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Haven’t watched OUAT but I might have to for him ❤️❤️❤️❤️
#do it for him#dr frankenstein#do experiments on me please#or don’t idk I guess that would hurt#in a good way? 😏😏😏#and then judge me for liking it#ANYWAYS#izombie#once upon a time#Blaine DeBeers#dr whale#david anders
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That post about cannibalism becoming too mainstream and destigmatized by certain sections of the internet and therefore losing its weight and horror and visceral nature just has me thinking about how HABIT ate a baby and everyone was like oh lmao he’s just an edgy cool guy!!!! He’s just like me fr!! Haha!!! Which. I think not enough people are freaked out by the fact that he forced Evan to eat his own child raw and possibly alive. He mentions “the bones” and implies that it took awhile. Like that wasn’t Hannibal-style Brioche With Baby Pâté and Shredded Zucchini in a Plum Vinaigrette, he just opened Evan’s mouth and bit down until the job was done, and I think that says a lot more about Habit than people want to examine. Idk it just. has me thinking. The number of times hurting children comes up in entries and supplementary materials about HABIT is kind of overwhelming, really. I’ve seen people talk about how they think he’d draw the line at hurting children, but the source material goes out of its way to state otherwise- just about every time he’s in contact with children they die. Or worse. He’s the summation of the worst of humanity, the combined aggregate of all of our flaws and crimes, and one of those crimes is cannibalism, so honestly I wouldn’t be surprised if he made a habit (ha) of it.
#he would not respect your pronouns he canonically made a man beat his own dog to death and he made Evan eat his own baby.#like maybe some people are not ready for horror media#maybe some people resort to making silly fun posts to cope but I think not enough people read his blog posts#they are genuinely horrifying and evil and so is he!#and that’s why he’s an insanely good villain! he’s so charismatic despite it all!#but god like. the fact that he was friends with Albert Fish. and Goebbels.#emh#idk ignore me I just think like. not enough people care about the violence done to women and children in emh and nobody wants to give it#the weight and meaning it was intended to have#if you don’t care about Jessa and Jess and Steph and the baby and the kids in the stories and Vinnie from the past it’s like. okay#nothing HABIT does will mean anything to you#because nobody you care about got hurt except Vinnie#it’s pretty telling. to me#everyman hybrid#everymanhybrid#cannibalism tw#I guess???? if you’re on here you probably don’t care but just in case
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this is a test
#i’m bored i just wanna see how many words i can put in the tags like will it just keep going on forever or will they stop me like i know th#the tag limit is 30 ok so the iindividual tag limit is 140 characters that’s actually so rude i wanted to keep going forever and see how lo#g this could be but i guess we can do this 30 times ok what the flip should i talk about hm i was playing the guitar today but i rage quit#ause the song was hard and hurting my fingers! ermmmmm it was sunny ok this is boring let’s think of more exciting things to type hmmm acco#ding to all known laws of aviation- jk i’m not doing the bee movie script but can you imagine i think that would be funny hmmmmm words i lo#e podcasts so bad that’s a fact no one has ever know before my blog definitely isn’t all about audio dramas the people are definitely not a#ready aware of this jesus christ this is only the seventh one of these this is actually quite a lot of space i underestimated how much i ha#e to type btw there’s probably spelling mistakes in here somewhere or autocorrect has been annoying but i cba to retype anything so i don’t#care lolllllllllllll how do you feel about oscar malevolent i feel a normal amount actually (lie) yk what i really miss sam and colin alrea#y like i’m actually not okay i really hope we hear from sam again in s2 and also colin ngl i hope ur in the computers soz or not dead miss#im like a bastard my paranoid it king ok erm im running out of things to say um heartstopper s3 was crazy good i cried lmao i love gay peop#e so much it’s crazy i hope it gets renewed for s4 i need to reread the comics lowkey and the books they’re all so talented for being so yo#ng it scares me ngl !!!!!! the tmagp hiatus is getting to me slightly like february in reality is soon and not that far away for how podcas#ts go but seriously how am i supposed to live until then without knowing what happened. please colin be alive. ive only just realised i can#use fills stops. sorry that’s made everything a bit messy. i should’ve been doing this before. whoops. anyways. hi mutuals i love you all s#much i hope you enjoy my rambles and shitposts cause i enjoy yours very much! never think you’re being annoying i literally don’t care be a#annoying as you want posts as much as you want i am ur biggest fan <3 im getting a bit fatigued from typing like my mind is blank basically#now it’s just turned into a. stream of consciousness but i don’t really have any thoughts to put here idk if we’re halfway ermmmm omg it’s#lmost halloween how crazy is that time is flying by i kinda forgot it was october lmao. it’s wild how it’s basically almost christmas. like#what. that’s illegal. how is it wintertime again. what the flip. i miss summer already take me backkkkkkk. i hope my phone doesn’t crash or#smth cause i’ve not saved this as a draft and i cba to do any of this again. maybe i should save it. ok i will when i reach the next tag bc#ok it stopped me but i’ve saved it and holy jesus it’s a lot of text im just sat here giggling there’s really no point to any of this other#than me being bored sooooooooooooooooo (imagine if i just did the letter o for every character wouldn’t that be crazy) so wait there’s 140#haracters and 30 tags so what’s 30 x 140. someone hurry. i haven’t done maths lessons in two and a half years i’ve forgotten everything wai#let me get the calculator app ok im back it said 4100 characters so. i dont know how many words that roughly is but its. a decent amount. o#what the flip why am i wasting tag space with maths. i hate maths. my screen time has been actually soooooooooo bad recently like damn some#one put my phone in a block of ice please joshua gillespie style. my mind is running out of things to say. do i talk about myself. im james#im 18 which is weird cause wdym im an adult go away. ive run out of facts. i love podcasts and procedural dramas that stupid firefighter sh#w is my life unfortunately. i think chappell roan should be the queen of england instead of king charles. i dont like having a king cause#ho needs men in power not me. ok um this is the last tag equal rights for all. yolo. the time will pass anyways! thank u boredom ok bye gn:
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just read a post where someone allegedly has stopped sharing their fic because of the lack of engagement despite it being highly regarded and gushed over in a discord server, and it’s that that made them decide not to publish fic any more … and I don’t want to comment this on the post itself but isn’t that… a little petty? yes, it’s a shame that they’re not engaging with the work and author itself, it really is, and that does kill motivation for the author if they don’t think anyone is reading their work
but after writing it… to write it from your own motivation and passion and then to keep it to yourself because they won’t engage with it anyways? that feels . punishment-esque. I suppose if they’re not getting anything out of fandom they feel no need to engage with it… I don’t know. I think it matters anyway. I think the effect and joy your work brings matters even if you can’t see it. throw it out there. but in the end, it’s their work and their choice to share it or not.
#ok discussion over I just needed to get my thoughts out#anyways: I can absolutely see their side if like they felt so shit about their work and discovered that maybe people who could’ve encourage#d them didn’t do anything#like that DOES sting !!#in the end I just. I don’t expect any payback from any of this whether that be monetary or attention#both of those are lovely but not necessary#anyways I guess it would hurt more and it is a slap in the face that they could’ve been receiving this lovely attention all along#idk.
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So I’m gonna have to be the one to write the Murder drones fic where they figure out how to separate a non-solver infected Cyn and Uzi, and get Nori a new body, and find a way to upload old copies of Yeza and her husband, and fix Doll and the other people that got massacred by uzi for no reason, and Nori is like a mom to Cyn and a second mom to Doll, and there’s a little bit of Yeza/Nori and some N/V/Uzi and a little bit of Doll/Lizzie. And eventually they convince J to stop being a recluse and they very slowly build up a relationship with her again and the trio is together again and they aLL GET FUCKING THEREAPY
Right I see how it is guys hang on I might actually do it.
#murder drones#I said to myself I said Inky don’t get a new hyperfixation#and look where we are#cannot for the life of me get this scene of Nori talking to Cyn in Uzis body#Like yeah you’re in my kids body I would never hurt her. so I guess I’ll take care of you too#*melting into the floor rewatching the show for the 3rd time#help help help I love them too much ahhhh#murder drone spoilers#??? I guess idk I yap a lot and don’t want to be that guy
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Umm yeah, my baby boy soap:D
I gave him an eyebrow piercing scar because I think he would be one to get one I don’t why just I had a feeling💀
(And fun fact I gave him a scar on his lip, just because I have one and I thought it was missing something)
#art#hand drawn#my hand hurt#sketch#cod mw2#mw2#cod#cod modern warfare#soap cod#john soap mactavish#soap mw2#soap call of duty#call of duty#cod mwii#just a doodle#I don’t know why I just thought soap would look best in blue#idk#tbh#umm#I didn’t give him stubble#I just didn’t think I would look good#plus I was afraid it would ruin it#and that it i guess
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I worry this wound will never close and will continue to bleed
#I want to stop hurting so bad but im worried I never will stop hurting because of how much it still hurts and how it leaves me confused.#It’s been a few months and I still cry about it. My heart still aches and breaks when I think about it.#I thought they were someone who wouldn’t hurt me. but I guess I was fooled. I guess they always were that someone. Just hidden#it hurts to know that someone who I thought was a close friend and an ex got “together” in a way.#They aren’t exactly together together but together in a way where they’re kinda fucking#And that’s where it hurts. To know what they’re doing.#that was my closest friend. my actual soulmate I believed. and thats my ex. They got “together” a month later after we broke up.#after talking about it to a few people.. were they attracted to each other even when my ex and I were together? If so.. what was I?#And how could they do this so easily? Or am I just overthinking/overreacting?? I don’t know. I need someone to tell me#I look back when my friend & I were still friends. I think I started to lose them during the beginning of summer last year#I just tried believing I wasn’t and things would fall back into place soon. but they weren’t.#They just said one thing and left. Leaving me alone in the dark.#I don’t know.. I get it in some way? I was in a bad place and probably draining for them to stay but like#Idk.. I guess I can understand why they left me. but why get with someone who I dated and start.. fucking.#im so hurt by this. I’m worried this wound will never close and that I’ll be a wounded dog chained to the tree forever.
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hm i usually don’t let body comments get to me but earlier i told my sister that she could keep a shirt bc i don’t think it fits me well (and even tho she didn’t necessarily meant it maliciously) she said “why dont you just lose a little weight?” and like im still thinking about this comment hrs later….
#like the shirt was a gift but it’s not in my size and so i don’t like how it fits on me so i said she should keep it bc i know she likes it#and then she said that followed by ‘i feel bad keeping a shirt gifted to you’ so like i guess her weight comment wasn’t meant to be hurtful#but idk i just would never expect her of all ppl to say that#so yeah that’s how my night went :///#body image tw#fatphobia tw#mytxt
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HATE when someone genderbends an ‘ugly’ guy and like they can draw the guy normally but they make the girl smooth pretty and adorable. Like, why can she not be the same? Why does she gotta be conventionally attractive. Why did you make her nose smaller and remove her wrinkles and made her look like a Barbie doll when you obviously have an understanding that the guy does not look like that TM.
Like not to find everything problematic but what is tumblrs problem with unconventionally attractive girls. So many meme of loving gross weird girls but anytime there’s a girl that looks like that you all turn your nose up 🤨
#sorry I just saw a riddler genderbend where they gave her a tiny nose and huge breasts and a small waist and no wrinkles and scars and it’s#just kinda odd#bc I’ve seen that persons art of normal riddler and they make him look like he does#but I guess women aren’t allowed to have ‘ugly’ traits 🤨#not vagueing abt any moot don’t worry#just generally complaining abt people#People in the tf2 fandom are also extremely guilty of this#Like they’ll be like ‘I love big women 🥰’ and by big women they mean 5’11 and 112 lbs#like no that is not what genderbend heavy would look like I assure you#idk it just made me irked#signed a person with a sunken eyes and acne and an overbite#like I don’t really consider myself ugly I’d say but it still#hurts to see people always have to make women look like models when they can accept the bad traits on a man#ignore me lol
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that last post I rbed just reminded me that I have a battle vest that I haven’t worked on in like two years bc it was getting complicated
#I have another vest I could use but eh#my dad got me a real leather vest from a company that makes them for bikers#and it’s REALLY fucking nice#like $350+nice#and I just don’t wanna fuck it up since idk what I’m even doing#so I guess I’ll practice on this dinky one first#and for the nice one I wanna make it REALLY look fuckin sick#question: how much would my fingers hurt if I tried to embroider on a real thick leather vest#bc I wanna
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i feel like he did this just for me and you know what, it was appreciated
#the only thing better than a win is a win where bader has an rbi & makes a great catch & gets interviewed after & looks like this#harrison bader#pls don’t get hurt pls don’t get traded pls play here forever#douchebag (affectionate)#loml#idk would just die for him i guess
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just a quick lil rant before i head to bed
#somethin that’s really bothered me these last few days#i have one irl person that i consider my friend and i hang out with her. but if i wasn’t the one suggesting we go out and do stuff#i don’t think she’d bother with me at all#which. we have fun together. at least i do.#but thinking about this whole year. everything we’ve done has been my suggestion#and it’s not like we’ve hung out every single weekend. she’s had plenty of opportunities to invite me to stuff#but she will blatantly do stuff with her other group of friends then tell me about it#like she mentioned she went and saw the eras movie and was excitedly telling me all about it.#and damn. that’s an experience i would have loved to have.#and she KNOWS i love taylor it’s not like she thought i wouldn’t like going.#she also has openly discussed with her other friend (who is a swiftie) about getting tickets for taylor. right in front of me. ngl it just!?#hurt not to be included i guess!? i mean this isn’t the first time i’ve had a friend openly go to an artist i love with someone who’s not me#idk am i just being stupid and selfish!?#but like. during the summer (a month i was really struggling) i kept on seeing if we could meet up and talk and catch up#before this get together at the end of the month with a few people. and that never turned out she kept on saying she was busy#understandable. but the day of the get together i was chatting with her friend and she mentioned how she and her had hung out like 30 times#that month.#and like i went bowling with said friend last week (it was my suggestion) and we were hanging out and i mentioned how now that our schedules#have opened up id love to get together more - even if she was getting groceries and wanted someone to come along. and she said that yeah#that this week would be good to hang out. and i told her to just contact me. but i highly highly doubt she will text me.#so should i just take the hint and drop her!?#and i live a little farther away but i’m always the one driving to her. idk if that makes a difference but like#idk it’s just the feeling of being expendable and someone’s second choice and never their first#which is a feeling i’ve grown up with so i’m not a stranger to it#but i’ve actually lost sleep over it this last little bit wondering like what it is about me that repels people that makes them not care#like i’ve had girls i’ve loved with my whole fucking heart and would lay down my life for them and i didn’t even make their top 5.#so let’s just say this is an issue that has been hurting me for a while#idk like i’m not trying to sound emo but this kind of hurt and loneliness is just something i have to resign myself to#and face the reality that i’m not as important to people as they are to me sometimes.
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Losing my fp is gonna fucking hurt but I just idk I can’t find a way this is gonna end well so I’m coming to terms with it
#it’s was a fine 4 years#the last year was already hard as fuck lmao#funny we got into a fight exactly a year ago too over him saying if you’re too sensitive don’t be on social media#I still have his Christmas present because we haven’t gotten to see eachother since#October I think is when we last met in person#just a week ago he was offering to hang out because of all the shit my mom said to me#I also have the other friend that’s involved in all of this’s Christmas gift#I was gonna mail it to him#oh well I guess#I just idk I’m so hurt#but this feels like what I’d been worried would happen ever since their obsession with each other got worse and worse#like I get it bpd does that you get obsessed believe me I know but y’all have been feeding into it with these ‘jokes’ lately and well#all the times y’all have said to each other you don’t need friend you only need me as a haha joke is gonna become true if y’all don’t get#some help and soon and like I think one of their psychiatrists said that their relationship was unhealthy and also one sided once#which unhealthy YES one sided?? nah not at all#but they both were like baffled and just didn’t believe the unhealthy part#I commented on it only saying how was it one sided because I knew if I agreed with the unhealthy part they’d both hate me lol#because believe it or not mutual obsession is not healthy lmao idc how romanticized it’s been getting it will never be healthy#I have a bf now and I strive to never be like that to him because i don’t want us to become mutually obsessed like that I don’t want us to#isolate ourselves for eachother whether knowingly or unknowingly just today he apologized because he’s been busy and I always let him know#it’s perfectly okay if he just never has time to message me one day because I know that’s healthy even if my brain is screaming#like yeah I still have intrusive thoughts I get jealous of his friends like way too jealous and I want him all to myself but I stop myself#from acting on any of those thoughts because I know it leads to a controlling abusive realtionship and I don’t want to be that he doesn’t#deserve that so it is so fucking confusing when they ‘joke’ and tell the other to delete a photo or tweet and then the other actually does#idk how they can’t see that that’s fucked#okay sorry lol but hey if y’all read the tags on the I’m so lost post and know what I did wrong please tell me because no one else will!
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I forget how much I hate the taste of vodka but the whipped cream vodka is so much better my god
#make a drink sweet enough that you can’t taste it when it’s in ur mouth and then all u get is the whipped cream vodka in the burn#makes drinks more tolerable#also this is the fastest I think I’ve ever chugged an alcoholic drink#we are gonna get fucked up tonight bc we have daddy issues and fought with our mom this morning slayyy#smoked a cigarette at the lake now getting fucked up in my room while home alone#life is so good and it’s all bullshit forever#literally we could all die and it doesn’t matter and life is weird and crazy and I am happy it sucks and I am so fucking thrilled to be aliv#at all#life is good regardless of death but I wish death would just like wait patiently for my family#dad I miss u I hope you had a good four twenty where ever you ended up. im sorry moms acting like this. I hope my brothers okay at school.#I hope he’s having a good time and isn’t completely overwhelmed with everything. I was right and apparently he’s gonna come home after grad#uation and im excited to have him home again but my mothers all upset. I know it sucks that you’re dead but it’s nice knowing in a weird way#that you’re the reason me and hunter got close again. so thanks I guess for that. and smoking made me and mom grow closer. idk. you’ve done#a lot for us and most of it had to do with weed. today hurt worse than my birthday. or the six month anniversary. today sucked. and no one#else seemed to be torn apart by it and it made me feel like I was going crazy and no one could even tell#you would’ve noticed if I was acting different. I love you. wherever you are I still love you. and I’m sorry. I’m sorry I was such a bitch.#and I wish I took better care of you. but you were my father I wasn’t supposed to take care of you. you should’ve been there for me. we shou#have been there for mom and hunter and your parents and I’ve been thinking a lot about grammie actually. I don’t know how I feel. thinking#about her makes me cry now. I don’t have the heart to make her cry talking about my childhood but I miss her. and I miss being young. I miss#you coming to my Father’s Day dance recitals and coming back from bike week in Laconia and bringing me flowers always wearing your grey#Harley Davidson jacket and you’d have flowers in your arms and you’d be bored but so proud and you’d hug me and you’d smell like weed and#your beard was always scratchy when you’d hug me and I just miss you a lot. I miss you and I fucking hate you for it fuck.#note to self. don’t be pmsing and then get drinking and smoking and thinking of your dead father. you will cry
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I can’t explain how weird it feels to realize I’m the only girl I know who doesn’t regularly cry
Everyone talks about crying like it’s something they do on the daily, and when I say I don’t cry, they either look at me in a way that tells me they think I’m lying, or they’ll say something like I’m lucky
I don’t feel lucky
I feel uncomfortable
Especially knowing how many people think I’m weird for not crying
#lmaooooo sorry y’all#I’ve been thinking about this a lot#not crying didn’t seem like a big deal#because you know#I get sad#I have emotions#I guess#but then I was laughing after I slammed my hand in a door last week#and one of my coworkers asked how I wasn’t crying#like I don’t know#am I supposed to?#would crying take away the pain?#probably not#so why would I bother? it was funny to me#I mean yeah it hurt but like idk#softbobamilktae txt
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I once heard that dreaming about someone constantly means that they’re thinking about you. Maybe these people miss you too?
kneejerk reaction is that I hope they’re not thinking of me tbh
#is that the truth? I’m not too sure. I just think it’s be easier to be okay with the concept of everyone forgetting me forever than to sit#with the mortifying possibility of being known and remembered#I don’t remember my hs self fondly so I don’t see why anyone else would yknow#I was already kinda convinced everybody hated me before I vanished so I guess. if ppl are thinking about me it’s negative#it’s scarier if it isn’t lmaoo#I don’t know what’s wrong with me#but yeah I don’t think it works like that nonnie or at the very least I hope it doesn’t <3#I think I’m just a weird guy whose brain is trying to hold on to idealized memories of the past because he’s afraid of growing up#n wishes they had the insight they do now back then. if I had known I was a nb lesbian dealing w massive comp het#if I had known abt the bpd I could’ve realized that I split on ppl and myself#i was so excited to have friends and be cared about man#I hate that little guy I was but I don’t blame them for being stupid and not understanding shit. I wish I could slap my younger self on the#back of the head and be like “’be normal dumbass ur friends like you’’#I uhh often focus on hurting myself more than not hurting the people around me and it was rlly bad back then#asks#nonnie#this is all to say that I think that the constant feeling of instability and academic stress is causing me to subconsciously wish for the#the days I perceive as being easier. it’s a mishmash of real events and things that possibly could’ve been if I was normal#I believe I want a feeling of control or something? idk. idk that contradicts everything#dreams are just dreams. I’m probably just regretting how much of senior year I lost and that’s it
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