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once again asking for y'all's muses to take byan ghost hunting entirely so they can be the WORST person to bring with you bc they Do Not believe in that shit and they Will be the Most Annoying about it

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send me "be honest..." with a question your muse has been dying to ask mine and they'll answer truthfully.

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hanging out w/ my mom to celebrate her birthday this evening, so i'm gonna be kinda sparse. trust that i'm lurking on the dash and watching y'all fondly tho ♡

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can i just like. lie here on the floor in the middle of the night and cry a little just bc i'm so grateful that i can log in here and yell and sob about this weird little sparkly freak child who lives in my brain and y'all actually?? read that shit??? and like it???? and encourage & enable me to continue doing so??????

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ㅤperhaps unsurprisingly, byan doesn't like the holidays — christmas in particular, as it's the most prominent and unavoidable one, and the one they have more experiences with. not growing up consistently celebrating the holiday past the age of four, they don't have any real positive attachment to it, and having it shoved so violently in their face each year, being surrounded by kids in school who are always so excited about it... it's always felt quite alienating. it's a very lonely time of year when everyone and everything around you is going on and on about family and you haven't got one.

although most years the only thing they've had to look forward to is the christmas dinner that the group homes they've been in have tried to provide, they have had a few experiences of what a more traditional celebration is like through foster homes they were living in during that time of year. the first one, when they were five, was... actually pretty okay. it was just them and their foster family, and they still remember having fun playing board games and watching movies, and how good the food at dinner was. they even got a couple of gifts from their foster parents. ...it was only the second christmas that they weren't celebrating with their first family, and they remember crying when those gifts were handed to them. another was when they were ten, with a foster family they hadn't been with for more than a few months. there was a lot of extended family in the house, none of whom they knew, and it was an incredibly overwhelming few days, during which they felt very much out of place. they didn't feel like they belonged and ended up spending most of their time hiding in the bedrooms to avoid the awkward conversations people would try to start with them so they didn't feel so left out. at one point, they remember sneaking out to go buy themself a hot chocolate with a bit of money they stole out of their foster brother's piggy bank to cheer themself up and to have a bit of quiet. no one noticed they were gone, and they weren't sure whether they were glad or disappointed.

at best, the holidays are an annoying time of year highlighted only by the two week break they get from school, and at worst, it's a reminder of all the things they've never had or the things that have been torn from them. even the positive memories they have have been soured by the way the kindness and the families didn't last, making it near impossible to look back on any of it fondly.

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2024 is almost over!

With the final month of the year here, it’s your chance to send the mun or muse something you’ve wanted to tell them! Whether you haven’t had the chance to or you’ve been too shy, now’s the time to say what you feel, and don’t hold back!

prompt originally made by: x

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byan is going full feral raccoon mode and tearing everyone's christmas decorations to shreds with their bare teeth btw

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it’s not you’re* or your*. it’s all Mine. everything is Mine

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what is your villain origin story?

The Betrayed Hero

Once a beacon of hope, you trusted someone you shouldn’t have. A trusted ally sold you out, leading to the downfall of your kingdom. You’ve since taken up a blade and vowed to reclaim the throne—even if you must burn it all down.

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ㅤoh, elinor's point did not go unnoticed. in fact, it had byan huffing and puffing indignantly before the word shortass was even uttered.

ㅤㅤ" 'm gonna take your hand home 'n use it as a chew toy if y'keep it up. you've got a whole inch on me, s'not like you're a fuckin' tree. "ㅤhuff, puff. for all of a moment, they considered folding their arms and refusing the lift altogether to make their own point. ...but they couldn't resist; it wasn't every day that someone was willing to very literally pick them up. grabbing at ellie's shoulders, they hesitated for a second.

ㅤㅤ" y'sure ya got the upper body strength for this? 'm not as light as i used t' be, y'know. put on a lotta muscle over the years, in case y'hadn't noticed. "

🔆 @byanyan was chatting shit.

"i invite you to try, bee." ellie rolled her shoulders, then planted his endangered hands just above his knees and sank low. perhaps lower than byan needed, just to make a point then extended a hand to provide support for however they deemed fit to clamber up.

"hop on, shortass."

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a boyfriend is just a guy you can sink your teeth into for recreational purposes

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what's your role in a tragic play?

misunderstood villain

prepare for an onslaught of both the most dehumanizing and hateful takes, and flood of thirst comments. you are chronically misunderstood. whether or not you're actually evil is debatable. you may be acting out for revenge, to defend someone you love, or even just to protect yourself. you're a pretty jaded person. you don't trust or even really like most people. maybe you did at one point. but that part of you is gone, and you don't go a single day without grieving it. you think a lot about what your life could have been. you're stuck in the past. you're angry and maybe you don't even want to be, but this is the only way you can see to survive. you're open, but less in a trusting way and more like a wound. you don't like to let people see you, but the hurt spills out of you before you can stop it. you're impulsive, even as you try hard to plan and prepare. maybe someday your side of the story will finally be heard. until then, you can convince yourself that being hated is safer anyway.

tagged by:ㅤ@smilingmxsk ♡♡♡

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I FOUND IT i found the clip that's been living rent free in my head. this is some byan shit ok every little bit of it from the kicking feet to the stretching across the bed on his stomach to the silly giggling uggghhhhhh

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oh no they're cute

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some si-u & byan thoughts bc it's about time i expand on their dynamic:

ㅤthey've known each other since byan was 10 and si-u was 8, meeting in the group home that they'd both always somehow find themselves back in between foster families.

ㅤbyan was unintentionally pretty ableist at first due to ignorance and not having any prior experience with someone who's blind, but they slowly got better as they learned more. and they were curious!! they wanted to know more about what si-u's experience must be like and to this day they think that all the accommodation tools he uses to maneuver his way through life are really cool.

ㅤsi-u's favourite thing about byan is that they've never treated him like something fragile, as a lot of other people who've been in and out of his life often have. they've always treated him the same way they treat any other kid who's younger than them which, admittedly, is a lot more kindly than they do most other people, but still— they've never dialed their behaviour back around him, roughhousing with him and teasing him like an older sibling would.

ㅤand on that note, the two are basically siblings at this point, though i'm not sure either would openly admit to it. they've basically grown up together, even if they have spent chunks of time apart while living in separate foster homes, and have always looked out for one another — byan has always protected si-u from other kids, has sought revenge on foster parents who would mistreat him, and has sat with him through meltdowns and shutdowns, trying to support him in whichever manner he might need; meanwhile si-u has stood up for and defended byan to parents and teachers on many occasions, has sat with them quietly or provided distraction for them in their darker moments, and in general has been one consistent source of gentle kindness in their otherwise tumultuous life.

ㅤmuch as he likes having their shared room more to himself when byan starts spending less time there to instead crash on lena's couch or in sol's bedroom most nights, he does find that he misses having them around quite a bit. infuriating as they can be as a roommate, there's never a dull moment when they're around and a lot of the times where he's had the most fun have been in that room with them.

ㅤthen, after byan moves in with sol, i like to think he goes over to visit a lot (and crashes on their couch sometimes just to get some distance from the group home and how loud it can be). and they both just!!! stay close!!! they are siblings!!!! byan even convinces si-u to let them give him a tattoo eventually, one that they spend a lot of time designing for him that incorporates all of his favourite plants and, while he can't see it, they present the design to him prior to tattooing it as a unique little craft where they raised all the lines and textured all the coloured areas so he could feel it out and it might actually be the kindest thing anyone has ever done for him?? like, he was floored that they went to so much effort just for him. ...he might've cried a little. they might've punched him in the shoulder for it. despite it not being something he ever planned to get, the tattoo ends up being very near and dear to his heart.

i'm losing all my trains of thought but!!! them!!! they're siblings!!!

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📩 ❛ i made a dick out of snow. it’s happy to see you. ❜ (i am so sorry, they're TERRIBLY immature akjhfksd) @byanyan 🔆 winter themed – accepting!

i will not grace that with a smile, nor a snort, i will not, i will not, i will n- ellie bit the inside of her cheeks, but every effort not react in any way that could encourage their behaviour failed. sure, he rolled his eyes, pursed his lips, but that just made the snort that forced its way from her nose all the louder. which broke the dam of ellie's self-control and laughter erupted from her throat, head thrown back laughter. 

"beeyaaaahh!" he covered his face with icy cold hands. "first dick that's been happy to see me for a while. so thank you for brightening my romantic slump." the self-depricating retort about her love life was muffled behind her hands before she brought them down, tucking them into his coat pockets. there was no telling whether the colour in her cheeks was the biting cold, or the small blush at being so crude. 

"i drew you a little bee..." she pointed at the flowers carved into the snow with an... attempt at a bee, a few feet from the gifted snow dick. 

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Balancing Personality Flaws

Conformist     ☆☆☆☆☆☆☆★     Rebel

Naive             ☆☆☆☆☆★☆☆     Cynical

Indecisive      ☆☆☆☆★☆☆☆     Inflexible

Selfish           ☆★☆☆☆☆☆☆     Self-sacrificing

Apathetic       ☆☆☆☆☆☆☆★     Emotional

Fearful           ☆☆☆☆☆☆☆★     Reckless

Childish         ☆★☆☆☆☆☆☆     Humorless

Dependent     ☆☆☆☆★☆☆☆     Loner

Passive         ☆☆☆☆☆☆☆★     Aggressive