i hope the next time i open up my heart to someone they truly deserve the love and kindness i give them i hope that this person will care about my feelings and will think through their words and actions but will also communicate when things go wrong and will be able to put aside their ego and realise our relationship is more important than that i hope this person is gentle with my heart
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I read that the dyana scene was added last minute so I wouldn't put too much thought into it the writers clearly didn't. Do you think Ali genuinely cared about dyana though?
It was added last minute?!?!!! Well that does explain a lot. Were they even planning on having aegon be a confirmed rapist?
I think a lot of people see the Alicent / Dyana scene as black and white (or rather it’s how they see the entire show)
Alicent is either the evil witch who didn’t give a fuck about the victim or that her son is a rapist but only cares about herself and her family image. Dyana was just a problem to be solved and aegon just needs to keep his depraved nature hidden but they claim she doesn’t care at all about him being rapist.
Alicent only cared about Dyana in the moment and genuinely was trying to help her to the best of her abilities. She saw her younger self in Dyana and truly wanted to help her and felt nothing but disgust towards aegon.
My interpretation is that Alicent was genuinely horrified and had empathy for Dyana. She meant what she said when she told her she believed her and wanted to help BUT she also wanted to protect her family even if she was completely disgusted by her son. There was a moment when she’s hugging Dyana where her demenure changes and I think this is when she realised she needed to do damage control. She paid her to start over probably thinking she’s helped the victim as best as she can while also avoiding a scandal and ‘dealing’ with aegon herself. As for bringing up herself, helaena and how aegons crimes impact them when trying to get her point across - this is an unfortunate part of rape culture, using the “you have a wife, daughter, sister, mother” narrative to get through to men. She cared about Dyana when she’s face to face with this young girl in distress , who suffered at the hands of her son, her heir but like most nobles they care about their own family, privilege and image more.
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Unfortunately relatable. I grew up in the church and have a lot of Christian trauma from that. I show up for special occasions for my parents… sometimes. But it’s uncomfortable from the moment I step through the door. Bigoted pastor, the self-righteousness disguising the prejudice, the political comments from the altar. Shots at young people left right and center as if the hell on earth wasn’t caused by the same older generation 90% of the congregation belongs to..
I miss being young in the choir and the youth groups and not struggling with it. It’s wild to look back at the younger version of me who was unshakeable in his faith and honestly just saddening.
I was texting my sister today about it and she said
“I 100% think ALL of us have a ton of religious trauma and everyone else in the family just doesn’t realize it cause they’re still drinking the kool-aid.”
I ran out of tag room and didn’t want to delete any 😭 seriously not lying I could write a book about all my thoughts and experiences
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i feel like a huge worthless failure for calling out of work today which is so dumb and stupid like. i’m gonna die someday. and i’m sitting here freaking out about the fact that i’m not working at my minimum wage job. for one day. like what the HELL is that. i’m already suffering which is why i called out but the suffering doesn’t end, it’s just complicated by guilt. and part of me knows i shouldn’t feel guilty, but i can’t stop. it feels like everyone’s judging me because i can’t even do the bare minimum right now. i feel so ashamed, but i’m so angry that i feel ashamed. i know i shouldn’t have to. but i do. it’s like. obligatory. it’s such a disgusting feeling.
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