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danieldrivesfast · 19 hours ago
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Oh. I get it. I understand why this bothers me so much. It all goes back to him, my pro-athlete friend.
I remember how it felt sitting across the table from him at lunch while he told me about how all the shit "fans" and the press was talking about him was affecting his personal life. How he didn't want to meet fans because he knew so many of them were saying terrible things. How he had to answer questions to his family/in-laws about the things they were saying and he was being accused of doing. How upset he was that he knew nothing he could ever say or do would change or stop what people said or how they attack him.
I remember how I told him to speak up anyway. Use his team. Use his agent. Put his truth out there... But the team wouldn't let him. His agent didn't think it was worth it. The people who did do the bad things wouldn't speak up and take their rightful heat. So on it went.
I remember being backstage with him before an event and seeing how visibly upset he was that people were wishing harm on him and his loved ones, and it was all for something he had no part in but was built upon the existing bullshit. I remember how he said I was right, he should've said what he wanted to say, because nobody had his back anyway. He asked me, more than once, if I believed him or the noise. If I thought he was a bad person, if he deserved it, if he should've done more. Then I watched him smile and go raise funds for charity in front of the cameras like everything was fine, knowing what was going on in his head.
And I think of Lando now. Obviously, I don't know Lando. But I know who I know. I know the hate and harassment he received was a tenth, a hundredth of what Lando is receiving. I know how it tore him up and affected his family and pushed him away from what he loved. I know how he always made himself be the bigger person and be kind to the same people who were being so hateful.
It's personal to me, I guess. I can't just look at these people as unaffected millionaires or whatever bullshit. Just like my friend, Lando Norris is a person. A whole person, by all accounts a good person, with thoughts and emotions and regrets like all of us, that doesn't change because he has money or a cool job. That doesn't give people the right to treat him like they are. Because he could be somewhere, looking at someone he cares about, asking "Do I deserve this?" while believing that maybe he does.
And when I think of that, I'm angry, standing in front of my friend saying, "No, you don't."
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awkwardandeccentric · 2 days ago
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I think it’s also really important to remember in these moments that this show does take place in Hell and amongst demons.
A lot of the behavior that Blitz displays, if we were talking about real, every day men, would get him arrested and labeled an abusive piece of shit for the rest of his life. But among demons? He’s pretty tame.
He cares about consent in sex for one thing, something not a lot of demons show (Chaz was coercing both Moxxie and Millie and when Blitz told him to ‘chill the fuck out,’ there’s no indication he listened.). He is hard on his employees because he thinks he needs to be but he’s also a lot nicer to them than we see the majority of bosses treat their subordinates (just look at Stolas and Ozzie). Verosika has been stalking and harassing him for years and nobody bats an eye because that’s just something you do in Hell. He lets Loona get away with a ton of awful behavior that most people would have probably cast her aside for because he knows where that rage comes from. When a seventeen-year-old girl took his meal ticket to earth, he didn’t get angry. He feels solidarity with all imps, even when all imps don’t give him that solidarity in return. He doesn’t go to parties about hating his ex’s; fuck man, even Stolas didn’t clear that bar, and he’s pretty mature!
Like, by our standards is Blitz outrageous? Yes. By Hell’s standards? Pretty chill. He just gets labeled badly compared to everyone else because he barks so much. But his bark is a million times worse than his actual bite.
I miss when Sarcastic Chorus was making fun of shipping culture from the perspective of an insider. Yeah. We’re cringe and weird and annoying. It’s nice to be reminded to not take this shit so seriously. I liked him taking shots at RobStar, despite it being my OTP ship and Starfire being among my favorite characters of all time. I liked him taking about Rayla and Callum. I liked him being cute about Willow and Hunter. But I guess clicks and likes mattered more.
the last SEVERAL sarcastic chorus videos im just gripping my hair with increasing intensity yelling MAN I TRUSTED YOU
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finitevoid · 1 month ago
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I had a fascinating conversation with a coworker today in which I was arguing with him about the gaycoding of the cunty popstar character from the fifth element. I was positing that the character was gaycoded because he’s flamboyant and talks in a gay voice and dresses like That etc and my coworker was like He has sex with women onscreen. This led to a few minutes of circular argument in which I finally gave up and made a joke I don’t remember about subtext. he looked at me blankly. I said subtext? I’m not explaining subtext to you I know you went to highschool english class. and he was like no I really have no idea what you’re talking about. I was like huh. You’ve never heard of subtext? So after a brief moment of AM I PRETENTIOUS OR IS THIS GUY STUPID followed immediately by remembering that I’m the child of upper middle class college graduates who grew up in one of the highest ranking counties for education in the entire country. I explained text and subtext to him. And I made a joke about being pretentious and he awkwardly asked me what the word pretentious meant. And I fucked up a second time because I was like lol I’m pretentious tho so it’s fine. And he was like. Meaning? And I just stared at him. And then he apologized. don’t be sorry I actually feel quite bad about making you feel stupid
it reminded me of a conversation I had a few weeks ago, in which I was bitching about genshin impacts main story. I complained that it wasn’t very complex and my friend was like, no, but it is complex? There’s so much Lore. There’s so much going on that you have to keep track of. and I was like. You are misunderstanding what I mean by complex. and when they asked me what I meant by complex I was so unable to articulate myself I finally said something like You know… nuanced… challenging… has deep themes etc. and they were very plainly annoyed at me and were like. You know not everyone wants that right? Most people don’t want that. Most people want their media to not be that. I was like you would rather your media be shallow? and they fully to my face were like yes. I don’t want to think about it. like they said those words. They told me they want to skip the dialogue while scrolling on their phone and lose nothing
they did point out something to me in this conversation which was that many people don’t think deeply about art because the things they care about enough to think deeply about are not art. they were like most people think this deeply about their lives and therefore art is an escape to them and they don’t want to think deeply about it. & maybe I needed someone to say that to me because this conversation was spiraling towards “the entire human population is braindead and poisoned by Web 3.0??????” territories in my brain. Maybe people skip through genshin because they care deeply about things other than art sure. But at the same time. Why engage with art on such a surface level as to not even know what subtext is, and yet still have so much of your life surround engaging with art
because both of these people are big into art. the first guy is a huge weeb and my friend is a patented GamerTM. you spend every free moment of your life engaging with art and yet you can’t bring yourself to think about it for more than a few minutes? And you blame your highschool english teacher for this?
My friend told me that the effortless way I go about analysis is specific to me and that I am alone. that for “most” people, thinking that deeply about media is tiring. and this annoys me because it’s work for me too. Thinking deeply about things is difficult. But it’s engaging. It’s meaningful to me. I guess it isn’t meaningful to “most” people. I guess “most” people want to skip through the dialogue in genshin impact. but why am I the weird one . Maybe you should be the weird one?
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oceanwithouthermoon · 4 months ago
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ive been unhealthily fixated on kubosai for the past few weeks, i just have no idea how to put it into words. kuboyasu aren and saiki kusuo are in love btw
#they are.#been thinking a lot about t*rusai and k*bosai and all three of them together#(really long rant in these tags that shouldve been a rant post but im not changing it soz i got carried away LMAO->)#see the thing is that k*bosai is my absolute favorite ship ever. but i get genuinely pissed when people smack talk t*rusai#idk like i get why people wouldnt ship kbs and i really dont care. and i also get that a lot of people have differing opinions and-#wont ship trsai. i honestly cant wrap my head around why (other than people who just hate teruhashi and are misogynistic) but im okay with-#agreeing to disagree and i dont care yk??#but people so often make these long discussion posts just yapping and yapping and making up shit about how trsa 'wouldnt work'#and its always just... actual complete bullshit. like unreadable word vomit.#sorry. but its true.#thats why it gets me so mad#i cant think of a single reason why you would feel the need to do that#why cant you be normal and just. not like a ship. just dont like it. hate it even. but dont make up shit just to shit on it#its so dumb i have to force myself to just scroll past them every time i encounter one#usually on tiktok or tumblr#if i read them i wont be able to stop myself from making the most concerned and upset noises ever cuz what is actually wrong with you#theyre always the biggest dumbest stretches ever and they ignore their actual development and pretend it didnt happen#it just makes me wonder why people are so okay with making fun of that ship but get mad if anyone even dislikes theirs#and then they complain about people 'shitting on their opinion'#LIKE ?? NOBODY CARES THAT U HATE THE SHIP. I CERTAINLY DONT GAF.#but ur in the main tags advertising ur hatred for it and sounding stupid as shit for no reason? UR SHITTING ON PEOPLES SHIP ON PURPOSE#AND THEN GETTING MAD AT ANYONE WHO EVEN SAYS 'i disagree actually' IM LAUGHING SO HARD STOP IM KILLING MYSELF#the one time i ever talked in that much detail about why i disliked a ship was bevause somebody specifically asked me#and yk what ?? i have literally gotten death threats over it. im not allowed to hate that ship but everyone else can do whatever i guess#okay sorry. rant over.#is that controversial i cant tell. i dont really care and im not tagging anyway#meows post
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a-garden-of-worlds · 9 months ago
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Oh wow... charlastor shippers y'all okay?
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teamfortresstwo · 1 day ago
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Okay fair points . I’ll give you the lack of trust, but I do think his actions with the wind bag stem from his concerns for the crew and Odysseus . It’s in his job description to doubt Odysseus, and I think it’s actually a point for him. The fact that he’s able to call Odysseus out when nobody else does speaks to how close they are and how they’re on about as equal footing as one can get with their captain. That’s why I think Odysseus basically telling him to shut up and go with the flow shook his trust so much, especially when he was basically ignoring all his VERY RATIONAL concerns during storm. After something like that, I doubt I’d trust the captain’s judgement either, though the thing with the wind bag was definitely Eury’s mistake.
Also the thing with Circe’s island WAS reasonable, I would say. He didn’t know they would get support from Hermes, and he’s shown to be the most cautious and weary of gods. In his eyes, the men were beyond saving, so he decided to cut his losses, which is a lot more reasonable than keeping your crew in the dark just so you can sacrifice them to a monster.
In the end though, I can see where people are coming from, since they both clearly have trust issues around one another and are fundamentally very different people, who did grow apart because of those differences . However, I do think there’s still an undeniable intimacy between them that can only come from incredibly strong bonds of friendship. Like Eurylochus immediately trying to confess his opening of the wind bag is a huge show of trust from him. Odysseus is clearly wrecked as fuck when he has to sacrifice eurylochus (and also the other crew members I guess), getting super emotional .
And like, yeah they both do a lot of horrible shit to eachother, but I think they’re ultimately just both victims of circumstance and can recognize that. I think saying Odysseus ever just stops thinking of Eurylochus is a friend is kind of disingenuous since we can see he still cares for him enough after his death to be haunted by him afterwards .
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corrodedcoughin · 2 years ago
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Steve is giving Eddie a lift home, his van is out of commission until it stops sounding like a goat got under the hood and is mocking the driver from the inside. Anyway, car troubles aside Steve is driving Eddie back to his trailer. Eddie is giving him a run down of why he should watch Star Trek as Steve searches through the radio.
He stops as the introduction of blinded by the light comes on. Eddie isn’t a music snob but it’s obvious he gets a kick out of riling Steve up about his song preferences. He knows it’s coming so Steve gets himself ready to defend his choices when Eddie is turning it up. Steve thinks he’s done it, he’s finally cracked Eddie Munson into giving up the ‘metal is the only real music’ schtick he keeps up solely around Steve. He’s won!
Then of course Eddie subverts Steves expectations and is shouting ‘REVVED UP LIKE A DOUCHE ANOTHER RUNNER IN THE NIGHT!’ Looking so pleased with himself because of course he latches on to the song that sounds like the singer is saying douche. He’s banging his head and smiling at Steve, laughing all the while. He’s beautiful is the thing and Steve feels like somebody reached in to grab his heart and just twisted it. A feeling that is so far past painful it’s euphoric. So he just gives in and joins Eddie in the stupidity of it all, both of them slapping the dashboard and singing harder when Eddie’s favourite line makes its appearance.
Its pure unfiltered joy for seven minutes and eight second that Steve tucks away for safekeeping. It gets added to when Eddie takes his hand and kisses his knuckles when they eventually arrive at the trailer and leaves Steve with a blush on his cheeks.
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yellowocaballero · 9 months ago
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i dont know if this something you put a lot of thought into but it seems like you might and im curious so, what are some of your favorite themes to write about/the themes that interest you in writing or media?
Oh wow, good question. I put both a lot of thought and very little into the themes of my work. I always sit down and decide what I'm saying, and the meaning of the story, but some things always emerge in the writing. I usually discover what a story is actually about as I'm writing it. It's usually only after I finish the work that I realize what themes I had put in there, which seems like it should be bad. I think this means that a lot of my themes come through subconsciously. They're typically just...things I think about a lot.
I think the one thing I keep on coming back to is *tumblr voice* the mortifying ordeal of being known. That entire article, including the image of walking down a hundred stories of hell before reaching heaven, reconfigured my brain. It's just so damn hard to exist in a world with other people in it. There's an inevitability to hurting each other, but the love's worth it. Playing The World Ends With You at a vulnerable age primed me for obsession with this. That one quote from The Little Prince, ya know.
Generational trauma, cycles of trauma and abuse, and the long-term impact of trauma comes up a lot for me too. How being fucked up makes you fuck up others, the long-term consequences of being fucked up, the coping mechanisms we develop as a result. The ugly side of trauma and mental illness, the way we lash out and hurt people. I talk about escapism a lot, and the impact that has on you and the people around you long-term. This is usually exemplified through amnesia plotlines. This is a deep cut, but the Warchild series by Karin Lowachee had the best take on this I've read in a book.
Non-traditional love. I end up writing a lot of sibling dynamics, but I like creating unnamable and undefinable relationships. A lot of things I write just become very aro and asexual narratives. Love that saves. Love that isn't enough, but it still matters. The other side of love, which is grief.
I could go on. Forgiving yourself. Struggling to determine how to be a good person. How your identity & the intersections of your identity affect who you are. Power and power dynamics. A LOT of man vs self stories, like a lot a lot (I'm not overly interested by villains). The experience of being mentally ill and navigating the world as a mentally ill and/or disabled person. The differences between navigating the world as a man or a woman. I write a lot, so a lot of stuff tends to come up, lol. Roleswaps - fucking, somehow, for some reason, WHY, WHY DO I WRITE SO MUCH OF THEM -
Thanks for the ask, I had to do some self-reflection to answer it! I never really realize I'm writing about these things until I am, again. They're just all part of my framework of how I understand the world. Everybody has those, but when you're a writer it's easier to pull them out and microscope them.
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doctorweebmd · 3 months ago
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a really nice comment on 'nothing else fills' made me actually reread it for like, the first time in its entirety and.
wow. its... actually really good. like. i teared up multiple times and i'm the one that wrote it. why was i so mean to myself about it.
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pink-lemonadefairy · 2 months ago
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#the weather is so lovely today. it’s breezy and cool but the sun is warm so it’s not too cold or too hot out.#i wish it was like this forever.#ive been feeling so tired lately. physically n mentally & idk if its an underlying health issue or bc i haven’t been sleeping super well#the past few days i wake up in the middle of the night but im able to go back to sleep fairly quickly. but i STILL feel exhausted.#im supposed to talk about my lab results w my doc tmrw on the phone so. i hope everything is okay but tbh i wouldn’t be surprised if#something wasn’t optimal. my iron was okay last time i checked it though. sigh i just idefk anymore.#im sick of everything. im irritable for no reason. i don’t wanna do anything. like anything. i just want to rot in my bed#and even my interests are slowly slipping away from me. writing? couldn’t care less if i don’t write anything for the rest of the year tbh.#reading? i couldn’t even care to browse the shelves when we went to the bookstore the other day and it scared the shit out of me#kpop? meh.#i have a massive to do list and uni starts in a month and i have no energy. + dealing with my own brain and nonsensical thoughts on top#of that. overthinking anxiety all that super great stuff.#im also sick of putting in 110% into my relationships and getting half of it back. family friends whoever. and it makes me so sad. +#i feel like nobody even understands me. or even tries to or wants to.#im just tired#sick and tiredddddd#actually a bit sick too my throat hurts#anyways whatever#it’ll be fine i guess#i don’t want to give up but i don’t have any desire to push through im sort of just. floating. ill deal with it when i deal with it#♡ dear diary…
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echo-s-land · 6 months ago
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It's insane how most of the time I don't get how ppl interact and I also Don't Fucking Care
#vent ig#i wish i could#but unfortunately i havent had the occasion of sharing one of my interest with you in the past three months and when i did it didnt go as i#wanted and now we're supposed to talk through smalltalks except i dont know how to do those so im awkward as hell and unconsciously cut the#short and now im being hated (?) even tho that wasnt my intent#but i guess no matter how trustful i am i just look like a liar#and i cant even bring myself to care bc how am i supposed to explain myself when youre convinced what i say is a lie#we werent even supposed to be this close so sorry if im stiff. i tried to get along but i just cant#the never ending circle between 'i want to have ppl to interact with being alone to experience this world is exhausting and dreadful' and#'im not even remotely interested by any of you'#its different on tumblr bc i can curate my own experience & nobody comes @ me when i dont interact with them for days or weeks (BC IVE GOT#NOTHING TO SAY) and its okay and its normal and we dont have to do the 'hi how are you wyd' script every single time (sure we can check up#on each other once in a while but it doesnt become a script. it feels genuine.)#anyway. im so normal. i can def care about ppl that have never been as insane as me about something we both love(d at some point)#am pretty sure i developed 'i perceived you saying/thinking One(1) bad thing about me and now i dont care at all about your existence' as#a child as a coping mechanism but goddammit i feel like an asshole everytime it happened#i hate feeling apathetic#and i hate lying too so i cant just say shit to reassure them when i dont mean them#cant tell them im sorry about how my behavior is perceived when im so damn tired and would rather they disappear of my life
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moe-broey · 6 days ago
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Would I be proving my therapist (who has been voicing some concerns about my depression maybe getting worse but like I feel like it's fine) right by cancelling my appointment tomorrow cause I just don't wanna. Like all I have to report is that I'm tired and I wanna rest and I just don't really feel like it y'know
#unrelated to the flu shot but i'm certain i'll feel it tomorrow#idk i've been in a weird state lately where i get really excited about my art and i get super talkative in general#i feel peppy and enthusiastic and excited and then i just crash. HARD.#it feels like all the years of being a shut-in finally catch up to me all at once and it's like apocalyptic hellfire all consuming agony#and nobody is ever gonna love me again bc i refuse to allow it and the lights are too bright in public spaces.#i feel like i'm not really a person outside of my interests and my artwork. i forget that i'm like. a being.#i think i'm also just annoyed bc i'm gonna be Doing Things. already so soon it's gonna be halloween#and i have plans w my sisters and their friends and later i'll be spending the night at my sister's#and i do want to do all that. but it pisses me off that i had waste time today and will have to tomorrow#when i could be drawing. i should have been drawing. i cannot emphasize enough actually#how artwork is just. the one and only thing that makes me feel connected to people.#that brings me joy and purpose like nothing else. so i just get extra upset if i'm gonna be doing too many things LMFAO#and as i say all this like damn milo some people have jobs. i used to. a lifetime ago.#but to be so real i've gotten so much worse. at. everything.#man sometimes i can't even tolerate being at one of my sisters' place bc she doesn't have lamps.#so i just have to chill in the dark in an adjacent room and it's like Fine.#but why can't everyone live by MY rules.#if i skip out on therapy tomorrow i should cancel tonight. i guess i'm just split about it.#like. it's clear i have things to talk about. but man i just don't fucking WANT to. i'm SICK OF IT#it's more of the same and then some. my circumstances will never change bc i'm in hell. okay.#who CARES .......#who GIVES a shit..........#ect.
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livvyofthelake · 6 months ago
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who could possibly have seen it coming that the first thing in literal ages that i would be so obsessed with i actually am able to cross the first and most major hurdle to amv making. getting scenes. that that thing would be cbs firefighter drama fire country…
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luminouslotuses · 2 months ago
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why does every femslash ship always have people who go “they look like sisters” or even insist that those characters ARE sisters (literally just pulling that info out of their ass)
like i hate to be that annoying lesbian but if this goes for Every sapphic ship you encounter that may be something you need to rethink. possibly. probably . but what do i know
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floral-hex · 11 months ago
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hi it’s my birthday tomorrow
#had to redo this since someone left a comment that bummed me out a lot#well… didn’t HAVE to but I didn’t like seeing the notification#guess I could have just deleted their comment… shit… didn’t think about that#hey uhhhh please don’t be mean to me about my birthday. I’m just a sad lil guy 🥺#I already dislike my birthday. I hate feeling older. like I’m wasting my life.#it’s already usually an afterthought since it’s Christmas Eve#but with my mom’s surgery it’s even more of an afterthought and I’m so stressed and I have to take care of my bros and I’m just not great 😬#like… what do I even want to do tomorrow?#I’d love to just sleep in and eat junk and maybe go see a movie#but I have to go drive 40 minutes to see my mom and if I try to cut the visit short I’ll just feel guilty#so… I guess I’m spending my birthday watching my mom shake and cry in pain 🤷🏻‍♂️#which can be okay! I mean not okay but I can 100%… well… 85% live with that. it’s okay. it’s just a day.#but fuck does it hurt when people just ignore it or downplay it or make jokes about my birthday this year#people don’t have to care about my birthday. strangers online don’t have to care. it’s whatever.#and I’m not even mad at anyone in particular. I just… yeah.. I just can’t take negative jokes about it right now.#I’m trying not to be specific! I don’t want to be mean! nobody is being mean to me! it’s okay!#im just a sensitive baby that just wants people to be nice to him for the next 24 hours#…. I’m sad!#I think I’ll just be mean to everyone tomorrow#…. lol like I could do that. pfffttt I’ll bend over backwards for my family and I’ll be glad to do it. mostly.#it’ll be okay#days are 24 hours. I’m sure I can squeeze some good stuff in between the bad. that’s life babyyyy#and I love you and I appreciate you to no one in particular and I’m sorry I’m so sensitive#my mutuals are great#you’re all great. unless you aren’t. but we won’t talk about that.#ok you can ignore this#text
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