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[dark-elf-writes]

Screaming at a god who will not answer for mercy I will not find (want to write and have no words)

[absolutedestinyapocalypsse]

the thing getting at me the most after finishing my second read through is john's desperate fear of consequences combined with the ability to wipe people's memories about it. like he accepts that there's conflict between the lyctors, but he doesn't want to/cant comprehend that anyone would have a grudge against HIM. he justifies cytherea's actions as her being overworked, not her having a very real reason to want to stop more lyctors from being born. his fear of consequences is also a fear of change. he's desperately clinging to who his friends were ten thousand years ago, and i think it's entirely possible that he's so desperate he would cut parts of them out that were changing/disagreeing with him. he already demonstrates complete willingness to violate their boundaries and erase their memories "for their own good". He thinks people can and should be fixed- he's frustrated that mercymorn won't let him "fix" her anxiety, he tells them to kill harrowhark or "fix" her. If he has the ability to erase people's memories to avoid anyone being mad at him/stopping his plans, to "fix" the parts of them that were unfaithful or might hurt them, in his eyes, I don't trust that he wouldn't.

imagine how many times over ten thousand years the last straw was pulled and one of the lyctors got fed up with him, or he got fed up with them. imagine how many times over ten thousand years one of the lyctors tried to talk him out of something or objected to some genocide or another, and he found their objection inconvenient. part of the horror of harrow's experience on the mithraeum comes from the fact that she is both in actual danger that nobody is recognizing, AND that she can't remember or trust her own perception of events. Is she hallucinating? is it the ghost? what reason would anyone have to believe her, if she can't even believe herself?

maybe that's the horror of every lyctor- never being sure if you're being manipulated in the normal gaslighty "don't leave me or i'll kill myself and also kill the sun" way, or in the brain tampering way. knowing and feeling a sense of fealty and love and faith in john, and never knowing if it's coming from you, or from some brain magic. Harrow doesn't remember gideon, but there are LOTS of signs that something is very wrong, that something is missing. Imagine how many of those would stack up over TEN THOUSAND YEARS

[goldenpinof]

when was the last time we analysed something to this extent? it feels like years ago. dnpcrafts is truly the return of the century.

[taz-writes]

here's a hot take for today

the narrative function of sex is the same as the narrative function of fight scenes is the same as the narrative function of songs in a musical

no i will not explain

[kit-screams-into-the-future]

re: the last post i reblogged bc i am realizing just how much i yapped in the tags and i do not wish to subject the wider tumblr public to that rant LMAO

[jaskierx]

people posting about the met gala are not ‘literally complicit in genocide’. they’re not ‘personally murdering civilians’. equating reblogging a picture of a celebrity in an outfit to killing another person with your own hands as part of a genocide is fucking harmful. people are being murdered and you’re choosing to throw around accusations in their name so you can feel like a big guy on the internet? wobble your fucking head

[superm4ks]

Kit do you not rep Charles anymore 😭

Of course I do he’s prime I just need a break from his team and that fucking dog

[bloomingsalma]

i think one of the most disappointing things is to see that your childhood friends have grown up to represent the kind of people you're disappointed in

[moe-broey]

You see, Moe isn't in the business of fixing people, *remembers Moe is quite literally in the business of "fixing" people as a healer* *stares out into yhe fucki g

[positivelyqueer]

fjakdhahagjs [keysmash]

Many thoughts none articulate.

Saw art of Uffington White Horse on dash and-

So so old. Old old chalk horse. Now people make chalk horse drawing on computer?

Hmm not thoughts right but. See people draw Anubis. See people write Heracles. Learn child Dreamtime Stories. Old old Ancient Greece song. Khronos.

Same art. Vast time space. Same art.

[dirtytransmasc]

alicole, but they're not in love in the traditional sense. like, they're just so desperate for meaningful, intimate, personal relationships where they can be vulnerable with another person, that they turn to find solace in one another.

like I'm not saying they're like a qpr or some variation of it, or like, that do to their individual traumas and experiences with love and relationships and sex in the past that their relationship has a aro/ace undertones to it... but that's also exactly what I'm saying, I just don't know how to fully articulate the concept in my head.

they don't have sex, they tried, but both ended up feeling sick to their stomachs, their touch burned one another a skin, and Alicent felt trapped like she had with Viserys for all those years, not only because of how her trauma effected her view of sex, but also because she was once again forcing herself to sleep with a man when she had no desire for it.

instead they hold one another steady, offer kind words, spend time with one another simply because it is nice to find leisure in other people. Cole helps with the kids, giving them some semblance of a father figure, of a protector and nurturer.

touch is a complicated subject, so foreign and damaged that the thought of it is nauseating, but in time it comes naturally.

she is not his, he holds no claim over her, and he is more than ok with that. he offers himself in his entirety, swearing his life to her and her children. they are not one, but they make each other whole.

[vulpinesaint]

man. man...........

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

I want to supply more scorbus shit posting but I have absolutely nothing to say, there are no words its just all vibes, so you're gonna have to all just climb inside my mind and see them there hope that's okay and totally achievable 🤗🤗🫶🏻🫶🏻🤩🤩

[tealeavesandthorns]

Open - Major Angst

Sobs wracked Maria's body as she tried to piece together what had happened. Or maybe not what but why.

Despite the pain that seemed to be in every single nerve ending, she had pulled her legs up to her chest. She was cold, bloody and bruised, curled into the smallest position she could manage with her back against the wall. She rocked gently, as though it might soothe her. Her clothes were torn in multiple places, exposing bloody gashes and already bruising skin, a by product of the beating.

She didn't register the door opening but she flinched away when the shadow of a figure appeared over her.

[strangersynth]

did u see that

[sgkjd]

wish i didn't have such a fucking low self esteem. i do find myself annoying and boring and not fun to be around AND this is exactly the reason i'm not fun to be around!!!!!!!! but i can't fucking help it!!!!!!! it's so embarrassing being like this i feel like i'm being cooked in a cauldron full of hot oil.