#rey rambles

[jellyjamheadobb]

[philinof]

how did we as a phociety move on from “can phil express an opinion?” that was literally one of The most insane moments ever.

phil just wanted to get a word in and dan was literally so irritated that people kept speaking over phil that he did not gaf anymore. he reached his long ass arm all across that table to steal someone else’s mic, without a single “excuse me”. then he doesn’t say “phil has something to add!” or something else normal.

no, instead he asks, mad as fuck, “can phil express an opinion?” like hey can phil fucking speak. is he allowed to say something. can he express a single fucking opinion during this panel.

and he knew how’d he come off. people were a little shocked. it definitely came off as rude to some. but it was so jarring that they just had to shut up. like damn okay i didn’t know you felt so strongly about your fellow youtuber, mr. danisnotonfire.

dan knew that phil was just way too nice to interrupt everyone else & stand up for himself. so he took matters into his own hands, he didn’t mind looking rude if it meant phil got to speak his mind. & i think that’s just so loving & kind & i’ll never get over it. <3

[vulturereyy]

Thinking about of all the things miquella abandoned, his love was the one he sealed away in the deepest, darkest pit he could find. Do you think he did that knowing that he, himself, would regret this? Do you think he buried it so deep so he could not go back and retrieve it? Do you think all of the sleeping animals were the last audience to kindly miquella's love. Do you think that's why they're arranged so methodically. Do you think he held them all and patted them with fondness one last time before his touch and his heart both would grow cold. Do you think he left them there for Trina, as close as they could be without succumbing to her poison or her protector. Do you think he chose a skeleton rider specifically because it was one who lived in death, his dear older brother's domain.

Do you think I need to take my medication today.

[myreygn]

do you ever think about how sanemi's animosity towards tanjiro makes so much sense from a narrative perspective because tanjiro is literally everything sanemi isn't?

both of them lose their fathers at a very young age, only that sanemi's father was a horrible abusive jerk who inflicted severe trauma upon his entire family while tanjiro's father was the coolest guy around whose lessons continue to motivate tanjiro and impact his life in a positive way.

both of them have to deal with a beloved family member turning into a demon, only that sanemi ends up killing his mother and has to come to terms with the fact that although she became a monster he still killed his mother while tanjiro manages to guide his sister through her monstrosity and finds ways to help her keep her humanity in tact.

both of them lose their families with only one younger sibling remaining, only that sanemi and genya get separated and estranged while tanjiro and nezuko never lose their close relationship.

[spoilers below the cut]

both of them have to deal with their younger sibling being a demon (one way or the other), only that sanemi's hatred towards demons as a whole makes it impossible for him to look at genya the same way while tanjiro loves his sister all the same, no matter if she's demon or human.

both of them try to protect their younger siblings from danger, only that sanemi can't think of anything but straight up abuse to try and push genya away which remains unsuccessful while tanjiro and nezuko work together well during fights and tanjiro still manages to keep her safe.

both of them fight with the goal to keep their siblings alive, only that genya dies and leaves sanemi with a ton of guilt and regret while tanjiro and nezuko get their happy ending.

both of them are thrown into the conflict between demons and humans out of nowhere, only that sanemi spends a considerable amount of time on his own, killing demons without any assistance while tanjiro gets sent off with a hashira recommendation letter to urokodaki's where he receives a proper training and finds a new home and family.

both of them find companions along the way and form meaningful relationships with them, only that masachika dies young with sanemi being unable to protect him while tanjiro, zenitsu and inosuke stay together through everything and manage to survive even the final battle.

and a lot of this is meta knowledge, a lot of this is information that sanemi doesn't have about tanjiro. but he does have some of it and i think it's enough knowledge for me to put up this theory: sanemi envies tanjiro. because both of them went through unspeakable trauma and grief, both of them lost people close to them, both of them had to deal with similar situations.

and yet tanjiro is kind. he's friendly and good, people trust him, people love to befriend him and he inspires them wherever he goes while sanemi is bitter and nasty and simply incapable of forming and maintaining these connections in the way tanjiro is because who'd want to be friends with a cruel jerk right? and tanjiro loves to take lonely people under his wing, but not even he is willing to forgive sanemi for most of the story and i can only imagine how that must sting because no one wants to be lonely and yet sanemi can't even blame him. he wouldn't forgive himself either.

[action-not-despair]

cant wait to see how riz avenges his father's death in junior year

[sugar-and-spite]

so discord fucked up massively and made another change literally no one wanted or asked for with no way to opt out or revert it, and this time it's made the app completely unusable for me! the new dark color scheme gives me a headache if i use it for more than a minute or two, and midnight is worse, so i'm forced to use light mode, which i despise because when i have migraine flares i won't be able to look at something that bright. the only way to customize the colors is to give discord money, which i wasn't doing before, and i'm certainly not going to start now after they've fucked up severely. so what the fuck am i supposed to do? discord is my main way to contact my partners and friends and i'm part of several large communities that are important to me, but the app is all but unusable now.

[wordswithloveee]

[batnsons]

will never ever be over the look on Colin’s face after he kisses Penelope for the first time

[necromancers-incorporated]

We all immediately thought about the anatomy students right?

[maareyas]

i love the stark difference between D's Recollection sprite/3d model vs. his original 2d one:

a very blue but polite young boy vs. guy who is both haunting and is haunted (by things he cannot remember)

[shadowed-dancer]

I wish we could keep the new mini-moon. I think our moon would like a friend after all these years. Maybe it's lonely

[jellyjamheadobb]

[philinof]

“look at the camera, don’t look at me” the AUDACITY of DAN HOWELL to say that to PHIL is insane

[omarbdelftah317]

Tonight was a clear victory … for memes

[myreygn]

you know this bojack horseman scene that's like "wouldn't it be funny if this night was the last time we ever spoke to each other" and how people love to use it for soukoku right before dazai leaves the mafia? and there's this interpretation of it that chuuya thinks dazai is going to kill himself and that's what the angst in this scenario stems from?

now i have not read the bsd manga so idk if there's a scene like that (i just heard something about dazai blowing up chuuya's car...?) but i'd actually love something like this, where dazai drops these hints and makes chuuya think he's gonna commit suicide for real when in actuality he's talking about leaving the mafia because honestly i think that'd make it worse.

imagine chuuya comes to the conclusion that dazai is gonna kill himself that same night because why else would this be their last conversation ever? and of course it's painful and he's plagued by doubt and regret; "is this my fault? i always knew you didn't want to be alive but couldn't i have changed your mind? am i not good enough to keep you happy and alive?" but honestly, isn't it more a question of when than if with dazai anyway from an outside perspective? couldn't he come to terms with it because at the end of the day, it's death who's taking dazai away and there's no shame in losing to death, right? everybody does eventually, there's nothing he could've done to prevent this.

and then that's not what happens. no, dazai just leaves. it's not death who takes dazai away, it's this other organization. it's just someone else. death, death chuuya can understand, if dazai feels like he has no choice then who is chuuya to tell him he does? but no, dazai has a choice and dazai is making that choice and the choice is someone fucking else. and chuuya doesn't understand. "i left my life behind for you, i went with you because i thought we could be something, a family maybe, maybe even more than that, and it wasn't always easy but you made it possible, i came for you and i stayed for you and now you walk away and i'm left behind with the realization that nothing changed. that you're still everything to me when i will always be one golden opportunity away from being nothing to you. i wasn't good enough to keep you happy - but they are? what did they ever do for you? what did they ever sacrifice for you, what did they ever give to you? no one offered their life up to you like i did, no one bared their soul to you like i did, no one will ever give you the power that i can give you. and that's what i'm clinging to when i let you use me as your tool despite hating you more than anything, clinging to the thought that you need me, that you can't win without me while you push me around like a pawn. that is all i will ever be, forever a pawn in your game. because at the end of the day, i'm nothing but a tool to you. and you, you're still everything to me."

[caberzatto]

tewww excited for you guys to read the rafe fic that I've been working on. like I just wanna upload it rn cause im THAT excited. be prepared...