#my health has been. *better* this year

[nexus-nebulae]

man. it gets really exhausting making plans and constantly having to add the asterisk "as long as I'm not sick that day" because my health is so unpredictable that i can't be sure of anything until the day of

[uncanny-tranny]

I think so many people are so deeply alienated from themselves that they have no clue how to exercise their free will and autonomy. For some, this alienation runs so deep that they are afraid of their own autonomy and humanity. It is completely understandable why one would have those feelings, but it can be worrisome.

I want to help others who feel this way, so here are small things I have done to exercise my free will:

Add "guilty pleasure" songs to playlists and actually listen to them (I have a ton of late 1990s-early 2000s music I listen to now proudly that I never listened to in the past out of shame)

Getting the décor item, bath set, bed spread, ect. in the patterns you like, even if it's "childish" (I got a dinosaur-themed wastebasket from the kids' décor section and I adore it)

Taking a new route to get to a place you go to often

Eat dessert first

Celebrate well, and often

Collect things that are "odd" or don't seem like an "acceptable" thing to collect (somebody on my "for you" page collects dandelion crayola crayons and it was so cool!!!!!!)

Incorporate one new piece in an outfit you wear frequently (e.g., a new chain, a necklace, ribbons, bracelets, ect.). Challenge yourself to add onto the outfits if you feel up for it.

Sing along to songs without worrying that you sound "good" or your intonation is completely accurate

Read a book from a genre you weren't allowed to read as a kid (comics, thrillers, mysteries, anything!)

Walk without having a specific destination or goal

Pick up a new craft without expecting yourself to master it or to ever be "good" enough. Get your hands messy.

I don't want to shame anybody for not feeling as though they have free will or that they are exempt from exercising it. However, I wanted to give ideas so that you might read this list and find your own ways to express your intrinsic autonomy and will. You deserve to be a person, to feel alive, not just living. That is what our lives are for.

[manchesterau]

[danandfuckingjonlmao]

whenever dan and phil say words i remember misha collins coming out as straight and think, maybe if we’re really good, that could be dnp too 🙏

[waywardstation]

Choo-choo! We've almost reached the likes goal on the reblog game!

Please be mindful of future likes for this game!

Now then get ready for departure soon! All Aboard!

For this post

Thank you everyone so, so, so, SOOOO MUCH!!! I set an incredibly difficult goal for this honestly, and yet you all helped it be reached!! I appreciate it so much, thank you!!

Unfortunately however, the next part is not finished yet. I was planning to have it finished and ready weeks ago, but I became severely sick and have been unable to finish it to have it ready for this wonderful moment :( I’m so sorry. And I am still pretty bad off, and I’m unsure how much longer it’ll be like this for me.

But!! It was still pretty far along when I had to stop. A lot of it is done. And I have tried to make it up to everyone by making the part extra long. And it is becoming more lighthearted and about comfort now, the next choice to make falls into that ^^

ONCE AGAIN THANK YOU EVERYONE!! It means a lot to me to see that people are actually commenting on the comic and celebrating that it has reached its goal. It means a lot to see that people care!! I am so excited to get the next part out to you guys and to continue on this once again!! ^^ <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

[jojo-the-bird]

Would they understand why I’ve done it? Why I did it? Would they fully understand that I’ve killed myself? Their daughter? Suicide? Or would they just understand that I’m gone.

[kindred-spirit-93]

penelope canonically retreating to her room and refusing food = she puts on some weight, the reason being both lack of physical activity as well as her body being on constant emergency mode (so what little she does eat ends up being stored away bc the body doesnt know when the 'starvation' will end). whats more her constant stress elevates cortisol levels which in and of itself leads to weight gain esp in the abdominal area.

tl;dr chubby penelope send fucking t w e e t

[girlivealwaysbean]

i think growing up is just life repeatedly sucker punching you and saying bitch you thought things were gonna better lmao no you're so naive and stupid for having hope in 20 years the world will be flaming bag of garbage and no matter how hard you work you'll get eliminated at some point

[lemon-wedges]

..

God it's so hard not to feel like a total loser sometimes.....

Unemployable and useless. 6+ years of schooling for what? A skill thats gotten me nowhere but endless self esteem issues and constantly hand injuries

No money, no savings. No future man. I've already accepted that I need to move on and get training or classes in something else but I don't even have a small income to help. No one ever contacts me back for any part times I apply too so it's not even like I'm failing interviews. It's hard to even want to keep applying any where else.

I look at my accounts and profiles and resumes and I just feel so hopeless

I don't even know what to do with myself. I'm mostly just tired of myself. Like at times it seems like the only thing I know how to do is cry and be nasty to myself....

[batfossil-fr]

I’ve been really thinking of reopening my art shop soon… I’ve been taking some practice doodles (hence all the posting lately) while I shake off my rust and I’m finding things I enjoy working on again. I miss trying my hand at more dragons/OCs and colors. my shop’s so broken rn lmao but that’s a problem for a later date it’s just nice getting back into art

[uncanny-tranny]

So much love and recognition to the people who don't know how they feel about recovering. To the people whose scars are fading away, and there's a sinking feeling, despite knowing that it's a good thing. To the people who miss when they were "worse," when they felt "broken." To the people who mourn losing their coping mechanisms, even the ones that were destructive, scary, or unpleasant. To those who feel guilty they're healing because their past self wasn't ready.

Whatever it is, there is nothing wrong with any of those feelings. It's a natural reaction, something you don't have ultimate control over. There is nothing shameful about yourself, and I admire the strength it takes to recognize how you feel, even the parts that do feel like the "wrong" reaction to a Good Thing.

[90stvqueen]

Can somebody tell me how you write a good cover letter and resume for a job you're maybe-maybe-not qualified for

[la-galaxie-langblr]

what is going on w my brain

[irlbeanieboo]

How do you have both BPD and C-PTSD ???

My therapist told me those were the exact same thing

(not mad or anything just confused)

they’re a little different!! i personally seperate the two, or at least mention both of them here, because being traumatized has not led to just bpd with me and i think when it comes to the reasons i cope it spans to both of them. like some symptoms with c-ptsd i experience without as much correlation to bpd. hope this makes sense i’m honestly half asleep rn lol. but i’ve been meaning to just say less specifically that plushies help with my trauma coping and symptoms, feels odd having both mentioned on my acc yknow? people are odd about bpd. but there are differences between c-ptsd and bpd, while they are similar and can manifest because of similar things, there is a reason why they are different diagnoses! and in different groups too.

[mariemariemaria]

Does anybody else feel like mental health awareness has done very little to help them in material reality

[myfriendtheghost]

wearing a GVF shirt and was just listening to Caravel and wanted to check up on y’all <3 how is life going for u pookie bears ???