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lesbianseaweed · 1 year ago

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sometimes I wonder if my ADHD meds actually work or if they just take away the sleepiness bc they're stimulants (I think that's the word in english)

and I can't tell the effects apart bc I'm constantly sleepy

#adhd #adhd meds #i just want someone whos taken adhd meds to tell me if this is how it's supposed to go or not #bc when i dont take them i just feel sleepy which leads to brainfog #it's probably not helping my case that im typing this at 1am when i have to wake up at 6 but still #adhd problems #adhd advice #shared experiences #idk what else to tag #i need help #when i first started taking the meds #2 yrs ago #i remember there would be a moment #where id feel them stop having effect on me #bc I'd just be hit with a giant wave of exhaustion but i couldnt go to sleep yet bc it was too early

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jessiedressesup · 10 days ago

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aftg au where andrew and aaron are supernatural creatures of some kind. werewolves, vampires, whatever. completely separate from neil and the moriyama's whole deal.

#aftg #andrew minyard #aaron minyard #i just think it would be funny if the mafia had no idea about the supernatural #and andrew agreed to protect kevin like well i'm a werewolf wtf is some mafia brat gonna do #in my head this means andrew's meds don't actually affect him and he's just acting #also that their abilities or whatever showed up around puberty #on the fence if this means that aaron never actually got addicted to drugs or if he started pulling some science experiment shit to see #how much and what he had to take for it to affect him #nicky knows too but he didn't when he took in the twins #also for the first week or so andrew and aaron were heavily side eyeing each other #trying to figure out if it affected both of them or not

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deoidesign · 6 months ago

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#ok finally making a post about meds #I've not ever tried taking medication before. I was sorta raised with that classic 'dont rely on meds you have to learn to manage without'#I mean I was also raised with the idea that therapy is stupid unless you have 'real' trauma. and also like idk.#can't stay home from school unless your temp is over 100 or you're throwing up. etc. very suck it up mindset #so I was just really nervous to start. also of course worried about losing myself or whatever I know that's a silly fear but #it's also a common fear for a reason!!! anyways #so I finally was like 'I need to do something' when I realized I was so anxious I couldnt even get myself to go outside alone #like I just don't want to do ANYTHING alone to a detrimental effect. and it was butting into my ability to do my work...#for various reasons. but then ALSO adhd has been a constant issue with my work as well!#it is SO hard to write and draw on a weekly pace like I am without being able to focus #my whole life I've had these terrible nightmares constantly and I've always woken up constantly in the night #sleep has always been terrible so I've always dreaded going to bed.. ESPECIALLy because it didnt even make me less tired #it was more something that I just did because I had to.#but going to bed was always terrible. there have been times I was too scared to go to sleep for weeks on end...#I've been mitigating this for years of course. and recently I've been taking melatonin which has been helping too.#but I've also always struggled to get up. because I've always been EXTREMELY exhausted #but also anxious of what the day might bring... idk.#anyways it has all hit a point that I was like okay. I am doing as many coping mechanisms as I can. the psych said they were good too #but... it just has never been enough. it's never been enough to make me not tired it's never been enough to make me not scared #so I finally talked to the doc about it. and she was like youve def got smth wrong basically. which yah I know.. but yknow #anyways so I started taking wellbutrin. and I am so frustrated now. because it's WORKING #that constant looming sense of dread is gone. I'm excited to get up. I'm excited to go to bed BECAUSE I'm excited to get up #I feel like for years I've been holding on to the idea that I have to get up because I have to put something good out into the world #and I've been clinging to knowing that if nothing else. I am able to help other people feel better.#but now for the first time in my life I'm like. free of it. I didnt even know it was possible... and I'm so sad how much I've lost out on #and so frustrated how my whole life I've been told to put up with it and push through it. and treated like a failure for it being too much.#and just. It has only been 2 weeks. but the lack of anxiety is SO noticeable I'm so...#I'll never miss it. the adhd is still pretty present but like whatever. I can manage that better.#and I'm just crying because of all this combined.#I just. I hope I get to finally be the best I can be now. for myself but also for you guys!

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millionsknives · 1 year ago

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new thread because the old one was getting too long and i hit the halfway point in the finale and also i was so caught up in the euphoria of levi killing zeke that i forgot to post this monke blasting off into the sunset gif that i've been saving for this very occasion

#snk spoilers #i am actually sweating so hard rn i might need to take a break to get some juice and meds (<- still down with the sickness oo wa aa aa ah)#man that first thread started out so strong with actual thought and analysis in the first 3 posts but by the end it's pure shitposting #also sorry for swearing so much in this liveblog i'm not normally like this it's just something that happens when i watch attack on titan

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angsttronaut · 3 months ago

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one of the weird things about life expectancies in warrior cats stretching out as the series goes on is that lionblaze is 8 years old with adult grandchildren and showing no signs of age or even retiring, while yellowfang was depicted as old af when she died at the age of 8.

#warrior cats #yellowfang #lionblaze #in fairness i imagine being invincible for years when he was younger and unable to obtain serious injuries or illness #probably gave him a lifespan boost. but everyone else around him is living forever; thornclaw is fine even though his siblings retired #and they're all old enough to attend secondary school. cats like squirrelflight and whitewing don't seem to have stiffer limbs or grey fur.#i don't think they should have the same lifespan as a typical unmanaged feral colony (only 2 years!) but i think first arc cats #should really have all died of old age a while ago. second arc cats should be retired and starting to pass from old age. and cats from the #third and fourth arcs beginning to feel their age and the older ones retiring.#so a lifespan of about 8-10 years i think? with the odd outlier like mistystar. leaders should probably live another year or two anyhow #because of their extra lives. although normal age related complications would likely start to eat into them once they live for long enough.#(i mean. squirrelstar just go her nine lives. she's probably going to live longer than a cat like tallstar who got them at a younger age #even if she lands up with kidney failure or cancer they haven't been whittled away when she was young via other stuff. i think her living #long enough to take the junior cert is reasonable)#also i think medicine cats would live a bit longer because they don't have to hunt and fight all the time. although older med cats would be #more vulnerable to being killed by a disease outbreak. i think their apprentice would have to take on tasks like herb gathering and treatin #contagious illnesses.

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georgia-stanway · 2 months ago

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Watching kane play when he's obviously injured/in pain or whatever reminds me of when I force myself to do something even though I'm objectively not well enough. It never ends well.

#like when i first got sick and had to keep trying to go to school and ended up sitting in the office sobbing #or when i tried to lead a seminar but i had stopped taking my meds and started questioning whether i was real and could barely speak #or when i force myself to go to class but i have to leave halfway through because i trying to think is like trying to pull it through a #brick wall i can feel the energy it can take to breathe and i can barely sit up #there's lots of other examples here #i get because as shown i definitely do it way too much but like stop it dude you can't run

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superhell · 2 years ago

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ok so it’s fully established that house has an incredibly hard time verbalizing his emotions (specifically the positive ones) due to a fear of rejection and a deep deep aversion to displaying vulnerability

which makes the incredibly few times he’s admitted to someone that he cares about them, well, incredible. to list every single time that i can remember off the top of my head here:

instance one: he tells stacy he loves her directly before he goes into a coma. the statement itself is undeniably romantic in nature.

instance two: he tells cuddy he loves her after they hook up and she gives him a whole long speech on how she doesn’t want him to change. this is the culmination of years of dancing around each other. the statement is undeniably romantic in nature.

instance three: he tells wilson their friendship means more to house than any patient

instance four: he tells wilson he likes him

instance five: i mean i can keep going. there’s wilsons transplant surgery there’s everything with amber theres just so much. anyway

all of which leads me to the conclusion that of the three people house has ever sincerely expressed affection for two of those are people he’s canonically in love with which means that the third one must also be someone he’s [gunshots]

#like i very much understand that telling someone you love them and telling someone you like them are two different sentences but in this #case the deviation is EXCEEDINGLY easy to explain the first two are people who have firstly already told him they love him #which greatly reduces risk of rejection and secondly in both those instances the people he's saying it to are already committed so #really what is he risking. whereas in wilson's case he displays his affections through spending time with the man when they're on good terms #and it is when he thinks he's losing wilson that he starts verbally presenting his heart on a platter. furthermore he cannot say that he #loves wilson because wilson has not firstly said the same to him. telling wilson he likes him is far lower risk than telling a man #currently insisting you're not friends that you love him. that's simply not a risk he's willing to take #anyway sorry for being crazy and writing a novel in the tags carry on #house #wilson #hilson #lisa cuddy #huddy #stacy warner #house md #hatecrimes md #also something about how wilson is the only one he verbalizes affection for throughout the show #oh fuck wait just remembered that one time he told wilson he loved him when wilson upped his pain meds in the hospital #which still mcfucking fits. anwyay

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semiotomatics · 2 months ago

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genuinely i think ive spent less than 10 of the past 72 hours awake

#which like. im glad i only spent less than 10 of the past 72 hours in pain #but also #holy fuck ive been sleeping a lot #idk what it is—if its the pain itself or the meds i take or what—but i am *very* good at sleeping when im in pain #this is why i normally sleep thru most of my cramps #i just wake up when my meds start wearing off #take some more #and then go back to sleep lol #anyway #my shoulder does feel *better* rn #but it seems to always feel better when i first wake up #and then it gets worse and worse the longer im awake for #so we'll see

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caseyscraftycorner · 4 months ago

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man, chronic fatigue is such a fucking scam. like, what do you MEAN other people don't randomly lose entire days to being so exhausted they can't keep their eyes open? what do you MEAN others don't have to constantly manage and budget their energy levels in order to shower??? you're telling me that how i feel every day when i wake up after 8-9 hours of sleep is how my friends feel when they come home from work after a long day??? are you kidding me???

#casey rambles #disability #chronic fatigue #okay to rb #also to be clear #i dont work #(because i cant)#and i literally take stimulant medication for adhd #and my bipolar meds also help #i used to be much worse than i am now wrt chronic fatigue #but the fact that im still THIS TIRED #ALL THE TIME #even with ALL THIS TREATMENT #when i first got medicated i was pissed #because i always used to get in trouble for answering 'how are you?' with 'im tired'#and adults would be like #'you cant be tired all the time'#and when i got meds suddenly i could think sometimes! the haze had mostly listed!#and now its like. oh. even with all of this improvement #i will still always be kindof tired. kindnof exhausted.#i will never be able to do as much as i want to do #as other people CAN do #because. well. i start with less energy #and i lose energy faster for the same tasks #it sucks

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stardustedknuckles · 6 months ago

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What do you mean it's not normal to dream during a 10 minute nap.

#i get sleep attacks in the mornings sometimes #I wake up rested but about two hours later I am rendered unable to function until I sleep for about 15 minutes #and I always dream #today I had enough and started looking into things besides blood sugar (false lead) and adhd (dxed but not relevant here)#falling into REM that quickly plus the sleep attacks themselves point to narcolepsy #or when it's not bad enough to be officially that it's called idiopathic hypersomnia #my adhd meds are given off label to treat narcolepsy #and fixing my sleep was the first thing taking them did #will I ever run out of chronic bullshit to go through lol #chronic-les #it's pretty manageable but that's because I work from home #idk what would happen in an office setting

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dragons-and-yellow-roses · 1 year ago

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Me, while manically cleaning my room at 3:27am: I should make several large, life-changing, irreversible decisions.

#so ive been in a bad mental state lately #because of many things. but the biggest being (yes i know ive complained about this in multiple other posts)#that my best friend and my ex gf were fucking. without even asking or telling me. i got no heads up. just figured it out on my own #which sucked and now im not speaking to either of them #and when i first found out i was in a bad place physically too #i had a terrible ear infection that was so fucking painful #and i realized i could concentrate on both things. so i focused on healing #and then i remembered ny family is coming to visit for Christmas #and thats a lot to deal with. so now im focusing on cleaning the apartment. specifically my bedroom #so im manically cleaning at 3:30am while angry and stressed and trying not to focus on this thing that makes me really upset #and in the middle of cleaning ill suddenly think 'should i quit my summer camp job?' or 'should i move states again?'#its not good. but i havent acted on anything #AND in the middle of cleaning i found all of my meds #i havent been taking them for months. but i decided im gonna start taking them again #i have a few refills left but then ill have to find a psychiatrist. i dont want to. but its definitely for the best #im trying to get my life back on track and build and better it #but then something hits me and completely derails everything and makes everything so hard #so anyway im gonna go do some more cleaning and try not to make life-altering decisions. and maybe build a desk #btw i have to get up at 9am to take out my puppy. and at 11:35 i have to get ready for work. again its 3:30am #and im full of manic energy #tomorrow is going to be very bad but at least I'll have a semi-clean room

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forgotten-daydreamer · 3 months ago

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vent moment but my health is a bit worse than i let on, which is weird ik since it seems like complain about it all the time here, and apparently i also look sick, because two separate people in their 40s or 50s asked me, 24, if i needed their seat on the bus. kind of them. but humiliating nonetheless.