#still upset and need to vent sorry

[gemharvest]

Hate thissss I feel like I haven't been properly productive today (somehow posting two art things Doesn't register properly in my mind) so I wanna stay up to get as much as I can down, but I also need to go to sleep in case I'm called in tomorrow because fuuuuuck going to work on little sleep that shit sucks. But also, the possibility of being called in makes me wanna stay up even more, so I can finish art in case I don't have time tomorrow. So now I'm sat up at 12:30 tired as shit but unable to draw or go to bed. The never-ending cycle of hell.

[alchemiclee]

i know this has been said 473773474833 times by the kavetham/haikaveh shippers and probably even nonshippers, but i'll say it again. I finally finished the genshin summer event and did the little after quest in sumeru and.....every time kaveh is sneaking around trying not to be noticed coming out of alhaithams house it's just such a gay vibe. he's basically screaming "I can't be caught being gay in a homophobic society!" even if that's not what the game writers are *actually* saying. that's just how it comes off and they can't make it come off any other way. with hoyo's gay history, it makes me wonder if it's on purpose and all a cover-up to have a technically different reason for it so they can get away with it lmao but we will never know.

[wildflowercryptid]

trying to job hunt makes me want to rip out my hair. they expect you to jump through 15 different hoops just to apply to something w/ dogshit pay & hours only to never even send you a rejection email.

[secretly-of-course]

please think twice before you point out an innocuous mistake in someone’s art, you could end up ruining an entire piece they spent hours on for them.

[ulysses-but-somehow-more-transer]

PE teachers will really look at you after not having managed to be in any of the pairs or groups of five or whatever he told yall to form for the like 17th time in a row and tell you, the clearly and obviously outcast child, to go and walk up to an established group and ask to join them (possibly making it harder for that group to even do the task you were given) and think thats somehow a good idea

[phagodyke]

wanted to go to the gym social tn but as I was getting my stuff together to go out, a friend said smth that rly pissed me off and now I'm too fucking angry to go out. fucks sake man

[remuspenus]

I find it so fascinating the way I view myself interacts with my emotional state-

when I'm having trouble focusing I wish I was a robot, sleek, built with purpose, no need to eat or drink, just monthly maintenance. I do the job I'm built for and am successful at it. it's a dream I have often when I feel like I'm failing to complete simply daily tasks like eating and sleeping.

When I'm lonely I'm a dog or a wolf. I dream of cuddling up all warm to someone. I want people to be excited when I walk into a room. I want to be soft and fluffy enough that people want to reach out to me, hug me, let me sit near them. The same feeling comes over me when I'm protective of someone.

When I'm depressed I feel like a dead body. this is the worst one because those are the days I can't make myself eat or shower or do much of anything that dead bodies don't do. I just wait, half convinced if I lay down for long enough my body will remember that I'm dead and start the process of rotting. I get scared to look into mirrors. I stop wearing clothes because putting on an outfit feels wrong and bad, like I'm not supposed to.

[orcelito]

Opening the local bubble tea store absolutely livid and shaking in rage and upset bc my bitch ass boss is too concerned about us sitting on the job to order the tea bags I requested Two Fucking Weeks Ago (it only takes like 4 or 5 days to ship) and so we're out and I had to hand wash the 1 reusable bag to make black tea and I have to strain the free floating tea leaves from the cold brew and I just KNOWWWW he's going to have something more to bitch about because he always does

Last straw on the camel's back, etc etc, I want to put in my two weeks notice by the end of this week. That's a goal for myself.

[justmossyaps]

y’all ever feel like you’re trying to diffuse several bombs while a bomb is also strapped to your chest? cause my friends are sad and angry and not feeling well so i’m trying to take care of them and cheer them up and be the comic relief and also my parents are stressed so im trying to help them calm down and do the cleaning and stuff for them so they can go relax and my dog is crazy so i have to help wear him out so he doesn’t stress my parents out more and im constantly trying not to have a meltdown and also look like im not about to pass out every time i stand up and it’s just like UGH. i can physically feel tension in the air and it’s like aghhhhhh i can’t breathe

[hofftrans]

cw child abuse but I thought maybe my mum would finally be chill w/ us talking about the time she repeatedly shoved me into a room as punishment for having a panic attack at 8 years old but it turns out it's not chill and bringing it up still Makes Me The Asshole

[deancoded-deangirl]

i bring a “traumatized child pretending to be an adult” kinda vibe that people really don’t like

[moonlit-orchid]

good evening to everyone except a certain few fucking anons

[fancycolours]

i literally told somebody that i hope they’re doing well and then they unfollowed me??? okay... 

[skullzy20]

I am not exaggerating when I say I live with one of the worst cishet men I've ever met in my life and its horrible

Pretty big vent incoming in tags, just a warning. Feel free to scroll past /gen

[mephiles-the-jester]

cats crying out in the living room because she wants to go out, my dad is in the living room on the other side of the wall from the bunkbed saying she wants to go out, i say to not let her out and have told my mom before that i have paranoia about the cat being out at night because we've had a cat dissappear at night before when i was still in elementary school

my mom somehow hears only me talking and not my dad and doesnt get im talking to someone else and gets up and goes into the living room, hears from my dad that the cat wants out, and lets her out at 11pm. she comes back in the room and blames me?for waking her up?and says to just let the cat out myself instead of waking her up to do it. i want to move out.

[arsenicflame]

'im doing great!!!' <- had to read through old messages from their [????] to remind themselves that was a legitimate thing that happened and not just a delusion