#maybe... could finish it... lol

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Hello Maevelander blorbo anon here 😆

Another reason why I love your Maeve/Homelander snippets, takes, and posts is that you write them in shades of gray whereas others will write them as completely black and white. Whenever Maeve is in a WLW ship, it's always seen as good but I rarely seen her shipped in MF ships since Men Are Bad™.

Dare I say, you don't write her in a biphobic lens like some authors do. You acknowledge her bisexuality and not simply wave it as a phase.

Looking forward to any fics you write of them 🩷💜💙

hello again! always nice to hear kind words like this, thank you.

there definitely is some biphobia out there around Maeve. thankfully it tends to be rare/unintentional, due to the show explicitly calling out one form of biphobia (bi erasure) thru her storyline. (I think it's also rare simply due to there not being much discussion/fandom around her; i think if she was a character still presently on the show and heavily featured and had a large following there would be more of it... lmao). anyways, that's a big part of why i love her - i'm bi, and while canon bi representation has become more widespread and of better variety/quality in the last several years, it's still sometimes rare. and i love maeve for being a great example of a bi character whose bisexuality is acknowledged and does matter to the story of the show, who also happens to be someone i find fascinating for many other reasons!

you speak to something that does irk me around maeve and also around female bi characters in general - there often is that sense that bi women in fiction (or, fictional women whose sexuality is not explicitly labeled but who are shown to have attraction to/relationships with people of different genders) are Meant to be with Women, because that is the only way they are truly living their queerness and thus being Good Representation. i'll stop myself from going on a whole tangent about this... lmao.

in the case of Maeve, I do get it though. because i think a lot of the disinterest in maeve/homelander for some people is not just because he's a man, but also because it is explicitly not portrayed in a positive light in the present of canon, and because homelander is very much the villain of maeve's story in canon. like, not that you can't ship people who have an antagonistic relationship, of course, but like, i can get why some people look at that and are like "i'm just not interested in imagining when they were together"... on the other hand, though, i've seen much more positive reception towards maeve & butcher's hookup (though I disliked the execution of it quite a bit), and I suspect if they had shared even one (1) more substantial scene in s3 that wasn't pure exposition or that one hookup scene, then that ship would have a decent following. and if there were any other obvious male character for her to be shipped with, we might see it more, but the fact is that there's not a lot in canon to foster ships besides the ones already mentioned, unless you wanna work real hard for it :P

overall though I agree with what you're saying. I obviously do not see Maeve and Homelander's relationship as all good. i mean, as far as canon is concerned, I would say that yes, i do think it was "bad" for both of them. hm, bad is the wrong word - it was "wrong" for both of them. but there HAD to be enough "right" that they went there in the first place, and that there's still lingering tension there... at least on homelander's side. shades of gray, as you said.

necessary clarification that i mean no shade to others for holding the interpretations they do, but these are a few common interpretations i've seen in fic/fan posts about maeve and homelander that just ring false and not capturing the "gray" of it to me:

Homelander as totally submissive and Maeve as totally dominant in their (personal and/or sexual) relationship. i know this might be a Preference for some people, nothing wrong with that, but it always rings false to me based on what we know of both of them in canon. (this irks me in a similar way to people portraying maeve as like "always rude and obnoxious loves to swear and call everyone twinks loves to dominate men and OF COURSE she's always wearing a strap 100% of the time because she is mean and hard and rude and masculine and dominant." again, not that there is anything wrong with her being those things. she IS those things... to an extent. but i think it's a bit of flanderization taking the two (2) times she said the words "twink" and "bottom" and extrapolating that to make her a caricature. likewise, i won't claim to have spent half as much time ruminating over every aspect of homelander's portrayal as i have over maeve's, but this dynamic rings false for me on his side, too. it's not that I don't believe homelander could/would want to be submissive, or to be dominated. i do see that. but I have a really hard time imagining him opening up about that to anyone, even to Maeve; tbh to me that seems like it's probably a unique and very important aspect of his relationship with Madelyn, that he's able to let himself be both ordered around and "taken care of" by her... every time we see him with Maeve in the show, he's actually rather dominant and commanding of her. again, doesn't mean he only wants to be that, but it says to me that he feels that's what he's SUPPOSED to be with Maeve. i've written before about how a large aspect of their relationship to me is what they feel they're SUPPOSED to be performing - either literally for the public, but also performing intimately for each other for a "normal" hetero relationship. so it's not that I think homelander would never ever want to be pegged or maeve would never ever wanna slap him around or whatever. but i do think both characters a) want MORE than just that, and b) would not necessarily feel comfortable with doing those things with each other specifically.

Maeve 100% hating Homelander the whole time, her never wanting any part of the relationship and feeling forced into it. again, if someone resonates with this interpretation, that's fine, power to them. but it doesn't ring true for me, and also just preference-wise, I don't like the way this version of it gives her less agency, less responsibility in her own narrative. in ep 304, she actively takes responsibility for being with him even if she presently regrets it ("i'm the one who was with the asshole"), and she also notably never claims to Elena that she was forced into the relationship with him or that she never ever liked him. because she did, at some point.

A lack of acknowledgement of - or feeling the subtextual presence of - the fact that Maeve loved/loves someone else for the entire time she is with Homelander. canonically, Maeve was with Elena before she was with Homelander. she loved Elena first and life got in the way, but she still loves her. and idk, i get why if someone sets out to write about Maeve/Homelander as a relationship, they may or may not care so much about Maeve/Elena, and may or may not like the idea of that ship being "endgame". for me, i mean, full disclosure mosssst universes I imagine for this show i see their relationship as the hypothetical Ideal Endgame for Maeve (though it may be derailed or denied in a tragic story!)... but even if i'm writing a story/scenario that is Less about Maevelena, that is still a really important bit of context for Maeve and Homelander's relationship to me. Maeve comes into that relationship already knowing what true love feels like, and also believing that she fucked it up and lost it forever. However, I don't mean to say that must mean all portrayals depict her pining for Elena 100% of the time she's with Homelander. what I mean is, the context even colors WHY she would want homelander in the first place. for example: things went sour with her and elena bc their relationship had to be hidden - well, her relationship with homelander is extremely public, maybe that'll work better! ... Elena didn't understand/want the life that came with fame, well Homelander's right there in the same boat with Maeve! ... Maeve herself didn't want to come out, well, not only does she not need to come out about being with homelander, the whole world declares that they're Perfect together and WANTS this to happen! ... Maeve had trouble making it work with a Regular Person, so maybe it'll work if she gives it a try with not only a Supe, but someone who uniquely gets what it feels like being isolated even from other Supes!... and so on.

those are my pet peeves, lol, and as you can see, yeah, it's a lack of that Grayness. the grayness is specifically what interests me about these two. that feeling that they're soooo wrong for each other in truth, yet also feel so CLOSE to being right? Like if only, in another universe, maybe they'd live happily ever after. except i haven't found that universe and tbh have little interest in trying :) bc the "if only" is the point to me. which is distinct from what i love about maevelena, of course. maevelena is a ship i do desire a Happy Ending for (at least mostly! i enjoy a good angst/tragic fic too!). i think they're deeply FLAWED as a couple but also right for each other and can pull through a lot of hurt and difficulties to stick together. but they're not better because elena's a woman. and homelander's not wrong just because he's a man. Also, also, it needs to be said - it's not JUST about who's right for Maeve. i have always felt that Maeve is not the right "happy ever after" romantic partner for Homelander, either! idk if there's any other character who I would say IS the "right" romantic partner for him, insofar as such a thing exists, but it sure isn't Maeve. I think Homelander wants to believe that she is that person for him for longer than Maeve ever wants/manages to believe that Homelander is right for her - mainly due to what i discussed in point 3 above: Maeve has experienced that feeling of love, with Elena. Homelander has never had it - not from parents, not friends, not a romantic partner. I think he feels great passion and possessiveness over Maeve because he THINKS that is love, and it's the closest he's had up to that point in his life, maybe. and for many reasons Maeve is the only person that he could imagine being "right" for him based on who he is and the world he is in. but at his deepest subconscious level, he's gotta realize fairly early on that it's not quite right with Maeve just as much as she knows it. Homelander is someone who craves affection, honesty, mutual vulnerability, and unconditional love (understandable!). Maeve is someone who is famously bad at all of those things, even with the person she loves most. they have a lot in common, but their actual personalities and (forgive me) "love languages" just don't mesh very well. i think they both know this whilst continuing their active romantic/sexual relationship for quite a while before finally giving up... and i think they both stick in it for a while largely out of the fear that if this doesn't work (and, in maeve's mind, elena already 'didn't work'), then there's no one else for them. and that's not exactly a foundation for healthy, lasting love, but it IS a really really juicy, endlessly interesting dynamic to me!!!

anywho i could just ramble more on these thread for a long time but yeah, agreed. boo to biphobia and black-and-white portrayals, yay to endlessly imperfect characters who try to make it work together far longer than they possibly should!

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obligatory beach divorce doodling

bonus rough cover redraw of x-men #41 (1995) But Beach Divorce below cut

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i HAVE been working on this ive just been fighting it for my fucking life but i think ive finally got it to the point i can work on finishing 😭

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FORGETTABLE-AU (Page 61-64)

* I-I don't think we were talking about the same thing...

[BEGINNING] [PREVIOUS] [CONTINUE]

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This is meant to be after the circus, its non canon to my au but its still my human designs ahshshs. I did this on aggie so its super oversimplified and i didnt have much of a story to begin with buuut i sorta came up with one i guess.

The main idea is that nearly a year after escaping the circus, Jax manages to find most of the cast including Pomni and Ragatha. But he doesn’t tell them about it and instead suggests Pomni visit a local café which he is aware Ragatha works at. They end up having this encounter and they’re immediately drawn to each other but they dont reveal who they really are because they both have doubts. So they end up meeting over and over again until eventually theyre like omg ur the loml!!! bla bla bla they grow old and die together. The end!!

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On average, what is the total MONTHLY amount that you spend on dining out*?

*(This doesn't only count going out to restaurants, but also stuff like picking up fast food to bring home, getting a coffee on the way to work, getting a premade sandwich from a grocery store deli during lunch, buying a quick snack from a convenience store or food cart whilst walking somewhere, ordering a pizza or any other food to be delivered to your home, etc.)

*(If you often dine out in groups/as a household: calculate and divide the costs so that you get a Per Person average. This is for YOU individually, NOT the total household/group costs)

(I'm sure polls similar to this have been made before (very common topic), I just haven't personally seen one that I can remember, so, I was curious to do my own! I was discussing this with a group of people today and it was very interesting to see how widely the number varied between individuals. :0c )

(Reblog for bigger sample size if you can, and feel free to explain your answer in tags if there's anything extra to add!)

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But not green.

You know the song Mr. Jones? Yeah.

[paintedcrows]

Say hello to my horrible little triangle! He is the reason I haven't had time to draw for like a week 💙

...He watches me while I sleep now! :)

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some milgram sillies cause it is NOT leaving my brain

[blujayonthewing]

This year's big web! This one marks five years of big web!!!

[wellfine]

Here's lookin at you, 2024!

I experimented a lot over the course of this year and I'm happy with the studies and practice I did, plus I'm glad I got to start some character design/original work. Here's to a funky and artful 2025!

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Looong day of catching up on emails and work to set myself up to be (mostly) on vacation as of xmas 😩☕😵‍💫

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song about something you'll never be forgiven for. beepbox link here, and a singalong under the read more :''-)

starting point "…so don't look back" i took your hand and led you astray into the light i fear i might have made a fatal mistake walk in a straight line walk in a straight line i couldn't ask i only hope that sinners are saved but in all honesty, my honor keeps me somewhat afraid walk in a straight line don't dare look behind ♫♫♫ i had a dream we tried to reach the finishing line but in the silence still the time we killed had come back to life walk in a straight line walk in a straight line the signs had merged into a single "end of the world" where every undead thing was damned to sing "esrever ni gnos a" walk in a straight line …tell me that you're fine ♫��♫ walk in a straight line (walk in a straight line) don't dare look behind (don't dare look behind) tell me that you're fine (something that had died) you're still breathing right? (are you satisfied?) walk between the lines (how to save a life) don't dare look behind (change the ending line) reach the end this time (tell a little lie) bring me back to life… ♫♫♫ if i'd look back and held the hands that led me astray into the light i'd proudly cry "this is my final mistake" walk with me this time walk with me this time i should have asked i know the answer's somewhat cliché but was it worth the price and worth the pain? you're fading away— walk with me this time bring me back to life… if i'd look back… if i'd look back… if i'd look back… if i'd look back… if i'd look back… if you'd look--

[devilsskettle]

The X trilogy + "psycho-biddy" influences

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excuses

[icewindandboringhorror]

Little bright colored outfit with a fun vest ~

(shoes from ebay like 10 years ago. everything else is thrifted)