#ptsd blogging

[rainywhispersblog]

[borderlesbian]

i don't want to heal i want them pay for what they did

[la1npilledg1rl]

[sleeplessv0id]

"mental health matters!" until your screaming and crying in the early hours of the morning over losing something as miniscule as your phone charger. but the reason your crying isn't actually about the charger, or your favorite pen you can't find.

little things add up.

[letsventstuff]

This feeling of nothingness is gnawing at my bones again.

[stvrlightbpd]

bpd is not knowing if you’re a good person or if you’re a bad person and you’re just gaslighting yourself to believe you’re a good person.

[feligayzed]

right when you think you're home free

[borderlineangel222]

i’m afraid that one day my anger will overshadow the little love i still have left for the world

[xvelvetcoffinx]

You see, if everyone around you tells you you're the problem. You eventually internalize it. I wish I never existed, maybe then people around me wouldn't be so miserable. They'd be happy. And that's all I want.

[rainywhispersblog]

[borderlesbian]

every time a man yells i'm six years old again

[tofixtheshadows]

I need people who write fic with Kabru but don't have PTSD themselves to know that PTSD often gets worse once you're safe. When you're no longer in survival mode, that's when your brain really gets to lean in to the crazy. He is not cured just because he's no longer re-traumatizing himself as a career or because he's had one specific trigger removed from his life. The flashbacks are going to continue and the nightmares and insomnia are going to continue and the need to please is going to continue and he's absolutely going to transfer his "I have to do this or everyone will die" anxiety from sealing the dungeon to helping to run a new country in a precarious position. Real ones know he's seeing The Hallway Monster at night.

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

a deeply traumatized character whose nightmare caused them to act out of their sleep (while they were still sleeping) and, as self defense, they nearly strangled their partner to death — because they were still trapped in the nightmare and they mistaken their partner for one of those people who had hurt them in the past — before they eventually woke up and realized what they were doing, and that's when the real terror crept in when they realized they could have killed their significant other.

doesn't matter if their partner said it was okay (I'm not dead, see? I'm fine, it's nothing), they looked at the dark, ugly bruises around their partner's throat that were their doing, and felt nausea churn savagely in their stomach. they did this. they could have killed the only person whom they swore they'd never hurt.

how could they protect their partner from this world when they couldn't even protect their partner from themself?

needless to say, their trauma just became a thousand times worse.

— read a fic with this prompt here.

[wowlookwhosspirallingagain]

i’ve spent my whole life trying to be someone else. how am i supposed to know who i really am anymore? i don’t know my own favorite color or food, i’m not sure what i enjoy doing and what i’m forcing myself to do for people to like me

[stvrlightbpd]

why do i crave love so deeply and yet all it seems to do is run away from me.

[michelangleo]

What helps me as an age regressor who has nightmares:

I set my stuffies up all around me, so they can guard me while I sleep (stuffies are the best protectors)

I use multiple nightlights, so there's no dark corners

I'm a cold sleeper so I sleep with multiple blankets, and when I'm completely covered up no one can get me

If you're a hot sleeper, I wake up in cold sweat sometimes, I'll sleep with just my feet covered, and it still makes me feel safer

I recommend bed tents, you can put fairy lights inside and be completely protected without having to use blankets

I make a nest to sleep in

Sometimes when the nightmares are really bad I'll sep up alarms during the night, works best if you're a light sleeper (which I am not)

Regressing before bed helps me, but often it's hard when I'm already scared to go to sleep

Watch your favorite show, or little show to help you regress and fall asleep (I leave on cartoons sometimes all night)

Pick a new stuffie every night to sleep with, or have a dedicated stuffie you sleep with every night, and imagine them as your protector in your dreams, at the very least it helps me fall asleep not scared

I use a comfort item, this could also be a stuffie, but I use a paci

For sometimes padded regressors, make sure you go potty before bed, don't learn the hard way like I did

Your favorite, non-caffeinated drink, warm milk, or in my case I drink chocolate milk (If I was a caregiver I would say no sugary drinks either, but I am an regressor with no caregiver so I will drink apple juice before bed if I want to lol)

Listen to white noise, or in my case I listen to piano music

Feel free to add please