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But really.
#ffviii#ff8#squall#seifer#squeifer#サイスコ#final fantasy#memes#my sysmate made this#it's not wrong really
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hey guys i think im out of the trauma spiral my ex-quadmate put me in <- he is, in fact, not out of the trauma spiral his ex-quadmate put him in
#minding my own business when i out-of-nowhere remember the multiple times she caused me to panic by dumping a lot of heavy#terrifying things onto me which made me terrified of enjoying any free-time i had because “what if something goes wrong while im away”#it threw me full-force back into my “im going to sleep all the time” phase because. at least towards the end i was terrified all the time#because at any point something could go Wrong and i would have to fix it#she broke the promise we made about telling each other about any quadrant stuff#and entered a moirallegience with someone without fucking telling me#she got mad at me for doing what she wanted because. fucking thats just a thing shes allowed to do#left me to think she killed herself twice despite the fact she was watching me the entire time while i fucking panicked#and then said she “didnt want to/didnt enjoy it��� as if it just HAPPENED and she didnt fucking Plan that#knowingly put me under tremendous stress despite knowing i have a cardiovascular condition that has placed me in heart attack-range before#reportedly shit-talked me behind my back the entire time we were together (and i whole-heartedly believe the person who told me#because thats the kind of shit she did)#and nobody else in her system even thought to say “oh yeah lol this is like. bad. this guy is being abused by our sysmate”#i went for almost an entire year in invisible on discord because i was terrified of people messaging me#i STILL have all discord sound notifs turned off because it makes me panic#i barely spoke with my friends and had to constantly check discord /while in school/ because of her#and like. even disregarding all the shit she did to ME. she was just a fucking awful person#just. genuinely terrible to be around#but yk#whatevs
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we wnet to an arcade. im in my prime territory. gamer mode activated
#im kicking ass at these games dawg. i was made for this#none of my sysmates can compare. im ticketmaxxing
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wait i just realised something i think we defeated our self-fakeclaiming finally
#cause we havent been able to really Do system stuff for like a month#and have been really closed off from the system overall#so we've had barely any activity from it#but somehow that hasn't made us start doubting ourselves yet#we finally 100% accept that we're plural and aren't afraid of Doing It Wrong anymore#bc we haven't like. self-fakeclaimed in a while. that thing where I'm like OHHHH I'M TOTALLY FAKING I'M A HORRIBLE PERSON#even though my sysmates are all standing around me like m8. we're right here#i think the discovering the stuff from when we were younger and getting direct evidence that this was a thing for like. years#the fact that without a doubt we were a system for at LEAST 5 years before the syscovery#and honestly as a child had such plural tendencies#like. i don't think imaginary friends are supposed to get THAT complex. Or have long ongoing plots that *I* forget about but *they* don't#like Matt had a broken arm for three months??? and every time i expected him to reappear Fixed he just wasn't????#or id have like. Big crowded conversations with all of them at once. similar to times when we're all cofronting now
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becoming the next Maggie* the way I'm forcing everyone in our system into my found family
#pk;m half light🔴#made conceptualization go on a walk with me and also made it eat a muffin :) new dad unlockedJGKDKFGK#conceptualization: ❌‼️DNI‼️❌ | me: . that won't stop me because I can't read 😃👍❗#THATS5 A JOK3 THAT'S A JOKE IF IT DIDN'T WANT ME TO BE AROUND IT COULD JUST FUCKING KILL ME ABOUT IR#SERIOUSLY. IT'S F I N E I'M NOT OVERSTEPPING BOUNDARIES DON'T WORRYHFJDKCXKZKCKCK#*maggie is another syskid of ours who's also just walked up to random sysmates and went 'ur my parent now' it's hilarious
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Here's to systems who experience doubt about their systemhood.
System doubt is a very real and present issue for a lot of plurals. This one goes out to them.
Shoutout to:
Hosts who doubt themselves or the existence of their system a lot
Alters who were made to think they're singlets by abusers or toxic people in their life
Littles/syskids who don't understand they're part of a system
Traumaholders who are so traumatized that they end up shutting down the possibility of being a system
Systems that go through frequent collapses/dormancies
People who aren't sure if what they're experiencing "counts" as being plural
Plurals with severe amnesia that leads them to forget the others
Those who are convinced their sysmates are "just" hallucinations, kintypes, BPD, etc.
The ones who have been professionally diagnosed, but still don't fully believe it
And anyone else I missed.
It's going to be ok. I promise, doubt is normal -- it's distressing, and it's hard to handle, but it's normal. I even doubt my own system from time to time. You're not alone.
Be kind to yourself today, ok?
🖤💜💙💚💛
#multiplicity#plural#pluralgang#plural affirmations#actually multiple#actually plural#requests#did#did osdd#tw system doubt#system doubt#tw abuser mention#tw abuse mention#abuse mention#tw dormancy#dormancy mention#alter dormancy#dormancy
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The Best way to Combat Anti-Endogenics is Loving Yourselves.
Whether you are traumagenic or endogenic, the best way to combat this infighting and fakeclaiming is to love yourself and your headmates and to write about how wonderful and in love you are with your systemhood.
I have been on both sides, I've endured self hatred and felt self acceptance and it is what led my stance on syscourse.
As many have observed, there has been a lot of pressure on anti-endogenics, many have switched, psychologist have agreed with us, professionals have agreed with us, now all those left on the anti endo wall are simply held back by one thing, something that holds them back no matter how many sources you cite to them. That thing is:
self loathing. the amplification of plural struggle. the agony of being a "broken" individual because you have a disorder.
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Why does this happen exactly? The focus of origin, the fact that they are so focused over their existence being trauma based and nothing more. To them, system=trauma, system=negative, system cannot be more than trauma. To them endos are systems= endos want trauma=endos think my trauma is good (instead of endos are systems, endos think being a system is good, not trauma).
If positivity was amplified, and real positivity not just validation, there would be a chance that systems may see this and realize that they don't just have to center their existence around their suffering. Trauma may be where I come from, but I can be more than it ever was. I am more than my origin, you are more than your origin.
When I was in anti-endo circles, system equaling suffering pushed me away from accepting myself, but when I found pro-endos I realized that systemhood didn't have to always be bad, no matter how much I suffered.
Being alongside endos was healing me, I was disordered, I was different, but I didn't have to focus on the negative. I didn't have to exist on the negative. I was disordered, but I wasn't seen as broken the same way anti endos viewed me. I was just different, thats all.
Watching endogenics love themselves made me do the same, it made me also support them and love them.
So to Endogenic systems,
LOVE YOURSELF
BE YOURSELF
LOUDER AND LOUDER
TELL US ABOUT HOW YOU LOVE YOUR SYSMATES
TELL US ABOUT HOW SYSTEMHOOD SAVED YOU
TELL US ABOUT ALL THE THINGS THAT HAVE MADE YOU ALL HAPPY TO BE PLURAL
YOU ARE LOVED MORE THAN YOU ARE HATED, I CARRY MORE LOVE FOR YOU THAN ALL ANTIS DO HATE
Stop trying to argue and bicker with them that you're valid, because you being valid or not doesn't matter
Your happiness does.
#pro endo#system#plural#pluralpunk#systempunk#syspunk#syscourse tw#syscourse cw#tw fakeclaiming#pluralgang#plurality#plural system#actually plural#plural community#system things#system stuff
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TransBunnyGirl
A trans-id for those who want to be/feel like they are a bunny girl
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I think this is considered a transspecies flag? Lol idk.
I made this alternate flag for our sysmate Auri since the only other flag we could find for this term was made by an anti-radqueer and Auri feels uncomfortable with using it. I decided I might as well post it..
This is my first time ever making a flag so forgive me if it's not that good! Also I know the flags are way too big I'm struggling too much with changing the size I'm so sorry 😭
#rq 🌈🍓#pro rq 🌈🍓#radqueer 🍓🌈#rqc🌈🍓#radqueer#radq#transid#transid safe#pro transid#transid community#transspecies#rq please interact#rq interact#radq interact#pro radqueer#rq safe#radqueer safe#transid coining#transid flags#transid flag#radqueer coining#radqueer friendly#transid friendly#transid please interact#transid interact
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userboxes for systems w mlp introjects!! (just the mane 6)
“this alter”:
“this part”:
“this sysmate”:
“this headmate”:
THESE WERE MADE BY AN ENDOGENIC. ANTIS/NEUTRALS F2U MY CONTENT. HATERS GET BLOCKED.
#userbox#system#osdd did#osdd#did#actually did#actually a system#pluralgang#pro endo#endogenic#pro endogenic#endogenic friendly#my little pony#mane 6#twilight sparkle#ratity#fluttershy#rainbow dash#pinkie pie#apple jack
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new pinned post
hi i'm cio, most of this is copy/pasted from my bsd-only blog @bungoustraypups-verse
i also have my @bungostraydogs-nextgen blog for my bsd fankid/next gen character development where i plan to be more active soon
make sure to read my carrd
here's my link in bio page too
i’m 25
things to remember when interacting with my posts/content:
yes i love mori. no i do not think mori is a canon pedophile or child predator (he isn’t a canon child predator either, for that matter) and i do not think mori abused dazai. yes i am open to discussing why i believe this and you’re welcome to debate me on the second opinion, but i am not open to arguing about it, and i am not open to debate on the first one. please respect my boundaries.
fukumori is my OTP and i have specific ways i like to discuss them. specifically, on any post i make, do not discuss anything about them being "divorced" or anything other than actively in love with each other unless i bring it up. it bothers and distresses me when this is brought up against my will, especially on my posts i make about them or implying them being a thing, so on and so forth. always assume my fukumori posts are made with the intent of them being actively together and in love unless i say otherwise explicitly
i'm aware that there's a lot of canon divergence in how i portray the characters, it's on purpose, and how i portray them in my fanworks is not necessarily reflective of how i think they would or should behave in canon, and aspects of some of their backstories/some headcanons i have for them apply solely when writing them in fanworks and not in the canonical material. please don't assume things about how i watch/read BSD based off my fics, especially when it comes to verses that are completely separate AUs and not just canon divergent
don't trash talk mori on my posts. seriously. i don't wanna hear about how you hate or dislike him even if you're being nice about it. he's my favorite character. go say that on someone else's post
i am an OSDD system of 300+. we are polyfragmented. one of my most active sysmates is a mori fictive. my system’s fictives are not the same as their source and for the love of god please don’t ask him or any of the others invasive or weird questions. be nice and treat them like the people they are, if they choose to communicate on this blog.
i have 400 bsd fankids and ocs and a multitude of aus.
here is a non-detailed list of the fankids/ocs
here is the website i store the profiles for the ones who have profiles, they’re not all done yet and more are coming
here is the list of aus (link pending)
the quickest way to my heart is to ask me questions about these guys.
eventually i’ll have a tag page. stay tuned.
please reblog this linked post bc im in a bad financial place and need donations to at least try to keep my mental health intact as well as to pay for some of my subscriptions i have that make me happy <3
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Oh yeah, I never mentioned this but I ended up revamping the user boxes on our pinned post to all fit the same template (and apparently made them all Steven Universe themed). There are a few I want to make for my sysmates but I haven't really gotten anything down ^^”
- YP
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like if u squish a Chao hard enough they'll just fuckkng deform/Look Squished for a while but give them a couple hours and they'll puff back to their usual shape . they're boneless in our mind
#pk;m marvin✨#have i found my Sysmate Specific Hyperfixation. Hm#.... what if I made chao oc......... :3c#oogohooogogog. ooohogogohogigugjhghh. yaes
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Hi! Just letting you all know that you're amazing! Also for an actual question what song pumps you up?
Oh, thank you!! You’re all amazing too! /genuine
Air really likes “candy hearts” and “sparkle queens” by xomg pop, but he really only likes the old versions, they got rerecorded after half the group left and the old ones got taken down, we havent found where to find all xomg’s old stuff yet but we havent really looked yet
Earth is the pretty much the only one that actually listens to music frequently, Water and i 🔥 havent really found our own taste in music yet, although theres a song on Earth’s playlist i really like called “no parallels” by hands like houses. If Water had to name one he would probably say “say you like me” by we the kings, again from Earth’s playlist
🪨 if we’re talking about songs that pump me up, i have to mention “for the glory” by all good things, i used to listen to it a lot but ive tried not to the past year or so, because i dont have a healthy relationship with it. Basically, im not traumagenic, i was born with the body (just like all my sysmates), i dont exist to fulfill a role, but after we experienced trauma i chose to step up as a physical and emotional protector of my system, and then i made that my entire identity and felt like i failed my purpose in life when i failed to protect them, and was just spiraling rapidly downward into self loathing and homicidal ideation, which is why we quit using system roles at all in favor of mbti and still why i dont front that often, despite having fronted almost exclusively for the years prior, during our trauma. Anyway, this song has an easy time sucking me right back into the protector mindset, which is why i try to avoid it. But god its a good song. Anyway, in no particular order i like pretty much everything thats ever been recorded by imagine dragons, sugarcult, the score, paramore, yellowcard, and probably some others but those immediately come to mind, i dont think i can pick a favorite, but i can be more specific if youre looking for recommendations
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Welcome to fun facts with fae. The show where I answer questions that nobody actually asked.
I have realized that I have probably been plural for much longer than I initially thought.
Since I was maybe 10, I had this idea (that I never outwardly shared) that there were different “sides” to me.
The issue that I frequently came across when I tried to label these “sides” was that they ended up not really fitting. I usually would divide it into 2-4 “sides”.
I know now that the reason that didn’t work is there are 8 of us in my system. The sides didn’t encompass all that I was, because I was limiting the number to too small of a group.
My syscovery happened over quarantine in 2020. And what actually helped me fully discover all of my sysmates was Sander Sides.
I know, I’m sorry. Stay with me.
I had several friends who were into it, and I decided since I had so much free time that I would see what all the fuss was about. And then I began thinking, well if I was like (fictionalized) Thomas Sanders, these are the sides I would have. And this is what their names would be. And this is where they would live in my head.
And I also started watching a lot of TikToks of systems. And I slowly realized that that was what I was. There were other people inside of me.
This realization almost immediately caused some turmoil in my life. Anxiety that there was something wrong with me. My parents fear of just how mentally ill it was becoming apparent that I am. Trouble with figuring out exactly what this would mean for me going forward. How I was going to navigate life as a system.
Then came excitement. This was something new in my life and I wanted to share it with other people. I made maps of what my headspace looked like. I wrote down basic information about each of my headmates.
This stage was short lived. I began to hide my switches. I still do. I didn’t want it to change the relationships that I had with others. I didn’t want the extra complications that came with being multiple people in one body.
I have made peace with my headmates now. We have a good understanding of how to get through situations. But it took time m, and it was a rough road l.
I’ll stop rambling now, but I wanted to share that part of my experience with plurality.
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You seem ‘transharmful’ in the way a beaten dog is all teeth and adrenaline. Genuinely. What made you come to the conclusion that you were “transharmful”? I’m curious to know what moment confirmed that label for you because, to me, you seem like a child acting out because there’s no one they trust to help and put them in their place. Then again, that probably pertains to more than half of the RQ community.
To say you all need a good finger-wagging and less phone time would be an understatement.
— C.
Best ask i ever got I genuinely love this, very amusing. I'm not sure if you're trying to insult me or not? If you are it aint working, I take this as an compliment.
But thats actually pretty much it very well worded actually. I am a headmate in a system though and thats also a big factor. I hold "intrusive" thoughts so. Not sure if I can call them intrusive as I'm not appalled but my sysmates are.
I'm not allowed to talk as freely abt my transharmed ids (our protector doesnt like it very much and he will delete this blog if he thinks I say too much) but getting put in my place doesnt sound that bad actually.
I am transharmful in a (trans)harmed way if that makes sense.
To sum it up, I'm transharmful (and transharmed) cause I got that trauma but i dont feel like I got enough and because I hold "intrusive" thoughts for the sys. (idk what to call the thoughts tbh)
And I love the attention I cant lie.
Idk if this makes sense but thats what you get.
#pro transharmed#transx please interact#transharmful#rqc 🌈🍓#radqueer 🌈🍓#pro rq 🌈🍓#rq 🌈🍓#🌈🍓#rqc#radqueer 🍓🌈#rqc 🍓🌈#🍓🌈 safe#rq 🍓🌈#pro 🍓🌈
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Ignoring the discourse, I just wanted to ramble on parts language and our feelings to it as someone who mainly uses it - but honestly "parts" is our preferred term by a long way save for alter when we are talking about things in a more clinical sense.
Personally for us, headmate, sysmate, and similar "roommate" kind of terms actually feel diminishing to the dynamic we have with one another. Headmate and similar terms draw parallels to roommates housemates, aka someone you share a space with - and I totally understand the draw to those terms for those that like to emphasize the individuality of the parts, but personally to call our relationship to one another something similar to people who just share a body / brain / mind / system etc really feels a bit... downplaying the importance we have to one another and the unique dynamic that comes from being parts of a whole.
XIV, Ray, Lucille, Aderis, all the parts in our system feel far more intimate, personal, and tighter bonds than anything like a housemate or a roommate or "someone I am sharing X with" could possibly reach. By nature we all compliment each other and were literally created to support, bolster, accentuate, and cover for one another.
/Separate people in different bodies are not so genuinely and thoroughly made to exist in synergy with one another the same way alters and parts are. Separate people in different bodies, no matter how close and how far back they go, are never going to be as deeply tied with one another the same way parts are / can be - and if they DO - 9/10 times it is likely super codependent and unhealthy where as with alters that tends to be an ideal.
Of course this depends on how you define "separate people" and all so its not a "well I am RIGHT" cause its how we perceive things and the main point in our perception is that to draw parallels to existences of two 'separate people' sharing a space together honestly just... extremely downplays how intrinsically made for one another we are. My relationship with my parts goes deeper than any two people who share a space could ever go because we were literally MADE for one another. It's impossible to compliment me and support me more than the parts in my system because they ARE LITERALLY my other halves.
So headmate and sysmate just.... always feel really downplaying to what we are.
Alters we are okay and chill with, but it honestly feels both sensationalized and very.... artificial for a lack of better words. Using the word "alter" tends to draw my mind to the more fictional media depictions OR solely to minimizing parts to the clinical expression to which it feels a bit dehumanizing - so unless its for convenient shared language or for clinical / just factual references - we tend to prefer parts.
Parts on the other hand really acknowledges just how intrinsically connected and made for one another we are. We really don't think it diminishes our individuality at all (though that might just be because we are decently far in our healing journey that we can simultaneously hold the idea of 'we are parts of a whole' and 'we are valid as individuals with our experiences and can exist and acknowledge ourselves and one another like individuals' very easily together at the same time) or imply anything about us being broken or shattered or anything.
If anything, parts language reminds me that there IS others out there that are there to fill in the gaps in life that I can't do. It reminds me that I am not in this alone and that I'm not SUPPOSED to be in this alone. I am a whole person, but I am not the whole picture and I don't have to try to be the whole picture because one puzzle piece while beautiful on its own - often works many times better when connected with the others.
I dunno, parts language is just a really really positive and healing thing for us. We love it and while we understand it not being for everyone, it means A LOT to us and really nothing negative.
My parts are made FOR me just as I am made FOR my parts. We are literally MADE for one another because we are PARTS of a whole that are MEANT to work with one another and I think that is really beautiful honestly.
#alter: riku#syscourse#syscourse tw#<- even though I dont mean this to be syscourse#I hesitated on posting it cause I dont wanna add more to the discourse cause its dumb shit#but I think it is better to put my thoughts out on it than ya know#not#anyways#parts language#actuallydid#dissociative identity disorder
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