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My Yuu
Pic 1: school uniform/disguise (normally also with a bandana over hair to hide the bun)
Pic 2: relaxed fit
Name: Ashlyn Ash Jackson
Hair color: red
Eye color: green and blue
Height: 5'9" (175cm)
Loves: animals, cooking, exercise, helping people, being taken care of, pranks
Hates: slimy things, being treated as weak, "macho alpha men"
Favorite Game: Fuck Around And Find Out
Least Favorite Game: What Are The Twins Trying To Feed Me This Time
Favorite Food: Anything Jamil makes (she'd kill for that cooking)
Least Favorite Food: anything the twins give her that's a "Monstro Louge Specialty". Oysters.
#twisted wonderland#twst yuu#my yuu#oc#shes a badass bitch and i lvoe her#we even share a lot of the same trauma#that we mostly healed from#. . . mostly#but yeah there was an attempt to hide the fact that shes a girl#its not too bad tbh it works#on most people#but only until she ditches it for funsies
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congrats on your recovery n all yuuji but unfortunately for you I thought the scars were cool >:/
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#yuji itadori#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#jjk art#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#jjk leaks#these took so long i kept getting distracted cries#but they r done and this is yuuji's post canon scar map to me. argue with a wall we should have had this#looks at canon this sign won't stop me bc i cant read >:(#smh robbed!!!!!! the potential!!!!! the aesthetic!!!!! th angst the symbolism!!!!!!#gege i respect u i do not want beef after u let my boys live#but u rly couldnt have scuffed him up a LITTLE more.....there were so many to choose from didnt u have a favourite.....#all he has to show fr all that r two little scratches. rly.#((not counting the ear n fingers thank god i get That much))#anyway i made a whole post abt why i think yuuji should have kept the scars n what it would have stood for symbolically#its along th same lines as the yuuji Big Face Scar agenda hh i just care a lot abt character design n visual storytelling ok#anyway fine he can keep the eye but in this house it grew back wrong it's lighter and foggy and now his prescription is stronger#as fr the rest#megumi has dibs on the upper right eye apparently so yuuji can have the bottom half#i would have doubled down on the scars on his left but a. the right side is the symbolic one#b. he healed an entire eye so it makes sense tht he'd heal other more minor injuries as well#c. tbh it's mostly based on what looked good i think this arrangement guides the eye across his face nicely#gave him a lil nose nick bc smth smth sukuna idk it's just there to balance things out#also as i said. the jaw and neck scar are there for kissing purposes i make the rules im salty and i do what i want smile#in other news thank u past hina fr doing those hair render studies im very happy with my yuuji hair as of late
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alternate surface au inspired by a few ive seen around on tumblr :3
#my art#pressure roblox#roblox pressure#sebastian solace#painter pressure#thought more abt my headcanons for seb’s anatomy and like. lol that tail is not pure muscle hes got guts in there.#that + the fact that there’s spinal cord in there means itd be a bad idea to try and amputate it#the wagon/eventual wheelchair is mostly for outdoor use i imagine.#<- specificallt]y for outdoor surface textures/debris that’d be bad for him to slither on#also. chronic pain have i dont think suddenly shrinking his whole body did much good for that#i imagine he and painter have like. a pool. to help with that and other needs he has now.#but he wouldnt wanna use it for a long while#there was a sort of. disconnect between his idea of freedom from urbanshade vs the reality of it i think.#like. thinking things could. on some level. go back to normal#and not considering that some of his mutations would be irreversible#and having to confront/cope with/accomodate himself about that#seb wants to be normal again but we cant all get what we want can we!#sometimes healing involves working with or around irreversible change buddy!#btw if feligayzed sees this. hiii hii your au was one of the big things that kicked my brain off on this and i wanna make fanart sometime#oh yeah this is . also.#sebpainter#pressure pathways#pathways#wow i dont think ive written a wall of tags that big in a long time. can you tell im having normal feelings about them
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AMBROSE AND OLIVE!!!! SILLIES :)
#i'm unstoppable ok#fun fact about the first drawing#i do oc clothes folders on pinterest and i messed up and put that cute pink top on Ambrose's one instead of Olive#and i was like “oh if it means i have to draw Ambrose with that now”#and here we are... WELL IT SUITS HIM WELL!!! I LOVE IT!!!!! I LOVE THAT MAN#Also i don't think i talked about that before (idkk) but one of Olive's main interest is video games#well he's mostly a pc player but whatever he can have fun with everything and switches are fun to draw for me#he likes fps and moba games mostly.. if you care#and probably plays stuff like Stardew Valley when he needs to heal from these shits!!!#did you liked these funfacts... did you like these drawings.. i kinda like them!!!#my art#oc art#digital art#oc artist#mlm art#Olive#Ambrose
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The ed greed ling dynamic has me in a chokehold and tbh I'm not complaining they are everything
#IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN EXPLORED MORE IN CANON ��� 😭 😭 😭#like not even from a “i want to see more of them” angle but like to legitimately flesh it out#bc like. weve seen them all interact only a handful of times wdym greed does what he does in the finale for these two#we dont know how much they mean to each other (the answer is a lot but we dont see how they get there T^T)#anyway im writing fanfic fleshing it out bc i can and i think its turning into a 5+1 thing#but lifes coming back so i may be significantly derailed#but no they are literally my favourites ever i think they are all platonic soulmates and its healing at least two of them#(ling seemed to have his shit mostly together tbh. now hes just a goofy guy with the weight of xing off his shoulders for now)#edward elric#ling yao#greed the avaricious#greedling#fmab#fullmetal alchemist brotherhood#moss' madness
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hi guys i was in an accident and had to be in the hospital for a while but im home now
#stressful bday month but we r back hello#had to get some meds out of my system but im alright now#my surgeries went well and physically my injuries r like a bad bike accident but ye nothing bad my face is fine now too mostly#got bumped to the side and broke my face and arm#something w my hip but it healed itself didnt break or smn#school on pause dont have to go so ill have time to relax anyway#reblogged some stuff in the hospital too which is funny bc i don’t remember when or that i did it after the accident but i remember#actually doing it#hopefully i can put this whole experience behind me now#i have some therapy recommended but thats understandable#it was worse than what im describing rn but i dont remember anyway it was just rough as a whole#my memories sorrounding it r vague and little but thats normal#acute stress phase but i think we avoided it becoming ptsd#i survived and thats what matters#shout out to the doctors that saved me#mostly from drowning in blood
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I want to preface this post by saying that I love the cat king as a character, especially one that has such a major impact on Edwin and his relationship with his queerness and learning to be okay with it; HOWEVER, I also believe that everyone that genuinely believes he should be a love interest for Edwin should read this. (Also if you just like the cat king as a character and want to understand his character better and why his and Edwin’s relationship is not something that would be healthy or “real” for either)
#dead boy detectives#edwin payne#the cat king#i do not ship them but I don’t want to hate on those who do (mostly) I just want to kind of inform people of the creators meaning for their#Relationship because I keep seeing people saying they hope they get together in s2 and it’s really confusing to me#Their relationship stems from the cat kings own narcissism and predatory behavior and Edwin’s need for someone to push him into under#Standing that his queerness doesn’t have to be torture and can be something giddy#even if he doesn’t return those feelings#The cat king does like Edwin but he doesn’t know anything about him. He likes the game and then he likes the kindness he’s shown despite#Knowing the cruelty he’s presented to Edwin#Queerness and preformance always go hand in hand#He’s a older secretly insecure character#Edwin is the younger#genuinely kind character that shows him that projecting his hurt will never get him what he wants#It’s about the isolation of queerness and the walls put up and the coping mechanism used to protect yourself even at the risk of hurting#Those just like you. That kiss from edwin was to say “I’m sorry your loneliness had caused you to be cruel. It’s the easiest way to feel.#And while I cannot and will not give you what you want or need#you deserve to feel happy and not like you have to gain the attention of uninterested people#I can’t even explain all my thoughts about their dynamic it’s just so much it’s just about the predadation from older queers because of#The trauma they’ve endured and the cycle of hurt and the way we can break the cycle with kindness while also protecting our youths by#Healing those traumas#Something the cat king learns and accepts#Off topic but I don’t like people defending their age gap because#Yes; Edwin is 86#but he died with a teenage boy brain and then spent 70 of those years in hell where he certainly was not getting his brain developed while#The cat king has possibly hundreds of years of sentience and experience. The power imbalance is not if y’all. And that part of their dynami#Is actually very clear I think but some people didn’t catch it?? Or didn’t care??? Idk man
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How do you know if you're a bad person or not? I'm pretty sure I'm a bad person but the spousal person says I'm not.
Context: Someone got mad at me for saying Love Next Door was for neurotypical people, so saying and thinking that was wrong and bad.
#maybe I just think I'm mostly healed from the trauma because I stopped being active in spaces where strangers could get mad at me#but I am exhausted and I was searching for symptoms of autistic burnout earlier this week#so I don't know#anyway I should stop trying to interact with anyone I don't already know#I just make them mad and then it triggers me and it's just all bad#but these same people will constantly talk about how the shows we like a lot are too silly and weird and over the top#and no one gets mad at them for that#and we're not even dropping it and we're continuing to watch it#I wasn't saying it was a bad show at all#I guess good people constantly hate on shows that aren’t normal enough#and bad people say a show is a bit too normal once in four years
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POV you lost your last host for 11 months, and I mean straight disappeared off the face of the earth for almost a year, only for them to come back as a manager because, and I quote, “you people almost wrecked my life, you can��t survive without me”
#like fuck you#we were handling it#i (kenny) got us into one of the best schools in the country for our major#with some help ofc (mostly from Donnie)#Donnie got us top scores on our AP exams#and I (Kyle) fixed our relationships with our friends and family#as well as starting to heal religious trauma#we were doing fine#our mental health was trash half the year#but we were fine#we’ve never had better communication#we were working together pretty well#-Kenny#-Kyle#did system#plural#plurality#actually plural#system things#plural system#actually did#dissociative system#tw dormancy mention#tw dormancy
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i gotta draw more cotl fanart
#imagine im saying it in the ‘we GOTTA get SPONGEBOB BACK’ voice#anyway#getting back into the game#took a break from it for a bit mostly cause im bad#my fault for using the berserker fleece#i should just bite the bullet and switch to the healing one#but the berserker is so GOOD and it makes me feel like god#i just need to get good#literally a skill issue
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I sometimes wonder how much Louis is able to withstand. It’s a lot of heartbreak in a short amount of time. I got to thinking about this when I’ve been catching up on old 1D footage and even after 1D ended how they really supported each other.
A couple of things that are like daggers to the heart… that hug they shared at the last show. I know we all focused on the Larry hug but with some of these videos & tik toks people are sharing on Twitter, I really saw the Lilo hug. I teared up. They were so close even with the band ending. And then I think of Liam wearing Louis’ merch. Ugh I teared up again. Louis defending Liam on that radio show, teared up again. These darn lilo compilations lol. It’s just minutes of pure emotion. I feel like Louis once again lost such a big part of his support system that he and we thought he’d have for many years to come. Oh and the “I thought we’d share the same stage again but it wasn’t meant to be” part. And how Liam said that Louis would purposely start these water fights to make Liam smile and be like a kid again.
To see how he was publicly grieving by posting not only his statement but the pictures he posted of the 2 of them and then also posting his latest song to encourage people to stream it. It just kills me to see Louis be the next big target online. The amount of hate & wishes of harm on him so soon after Liam’s passing is gross. I hope Louis stays far away from social media and just concentrates on himself during this difficult time.
Oh, that was a bit soul cleansing lol. Sorry to bring up all of this, things just really got to me yesterday. I hope everyone can take steps to heal, I guess I realized my process might be a little longer ❤️🩹 Take care!
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#i think Louis has a very strong support system#even with his fans#it’s different than the hate Liam has been receiving#also they are different personality wise#i just hope Harries will stay the fuck away from#him and I just hope they will all will stay away from public eye for a long time#i know this is not what is going to happen because sooner or later they’ll be back#especially Harry cause I can’t imagine they will hold back whatever project they have for a long time#i just wish they would tho because I don’t think anybody needs it#it will take me like 2 to 3 years to be able to consider the idea that we should move on#i am considering selling zayn tickets too because honestly i cant imagine what it must feel like#for us but also for him?#im dreading that moment#mostly because I know it will happen earlier than ill be ready for it#and i will hate seeing everyone happy and celebrating how life moves on#and im struggling with that too#i hope louis knows there is no rush#i hope he sits down and heals and recovers before thinking it’s taking too much time or whatever#there is no rush and i hope he knows it#i hope he knows there is the option to stop and take care of himself#the option is there and it’s valid#he didn’t have this option when his mom died. he didn’t have this option when his sister died#i just hope he knows this is different and should be treated differently this time#for the others… i don’t follow them closely so i don’t care#even if i am afraid they will move on soon#but with louis… yeah I hope he manages the pressure of it well#also just remembered Louis was seen wearing Liam’s merch#and honestly im broken now#casella di posta numero 32
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wait actually connecting the dots was the guy telling us the fight would go well when we were half a party of first timers also the one who forgot to lb3 us like bro was a tank one of em. jffjjssn he forgor.
#the one guy who does know the fight gjdjsjsbsbsbd#no one doing trial roulette at midnight we were all here to discover it#actually the coach review im doing in my head is critical again i realised i once more forgot to hit SSS like i have to figure out a spot on#the hotbar for me to remember#ok authors notes and definitions ¹LB for Limit Break: staple of FF big ability that you get to use after certain conditions#in this case for the time spent in the fight (+other little things but mostly its about the time spent). in the context of this tale#a protective one was needed to supershield us from death. hence 'tank lb' speaking of ²Tank: one of the three key roles in a fight#alongside Healer (self explanatory) and dps (damage-per-second– hence damage dealers) the tank is solid and takes hits#so that the others dont have to. its sturdy and healthy and looks particularly yummy tovthe enemies to make tjem want to hit Just this guy#in this specific story there were Two tanks#one of them seemingly having knowledge of the specific fight we embarked on#the other likely not. neither of them activated the special limited use bug spell we needed to survive though (only they can)#and for ur curiousity dear scientual i play as damage dealer. so that i cant be the bearer of thus sort of mistake ever 👍#though granted dps also could do LB fumbles in this specific fight apparently. twas the fight disclaimers on the guides jdjfjfd#'do NOT cast dps LB UNLESS the boss himself os casting something or else he'll activate invulnerability and make it all useless'#+8second of invulnerability??? bro i just elected to not even try it even before the fight went. awry.#even tho technically my position is good for damage lb its ok given how it went i doubt anyone would mind that no one hit the lb gjdjsjsjsks#to be fair its one of these situations where its better left to the healer in case all goes wrong again#(author note damage lb does big damage. healer lb does big heal and if maxed out on its capacity can even ressurect anyone dead)#(hence. given the struggle. it was better off being theirs even outside of the odd conditions of the boss turning invulnerable)#dont think anyone used it tho#its ok.
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Ok also so I got my eyebrow and nose piercings back in... march, I think? I was supposed to go back in to get the bars changed out some time ago but I never did. Largely bc my eyebrow piercing has Not been healing smoothly (keep accidently banging it and getting it caught on things so it doesn't wanna heal) but I think the long bar has been actively hindering my healing (making it easier to get caught on things) so I decided to change it out Myself. Bought some new smaller jewelry online and it got here today and
I'm not generally squeamish when it comes to my own body. Like pain, blood, whatever. Don't rly care.
That, though... that took some effort.
But I did it! Smaller jewelry to hopefully make healing a little smoother from here on out. I also got some new jewelry for my nose stud that'll get here tomorrow. That one at least won't be a huge deal, since the nose piercing has healed so much more smoothly, thankfully.
(Preemptive warning for Gross Details in the tags. Lol)
#speculation nation#for the eyebrow piercing it's like....#ok this is kinda gross hfkshfks but i think i. at one point when it got caught on something#i think i like. tugged the piercing. um. smaller#?#like the area of skin that the eyebrow piercing runs thru is. smaller. bc it literally tore some of the actual pierced skin.#hurt like a BITCH i'll fuckin tell you that lmfao. ive been a lot more careful since.#but thats another thing with why i wanted a smaller thing. the prior one was fucking Massive in there. way too much#but now i have smth smaller. thinner too. which i hope will help with healing.#downsizing while healing will reduce the amount of variation in jewelry i can stick in there#but tbh i think itd just be wiser to stick to small things anyways. with the thinner patch of skin there.#i dont WANT to rip my eyebrow piercing out. which that was part of what made changing it so hard hfkshfm#these new ones r like screw on ends. but the one before was a pin i had to pull out.#and Let Me Tell You. i was so fucking scared of accidentally ripping it out when trying to pull that bitch. holy shit.#i got it without ripping anything. it still hurt and it bled a good bit but i got it.#switched out the jewelry. which eugh that part was pretty rough too. like not to be gross but rootin around in ur own skin is. somethin#hfksfhksbfmd but it's done and i dont intend to change it until it's healed more. so hopefully it will be. easier then.#i actually took out my nose piercing.. yesterday? to try to switch out with a shorter back#didnt work bc it was thicker. had to put the old one back in. which THAT was harrowing but mostly bc it was so. fucking. hard to do#but the new nose jewelry i got is supposed to come with a thing that makes it easier to put the nose jewelry on#(the hard part is trying to put a flat back base in from the inside of the nose. cant see SHIT in there 😭)#man. facial piercings really arent for the squeamish. good thing im not scared of pain but it has even me like Eughhh#couldve been mitigated has i gone back to the piercer. but oh well. fuck it we ball 💪#ummm should i tag for this lol#gross/#😂
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“If no one’s passing to Jamie we can always drop him to midfield.”
Okay, so I’m don’t think Nate’s motives for suggesting this back in 2x03 were entirely motivated by an understanding how to best utilize Jamie, but he was the first to suggest that our number 9 might play in another position. That, in combination with how they both spotted Colin being open in the lastest game against City… I am very interested in seeing how Nate’s to Richmond will jell with the team’s Total Football approach and Jamie’s new position in it.
Roy does say that Nate’s great at the things Roy is shit at, and back in 3x07 Jamie had to be the one to tell the coaches how to best use him in their new game plan. You have to think that if Nate had been there, Jamie probably wouldn’t have had to that, yeah?
Think there might be something here. Something intriguing.
#hmm hmm hmm#i'm still not super onboard with nate coaching richmond in the long run#though i am VERY invested in them all renconciling!#but i can't deny the potential here...#should i have thoughts on the actual football of it all?#probably not#but there's no one here to stop me#i also think that there's some unresolved tension with nate and jamie#mostly from nathan's side#him and jamie worked together well enough after nate's initial glee at the team giving jamie a hard time upon his return#but i think - without having much basis for it - that nathan never fully let go of the fear jamie had once instilled in him#it was managed but lurking under the surface the wound of the abuse never healed#and we never say jamie explicitly make nice with nate - he apologized to the team not to the coaches#yeah i am intrigued#nathan shelley#jamie tartt#3x11#football
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Dear horror youtubers who write video essays explaining and examining extraordinary works of horror that I deeply want to see and understand but will literally never be able to safely watch due to my own trauma - thus providing me with a way to learn from and connect to works of art that would be otherwise forever inaccessible to me,
I love you.
youtube
#original#horror#final girl studios#if this youtuber is on tumblr someone should tag her#LOVE the idea of a girl coming of age and becoming monstrous but now obsessed with how they described this movie as#'a girl coming of age and finding that the people AROUND her have become monsters to her'#fucking. brilliant! thank you for giving me a way to learn from and enjoy this movie! i am more sure than ever that i should not watch it!#but i am so grateful to you for giving me such a gift! how wonderful!#that said - folks please be very cognizant of the warnings at the beginning of the video. there were still parts I had to look away from#also it was cathartic experiencing this movie from this POV bc 'the horror of girlhood being validated' is healing tbh#it was HORRIFYING being a little girl who became a teenage girl! and no one seemed to care what girl-children went through!#I mean folks were dismissive of kids in general but teen girls and little girls are like. a Joke to a lot of people.#everything we liked was ridiculed. and our fears held similarly little weight to adults. and yet. The Horror of Girlhood is so Real.#I Can Only Imagine how much more girls of color were dismissed and targeted and dehumanized.#and then you've got the little Trans girls and teens - who were playing The Horror of Girlhood on like. Nightmare Hard Mode.#the specific horror of girlhood for me as a transmasc AFAB person meant that the existential horror of being seen as a girl#meshed with my gender dysphoria in a way I did not have the language for and would not for many years to come#like the internalized misogyny and the gender dysphoria were literally impossible to parse apart. i couldn't tell which was which.#i just knew i HATED being a girl and i wanted it to STOP. and it was mostly because of how people treated girls.#like it probably took me longer to figure out my gender because of that.
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Not all who wander are lost - Gridania
Old Gridania │ Stillglade Fane │ Leatherworkers' Guild │ Westshore Pier
"First time in a big city was rather shocking for a boy who grew beneath the Shroud's trees. Hyurs, elezen, and even fellow miqo'te, just going on about their day. Living so close together. With a little push from Miounne, I made it through the first few days and got accepted to study conjury.
Stillglade Fane became another home, countless hours spent on it's calm silence, trying to hear even the faintest whisper of the elementals like our mentors had taught us. Or just reading book upon book, scroll upon scroll of past knowledge of herbs and aether.
It all seems like a lifetime away. I've since seen lands I couldn't have even imagined while still an apprentice. Seen sights only mentioned in books, made everlasting friendships. Learnt to draw upon the power in myself and others.
Offering my help to all who need it."
#ffxiv#ffxiv screenshots#neri's screens#not all who wander are lost but i sure as hell am#post 2 and i'm already cheating a little on my own rules aiuefheufh#first and 3rd pic are basically same location#one is from the bridge next to it and other from under the guild facing the bridge#also once again we finish with night pic of me going “ooh fireflies!” lol#and uhhh the lore blurb is a bit more uhhh unpolished this time sorry about that#i'm still not 100% sure how to handle the whole cnj/whm lore haha#i prefer the idea that hawu'li's healing magic comes mostly from himself rather than the elementals#how does that work? hell if i know lol#anyway as a little timeline thing! hawu'li was still an apprentice when dalamud happened#didn't go to the frontlines but pulled some of the most stressful days of his life#helping fully fledged hearers treat people when there were wounded from both the war and the calamity itself
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