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I hate the run-up to travelling where it's not early enough to pack, but I want to start packing just so I can cross it off my to-do list, but it's not like I'm overeager to leave, I just know it's coming up and part of my brain is screaming about my suitcase not being ready.
(I don't head back until Tuesday)
#I have a to-do list that I'm steadily working through#annoyingly there are at least two things on the list that I can't do until I get back#or at least it wouldn't be a good idea#mainly ordering a) a plant light and b) new tennis shoes that actually have tread#one of the things on my list is impossible to do because it's downloading two videos#they were livestreams and only available for a month#the dumbass downloader is crapping out and knocking the audio and video out of sync#and also making the picture hang a lot#support is taking their sweet time to figure out the problem
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Actually it turns out I had more thoughts about that post that I forgot about lol
Would Nightmare actually give up his boys? Yes and no
If it was just a black and white situation of they're miserable, they don't wanna be here, they have somewhere better to be, then yes. He would leave them out to wherever they needed to be despite his own feelings and very quickly realise afterwards just how much he'd gotten used to the noise and company. I think he would get a little clingy with Dream about it, which I'm sure Dream would find very weird after everything but not unwelcome, he did miss his brother after all.
(If he couldn't attach himself to Dream's side for whatever reason, I think he might just sit in his castle and go insane. Or maybe he'd just spend all day at Ccino's trying really hard to project that he just likes the atmosphere and isn't lonely as hell)
But the thing is, most of them don't have somewhere better to be. Horror has his au, and Nightmare would keep up the supply of food even if Horror said he wanted to quit at this point, so he would understandably let him return home. Killer, Dust and Cross effectively don't have aus anymore though, and they tend to get into self-destructive habits when they're left to their own devices. (Obviously bringing Color and Epic into the mix to make sure Killer and Cross are taken care of eases matters, but Dust doesn't really have any friends outside their group he could go stay with - that Nightmare knows about at least).
The flipside of this is that his boys may not necessarily want to be given up. I think if Nightmare got really in his head about this he could easily end up convinced this is the right thing to do without ever asking them if it's what they want, with potentially terrible results. He's established such a pattern of always returning to find Killer when they get seperated, that if he never showed up Killer might just keep sitting there and waiting for him greyfriar's bobby style, refusing to leave because he's certain his boss is coming back.
#UTDR#UTMV#Dadmare#Horror and Dust might take it slightly better but I think they still wouldn't appreciate being rehomed out of the blue with no discussion#Don't get me started on Cross he has such a bad track record with people not showing up for him as it is#If Nightmare left him to live with Epic one day Cross would spend the rest of his life thinking he did something wrong#and wondering what it was that he wasn't worth keeping#I do think the idea of him getting glued to Dream's hip must be funny for Blue tho#''Yes this is the being of all negativity in the multiverse. Don't mind him we're holding hands because he gets seperation anxiety''#I feel like a lot of this could come from Color's suspicion of him. because he's very much on Killer's side from the beginning#And Nightmare wasn't good at the beginning so it's understandable. it's hard to take Killer's word that he's changed because#Killer /would/ say that whether it's true or not y'know?#But I think Color shining a light on how things began makes Nightmare reflect a lot on their situation#Not to say that Color's the bad guy or anything obviously. He's respecting Killer's decisions while also keeping a good level of suspicion#about how Nightmare treats them when he's not around#It just makes Nightmare uneasy because he's made a lot of mistakes in the past and he's still learning#He is - for now at least - very very aware of just how mortal they are#And he wants to do right by them. even if it means giving them up to better places#I need to finish my fanfic... Anyway.#Luckily for him - in this particular case - this is where they are all best suited c:#Alright I let this cook in my drafts for about 3 days with some edits it can be posted now lol
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Bill is dying in dipper's arms, like dead-dead. no coming back. what are his last words? i like to think he'd give dip an onimous message/spell to clue in a way to get revenge after his death and then kiss dip till he's gone, also what way would you kill off bill? the memory gun? in the mindscape? or some other way?
would dipper ever be put in a situation where he'd have to kill bill himself, and for what reason?
The obvious answer is: Bill doesn't get any last words.
It's so much more poetic to have the guy who's always talking, rambling, bragging and being cryptic to go out without a sound. Just there and gone in an instant, without any last dramatic memory for Dipper to cling to.
#answers#Dipper wouldn't be put in a position where he'd have to kill Bill unless we're talking a TOTAL relationship breakdown prior#So at that point he wouldn't even regret it#But it's much more traumatizing to have him go while they're still on good terms!#Like sure Bill was awful. Annoying. Evil and terrible and cruel.#But he was smart and important and weird and special and he was *Dipper's*#And now there's only silence#Though amusing idea to cut the angst: Technically speaking#Dipper's the only next-of-kin Bill has#Watch Bill die and then Dipper gets saddled with inheriting All His Stuff#At least with all that power and junk he might be able to fund a crusade to bring Bill Back#Should keep him occupied for a while at least!
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silly comic about Mr. Bodyguard's first days at work, inspired by classic Carl Barks story "Trouble Indemnity"
#käärijä#fanart#comics#pan ochroniarz#my art#art by op#bad brain days so no good art for them but i hope it's at least readable#also i really wanted to make mr bodyguard left-handed but it wouldn't work well in that panel :(#who wants more dvd commentary? the panel with unicycle is on top of the darude sandstorm stairs (senate square)#and swim time is at allas sea pool. look up photos of that place to judge for yourself how bad of an idea it is to jump from there#the ifk vs jokerit was mentioned in one of his songs. i think fantastista?#yeah that would be all for now#thank you for reading
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I want animated tv shows covering all the different eras of superheroes. Or well…it might be too ambitious to do all superheroes. So let's start with Superman, Batman and Wonder Woman for now. And let's only do three eras for now: the Golden Age, Silver Age and Bronze Age. Because each era is so different, and I would kill for some animated shows running through the basic storylines of each one.
For example: Golden Age Superman. I would kill for a 4-5 season (if not longer) series about the Superman stories written by Siegel and Shuster. The Golden Age design (with the more primitive superman logo), the working class, downright socialist tales of the great depression, all of it would make for wonderful tv viewing. Nevermind all the villians and supporting characters. Lois Lane and George Taylor at the Daily Star. Ultra-Humanite, Lex Luthor (but the golden age one with red hair), Mister Mxyzptlk, The Prankster and The Toyman. So many wonderful golden age characters to adapt and use.
I swear I heard Metropolis was once referred to as Cleveland back in the old comics. So y'know what? I'd just roll with that. The Daily Star can be in Cleveland. We can show the adventures of Golden Age Superman as he battles his many foes. And we'd show him leaping, not flying. Golden Age Superman was like the Hulk: his tremendous leg muscles let him jump so high and so far it was like he was flying.
But you see what I want, right? We can have shows exploring the worlds of Golden Age Superman, Golden Age Batman and Golden Age Wonder Woman. We can have shows that then explore their silver and bronze age comics too. I'd have the actors for the Golden Age show ones be different from the ones for the Silver and Bronze age ones, just to really sell that these shows are set on different earths (earth-one and earth-two). Diedrich Bader would definitely be the silver and bronze age batman. But I don't know who any of the Golden Age actors would be.
#tell me this wouldn't be fun#just tell me#i think I have a good idea here#at least I'd watch shows in all these veins#golden age comics#silver age comics#bronze age comics#superman#clark kent#kal el#batman#bruce wayne#wonder woman#diana of themyscira#diana prince#dc#dc comics#my ideas#dc ideas#tv show ideas#ideas#silver age batman#bronze age wonder woman#golden age superman#etc.
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i think a lot of the soulless clover revival fics that make them start to kill in the very first reset does not give clover (or flowey) nearly enough credit
#there's one fic I read that had a good justification for it but the rest..... hm#clover is not going to start killing people just because they can't feel emotions as strongly as they used to now#especially if this is post true pacifist clover we are talking about#it took flowey exhausting literally every other option just for him to even start to consider the thought of killing#and even then he didn't like the idea of it. the entire buildup to it he was saying I don't like this and trying to justify it to himself#for someone like clover who so strongly believes in the good of monsterkind I think it would take them at least as long as flowey to break#if not longer#and who's to say that they would even start killing in the first place#flowey started killing because everyone around him was predictable and did the exact same things every time to the point of boredom#but clover has flowey. friendly or not friendly flowey still remembers resets and wouldn't do the exact same thing every reset#flowey's very existence would prevent clover from reaching the same level of boredom that flowey did because there's always something new#at the end of the day clover and flowey are different people that will react to the same situation differently#to make it work you can't just retread flowey's experience. you have to consider how clover would react and change the situation accordingl#that's what I think anyways. cool concept but execution falls short more often than not imo.#my ramblings
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My birthday is coming up, and every year for my birthday* I try to make a thing just because I want to but this year I am not sure what I want to make. Like, zero ideas. Well, I mean I always have ideas, but none that appeal more than others? I'm not sure if I should ask for suggestions or just make a series of polls leading up to my birthday to narrow it down, what do you think? *within a few weeks of my birthday, I am bad at time
#the person behind the yarn#got sidetracked and vented about stress in the tags feel free to skip none of it is relevant to this post#lotta stressors this time of year#and this year has more than usual with multiple significant anniversaries#plus work stress and getting an MRI this week#I'm hoping after the MRI is done my stress level goes down#but there's another hurricane forming and I am a bit concerned about that#it's not supposed to come north but neither was the other one#and even if it doesn't come north it's going to hit where my grandma lives#idk. my older brother has a birthday not too long after mine#and wants to do a joint birthday thing somewhere#but I have no idea what to do. it would have to be outside because he 'doesn't believe in covid' and while I could probably get him to mask#his kids wouldn't (they are too little) and I am stressed about that#I am honestly not a fan of my birthday. I got sick with the thing that disabled me right before I turned 18#and my family always wants to get together for my birthday but historically are not good at respecting my boundaries#around my birthday and I have walked out of more than one of my own birthday parties#anyway! lotta stress!#going to keep making baby blankets and try not to think about it until at least after the MRI
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Enough time has passed to where I think we can openly admit how WK has gone through seasonal rot within its previous 2 seasons and how the hype of Season 7 along with the generally positive reception is a really green flag for the show's quality.
#wild kratts#pbs kids#kratt brothers#martin kratt#chris kratt#pbs kids go#2d kratt brothers#2d martin kratt#2d chris kratt#because season 5 and 6 were.... not good to say the least#S5 took a hard plummet in quality after the Alaska special#Idk how to describe it but episodes felt more flat and basic more often than not despite there being several good ones in the mix too#S6 was slightly better but still felt more two-dimensional and basic and oddly oversaturated (and I don't just mean in the color palate)#I know Season 7's only been out for barely a year and we've only had 8-10 episodes released#But I do think that this season is substantially different than the previous two.#It feels a lot more experimental in its concepts whilst utilizing the show's strengths#Sometimes it works like with Clever the Raven or the Blue and Green special#Sometimes it doesn't like with the Mudskipper episode#But you can tell that they've some ideas in mind that you definitely wouldn't find in other seasons.#It genuinely makes me both curious and optimistic. Bc again it took 2 years to film this season.#There's definitely more time put into the writing process as earlier seasons.#I'm gonna hold some reservations until the season ends but it's shaping up to be pretty good so far.
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my one season 4 complaint is Where The Fuck Was Aneesa
#never have i ever#i really wish her and fabiola had stayed together them not working out didn't rlly serve any purpose to the plot for the new season#fabiola's new relationship was barely rlaborated upon. as expected.#and aneesa was basically written out she was barely even part of the group#plus that scene of them at the staircase talking about fab's robotics team. they still have so much chemistry and they were literally just#talking about robotics#i understand she's not a major character and she can't have a separate plotline to herself but she wasn't even involved in anyone else's#her and fabiola were cute together and she would've at least been part of the plot if they were still dating#allison was barely a character what was the point of writing some random new partner for fabiola when she already had a perfectly good#love interest#it just doesn't make sense to me. whi decided it would be a good idea for them to break up#was it just an opportunity to shove in a nonbinary character who had no personality and was just there as someone's s/o and call it#representation#cause there are Many better ways to have nonbinary rep than this#but ofc mindy kaling wouldn't give a shit about this.#n e ways for this support my nonbinary aneesa hc . it's real.#fabiola torres#aneesa qureshi#OR AT THE VERY LEAST SHE SHOULD'VE GOTTEN WITH PAXTON. SHE HAD THAT NICE HOT JOCK LINE AT THE END OF SEASON 3#im fabneesa 4 life but i would honestly be haply with her dating paxton. they're both cool and they'd be fun together. and she deserves a#nice hot jock boyfriend.
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I love you thiiiiiiiiiiis much! (Patreon)
#Doodles#Original#Yanderapy#The boys are back in town the boys are back in town <3#At least for the moment! Caught a quick glimpse of inspiration for them and then it settled again haha - but they're here now!#Following up on the idea of their give and take - Ishida is definitely the more selfish of the two and Micchan the more giving#You'd think that'd lead to them overstepping - Ishi asking for too much and Mitsu being all-too-happy to grant it but no!#Part of that is from Micchan being in therapy lol - even when he has trouble recognizing his healthy boundaries himself he has external help#And him being honest and upfront - communicating where he struggles - eventually puts the onus on his boyfriend to help him!#And he does!! Because Ishida loves him!! ♥#They're still weird about it tho lol <3 There are things that both of them can get away with that they wouldn't if they were dating others#Featured here is Mitsu initiating snuggles and Ishida reciprocating a little aggressively lol - which Micchan is into <3 Feels loved!#And also flusters him so he responds with his own cute aggression lol - but they recognize that in each other! They play :D#Mitsu would Try to reciprocate to the level his partner sets the standard of but he's full of these big feelings!#It all works out that Ishida Also feels that way haha - they match each other's energy naturally <3 They have quite good chemistry :)#They also behave when they need to lol that's enough PDAs for now ♪#And of course they also got caught in the plush brainmush everyone does everyone needs to#They'd be so cute...... Holding hands or plush-kissing................#I don't think Micchan's necklace counts as an accessory hmm what would they have#They both need their bracelets! Of course#But besides those hmmm what Signature Objects could they have I wonder#And how would Ishida's glasses stay on! Magnets? Stitched on? Hm! Many things to consider haha
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look finding out that steph kills her dad wasn't a trope genuinely really rocked me ok. like its been an unstated truth of the world in my mind for literally over a real life year
#like. setting up the timeline.#fall of 2023 i made a note in my notes app that was like#'need to write a fic where steph kills her dad'#and then in january of 2024 i was writing like. a steph post war games villain origin story (i have no idea how good it actually is)#including a never published scene where steph kills her dad#and then in may of 2024 i see a jason animatic or something to father by the front bottoms#and i start writing my steph kills her dad fic which i finally finish and post in september 2024#i only started thinking about this because of the very lovely and wonderful comments i got on a different fic that were like#oh wow! there aren't enough fics focusing on bruce and stephanie's relationship!#which was also surprising but like there ARE fics focusing on bruce and stephs relationship#it wouldn't have rocked me so much if there was at least one other fic about steph killing her dad that we could find#anyways i do find all this very funny#i keep laughing about it :DDD
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rewatching LoK, i'm being reminded how much I dislike the.... the brothers, mako and bolin, yanno? they're such underwhelming characters on basically every level. it'd almost be impressive if they weren't in every episode and didn't annoy me so much ugh
#bean talking into the void#also this show in general is very flawed lol#cool things about it but the choice to structure it more like a#prestige tv show#as in each season follows One Story#is... i wouldn't say it was a bad choice but i feel like you can see the growing pains#switching over from the episodic structure of ATLA#s1 while flawed is solid#it knows what it's trying to do even if it doesn't always stick the landing#season two feels like a season-long filler episode LMFAO#which is hilarious because a lot of world-building stuff happens#but tonally it's all over the place#serious political plots interspersed with the B Plot following Tenzin and his family#on vacation???#so fucking random#but anyway back to roasting the brothers#i find bolin just annoying in general his brand of comedy totally doesn't work for me#but at least he has like#a personality that's consistent#mako is sooooooo blah#the writers have no idea what to do with him and he comes across as having a strikingly boring personality#with no defining traits other than being wishy washy (and a boot licker)#it FEELS like he was meant to remind viewers of Zuko#at least in appearance if nothing else#another broody pretty boy to latch onto#but he has literally nothing interesting to actually get invested in#sure he's got his tragic backstory and he's the 'older brother who took care of his younger brother after their parents died' boo hoo#but that's all just exposition and it's barely shown in a way that feels illustrative or emotional in any way that matters#(other than him comforting bolin in s1 after he KISSES THE GIRL HE KNEW BOLIN HAD A CRUSH ON lmfaoooooo)#(what a good big brother lmfao)
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One of THEEEE spiciest takes I have is that I really don't think Kaz would go to therapy (this is of course in context of the modern AU, it goes without saying that he wouldn't willingly submit himself to the asylum).
#Everyone is going to disagree with me and that's fine#I think he's going to do his best outside of therapy#I have like at least 3 good reasons to believe he just wouldn't fucking do that#If he tried it he'd quit I really do believe this#Nothing personal to anybody who's really attached to this idea
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hm. i'm not sure how i want to present this but i have an upsetting headcanon/interpretation proposal about yusuke that i wanna make
cw: csa discussion, nothing graphic
i don't think i've ever seen anyone mention this kind of hc for yusuke, but i think there's a lot of elements to his character and backstory that suggest he might have been a victim of csa. i've been thinking about it for a while, and here's what i've got:
neglected kid (only friend was keiko, no father, mother is frequently drunk or hungover, when not absent; almost certainly lonely, and in need of emotional and physical care (i.e. feeding himself) from an adult. shitty school, shitty teachers, possibly already issues with attendance, discipline, etc (skipping, poor/weak relationships with teachers); vulnerable, no reliable adults to notice abuse or report abuse to. in short, he's the perfect victim for grooming)
deep, deep mistrust of power, authority, adults; manifests as quiet resentment, because he doesn't believe anything can truly be done about it (which may seem a bit odd at first from a character as reckless and feisty as yusuke. but in terms of systemic change and justice, he's given up on changing things. he views himself as helpless. also an insistence that adults won't listen even if you tell them what's wrong, that explaining yourself or the situation is useless. which suggests past experience with being shut down, ignored, etc with something so important and/OR so frequently that it's stuck with him)
poor sexual boundaries (you could argue this extends to conversational matters, but i'm mostly talking about his habit of harassing (if not assaulting) keiko, as well as his treatment of miyuki. i usually see this symptom mentioned regarding young children, but i can't imagine it just.. goes away as they get older)
emotionally closed off, as a result of being hurt or dismissed by those he depended on to help him. has a hard time being vulnerable with people
seems to expect authority figures to want to hurt him (even does this with koenma/king yama in ep 2). doesn't even flinch when mr iwamoto punches him in ep 6(?), as though that sort of physical violence is normal at school and/or with adults regarding him (because no one thinks to protect yusuke)
only way of defending himself, of asserting himself, etc, is physical (again, talking doesn't work in yusuke's mind, or within the narrative, in most cases). power is expressed through physical violence within yyh, and it starts before we even meet yusuke. how did he get so good at fighting? at violence? he needed to protect himself (not necessarily from his abuser, but perhaps future malicious actors, real or imagined). those with power use it to hurt others, and yusuke knows this, and since no one was there to protect him, he had to learn to do it himself. i think csa could fit into this presentation of the world, and of yusuke, extremely easily
emotionally volatile, lashes out
disregard for his life, well-being; passively suicidal
none of these factors are That strong on their own, but it's a pattern i can't quite shake. i think it's worth considering, anyway, though i don't know that i have any real ideas regarding further explorations of it. it's one possible explanation for some of his behavior, and it fits into our glimpses of yusuke's world pretty neatly. i think a lot of people might dismiss this initially because 1) he perpetuates sexual violence (and what victim would do that?) 2) he's a guy 3) he's not a meek or helpless character. he doesn't fit into a typical depiction of csa victim, as flawless or delicate. but there are survivors like yusuke out there. it's not so cut and dry. idk
like.. did he seek out attention out of desperation, or did it find him? did he finally find someone who was good to him and watch as, slowly, that relationship twisted into something wrong? or did he accept it, thinking himself more mature than he was, and needing some kind of attention, even if it was unhealthy? and did he try to tell someone? was the response delayed, or nonexistent? or did he not even try, because he was afraid (of his abuser, of being rejected on something so important, of getting in trouble), or simply thought it could not matter to anyone enough to change a thing? would he tell keiko? would he tell anyone?
i look at his hopelessness and see the trauma that caused it. csa does not Have to be a part of forming the yusuke we see. but it's not that much of a stretch, imo.
#this isn't me trying to blame yusuke for any of it. i hope that's clear#takenaka is an interesting figure in this. yusuke seems to only trust his motives or even care about him when he hears how and why he mourn#him at his wake. there's no reason for him to lie there.#but the first time we see them interact yusuke's trying to create physical distance. he's not shy about getting in people's faces when he's#mad at them but takenaka is someone he's trying to slip away from. and i think that's bc a) he's a teacher and thus untrustworthy b) he's#TRYING to get yusuke to listen to guide him etc in ways that show a genuine concern and maybe he doesn't know how to deal with that#either seeing it as a manipulation tactic or selfish or just gross. in general i think yusuke's a very avoidant person yknow#i think he slips away from people and his feelings etc a Lot. but how grounded you think that idea is is up to you ig#i don't really see myself doing much with this in the future but it's been like. haunting me. i needed to say it so i could move on#but i think it might be good to see/write smth where yusuke just. tells keiko. i think she would be the hardest person to tell and the#easiest at the same time. bc he trusts her and knows her the most but at the same time there's no way she wouldn't feel Awful about that#the guilt the fear the shame the disgust the heartbreak the outrage. etc#but that's something i'd need to think about a LOT and it's the kind of concept that might be better coming from someone else#yyh#yusuke urameshi#yusuke enjoyers this probably hurts to read (it hurt to write at least) but how do we feel about this
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The urge to spend a 100$ on merch before getting my paycheck is so strong. I might not survive soldiers
#Priorities! Next month no food challenge#At least I can eat my vinyls and CDs 🥰#Man fr I could starve but if Id have some albums#Id be happy#eating my own organs and shit#Okay yes I officially lost it but!#ahiajwineidn the voices#I want to spend money#🐈⬛🐈⬛🐈⬛🐈⬛🐈⬛🐈⬛🐈⬛🐈⬛🐈⬛#Tbh i only eat cheap ass bread anyways so maybe we can do it 👻#me tryna convince myself this would be a good idea and i wouldn't die#Mnaiaisns9jwkq but it's motivation? to keep working right?#....... IM ABT TO ORDER STUFF#IDEK WHAT. BUT. THE. VOICES.#like im soo thinking abt buying the mortal vinyl or atsushis vinyll CUZ THEY LOOK SO GOOD.#I DONT HAVE A MF LP PLAYER BUT IMMA BUY ONE AS WELL#aaaaaaaaa🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠#HM. HmmMM. i can get an LP player on facebook market place rightttt that wont be expensive righttttt#oh to not have to pay 30$ for. shipping would be so good#Ahhhhhhhhh. 😾#Gimme money#Actually I don't even have the money! idek how much am i gonna get paid! but im just thinking abt ordering stuff and hoping ill have enough#insanity is my middle name tbh#also i hate how i literally. dont keep track of my money and i always act on impulse 😭#like man idc how much u pay me i see i have enough imma spend it all#but i should save up to finally move my mf ass away from this great environment i live in#but dang is it hard next to school#getting paid less than minimum wage as a student lowkey. is not fun#But idk what to do cuz i cant skip school to work 😭 so this is shit#n e ways goodnight ily who reads my 3556th diary entry
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"I know why you want to return to our world, Meggie! You just miss your boyfriend! But we haven't seen everything of this beautiful world yet!" Mr Mortimer sir your wife was enslaved for working as a scribe disguised as a man. In this world women are punished for learning their fathers' craft and your thirteen years old daughter would be already married if she was born in this world. I know the books are very pretty but Mo your wife is pregnant. I don't think they have c-sections here :(
#liveshrimping#I've been thinking about like. hypothetically of course I'm not going to write that but I've been thinking about a kpop fangirl#writing her self-insert RPF and reading herself into it#becoming a cleaning lady or a make-up artist for her favourite group and getting involved in a fiery romance with her fave#and then seeing all sorts of Consequences. getting found out + her boy's reputation fucking down the stairs + she's a teenager and#aside from being a MUA/cleaning lady she doesn't have any other skills that could guarantee her a good living and because of the stress#she can't write anything to make the situation better... eventually she starts to wonder if it wouldn't be better to go back to her world#but 1. the time still passes. it's been months since she disappeared from her world. she doesn't want to deal with all that#but 2. she misses her family and friends and her nice and familiar life. but 3. if she goes back she will not be loved by her bias anymore#she will return to being someone he doesn't know. doesn't even know she exists. she can't afford fanmeetings so her best hope for#being noticed by him is to send many messages during his lives so that he at least sees her username in the rapidly moving live chat#AND SO ON. i have no idea how something like that would've even ended. she would have to essentially write all that happened out of#existence. 'and then X woke up and it was all just a dream. a dream that he was already forgetting but for some reason it left him with a#faint distaste for romantic relationships'#BUT SHE REMEMBERS WHAT HIS LIPS TASTED LIKE. SHE REMEMBERS HOW HAPPY SHE FELT IN HIS ARMS.#&c.‚ &c.#this stupid little thing changed not only her -- it gave her a nice phobia of romantic relationships because her first only and most intens#relationship pretty much ruined a guy's career and life -- but also her boyfriend in that other world probably. hell can she even look at#her albums and enjoy the music now that she's back? but this group was like 75% of her mental stability.#AND ALSO: now she feels like she must fix things somehow. apologize to X for ruining his life in this other world he doesn't know#so what if she writes about their albums breaking records of sales. so what if she writes about fashion designers and musicians becoming#obsessed with the group's members and wanting to collab with them -- it's just a little bit more of fame and money. they deserve that!#what can go wrong.
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