#something isn’t accessible

[sam-is-my-safe-word]

So here’s the thing with exercise. Anything is better than nothing is a great thought. Lovely idea. In Theory.

I exist in pjs. Unless I have A Place To Be, I am in pjs. Ratty pjs, fancy pjs, gender affirming pjs. All the pjs. I don’t wear any kind of bra (unless I’m feeling extra dysphoric and need to try & flatten everything down)

Now, I have tried various forms of in home exercise. DVDs (dating myself there lol), YouTube vids, 30 day exercise plans, elliptical machine (in the shed), treadmill (under the couch), yoga stretches, Wii fit, ring fit (Nintendo stop stealing my money). All with the theory that I don’t have to get dressed to exercise.

But I do y’all. I got thick thighs & a chest. My pjs be comfy, but they are not supportive or protective in the ways I need if I’m gonna be jumping around.

Which leads me back to my original point. Going for a walk. The easiest form of exercise there is. But it’s not just ‘going for a walk’

I have to get dressed. I have to put on people clothes. I have to put on some kind of bra. And shoes. As someone with chronic depression, that’s a LOT of steps before I’ve even started to do the Task.

Then there is timing. I work 8 hours a day. Do I go before work & have to get up early? Do I go after work when I’m already exhausted? Do I use my lunch & eat at my desk (I work from home)? In the winter it’s dark when I start work & dark when I finish, I have my safety to consider then.

And then afterwards, im hot, im sweaty, im yucky. I need to shower. (Yes even with just a gentle walk. Ya mortal is… rotund 😉). And if you know me, you know how much of a fuckin’ ordeal showers are. Maybe I’ll make a post soon about how human skin is badly designed & we should all have lizard skin.

So just a lil walk, with the idea that ‘something is better than nothing’ has turned into a multistage process & I’m tired just thinking about it tbh.

I am fully aware of the mental & physically benefits that doing a lil steppy step bring me. Those times when I have managed to get into a routine of going for a lil walk, I’ve felt much better.

But the energy to sustain the momentum is often more than I have. So I slack off, because I’m just so damn tired. And then eventually I just stop completely. And then boom, I’m back to square one telling myself that this time, I’ll make it stick.

And another thing.

That no one ever seems to talk about. Exercise is free right? Wrong.

Walking is free (money wise I mean, we just discussed all the ways it win not free) but what if you don’t live in a place that is conducive to walking? Maybe it’s unsafe? Maybe like me, you live in the basin of a lot of hills & every direction is up-fucking-hill, my god, who designed this place, Satan?

So even if I can drag my brain, kicking & screaming into the outside & force my body to move. I’m limited in where I can even go, because those hills will leave me with a broken body for days as it tries to heal from being pushed too far.

In the comments/reblogs of this post I saw one that said ‘if you hate exercise, you just haven’t found the right type of exercise’

And I’m sure that’s true. I’m sure there are plenty of ways to make my body move that I would love. Exactly none of them are accessible to me.

- I don’t drive. So I’m limited by what is in walking distance (nothing) or what is within public transport distance

- tied into that, I’m broke. I have a family to support and I’m breadwinner. Swimming/rock climbing/tennis/martial arts/whatever fucking else people do. It all costs money. Money to sign up for classes or sessions, money for equipment, money to get there (by bus or just putting gas in your car). It all. Fucking. Costs. And I don’t have that extra cash. My kids need shit.

- time, as discussed. I work 8 hours a day (and I’m quite fond of seeing my family when I’m off the clock) so where am I fitting in this ‘right’ exercise?

I’m my own worst critic and my friends know I’m an absolute swine for comparing myself to JarPad & being like ‘he has mental health issues & he can do all these things, why do I suck so fuckin’ hard’

And when my brain is bad, it can beat me with that line for data & days & days. But when it’s good I can acknowledge that he has access to so many more resources than I do. First and foremost, that he is financially secure. Everything else can build from that foundation.

I don’t have that foundation. Like millions & millions of millennials & other generations, I’m a couple of missed pay cheques away from the streets. I live in a country that has a good social welfare system & I wouldn’t be on the streets. But I would dip from just treading water above the poverty line to sinking under it.

And that’s what I don’t think gets talked about enough. I love the idea that we’re supporting each other into doing a little bit, cos it’s better than nothing. Let’s keep doing that.

But I cannot be the only person that sees not just the link between poverty and & weight gain, but the barrier between poverty and weight loss/fitness (not everyone exercises to lose weight.)

So after writing all this out, I feel like I vomited up a bunch of excuses for why I’m a fat fuck & my brain has gotten the ‘if you just fucking put some effort in, you could be in shape like JarPad (yes, he is my trans body goals. I’ll have to grow about 8 inches of course, but still. Totally achievable lol)’ beating stick out.

But I cannot be the only person on this website that feels trapped by lack of accessibility to these things? We’re not lazy or unmotivated, or looking for excuses. The ability to exercise and keep fit is not as accessible as it appears.

Now. I gotta go & talk my brain down. Brush your teeth. Even 30 seconds is better than nothing at all. Love y’all

It's a lot healthier to go for a daily walk than to sign up for a gym membership you won't be using because you hate that kind of exercise. It's a lot healthier to eat a frozen meal than to skip a meal because you were too tired to cook something healthy. It's a lot healthier to take a quick shower than to procrastinate an elaborate routine for days. Don't aim so high that you won't be hitting anything!

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

i joke about pots a lot because. what else can i do. but it’s also so exhausting. i have a quiz tomorrow and need to study but because i was up at four in the morning and got up too fast i’m now in a flare with a heart rate reacting to everything and brain fog that means i quite literally cannot process or retain information. i’m making dinner and then have to somehow wash dishes and then go to bed. i only have tomorrow to study because there aren’t other options

[pastelpousay]

Y’all don’t understand like…all I can do is think of hades and rina all I can do is talk about Hadina, all I can do is eat sleep and breathe in their relationship and the love they feel for each other like y’all don’t understand

(I’m bout the cry yall.. why can’t they be canon 😿 and why can’t hades be real)

[katetorias]

don’t think it should be a crazy take to understand that by definition systems are a collection of dissociated self states found in people with complex dissociative disorders (DID, OSDD, UDD, etc). that’s what the word system means in this context, and is the definition used in books and scientific literature about systems.

complex dissociative disorders are seen by years of research and testimony to be caused by childhood trauma. systems are a symptom of CDDs, meaning systems are caused by childhood trauma. a system is just one of the symptoms of having a complex dissociative disorder, and things like CPTSD, amnesia, dissociation, depersonalization/derealization, depression/suicidal tendencies are also symptoms.

systems are a symptom of a disorder that is caused by repeated childhood trauma. it’s a life saving defense mechanism our brains had to create to protect ourselves from the trauma. the brain dissociates to keep us from experiencing the traumatic events directly. that is why systems exist. that’s it.

it’s not an identity it’s just a symptom of a disorder. if that’s not what you’re experiencing then system just isn’t the right term

[clueless1995]

self care has been so twisted into serving capitalism and the patriarchy it makes me sick actually

[evansbby]

@ american followers, i can’t believe yall are about to lose tiktok 😭😭🥲🥲 stay strong!

[comehithercornking]

hey babe, wake up, new reason to abolish the police force just dropped

[ssruis]

Going through a straight up comical amount of irritating situations to get the stupid 4* guaranteed ticket from the welcome to sekai campaign. It Will Be Mine.

[enigma-the-anomaly]

Read a well-written article from ign by grant stoner, detailing how a new weapon in splatoon is negatively impacting disabled players’ health and caused them to stop playing until Nintendo hopefully fixes the issue. I go to the comments. It’s full of people saying that if you are photosensitive or otherwise disabled, you shouldn’t be playing in the first place and that it’s unreasonable to demand changes in accessibility.

Victim blaming and ableism, gotta love it :/

the article in question:

[deepersea]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Ensemble Stars! (Video Game) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: HiMERU | OreMERU (Ensemble Stars!)/Reader Characters: HiMERU | OreMERU (Ensemble Stars!), Reader Additional Tags: Fluff, Cuddling & Snuggling, the sillies…., Mentioned Tojou Kaname | Original HiMERU, Mentioned Amagi Rinne, no nuis were harmed in the making of this fic Series: Part 14 of Slice of life and coffee cups Summary: This is perhaps the weirdest staring contest HiMERU has ever found himself in. And he’s going to lose.

[lesbian-disaster-academic]

i remember being in an anthropology (????) class a couple years back and experiencing it as a fairly leftist group. then, (foolishly) assuming that everyone would be on the same page as me, i brought up the need for prison abolition and got absolutely DOGPILED and outright dismissed by my classmates and ta. literally the equivalent of this

[winged-wolf-s-collection-of-arts]

I realize I may have some story trouble. So, the corpse- you know, the corpse that was formerly Rev (bad timeline) and currently belongs to JJ. Well. If I remember right recently on a whim holly came up with that horrible (devious) idea that JJ kept the body and pretends to talk to it because uh that’s kinda all he’s got left- BUT.

This was a new idea, so how long has he had it for.

How long after burying it did he dig it up? Did he just. Have that thing in his closet while he was mayor?? (probably?? mad scientist and all that.) Did JJ just have it stashed somewhere during his brief reformation arc??? People, these are the questions.

I would say it took years after to dig it up probably- at first he wasn’t too mad-scientist-like and definitely wanted to hide the evidence. Also because of how visible the bones are now.

Uhhh fecking heart under the floorboards moment haha

[danvssomethingorother]

There is a huge gap in Disney films between the late 60s and early 90s that are just impossible to find. They aren’t part of the animated canon and not quite Disney Channel films (some predate the channel) but Disney movies owned and made by Disney.

I went down a rabbit hole of Disney horror films and not a single one is on Disney Plus.

Idk it just pisses me off when companies don’t give a shit about preserving their own media. I don’t care how bad or controversial these films are seen, I think they should be accessible on the streaming service directly owned by Disney. Or at least given proper home releases…

[zorosdimples]

i went to the bank and bought a car and changed my car insurance and god i did so many adult things today i wanna cry

[thereareeyesinsidethetrees]

y’know if there’s one good thing that came out of the book of bill, it’s that you can’t take it as canon and be a proponent of same coin theory at the same time

[eightw]

“accessible to men” this “available to men” that MEN THINK ALL WOMEN ARE ACCESSIBLE TO THEM. FIND A NEW SENTENCE.