#from like being kiiiiiiind of a little bit out here

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@lupinedreaming here it is!

going through all my old AI fanfics.... I found, among silly things and actual concepts for universe-typical sequels, and work-arounds to make Amanda/Samuels work as a ship....a really, really, really silly AU where about a year after getting back from the events of Isolation, Amanda finds out that her mother is alive, and goes to meet her. It's literally never seeing the light of day, plus most of the fic was lost on a flashdrive that was damaged, so here's the synopsis of it:

Now there are already two existing and hysterical fics out there on the tags of Ellen "I don't fucking trust robots" Ripley finding out that Amanda is in a relationship with one, but this covered not only the discovery, but the long-haul family dynamics too. Because Ellen and Amanda are technically about the same age, and Hicks is actually a little younger than Amanda, and Amanda tries very hard not to resent Newt.

Newt adapts pretty well to civilian life again, because she's the most resilient kid in the galaxy, but her stories of home are kind of...insane to her teachers. "So I have a mom, a sister, my sister's robot, a step-dad, a robot-step-dad, and a cat. And I have my sister's cats!"

Ellen is a decent parent, Hicks was the youngest out of all girls so he doesn't know much about kids, and also they both work to keep sane, so Bishop is the one who regularly picks up Newt from school.

Amanda and Newt do end up getting along eventually, because Newt drops military phrases and curses she's picked up from Hicks and Bishop, and Amanda teaches her how to say 'fuck' properly in a sentence and then blames the two men (Hicks immediately defensive, because, yeah, Newt might have learned that from him, but to be fair, she could have heard it from Ellen too).

Samuels is 1000% obsessed with Newt and spoils her terribly, like she's his step daughter or only niece rather a sister-in-law (kiiiiiiind of?), cannot stop to visit without bringing her toys, various gifts, a remote control drone once that was way too expensive to give to a ten year old. Ellen disapproves, because what the fuck the kid needs human socialization, Amanda gets mad both on behalf of Samuels, and what the fuck Bishop is right there, and he LIVES here and you're going to say that? Bishop does not give a fuck, however he does like Amanda, and does end up a referee on half of her visits.

Verlaine is still in the picture too, who has, ESPECIALLY after the reunion with Ellen, kind of become an older sister/parental figure to Amanda, and has also showed up before to various holidays mostly to act as a buffer. She had a similar career path as Ellen and gets along with her, and Ellen is...not jealous exactly as much as thoughtful about the fact that had nothing happened, then this woman is very much what she might have become. Who she still might become.

(Conner is also around still, but he's retired. He and his partner, Hank--ex-colonial marine and an old superior of Zula's--are done with space. If anyone wants to visit them on good old Terra, then can fly down on their own. When this doesn't work out, they're usually called at least once during a holiday just to say hi.)

Verlaine knows about Samuels (personally HC that everyone involved knew that he was a synthetic; if Samuels had orders to not disclose this information, he did a bad job of it with his stupid little jokes in the game), and she knows about Davis (he looks like a working joe with glasses, it's kind of obvious), and doesn't really think one way or another about them personally, but is a bit. Not...not-accepting of the human/synthetic relationship, it just threw a wrench in her worldview and she had to watch herself to keep from being an asshole over it.

One holiday Amanda has a massive fight with Ellen, and Samuels offers to stay behind while she goes over to (idk, in the fic I had it listed as an independent city on Mars) to patch things up. Like hell, she thinks, but Samuels kiiiiiind of guilt trips her into it by asking her what she's going to think Newt will feel like if Amanda doesn't show up. Since she's going alone, and she can't take Zula (who has said "if I ever meet your mom, I'm going to fucking fight her," like any good friend would), she doesn't want to travel on a public ship, and calls in a favor to Verlaine.

Ellen took this as IMMEDIATELY as an insult, that Amanda would bring this woman, but gives some offhand story about how Verlaine had some cargo contract at the colony anyway, so it wouldn't make sense for Amanda to pay for a ride, and she doesn't like to travel alone anymore. (She is texting both Samuels, and a group-text with him, Davis, and Zula, the entire trip, but it's frustrating--Samuels in writing is impersonal and dry, and there's almost no privacy at her mom and Hicks's apartment to actually talk on the phone).

Verlaine is calm, even when Amanda and Ellen start their argument again in the kitchen (Amanda had Samuels on a video call with her and Newt ,and they were joking about kidnapping Newt for a long weekend without telling her mom. Ellen heard this). She just sits in the main room watching Hicks attempt to play some strategy board game against Newt, who keeps asking Bishop for help (no mercy, he keeps giving Newt suggestions that will win her the game almost immediately). Verlaine asks him how he ended up in this...interesting family unit. Bishop tells her he was part of the same team as Hicks, and didn't have anywhere else/anyone else left. She likes this guy. He's rational and calm, even when Hicks gets dragged against his will into the argument in the kitchen, and Newt demands that he play against her instead.

Verlaine tries to help Newt, they still lose, and Newt says it's fine, because Bishop always wins, and if he didn't then that means she would never have beaten Hicks and it was worth it. Amanda finally storms out of the kitchen and asks Newt if she wants to go to the arcade, ignoring the fact that there's already a game going on. Newt immediately is ready to abandon the game at hand, and is already pulling on her kid-sized combat boots to run out the door. Hicks and Ellen are now yelling (or rather the latter is yelling, possibly crying, and Hicks is trying to calm her down without throwing Amy under the bus because he's a good person). Verlaine asks Bishop if he wants to go to the bar across the street. The nice one. And get out of earshot of....all this. He tries to point out of the obvious fact he isn't sure she caught onto, but he dismisses him before he can finish a thought and then agrees.

Amanda and Newt stay out far later than Ellen would have liked, Amanda argues it's holiday, there's no such thing as bedtime when school is out, and honestly at least she was texting Hicks that her and Newt weren't dead, and to not let Ellen call the police. Newt is sitting at the table eating ice cream for breakfast because Amanda isn't her mom and isn't going to tell her no (does Amanda desperately want this kid to like her? Maybe). There is a giant stuffed creature (alien? monster? mutant bear? Amanda couldn't tell) sitting at the table as well, the spoils of the 100,000 tickets they won after Amanda might have accidentally-on-purpose shorted out a game at the right moment. Hicks comes downstairs first wearing cartoon-character pajamas. He notices Newt is eating ice cream, but doesn't say anything because honestly he really really wants to avoid a scene, so he simply removes the stuffed animal and takes a seat and fuck it, helps himself to ice cream too.

Amanda makes a remark about how she wishes she was still young enough to eat junk for breakfast without getting sick, Hicks tells her to fuck off but he's just glad Amanda is at ease enough to joke. He asks her if they won the giant plush monstrosity (It's a platypus! Newt insists, but it's definitely not) by getting Bishop to cheat, because Newt nearly got banned from the arcade by having a synthetic beat all the games for her a few months ago. Amanda says no, she cheated fair and square as a human, and didn't think synthetics could cheat (Samuels always told her he couldn't, and she's already taking out her phone to point out she caught the lie), and Bishop didn't even go with them.

Hicks isn't worried exactly, but confused--there was no one home last night when he set the alarm codes, and the only entrances were Amanda and Newt.

Ellen comes downstairs too, opens her mouth to tell off the adults about Newt's breakfast, Hicks gives her a ''do not start this again'' look, and Ellen goes for the coffee machine and it's empty. Amanda says she had to dig in the cabinets for a french press because she couldn't figure out the machine. Hicks says no one can figure out the digital machine, it was a gift, Bishop usually talks to it to get it to work at all--then Ellen looks around, and where is he anyway? Amanda shrugs, she's still texting Samuels demanding to know why he never helped her cheat at the arcade, and he's replying with a series of partially sarcastic auto-reply style ''it is against my programing'' (her reply was ''so is fucking your operator on the kitchen counter but that never stopped you," to which he replied with a series of emojis that she cannot figure out what they have to do with their conversation).

Newt's telling Hicks excitedly about how Amanda ''solved'' the games, and he is liking his (daughter in law??? oh that's weird. he and Ellen aren't technically--well. it's complicated. the whole situation is complicated, but then again when is family ever not complicated?) either way, he's like Amanda more and more. She defends herself to Ellen that one of Newt's classmates was there and mocking her for being bad at one of the shooters, and Ellen hasn't had enough coffee yet to argue and also where the fuck is Bishop???

Amanda gets snippy because why is she asking her; when her and Newt left everyone was still home, and she knew she should have just stayed on the ship with Verlaine--then the paranoia she feels when Samuels doesn't come back when he says he will sets in. Does he have a phone? What if someone fucking stole him? What if a WeYu officer found him???? Hicks check the front door camera why the fuck doesn't he carry a cell phone????? (Bishop does Not carry a phone unless he thinks that Newt might need help for something, Ellen and Hicks are adults, and he likes to have some Quiet when he goes out). Amanda is mildly freaking out while Ellen tries to talk with Newt about her and Amanda cleaning out the arcade, and Hicks is scrolling through the security camera cursing that he's going to put a tracker on the guy if he wanders off ag--

The door opens, and Bishop walks in, looking extremely innocent for someone carrying his one nice jacket over his shoulder (his formal marine one), and wearing last night's clothes. Amanda takes 45 seconds to put it together, and turn bright red; Hicks takes about 46 seconds and has a shiteating grin on his face, demanding he is told EVERYTHING, to which the synthetic calmly says there are ladies and a child present, so he will Not. Amanda then bolts to figure out from Verlaine if they need to flee, and also not wanting Ellen's reaction to this. Amanda skips out on texting and calls despite the thin walls, forgetting for a second that everyone can hear her downstairs, at least they hear her part of the conversation "WHAT do you MEAN you DIDN'T NOTICE?" (thankfully for Bishop's dignity they can't hear Verlaine say ''I thought he was just really polite and also oddly subordinate for ex-military?" just Amanda's following reply of "OH MY GOD I DIDN'T WANT TO KNOW THAT? He's like--technically my uncle or something oh my god, Verlaine.").

Naturally, Samuels is informed immediately, but Amanda accidentally text her group chat with him, Zula, and Davis instead. Davis says she should add Verlaine and Bishop to the chat now too. Amanda says over her dead body and Davis is actively hacking her phone. Amanda's hoping that the date went alright enough that there's nothing awkward but bad enough that this never gets discussed again. Hicks is still actively teasing the poor bot over this; and eventually weasels it out of him that he invited 'Diane' back over because he didn't want her to feel like she wasn't welcome here, and can everyone please act like adults about this thank you. Amanda is still trying to get Davis out of her phone. Samuels calls her "You should probably tell Verlaine about the er...when you did the--Davis said it happened to him when Ms. Hendricks--anyway warn her about the risk of system crashing." Amanda tells him she's not doing that, tells him to keep the conversation safe for her mother to hear because the guest room walls are paper thin, and she walks out of the bedroom door to see Ellen standing there ''Is this something that all your friends are into?? or some kind of trauma response???" [Samuels hears and says ''Hello Ms. Ripley,'' politely and a bit louder than he was talking with Amanda. Ellen repsonds with ''if you actually assist in kidnapping my youngest daughter I will remove your batteries," "Merry Christmas to you too, Ellen" (Davis, in Amanda's phone, hearing all of this types into the group chat: don't tell Ellen what battery removal can do or she's going to kill you. Tell Verlaine though. The marine could probably use a reset like that.) Amanda tells Samuels good bye and then turns the phone off to get rid of Davis]

[languajix]

And wasn't that a doozy of a question. What was his dimension like? "My, uh. Yeah." Mike chuckled a little, rubbing the back of his neck with his hand, then sighing, trying hard to keep it light and carefree rather than heavy and anxious. "To make a long and awful story short and marginally less awful, it sucks. But that's not anything anyone else can fix, so it's not worth stressing about." How do you explain a world slowly sliding into something frightening and unrecognizable? The sinking desperation that no matter how much you fight back, you can't stop the steady march of darkness and general suck, only slow it? And explain it to a teenager, at that?

He pressed his hand against the log and shifted his weight a little, stretching out to wiggle his toes and staring into the fire, forcing his halfhearted grin a little higher. How much to share? He didn't fail to notice the Donatello beside him brushing something away from his non-glowing-pink eye. The guy was kind of hard to read but he seemed a little lost in thought, maybe a little sad, so it was possible Mike opening up a smidge would help him open up, too.

"It all kind of started when our Donnie disappeared. We missed him for a long time, but it turns out he accidentally fell into another dimension. He's still there, actually, we haven't seen him in person in over a decade, but we can kind of… long distance call, now?" Kiiiiiiind of? And it would never be enough, but it was something, which was infinitely better than nothing.

Having successfully climbed up this new Donatello's... backpack? Thing? Lee reached up to tug the end of his bandana, chirping happily. In his lap, El grinned, swinging his legs in excitement, seeming to put together the dots that a sweet treat was on its way. Even little Dee, who was so hard to understand or satisfy sometimes, seemed... content, Mike guessed, staring intently at this other Donatello's eye, the one glowing purple.

Mike huffed affectionately. "That's where these guys come from, actually. They're from Donnie's side, in a dimension with magic and yokai and a secret society underneath New York, and frankly I'm jealous because it sounds awesome as shell. Donnie says they're not his kids, but he's totally their co-parent, don't ever let him tell you otherwise. Normally they're all," he waved his hand, "spirit-y? when we hang out, and I get to wind them up and hand them back to their turtle dad, but I can't exactly do that here. It's exhausting being the responsible guy for so many little kids at once. So mucho appreciation for the temporary babysitting!"

He winked and saluted cheerfully. Hopefully that was enough of an icebreaker, little bit of a downer that it was.

"What about you? What's your dimension like?"

@tmnt-fandom-family-reunion cabins 11 and 14, again!

“Greetings from Cabin 11, I have come to inform you about how to correctly create a S’more”

Donnie will NOT tolerate any burnt marshmallows

(@tmnt-fandom-faimly-reunion)

From where he was sitting by the fire, three baby turtles in his lap and one only slightly less baby turtle at his side, Mike hummed. "This is no four star Michelin restaurant, but I can certainly take that under advisement," he lied. He took the paper, holding it up to read and squinting at it to pretend like he was committing it all to memory.

Unfortunately, as he did so, it came in range of El's grabby hands.

"Hey!"

It was too late. The paper had gone down the hatch.

"...guess he's hungry?" Mike said. He huffed as a sudden thought struck him. "Hey, I know you've probably got a lot of people to lecture - I mean, uh, coach? - about the perfect s'more making process, but if you wanna stick around for a little bit and take a load off... I'm sure my nephew here would love to try a correctly made s'more, and you seem to be a world renowned s'more chef. He's never had one before and he deserves the best."

Mike was perfectly fine with munching on clumsily half-burnt marshmallows, no chocolate required, but he didn't want that to be El's first s'more and he did not have the patience to sit there and wait for a marshmallow to turn a nice gentle golden brown... he was not opposed to outsourcing, though.

@tmnt-fandom-family-reunion

[thebokinni]

Hey there (: So I have something to get off my chest lol (you will understand why I find this funny in a short amount of time) RE DO THIS This is a little letter I wrote to an old friend which to be honest is long overdue, hope you enjoy it x

Hey you,

Firstly I would just like to say that I am sorry, I am sorry but (apology void since I said ‘but’) BUT you kinda have to understand and maybe see things from my point of view. Growing up I didn’t notice, I come from a huge family (as you know) and not once did my siblings treat me as the ‘sick kid’ I remember I wore you like a badge of honour as a kid, I learnt everything I could possibly fit into my 10year-old brain and told anyone who would listen “I almooooost died!!!” “Im a freeeeeaking miracle!” Boy we had some good times didn’t we? Then I grew up.

People staring at my chest cos of my boobs is one thing (and the subject of a completely different letter) but noticing you is completely different. You’re mine. No-one knows what it is like to have you, well at least no one that I have met anyway. I became tired of the curious glances and the constant questions. Especially doing what I have chosen to do for a living. You are hard to ignore because I think it is kiiiiiiind of obvious that I have had SOME KIND of surgery in the general chest area. Big shouts to the people who think its a botched boob job, just wanna throw it out there that YOU are the real MVP’s You may (or may not I dunno) be surprised by the amount of DMs I get asking me to tell all or at least offer some kind of explanation as to why there is a massive (is it reeeeeaallly THAT big?) scar in the middle of my chest, why you’re there; the people wanna know. They actually NEED to know.

I used to attempt to cover you with makeup, attempt being the operative word here. In the early days of Instagram I even went as far as to edit you out, which just seems extreme now lol, especially because I had hardly any followers thus no one actually caring about the state of my chest plus I’m incredibly terrible at photoshop. I hope you can see that even though I waited a while to say it, and it took me almost forever to appreciate you; I got there in the end right? Its a weird thing because we were cool, then I learnt to hate and be ashamed of you and THEN I had to learn to accept you all over again. I bet you can guess which one was harder.

I don’t think I want to dedicate this letter to people who have a disfigurement because I am not entirely sure thats what you are. I don’t know what you are, I mean I know that you’re beautiful (in your own non-symmetrical, impossible to ignore kinda way) you’re a daily reminder of how strong I am, of just how much I have done and am still yet to do. I look at you sometimes, especially on those days when I am not feeling 100% and I really do think I am lucky to have you. We have the literal reason; without you I would be a goner but more than that I guess you are a mark of honour as such.

That is why I decided to work with the British Heart Foundation, I know that I am not ready to tell everyone everything about you just yet, but sitting in front of a room full of women (and my brother & Albi, big up you two for being the only guys there) and explaining to them that heart disease doesn’t just effect the balding white man who eats too much bacon and wears short sleeved shirts (no offence guys!) well, it made me realise that maybe you aren’t something to be ashamed of. I know this is a bit late and probably long over due but I FINALLY accept you and daaaaaare I say it? I might love you just a bit (:

Yinka x

A few photos of the Mind, Body, Soul event with The BHF, this was the first time I have ever spoken about my heart condition in public eeek

I’m smiling but I can’t see for all the hair in my face tbh

“Then I threw up” was probably what I was saying

Albinist and a bit of Kola’s hand (:

NEW POST: A letter to my scar Hey there (: So I have something to get off my chest lol (you will understand why I find this funny in a short amount of time) RE DO THIS…

[ninjacupcake333]

I was tagged

by the wonderful user @peaceful-waldeinsamkeit (thanks for the tag! :D)

Rules: Answer all the questions, then add one of your own, and tag as many people as there are questions

1) Coke or Pepsi?: I feel like I’m the only person who has never had a preference regarding this debate, I like them both

2) Disney or Dreamworks?: That’s tough…………honestly I love them both equally, I can’t decide!!! >3<

3) Coffee or Tea?: COFFEE!!! I drink two cups a day and I’m actually really REALLY moody without it, like honestly, I am a bitch without coffee (ask my brother)

4) Books or Movies?: Books, Hollywood always screws things up imho

5) Windows or Mac?: I’ve never used a Mac sooooo Windows

6) D.C. or Marvel?: I don’t read a lot of comics, but when it comes to movies and show I’ve never really seen any DC ones (besides like…..batman and suicide squad and teen titans which I adore), so although I adore teen titans I have to go with Marvel cuz I’ve seen more from them 

7) Xbox or PlayStation?: Don’t play a lot of games, but I’d have to go with Playstation. Gotta love kingdom hearts guys. Plus I just bought a PS4 so I could play FF15 soooooooooooo

8) Dragon age or mass effect?: ……..i’veneverplayedeither…………..I’ve heard they’re good though, would people recommend this??? (cuz I have the PS4 now so I could play them if I wanted I think)

9) Night Owl or Early Riser?: Night owl. If I have nothing to do the next day I’ll stay up til 3 and wake up late in the afternoon

10) Cards or Chess?: I don’t do a lot of either, but I play cards more, and I’m REALLY bad at chess (despite my brother saying I’m really good at chess, which whenever I play I usually have no idea what I’m doing soooooo)

11) Chocolate or Vanilla?: Chocolate. I’m like that guy from Spongebob. I’m the girl that buys those pound-of chocolate bars at Trader Joe’s whenever I get the chance and eats it within a week

12) Vans or Converse? I wear converse literally every day. Even when they get destroyed they’re comfortable!

13) Lavellan, Trevelyan, Cadash, or Adaar?: ………..uh…….gesundheit?

14) Fluff or Angst?: I’m honestly not sure……fluff I guess? it’s cute sometimes, and angst just makes me feel bad

15) Beach or Forest?: atm I’d have to say forest, I did a LOT of hiking when I was in Japan and it was amazing, but whenever I go to the beach anymore I just end up sitting in the sand doing nothing. I don’t really swim anymore

16) Dogs or Cats? Yes

17) Clear Skies or Rain? Clear skies, rain makes me REALLY tired

18) Cooking or Eating Out? I can’t cook, but I also don’t like spending money, so neither I guess? though eating out has the social aspect to it, so if I HAD to pick one I’d say eating out if it was with friends

19) Spicy or Mild Food? Mild, I don’t handle spicy well……

20) Halloween/Samhain or Solstice/Yule/Christmas? THIS IS HALLOWEEN, THIS IS HALLOWEEN (goes off into song)

21) Would You Rather Forever Be A Little Too Cold Or A Little Too Hot?: A little too cold, my thermostat’s usually really low so that’s basically my reality anyways

22) If You Could Have A Superpower What Would It Be?:  I’ve heard legit arguments against this, but despite that, I’d wanna be able to read minds. Not all the time, but in like….a controlled sense. Like read a certain person’s mind at a certain time, but be able to shut it off when I want so I don’t have a stream of incoming thoughts from people. Mostly cuz I’m really bad at being able to tell when someone’s joking about something or picking up on context clues(like REALLY BAD) so that would help a lot, plus I get really paranoid about what people actually think about me (AND IT WOULD HELP WITH MY CURRENT CRUSH SITUATION THAT’S DRIVING ME CRAZY ATM CUZ MY CRUSH EITHER CAN’T MAKE UP HIS GODDAMN MIND OR JUST DOESN’T WANT TO AND IT’S DRIVING ME CRAZY CUZ I CAN’T TELL WHAT HE’S THINKING) I would never actually use it against anyone, I just want it so I can freakin relax for once when it comes to being social

23) Animation or Live Action?: Animation. Bout sums that up

24) Paragon or Renegade?: ……………………..what does that mean? pertaining to what exactly? is this a reference? I’m confused.......

25) Bath or Shower?: Shower, I don’t have time for baths (though I have to say I HAVE been wanting to try bath bombs, they look fun....)

26) Team Cap or Team Iron-Man?: (don’t kill me dad) Iron man. Idk why but something has always bugged me about Captain America’s character, and I love the Iron man movies more than the Captain America ones, so Iron man (SORRY DAD SPARE ME >3<)

27) Fantasy or Sci-Fi?: Fantasy, sci fi doesn’t really catch my interest as much. It does sometimes, but I always end up liking fantasy stories better

28) Do You Have Three or Four Favorite Quotes If So What Are They?: also something I’ve never really thought about……..

Well I can’t remember the exact wording, but I guess my favorite quote would have to be “Growing old is mandatory, growing up isn’t”

And I guess if I’m choosing more than one, my second one would be lyrics from a song by Icon for Hire “You didn’t shoot for the moon just to hit the stars” (from their song “Demons”)

I don’t really have any others though tbh, if I find any others or think of any I’ll edit

29) YouTube or Netflix?: I watch a loooooooooot of markiplier and game grumps, so youtube

30) Harry Potter or Percy Jackson?: YES

31) When Do You Feel Accomplished?: When I complete something that I’ve been wanting to do for a while. I never feel motivated to do anything anymore, so those moments where I do actually get motivated enough to pick myself up from off my couch and like….draw something, or read something, or play something that I’ve been wanted to for a while, it’s not much but it’s a good feeling

32) Star Wars or Star Trek?: neither (PLEASE DON’T KILL ME)

I’ve never watched Star Trek, and I had a kiiiiiiind of bad experience getting into Star Wars (thing with an ex, nothing really bad, just uncomfortable) so I never really got into it further

33) Paperback Books or Hardcover Books?: Hardcover. They’re just so much nicer! Plus I always end up bending the covers of paperbacks cuz I carelessly pack them when I wanna take them with me places....

34) Fantastic Beasts or Cursed Child?: I haven’t actually read/seen fantastic beasts yet so I can’t answer this. My brother got me the book for Christmas, but I haven’t gotten to reading it yet, and I haven’t had time to watch the movie. I HAVE read Cursed Child though

35) Rock or Pop Music? I’m in a rock band so if I didn’t say rock I’d feel like a heathen

36) What Is The Most Important Thing In Your Life?: musiiiiiiiiiic. it’s been a HUGE part of my life since 4th grade when I first started playing flute/when my dad first gave me fall out boy’s “from under the cork tree”/ green day’s “american idiot”. I went to an arts school for instrumental music and everything!

37) Mountains or Sea/Ocean?: going back to the hiking thing, mountains

38) How Do You Express Yourself?: …………….going back to the motivation thing, I can never bring myself to do the things that would best help me express myself……….I’m awful >3< though I’d have to say either drawing or playing an instrument (lately bass guitar) would be the ways I express myself best when I actually try

39) What’s The First Book/Film That Really Counted To You?: Probably Percy Jackson tbh. It’s the first series I’ve read that I stuck with for as long as I have

40) What’s Your Element (Ar, Water, etc.)?: FIRE!!! I literally wear a bracelet/necklace everyday with the alchemic symbol for fire on them

41) If You Could Travel Anywhere, Where Would You Go?: Either back to Japan (CUZ I FUCKIN LOVE JAPAN OMG) or like……I’d love to go to Paris or Italy tbh

42) If you had any job in the world, what would it be?: My UNREALISTIC dream job is to be in a famous band as the bassist, I love just being able to play with my friends and if I could make a living off of that, that would be amazing

My REALISTIC dream job is to teach Japanese.  I’ve always loved the idea of being a teacher, but I never knew for what subject, but when I started college I knew I wanted to teach foreign language. I started with french, but I ended up switching to japanese cuz i had more of a passion/interest in it.

43) If you were granted three wishes, what would they be?

1. WORLD FUCKING PEACE I MEAN SERIOUSLY HOW FUCKING HARD IS THAT

2. a bit selfish here, but for me to have enough resources to be able to live comfortably

3. for everyone else to be able to do so as well

44) If You Had To Eat One Food For The Rest Of Your Life, What Would It Be?: Literally any kind of pasta. That’s all I ate as a kid and I still freaking love it

45) What’s Your Spirit Animal/Patronus?: According to Pottermore, my patronus is a black mamba

I REALLY DO BELONG IN SLYTHERIN!!!! 

46) Would You Kill Yourself And Save Your Friends or Kill Your Friends and Save Yourself?: Uhhhh probably myself to save my friends, that’d be fine

47) If You Had To Become A Mythical Creature Which Would You Be? Now THIS I’ve definitely never thought of……um……I meaaaaaaaaan……I guess if I HAD to choose I’d go with elf probably. That’d be cool

NEW! 48) If you could have one thing in the world right now, what would it be?

I don’t actually know/follow 48 people, so I’m just gonna tag people that I know well IRL (you guys don’t actually have to do it if you don’t want ^^;;;;;)

@dreamer-21 @prince-of-pineapples @phantomcat94 @facheux-grantaire @kingkuroko11 @thenerdwholeaptthroughtime @dasteacup @orangeincubator @kastanas