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kalach-cha · 2 years

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tries not to think about academics tries not to think about academics tries not to t

#vent incoming #wait no fuck it vent in tags #so i usually try to not think about academics during the summer because i give myself so much shit for it #like this year i could’ve gotten my gpa up to a 4.2 but i got it up to a 4.09 which. at least it’s over a 4.0 but just barely #and i bombed the sat (literally got a worse score than my dad- who graduated with a 2.2 gpa btw)#and while my dad just never did well in school my mom started law school at 16 and never lets me forget it #she was a dual major in journalism and law and graduated by the time she was 20 which never fails to make me feel inadequate #meanwhile i’m still trying not to off myself on the daily and half the time my meds don’t work or cause me physical discomfort #like this year i put myself through hell by working and doing professional level music and being part of a theatre production #and keeping multiple friends from the verge of a mental breakdown on the daily and struggling to get published #and on top of that i was sexually abused and i’m still working past that. oh yeah and i no longer have a therapist :)#but all of that pales in comparison to what people who have achieved more in a year than i have in a lifetime have been through #so it feels simultaneously like i can’t talk about how shitty i feel because it’ll make other people worse #and like i should suffer more in the name of good grades. like how the fuck do i not feel good enough when one of the top 50 #unis in the WORLD is my safety?? like how the fuck does that work??#but yeah n e way i’m never going to impress myself or my family and i just gotta make my peace with that. Oh Well #michi.txt

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ace-geographer · 1 year

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Well Questies a lot has happened this week, and I finally have free time, so please enjoy these long overdue Willow text post memes

Part 18/?

Credit to cap-that.com for the images (it's only just occurring to me that I haven't included a credit tag whoops)

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saltedcoffeee · 1 year

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a father with a body about to burn his favourite child into pieces

#myart #no bc i am so fucking unwell about their relationship. like actually #he tried so hard to do the right thing to keep her safe and happy and he got it all wrong. down to the most minute detail #wait ill put proper tags n then vent #the owl house #toh #amity blight #alador blight #something about fathers not knowing how to be good bc they were raised in dirt and blood just. idk.#the fact she consistantly believed in him even after everything makes me so ill in the head #he was a good father...even for a short while...nobody talk to me #mrs terrace im on my hands n knees release the divorce eps PLEASE even just the basic plot PLEASE PLEASE PLEA

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desire-mona · 1 month

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can someone please come over and braid my hair and talk about fnaf like im 9 again thanks. can someone please come over and pretend like its all ok thanks.

#desire mona #not to vent in tags but i need to be so real #i am probably one of the most lonely people ever actually #i have friends but i never see them #i spend all my time on here #ive taken to talking to people down my street which does help tbh like i do enjoy feeling like i have a community #i have a friend named tom down the road but hes like. in his 40s or 50s. but i do enjoy talking to him when we're out walking our dogs #i went out with him and his daughter to try and see the northern lights but it was too cloudy #i felt rly bad for knocking on his door at 10 pm to look at nothing but he was glad i reminded him #but once i go back home its just nothing #my life is just a series of waiting to take drugs again and its eating away at me but i cant fucking Do Anything #i just kinda feel like a pathetic loser for not doing anything productive ever and i KNOW i shouldn't let that demean my character in any wa #y #i know im a good and kind and funny person but my inability to bring myself to improve anything just makes me feel like im the worst #whatever #thoughtsing

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faggotslime · 14 days

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Happy Father's Day, fingers crossed that my dad doesn't text me some narcissistic sob story about me 'abandoning' him today, and hopefully my step monster doesn't text me guilt tripping me to feel bad about ghosting my abusive father

#vent #long story short: i has diagnosed with adhd very young and basically drugged into submissiveness until i was 18.#he beat me psychologically tortured me and even told me i should kill myself lol #and defended his fucking brother molesting me as a toddler #and step monster psychologically tortured me too #when i was kicked out in 10th grade she followed me around the house as i was packing whispering 'i won you fucking freak'#and when the two of them realized i wouldnt be homeless and moved in with my mon they straight up tried to kidnap me #'happy' fathers day i hope you fucking choke andrew.#and pam? i straight up hope you die.#i cant wait to piss on your grave #freak #tw trauma #tw assault #tw csa #trigger tagging for muts who read my tags

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marshmallow-biscuit-blog · 3 days

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My intrusive thoughts make me feel like a fucking psychopath. Imagine your pet barfing, and your immediate thought is "I'm going to fucking choke you to death." and you get ready to do it, but stop because you know you're an awful fucking person who deserves to rot and fucking die.

#intrusive thoughts #tw intrusive thoughts #tw animal harm #idk what the fuck to tag this as.#I'm genuinely losing my fucking mind and I can't breathe #my next appointment is the 19th I can't wait that long #I've already broken my contract by breaking off contact of friends particularly the one I wrote down as 'safety contact'#when I tell her I have to go to the mental hospital #vent #tw vent

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everydaygremlin · 1 month

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why is the OCD OCDing again. dam.

#damn thats some cool art OH WAIT FUCK ALL OF MY FRIENDS THINK THE ARTIST IS A HORRIBLE IRREDEEMABLE MONSTER me thinking their art is-#nice means I TOO AM A MONSTER AND ALL OF MY FRIENDS WILL HATE ME IF I SAY ANYTHING FUCKING HELL #like #yeah the psychiatrist was like “oh your fine the last ocd thing you had was during lockdown” dude thats just the stuff my mum could seE #ignore my vent in the tags lmao #im fine #this is an original post

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kayvsworld · 9 months

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i always forget i have Healthcare System Anxiety until i have to interact with The Healthcare System and immediately just start screaming internally for days

#my mom obliterated her bones and the pre-surgery surgery post-surgery experience. the ER situation. moving 2 the woods #this is a vent post i forget my complaining tag #waited 30 mins for an ambulance & when we called back they were like ''yeah it hasnt been assigned to anyone & might be hours''#so i drove her to the ER with a migraine & ran over some pylons (cool).#stuck in the ER for 9 hours. took 4 hours for anyone to give her any kind of pain management. i caught covid #was supposed to get a call when she was out of her 2 hrs max surgery. was told i could call if i hadn't heard anything #5 hours later i called and was transferred 6 times - told she had been discharged - told she had never been registered at that hospital -#yelled at by a nurse for asking for patient information - eventually got the right department and was told oh yeah sorry she's in recovery #was supposed to find out if she could come home or not in 30 mins. 3 hours later theyre like OK come get her #i show up and the doors to that wing are. locked? and no one's there to unlock them?#apparently i was supposed to pick up the wall phone? and call a code they hadn't given me? spent 30 mins getting help from other department #to GET THEM TO OPEN THE DOORS. FREE HER RELEASE HER #finally i get in and she's OK SHES FINE except morphine doesn't work on her so that's. fine. bodies are good to have #we have reached shrimp colours levels of anxiety i am a walking talking stress migraine but she's doing ok. but holy fuck #kayvswords #also like she's black and all of her nurses and doctors have been white so feeling normal about all of it all around

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bruciemilf · 1 year

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The way Romanian women enable sexism gives me the angriest laugh of my life I swear

#not dc #how is my mom gonna be like 'men weren't born to iron shirts and cook' my good bitch i will slap you so hard #lets get one thing straight every single fucking person should be self sufficient if they're bodily able and dont need physical assistence #how the fuck can you say ' when my husband does laundry im sickened. its a womanly behavior' ARE YOU OKAY?#this is the sickest most disturbing shit ever i cannot wait to go bo contact with these motherfuckers #vent tag

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mooseonabreak · 5 months

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It’s hard being a sleepy boy in this Be Productive 24/7 Or Eat Shit And Die world

#vent in the tags #I wish I had the energy to stay awake as long as everybody else #I wish I didn’t have to take naps either #I wish I could sleep 8 hours straight and not fucked up choppy 3-4 hour intervals #I wish I wasn’t so tired all the damn time #*someone interrupts my nap just as I’m finally falling asleep* ‘whatever you have all night to sleep’#no the fuck I don’t 😭#I do my homework well into the night and then it takes forever to fall asleep and then I wake up a couple hours later anyway #and wait until I’m sleepy again and pray I can get some more sleep before my alarm goes off #I got like 3 hours total the other night and was a zombie throughout the day #I’m not lazy I’m perpetually exhausted jfc no wonder I’m so moody all the damn time

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sk3l3t0n444 · 8 months

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yk the depression is hitting hard when you dont even have the energy to watching you favorite movies :(

#i really need to stop venting in the tags of my posts but ykw who cares #but yk when you grow up and the holidays dont feel special anymore?#like i fucking love halloween but lately i havent had the motivation to care about anything really #like if im being honest i just wanna sleep through today because nothing fucking makes me happy anymore #i just want to feel joy again #like time keeps going to fast for me #cant time just fucking slow down #i fucking blink and boom its been 4 years #just can time please fucking stop #remember when you were young about you couldnt wait ti grow up and now adulthood is practically right around the corner and you wanna scream #ANYWAYS

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chiyoso · 7 months

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ugghhhngnnghb im spiiiralllinnggg agaaainnn im so damn sorry for the inactivity everyone :(((

#— Whispers Against The Void ••#hnn vent/rambling under this tag #been drowning myself in games as well as trying to prepare myself studying and informing myself about psychology #i actually also have a few drabbles just waiting to be posted too #oh and someone help theres this guy...#hes built like satoru but he talks like toji like... hes so clingy and i rly rly like his attention and he feels the same BUT IM NOWHERE NEA #NEAR READY INTO HAVING A RELATIONSHIP SO LIKEEE #and im like overwhelmed at the thought of ppl thinking that im just ignoring my moots #NO sweetie im just rly fuckin burnt out and km often spiraling and i have insomnia and i want to sleep but i cant sleep and im just UGHHHH #can someone... i dont know write another depressed reader pov x scaramouche or suguru #i wanna write so bad but BRAIN isnt BRAINING and im just so fucking stressed n anxious for WHATTTTTTTT

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lynaferns · 8 months

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School is draining any small motivation I had for art

or creativity in general

(tw: I got pretty much depressive in the tags but I needed to dump this somewhere and this may not be the best place but is where I feel better talking about my problems or insecurities, so feel free to ignore)

#vent in the tags #tw vent #i'm tired #and I hate that I'm tired #everytime I try to finish education is worst than the last time. my head can't take any sort of information from the class #no matter how many times they try to explain me or how many times I read and reread the same text #I can't focus. I can't memorize anything. I'm just sitting there in the classroom waiting for the 4 hours to finish to go back home #and spend the rest of the night just doing nothing. staring at the walls or doomscrolling till I have to go to bed and wake up again #for another day of fighting against an stupid anxiety attack in class because I'm going to fail this again #I hate school. I fucking hate it. the most boring stressing overwhelming way of learning #having the teacher talk for 1-2 hours straight and the student listening the whole time not saying anything is stupid #it's so fucking stupid they only want them to be mindless sheeps that only listen #because if you say anything 'no. you're wrong. I'm the teacher and I know better' fucking bullshit #this system is bullshit #and how am I supposed to study a whole school year of history. biology. math etc in less than 4 months??#everybody was like #'oh it's just 4 months and you'll be out of school!' 'in 4 months you'll get the education!' 'you can finish this in just 4 months!'#I fucking can't! I can't do this in such short time! I can't. focus. on 6. subjects at the same time. my brain can't!#and it's so fucking depressing. I have 4 opportunities to finish this. the longest it could take me is 2 years #I could just focus on 1 or 2 things each time but if I fail too many times I won't have another opportunity like this ever again #and I won't be able to finish highschool education and I. just. can't.#I'm tired of giving my biggest effort and not being enough. I'm tired of getting no satisfaction from any achievement I get #I hate so many things right now #and I have a lot more things in my head right now but I better shut up #you don't have to comfort me. it's ok. I'm not searching for confort. I just needed a place to dump my frustration or something #idk #you can ignore this #I might delete this later

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krystaldeath · 10 days

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//vent

God please. Please just go easy on me. Too much. It’s all just too much. Please

#first my shower stopped working #then I tried again and it worked but then lost pressure and I had to wash quickly #then turns out our card is with my aunt #then my cat is acting way off and I’m like 70% sure it’s a low but my mom insisted it was a high bc he was refusing to eat anything #so we gave him a couple units of insulin #and now I just have to? wait? to see if he gets better or if we’ve fucking killed him????#im going to the beach tomorrow with friends and I’m already stressing about not being fully prepared for that yet #and then all of this #I don’t want my cat to die. at least not like this #vent #vent in tags

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zeawesomebirdie · 8 months

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Only took a week and a half, but guess who finally actually feels sick with covid 😔✌️

#i should know by now that my specific flavour of chronic illness = a delay in symptoms #i *should know this* by now #ive only lived with it since 2016 #i shouldnt be this shocked #force i feel disgusting #jesus *fucking* christ this is so *stupid*#wait a moment #vent post #realised i probably ought to tag that...#but ugh #at least now i know what the strange 'new' fatigue ive been feeling is 🙄#and now i know why i cant seem to write #ughhhhhh #>:(#i swear im fine really i am #i just havent been *sick* sick since 2020 #completely forgot what it was like #i would take the worst of my usual symptoms over this *any* day of the week #blegh #my one consolation is that this means i can continue reading fic to my heart's content #and that i *dont* have to quote unquote go back to work #(work being. writing. and whatever else i usually do)#(nit that i had the cognitive function for any of that before this anyway.....)#ugh #okay thats all my complaining for the day thanks for listening #im sure ill be back to normal soon #in the meantime: im genuinely going to compile a superb@t rec list #not sure when exactly at this point in time #but soon #love yall

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arcaneyouth · 9 months

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rapidly approaching my 21st birthday is hard and weird but not for any normal reasons thats for sure

#not a vent post im just rambling in the tags #theres 4 main factors at play here.#firstly theres Society n all that telling me 21 is a Special Biethday!!! you'll be old enough to legally do adult things!!!#secondly theres the fact that i love being alive and celebrating it this shit rules like fuck yes i get to keep living hell yes #thirdly theres the fact that i kinda dont actually care. like its chill. ive reached the point where a birthday is a cute lil tradition #i dont gotta go wild with it and dont feel the need to treat it differently than any other day #but also the 4th thing which is 21 is yet another age my doctors told me id never get to see so like this is A Big One #so this is actually hard as hell because fundamentally i dont care that much n dont have strong emotions BUT FUCK DUDE WHAT IF BIG CELEBRAT #constantly sitting here going hehe yayy its my birthday soon cant wait to hang out with my friends and then go back to normal life #while also going I NEED BIG PLANS I NEED HUGE PLANS I NEED A CELEBRATION OFF THE WALLS OH FUCK OH GOD #it doesnt stop being funny. i dont even know what kind of big thing id do anyways #mom said i couldnt go to moterey bay aquarium too much money and that was my only idea #ive been thinking about this for weeks and have come up with 0 other plans #'we gotta do a huge party' ok then come up with one then dumbass #oh noooo guess ill have a nice time at home just like any other day oh nooooo #guess my 21st birthday will be unspecial. darn. anyways

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