#what you seek is seeking you

[zegalba]

[vecnasrevengerp]

Dear Readers,

As some of you know, I've worked at Enzo's for the past several years. (Just on weekends, and mostly because Enzo himself begged not to leave when my publication took off. I have a heart for the people!) As a waiter-extraordinaire, I keep my eyes and ears open for information and leads.

I never expected to be dished up the biggest story of the weekend, but lo and behold, some unfortunately familiar faces waltzed into our back room on Saturday eve. Readers, the wannabe private eyes (several of whom tried to kick me out of Joyce Byer's wake just last week), looked bad. Like they'd crawled up from hell!

Here are the facts:

A break-in was reported at Hawkins High School on Saturday night, just after sundown.

Early reports mention substantial damage to the gym floor, and even tampering with the 1986 time capsule.

ABC pest control was seen outside of the school in hazmat suits, loading up trashbags of what looked to be dead rodents.

Now, far be it from me to jump to conclusions, but.... with eccentric folks like Murray Bauman, known thieves like Max Mayfield, and certified loony tunes like Mike Wheeler and Jonathan Byers in their midst, one can assume that the unlikely crew and the break-in are connected.

Especially given the state of a few seemingly-innocent citizens. Sources say Suzie Bingham and Evan Beckett, both allegedly in town for the funeral, checked in to the after-hours clinic for routine checkups and rabies shots.

Still think it's a coincidence? Well, worry not, I saved the best for last. I overheard several comments throughout the duration of my service to this ill-fated group, including:

"That was crazy"

"Is everyone okay?"

"Anybody trying to f*ck up the ancestral plane?"

"That was f*cked."

I also heard whispers of a letter unearthed in the time capsule? It seemed to be weighing heavily on several of the diners, which only made me wonder-- what was it? The Zimmerman telegram? What international espionage are these teenyboppers involved in?

Though, I suppose you can't trust just anything from a table where drug paraphernalia was openly passed around. I'm pretty sure I saw a needle in this man's pocket! I mean, the horror! Enzo's is a family establishment! I even tried to call Hakwins P.D., but the line was busy. What is our town coming to?

Anywho, once again I've gotten off topic. The night took a rather... dramatic turn of events when it was revealed that we have a missing persons case right in our backyard.

Luke Wheeler was last seen at approximately 5:12 p.m. by Mike Wheeler (father of the year). He was scheduled to arrive at the Gillespie house at 6:30 p.m., and Sherri called the precinct when he was more than forty minutes late. Chief Powell canvassed the area and put out an alert at approximately 9:17 p.m.

If you see anything, do call in to the precinct. I will be sending out updates when they are available. Parents, it's best to keep a close eye on your young. Remember-- always assume the worst! Use the buddy system! (Nancy, should you need an armed escort, I am available.) STAY ALERT TO STAY ALIVE!

Signing off,

Editor-in-Keith

THE STATS

SUZIE BINGHAM lost -60 HP and has sustained substantial injuries from the swarm of bats. She is expected to suffer from night terrors, shivers, and poorly-placed rashes.

EVAN BECKETT lost -60 HP and has sustained substantial injuries from the swarm of bats. He is expected to suffer from full-body shivers, vivid flashbacks, and constipation.

MAX MAYFIELD lost -25 HP by the end of the night. She sustained cuts on her hands and face from the bats, and gashes on her knees from her fall in the parking lot. She will experience mild symptoms of psychosis as a result of the vision.

[fastlane-freedom]

Change Your Environment to Create Your Desired Future Self

Change Your Environment to Create Your Desired Future Self

If you are not leading toward your desired life, then this article will guide you to understand the reason behind it. Your environment constantly affects your future self, whether you are aware of it or not. “You’re the average of the five people you spend the most time with.”—Jim Rohn In a famous study, a group of researchers told 2nd and 3rd grade teachers they wanted to study the learning of…

[meanbossart]

Uh, date night?

[Full up on the patreon]

[giantkillerjack]

Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".

[plain-text version of this post can be found under the cut]

Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"

And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".

Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.

At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.

So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!

Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!

Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!

Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.

Plain-text version:

Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".

Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"

And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".

Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.

At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.

So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!

P.S. Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!

Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!

Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.

[inkskinned]

the thing is there's like, a point of oversaturation for everything, and it's why so many things get dropped after a few minutes. and we act like millennials or gen z kids "have short attention spans" but... that's not quite it. it's more like - we did like it. you just ruined it.

capitalism sees product A having moderate success, and then everything has to come out with their "own version" of product A (which is often exactly the same). and they dump extreme amounts of money and environmental waste into each horrible simulacrum they trot out each season.

now it's not just tiktokkers making videos; it's that instagram and even fucking tumblr both think you want live feeds and video-first programming. and it helps them, because videos are easier to sneak native ads into. the books coming out all have to have 78 buzzwords in them for SEO, or otherwise they don't get published. they are making a live-action remake of moana. i haven't googled it, but there's probably another marvel or starwars something coming out, no matter when you're reading this post.

and we are like "hi, this clone of project A completely misses the point of the original. it is soulless and colorless and miserable." and the company nods and says "yes totally. here is a different clone, but special." and we look at clone 2 and we say "nope, this one is still flat and bad, y'all" and they're like "no, totally, we hear you," and then they make another clone but this time it's, like, a joyless prequel. and by the time they've successfully rolled out "clone 89", the market is incredibly oversaturated, and the consumer is blamed because the company isn't turning a profit.

and like - take even something digital like the tumblr "live streaming" function i just mentioned. that has to take up server space and some amount of carbon footprint; just so this brokenass blue hellsite can roll out a feature that literally none of its userbase actually wants. the thing that's the kicker here: even something that doesn't have a physical production plant still impacts the environment.

and it all just feels like it's rolling out of control because like, you watch companies pour hundreds of thousands of dollars into a remake of a remake of something nobody wants anymore and you're like, not able to afford eggs anymore. and you tell the company that really what you want is a good story about survival and they say "okay so you mean a YA white protagonist has some kind of 'spicy' love triangle" and you're like - hey man i think you're misunderstanding the point of storytelling but they've already printed 76 versions of "city of blood and magic" and "queen of diamond rule" and spent literally millions of dollars on the movie "Candy Crush Killer: Coming to Eat You".

it's like being stuck in a room with a clown that keeps telling the same joke over and over but it's worse every time. and that would be fine but he keeps fucking charging you 6.99. and you keep being like "no, i know it made me laugh the first time, but that's because it was different and new" and the clown is just aggressively sitting there saying "well! plenty of people like my jokes! the reason you're bored of this is because maybe there's something wrong with you!"

[heph]

05x05

Remember the episode where Wilson pretended he was doing drugs and dating a sex worker after he realised that House was spying on him 😐

[chaos-in-one]

Friendly (or unfriendly if you're against this) reminder that this blog is supportive of ALL disorders. This blog does not think ANY disorder inherently makes someone a bad person, and is against any disorder being demonized. This blog wholeheartedly believes that a bad person having a disorder, yes, even if things that are also symptoms of their disorder are part of what caused harm, does not make the disorder a "bad" or "evil" disorder or excuse ableism and demonization directed towards the disorder.

Yes this includes personality disorders

Including npd and aspd

Yes this includes all psychotic disorders & disorders that cause psychotic symptoms

Yes this includes paraphilic disorders. All of them.

Yes this includes disorders that cause, or are even characterized by, attention seeking

Yes this includes disorders that directly have lying as a common symptom

Yes this includes dissociative disorders

Yes this includes any disorder with "gross" symptoms

Yes this includes physical disorders too

Yes this includes disorders that can cause loss of control of any kind- control of speech, control of body movement, etc.

Yes tis includes disorders that make someone "look scary"

This goes for literally any fucking disorder. There are not exceptions.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

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[satyrradio]

no offense but transandrophobes really need to shut the fuck up about how transmascs are cowards and bootlickers for being scared of prison and police violence bc T is a controlled substance

[worldformula]

you don’t know what you’re asking for.

[partlyironic]

hey guys. remember this.

[just-null]

Do you ever do requests? If so, do you ever plan on drawing some Yandere with the Hantengu clones? :D hope you have a good day/night!!!

Mentioning an unfamiliar name

yes!! I love yanderes.. and these guys.. these guys are such good material...... nods nods..

I'm not sure about requests..I assume you mean drawing requests? I suppose if it REALLY catches my interest enough, I'd do it, but it'd probably just be line art/sketches.

[ruhlare]

i don't like it when someone is easy to reach. when someone is open to everyone, when literally anyone can get their attention. it is a question of values ​​and principles not to be open to everyone and not to have the need for everyone's attention. people who are easily available won't value soulful connections.

[uncanny-tranny]

I love love love when trans women* give advice to trans men* about """manly""" things and when trans men* return that kindness with advice about """womanly""" things. I love the intracommunity commitment to supporting each other <<3

[chawliekin]

and if I said that dennis’ insistence on being the breadwinner/provider despite literally being a pampered princess who dgaf about traditional roles of masculinity in every other regard (aside from ego) is because his mom only stayed with/chose frank for his wealth and dennis is highly aware that he’s difficult to love and unable to show his emotions openly so he has to be contributing something to the relationship materially in order to feel like he’s worth staying for… and mac grew up with parents who were extremely ambivalent to him and eachother so he has to overcompensate by proving his worth at every given moment and seeking praise/validation from people (and religious icons) who will never demonstrate the same amount of dedication to him but he has no idea how else to desperately keep himself close to those he loves other than by eroding himself into something they’ll approve of… dear god they’re both exactly what the other needs — someone who can’t and won’t leave them even if they try — and they don’t even see it…