#note to me

[chikinan]

come with me to awkwardfamilyphotos.com

[lokixo]

Without fail, Loki will always make you push past what you thought you were capable of.

You’re stronger than you know. You are a divine child of Loki, start acting like one.

[thedeluxedoll]

Note to self: never be afraid to start over✨

[miwhotep]

I want to keep this blog more ordered, so I added a little post with links to my headcanons, analysis and further Milverton stuff - it will be easier for me to find them if I need to.

MILVERTON ANALYSIS POSTS:

Charles Augustus Milverton - the Conan Doyle canon and adaptational differences

Milverton, the Moriarty the Patriot version - the Conan Doyle canon and further inspirations

My problems with Milverton's character writing in Two Criminals

Milverton: the dark mirror of William James Moriarty

When Milverton is actually nice - his relationship with his secretary, Ruskin

Is Milverton blackmailable or not?

Ruskin/Louis similarities when it comes to their relationships with Milverton/William

Little, not evil things what Milverton likes

Milverton and his advertisement company - how did advertising worked in the Victorian era

Reasons why Milverton can still be alive

Another addition to Milverton and Ruskin's relationship

Milverton and Whiteley - similar, but opposites

What can be behind Milverton's surprise in White Knight

Analysis of my favourite Milveskin moments

Milverton as an employer

Milverton's eyes and the meaning behind them

The Great Red Dragon and the Woman Clothed with the Sun

Milverton and the classes

The Milverton/Ruskin conversations

Milverton/Ruskin color analysis

Milverton and his newspapers

Milverton and deviancy sociology

OTHER ANALYSIS POSTS:

James Bond universe references in Moriarty the Patriot

A Moneypenny theory

Yuumori James Bond & cocktails

The White Knight arc and its connections to The Dark Knight movie

The Jack the Ripper case in Yuumori and in reality

Other characters who are actually part of the Conan Doyle canon

MILVERTON THEORIES

The reason behind Milverton's motivation as a villain

MILVERTON HEADCANONS

Milverton's origin story

How did Ruskin met Milverton

Milverton as the Moriarties' possible agent-to-be in the media world

Random Milverton / Milveskin headcanons

Random Milverton / Milveskin headcanons II.

MILVERTON AS BLOFELD AU

Milverton's possible return as Ernst Stavro Blofeld - main villain of the James Bond universe

More about Blofeld and a list of reasons why Milverton is a possible candidate for the role

Milverton as Blofeld manga fan cover

OTHER MILVERTON THINGS

My Milverton cocktail recipe

Fan-made Milverton anime card & Milvey's flower symbol

Milverton manga character chart

Milverton & Ruskin chibi art

FANFICTIONS

All fanfictions (links with summaries)

Hope in the Darkness (Milverton villain origin story fic)

What Goes Around Comes Around (Milverton getting blackmailed by Ruskin's kidnapping)

Unexpectedly (Milverton/Ruskin getting together longfic)

[theghoulboysblog]

bro i just locked my fucking key in my car🧍🏻‍♀️

[neelihara]

I made this for myself but I felt all of us might need this some point in our life.

[jatawrites]

It’s literally so hard trying to rewire your brain from all chaos, trauma , hurt , etc. You have to rebuild confidence, happiness, trust . It’s so hard to just truly enjoy life and love yourself because so many fucked up things happened to you .

But keep pushing . Take it one day at a time . You’ll get there eventually ❤️

[aufhanaja]

Cerita

"Berjuanglah, apalagi!" Katanya sambil menatap langit langit kamar.

Betapa hatinya begitu berteriak dengan kenyataan yang harus ia lewati, berada di tempat yang belum dijadikannya nyaman meski sudah dua bulan ia ada didalamnya.

Rasanya mungkin lelah batinnya, menahan rasa "jauh" dari rumah tempat ternyamannya.

Bukan, bukan jauh letak teritorial, namun jauh dalam artian yang lebih dalam maknanya.

Tapi kewarasan segera menyadarkannya; Tak harus nyaman untuk berjuang, jika nyaman yang dirasanya maka tak akan ada pengorbanan di dalamnya.

Teruntuk mimpi mimpi yang masih menggatung di langit langit kamar, di tinta tinta dalam lembaran, di doa doa yang kadang masih menggema dalam telungkup.

Berjuang fa, meski tertatih tatih, berjuang fa juga dalam harap harap. Agar ada nikmat yang engkau rasakan kelak setelah lelah kaki yang berlari, setelah peluh yang hampa dengan peluk.

Suatu saat nanti, semoga Allah mewujudkan mimpimu tanpa ada takut lagi dalam benakmu.

Gntn. 31 okt 2023

[fatalebridget]

[mad-girlslove-song]

"You will be okay! Don’t let the pit in your stomach swallow you whole."

my notes app, december 18th at 2:35 am

[libragoddess1993]

Never lose your mind over someone who's at peace with letting you go

[jasab]

[miwhotep]

I've decided to make a separate list with links to my fanfictions because my pinned post regarding my analysises is already long enough.

I write little one-shots for the Milveskin ship, mostly on their everyday life beside their villainous activities (but Milverton is still Milverton, I never want to paint him kind beside his relationship with Ruskin), plus I have two different AU short series about their origin stories from the time before Milverton turned into evil. I also have a Milverton/Ruskin longfic.

UNEXPECTEDLY (a 64k longfic with 12 chapters)

Falling in love with your boss is always the worst thing that can happen in your job - especially if your boss is the King of Blackmail. Ruskin never wanted that to happen. Ever since he developed feelings towards the man, Ruskin's entire life became a set of a tragicomedy without a chance of Mr. Milverton ever loving him back.

But when one day, Milverton lost against his business rival and needed to fabricate an evil plan to defeat him, sending his secretary to fulfil a crazy order, neither of them could foresee that the forthcoming events will turn their entire life upside down.

FIRST POST AU ORIGIN STORIES

Hope In The Darkness

Long time ago, before he became the King of Media and took on his new identity, Charles Augustus Milverton was a young, working-class journalist, full of idealism and hope for change. But one day, he comes across a murder case what change his life forever...

Long time ago, William James Moriarty was just a child on the street, giving advice to people in need. When one day, he offers his help to a broken young man, he couldn't foresee the consequences this will lead to in the future...

Save Me From My Fear

Ever since Ruskin's parents were murdered by a count, he loathed nobles - and he was afraid to take his revenge. But one day, when a mysterious man called Charles Augustus Milverton started exposing the aristocracy's wrongdoings in his newspaper, Ruskin realized that he needs to take this chance and make a decision: he can't continue to live in fear. He will expose the noble he is working for - with the help of Milverton.

But is there anyone who can save him when his life gets into danger?

The Shoulder You Cry On

After years of his family getting murdered by a noble, with the help of blackmail, the young and vengeful Charles Augustus Milverton successfully founded his own newspaper company to expose the nobles' dark secrets. One day, when a letter arrives to his office from a man called Ruskin, asking for help, Milverton decides to take on his request... but he never expected he will gain the most loyal friend in return.

ORPHANAGE AU STORIES

The alternate universe where Milverton and Ruskin met as kids in an orphanage. 12 parts series from their first meeting to the first murder and blackmail.

In a poor orphanage in Whitechapel, a little brown boy befriended a certain white-haired child. They made the promise of a shared life with great ambitions: rising above their misfortunate circumstances and establishing a newspaper. They know they will rule by the power of the press one day, hand in hand - as the king and his loyal knight. But they still had a long way to go...

First 4 parts Second 4 parts Last 4 parts

FLUFFTOBER FICS

I wrote a fic for every day of October inspired by the 2024 Flufftober prompts.

Day 1-10 Day 11-21 Day 22-31

OTHER

What Goes Around Comes Around

One of Milverton's blackmailing plans backfires and his opponent kidnaps his secretary, Ruskin to make the King of Blackmail finally taste his own medicine. Milverton, who is proud for never responding to blackmail now needs to make a crucial decision.

Nightmare - In his worst nightmare, Milverton experiences what he put his victims through: arriving home to a massacre and finding his beloved secretary's lifeless body on the floor.

Somewhere on a Beach - Years after the disappearance of Charles Augustus Milverton, somewhere on a beach in the USA, two men is resting while plotting the revenge they will take together.

Until Our Life Ends - After ruining people side by side, Milverton retires to the countryside with his loyal secretary to enjoy the old age together.

That One Stormy Night - Ruskin's entire world fell apart when he rushed back to his employer's bedroom on that night and found out that Mr. Milverton was gone. But is there truly no hope anymore or does he still have a chance to save him?

Perfect - (for Angstober, theme: perfect) Ever since he started to work for him, Ruskin worshipped his perfect employer... and he knew that he could never be perfect enough to be loved by him.

Tears May Flow in the Night - (for Whumptober, theme: delirium) Milverton caught the flu and his fever recently got dangerously high, resulting in a state of delirium. The doctor tells Ruskin that if the fever doesn't go down soon, his boss will not survive the night.

WITH OTHER CHARACTERS

Where True Evil Lies - Milverton wandering about the nature of evil and suffering while sitting in the dark.

My Child - Covered with the blood of his brother and his killer, Whiteley is crying on the floor, when a certain white-haired man approaches him.

The Lips of the Devil - Charles Augustus Milverton was here in his office and couldn't stop talking, so Sherlock decided to silence him in an unexpected way.

Strawberries and Stargazy Pie - (After the last omake in Volume 12.) Milverton asks William's favourite food what leads to a surreal conversation whether Louis' stargazy pie or Ruskin's strawberry cake is the better.

A Strange Encounter At Cat Alley - When a pregnant stray cat goes missing, Fred need to look for her what leads to a strange encounter with another cat-lover.

The Knife At Your Throat - When Moneypenny is unable to convince Milverton during a blackmail negotiation, she chooses to deal with the man in an agent-like manner.

Double Date from Hell - In a café, Sherlock and William meet a pair they never expected to see again.

FANTASY AU-S

The Dance of the Black Swan - Prince Sherlock invites the enchanted swan prince, William to the ball and now they are dancing together while a certain white-haired man watches them from the background. Sherlock wants to make a vow to William - then the cruel truth gets revealed.

LITTLE EVERYDAY LIFE STORIES (FLUFF)

Birthday Presents Are Not So Evil - Milverton buys a birthday present for Ruskin.

Baking Is Nothing Like Business - Unfortunately, Milverton needs to bake his strawberry cake himself and learns that baking is harder than blackmail.

Make You Feel Better - Ruskin gets sick and Milverton, who would never admit he is worried, ends up taking care of him.

Happy Birthday, Mr. Milverton! - Ruskin throws a birthday celebration to his employer, but not everything goes like he expected.

Unexpected Confessions - Milverton just needs an advice regarding selfless love from his secretary for his next blackmailing plan, but the conversation gets an unexpected turn.

Let Me Hold You Gently - Milverton gets drunk on a social gathering and ends up in his secretary's arms.

When The Cherry Trees Bloom - Ruskin takes his employer to the Regent's Park to view the cherry blossoms together.

A Little Warm - Due to a storm, Milverton and Ruskin end up staying in a poor inn and their shared room is really cold.

A Secretary's Wish - Ruskin wishing upon a star.

Vows What Last Forever - Milverton and Ruskin celebrate their anniversary of working together for 10 years.

I Have a Tale for You - Milverton gets sick and Ruskin helps him pass the time with a mystery solving game.

Earning Your Trust - Trust sometimes starts with a simple act - for Milverton, it was letting his Ruskin to shave him.

Murder is a Way to Show Love - Ruskin, having enough of people talking bad about his beloved employer, takes up a new hobby.

Strawberry Season - Milverton and Ruskin go to a strawberry field to pick strawberries together.

Would You Honour Me with a Dance? - Milverton teaching Ruskin how to dance.

Breakfast for You - Ruskin makes breakfast for Milverton in bed.

Noises in the Night - Ruskin's late night safety checks never go well ever since Milverton started keeping cats. Except for this one time.

Complete Me - Milverton and Ruskin having a villanous fun time in the basement while Milverton teaching Ruskin how to do the chest compression massage.

A Special Gift - Ruskin wants to make Milverton a special but quite bloody gift with his new drill. (Modern AU)

Poisonous Fangs - On a boring ball, Milverton starts playing a wicked game with Ruskin about how to ruin the other guests' lives.

A Stroll in Hyde Park - Milverton and Ruskin arrive too early for a blackmail negotiation, so Ruskin takes his boss to Hyde Park to spend the time.

Washing You Is Always Pleasure - Ruskin giving Mr. Milverton a bath then ends up in the bath tub with him.

Happy World Snake Day! - Milverton demands World Snake Day as his second birthday and Ruskin tries to reason with him.

I'm Here So the Dentist Won't Kill You - Milverton is terribly afraid of the dentist but Ruskin still put him through the yearly medical examination to make sure he is healthy.

A Night Without The Air-Conditioner - On a hot summer night, the air-conditioning went out in Milverton's home. Now, he and Ruskin spend the time with annoying each other since they cannot fall asleep. (Modern AU)

The Bench At The Lake - Milverton thinks designing a park after the theme of love is the cheesiest idea someone can get, but still let Ruskin take him there after work.

Like A Cat - The reason why Ruskin started to like cats.

Fun Times At The Diogenes Club - Milverton and Ruskin visit the club to make the members break its rules and kick as much of them out as they can.

I Will Protect You from the Night - Ruskin comforts Milverton after a nightmare.

The Cats in the Rain - Milverton and Ruskin find two stray kittens in the bush and try to take care of them.

Ruskin, Would You Die for Me? - Love letter confessions always makes Milverton laugh so he gets confused when his secretary admits that he feels the same for him.

MOSTLY SMUT

The Desire of Love - Milverton decides that as a reward for his services, fulfills Ruskin's wish and gives him a night together. (Smut)

The Greatest Pleasure - (for Kinktober, kink: virginity) Ruskin shows another form of great pleasure to his employer what has nothing to do with evil.

The Sweet Taste of Ruin - (for Kinktober, kink: blackmail) After a successful blackmail negotiation, the King of Blackmail and his secretary get too excited over the despair they caused.

DRABBLES

Have You Done A Good Deed Today? - Milverton finds a confusing paper on his company's walls.

The Star of the Bathroom - Milverton loves singing in the bathroom... even if he cannot sing.

The Cats and the Villain - Even villains can like cats... and Milverton is not an exception.

I Shall Be Your Bride - Milverton, getting overhyped about his evil deeds, tries to pick up Ruskin in bridal style but he is not strong enough for that.

Cats Don't Care About Love Letters - How the King of Blackmail failed a blackmail case thanks to his cats.

No Complaints - Milverton and Ruskin designs an advertisement.

[chido2001]

Note to self : "The alarms are there so that your internship aint go down and crash like a blue British phone box from outer space"

"You can ride motorbike, surely you can drive the Tardis better than The Doctor (hopefully, probably, supposingly)

[oyemaggi]

"Deep down, everyone wants to believe they can be hardcore. But being hardcore isn't just about being tough — it's about acceptance. Sometimes you have to give yourself permission to not be hardcore for once. You don't have to be tough every minute of every day. It's okay to let down your guard. In fact, there are moments when it's the best thing you can possibly do — as long as you choose your moments wisely."

– Meredith Grey / On Being Tough

[ithinkilikemyself-blog]

What are the benefits of loving yourself?

Loving yourself is an essential part of mental and emotional wellbeing. It can help you become a better version of yourself and open the door to a more positive and fulfilling life. Here are some of the top benefits of loving yourself:

1. You will be more confident in your decisions and actions. When you love yourself, you become more secure in who you are, allowing you to make decisions from a place of knowing what is best for you.

2. You will be able to accept your flaws. Loving yourself means understanding that no one is perfect. You’ll be able to accept and even embrace your imperfections, which will make it easier for you to learn from your mistakes.

3. You will be more resilient in challenging times. Self-love allows you to maintain a positive outlook and focus on solutions instead of getting overwhelmed by problems. This helps you navigate through tough times with more confidence and strength.

4. You will have improved relationships with others. Self-love encourages healthy boundaries, which help you have better relationships with others. When you truly value yourself, it will be easier for others to respect and appreciate you.

5. You will find more joy in life. Loving yourself helps you create a sense of inner peace, making it easier to be content and enjoy life’s moments. It also allows you to develop a healthier relationship with yourself and become more in tune with what brings you true happiness.