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yousaytomato · 2 years ago

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#woes of emily #poll #i have a few friends who do the opposite to me and just. wondering #truly not vagueing or anything lol #but i find this stressful and bad 90%~ of the time #I'm not actually sure which I'll vote for #because i think im probs at like. 10% ?#maybe i should round to the closest lol. that makes the most sense i think #give context in tags too!#like. i think this is more acceptable with irl friends #/ peope i know #i think its more stressful with strangers #maybe this is an anxiety thing idk

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greatgoddyke · 1 month ago

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time to make your choice only you can be the one

#undescribed #bonk.png #ggg #great god grove #great god grove spoilers #ggg spoilers #<- bc of king n hand gesturing stuff for the au this one gets the spoiler tag #caption is a line from legend of everfree from eg movie of the same name bc its now linked to ggg for me bc of brainrot #first au stuff i dont like have anything really planned out n also dont really plan on doing anything with this beyond doodles #settled on inspekta being a horse bc i want him capochin patty n king to all be earth ponies bc of like permanent having it ingrained from #being an mlp fan as a kid that earth ponies are seen as less special bc they cant use magic or fly n that fits for story similarities #bc inspekta n capochin hating on patty for projection reasons AND inspekta's replacement anxiety n envy of king who in the au #is the only other earth pony lined up to become an alicorn (bc again being specifically an fim fan since i was a kid ingrained in with fanon #that ponies that become alicorns are almost exclusively pegasus or unicorn bc of earth ponies not having as clear of a connection to magic)#in my mind patty is the main character like the bizzyboys are also main characters but its like how the mane six are the main six but #twilight is the MAIN main character its like that n then godpoke is her sidekick (like spike ig but like mysterious stranger style <- idk #what i mean by this) she gets to be the protag bc the type of character godpoke is in the game n how im fitting them to be in the au doesnt #really work for a protag role while patty can be more readily slotted into mlp protag shes the only bizzyboy who cares about solving in the #game (as shown in hobbyhoo) n i like her so she gets to be the protag v-v inspekta is still doing the whole like shit from the game just in #a different way bc of mlp related restrictions n tone differences. the episode where luna goes to nightmare night after being freshly reform #ed walked so milldread section could run however cobigail's deal does run closer to that episode that to the game counterpart but like witho #ut cob having been banished for a thousand years theres no rift in the au bc its. mlp so sort of vague direction is related to the tree of #harmony n like maybe thats how inspekta powers up for the two parter transformation. a thought i had for a workaround for how inspekta keeps #king isolated was maybe turning king to stone n hiding her in plain sight but while that would slide in mlp (they turn a child to stone in t #he series finale apparently??) it leaves a bad taste in my mouth from the ggg angle so probably gonna do something else #art comments both inspekta n cobigail's pony names are taken from ponies i already had inspekta's comes from a different mlpied thing #n cobigail's comes from a fankid (spelled like kandi corn tho bc fankid's a rave girlie) the rest of the gods get to keep their names aside #from maybe bauhauzzo (whos role is undecided) huzzle n click clack arent ponies bc i felt it suited them more huzzle gets to be discordesc #bc i think its fun if like this versions god of chaos wasnt evil BUT that angle is used as slander against huzzle by inspekta #n click clack's a breezy bc small n bratty (we will be ignoring that breezies are mortal if i remember right bc thats not relevant)

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royalarchivist · 10 months ago

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[A sad violin song plays over an image of a sad hamster]

Pac: This doesn't have anything to do with me – I wear a blue sweatshirt, you're crazy, this mouse doesn't even have a sweatshirt, this hamster! [Reading chat] Am I a depressed hamster?

[ Transcript continued ↓ ]*

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Pac: Actually– that's fine! I embrace that idea – of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy? [He hits his desk, then starts counting off people on his fingers] Fit is gone, Richarlyson is gone, Ramon is gone, Bagi and Empanada who were always there when we were there are also gone, I haven't seen them! It's just me and Tubbo, and sometimes Philza shows up.

Pac: I lost Chume Labs, I lost the Favela, I lost Murder Mystery, I lost Ilha Chume Labs, it's crazy! Look at how much I've lost, and I've gained nothing! Of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy?! How am I supposed to be happy?!

Pac: [Reading chat] "You have us Pac," that's true, thank you. No, that's true, sorry.

* NOTE: Please note that this is an incomplete transcript, as I was primarily relying on Aypierre's translation mod at the time and if I am not confident of the translation, I do not include it. As always, please feel free to add on translations or message me corrections.

#Pactw #QSMP #Pac #March 18 2024 #As much as I love keeping people updated about Pac / the other Portuguese-speaking creators #I think I might not make as many transcribed posts for their clips anymore #I just don't think I'm qualified enough to be transcribing things for a language I don't know #like yeah we have the Qlobal Translator and Aypierre's translators to rely on #And I'm always upfront when I'm not 100% sure about a translation #but I've been thinking about it a lot and it kinda makes me feel a bit icky. Idk.#I might be overthinking this but I just I don't want to spread around translations I'm not super confident about #esp. since I know a lot of people cite my clips in analysis posts or link them to other people as resources #and 90% of the time I'm like ''Hell yeah I love seeing people getting a lot of use out of the archive''#but sometimes I get a bit anxious like ''Did I do a good enough job translating this''#''Am I ruining someone's entire perception of a conversation or character because I left one word out or mistranslated something?''#And like I said that's normally not a HUGE concern since if I'm not certain about a translation I just won't post a clip. but you know #idk it might just be the anxiety talking but I really really don't want to spread bad info #Happy to hear other folks' perspective #I'm really grateful for people like Bell and Pix and others who translate clips and I always try to reblog those #but we don't have a ton of people posting clips & translating things on Tumblr since we're so English-centric #which is part of the reason WHY I like sharing clips of the non-English-speaking CCs #but at the same time I want to do an accurate job representing what they're saying #Maybe I'll just start posting things and give a TLDR context of what they're talking about but not a transcript #that way native-speakers can hop in and add translations if that's something they're comfortable doing #and if not then well. at least I'm not sharing something that isn't super accurate #idk I'm just thinking out loud a bit in the tags #But I'm open to hearing other people's thoughts on the matter #Anyways giant rant aside. q!Pac is NOT doing ok rn

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coldshrugs · 10 months ago

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take a deep breath

vierapril day 10: breath

#io laithe #ffxiv #endwalker spoilers #azia gposes #vierapril24 #posting these out of order and at 2am T^T failing the community event #GOD. my game crashed during my first attempt of this and i wasn't sure i'd feel like redo-ing it #but tbh i've been thinking about this for a minute #what it means for her to be A Hero and still have anxiety on a good day. but on the bad days...#what it means to the people who love her most to see her break #maybe not for the first time but in a raw and scary way they haven't witnessed before #so important to me that thancred is the one who goes to her first (and who takes her inside). idk. their friendship is so special!!!#and estinien's shock is also v important to me (peep him dropping his lance). he's feeling so many things rn alkjsfdlk

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ledzeppelinmixtape · 1 year ago

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wish house was a real doctor so i could be his mystery insomniac patient and after giving me horse tranquilizers and still not falling asleep he just hits me in the head with his cane and im out like a light

#house md #i was supposed yo be asleep 2 hrs ago cause i planned to get up very early to study but LMAO NO #as soon as i shut my eyes my chest felt like it was being ripped to shreds from anxiety. i love i love it i love it (←says guy who hates it #anyways. i got mad i cried i googled some things frantically and now im in an acceptance phase of 'it is what it is' ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯#i think the thing that makes me the most frustrated is that. i slept like shit last night. like 4hrs maybe!!!! total!!! and so by the time #i started studying today around 6:30 i was eepy. and then by 7:15 my eyes were sooo heavy so i decided to take a 15 min power nap #and i was DREAMING within minutes. i fell asleep that quick. such a deep sleep that my alarm scared me awake #but ofc when im like oh teehee ill go to bet hella early and wake up hella early my brain is like ? no.#if youre still reading. idk im kissing you on the mouth or something. thanks for being here 🫶#gonna start tagging these posts as #insomnia chronicles

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maudfs · 26 days ago

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Happy New Year 2025!

featuring Eminence!

#even with great anxieties about many things we must move forwards for time will move without us. build a better future don't give up #or something like that idk I'm trying to be positive I had one last dragon in me from here on it's gonna be lots of ocs and studies maybe #maudfs #dragon #flight rising #mirror dragon #happy new year

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fishareglorious · 2 months ago

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what if marcus suddenly has a growth spurt and shoots up like a beanstalk on steroids to be tall enough to fit hofmann's coat

#marcus #reverse 1999 #certified storm moments #granted im pretty sure they never recovered her body but she probably had. a spare or two lying around in wherever she kept her #personal affects idk. just thought of marcus wearing her coat and i mourned for the next thirty years #hofmann's coat is an item of bittersweet comfort for marcus. there will come a time the smell of dry clean and the faintest scent of #cigarette smoke will be gone after several washes. still in times when the panic or when her anxiety gets the best of her marcus can #imagine the weight of a coat over her shoulders is maybe a comforting pat there instead. idk #would also be silly too despite not being blood related marcus keeps the hofmann tradition of being a skyscraper #she won't quite hit the 6 feet range but her growth spurt was insane #poor thing probably gets ten times clumsier trying to deal with the sudden height

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moeblob · 11 months ago

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I am really tired of a situation rn.

#fe three houses #felix hugo fraldarius #me using felix on my angy days because he is my angersona? you bet!#anyway if you want to try to get someones money or something bc you hurt your own car banging into mine #can you try to be a bit more timely with it buddy come on you hit me on feb29 !#why am i getting your insurance company calling me today !#also i would like to point out i didnt do it and neither of us were hurt and i filed a claim with my own insurance comp #and also filed a police report bc he didnt even suggest calling the cops to the scene #so like yeah hey man maybe you and your insurance company can move a lil faster or smth #literally everything that happened the day of is - according to my dad - an intimidation tactic #i look like im 15 and he probably thinks he can take advantage of a new driver but ya know! tough luck!#im just really tired and stressed over multiple things not negative so getting this on top of it was like #bro .................... anyway my phone didnt pick up for some reason so i called back and then nothing got resolved #cause the person who actually called me wasnt around to connect the line to from the guy who answered #idk man just its a lot despite my v minimal energy #got a job interview on monday tho ! and then also next week is an eye exam #and you might be thinking isnt that a good thing to get your eyes checked? you are correct but i am horrified #there are two body parts that give me absolute anxiety and eyes are one of them #and i know my eye sight is declining and im just v anxious #its fine im going to be fine i just have to be anxious about it

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thebirdandhersong · 4 months ago

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Lol

#theres nothing quite like your mother saying Well maybe you shouldve been more careful because now your boss might think youve been flirting #with this male coworker (whom i like splendidly as a friend) and now maybe she thinks youre not trustworthy #and maybe she regrets hiring you because you said you feel like youre making a lot of mistakes this week and she might assume thats because #your head is filled with this boy.#so dont make her regret hiring you.#MA'AM I TOLD YOU I WAS ALREADY ANXIOUS BECAUSE I MADE SO MANY MISTAKES TODAY WHY ARE YOU MAKING ME ASHAMED #OF SOMETHING THAT I HONESTLY HAD NO CLUE I OUGHT TO BE ANXIOUS ABOUT AT MY FIRST NEW JOB AFTER IVE GRADUATED????#anyway going to bed i cant take this anymore LOL she said it so lightly and im like. well i never even considered #being afraid of making my boss regret hiring me somehow because of some kind of behaviour that i had no idea was sending some kind of signal #anywaysssss 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#and then she was like why are you crying?? 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀#not to be like this is partly why i didnt want to move home but confound it all why are things like this #can i not simply confide in my mother my anxieties and worriws #worries #and not also have to worry about her potentially being like Well have you considered you ARE right and it IS your fault?#idk man something something firstborn child eldest daughter can i have some room to breathe. please #also not to whine but Not my father walking in on me eating dinner at 10pm because i was holed up #in my room in a semi depressive state after so many gong shows in a work day and straight up having no appetite #but deciding my body needs the food anyway its better late than never.....walking in and then saying #you know if you eat this late you'll gain weight. SIR??????????????????#sorry to complain and rant again i simply cannot in this house and whats more am doing my best to honour my parents #but why is it so hard out here and how can they say stuff like that with a smile!!!!!!!#also i DO have an inner critic who is always like Its your fault you are the worst you should be ashamed always........why do my parents #not understand after knowing me for so long and watching me grow up #that i can make myself so ashamed of the smallest thing so easily and that what they say drives me to shame almost as easily?#ANYWAY LOL WHAT A DAY #you guys!!! i am working so hard i promise i PROMISE I am!!! it is my first full time job ever and i am working so so hard #i am doing my absolute best and no one sees it and that is FINE i just wish my parents would see that i AM trying!!#i come back home so dead every single day because i put in 120%! this is literally my first job after graduation #and my parents KNOW this has been the most exhausting taxing and soul crushing year ive had in my very short life so far

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maribird444 · 5 months ago

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seeing m&g pics like ……… that should be me😭😭💔💔😭💔😭😭💔💔😭😭💔

#silver vip gang #on a real note if i were to meet them my anxiety would be so bad #maybe it’s a good thing idk #(im gaslighting myself)#dnp #dan and phil #dapg #daniel howell #phandom #phan #amazingphil #phil lester #dan and phil games #dnpg #tit tour #terrible influence tour #dip and pip

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swinging-stars-from-satellites · 4 months ago

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when I want to write something self indulgent to give me all the angsty and cuddly hurt/comfort feels but I can't because I end up feeling guilty because I'm seeking after feels that I feel in an inappropriate place because my mom told me one time when I was 15 that I shouldn't search that out or it's probably sexual sin but it confuses me because ALL the feels happen that way for me even if it's entirely platonic and nonsexual and so I don't know if it's okay to want to write to that because apparently all pleasure of any sort, even over platonic stories, is sexual or comes with a possibly probably sexual feeling and I also am having a hard time figuring out what's genuine conviction from God and what's just my anxiety/OCD/perfectionism/fear of failure

#like I feel like it's conviction. but also when I analyze it... I'm not doing anything sexual??? the stories I'm writing are #ENTIRELY platonic #it's like. found family feels.#but then why do I feel so guilty/convicted over it and feel better/less guilty when I stop writing anything feelsy #like... I guess I'm only allowed to write plot and can't ever write hugs and hurt/comfort anymore #my mom keeps saying I should journal all this instead of venting it at everybody and honestly maybe she's right #idk how to handle this but also I feel like if I just find a holding pattern where I can strike a healthy balance of lile #like* what is correct and healthy for me to enjoy #then the anxiety over it might pass? I don't want to avoid conviction though but like. why am I convicted over #writing a story where someone who's been treated like a monster finds a family who loves them #like.. is it because I'm seeking out whatever that feeling in my lower belly/groin is????#but that's like... so tied up in enjoyment and hurt/comfort to me that idk if I'm ACTUALLY looking for that #or if this is just what I write #and idk if that even is sinful in any way at all!!!#and why can't I just get over this? like I keep going in circles with it and it's so frustrating #idk this is totally tmi I just got hit with this awful feeling after work today and the only thing I can pinpoint it to #is this specific thing I've been writing. but even though yeah I've been getting feelsy with it... it's PLATONIC #ENTIRELY COMPLETELY NONSEXUAL. so like... is it that pleasure feeling that's the thing I'm being convicted over??#probably. bc that's the only thing that eases the feeling of conviction/anxiety/guilt #and also probably no one is reading all these tags lol sorry guys I'll go away now

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cozy-the-overlord · 2 years ago

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Seeing people complain about the Speak Now vault tracks being too teenagery …. gee, you’d almost think a teenager wrote them /s

#i feel like it’s a lose lose situation #because if they’re ‘too mature’ like on the red vault people accuse her of writing them recently #but if they’re ‘too immature’ people complain about them being not as good #i for one really like the speak now vault #it may not be as deep as red but i think it’s still really eye-opening #like the kinds of things she was thinking about but felt she couldn’t share #idk maybe it’s because i was a Small Child when speak now came out #and it was really the first album i ever became obsessed with #and as a result i idolized taylor as this beacon of perfection and grown-up-ness #like obviously I’ve long since recognized that she was still a child in a lot of ways in that era #but hearing the vault tracks really made her feel like a Real Teenager to me in a way i never had before?#like the anxiety on electric touch #the insecurity on when emma falls in love #the hopefulness tinged with self-loathing/self-criticalness on foolish one #the wattpad-tinged fantasy of i can see you #idk i feel like teenage me would have related to all that a lot in a way that i never did with her other music #idk i’m rambling #i need to go to bed #taylor swift #speak now taylor’s version

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shima-draws · 1 year ago

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Slamming my head against the wall god fucking DAMMIT I'm so in love with Sanlu I am GOING to explode.

#One Piece #Sanlu #Sanji #Luffy #IDK WHAT IT IS!! IDK!!!!#Still love Zolu with all my heart but oh my GOD Sanlu. They are everything.#I might be reading too many fics bc it really feels like a fanon thing that Sanji's actually like #Really insecure and has low self-esteem #OR MAYBE THAT'S CANON IDK!!#But hnghhh Luffy being the one to be like. Hey I like you for you and not for your past #And I love everything about you and that's a FACT and not a lie and I want to keep you with me forever #AND I WILL NEVER REPLACE YOU WITH ANYBODY ELSE. YOU ARE MY COOK AND I DON'T EVER WANT ANOTHER #And Sanji craving affection and validation and praise SO bad that whenever Luffy gives it to him he wants to cry #BASHES MY HEAD INTO A TABLE AUUGHGHGHG SHUT UP!!!!!#MAYBE THAT'S FANON SANLU BUT YOU KNOW WHAT. I DON'T CARE IT'S SO GOOD #SLURPS THAT SHIT UP #Sanji especially feeling that he's not worthy enough for Luffy and thinking it'd be impossible to have him #So when Luffy actually does reciprocate he's in SHOCK bc how. How could Luffy pick HIM of all people #Cut to Sanji feeling like the LUCKIEST motherfucker on the planet bc he gets to have Luffy. SCORE.#Luffy blowing away all of his insecurities and anxieties and worry just by being himself and being so #STUPIDLY in love with him is just #HOLLERS AND SMACKS THE TABLE REPEATEDLY #ALSO IT DOESN'T HELP THAT OPLA MADE IT SO BLATANTLY OBVIOUS TOO #Luffy complimented his cooking one (1) time #And Sanji was like okay yup packing my bags for the Merry as we speak #When he smiles and looks a little flustered at Luffy's attention.#Oh my fucking god. Strangling myself.#THEY ARE EVERYTHING!!!#Shima speaks

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moreaugriffins · 2 years ago

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dunno if anyone else noticed

but after Colin coming out to the team, and everyone heading back to the pitch- in that moment where Trent's the only one there, looking back into the locker room

Trent’s hands are shaking

he's relieved, he's happy, that much is clear from his expression (he's proud of Colin, and he's happy with how the team handled it and how everything went well)

It's likely the residual panic/worry from the whole situation - from hearing that a fan said that slur, that it was directed at Colin, seeing Colin's worrying in the locker room, wondering how the team will react.. perhaps even remembering personal experiences and hoping it wont repeat for Colin

but yeah

#ted lasso #ted lasso season 3 #trent crimm #ted lasso spoilers #?? i think - to be safe #it could just be me reading into things too much #maybe the actor has shaky hands?#idk it was just something that caught my eye (my hands shake from anxiety sometimes)

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holocene-sims · 11 months ago

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