 years ago
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TW: Smut, choking, inflicted pain.  Summary: His black suit made you drool and he liked that.
The heist was today and you were supposed to meet with Trevor at his trashed up meth lab where ‘all the magic happens’, yes, his words exactly. The crew was going to meet with you, but obviously you had taken the lead by time. Parking your jeep outside of the ridiculous shop, you noticed Trevor’s truck, evading two parking spaces at once. Typical.
Your relationship with the psychopath was mutual, to say the least. Friendly, civil, and reasonable. He would throw some suggestive comments but you were warned that it was just his behaviour. You knew him and the rest of the crew equally, being introduced a few months prior by Lester.
Lester found you and your talent of corrupting the justice system for criminals advantages. Your connections to local and worldwide justice teams made you a good member for planning heists, effectively and efficiently. He contacted you and to his luck, you were familiar with Michael’s success of heisting, as for his participation in the jewellery and others.
You entered the godforsaken liquor store and stumbled up the stairs to the upstairs trap house, greeting your sight with the old maniac who was biting on his nails. Approaching closer, you could see his outfit and bit your inner mouth. He looked so fuckable. Many months you’ve known this man and you hated at how much you found yourself attracted to him.
He wore a black suit, a suit needed for the heist, but his shirt was open and his blazer huddled his physique perfectly. If he moved, you’d see his back muscles progress from behind the black fabrics. His biceps would curl and conflict against the barrier of the sleeve, almost exaggerating the size of them. The shirt opened to reveal his signature tattoo, giving him a ruffled but dangerous look. His black trousers were slim around his ass, being held on by a leather belt that closely tucked in the shirt he wore. Trevor had a bad sense with size and clothes but whoever recommended this one to him has your money. He looks eatable.
Trevor cackled as you applaud his attention, noticing your fire gaze. His legs flopped onto the table and he leaned back against his chair, eyes burning into yours. With whatever smile he pulled, he charismatically singled you out.
“I am the happiest man alive to be seeing you, and only you!” Trevor played- licking his teeth while his eyes scanned your body, “My, my… You get prettier every time I see you.”
You were all for business and never would find yourself mixing pleasure with it. However dangerous this man in front of you is, it makes you want to risk ungodly things.
He motioned you to come closer, smirk growing wider and wider when studying how nervous you were around him.
“Why so nervous, huh? I don’t bite… Unless you want me to,” He cooed, “I’d never bite a gorgeous lady like you without permission. I’m a gentleman, sugar, I’m a sweet man.”
His sickly tone uplifted with every tease he projected. You were trapped deep into his brown eyes, seeing yourself in the reflection. You looked absolutely structed and helpless.
Trevor snickered when you returned him with silence. “Now that the other dickheads aren’t around, I must admit something, sugar,” He brought his hand up to yours, “You can’t deny the tension between you and I, hm?”
His tattooed hand led onto yours and gripped onto your palm. There was a war going off inside your head, you were telling yourself to not risk it as the others will arrive shortly, but the other is telling you all the possibilities of you risking being caught.
“As much as I like doing all the talking, I want to hear your sexy voice.” Trevor announced from below you, swinging on the chair.
This was a treacherous game you were playing. You felt like you were being fired at in a Russian Roulette. One bullet, you’re caught.
You gained the courage to engage in his own game, but refusing to talk.
You leaned your hip against the table beside him and stared down, meeting with his eyes which refused to avert off your face. Your lips flinched into a harsh smirk when he’d slowly frown.
“Have you lost your voice, huh?” He’d complain with a tilt of his head, “A conversation needs both inputs or I’m a fucking clown for talking to myself.”
You gave him a slow blink and used your thumb to stroke his hand.
Trevor sucked in his lip as he was intrigued at your action. He kept a steady gaze on your thumb, groaning in his throat.
His attention was distracted and you lifted your free hand to grab his chin, forcing him to look back up. He shivered at the cold sensation before leaning into your touch and smirked. Your finger slowly trailed up his lip, exacting it’s place in his hungry mouth.
Trevor whined at the exotic contact. He wasn’t leaning against his chair anymore but the table, bending himself at your playful gesture. He was close enough that his nose was about to touch your chest that you snatched your hand from his face and mouth, pushing him back.
“Fuck,” Trevor grunted, leering his wants and needs through his eyes.
You raked your hand through his shallow hair and shifted him closer to your body. His hands sneakily pressed against your inner thigh, stroking up and down. You were going to remove them but he jumped out of his seat, pressing his lips against yours. He was so quick that you fell back on the table. He towered over you.
You yelped in his mouth but his touch stole your voice back again. The hands that were struct around your thigh moved up, he groped your covered pussy, desperate to feel and taste.
“Don’t fuckin’ play around like that,” He darkly swallowed as he’d depart from you.
Your jaw clenched, seeing yourself small against him again. Trevor liked that. He liked that a bit too much.
“Look what you did to me.” Croaked Trevor, pushing his erection against your leg. “I’m ruined and it’s your fault.”
His anger made you sneer pathetically. You were currently in the hands of this sex-craved monster, there would no way out but to outsmart him, outdo him, challenge him.
He breathed against your mouth, “I want to fuck you so hard. I don’t fuckin’ care if they turn up. They can wait, baby. They can wait.”
You knew your place too well. One touch and he’s already soaked. You want to give him a hard time, hand falling from his chest to bulge, squeezing it as he winced.
The sound that escalated from his mouth was trapped by your finger that covered his chapped lips. You clicked your tongue and dropped your smile. Threateningly.
“You make a sound, and it’s game over.” You voiced to his surprise.
Although he was practically on top, you squeezed his bulge again and he threw his head back to refrain himself from moaning. His teeth gritted sharply, slowly falling onto you.
Trevor was going to say something but you raised an eyebrow, cupping his erection.
“A gentleman is patient and gentle with his ladies, Trevor,” You uttered, “I have not given you the permission to touch me yet, haven’t I?”
Soon his hand removed itself from your crotch, hovering above your body in retaliation and fear. It was almost as though he lost himself with how quick he tried to treat your wishes like his law. The struggle in his eyes plainly denying his tame mind and erratic behaviour.
It seems as though he struggles with obeying as well, opening his mouth and rambling like the bitch baby he was.
“Tell me that again.” He husked with a grin, lowering his mouth to yours.  
There was no words to describe how you roughly grabbed his blazer and pulled him close, smothering your lips with his as you softly moaned against each other. At this stage, you were both on the table. Trevor was hovering on top, hands selfishly stripping you while marking up your face and neck, begging to hear you moan and whine against his touch.
“Let me hear you.” He pleaded as your shirt was thrown off, your chest exposed to the man above.
You cursed loudly when Trevor animalistically dived into your breasts, pushing your bra up so your nipple was on display. He licked, sucked, and squeezed them with love.
“You are so fuckin’ gorgeous!” Ecstatically protested Trevor.
He sat up to admire his work. Hickeys were strangling your skin from neck to hips, marking out his territory. His fingers fished around your pantie lines but you snatched his wrist.
“Behave.” You hissed. “Strip for me.”
The command startled him. He seemed hesitant but with the desire and passion in your eyes, he nodded his head. Trevor threw off his blazer and shirt, pants were touched lastly. His hairy chest layered his tanned skin perfectly. Your plan was to demolish and scar him for life. Literally.
Using your nails, you dug them into his chest and sucked him back to you. He whined, his voice screeching and cracking.
The skin to skin contact made you pant and gasp.
“Let me see those eyes.” You struggled to say.
Trevor’s nose touched yours, eyes attached and mouths craving for each other.
He breathed out. “You’re so perfect.” A gulp interrupted him mid-sentence.
He blinked once and bit your lip. “I want to fuck you, please?”
Cradling your arms across his neck, you affirmed a hum into his mouth, embracing him into another heated kiss.
Trevor had no time to waste, feeling your fingers stab into every inch of his back and chest, crying in agony when he gripped onto your panties and trousers, ripping them off in one big motion. You swore your legs had never felt the cold air so fast in your life, sending shivers from up your spine.
“I want to hear you, baby.” Trevor growled when lining himself up in your entrance. “I want to feel you.”
With one pump, you moaned out his name and clawed at his shoulders. Your hand fell onto his face and forced his mouth open, your finger playing around with his tongue while he fucked you desperately.
The amount of pleasure you were feeling, there was no filter to stop your words from escaping your unconditional and empty mouth.
“Give it to me, yeah? Prove yourself, fuck! You better hold back your cum, I want to hear you!” You roared to him when your skin slapped together, feeling him hammer you with his dick.
Trevor panted and began to sweat at how bad he needed it. His hair was wild and untamed.
“You can’t tell me what to fuckin-“
You striked his face before he could finish and he moaned.
“Fuuckkk,” Trevor whined with tears in his eyes, “Please, let me cum!”
Your hand stayed in his mouth, making him sound pathetic when he spoke. The red hand mark on his cheek stained, proving his misbehaviour and lack of being a gentlemen, humiliating him.
“Only good boys can cum.” You cooed, using your other hand to grip his ass and moaned loudly.
He growled and watched himself dive into your pussy, tongue hanging out like a dog. His fingers were steady on your breasts, toying them and grabbing whenever he felt your nail scrape him.
At this point you were dying to cum, your hands found a steady body part to strangle, using Trevor’s neck and groaned when you felt yourself cum all over his erected dick. He carried on pumping into you as you came, giving you the life-time of experience.
Trevor failed to obey you and pulled out to release himself on your lower stomach, choking at the weight you have pressed on his neck. His white sperm painted you and you gasped at how hot it was.
“Fuck, I love you!” He choked, turning red.
He collapsed onto your naked body, breathing against your neck and held your hand.
While sharing this intimate moment, there were cars that squeaked outside. Your head shot up and you swore to yourself.
“Fuck, they’re here.”
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yosajaeofficial · 5 months ago
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JULY UPDATE
Hey hey hey! Welcome back to the show, “The Monthly Jayce Myles Comics Updates!” Where I give obvious monthly updates to my followers about the progress for the hit series that hasn’t debuted yet, “ROTTMNT: The Jayce Myles Comics”! Sorry I haven’t posted this month, I was hella busy with college applications and other projects, but I’m delighted to get back into these updates.
Without further ado, let’s get the show running! I have some fun things to show ya!!!
The Comic
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(W.I.P OF THE OFFICIAL DEBUT COMIC)
The month was way too quick for my own good, the comic’s slow. Again, I was busy applying to college and doing other side projects I’m working on. I’m gonna be attending college next month so the comic will have its hardships but I really wanna pursue my education as well, but the updates shall continue like always with all of its fun content! Anyways, the comic: the debut has 20+ pages and my god it’s just insane on how many there are when I’m not even halfway there. I’m impressed with how many pages go by just to tell the story, older pages will be fixed up so it either might be reduced or even more but that’s for future Jae to decide; I’m learning as I go! It’s also better that I show instead of say that I’m just “working on it” since it’s easy to lie to be honest.
The turtles haven’t been seen since I haven’t got to drawing their introductions yet, I’m gonna shart in my pants because I’m scared but I’m literally an artist doing a comic so I gotta do them sooner than later. Maybe the next update you’ll see them? Don’t hold me too much onto that but it might be a cute goal to set, let me know what happened when the August update comes!
Jayce is so silly with her coat huh? She’s just a girl giving it her best, even if they thrift at the worst shop known to man (they’re gonna learn someday…) We also got Rogelio and Jayce being all cool together, I was proud of that page when first sketching it out. They both are so sweet to draw out, hope to see their finalized pages to see their true potential!
Bonus Content: Hidden City Mystical Crystals
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Silly reader, you’re scratching your nose and thinking, “what am I looking at?” You’re in luck! Cuz these babies are actually additional parts about the Hidden City’s lore/magic system. Magic system? Yes, a magic system. The Jayce Myles Comics is going beyond the original canon of Rise and creating many more original concepts and combining it with what was given by the canon. I wanted to show off more of the mystics from yokai because their potential was so much cooler to finally explore when drafting the ideas.
The Hidden City’s magic system is based off of the elements, not too complicated, but has some different rules when compared to other executions of the elemental magic system. That’s for another day, I’m only gonna talk about the crystals and show what they can do. You can reference this update and look into the JMC with this cool bit of knowledge! Let’s get started >:3
Origins of the Mystical Crystals
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These crystals were created based off of industrial flaws people have faced. Basically, I learned about the 1920s construction workers and their working conditions where it made me think “what would the have wished for when they worked?” I referenced from real people, history books, and my own personal experiences to create functions, and help base the crystals off of what I came up with.
The Netflix show, “Arcane” was a great inspiration to combine mystics with technology, the brand was called “Hextech” and it’s system was hella cool to me and it helped a lot when I was working on the crystal’s concepts. The mystical crystals are meant to be used as “tools to help the magic user”, where they can enhance their power, gain a temporary ability, create spells, or use in technology.
The names of them are based off of the Latin languages like, English, Italian, Spanish, and a hint of both Chinese and Korean if you squint really hard. I will go through each of the crystals in a vague manner for ya’ll to see what they can do!
Fire Magic
Fire magic is actually defined as: “The manipulation/manifestation of temperature” instead of just heat, it can be fire or ice.
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LA HEILMAQ: The crystal is based off of quartz in visuals and has the glow like a moonstone! La Heilmaq is the crystal that’s used to help air conditioning in modern homes and create weapons. They’re the most natural crystal to use to create weapons since it’s form holds up so well, it’s as common as bronze in real life! They’re pretty cold to the touch, so be careful and don’t hold them for too long if you’re 1. not a fire magic user, or 2. not wearing gloves. These babies are used for more attacks than defense since they’re pretty deadly if you’ve been penetrated by the crystal itself.
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EL HEILMAQ: This crystal is based off of colored glass from old alcohol bottles, tainted windows, and the power of friendship because this is the one that isn’t the most realistic looking since I made the shape up. It looks like the “BOOM!” shape for a reason~ El Heilmaq is the crystal which contains heat, it’s sealed by the actual gemstone itself so you’re able to touch with your bare hands without getting burned. The crystal can be used for restoring heat in homes, making artillery, and/or throwing them on the ground to create natural firecrackers. Most yokai use smaller bits of the crystal as distractions and the bigger pieces to help the industry by keeping their homes warm, they don’t need boiler rooms or to grab coal because El Heilmaq crystals can already do that for them without causing damage to nature.
The word Heilmaq was based off the English word “Hail” which is Ice, which is to hammer the idea that this isn’t just heat based. The word Maq is gibberish that's made to be another word for "kaboom", which brings more of the fire elements to the word itself.
Air Magic
Air magic is defined as, “The manipulation/manifestation of oxygen”!
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LA SENYÁR: The crystal is based off of diamonds and emeralds! La Senyár is a crystal that helps give the air magic user more of a boost, they can crash the crystal and it gives them a boost of air so they can jump higher, dodge quicker, or just blow a gust of wind at the enemy. The crystal itself is used by technology to give it more flight, used in planes, cars, and even shoes! Yes, shoes can also have the crystal, it helps the bird yokai give them a boost to use their wings to fly. The word Senyár is a word based off of the Spanish word, “Soñar” that translates to “To Dream”; it was named this way because the way how the pressure of the air isn’t as powerful or dense, it’s like if you’re walking on clouds, it feels like a dream.
Water Magic
Water magic is defined as, “The manipulation/manifestation of water and health”
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LA CANTÉM: The crystal is based off of pebbles found in rivers, ponds, and on rock beaches; there’s also influence by the topaz gemstone with it’s beautiful orange color. La Cantém is a healing crystal, where you’re able to use it on yourself to cool down injuries where it helps heal the wounds. It works both as a numbing solution and healing solution based on the water magic user. With these crystals, you always have to hydrate them in fresh water so the water can absorb into the crystal and used as energy; if it’s dehydrated, then the crystal’s will be weaker. The word Cantém is based off of the Spanish word, “Cantar” where it translates to, “To Sing”. It’s because singing can calm people down, and the crystal helps calm down the injured and lets the healing process go smoothly, it’s based off of my bestie where their singing really was like fresh water to my ears, a great inspiration for this crystal.
Earth Magic
Earth magic is defined as, “The manipulation/manifestation of nature”
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EL TERÉM: The crystal is based off of an amethyst visually, and yes, inside there’s a different color! El Terém is the crystal that most fighters use in order to manipulate rocks/boulders, build stronger architecture, or create rock shields when you throw them on the floor. It’s mostly rock based but still hella good to use in battle as a defense mechanism, the rock that’s formed is sturdy too, not weak for it to break easily. Shredder would have no problems breaking it but that guy’s insane. The word Terém is inspired by the word "tear" or "contain", any interpretation rocks! (no pun intended)
Yin Magic
Yin magic is defined as, “The manipulation/manifestation of darkness”
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MIE SIÑE: The crystal is based off of titanium black tourmaline and onyx. Mie Siñe is the crystal that contains shadows inside, depending on what the spell is, it either can produce shadows or fog. The usage for the crystal is much more unknown since Yin magic is banned from being used in Witchtown, but the crystal itself has been documented to be used to isolate the enemy when being used. It's also been used to cover the enemies eyes with darkness in order to distract them/become vulnerable sight wise. The word Siñe is a word based on the actual word "Sign" and "Sin", which holds a lot of significance into the story so I won't spoil.
Yang Magic
Yang magic is defined as, “The manipulation/manifestation of light”
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MIE PIRE: This dear crystal is based off of the Italian onyx, magnesite, and calcite. Mie Pire is the crystal that contains light inside, any kind of light, it's not just sunlight. It's a bit more tricky and dangerous to use since you can blind yourself with it more easily, so it's also not as used. However, Yang magic is also banned like Yin, but there has still been technological uses for Mie Pire like using it as an alternative for electricity (which saves the bills!) and also used as lamps for more conservative places like Witchtown. The crystal has proved itself useful as a light source, but it can still be used as a defense mechanism by blinding the enemies eyes for a good second of even minute. The word Pire is based off of the word "Pure" which means that this crystal is very raw hence why it's dangerous. Another word it's inspired by is the Latin word "Pyra" which means "Bonfire". Both interpretations are used for this one!
The word Mie is based off of the actual Italian word "Mie" which means "My". It doesn't truly mean mine, because it's also inspired by the Spanish "Mira" that translates to "Look". It can be interpreted any way you want!
Thank you for coming to this lovely update! I've been working really hard to get the comic rolling and to also balance out my personal life with it, but I'm proud of how far I've come in the span of a year! Lots of progress has been made and it's getting much more exciting to create for the JMC. Have a wonderful day/night and see ya'll soon.
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did-i-mention-the-shirt · 10 months ago
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okay okay yes i KNOW i should be writing my fanfic BUT
Community characters as AJJ songs bc it's my favorite show and favorite band :] (If you want anyone added, feel free to ask!) Jeff Winger - Brave As A Noun. Okay, hear me out. This song not only applies to him lyrically but also shares the energy he has in the later seasons. He's just forcing himself to be satisfied with a life he doesn't really want, but also doesn't hate, is very season six finale. That is very much BAAN.
Britta Perry - Dissonance. It really has her energy. From the pilot to the finale, it fits her consistently despite her major character change. She is not put together. She hates herself because everyone's told her to. Britta is the best, but no one sees that. Not even herself. The only people who treated her with respect were the people she spent the least amount of time with! Think about it, she's had - what? - One touching scene with Duncan and Pierce each? She deserves more.
Abed Nadir - Goodbye, Oh Goodbye. Just listen to the song and you'll agree. This is mostly because of Troy's departure or in Abed's Uncontrollable Christmas. Whenever he has to confront his emotions, he has this distance between himself and everyone else. The opening lines, "I was thrown onto the ground/I was locked inside a basement/The guards went on vacation while I plotted my revolt." really, really, REALLY reminds me of 'Virtual Systems Analysis' when Annie's talking to Abed in the mind locker. It's a sad song, but it really fits him. The line "It's nothing like the nothingness that normally numbs one pain" is very clearly related to Troy. He got so used to Troy, and he never took him for granted, but Troy became a constant. He was Abed's anchor, and now he's gone.
Annie Edison - No one. This is Annie, particularly as the Ace of Hearts in 'A Fistful Of Paintballs'.
Troy Barns - A Big Day for Grimley. It's giving post-sea voyage Troy. He's changed, he's traumatized, and he's a little bit alone. He's proud of himself but is full of regret. What happened to Abed? He doesn't know.
Pierce Hawthorne - People Ii: The Reckoning. THIS IS PIERCE!!! Now, many of you know I love Pierce, so if you don't then you might not agree with this choice lmao
Pierce is sad. He is so sad. In Britta's words, he has spent so long looking out for himself, but he would give it all up for a shot at a family. He never gets that family. The study group never fully accepts him, despite his efforts and his becoming a better person with their help. Even Annie, the nicest to him in the group, seems to see him as a project or something. Like, he's just some old racist, homophobic old man, and not someone with 60+ years of trauma that he gradually works through with the help of his friends. He gains a brother. He defends the LGBTQ+ community. He wants nothing more than to be close to Jeff. And he dies alone.
So, yeah. "Here's to you Mrs. Robinson, people love you more, oh nevermind."
Dean Craig Pelton - Human kittens. No, I don't know why. Someone needs to give him a hug (Jeff).
Ben Chang - Dipping Things In Stuff. I don't know, he's batshit. He wants love though, just like the rest of us. This is very seasons 5/6 of Chang, I believe.
Buzz Hickey - Hate, rain on me. Tired, nihilistic, and praying for hope. I really like this song for him.
Elroy Patashnick - Normalization Blues. Don't ask me why. It works.
Ian Duncan - Fucc The Devil. Sad, distant, desperate, and hallow. But enough about Duncan. This song is the perfect example of, "I have what I want. Why am I still not okay?" which is what Duncan faces a lot. "I wanna go away for a while/Away for awhile/Because the things that I have seen/Are turning me into a shitty human being." Look me in the eyes and tell me that's not Ian. This man deserves so much more then people will let him have. Don't get me wrong, he's awful. But aren't we all, just a little bit?
Frankie and Shirley are too sane for this band im sorry to them
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prima-materia-ttrpg · 8 months ago
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It Begins / How do I introduce over six months of development in a single post?
Salutations, I'm a gay nerd and I wanted to make a fantasy ttrpg with a setting that panders to myself and anyone else who might have my taste so here we are :)
The ttrpg in question is Prima Materia, and I've been working on it for a while and making ok progress so I figure I should probably start a devblog (that's what this is) so I can finally start sharing it rather than keeping the entire project within my own circle of friends, never seeing the light of day beyond that. Particularly because I'm finally playtesting some aspects and want to actually release it into the wild someday so people can share and play it as they please.
Ah, so you've clicked the keep reading link? OHOHO you fool I shall unleash an infodump of epic proportions onto ye!
*checks notes*
Right I should probably introduce this project in more depth and explain how I got to this point, and why I'm working on it in the first place. A chronological account should suffice.
Back in the days of yore (2020) when I was getting into ttrpgs for what would become the third time I had first gotten into them (previous times don't count), I was trying to create a setting for DND so I could become a DM for the first time, fueled by the disappointment that every other game I'd been a player in ended after about 2 sessions max. Making an entire setting is of course not recommended for first time DMs, particularly ones that ever want to play the game, but of course this did not dissuade me for I am built different [incorrectly].
I built a tidally locked planet for that campaign, filled it with lore and towns and cities and an apocalypse that happened some time in the past. All was well, and the campaign lasted about a year before the holiday season came and caused it to dissipate. Reduced to atoms. By that point I had been homebrewing creatures and items for my homebrewed setting, including new playable species and subclasses. Homebrew is like a glue trap, and brother, I'm a dead rat.
After that campaign ended the OGL scandal hit (among many other things I won't go into depth about) and I saw the need to create for myself a place where I can always and forever write fun stuff to share with others, in a system that I have control over. After all, integrating the system and the setting, building them explicitly to serve each other, would allow for much more creativity.
That setting still exists on my hard drive, and while I do import some of my original work for it into Prima Materia's setting from time to time, it is dead and shall remain dead until such a time I can completely re-write it to make sense in Prima Materia. But it's so ingrained with DNDs lore that it honestly would be more like an homage to the original campaign I had with my friends.
So, I got to work. I started, of course, with watching a million videos on the subject of making a ttrpg and not actually writing anything down. But eventually, an eternity later, I was ready. I started doing some science-adjacent worldbuilding to build the initial planet for the setting, in which the initial setting would be. I created continents that looked mildly plausible, charted out ocean gyres, wind patterns, and finally climates. This continued for a while, and I made the playable species and started figuring out where on the continents they would have evolved so I could figure out what their cultures would eventually be in the modern day after 10,000 years of history.
In short, I had worldbuilder's disease; and while I did make some decent progress on mechanics like dice rolling, some combat, skills, attributes and stats, it started coming to a head when I convinced myself that I needed to make a minimum of five conlangs in order to name seven continents (and various cities).
Enter stage left, one of my friends who thinks my project is cool but recognizes that I am not getting much done. This friend, Spinz (who I hear has their own project coming down the pipeline by the way >w>), has become my Screamer of Tasks and is reminding me of the important things to focus on to actually make the ttrpg a reality some time in this millennium. Thanks to their help, I've been able to get to the stage where I am able to inflict my project onto my friends so that I may playtest mechanics and generally have an otherwise fun time with them.
So what actually is the setting? That seems like a lot of buildup and waffling.
True! I felt it was important to explain where the project is coming from. As for the setting itself, I don't think I can do better than the introduction I already wrote for it in the PDF. So here's that.
After several hundreds of trillions of years the last known natural stars in the universe began to die, heralding the end of the stelleriferous period and the start of a new age full of the neutron cores and black holes they left behind. But the gods this universe spawned would not let their mother die so soon. They created new stars fueled by their own Prima Materia, the building block from which all other substance comes; a pure marriage between matter, energy, time, and thought through which the manipulation and creation of physics itself is possible.
The gods created massive bodies for themselves in orbit around their stars. Some fell into a deep sleep, some are content to watch as the eons of time give way to the fruits of their labor. Others still engage in grandiose projects of a more personal nature. But they all continue the work which allows for life to once again evolve in the small pockets of the universe which now continue to defy entropy, a constant stream of Prima Materia flowing from their bodies into the stars that they orbit. Some day, they too will reach the stars.
But that's old news, and there are none left alive to remember it but the gods themselves. In the world of Prima Materia, you play as a relatively normal sapient creature in a smaller corner of reality that has much smaller problems to contend with. Brigands, societal clashes, ancient ruins, dragons, and the wayward extra-universal threat to the planet. Many societies have also been able to harness certain powers of now free-floating Prima Materia through a process often known as "Alchemy." Alchemy, an involved study which requires just as much craftsmanship as it does ingenuity, has opened up an entirely new science for societies to develop in this age of the universe.
Who will you be? What legends will be written in your name?
There are several playable species in the setting, all of which have various distinct cultures. Koura, which are basically giant lobsters; Sepia, which are basically giant Cuttlefish; Humans, which are basically giant chimpanzees; Entari, which are strange bird pterodactyl things with feathers (they're hard to explain but I will get art I promise); Xente, which are basically giant amoeba (ones that can change their shape to be humanoid of course, what even would be the point if they couldn't); Possum, which are basically... bipedal possums and Ternaki which are basically short technicolor space elves (They believe in God). All of these species will get their very own blog post of course, but this post is hugely long and I'm getting worried about people getting bored so that's all for now.
In the future blog posts won't be this long I promise (hopefully) and they'll be a lot more focused on one thing. This blog is meant to record the development process, write down a lot of worldbuilding that has lived only in my head for too long, and link to playtests.
If you made it this far, holy crap you read a lot of my shenanigans thank you for your time I am indebted to you, truly. The next post will be about Dice Mechanics. Bye.
P.S. If you want to ask questions about Prima Materia (or me) you can send me an ask on my main blog @girlcodedcreature
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15depressedducks · 3 months ago
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Flowers Can Grow in Concrete C7
N almost fainted when J left. He had never, never, confronted J like that. Well she didn’t kill me, or uzi. She's safe. 
“Hey buddy! You ready to go to sleep?”
“No! I just woke up! I wanna play!”
“Fine, we can play for a bit,” N said with a sigh. If he knew any better he would have taken that nap beforehand. The kid was bouncing all over the place.
“Well what do you want to play?”
“Go fish!”
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“I win!” Uz proclaimed. They had gone through 12 different games, all which they played about 2-3 rounds of. N was exhausted. It had only been what? 3 and a half hours? 4? It didn't matter.
“Hey, can we sleep now?”
“Why? It’s the middle of the day! It’s a good time to play!”
“Yeah, I sleep when it’s day.”
“Why?”
“The sun burns me, like I’ll die.”
“Oh, I’m sorry. You can take a nap, I’ll be right by you!”
“Really?” N was surprised by her reaction and he wanted to decline, but a nap, that sounded so good right now, and if he stayed awake for too long his systems would just shut down until he was fully charged.
“Yeah! My ma would do that all the time! And I would draw her picture for her when she wakes up!” The kid was ecstatic! It seemed like nothing could slow her down!
“All right, But wake me up If you need me or V and J wake up.” N said as his systems were put into a light sleep.
“Mo-hey!” Uzi said but N couldn’t decipher. 
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N awoke but himself. Why am I on the floor? N got up, stretched, and laid his eyes on Uzi. A worker? What are they doing here? Then the events hit N like a truck. He almost stumbled. Oh right! Uzi! Wonder what she’s doing? Looks like she has something.
As N got closer he saw she had a roboroach. 
“Ehehehe! You're tickling me!”
“Whatcha got there?”
How Uzi reacted told him something, She knew she wasn’t supposed to have that. I didn’t tell her she couldn’t play with it, But her mom miGHT HAVE!
Uzi as soon as she heard N shoved the roboroach in her mouth and looked at him with fear and worry. Her visor displayed sweat and hollowed eyelights with some stress lines.
N’s visor was in a similar manner. Then he heard a very soft ‘Crunch’. 
“NOOO! DON’T EAT IT!” N reacted with worry. He sprung into action, opening Uzi’s mouth and grabbing the bug, which was slightly crushed.
N shoved the roach into his pocket and pulled out the phone Nori gave him. Then he searched the doc she had given him.
“Roboroach, Ah here! Don't let Uzi play with them because she wiLL EAT THEM?! UZI!?” N looked at her with concern. Uzi looked back with guilt ridden eyes and a mischievous grin.
“Uzi I’ll let you play with the roaches, but no eating them ok?”
“Oki can do!”
“Glad you can” N checked his internal time I sleepted about 2 hours, I should ask if the kid need some food or something. What do they even eat? N typed that next into the search bar. F-oo-d, and search! Oki, Oki, ah here we go! Batteries, and nothing else, great. I’ll just ask here what she can have.
“Hey zi? You feelin hungry?”
“Nah! But I feel a bit sleepy…” N they picked her up one arm under her legs and the other supporting her back. 
“You ready to fly for a bit?”
“Yes.” Uzi looked determined to fly. An outsider would say she looked indifferent, but N knew that she really wanted to. So N deployed his wings and flew up to his nest.
N landed in his nest and set Uzi into the pile of pillows he had, then grabbed a blanket to toss over Uzi. Then he laid his head onto the pillows and they drifted off to sleep together.
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The next 2 days consisted of the same things. Wake up, play with Uzi, give her some food, Take a nap together, play with Uzi, rest while she plays beside him, give her some food, and finally rest for the night. But as the hours marched on, his power lowered, his sleep didn’t restore all the power he needed. With less power he was grouchy, slow moving. Some of his programs were off, like his night vision and print trackers. His hand attachments were also affected too, like his rocket launcher and chain saws.
He was laying on the ground, sleeping lightly, and Uzi was playing beside him. He felt like he was dying, melting from the inside out. He hadn’t had any oil since he did the tasks J asked him to do. He didn’t even know if the others were here or not. It didn't matter, they wouldn’t help him. 
I-1-I   C4-a-ant-t   1L-L-3-Tt   u-z-z-z-z-1-i   S-e-3-3-3-3e   m3   .   .   . 1l-i1-K3   Th-1-1-1-1-i-S.   P-1-4a-n.
‘Thunk’ N Jumped at the sudden noise, ‘X’ on his visor, snarling and claws ready.
“N? Are you ok?”
It was V. I just acted aggressive to V. As the ‘X’ went away, worried eyes replaced it. 
“I-I U-uM So-0-Orr-y-y…” His tail lowered and swayed side to side. He looked down and tried to make himself smaller.
“Ok. N. How much power do you have? How much oil do you have? Tell me.” Her voice was calm and neutral.
“Y-Y0-ou d-0n’t-t N-33e-d t0-o w-o0-O-ry a-b-0ot m-33.”
“Your voice is glitching out. Tell. me. NOW.”Now V’s voice was cold and sharper than any blade. N winced and started to fidget with his hands. Digital sweat dripped down his visor but was glitching out from his lack of charge and oil.
“31% a-4-An-d-ddd 17% F-0-oo-r  o1-1il-1?”
V just looked at N, Sighed, and pointed to the pile of drones. “Go. Eat. and get some charge. I’ll take care of … What-it’s-name for you.”
“N-o-O Uz-1-1i  1-i1s my Re-33-sp-9-0-o-n-s1ib-i–11-1l-1-i-1t-y!” N muttered in a glitchy and garbled way, one almost unrecognizable.
“And you don’t want to be the reason she dies, yes?”
N looked down and muttered “o-0k” but smiled at V and went over to the pile of drones.
Translate for N lol
1- I can't let Uzi see me like this. Pain 2- I-I um sorry 3- You don't need to worry about me 4- 31% and 17% for oil 5- No Uzi is my responsibility
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gemchomper2 · 21 days ago
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does anyone have any hcs pertaining to friendship dynamics/found family relationships? as of late, the biggest thing that i've had marinate within my brain has to be harvey viewing abigail as a younger relative, or at least viewing himself to have a mentor-like role? or, at least an interesting duo idea they could be together.
not in a way towards where the older is patronizing the other, but in a sense of him self-projecting onto her? we already know that abby's mom is very cautious regarding what she does, as it's evident that caroline was more free-spirited in her youth. i read this as if she wants to protect abigail in a sense, either if it's from disappointment and then the "eventual want" of settling down later, or another set of youthful expectations.
this could just be the worms in my cranium blurring my headcanons with the actual stardew canon, but i've always read into harvey's choice for medicine to be self-sacrificing, in a sense. after realizing that he could not be admitted into being a pilot—OR, just severely talking himself down, saying that he will not make it in the end—due to his acrophobia and poor eyesight, i think that there could have been a possible struggle with his interests and future goals: should he be self-indulgent on his aviation aspirations, or contribute to something he has the knowledge and capacity for, that could "benefit more people" (becoming a doctor)?
i say "contribute to something he has the knowledge and capacity for" by reading into his eventual career idea switch to the medical field as him believing that his interests could have been suited elsewhere, in a sense. this is a HUGE headcanon here, but i sincerely would like to believe that there could have been times where he'd get upset/frustrated due to how his interests steer him into knowing all of the ins-and-outs of radio systems—something he may view as a hobby than anything "worthwhile"—whilst that same love for technology could be used in a whole different field, in harvey's own vision. there's this tug that he would have with himself, and especially in his youth i figure, in deciding if he should follow his dreams, or to "accept that not all of them work out in the end"—or, whatever he says during one of his heart events wistfully.
abigail, however, is very adamant and WILL do things, even though she knows that she may be afraid of whatever may come her way: example, how she is afraid of bats, yet has tried again and again to go down deep into the mines. she does not allow what her phobias have a say in her actions, and that goes with any rules, as well. i do believe that, yes, she is an ADULT, and that i am not trying to characterize her as some rebellious high-schooler that just wanted to go out from her 8:30pm curfew. i'm simply just stating how her actions, yet foolish to some, might've made her an accidental victim to self-projection from others—notably her momma, and harvey, in this instance.
i prefer to akin it to the miscommunication that an adult may experience when trying to inform a minor about being precautious about who they talk to. we can take the internet as an environmental example, here. if the minor sincerely believes that they are very safe within any sphere of the world wide web, and are wanting to branch out to more socials, post about their likes and art, etc.—the adult, who may have had a horrible experience in their youth, or something of that vein, may tell the child to not do that. there is an obvious spout of frustration that can wash in; the child may feel frustrated by that boundary, and the adult may feel even more frustrated, since they simply would want to protect the kid, and to not go through what they had to witness.
i relate it to that, in essence, also, because i believe the amount of miscommunication and "i told you so"s she's been berated with have probably desensitized her. it's to the point where she would not want to talk to her parents, due to how they may shut her in, with all of those worries, and also how they are unsupportive of her hobbies and actions; further incentivizing her to do them more.
i think harvey would maybe overhear pierre and caroline talking about abigail; maybe even listening their own private worries to him, and even trying to consult her to therapy. however, i like to imagine that when she goes to his clinic, the doctor immediately knows why she's in there. i believe scoldings would be normal, but as she'd visit the clinic less and less—finding her wrapped up in either a bought gauze, or longer clothing than normal—he'd be vocal about his concerns. not only for her health, but for genuinely believing that her dreams of adventure would just ultimately leave her disappointed and dull; leading to feeling still like she's missing something in life, like how the man feels.
HOWEVER. i would like to clear it up that i am not portraying harvey as 100% loathing every thought and fibre of his job. he's had to endure a near decade of medschool, alongside with however years he has worked as a licensed doctor, so i can understand his anxieties about it all. i do genuinely believe he has great intentions, regarding how he aims to try to be more effective in forms of holistic care, and wanting to make his clinic accommodate to anyone (examples: the yoba signs around one of the beds).
i do believe that, with there being that difference of abigail loving her dream despite fears, and harvey couldn't do his dreams due to fears, there can be that type of character foil that's be very fascinating to watch grow.
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spaceumbredoggos · 10 months ago
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Why do I headcanon that Ford would be against a lot of ABA practices and compliance based practices when it comes to autistic individuals and he’d be a huge neurodiverse advocate? Is it because I keep wishing he was the father I should have gotten instead of the ableist piece of shit that put me in compliance based ABA with strong usage of aversives such as heavily restricting electronic use for special interest as a bargaining chip and taking everything out of my room including myself when I would have an autistic shut down? Currently writing an AU of my self insert fic where Ford met them in 2015, two years after canon, and started mentoring them then before they had to endure abuse from both the system they were put in and Bill (I also hc that Bill made self insert’s meltdowns and issues worse from him abusing them in their nightmares.)
Do I need therapy? Yes. Am I afraid of therapy because of ABA that enabled my father’s abuse? Absolutely. Am I projecting all this bullshit on my self insert as a way to cope when I don’t get weekly visits with a therapist, which is something I need, and group therapy? Yeah. Is there any other solution besides venting to strangers on the internet and breaking the promise to myself that I wouldn’t vouch a single piece of clout to my father’s own ill doings? Please tell me because I don’t want others to go through what I’ve been through. I want to heal, but the American Neurodiversity system, like all things American, is really shitty. I wanna get my work visa and move to Canada, but at the same time, I wanna be a huge neurodiverse advocate. Why does it have to be so polarized and political to show basic human decency? The world is not black and white. I know that.
Why do I keep presenting myself onto these fictional characters as a way to escape? They’re not real and it’s not therapy. And I don’t wanna keep clouded on what should have happened because it’s unhealthy. But how the fuck else am I supposed to process?
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