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guangchuans · 6 months ago

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i spend my night losing my mind. i go to sleep. i wake up. THEY TRIED TO KILL TRUMP???? TAEMIN NEW ALBUM???? AAAAND WORLD TOUR???? BROTHER

#txt #never going to sleep again i guess #also losers haha guess who woke up next to my darling baby sweetheart . MEEEEE #and who got kissed. MEEEE #ignoring the horrors of coming back home today. HA HA

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crabsnpersimmons · 7 months ago

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still sick

drew myself another nurse to go with my nurse moon, this time a silly nurse sun!

once again couldn't decide between designs, so enjoy both!

#fnaf sun #fnaf dca #dca fandom #crab art #bright colours #digital art #i will never tire of drawing the DCA with dresses over their silly jester pants #i didn't intend for this to become a series #but i guess this will be a series #the next time i get sick #i'll draw nurse eclipse #and then i will be legally protected from being sick ever again #thats how it works right #anyways it's late #and the meds are gonna knock me out soon #i will go sleep

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chrisbangs · 2 years ago

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5-STAR STRAY KIDS

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moeblob · 9 months ago

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You know, when I kept getting asked "so you didn't ever have severe pains before now?" in the hospital and I kept replying "I have a high pain tolerance" I meant it. However, there is only so much pain my tiny 4'9" body can hold... (aka I am sweating and in agony bc I'm getting told to use LESS severe pain meds so I don't rely on them too much and it is AWFUL)

#moe talks a lot #i was shaking earlier and despite the fact i sound like im gonna cry #and the fact that my mom can pick out im about to cry from pain bc im trying to take less pain meds #LIKE MY MOM IS INSTRUCTING ME TO DO #shes like well why arent you taking any pain meds #BECAUSE THERE ARE TWO AVAILABLE OPTIONS AND ON A SIX HOUR TIMER #i cant take both at once or else what happens to me if i hurt before the six hours is up #i have to manage them in a way that allows me to benefit from both and being told im doing it wrong #after being told well its your fault it got so bad because you never complained about pain before #YEAH NO JOKE? REALLY? I NEVER DID? because everyone acts like im too young to feel that kinda pain #oh youre hurting? just wait until youre older #and its currently agony to breathe again but that i guess is also my fault bc im trying to use pain meds #holy moly i just want to not get dizzy standing up cause wow dang #sure would be nice if the multiple incisions in my stomach didnt THROB every time i sneezed or coughed or cleared my throat #but since i didnt use much pain meds before because i would be mocked for being too much of a baby its like #welp damn now i could really use some and im being called out for being too reliant #anyway time to sleep more because that means im not noticing my pain #im literally smaller than most children and so i do understand my body size makes people worried about the medication intake #but can i please just go a day without being asked how much im taking or when i last took it or if im gonna cry #anyway sorry for the excessive rant today never really had surgery or anything so this is brand spankin new suffering

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rogueddie · 1 year ago

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So Noah is openly being a zionist online... AGAIN. I'm seeing a lot of people wanting to leave the fandom- which I support, if you can drop this then you should. But if you're like me and it's not that simple, here are a couple rough tips that might help;

Pro-tip; instead of paying for Netflix and helping support genocide and the zionists in the cast/crew, cancel your subscription and send that money to charities that are bringing aid and resources into Gaza!

Pro-tip 2; buy fan content and nothing liscenced! Fan works are often better quality than the show- from drawings, to writing, to pins... it's worth the money and you aren't sending money to people openly supporting genocide and the murder of children!

Pro-tip 3; if you are going to continue taking part in fandom, like myself, do not do so in silence. Palestinians are being murdered and we can't pretend that it isn't happening simply because we have hyperfixations that we can't get rid of.

Pro-tip 4; join boycotts! Not only the monetary boycott of Netflix and Stranger Things, but- at least- the three main boycotts; McDonalds, Disney+ and Starbucks! There are many others, from Puma to Barclays to Booking.com to Pizza Hut to Burger King... None of these things are necessities and you can easily go without! Other options are probably cheaper and better quality too! It's a win-win!

Pro-tip 5; Go to protests if you can! Make your voice heard not only online but in person too! We have strength in numbers and we cannot lose the momentum we've barely started to build! Take direct action!

P.S. biggest fuck you to Noah Schnapp but also; Ross Duffer, Shawn Levy and Brett Gelman can suck the shit right out my ass <3

#stranger things #side not that I've lit never paid for netflix #unfortunately I've already paid for travel for that fucking stage show and I'm not willing to waste that money so :/#catch me taking photos of whatever merch I like and finding fan dupes though lmao #but again; fuck zionists. fuck them straight to the depths of whatever hell there is #and I'm going to sleep right after posting this so the potential fallout to this will be... uh... something #but I am kind of curious to see if anyone attacks me for continuing the way I am like I wasn't one of those who called noah out before this #but noah spreading isreali lies and zionist propaganda wasnt that big of deal until now I guess 👀#anyways free palestine and pirate stranger things 🏴‍☠️🖖 goodnight

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cadaver-moss · 2 months ago

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For any of my mutuals, please DM me if there’s an OC of mine you want. Just in case something happens to me.

#I have to wait until after the 19th #then I can finally be done #the 19th of this month is my friend’s birthday and I intend to stick around for that #I was already planning but I can’t do this anymore so I moved the date closer #there’s gonna be so much I’ll miss but it’ll be okay #i guess it’s convenient I never really had a bucket list except to go to CalArts #it’s sad I won’t be doing that ig #I’m sorry to you all for even making this public #I guess I thought I needed to tell you guys so if I never post again you know why #I need to tell some of my online friends my address tho so they can come and take stuff from my room #but I’m worried they’ll call an ambulance #I’m gonna miss this all #or I guess I won’t #it’ll be like sleeping from what I’ve read #tw sui ideation #suic1de #tw suicide #tw sui talk #I’m tryna add as many warnings as I can for you guys #tw death

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hana-bobo-finch · 23 days ago

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a strange trend in my favorite characters I realize is that I tend to heavily gravitate toward somewhat obscure, antagonistic forces

#shoutout to the multiple months when I was young when I was obsessed with flatwoman #‘who the fuck is flatwoman’ heh. well. you ever watch the pbs kids show peg + cat?#she appeared in like two episodes and let’s just say. I would’ve died for her as a kid #and yup ok you guessed it this trend continued with my boy pumpkin daddy #what thehell is wrong with that guy and more important question why is he my absolute favorite character of all time #I’m not even talking strictly about PDBC here alright? in that I have full control over him #in ROOTS? oh boy unstoppable force of nature someone Actually euthanize him or something he’s going to commit heinous crimes if left alone #he’s So bizarre mind if I just talk about that before going back to sleep? his morals are all over the place #‘this poor abandoned child. her mother should be ashamed of doing this to her. anyway let’s kidnap her for money’#and then he fucking pretends that he didn’t remember that happening #not that it DIDNT happen but that he just doesn’t remember it??.okay go off king??#at this point I don’t even know if he was lying he might just have Alzheimer’s or something he’s gettin kinda old #also Alzheimer’s is the worst word ever I have to look it up to spell it every time ffs so annoying #also worth mentioning that he almost got himself killed in a pursuit of someone’s money #and then not even a YEAR later he was back at it again trying to scam the SAME people lol GIVE IT A REST #I didn’t type lol this is travesty istg I didn’t type lol there there’s a lol ghost on the loose #he needs to be put down or something #and why the hell is he actually one of the nicest parents like huh?..?man what??#yeah this is my little science experiment I made solely for money. i love her she’s beautiful she’s awesome #my brother in Christ pick a side are you horrible or not #ok also wait that reminds me. it was unintentionally implied that he wasn’t evil once #I won’t go into it for the sake of time but. raises eyebrow. what the hell do you mean #at least I think it was unintentional. it’s still weird to me and I never bothered asking #anyway I should probably go back to sleep I have n appointment in like. two hours. sigh #yayyyy I love characters who suck!!! 🥰🥰🥰 pop off you asshole king and or queen

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madwickedawesome · 2 years ago

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figured id visualize something i said today

#the quote was in fact “get mischaed bitch” u would never guess the context in a million years #SORRY if u met me while i was in a Mood i am in fact not always behaving like a sweet old grandmother who bakes u cookies sorry #i am still very much a teenage boy obsessed w a fictional youtube rapper #i finished my hwwww sorta yippee #mischaposting #guess whos back. back again #literally 11 pm NO ONE is gonna see this #giggles #mischa bachinski #rtc #mischa mischa mischa #[he appears before me like beetlejuice]#also ive been listening to the pride and prejudice film soundtrack and it is beautiful ? i really wanna watch it now #anywaysssssssssssss #ride the cyclone #i dont think i tagged that one already #the mutualcule can do the restOMG MY BOOTLEG DONE UPLOADING TO DRIVE #if i wasnt so fucking exhausted id watch moulin rouge but alas.. i got 3 hours of sleep last night #thats why im probably going sleepy sleep now GOODNIGHT!!!#(probably)(so much emphasis on probably)#11:11 make a wish

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du-hjarta-skulblaka · 2 months ago

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Some mild existential dread in the house today

#im just feeling reeeeally really drained #works taking a LOT out of me #like. it feels less intense day to day? or maybe im reacting less? but its still very much piling up #and im just feeling very...idk. like im still waiting for permission to live my life #except now the permission osnt coming from any one person its. having the money to docit #and the time and the energy #and i guess thats just what adult life is? waiting #and hoping #and along the way losing sight of what i even wanted in the first place because im so *tired*#idk. i definitely need a project of some kind but im struggling to settle on something and then organise it #i have stuff to do today anyway. alfie had a lil bit of emergency cash saved so i need to go shopping #and i need to tidy the kitchen and do some dishes #and have a bath and shave at some point #i also want to draw but again. struggling ti pick something and idk if ill have the executive function spare #AND i want to try and be more social and talk to folks but thats its own kind of difficult #part of me would like a disc server that just has all of my friends in it bc i find it easier to dip in and out of conversarions #but i imagine that would be weird for folks who dont know each other #idk. lot goin through my mind when all i really want is sleep #which also hasnt been...greeeeat lately #mainly because Alfie wakes me up in the mornings bc they dont like being alone but also have a very different sleep schedule to me #and can take multiple smaller naps over a day whereas i really need a solid 8 or so hours or i just. dont fully switch on #but theyre also struggling atm (mentally and also they got an injury at work AND seperately broke their foot ffs)#so they need me more and its just #this never ending cycle of SOMETHING needs my attention #and its fucking exhausting asfghfkd #but!!! we keep goin!!!!! been applying for a bunch of jobs and havent heard anything positive yet but. we keep tryin huh

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genekies · 6 months ago

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tag vent

#i have to move back to my hometown due to a mistake. a misunderstanding. and being too trusting in others ideas #and my boyfriend is moving an hour away as well. neither of us have been able to get a car or license yet due to money and i dont know when #we can see eachother again after we both move. since we started dating weve been sleeping in the same bed because we were/are roommates #just being gone for the weekend in my hometown is hard because i cant stand to be here but its worse because hes not in my bed every night #ive grown so used to falling alseep in his arms that i dont know what to do at night. i dont feel safe without his arms holding me #ive never felt safe where ive lived before. ive never felt safe in a relationship. ive never felt loved for who i am. that was until him.#now i feel safe in our home. i feel safe in our relationship. i feel loved for who i am. and now we have to be so far apart.#ive done long distance before but this is going to hurt so much my cat loves him she is super cautious and scared around new people but #she loved him since the start. not to mention shes my esa so that really mattered to me. he wants to move with me but it isnt happening #he got definite housing an hour away for super cheap in a town where he knows everyone and i have possible in a town where im surrounded by #people i know but am terrified of. im scared to move back here but have no choice. unless i make that terrifying choice of going with him.#the apartment he is getting is a two bedroom. id only have a studio. hes offered for me to come but im scared to move that far away again #i want to be with him but im scared to move to a whole new town with him. i know hes an amazing guy but we'd be moving away from my friends #and family. i already have to move away from all my friends if i go back to my hometown but this would be a different story.#moving to a whole new town with a guy that i only started dating 2 months ago? like yes. i lived with him previously and knew him for longer #than we dated but im still scared. i think rightfully so. but still.#but there are some pros to moving with him. hometown has no music scene and his town does and thats really important to me.#we'd also be close to his family. but farther from mine. hed be around friends and id have none no matter where i go.#idk im just rambling but i really needed to vent. i lost my best friend recently to the point of them siding with strangers almost and they #helped them break and enter into the house to intimidate me and bf and then a few days later came with cops after saying repeatedly that #they were an anarchist and acab but only when they dont use them apparently. because i guess morals/values only matter when its convenient #im so tired though but i cant sleep so i might write some cringe poetry and try to chill out before going on a late night/early morning walk #tag vent #vent in tags

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trekkiehood · 2 months ago

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#ok ramble time #classic this feels too intimate to share with anyone so everyone gets it #essentially last week there was a suicide on campus #he was not one of my students or in our department #I'm pretty removed from it #ans i really didn't think it affected me #but i guess it has #bc like i thought i was over #✨this✨#Like ok i have had active plans in the past #one of those this is how this is when this is where #just waiting for the final straw #but i clearly never did #and that plan would no longer work due to changes in circumstances and living arrangements etc #which is honestly probably for the best #bc i refuse to make a new one bc i know i do not want to go there #but im just TIRED and ANXIOUS #its not even the depression its the anxiety of living #i stay up until 3-4 in the morning bc i cant stand the idea of going to sleep #and i secretly hope each sleep will be my last #bc im not going to DO anything bc that would not be it #too many ppl care about me (unfortunately)#and then ive stopped eating (again)#and it's like idek if its bc i dont want to or bc i forget #its like i see myself self destructing but cant make myself stop #and I have not done anything physically stupid in quite a long time but ive started biting to stim #and i dont even know im doing it half the time it just helps #and skin picking. which none or this is the same as true s/h but it does scare me to a degree bc i dont mean to i just do it #anyway i don't expect anyone to read all of this i just had to get it out ot my head

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sherlock-is-ace · 4 months ago

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#idk if it's because i've given autism a very in depth look now or if i just always been like this and never really thought about it #but i'm finding it harder and harder to match my feelings to what i guess i'm supposed to feel?#like when something sad happens and i have no reaction to it #it's not that i'm not sad or that i'm glad it's happening but i just have no feelings?#which in turn bring put feelings of guilt because i'm not sad or worried enough...#it's such a weird experience and i'm of course not saying that autistic people have no feelings #that's so not what i'm saying #but it is a trait of autism to have difficulty pinpointing what you feel and also difficulty expressing it in ways other people usually doit #so perhaps it is because i've learned about that that I'm accepting that maybe i just don't feel things ''the normal way''#but i'm having a weird one tonight because my mom had to leave because of an emergency with my grandma #and it's 1am right now #and i am worried. of course i am. I don't want my grandma to suffer (although i have accepted she's not gonna live much longer)#but i still don't want her to die obviously #and most importantly I don't want my mom to have to go through that... to see her mother die? that's horrible #i'm obviously sad and worried #yet i'm sitting here drinking coffee and laughing at funny videos like nothing's happening #and i feel fine... like as if my mom was just sleeping at home like every night and not at a hospital visiting her dying mother...#and i know that years back i would have gone ''what the fuck is wrong with me?!'' and perhaps maybe forced myself to feel worse #or to cry or whatever because I can't be chill when something bad is happening...#and maybe i'll feel that way when my mom is back because I can't be calm and happy is she's sad #that would be rubbing it in her face #so maybe i'll feel more guilty then?#idk it's a weird feeling that i wanted to put into words #mostly for when it happens again i'll have a record of it somewhere #idk #angel talks #personal

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desertthorn · 2 days ago

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Update on my situation:

While driving to work the car stopped working. Just suddenly the gas pedal stopped working in the middle of an icy intersection in 8°F weather. My ex-would-be-father-in-law did his best to keep control of a suddenly uncontrollable vehicle. Oncoming traffic didn't even slow down. I hate the drivers here. But at least no one hit us. I suggested we try backing into a side street and luckily that worked. After restarting the car we tried driving back instead of continuing to work. Thank gawd we didn't chance it cuz a block later it did it again. We managed to get back and we are ok but we were both very shaken up. He joked later joked how people in his life would say it was God's way of telling us we needed to stay put. My ex-would-be-father-in-law told me that that's what's gonna happen. For now at least. I will be staying at least one extra week and we'll figure it out week by week moving forward. It's not the end, but I got a small refrain. He was initially planning to help put me up in a hotel for a few weeks to give me more time, but with what just happened, it won't be this Friday. So I'm staying put for now. This whole mess is so stupid. And completely preventable. I'm too tired to write more. It's been a really weird day.

On the bright side, I got a job interview on Monday. I don't think it's any better than what I have, but it's worth giving it a chance. If nothing else it's easier to get to.

#i hate this whole situation #i keep picking up my phone to tell my best friend everything and then i remember #it doesnt feel real #it doesnt feel like he could really be this kind of person #i never thought he was capable of doing what he's done but i was wrong #i just cant wrap my head around this betrayal #thats what it was. betrayal #even his own father owns up to that #i keep wondering what happens if he changes his mind again #what exactly am i supposed to do?? not leave?? trust him again??#i dont know if i ever could. i just dont know #but unless he actually takes that step i guess im worried for nothing #i really want to go on a walk but its damn cold outside #and i am so exhausted i cant see straight #i miss my best friend #its wildly unfair that i still care so much about him when i clearly mean nothing to him. not a crumb.#i dont want to be hurt or angry i just want to sleep this nightmare away

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oculusxcaro · 4 months ago

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SEX VALUES

"I'm not gonna do... that for just anyone. Just... look, just forget I said anything, okay? Can we change the subject?"

Tagged by: @twcfaces (mwah ♡♡) Tagging: If you haven't done this yet, YOU!

#🌈 || dashboard games #🌈 || memes #Thank you so much for the tag halekulani!#I appreciated this a lot bc I honestly never did this for Khare #She's veeeery avoidant about ANYTHING to do with sex and doubly more so since getting mutated #Eyyy 50/50 club right here!#Khare honestly doesn't mind either gender both men and women can be attractive #Dom? Submissive? Switch? Whatever makes her partner happy I guess #The trick to getting with her... is that you don't haha #She can find people attractive but that's as far as her urges go #Any drive got straight up nuked after those DNA changes aafsd #I'm actually surprised sex drive got that high tbh that is probably has high as it gets EVER #The most exciting part about going to bed with someone is going to sleep and that's it - Khare #Khare why are you such a fucking 😐#Anyways good luck to anybody able to look past those extra eyes :')#OH YEAH hi guys hope you're all doing well and are having a lovely weekend!#My ass got slammed with overtime again so only 1 day off in... 2 weeks #I'm so tired bsdsds

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goldkirk · 5 months ago

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I ate half a serving of some really really good pesto pasta in the evening. Just rocketed out of bed at 3 AM after an hour or so of intense rounds of pain and I’m not going to go into details but holy shit I wish I never ate more than a couple bites of it and just brought a smoothie or soup to the restaraunt instead this is AWFUL. Literally hauled myself into the bathtub with warm water just to breathe.

#will I take a sick day at work #probably not because I really need to hear those meeting discussions this week #will I have a carousel of unpredictable symptoms the rest of the night? possibly #oh my god. oh my god.#it was the best pesto pasta I ever had. it’s becoming the worst pesto pasta I’ve ever had. I am so sad #me: DO I HAVE FOOD POISONING????#also me: has a known GI condition that is the much more Occam’s razor answer to what caused this situation #and yet somehow still me: DO I SUDDENLY HAVE LACTOSE INTOLERANCE???#girl. it’s 4 am. meditate yourself to fucking chill in this bathtub.#then see if you can go back to sleep #anyway. lessons are being learned #I don’t have any idea what happened but it was sooooooooooo rich and I’m guessing it was too much fat or too much fiber or both #brb about to look up almond and pesto sauce nutrition labels #health #future me I hope this never happens to you again #gastroparesis #if I’m taking a warm bath in the middle of my worst POTS flare since 2017-2018 #you know how bad I must feel to make that worth it lol

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coconut530 · 1 month ago

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Wrap it up!!

Thank you Jewel Ham

#Spotify #Spotify Wrapped #Spotify Wrapped 2024 #Sleep Token #The Crane Wives #The Score #Gorillaz #Private Island #The Magnus Archives #The Magnus Protocol #Malevolent #Malevolent Podcast #The Penumbra Podcast #Spire #Syntax #Spire Podcast #Well. Here again #I mean after June it was kinda no contest #Like I tried to get Gorillaz up there and I did but they should’ve been 2nd #But it's fineeeeeee bc the eepies are at the top. as they should be. 2 anonymous British bands at the top that's a win #I felt like I listened so freaking much and it was like way less than last year what was I doing last year pft #Well I had a month long thing to go to this summer so I guess there was that #WHERE WAS THE GENRE SECTION. I wanted to know.... it's funny I say I'm bad at categorizing my music taste and I am but I want this...#the past years I've been monitoring this (2020 to now) my genres have gone from 113 to 35 to 15 to 14 to idk #like the decline made no sense to me. maybe they mean like new ones but like. I felt like I explored. ESPECIALLY this year #I never listened to any metal/prog metal before ST but now I have #So glad Silent Running stayed up there. The rest being ST is so funny. They were the songs I got into first so I listened to them the most #If Atlantic @ Red Rocks 2024 was on there ough Atlantic would've probably made it top. Sleep Token release a live album I dare you #I'm happy with the year overall!! I listened to so many musics and fell in love with the medium all over again #See y'all next year!!

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