#suicide baiting mention tw

[notaplaceofhonour]

well at least they said please

[proshipconfessions]

I’M FUCKING BEGGING YOU ALL TO STOP SCREENSHOTTING ANTIS GRAPHICALLY DESCRIBING HOW THEY WANT US TO KILL OURSELVES AND JUST REPOSTING IT WHILE TAGGING EVERY PROSHIP TAG WITHOUT ANY TW.

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[lesboylycan]

why is this server filled with people who think syscourse is just a "meaningless" internet debate

like. i'm sorry, but i don't think my blog getting posted to r/systemscringe and getting not just attacked for being non-traumagenic, but also for my queerness, is meaningless. i don't think random ass people joining my discord server knowing it's pro endo, knowing we're endogenic, just so they can have access to my DMs to sui-bait me is meaningless. i don't think the fact that i'm basically barred from so many online disability spaces because we're endogenic and 70 - 80% or more of the people in this spaces are anti-endo is meaningless. i don't think the fact that people think we're inherently harmful just for existing for reasons unrelated to trauma is meaningless. i don't think me having to walk on eggshells in servers completely unrelated to plurality (but have other plural folks in them) until i'm sure that us being endogenic won't be an issue is meaningless.

maybe you think it's meaningless. maybe you feel perfectly fine hanging around people who believe us to be faking, secretly traumagenic (and not "remembering the trauma" that caused it), inherently ableist/saneist, etc, who will go out of their way to harass us, who will post our shit on subreddits dedicated to catching out the "cringe fakers" (and inciting more harassment), all because we're endogenic. maybe you're okay with that. maybe you can even be friends with them.

but we fucking can't. and we're not going to sit here and pretend like we're comfortable hanging around you, either, when you treat this all as if it has no real consequences. when you treat syscourse as a debate between viewpoints with equal logical and ethical standing. this isn't something we can compromise on when all we want is to exist without being under threat of harassment and people treating us as if we're evil for not doing plurality in a way they personally like. we're not gonna sit here and be your friend when your best bud on the other side of the brook thinks we literally cannot exist--and all of the baggage that comes along with that. it's just not happening.

[the-real-list-of-ominous-threats]

I'm going to have it so that next time you scroll your favorite tag, some absolutely hideous and insane s*icide bait pops up tagged in leetspeak so your blacklist doesn't catch it

[wilbur-of-the-coven]

fuck you

To the anti-endo who suicide baited us, sincerely, fuck you, I hope you never find peace in life.

because of your inability to simply co-exist my girlfriend had to be pulled out of front and she coughed hundreds of flowers- she’s *comatose* right now, we had to create a GODDAMN hospital to put her on anesthesia so she’d stop coughing up blood and flowers.

Sincerly fuck you so much. You claim you’re defending trauma victims, but guess what? You just traumatized me but all my headmates!

Because you simply couldn’t co-exist with a non purely traumagenic system you decided to tell them to kill themselves?

That is not fucking okay! Alright? It is never okay to tell anyone to kill themselves! No matter what they’ve done.

which in our case? Was absolutely nothing! We simply made a fucking notes post and you thought it was soooooo hilarious if you asked how many notes it’d take to commit suicide!

No! No! It’s fucking not! You have no goddamn shame in your body! Because guess what?

You just told a minor- 3 minors, 1 young adult, 1 adult, A FOUR YEAR OLD, and an age less being to kill themselves! Oh! And we’re bodily a minor too if we forgot to goddamn mention! So even if we were “faking” you still told a minor to kill themselves!

it’s not funny and will never be funny to suicide bate someone. My girlfriend who was the one fronting btw suffers from such strong delusions oh hanahaki that the headspace made it real there.

if our ONLY TWO adults hadn’t been awake and able to pull her from front- which btw 2 other of our headmates had to help with- did I mention the 4 year old was there too?- then she would’ve started to have a coughing fit in real life.

sincerely, *sincerly*, fuck you, we’re not christian but god has a specially low pit of hell for suicide baiters like you.

[pinkinsect]

Heartwarming: Multicultural Couple Teaches Each Other About Suicide Baiting

[antiendovents]

I shouldn't be scared of opening my asks because I might find insults/death threats/sui-bait/g0re from endogenic assholes !!

☆ミ

yeah.. I'm really sorry that you have to fear that, it sucks that endos have made this community so unsafe for some of us that we literally cannot have our inbox open without feeling as if we're at risk. Endos suck, they have always sucked and they always will suck.

I hope you're doing okay though anon 🫂

[crazycatsiren]

Stop using autism as an excuse for shitty behaviors. Truly, fuck off.

I don't give a fuck about your autism. Pathetic shit of an excuse if I've ever seen one. If you're seriously ok with going around telling people to go kill themselves, you have a morality problem, not an autism problem.

You're still an asshole even if you're autistic. You're just an autistic asshole. And you don't get to make the rest of us look bad, because you somehow think it's cool to weaponize autism in order to be a steaming shit pile of a person.

Autistic people are perfectly capable of distinguishing right from wrong.

Go fuck yourself.

[ganondoodle]

since seeing a post from a mutual yesterday i was thinking about how grateful i am that i can now, confidently say something like -im taking demise away from nintendo- or -hes MY character now- while knowing that the people following me will understand that thats not actually possible and also i dont mean that literally literally (duh)

bc (while i have mentioned it in the past and im not trying to fish for sympathy with this, the memories ... and trauma really does come back every now and then) there were people once that imagined i said that about a popular character in the fandom i was in when i was a teen and proceeded to try (and nearly succeeding bc i was already struggeling alot with depression, anxiety and undiagnosed autism) to bully me into killing myself; perhaps it wasnt their actual goal, but the shit they did (alot of them were adults too), was absolutely insane, but i've only been able to see that wayyyy after the fact

like even if im remembering wrong and i did word it wrong or weird or in a way that was easily misunderstood, i was a teen, with english not as my first language and it still was some fandom shit that ultimately did not matter and never in any scenario warrented that level of harrassment, i dont even think i ever told my parents bc i thought i had to deal with it alone since i 'caused' it too and since then just ... wanting to forget it ever happened

while i am much, much better now, and slowly learning to manage my mental health struggles too, i do wonder just .. how much of how i am today was shaped by that horrible experience, like the way i overly try to pre-apologize and put doubts on every thought i write out, or the panic i feel when something does go outside my usual range (mostly twitter really ..) was immensely worsened by that .. among stuff i probably dont even realize

funnily enough, i made my account on tumblr to try and flee from all that was happening to me (even if they did stalk me at first .. even here) and hey, im still here :D

i guess what im trying to say is, i am very happy to still be here, i am grateful to be able to be myself, even with its downsides, even with my problems, even if the things i do are passable at best, even if i will never "make it big", even if i am annoying at times, even if i do mistakes still, even if i am .... horribly bad at replying to the awesome people that message me-

there are, at least a few people, who enjoy, or even care, or heck, even think about what i draw and write, which is .. still mind boggling to me and i might never be able to truly believe its all real, there are people who are able to see beyond my flaws, forgive me if i do missstep or overreact, and just be aware that even with everything i share about me, there is lots you dont know that may inform why i feel a certain way about something, but thats okay, i am human, i am here, there are people who enjoy my brainworms, and perhaps even think i, as a person, am nice

i am so grateful for that

some things are good

[a-sip-of-milo]

Hey, driving someone to suicide isn’t okay!

…oh, they have a cluster b disorder? Never mind then

[69constellationsinatrenchcoat]

kill yourself

This is the single funniest anon I've ever got. If this was serious, you have failed, SO BADLY.

I have been laughing at this since I saw it in my inbox. And now my sides hurt.

It's giving

✨💕 kill yourself 💕✨

Have a nice day anon, you made me smile

We do not support sending anon hate, especially not suicide bait like this, however laughing over a stupid, immature anon is often wonderfully therapeutic

[explodcor]

PSA - Muse is no longer answering questions about the following topic:

OOC: So, in my 70 questions and memes that were gathering dust in my inbox, around 20% were specifically based around the "swan dive" comment Katsuki said to Izuku.

While I generally appreciate Katsuki getting questions (and even angsty ones), that topic has been beat to death in his inbox. There are only SO many ways he can answer questions related to his past bullying. Like he's exhausted answering the same questions over and over and over, and I don't want people to get bored reading his same response over and over.

Katsuki's addressed it enough, and he's moved well past that moment in his life. Him nearly dying twice and apologizing to Izuku directly seems more than enough for atonement. I rarely write him in "Season 1" mode anymore. My muse's default canon in season 6/7 of the anime after he's apologized to Izuku.

So, if more questions related to "Do you regret telling Izuku to jump?" come into my inbox, they won't be answered going forward. His answer will always be "yes." Search the tag "Katsuki replies" on my blog, and you will find a good handful of his answers to that same question if you haven't seen them already.

I will also add this into the rules on my blog.

[spotify-official]

Since you hate Taylor so much you should probably get better taste or just kys

[proshipconfessions]

I have some dirt on that homestuck rp server, mainly that I do know that:

a member doxxed someone because they accused them of being a pedophile or being inappropriate around the younger server members

The owners & mods immediately deletes all messages from banned users

The owner & mods tend to lie in their announcement of who gotten banned

The mods & owner can and will ban anyone who shows the tiniest hint they're proship or support anti-harassment + censorship outside of the server, which is lunatic behaviour

A member caused someone to want to end themselves for getting "proshipped" (I have 0 clue tf that means)

Didn't show that the server is Anti-friendly on their physical poster for last year homestuck cafe event (I wonder why /s)

Banned a CSA survivor for using art to vent outside the server

Makes death threats toward proshippers in the main chat

The owner is the creator of Dice Will Roll

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[insomniac-ships]

Hi, sorry if this is a dumb question, but are there any blogs for people that are ex-anti? I used to be one since I was in my mid-teens, but given how anti culture has shifted, I've spent the past few months re-examining my place in the community and find that I no longer fit in, if I ever really did.

I think I was drawn to a lot of the critical and analytical aspects of it bc I'm an obnoxious nerd and like to be Loud and Annoying about my opinions. However, as the community progressed, I started becoming uncomfortable by others with my (perceived) shared stances as they would use it as justification to bully, harass, and encourage proshippers to kill themselves. Not all of them do that, but as we've all seen, too many of them do and it really sucks. I have also never fully bought into the idea that what someone enjoys in fiction, no matter how deplorable, automatically equates to what they are irl. At worst, I had some misguided notions about people's capabilities to make healthy choices for themselves and that's as far as my concern about ships went.

I think the final straw for me is antis sending CSEM material to the moderators at AO3 as well as a situation antis were apparently circulating CSEM of a proshipper from when they were being abused at age three. That's just beyond horrific.

Sorry for the text wall! I hope you have a good day.

Heya! No such thing as a dumb question, so no worries. To answer your question though, I don't actually know if there are any blogs out there specifically for ex-antis.

My blog is a safe space for folks trying to get out of those toxic circles, and I know a few other proshippers out there are also happy to give ex-antis a judgment-free place to start over, talk about their experiences, or just exist.

⭐ Hey! If you're a proshipper who is chill with ex-antis, please consider reblogging this! ⭐

And in case you need to hear it today, anon: you did good. It can hard to break away from environments like that, where people are kept in check through paranoia, fear, and the risk of being totally ostracized. I'm glad you were able to step away from that. ♡

[antiendovents]

tw: suicide baiting, suicide mention, bad ex, fake claiming,

went to join a system server I found on tiktok and my ex who told me that I'd be better off dead and

all my friends should k*ll themselves was there and complaining about an ex

that "was faking did for attention and had a Hazbin fictive before watching the whole show"

and we knew they were talking about us and it made us so sad

:(

we left so we didn't make a scene but we really wanted to make new friends!!

-noodle

awh, I'm really sorry that happened. You didn't deserve that. You aren't better off dead, and your friends definitely should not kill themselves. And you aren't faking for attention. Introjects aren't controllable and can form at any time, even when you haven't actually watched the show or finished watching it. Your ex is stupid and I'm so sorry you have to deal with someone like that. They suck. I hope you manage to find a safer space where you can make friends, real friends.