#really depends on the Mental Health | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

spinspoon · 1 year ago

Note

Hello there! Do you post art here often?

not enough to be frequent but enough to not be infrequent either JFKSHFKDJ

HOWEVER i am working on two different -tober prompt lists rn (horse-tober which everyone should GO CHECK OUT because my friend lexi made it and it's super cool 😌😌😌 and main inktober but im gonna be doin all the prompts with marker)

so expect to see me put out the first three days of each of those sometime today since the last three days have kinda run together but hopefully it'll be more consistent going forward

#spinspoon speaks #asks!!#that's the best way i can put it really HAHA #most of the time I either go long periods w/o drawing and sometimes i have Huge bursts of art at the same time #really depends on the Mental Health #OH ALSO IM TAKING DOODLE REQUESTS #im trying to do doodles more often so hopefully itll encourage me to do more full pieces #anyway thanks for the question!!#ALSO hi broski ive seen u in my notes for a while so i decided to drop a follow finally

7 notes · View notes

beanghostprincess · 11 months ago

Text

Luffy not knowing about Zoro promising Sanji to kill him if he ever ends up losing himself makes me go feral because that's something they can only know about. Because Zoro's respect for life and death goes beyond anything, and Sanji knows he understands. Sanji knows that if somebody has to kill him, it's him.

And I don't even think it's because Sanji assumes Zoro's opinion of him is hatred and it would hurt less for him to do this, but because Sanji knows only Zoro would be able to treat the promise as it is. Because he would put Sanji's wishes before any feelings he has for him. It's not that Zoro doesn't care, but I think he respects people's ideals and decisions to the extent of being able to kill Sanji if he so desires.

That being said, he'd do it if there's no other way to fix it. If it's either dying or living as an emotionless machine, which is the same as dying for Sanji, Zoro would fulfill his promise. And there is just... Something about Luffy not knowing. Their captain. The man they're devoted to the most as if he were their God. Luffy doesn't know. It's something only the captain's wings are aware of and the thought of these two keeping this from Luffy until the end is just insane. Not even trying to make it romantic here, but the bond and respect these two have for each other is crazy.

Maybe it's the poetry of it all, too. Somebody like Zoro, who has looked at Death in her face multiple times and said "no", ending Sanji's life, who wants to give in to death to not experience a fate worse than death for him.

#bean posting zosan this is so rare and weird don't get used to it sweeties #kind of tired of people jumping to extremes with these two btw like-#they don't hate each others but they're also not best friends-- respect is something they value even more than those things #they're not good for my mental health they make me go insane #this wasn't meant to be in a shippy way but idk if you wanna see it as romantic you do you bc it could def be #it depends on my mood #i consider myself a zosan shippers on random days #you could also say sanji thinks zoro doesn't give a fuck about him and that's why he tells him bc we know this guy's self-worth is awful #but i also like to think it's because zoro's views on life and death are exactly what sanji needs #luffy would try to look for a way to fix this and they others wouldn't be able to do it tbh #i mean if it ever got too serious i think luffy could do it but do you really think sanji's gonna make him go through that #if zoro has to die he wants to die by luffy's hand but if sanji has to die he wants to die without involving their captain #idk if that makes sense okay i haven't slept at all tbf #one piece #black leg sanji #roronoa zoro #zosan

339 notes · View notes

quadrantadvisor · 19 days ago

Text

tl;dr: I think being trapped in a time loop would fix him

[Plain text under the cut]

I read like two different jason time loop fics which both featured jason coming to the cave for help or resources when people didn't expect him there which makes me think that the loop helped make jason aware that he could come to his family for help and anyways jason gets stuck in a time loop shortly after becoming the Red Hood bruce is aware or at least suspects his identity but he hasnt communicated that to anyone else yet so for a couple of loops jason tries to figure out what's going on but all of his league contacts are either unhelpful or unreachable within the time frame and he gets frustrated and he spends a while just. living out all of his sadistic fantasies he gets to do every dramatic reveal, he gets to kill each one of them, and they're spitting and defiant and telling him he isn't the jason who died but after a while it stops being satisfying and he gets desperate for a way out he knows by this point that bruce hasn't told anyone about him, so his new plan is to talk to one of them away from bruce and just lie Dick is the obvious choice, and that's how jason finds out that dick has been hallucinating him while he's been gone he is not very useful. it's really hard to convince him that jason is legit and then he just gets really emotional and doesn't pay attention to the time loop at all also jason feels really weird about it

so he tries tim. he's like. okay. he doesn't know you're the red hood. you just have to be civil to him for one loop and when it turns out he can't do anything you try something else but tim is also like. really emotional about him apparently? but when jason tells him there's a time loop he takes it really seriously tim is like "why didn't you go to bruce?" and jason is like "i tried that. when he finds out he makes it worse" which is a very plausible thing for someone in a time loop to say so tim believes him Tim's like "obviously i have to verify" and jason is thinking to himself what a waste of time this all is. but tim gets his permission to bring babs in on things and that's how jason finds out about oracle and the clocktower so thats useful at least they use babs equipment for blood tests and tim grills jason on things only he would know and jason is like. hey. why do you know any of that stuff and by the time that tim is satisfied that Jason is who he says he is and that what he says is happening is happening the day is basically over and jason is like well thanks for nothing

and Tim's like, oh, sorry, this is just the setup. next time just tell me this timeloop code, I'll know that I trusted you enough to give it to you so I'll listen to whatever you say which actually does work to Jason's surprise, tim just asks him how many times and what they've already tried and they get down to business tim always has a freakout over jason being alive but that freakout can come at different times of the day depending on how jason plays it jason is still mad at tim and frequently snappy with him but it takes a few loops for him to just yell at tim that he's the red hood and he's been killing people and he was planning on killing tim (not strictly true originally but like. he has done it, so) and tim is like. hm. that makes it pretty personally dangerous for you to know my time loop code, since it makes me just drop everything and listen to whoever says it. but also i think you do need help so i guess I'm still glad you have it. and jason is like WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU

anyways on a later loop tim convinces him to sneak into the bag cave for the tech and bruce catches them there and jason is like well that's this loop shot but bruce is just like ……. jason? 🥺 you came home? anyways the fic is about jason realizing that he never needed to do all that shit, and actually he finds it rather distasteful, and he can just. go home. if he wants on the last loop he has to like leave gotham to go stop whatever is causing this and it takes all day so he doesn't even talk to them so he has to make the real choice to start up relationships with all of them for keeps and by that point he's experienced so much time loop violence that the first thing he says to bruce is, I'm not gonna kill anyone, at least for now. we can talk about the morality of it and stuff and i will legitimately discuss it with you but right now i just don't want to so that can be our truce and bruce is like, sobbing at having his kid back he uses the code on tim one last time and tim jerks to attention but Jason's like nah relax the loop is over, just wanted to say thanks for all the help

#that should be a new gimmick polls blog #would being trapped in a timeloop fix them or make them worse #for example I think a timeloop would be devastatingly terrible for either dick or tim's mental health #bruce could go either way #partially depends on if it's a normal time loop or one of those ones where your loved ones die over and over i guess #ANYWAYS #under the hood era jason timeloop would be FASCINATING #the incredible violence he would get up to #and eventually realize is empty and meaningless because none of it changes the ways in which he was hurt #(none of it changes anything actually. because timeloop)#and that the only way for him to really start to heal is to move on (and get help)#the fam dealing with him post timeloop would be. so confused #like we are going directly from duffle bag full of heads to jason showing up at the manor like awkwardly rubbing the back of his neck #like heeeeeeyyyyyyyyy guysssss...... can i come in.........#alfred is not mentioned in my spiel because jason was specifically avoiding him for the whole time loop fiasco #the rest of the 'family' being horrified by what he has become is something that jason has convinced himself is what he wants #he wants the catharsis of their guilt and failure #but even then he knows that seeing alfred would just make him sad #babs barely gets mentioned but I don't think jason was mad at her and also he didn't know she was still operating at first #once tim reintroduces them they get a pretty good rapport going #i mean as good of a rapport as you can gain when one of you has to start over every day. y'all understand #this is too many tags #jason todd #red hood #dc #dick grayson #tim drake #batman #batfam #time loop

16 notes · View notes

sysig · 4 months ago

Photo

Dr. “Has to get a good grade in therapy” Doran (Patreon)

#Doodles #Okay so none of them feature but uhhhh #SCII #It's related I swear lol #Damned #Finally a tag that makes sense here lol #Wander Over Yonder #Wander #I still mean Dr. Doran haha how clumsy of me :)#More concept stuff for funsies because yaayyyy #Fun to work with by design haha - he just wants to help people! He really does feel like a good fit ♪ Lovely feeling haha #Pretty fun to draw even if his design is rather cartoony haha #Realistically he'd probably have red curls but it's fun to hold some of his cartoon design elements! Wander's fur is all round like that #Freckles could be considered on-model depending on your definition lol the little patterning in his fur could count....maybe lol #So it's a bit of a stretch that's fine! His facial hair is definitely accounted for! Good good #And keeping his hat and banjo as props hehe hey if Stein gets to be all stitchy then Wander can be a bit quirky it's fine!#There's an explanation! It makes sense so it's fine! Lol #That really is my favourite part honestly it's rearranging [character] until they're puzzle-piece shaped <3 There's the spooks to it!#And I love the spooks :) The therapists get the least amount of Pain and Suffering but they're excellent spookage set dressing #Wander's great for that because he Can get a little in his head about him feeling helpful > actually being helpful #Which I think is Perfect honestly <3 He's such a great fit I love him #I didn't see much of the other therapists - Wilson got the double feature! I do want to check out the others'#But from the descriptions there didn't seem to be anyone specializing in kids' mental health?? Which is weird to me! There's kids there!#I mean even if he didn't specialize in pediatric therapy he'd still decorate his office the same way lol he just leaned into it #It's cozy in here ♪ Inviting! He wants you to feel better so badly! Please feel better #Just a totally chill guy other than the He Needs To Do Well #Hehe

16 notes · View notes

rebellum · 2 years ago

Text

I feel like... Perhaps... Arguing that transphobia is defined by murder and that anything other than murder doesn't even matter... May NOT be conducive to fighting for trans rights.

Like... people want the right to exist as they are. They want to have access to hrt and surgeries and prosthetics. People want access to clothes that fit them and reflect how they want to be seen. People want access to medical care (eg. Getting screened and treated for sex-based forms of cancer can be impossible if you have the "wrong" sex listed to receive those tests). People want to be respected and treated well. People want to not be sexually assaulted and beaten and abused. People want to have access to housing and jobs, and the protection to not lose those things for being trans. People want access to shelters for homeless people or survivors of domestic abuse. People want name changes.

Acting like all of those things don't matter because at least they weren't murderered by an individual (and instead die of suicide or state violence, or survive and suffer) isn't okay.

#'hey people are forcibly detransitioning you and raping and beating you and you lost your job and are going to be homeless and #probably die of infection from being stabbed for trying to go to the bathroom. but at least you arent part of a demographic that has a #higher murder victim rate! shhh just ignore that we dont actually have data on the murder rate of your group.'#do ppl like. forget state based violence exists. and that thats most violence minorities face.#idk man im just. mad about people on here acting like youre only oppressed if youre a perisex trans woman who was AMAB.#cause i exist at the intersection of multiple minorities and being told hey u experience violence but at least you wont be murdered by an #individual feels like a slap in the face.#like it doesnt matter if i have to mask my neurodivergent behaviour bc if people see they could assume im on drugs and call the police and #i could potentially be really hurt but not die but hey at least i wont die just be horrifically traumatized by police brutality!#there are millions of people with mental illnesses similar to my own around the world who are institutionalized and forcibly medicated or #living on the streets or dependant on horrifically abusive caregivers #but hey at least they arent being murdered!#like. the way the transphobia discussion on tumblr rn discusses (and doesnt discuss) race and ability and class and health makes me #feel very invisible.#like if people had to choose who to believe about my experiences between listening to me a black/mixed mentally ill maybe disabled (used to #be disabled) hella nd trans nonbinary person #or listen to a white middle class trans woman's take on my experiences that theyd choose her. its such a weird weird microcosm.#its like a monkeys paw like people are finally listening to trans fems and finally recognising the violence they experience and finally #actually caring about them but for some reason decide that in order to do that its necessary to throw every other minority under the bus #like fuck man have you seen how 'anti transandrophobia truthers' discuss race? its NOT okay #we all matter we all are so similar and are part of the same groups and same communities we need to stick together #stop using trans fems as a battering ram to hurt other minorities challenge #cause like. yes its some trans fems. but its mostly NOT?#like its non trans fems telling other non trans fems that they arent oppressed #and even when many trans fems are like what the fuck dude of course other trans ppl matter whats wrong with you #the group of like 80% non trans fems 20% trans fems are like 'hmm if you are defending other trans people you must not really be trans fem'#like. denying trans fems their identity bc they disagree with them?? dude someone doesnt stop being a trans fem cause they recognise #people other than trans fems matter and exist #its just all so WEIRD its a weird little tumblr microcosm #i wanna stress. for those of you who dont have access to other lgbtq+ communities. how much it seems to be primarily a tumblr thing. to

325 notes · View notes

yuseirra · 5 months ago

Text

children

#ai hoshino #oshi no ko spoilers #oshi no ko #I have to draw them lots.. depending on how things play out I may or may not be able to draw them more #hikaai #when I draw emotions I try to match mine to how the characters are feeling #that way I can portray things more accurately! I do it almost every time #but what happened to him's really terrible. it's actually painful to try and do that.. so I don't want to dive in too deep sometimes #spoilers #the characters in this series suffer from many mental health issues and it IS what draws me in because psychology is my field of interest #it's portrayed pretty well...they are really real in those aspects #but it does consume some mental energy #doodle #anyway kids should be kids.. they should be treated well #this comic reminds me of that stuff and I don't think that's a bad thing

22 notes · View notes

anaalnathrakhs · 8 months ago

Text

love this part of my life where the things that are difficult but challenging and good for me are things i can stop and skip and halfass, but the things that are difficult and painful and pointless are the things i have to live with no matter what

#school and home life are too much to handle so i skip school #because i cant kick my parents out #and appartments cost money #and i dont have a car to sleep in #i could maybe try to dig up my old childhood tent but that brings a whole host of logistic questions + im scared and it's difficult #anyway. it's fine. it's cool. i just have to hold on until i graduate high shcool and then ?????#find a way to live without my parents money OR scholarships #all for some nebulous end goal of having a job (the only field i'm interested in and good at offers two options:#to become an academic #or to become a freelancer #i do not have the fortitude to be an academic and being a freelancer is convoluted and pays like shit)#i might've spent 24h without my parents occasionally if i spent the night at a friend's place once or twice recently #but besides that the last time i've gone 48h without my parents was when the mental health center organised a week camp uhhhh...#two summers ago #incredibly good for my mental health as you can see #god i remember like... years ago. around 13yo maybe or 14. a guy. i dont know if he was a mental health professional or like social cases #but anyway he told me ''you're too afraid to be away from mommy and daddy'' and it made me want to rip his eyes out #several other people have implied or suggested that too over the years and it's just #am i too dependant on my parents? yes. will it be difficult to take my independance? yes.#does it means i don't both rationally recognize and feel that this is really fucking unhealthy and hindering for me #on top of being unpleasant?#FUCK NO #i want out my guy. there's just not many opportunities for an already mentally ill teenager #now that i'm eighteen i have to grapple with the logistical problems of the money needed and how to continue my education #and im sure a billion more if i start searching a little more seriously #perhaps i should kill myself that way i don't cost anyone any more money #broadcasting my misery #vent

20 notes · View notes

im14andivebeen14foramonth · 2 months ago

Text

okay fr this time guys, i'll be taking a short tumblr break! i might hop on to like some stuff but any reblogs will be in my queue for probably end of the week/weekend/next week, and i'll queue some ask answers as well if anyone wants to send stuff in!

#ill probably respond to messages/replies and stuff #but im thinking that if im only queueing stuff ill get bored and not stay on tumblr for as long #i think my mental health could use a break from here and i reallyyy need to get my priorities straight with school and everything lol #idk when ill be back but im forcing myself to stay away until at least friday if not saturday but ill be out all day saturday #so maybeee ill be back sunday #it really depends on how much i enjoy or hate this hiatus lol

9 notes · View notes

llycaons · 6 months ago

Text

the shower pee tags are extremely divisive btw

#I think in general ppl on here need to chill out about hownother ppl clean themselves #sanitation on this level isn't a moral issue #im not just saying that bc I voted yes IM NOT #but fr assumptions about 'grossness' don't come from or exist in a vaccuum and it's really worth it to examine what your biases are #around cleanliness and if someone fails i. cleanliness 1 #1. why that's such an issue to you 2. if they actually deserve to be punished for it and 3. how these punishments are inflicted itl #irl* i.e. on disabled ppl mentally ill ppl homeless people etc.#being 'unsanitary' doesn't make someone subhuman #and there are clearly differing standards that ppl hold themselves to depending on a whole host of factors #so obviously everyone is going to defend their stance but like. can we calm down.#unless its a genuine public health hazard which this clearly is not #or even PERCEPTION of grossness ornbeing unsanitary. ppl with feeding tubes and external bladders #bladder bags exist and are around in public and there's so much shame and stigma associated w them #ppl have got to get more comfortable with other ppl existing in ways that dont fit a certain mold ffs #cor.txt

15 notes · View notes

penisbilt · 8 months ago

Text

the bittersweet but absolute flood of relief that comes from admitting defeat at living independently, to have to move back in with parents. we tried! we gave it our best shot for almost 3 years! but living like this (being on our own) is just not possible for us at this time of our lives. we've finally proved it to ourselves that we can't do it. it'll be okay to let ourselves rest now

#latimers parents not mine!!!! i am NOT moving back to florida LOL #really hope that the changes will be good for my mental health. this apartment is toxic to us #ive been on the verge of meltdowns Kind Of A Lot lately. imnot doing great #extremely dependent on substances. just to reach a baseline level of functioning. but even that isnt working as much anymore #the only things i do on my phone or tablet these days is like. 2 mobile games. and skirting past my dms to check latimers blog #its too overwhelming to even open discord these days yknow. everything on earth is too much for me right meow #i havent been drawing i havent been social online OR irl i havent been cooking or creating #i havent been keeping up with personal hygiene like at all im particularly ashamed about that one #i've been really bad about doing my T the past few months which is a HUGE shame because im SO fucking hyped to be on it #theres just. too many obstacles in getting it done half the time. and the other half of the time i just forget #anyway. anyway.#our lease ends in july so between now and then we're just gonna try our best to tolerate our living situation enough to get by #there's a light at the end of the tunnel. and its called 'i only have to be in charge of like 2 rooms at most. and not a household!'#we're gonna try to slowly comb through all our things between now and then so the process of moving wont suck as bad #cuz listen. its pretty fucking bad right now #maybe not for other people. but it is for me. and its okay to let myself come to terms with that #im just. so relieved. still very stressed! but theres at least light at the end of the tunnel and its only like 2 months away #ill be able to draw guilt-free again. ill be able to just EXIST guilt-free #i dont think ive felt guilt-free for just existing the way i do since like. turning 20 #i know my mom wouldve loved if i stayed home forever. and im sad i cant be there for her #but ever since i had a fight with my dad at 15 or 16 it just really felt like he didnt want me there more and more #maybe as the youngest he was resenting that i was preventing him from becoming an empty nester or something. i dont know #because all the other kids had been moved out and on their own at least once but i had never left home before #i dont know if he'd be heartbroken or not to hear that i feeling like he was resenting me. but thats the energy i was picking up for years #i dunno. i dont know #anyway. back to housing. for now im going to try to relax and store energy for the moving process #the huge pile of things by the kitchen? i dont have to worry about that becoming permanent because we're leaving in 2 months #the general discord of the state of our possessions? we have to go through everything to pack it all anyway. we can move in RIGHT this time #when we moved in here we didnt have a car or license so we were dependent on latimers 3-hr-drive-away parents to help us move #just /across town/. and we had a whole month between leases! but it still had to be done in a weekend

13 notes · View notes

stormcried · 8 months ago

Text

So, here’s the general idea that I’m probably thinking of right now:

I NEED a break from Drake right now because all in all, I’m not having fun with him right now as I want to try and do. Drake’s been my oldest OC since 2014/2015 and I honestly am glad with the growth he’s had to get here to make him all the more interesting and all the more able to interact with. But… apart of me is tired of the fact that Drake feels like he goes nowhere and that sometimes Drake’s interactions don’t matter.

I want Drake to matter in some sort of way or some sort of manner that makes replies and interacting more fun (although that’s also on me for not really knowing how to ACTUALLY be apart of a community or really interacting with said community)

But; alas, I’ve been diving more and more into my my OC who I’ve actually really wanted to have fun with and actually try to develop them in a way that matters to the RPC. Which is my new OC is super experimental and less selective then I am for Drake. So far; he’s Been a lot of fun to mess around with and I’m hoping that he’ll grow as much as Drake does.

#should I call this a semi-hiatus? idk #I’ll come back to drake soon but just right now he doesn’t feel like he matters in a way?#it’s been bugging me lately and I know I need to step back from my son for a bit #maybe that’s the issue is that Drake is TOO overdeveloped?#idk; I’m still trying to figure out where to go from here #/ negative #??#I guess?#plus I’ve been ultra sick lately + I’ve restarted my medication for my mental health so it’s going tk be a bit before I come back or #depending on if there’s something I really want to write

7 notes · View notes

sillyfreakx5 · 11 days ago

Text

i think i sometimes get codependent with my hyperfixations. like when im immersed in it it's the best feeling in the world, but when im forced to be away from it without any distractions i start feeling shit, my brain is anxiously buzzing, im practically trembling and i honestly just want to cry

so anyways LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT HOMESTUCK !!!!