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sam-is-my-safe-word · 5 months ago
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So here’s the thing with exercise. Anything is better than nothing is a great thought. Lovely idea. In Theory.
I exist in pjs. Unless I have A Place To Be, I am in pjs. Ratty pjs, fancy pjs, gender affirming pjs. All the pjs. I don’t wear any kind of bra (unless I’m feeling extra dysphoric and need to try & flatten everything down)
Now, I have tried various forms of in home exercise. DVDs (dating myself there lol), YouTube vids, 30 day exercise plans, elliptical machine (in the shed), treadmill (under the couch), yoga stretches, Wii fit, ring fit (Nintendo stop stealing my money). All with the theory that I don’t have to get dressed to exercise.
But I do y’all. I got thick thighs & a chest. My pjs be comfy, but they are not supportive or protective in the ways I need if I’m gonna be jumping around.
Which leads me back to my original point. Going for a walk. The easiest form of exercise there is. But it’s not just ‘going for a walk’
I have to get dressed. I have to put on people clothes. I have to put on some kind of bra. And shoes. As someone with chronic depression, that’s a LOT of steps before I’ve even started to do the Task.
Then there is timing. I work 8 hours a day. Do I go before work & have to get up early? Do I go after work when I’m already exhausted? Do I use my lunch & eat at my desk (I work from home)? In the winter it’s dark when I start work & dark when I finish, I have my safety to consider then.
And then afterwards, im hot, im sweaty, im yucky. I need to shower. (Yes even with just a gentle walk. Ya mortal is… rotund 😉). And if you know me, you know how much of a fuckin’ ordeal showers are. Maybe I’ll make a post soon about how human skin is badly designed & we should all have lizard skin.
So just a lil walk, with the idea that ‘something is better than nothing’ has turned into a multistage process & I’m tired just thinking about it tbh.
I am fully aware of the mental & physically benefits that doing a lil steppy step bring me. Those times when I have managed to get into a routine of going for a lil walk, I’ve felt much better.
But the energy to sustain the momentum is often more than I have. So I slack off, because I’m just so damn tired. And then eventually I just stop completely. And then boom, I’m back to square one telling myself that this time, I’ll make it stick.
And another thing.
That no one ever seems to talk about. Exercise is free right? Wrong.
Walking is free (money wise I mean, we just discussed all the ways it win not free) but what if you don’t live in a place that is conducive to walking? Maybe it’s unsafe? Maybe like me, you live in the basin of a lot of hills & every direction is up-fucking-hill, my god, who designed this place, Satan?
So even if I can drag my brain, kicking & screaming into the outside & force my body to move. I’m limited in where I can even go, because those hills will leave me with a broken body for days as it tries to heal from being pushed too far.
In the comments/reblogs of this post I saw one that said ‘if you hate exercise, you just haven’t found the right type of exercise’
And I’m sure that’s true. I’m sure there are plenty of ways to make my body move that I would love. Exactly none of them are accessible to me.
- I don’t drive. So I’m limited by what is in walking distance (nothing) or what is within public transport distance
- tied into that, I’m broke. I have a family to support and I’m breadwinner. Swimming/rock climbing/tennis/martial arts/whatever fucking else people do. It all costs money. Money to sign up for classes or sessions, money for equipment, money to get there (by bus or just putting gas in your car). It all. Fucking. Costs. And I don’t have that extra cash. My kids need shit.
- time, as discussed. I work 8 hours a day (and I’m quite fond of seeing my family when I’m off the clock) so where am I fitting in this ‘right’ exercise?
I’m my own worst critic and my friends know I’m an absolute swine for comparing myself to JarPad & being like ‘he has mental health issues & he can do all these things, why do I suck so fuckin’ hard’
And when my brain is bad, it can beat me with that line for data & days & days. But when it’s good I can acknowledge that he has access to so many more resources than I do. First and foremost, that he is financially secure. Everything else can build from that foundation.
I don’t have that foundation. Like millions & millions of millennials & other generations, I’m a couple of missed pay cheques away from the streets. I live in a country that has a good social welfare system & I wouldn’t be on the streets. But I would dip from just treading water above the poverty line to sinking under it.
And that’s what I don’t think gets talked about enough. I love the idea that we’re supporting each other into doing a little bit, cos it’s better than nothing. Let’s keep doing that.
But I cannot be the only person that sees not just the link between poverty and & weight gain, but the barrier between poverty and weight loss/fitness (not everyone exercises to lose weight.)
So after writing all this out, I feel like I vomited up a bunch of excuses for why I’m a fat fuck & my brain has gotten the ‘if you just fucking put some effort in, you could be in shape like JarPad (yes, he is my trans body goals. I’ll have to grow about 8 inches of course, but still. Totally achievable lol)’ beating stick out.
But I cannot be the only person on this website that feels trapped by lack of accessibility to these things? We’re not lazy or unmotivated, or looking for excuses. The ability to exercise and keep fit is not as accessible as it appears.
Now. I gotta go & talk my brain down. Brush your teeth. Even 30 seconds is better than nothing at all. Love y’all
It's a lot healthier to go for a daily walk than to sign up for a gym membership you won't be using because you hate that kind of exercise. It's a lot healthier to eat a frozen meal than to skip a meal because you were too tired to cook something healthy. It's a lot healthier to take a quick shower than to procrastinate an elaborate routine for days. Don't aim so high that you won't be hitting anything!
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johnbleepingzoidberg · 2 years ago
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UNTITLED EVIL LUIGI AU COMIC THING | Page 5 of (???)
the italian says “you’re a loser” i think. i googled common italian insults and that’s what it gave me. i wanted to go with something sharper but i don’t speak italian and i was a little worried about just slapping a harsh italian insult i found on google down and calling it a day without knowing the possible repercussions LOL
i feel like the coloring kinda got away from me on this one. oh well. also i meant to actually put pictures in the frames behind bowser in panel 5 but i forgot. double oh well
little jokes/references i tried to hide in here that may or may not be very legible:
mario’s new coffee cup says marty. because i love the idea of mario being the mushroom kingdoms savior for 20+ years and yet the toads still can’t get his name right at starbucks
the time on the alarm clock reads 10:05 and is a band reference :)
luigi’s doing some research on the paranormal and is reading a book called can you burn a luigi board? a guide to the paranormal because that video truly lives in my head rent free and it’s just. too perfect. because. come on. luigi. ghosts. etc. totally unrelated to the story just wanted to throw it in here Somewhere lmfao
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pastelpousay · 5 months ago
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Y’all don’t understand like…all I can do is think of hades and rina all I can do is talk about Hadina, all I can do is eat sleep and breathe in their relationship and the love they feel for each other like y’all don’t understand
(I’m bout the cry yall.. why can’t they be canon 😿 and why can’t hades be real)
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katetorias · 2 months ago
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don’t think it should be a crazy take to understand that by definition systems are a collection of dissociated self states found in people with complex dissociative disorders (DID, OSDD, UDD, etc). that’s what the word system means in this context, and is the definition used in books and scientific literature about systems.
complex dissociative disorders are seen by years of research and testimony to be caused by childhood trauma. systems are a symptom of CDDs, meaning systems are caused by childhood trauma. a system is just one of the symptoms of having a complex dissociative disorder, and things like CPTSD, amnesia, dissociation, depersonalization/derealization, depression/suicidal tendencies are also symptoms.
systems are a symptom of a disorder that is caused by repeated childhood trauma. it’s a life saving defense mechanism our brains had to create to protect ourselves from the trauma. the brain dissociates to keep us from experiencing the traumatic events directly. that is why systems exist. that’s it.
it’s not an identity it’s just a symptom of a disorder. if that’s not what you’re experiencing then system just isn’t the right term
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clueless1995 · 1 year ago
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self care has been so twisted into serving capitalism and the patriarchy it makes me sick actually
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comehithercornking · 7 months ago
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hey babe, wake up, new reason to abolish the police force just dropped
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ssruis · 5 months ago
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Going through a straight up comical amount of irritating situations to get the stupid 4* guaranteed ticket from the welcome to sekai campaign. It Will Be Mine.
#I’m resuming this tomorrow it’s been hours now I’m just mad#I’m home because my parents are moving to a different state and I needed to pack whatever was left#and for some reason we just keep old devices when we’re done with them#so I borrow an adapter to allow me to connect my ancient unworking iPad mini to my laptop#factory reset it. i have to reset an old email to access the old Apple id to fully reset it.#it won’t connect to the wifi so I have to reset the settings. i find out it’s too old to run pjsk.#i find an old phone that should work. i reset it as well. I’m able to download pjsk & it takes 20 minutes.#pjsk crashes everytime I try to open it. i attempt to run bluestacks on my computer. bluestacks doesn’t have 64 bit for mac yet.#i get a free trial of parallels and download windows onto my laptop. this takes 40 minutes.#i try to download and run bluestacks on that. m1 macs apparently can’t run bluestacks 64 bit through parallels.#i go find the final old phone that I had forgotten about. it takes forever to charge because the charging port is fucked up. i reset it as#well. it can’t connect to wifi. i try a hotspot on my current phone. service is too awful. i try to do wifi sharing from my laptop.#you have to be connected to the router via a cable for that to work.#at this point it has been like 3 hours. I’m giving up because I’ve been down this route before#when I attempted to run 32 bit steam games on m1 mac#(wine64 doesn’t exist for m1 macs yet -> attempt to run boot camp -> boot camp isn’t a thing anymore on Apple silicon -> attempt to run#several different programs that allow me to run windows on a mac. none of them work. ->#look into linux & give up. -> attempt to implement the unfinished/unbottled wine64 code thru terminal. ->#fuck up and delete some important file & have to fix that (misery inducing) -> keep trying. i think I downloaded a Mac coding program at#some point? i realize I have zero coding knowledge and this is a mistake. -> give up and purchase crossover. game doesn’t even work. ->#3 months later update to the latest OS so I can have enough storage to play psychonauts 2. find out the $60 crossover#purchase was a bad idea because ‘heehee crossover doesn’t work on that buy the new version’ (fuck crossover).#my toxic trait is my belief that I can figure out anything via google and sheer stubbornness. usually this is true. occasionally there are#exceptions to this rule. most of them are because owning Apple products is a mistake.#i think if I reset the router tomorrow I can solve this problem but I can also just go elsewhere with better service or wait until I’m home#now it’s a matter of pride. and also free 4*/I have nothing better to do because I’m stuck here until Tuesday.#<- this is all normal behavior by the way. who doesn’t spend 8 hours ramming their head against a problem every once and a while. enrichment#mine#oh I forgot. i also looked into cloning the app but that would cost money for something that might not even work.#‘just log out and make an alt’ and risk losing my account? I’m stupid enough to overwrite it on accident.
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enigma-the-anomaly · 11 months ago
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Read a well-written article from ign by grant stoner, detailing how a new weapon in splatoon is negatively impacting disabled players’ health and caused them to stop playing until Nintendo hopefully fixes the issue. I go to the comments. It’s full of people saying that if you are photosensitive or otherwise disabled, you shouldn’t be playing in the first place and that it’s unreasonable to demand changes in accessibility.
Victim blaming and ableism, gotta love it :/
the article in question:
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lesbian-disaster-academic · 21 days ago
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i remember being in an anthropology (????) class a couple years back and experiencing it as a fairly leftist group. then, (foolishly) assuming that everyone would be on the same page as me, i brought up the need for prison abolition and got absolutely DOGPILED and outright dismissed by my classmates and ta. literally the equivalent of this
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zorosdimples · 11 months ago
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i went to the bank and bought a car and changed my car insurance and god i did so many adult things today i wanna cry
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thereareeyesinsidethetrees · 3 months ago
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y’know if there’s one good thing that came out of the book of bill, it’s that you can’t take it as canon and be a proponent of same coin theory at the same time
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sheryl-lee · 2 years ago
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i repeat: this is so stupid.
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eightw · 1 year ago
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“accessible to men” this “available to men” that MEN THINK ALL WOMEN ARE ACCESSIBLE TO THEM. FIND A NEW SENTENCE.
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mutalune · 4 months ago
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really wish there was a tag that separated “I’m having Big Angry and/or Angsty Opinions about Star Wars” from “I’m goofing off with Star Wars I’m playing in the sandbox none of this is real so yes I will make my blorbo and this random glub shitto go on an adventure that makes no logical sense” posts because there’s too much of the former and not enough of the latter for my current mental state
#starlight personal#the good news is that I finally have another ketamine appt scheduled and it’s sooner than I thought they’d have an opening#the bad news is that the appointment is not tomorrow and we’re kinda at the end of my mental-emotional rope#now kids this is what we call: an inherent flaw in my treatment plan that cannot be removed#because pretty much in an ideal world I’d have ketamine appointments every 6 weeks but 1) expensive and probs can’t afford that#2) they don’t have enough availability for that to be realistic 3) can’t take off of work THAT frequently without consequences#4) I would probably start to doubt reality if I was tripping that frequently 5) I don’t think docs would allow it#treatment resistant depression and anxiety my beloathed if we could just chill that’d be great#treatment resistant PMDD my other beloathed someday I will do my damnedest to cut you out of my body#idk not to be too selfpitying on main but god it fucking sucks that I appear to be doomed to another cycle based mood thing#PMDD means I get two good weeks two bad weeks#ketamine being the only effective treatment for whatever my brain’s got going on means two good months followed by x bad months#until my next appointment#which like! two good months is better than no good months I am grateful that something helps#I just wish it was a more convenient help and it could be applied more consistently than my psych office provides#also wish I didn’t have to call them 3 times to get it scheduled but it is what it is#also also wish that I had fewer of the physical side effects of my anxiety and wouldn’t wake up puking the min things are rough#this is all to say: I want silly SW headcanons and droid headcanons and silly fic ideas and not Everyone is Always Suffering#but I’m also too lazy (I.e brain cannot make decisions rn) to search for new tags that may give me more silly#which means time to browse my bookmarks for good good comfort fics I have saved I suppose#(this is lowkey why i want to physically fight everyone i know who’s like ‘yeah meds would help but idk :/‘ like!!!!!!!!#bro it’s a privilege to have access to meds and it’s a privilege to have a body that doesn’t turn on you the min you take one!!!!#just try 10mg of zoloft I would kill for 10mg of zoloft to not make me entirely incapable of functioning!!!)#I don’t mean that - you have a right to take or not take medication and everyone’s reasons may be their own#I just had my body and have some rough feelings around treating my issues being so expensive and inconvenient#and then feeling guilty b/c I know I’m lucky that I can afford it and can take off of work for it when I need to#like I am pretty lucky to have something that works and to have a care team that helped me get here#so I don’t wanna be ungrateful or unappreciative of my own luck in this and the work that went into getting here#I’d just also like it if I could change the circumstances slightly#make treatment on the weekends an option - get my psych office to have more than 2 trip sitters so scheduling isn’t so bad
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pepprs · 1 year ago
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feeling despair i don’t know how to put into words. im trying to figure out why im like this and how i got to be this way but i can’t even do it bc of the way i am and what im like. if that makes sense. like the problem prevents me from fixing the problem bc i can’t get to the root of it. despair despair despair
#purrs#delete later#basically i can’t internalize anything about myself. i can’t internalize that i am talented smart strong whatever and i can’t internalize#evidence that i matter and belong and am loved. i take in this evidence constsntly and it just evaporates. and then it’s like i have none of#it at all and im starving and shaking and dying and howling like a wretched little animal. and i live in this constant defaulstate of like..#feeling worthless and alone and utterly empty and like everything in my life is a dream or something. and in feeling that way and being#quite literally incapable of having emotional object permanence.. i actually make that situation real for myself. i make myself alone and#wretched. i isolate myself and shut down and don’t let myself take up the space i can. and it’s just awful. it’s unfixabke.#i just suck it all dry. i deny myself to myself and to everyone else. and idk what made me like this bc i don’t think i always used to be#this way w depression and depersonalization or whatever the fuck dsm 6 type shit i have going on. but i can’t internalize anything about#myself and my life and have no desire / willpower to look back beyond a certain point and really analyze and probe to figure out what#happened to me to make me like this so i can heal the core wound. soim just constantly in wretched tortured panicking creature mode. awesome#this cry for help brought to you by: my sister guilt tripping me into doing her laundry + my brother showing me his beautiful music +#realizing that unlike redacted i have not documented every part of my life and have no access to early childhood artifacts that would reveal#anything about me and that it does n’t even matter / isn’t special anyway. i love being normal 😎🫶🏻‼️#at least i haven’t been dissociating as badly about work stuff lately but. that’s definitely still a thing too so. what if my whole life is#just the wrong timeline i wasn’t supposed to be in and nothing is actually real. lawl 😳#this is a ​really awesome time for my therapist to be going on a monthlong honeymoon btw 😍 she deserves it so much but omg im dying already
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The fact that I have to renew the perscription for the medication I will be on for the rest of my life every six months is so fucking dumb to me. Yeah, sorry! You’re taking this shit every single day and if you don’t get the prescription filled on time you’re going to go into hellish withdrawal. But we have to reconvene every six months to make sure you REALLY need to keep this prescription active. Are you sure you still need to take the med we have said you will be on for the rest of your life? Are you sure you need it?
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