#me when I’m autism

[hearts4caimsey]

Evo pearl you will always be famous <33

Trying a simpler style, was tired of just trying to fully render everything and never finishing anything or just doodling… sooo I’m trying to find a middle point! ;D

She stims by swinging up and down because i do that and she’s literally me :33

[corvidcrowned]

Day 26 of sending Eli a minimally time-spent pigeon instead of actual art requests: watah

BIG OL EYE

[danandfuckingjonlmao]

edwin is a better, stronger man than i, because i would be infinitely more dramatic and petty in his position when crystal enters the scene and charles starts paying attention to her. i would have comic!edwin’s reaction at least (accusing charles of choosing girls over him, storming off to solve cases on his own and deciding to do shit that will get him into trouble so that charles has to come rescue him, etc) but i’d probably take it a step further. i’d be like “i guess you want me to go back to hell then since i’m basically nothing to you 😒” and then i’d legitimately go back to hell JUST to see if he came after me. if he didn’t come after me then an eternity of torture in hell is nothing compared to the pain of rejection and being replaced. but i’m also incredibly mentally ill, so.

(james acaster once told a story about a christmas where he asked his parents for a spice girls cd. he found out whilst at the pool with his family that his sister was getting the cd instead of him. naturally, he tried to drown himself in the pool to make his parents feel guilty. that’s my vibe if i were ever in edwin’s position.)

[1rubydoodles]

fiddauthor drama

i’m just going to say what i think.

why are so many fiddlestan shippers ableist.

ford is. clearly autistic/autistic coded. and CLEARLY cares for fiddleford. (read journal 3) 

“fiddauthor is a toxic prosh:p because ford is EMOTIONLESS and DOESNT CARE ABOUT FIDDS. he sees him as a LAB TOOL”

the fuck. none of that is true. i once saw a fiddstan post like “unlike the MANIPULATIVE COLD FORD, this LOVE FILLED STAN is really GOOD to stan.”

it has been shown ford clearly cares for him multiple times. in his personal notes even.

you tumblr users are all “support autistic ppl!” and “support victims” until things that are ACTUALLY THE REASON WE NEED SUPPORT come up.

stanford was an abused fucking autistic going through a hard time.

say one thing you hate about him or fiddauthor and it’s an autistic trait.

“ford defenders are so annoying”

 you are villainizing a character because of clear signs of neurodivergence and honestly i’m not sorry that i take that personally.

i’ve every reason you hate ford has been said to us before a million times.

it hurts.

fiddleford forgave ford and ford realized what happened.

just say your ableist god dammit

[eddienashtonn]

there’s something so autistic about the riddler as a character. the frustration of having no one really see you, the need to prove yourself smarter and cleverer than all of them to make up for the fact that you could never fit in with them, the compulsive joy of forcing others to play by your rules, the obsession with truth and answers, the comfort of having your own space where you’re in control, the fear of inadequacy, the isolation and loneliness, the need to be acknowledged in your reality to be satisfied but never able to reach that satisfaction.

[sunflowersand-bees]

can I just say that I love the way arcane portrays grief. specifically when we refer to powder’s breakdowns in season one act one. when vi tells her to stay behind and then the confrontation between her and vi after the explosion. because it’s ugly. it’s not pretty, it’s not watered down.

and it’s real. that’s how I cry. when I was little and now. if I’m angry and having a breakdown, that’s how I cry. I scream and I yell and I hit myself and I bite myself and I make a mess. our emotions aren’t pretty. and they don’t try and make it pretty.

[le-trash-prince]

I would like to say that as an autistic person, talking directly to people is not a default behavior for me, and this doesn’t just apply to facing people or making eye contact. Both in person and online, I often talk to myself where other people can hear and sometimes that will involve commenting on things that I disagree with.

Yes, I do enjoy conversations sometimes, I do enjoy when others chime in, but it is still very draining and I am only going to do it when I have both the words and the energy with which to do so. It took me over a decade of being in fandom before I sort-of-maybe learned how to initiate conversation in an indirect manner, and another ten years before I got to a point where I could do it directly, and it’s still not easy. It will never be a default for me.

Acting like it’s toxic, rude, cowardly, or slimy for someone to not follow neurotypical rules of communication that we never agreed to is fucked up.

I will own the title of being rude because it comes with the territory of being autistic and not knowing where that line falls—and because if I’m not giving myself the space to be “rude,” it results in me backing myself into a corner where my voice goes unheard by anyone.

But not everyone is going to communicate in a way that you think is appropriate, and people need to remember that. Even among the neurodivergent community, there’s many different ways of communicating and we are not all going to do it in the same way. No, I don’t think this will change people’s behavior or opinions, but I still think it’s fucked up to act like it’s toxic for someone to be airing out their thoughts on their own blog without making it an upfront dialogue.

[ponchcronch]

Just watched this preview and I need you all to understand something…one of the main storyboarders working on this is KEVIN MOLINA-ORTIZ. And for those of you saying ‘who?’

HE STORYBOARDED THIS, AND THE REST OF THE ROTTMNT FLYING-THROUGH-THE-AIR MOVIE SCENE. AKA, HE IS THE ABSOLUTE GOATTTT.

I NEED YALL TO UNDERSTAND THAT WE ARE SETTT. IT IS TRULY THE YEAR OF SHADOW OML

[lynxfrost13]

LSTR-S2301 and the maintenance tunnel ARAR are best friends to me even though that Elster was only on sierpinski for a seemingly brief time, they’re bros who fuck around on the clock during work. I think Elster was probably more willing to put extra time in however she’s also very “okay you’ve given me a list of tasks I did them. They’re done and done well. That’s it, my time now.” Whereas I see Ara being more of a slacker (very valid of her) or at the very least just a bare minimum type of gal when it comes to work.

Idk I tend to imagine them fucking off in the middle of shifts to go find weird lonely corners of sierpinski to hang out in. They don’t even talk half the time but they love it.

[javierduffy]

in my head, kieran survived the o’driscoll kidnapping, but by the time he’d got back to shady belle after someone found him bleeding out in the street and took him to the doctor, the gang was gone, and he took the opportunity to escape the gang lifestyle, running off to strawberry and beginning work with the timber folks

years later, you can find him at pronghorn ranch in epilogue 1, lovingly tending to the horses in the barn when you go to scoop the manure, and he’s made an honest living for himself. and the o’driscolls are gone because sadie killed then all and he is finally safe and happy is anyone listening can anyone hear me

[arcsin27]

Gaining lots of appreciation for the adhd guy and autism guy dynamic

[soullessjack]

ill be honest i think i like the idea of shadow being Something that doesn’t even qualify as a hedgehog on any level besides appearance, more than i like him being an actual hedgehog. like..

“looking like a hedgehog” ? “unassuming form” ?

like he was literally just planned as ‘The Ultimate Life-form,’ without an actual form in mind. a giant eyeless salamander from an entirely separate branch of animal family is his predecessor. shadow being a hedgehog is at best, pure coincidence (and definitely for the sake of The Hedgehog being the titular/most popular/most marketable surname in the franchise), and at second-best, a result of Gerald being inspired by the Super Sonic mural (which is just a fan theory & frankly not very interesting) —

so I think it’s both funnier and way more interesting for him to be, like, Black Doom’s little alien homunculus flesh puppet that his (its?) soul will transfer into at the event of his (its?) death which is pretty close to what the end goal was in generations actually. and that’s not even touching the mutations ; something that meets no actual qualifications for a hedgehog as a mammal — side note, Black Doom is definitely not mammalian or any alien equivalent to the class, so jot that down — but it’s just easier to call him hedgehog since that’s what he looks like.

shadow is a hedgehog in quotation marks.

a vaguely-hedgehog-shaped thing, if you will.

[gods-favorite-autistic]

Can’t wait for the angst fic writers to write about the trauma Riz has when the mirrors that have been tormenting him since sophomore year end up aiding them in the end

[donnieisaprettyboy]

nobody says they hate someone because they’re autistic but they’ll hate them for all the traits that make them autistic and still claim it isn’t because of the autism

[pandorem]

Okay so I don’t feel the most qualified to talk about this, especially to make any value judgements on how any of this was handled, so I would love other people to add in if they feel like it, but this is eating my brain actually so.

Esther Finch is a funny villain. She’s a joy to watch on screen, even if part of that joy is in hating her. But there’s something that feels very deliberate in the fact that the only two girls (barring in the animated flashback) we see her target are black girls. Becky Aspen and Crystal. I don’t think we’re supposed to infer from this that she only ever targets black girls, but the casting of Becky feels deliberate. While there’s plenty of in universe explanation for why she wants to use Crystal to feed to her snake afterwards and doesn’t ever say, specifically target Niko, it’s still there. And though Niko was just hurt because she got in the way, she’s also another woman of colour we see Esther hurt.

And then at the end Crystal, who many have pointed out has been a voice for women throughout the whole season, stands in front of Lilith, the goddess of wronged women, and screams to her about who gets justice for all the little girls Esther hurt. And then Lilith, played by a black woman, is the one to drag Esther away.

Crystal says to Esther that she knows how anger can poison you. Esther says she learned to be predator instead of prey a long time ago. Do I think that the show literally wants us to think that Esther is a racist who deliberately targets black girls? No. Do I think the casting choices that they made bring up themes of the kind of people who, because they have been hurt or marginalized, want to push others down to have others that they can have power over instead? Whose problems with societal oppression is not that it exists, but that they aren’t the ones who get to benefit from it? I think so.