#this is kind of a vent atp

[heir-of-the-chair]

You know, when they said “you never stop learning things about yourself” I don’t think they meant five consecutive years of having a new identity crisis.

[poolboyservice]

I'm a little bit of a dumbass for not posting these but uhhhhh

GERARD WAY FANART!!! GRAA

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[hollowporcelain]

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ughhh i hate eating dinner with our family... dad and myself make fair critisicsms about our brother once (he does not need 3 plates and a bowl for one fucking meal) and she (our mother) gets all arsey with us both? i continued to eat in silence (even though i feel so shitty i've barely left my bed all day and id much rather just not eat at all) and as soon as i finished shes all up my ass because i didnt eat the chips? "*sigh* [porcelain] those chips are completely plain..." in an all gloomy and disappointed tone, and as soon as i try to back myself up? its suddenly "dont get defensive with me" ??? i dont have to eat every single damn thing on my fucking plate? she knows damn well that we have a lot of problems with food, shes fucking lucky i even ate more than half of that shitty meal. so i give up, take a sip of my drink and pet the cat because he was next to my chair. and what do i get in response? "[porcelain] just leave, you aren't helping." like okay? IM sorry i was trying to be polite and wait for everyone else to finish before leaving quietly? like she fucking raised me to do? sure, dad tried to defend me but she just shoots him down immediately? and yet she fucking defends our brother for something far more ridiculous than just not eating a few chips?

its like this EVERY. FUCKING. NIGHT. some nights when our brother asks how everyones day was, she just jumps down our throat and tells him that we "dont want to talk right now" ??? FOR WHAT FUCKING REASON??? im so sick and fucking tired of fighting all the fucking time and yes, i understand that she is under extreme levels of stress all thr fucking time but she does not have to take it out on ourself and our dad? and even if she does why is our brother always left out and given the best treatment from her?

i could go on and on and on about this disugsting fucking relationship with her but im not going to.

[sweetvalentinescandy]

im so disappointed in my art lately . im not a beginner artist, but i feel like everything i do looks like i am . i feel like it would only be acceptable for a beginner . i havent made any progress since i was 11 . today is not a good day

[pearlldiver]

rocking myself in a chair i should not be this stressed about spending money for a special occasion my life will not be ruined if i buy a nice dress for myself nothing is gonna spiral out of control if i indulge a little

[moomindreamboy]

Drawing & writing don't even feel good anymore man at my lowest points creating things has been basically all I had to cope. It feels weird. Not good

[itsalwaysdark]

aww its kinda cute finding me complaining abt my dads whole lisa thing from 2017. honestly so overshadowed by everything else and also i was so annoying when i was 12 aw .

[omegapheromone]

Recently I've been super into Wuthering Waves (game by Kurogames), and I was thinking of making a post with my headcanons for each of the characters and which dynamics I tend to headcanon them as. Idk if anyone else here is interested but considering I've been rotting my brain with the game recently I think I'll do it anyway, if only for my own amusement ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Also if you like Genshin but wish the battle mechanics in it were more interesting, try WuWa. It's absolutely fantastic and I LOVE the open world movement system so much actually. It's so much fun I genuinely can't even begin to explain.

[f1nalboys]

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[osshisan]

i used up all the energy i had for being upset about all the wrong i have to deal with in life while i was in middle & high school and now im just numb to all of it instead. don't really like it but what can you do

[liacademia]

okay last question i promise.

what inspired u to pursue engineering?

umm this is very hard to answer now, because i used to be genuinely so excited about pursuing engineering, but this preparation kind of killed the genuine spark i had for the major, alr though this might be a long one, here comes my lore y'all.

i remember being SO SO excited about chemicals when i was younger, i always wanted to make them, like little potions😭 but at the same time i LOVED literature, i started writing poetry when i was 13, over the years i used it as a method to vent out creatively? so when i got the chance to finally decide for the career i wanted for myself, i was confused between stem and arts, literature was something i adored, something that made me feel safe, still does ngl, but being an engineer had more prosperous opportunities, so me being a dumbass chose something which i did like but didn't love, i did well in stem and arts, so choosing either was not a big deal, but now that i look back it's almost wishful atp, i wish i had taken arts and did what i love, but here we are, well let's see where life takes us with this one, i might switch majors after graduating in engineering, but that's too far in the future, let's see.

[eddiediazismyhusband]

Hi! I just wanted to say that I like your attitude and resilience (I'm a weak man, and every toxic anti-buddie/anti-buddie-shippers/pro bucktommy idea just hits me straight in the heart).

I don't understand how people can suddenly start hating Buddie because of "crazy fans", but still be smitten by bucktommy despite of how crazy some of their fans are.

And I really hate that they have this ammunition (their ship still going, Eddie happening to be hetero) to bully us with (haven't Buddie shippers been through enough of hate these past six years? And who knows how much more of it we'll have to yet to go through...)

Ah, sorry for the rant😅

The long ass message anon from lenaboskow's asks xD

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awwwww, thank you anon 😭 <3

if i’m being honest, the public resilience comes from years of being bullied and ridiculed, so at this point hate (especially anonymous hate) just rolls off my back bc atp it’s just par for the course with these people.

i definitely understand the toxicity hitting you right in the feels though. i have mentioned before but i have really bad anxiety and depression, and there are times when if i haven’t taken my meds i will start to spiral over the smallest things (just ask @lenaboskow who has been present for a lot of this unmedicated spiraling)… so i definitely understand that some of the toxicity and hate can be hard. especially when the writers continued to give them ammunition after seeing what what was happening on twitter during the premiere period of season 7.

I’ve been a buddie shipper since s2. I have put up with seeing ridicule and disrespect from the fandom for shipping buddie for years (granted i only started getting actively involved in the fandom very recently, i still kept up with cast interviews, articles, etc. and could see plenty of it there) so i understand it can be hard seeing so many people that once were hardcore buddie shippers suddenly turning into violently hateful stan accounts for this new ship is jarring and disappointing… i have seen so many of my favorite fic writers turn into anti-buddie-eddie-bashing enthusiasts seemingly overnight and it’s hard to see.

that being said, i still have not lost hope. abc and tptb see what is happening— they see screeners being harassed for talking about buddie, they see buddie shippers getting doxxed and getting death threats, they see lou stirring the pot (though thankfully it seems something has been done about that)

these creators know that stoking this kind of fandom behavior is not okay- they know that it’s a bad idea to reward toxicity and hate. they have also been the ones actively laying the groundwork for buddie for six years. a lot of the writers actually care about buck AND eddie, rather than just buck (regardless of whatever is going on in kristen reidel’s cesspool of a creative mind), and we know that queer eddie has been discussed at length before to the point where the queer storyline of s7 was almost eddie’s. these writers see what we see, the actors see what we see, tim minear sees what we see.

i don’t know what they have in store for next season, but regardless of whether or not we get buddie canon, i am very optimistic that the pilot won’t be around much longer, especially after the drama and toxicity he has stirred up within the fandom, bc the last thing a network tv show wants is bad press, and that situation has the potential to boil over into something much worse if they didn’t put a stop to it immediately.

anyway, anon, never apologize for sending a long ask, i love to yap and i love being an outlet for people to vent if they need to <3 i believe in you, that you will be able to withstand this blip in the fandom; as someone who’s had to go through similar situations in other fandoms it will not matter a year from now once everyone has moved on. unfortunately we are caught upnin the novelty of it, but once it either peters out or becomes a sort of “new normal” (which i hope it is the former and not the latter) it will be so much easier to bear with.

i hope you have a lovely morning, afternoon, or evening, sweet anon 💕💕

[pumpkinsy0]

IK we hear a lot of Darry and Dallas probably clashing the most within the hang, but I could also see Darry clashing a lot with Two-Bit. Specifically I could see Darry unintentionally taking out some of his frustration on Two-Bit. Two-Bit like soda is emotionally intelligent, except as we see in the book he’s mostly an observer. He can’t comfort as well as Soda can or soothe someone’s worries. I just think there’s a lot of angst potential there.

NOT that Darry is bad by any means!! But I could see that Two-Bit’s calm demeanor to stressful situations would in fact bug Darrel to a certain degree. I think what would bug him more is Two-Bit just accepting the anger he throws at him. Not cause Two-Bit can’t fight back but rather cause he KNOWS Darrell needs to get it out of his system.

ALL THIS TO SAY: Hurt/Comfort HC’s of this??

OoOoOo rare two bit post, whats goodddd

•i think when it comes to two bit, ppl THINK he cant read the room and thats y he jokes, but its the exact opposite, he jokes BC he knows the tension in the room and is trying to settle it down, sometimes it just doesnt work/land, and that happens more so w darry

•when it comes to darry, i dont think two bit jokes???hes more so of a “look at the bright side” kinda guy, and darry can only take so much of that before he snaps, he usually just sighs and tries leaving but two but is always checking in on him and doing that over n over

•two bit knows darry holds a lot of things in, considering two bit is the oldest in the gang (darry canonically isnt rlly in the gang apparently, i just could him as an unofficial official member), darry doesnt rlly hold in his feelings near him, hes seen darry stressed out at the table n stuff, so he tries taking him out here n there

•atp sometimes thats where darry snaps bc he doesnt WANT to relax, he wants to do what he has to do first, darry never gives himself time to calm down, he has a pretty big “work first, play hard” ethic hes hard on himself for and thats what two bit is “attacking”

•darry does feel super bad when hes done being angry though, he truly doesnt WANT to snap at anyone, he just does at times, and its not like he says anything like, OUTRAGEOUSLY mean btw, hes not that kind of angry where he says something deeply personal unless u rlly pushed him there, more so venting about his own issues

•he still apologizes profusely and its just,,,,kinda sad to watch honestly, darry has his head in his hand (or hands) and looks like hes just crawling into himself, and its like, two bit CANT b mad at him

•two bit rlly doesnt take it personally, doesnt hurt his feelings either, of course hes a bit taken back, but he doesnt exactly argue back, he lets darry get it out of his system and THEN says what he wants to say (hes not called two bit for no reason he WILL add in his 2 cents) which is usually what darry HAS to hear

•two bit tends to give a heads up to anyone whos about to step in the house when darrys upset, mostly to guys space, but also bc he knows the others might take it to heart and fight back and just worsen the situation

•also!!!! if two hears pony talk badly about darry after an argument, he scolds pony for it, ofc he also sympathizes w pony, but theres this thing in the gang where sometimes they rub into darry for his anger bc theyre also angry at him and two bits the one to try and defend him, cause if he doesnt, who will (this excludes soda btw, two bit and soda talk about darry sometimes)

•nobody rlly, sees their outburst btw, the most ppl ever see is like, two and darry talking at the kitchen at most, and two bits just not his “up eat all jokester” self he looks genuine, but when they notice ur there everything goes “back to normal”

[ashenquill]

There are people who get really annoyed about the whole “pit rage” concept, but I am a firm believer that it can serve an important narrative purpose if you present it in a way that makes sense. You have a comedy, and it’s funny if Jason crashes out at every teeny tiny inconvenience? Okay, real, I’m giggling while I read it. You want to write soul-crushing angst where Jason hurts someone he loves without meaning to and regrets it deeply? Yeah, I’m bawling my eyes out, but I support your endeavors.

Equally, I see the value of not having it; you want it to be clear that Jason is his own man who makes his own decisions? You want to give him a chance for confrontation with no excuses as to why he’s “not in his right mind”? You want him to be angry, and to vent that anger, and you don’t like the idea of someone taking away from how deeply he was hurt by excusing his actions as “pit madness”? All incredibly valid, all incredibly strong narratives, and all very much fodder for the pain and suffering of the reader (/pos). I support his wrongs, he’s earned them (as a treat).

That being said, I kind of like the concept.

Now, there will always be people who disagree, and that’s okay! But me personally? I appreciate what it can add to Jason or Damian’s characters.

The way I like to think about it best is not as a separate emotion or entity that “takes control” whenever they get remotely angry, but rather as a temptation. A promise of extra wind beneath their wings, of strength and energy that only come with anger, but also the distinct lack of control that comes with it, too. The feeling you get when you’re in a heated argument and say something you don’t mean? That’s what you’re giving in to. It’s not that you lose control of yourself, it’s that you let yourself lose control (please tell me that makes sense I’m trying my best out here). Like, it’s not an out-of-body experience in the way that being blackout drunk is, it’s a very much in-body distraction that lets you get carried away when you normally wouldn’t. It’s still human anger, just louder and more demanding.

So, when Jason or Damian are experiencing “pit rage”, it’s not that they’re in this haze of I cannot control my own body or decisions, it’s that they’re in this haze of act now, think later. They are given the choice between engaging with that part of themselves, and they still have ultimate authority over their actions.

Now, this is where it gets interesting.

Because, see, Damian grew up in the League. He was the successor, the heir. He was taught to always use the pit for its extra strength(I know he didn’t get dunked before going to Bruce but just work with me here), that it was a weakness if he didn’t. He had to unlearn that, to realize that there was such a thing as “too far” sometimes, that lethal force could be unnecessary, that anger was not the only motivation for action. It’s no secret he started out angry and violent, and it’s entirely because he wanted to be strong. Because he was scared of what might happen to him, if he wasn’t.

But with Jason? He wasn’t taught that. He grew up on the streets of Gotham, yes, but he was adopted for his teenage years, and Bruce did his best to instill his morals in that time. Whether or not it worked is up to interpretation atp, since canon seems to be very unclear about it, but anyway. Jason’s dunk in the pit changed just about everything for him. He was dead and now he gets to see just how much his death impacted. Just how much it changed. And the answer he gets? Nothing. He doesn’t get to see the grief, the pain, the blatant breaches of morality. All he is shown is Gotham, same as it ever was, with Batman and Robin and the Joker. So yeah, he’s angry. He’s angry that he went unavenged, angry that he left seemingly no impact, angry that, despite all his pleading, Batman never once listened when Jason said that some people were just too evil to be spared. But most of all? He’s hurt. It hurts that he sees a better version of himself, a replacement, working with Bruce as an equal, one he trusts and listens to. It hurts that his killer is still out there, known and yet unpunished. And it hurts, more than anything, that even though Bruce lost Jason, it wasn’t enough to break him in the way it would normally break a parent to lose their child.

So maybe Jason isn’t his child, after all.

And that’s why he gives in to the pit rage. Not for the strength, but for the distraction. If he can convince himself that he’s angry, only angry, then he can ignore the way his chest hurts if he thinks about the new Robin for too long. If Jason loses himself in rage, he won’t have to find himself wandering though the dredges of loneliness. If he’s busy being pissed off at Bruce, then that means he won’t have time to think about how much he misses him. His dad, the man who raised him. The man who doesn’t see him as his son.

[zeherili-ankhein]

Headcanon:

Vibhishan would have to tolerate Kumbhkaran and Ravan's aggressive and sometimes violent arguments over Ravan's shitty decisions from his late teens to his adulthood.

He would usually side with Kumbhkaran (who in my retelling was the only guy he could talk to because he was the only other guy who disliked Ravan's assholic behavior) but also like try to calm them down and come to a based conclusion.

Kumbhkaran: YOU HAVE HORSHSHIT FOR A BRAIN. Ravan: TF DID YOU JUST SAY??? Vibhishan: Guys please!

Sometimes V wouldn't even come out of his room because of this, but Kumbh would at times call him out to support him, and then he has to go.

Also Kumbhkaran was the only person who was protective of his lil bro against Ravan. Whenever Ravan yells at V Kumbh yells back at him. "Don't you dare talk to him like that!"

V also would have to deal with Kumbhkaran ranting about his fights to him aggressively and he'd just have to be his unpaid therapist (not that he didn't appreciate Kumbh's venting but at some point it gets annoying yanno)

So when Ravan banishes Vibhishan Kumbh tries to argue with him but Ravan wouldn't budge. V was already intending on leaving but he wanted Kumbh to join him. However, he was skeptical because even though Kumbh would talk shit about Ravan he'd still be awfully loyal to him.

The night before leaving he asks Kumbhkaran to join him but in this hc Kumbh knew he was destined to be killed by Ram along with Ravan so he refuses. V is heartbroken and so is Kumbh. the latter asks him to win this thing, because that is the only way this whole shitshow would end. V starts crying and Kumbh tears up too. He also says V better be prepared cuz he will not hold back in the war against him. He says that he'll love him forever, even if he doesn't feel the same for him atp. V is even more conflicted, mad at his brother as well, but respects his decision and leaves next morning.

HELP OMG 😭😭😭😭😭

*I typed in big words to show how much I am screaming*

ALL OF THIS IS SO TRUE MAN 😭😭😭😭

ALSO ALSO It became even harder for him to stay with Ravan when Kumbh was given that curse boon to fall asleep so now he got so much less time with Kumbh supporting him and having his back and Ravan being a jerk towards him

Also nothing else helped because Ravan was like unstoppable and getting even more bigraelu with their grandpa supporting him so V adn Kumbh were kind of the only persons and nobidy could tell anything to Kumbh cuz well he's still strong but V is not so strong so he was the black sheep always

HELP WHY IS EVERYTHING SO SAD 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Also V had so much heartbreak while telling the Vanar and co. about how to kill Kumbh like that's him brother but ATP that's his enemy and he's loyal to Ram but that's him brother but that's his enemy but that's his brother but that's him enem- sigh