#anyway if you want to try to get someones money or something bc you hurt your own car banging into mine

[moeblob]

I am really tired of a situation rn.

[luffyvace]

BSD character’s reactions to screwing up they’re first date with you ( T_T)＼(^-^ )

Includes (most) the ada and port mafia <3

they’ll be pretty short since it’s a lot of characters :P (these exclude kyoka, Q and lemon thing aka kajii)

ADA

Fukuzawa 🗡

he’s probably slightly embarrassed but knowing him I’m sure it wasn’t too bad of a screw up

in fact it was probably a minor embarrassing moment that happened

it was silence for a split second before you two changed subjects from what happened

the date went pretty smoothly after that

the typa detail that gets left out when you talk about how the date went

Ranpo 👓

he’ll probably realize what’s gonna happen to ruin the date before it does, and either act to make sure it doesn’t

or smoothly addresses it and moves on

just cuz he’s like that 😎🤷‍♀️ (LOL)

but if something he doesn’t predict happens that crashes your date he’ll be pretty butt hurt

like? How come the worlds greatest detective didn’t see through this??

🙄

you likely end up assuring him it’s fine and continue the date

he sulks and eats snacks when he gets home

your probability of still going on the next date anyway is 89% but he’s still mad that happened

Yosano🥼

she will be pretty bummed out and will starting drinking wine mid date

she may ask if you want some

she’s not sulking or anything but if like where y’all was gonna go is booked/closed you end up just going to some open public area and talking

about how this sucks, what you’ll do next date, if you can do something last minute, that you both doubt you’ll try and go there for a date again and eventually to lighter topics like your hobbies n such

but yeah the date decently recovers

kunikida🤓

YOU ALREADY KNOW THIS MAN IS UTTERLY ENRAGED

in all seriousness he’s s t r e s s i n g

he kinda panics because he planned this out so perfectly and now it’s ruined??

over course he has a back up plan down to z but it’s was supposed to go PERFECT.

(if dazai ruined it for you two he’s gonna choke him out as soon as he sees him)

eventually he stops mumbling and pacing and just takes you to plan b

which actually goes really well!

thankfully it ended in his favor but he’s still gonna spend everyday of his like repenting his first date

because you were his first date with anyone ever

and it was….spoiled. 😀

Dazai💀

you already know mr. slick bounced back immediately

like he went “oh well” and took you to do something else without batting an eye

made it just as fun as the original activity was gonna be

you’d think he had a plan b in mind but he indeed did not

he just had the money to make it look like it 😉

smooth operator 🤪😚

Tanizaki😅

apologizes like a million times

he didn’t mean to ruin it!!

especially if this is your first date too

cuz this is definitely his seeing as though Naomi won’t let him date nobody else 😃😅

(you only got away with him bc Naomi likes you /j)

you guys probably end up walking around and get some ice cream

sitting on a bench and talking

a cat came up to you two and you pet them

All in all it ended peacefully !! <3

(he sulked to Naomi but was grateful things still went alright)

naomi💗

she went “awwww” 🙁

you all likely end up in a arcade and eat some snacks too

You guys use the money you were gonna spend at the original place

it still ends up being pretty fun but you can tell she’s bummed out

you give her a kiss on the cheek at the end of the date to make her feel better 💖

(she immediately perks up)

Kenji🐄

he was kinda like “that stinks” but didn’t even seem sad about it

you two rerouted but couldn’t find anything to do

so you pretty much ended up wandering

not either of you mind, passerby we’re really kind to you and gave you free stuff

At least you didn’t leave empty handed 🤷‍♀️😋

atsushi🐯

your his first ever date- canon.

so when he realizes he (wasn’t his fault but he feels like it anyway) blew it, he’s utterly disappointed

he explains this is his first date and he wanted it to be special, even more so since it was with someone so cool like you

you hear him out, patting his back and giving him head pats to make him feel better

he even went out of his way to buy some new clothes 😞

you tell him it’s okay but he doesn’t feel that way

he asks if there’s anyway he can make it up to you and insists to buy you something before you go

he gets you something you picked out from a shop

although he’s practically hyperventilating over whether you’ll ghost him or not since he screwed it up

PM

Mori💉

another smooth one

i doubt whatever store/place you were trying to go to was closed because he could just pay to open it back up

so it’s likely something embarrassing/awkward happened instead

HE PROBABLY TOOK ELISE AND SHE SAID SMTH 😂😂😂😂

anyway

if so he immediately corrects her then deactivates his ability……

he wanted her to come on the date so he could take her in the future and have you be used to it

clearly that talk he had about not saying private stuff went in one ear and out the other

he apologizes for whatever inconvenience happened and does what every rich man does :)

throws money at the problem :)

no fr y’all went to every shop and he bought you what you wanted from it

(Hey just the for the record I don’t condone mori’s behavior and i genuinely don’t know why the creator did that—they coulda just left that out he coulda been so much better🧍‍♀️)

Hirotsu👔

he doesn’t let little things bother him, but a date with someone that’s important to him?

and it gets ruined??

now that’s kinda disappointing

he formally apologizes and asks if there’s anything you have in mind or like to do for compensation

or maybe if it’s not that drastic he’ll just apologize and try to direct the conversation else where

he isn’t sweating it or anything but the blunder was a pain for a hot second

either way he gets through it without letting it stop the entire date as a whole

Koyo👘

is really embarrassed for 3 hot secs before she collects herself, sighing

Is blushing a bit when she asks if your upset and apologizes

she likely planned this date and told you not to worry about it because things like this wasn’t so supposed to happen

luckily for her she switched from her original idea to something else, so now that that hasn’t worked out she can go back

from there the date returns to smooth sailing

she spoils you and tries to get you forget as much as possible

she especially doesn’t want that getting on her reputation if you work at the PM as well

Chuuya🥂

really irritated and swears under his breath while facing away from you

tries to make it look like he has it under control but he’s kinda freaking out

he liked you so much he really wanted this to go well :/

In the end he can’t think of anything and ends up muttering an apologizing before suggesting to go get some wine together

gets even more embarrassed if your not a drinker

he’s mentally slapping himself at this point

you probably end up pitching in and throwing an idea out there yourself, to which your idea works and the rest of the night is really fun! ;3

he keeps mentioning how good your idea was because it totally saved him

He’s happy when he walks through the door of his place, but when he remembers he blew it he gets upset again

spends the rest of the night drinking and thinking about it hoping you still wanna date him

Higuchi🔫

she is a lover who wants to do everything for the one she loves

so finally landing a date with you and blowing it is like her whole world exploding 💥

she becomes frantic in apologizing asking how to make it up to you

even if it was just a minor thing

if she can turn things around she still feels successful but makes precautions not to let that happen again

if not she’s totally bawling her eyes out to gin about it

she does her best to get on your good side before asking for another date

Tachihara⚔️

gets a bit flustered and sheepishly looks at you to see if it bothered you

his reaction depends on yours

if you start complaining about how much of a bummer it is he’ll start to feel bad

he tries to cheer you up and suggests to move to something else

but if your calm n cool about it so is he

he kinda shrugs one shoulder and says “so what now/wanna do somethin’ else instead?”

Akutagawa🧥

*coughs*

”err..guess the place is closed. I checked yesterday and they were open so this must be a fluke..”

he probably awkwardly stands there from there

if your response is too negative he’ll apologize for wasting your time and offer to drive you home

he will likely hesitate before asking you on a date again and makes sure everything is perfect this time

”curse the weretiger” (you hear him mumble this like it’s a swear word before you close the door to your house)

If you don’t mind as much you two will probably just end up chatting somewhere

it ends with him apologizing anyway

(say you enjoyed talking with him and you might be met with wide eyes and a little blush on his face <3)

Gin☺️

blushes, stammers and apologizes like crazy

she feels really ashamed since this is your first date and something went wrong

she covers her mouth with her hand to sort of “hide” out of embarrassment

she even took off her mask and dressed up all cute for you!! :(

luckily! She brought you a gift !

you ended up really liking it and you hugged her for it, which made her feel a bit better

you ask to return the favor by buying her something too

she insists you don’t have to but you end up doing it anyway

you wrap your arm around each other’s waist while you walk which was pretty romantic :)

you kiss her atop her forehead before separating to head home

(if your not in the PM or can’t physically hand yourself—she probably follows you home from a distance, BUT NOT IN A CREEPY WAY. In a ‘she wants to know your home safe’ loving way)

she squeals when she gets home and tells ryuunosuke about the highs and lows of your date 💗

yes as I said pretty short but these were mostly a trial run for fun :)

again this is just me branching out and expirmenting ;P hopes to you enjoyed!!

[spacelazarwolf]

I feel like everyone who wants to send you anon hate should be forced to answer reading comprehension questions on your posts like the fucking regents exams ffs. Also truly wild how many white middle class women think they need to be constantly vigilant against every stranger. Like don't get me wrong bad things can and do happen to white middle class women, and that's awful. But it is highly unlikely that the black guy who happens to be walking the same way as you or the guy at the bus stop who's talking to himself are going to hurt you.

I have a friend who won't give money to homeless people because "you just never know." She's afraid if she gets anywhere near an unhoused man he might hurt her. I've given money to homeless guys, and I've apologized if they asked and I didn't have any cash, and I've parked under an overpass I knew was frequented by unhoused people and sought someone out to give a hot meal and a few bucks to. I'm 5'4, white and look like a woman (im nonbinary), and I've never been hurt or threatened or even made to feel unsafe by an unhoused person. I'm not making a statement about how virtuous I am, or whether people should give money to unhoused people, but I'm like, very weak and physically unimposing. If someone wanted to hurt me they probably could.

In broad daylight, in a well-trafficked area, I am probably a greater threat to them than they are to me. And sometimes my first reaction to seeing someone doing something a little off is panic, but then I remind myself I have an anxiety disorder and my first reaction to a lot of things is panic. I'm not gonna call the cops on them, bc that will help no one and make pretty much everyone less safe. Sorry this is so long, this topic is very frustrating to me as someone who is trying to unlearn that mindset. Some people just need to take the bus for a few weeks and realize that people are mostly just trying to live their lives

Anyway I hope you're doing well and that the current wave of trolls and anons get over themselves soon.

^^^

[mtchacrvle]

-🌹𝖯𝗅𝖾𝖺𝗌𝖾 𝗉𝖺𝗒 𝖺𝗍𝗍𝖾𝗇𝗍𝗂𝗈𝗇 𝗍𝗈 𝗆𝖾.

𝖸𝖺𝗇! Clingy prince X F Knight Reader.

⚠️TRIGGER WARNING⚠️: mention of stalking, obsession, mention of killing, mention of self harming, yan! Is a big big pervert. (Lots of grammar mistakes. English are not my first language I apologize if it's hard to understand)

Summary: You worked for the royal family. You serve the king. you always loyal to him as he helped your family years ago. You grew up poor with no parents by your side and you have to work to support your 2 younger sibling. The king saw that you have a potential in fighting so he bring you to the castle to try out. Since that you have been devoted to him, you see him as your savior. Bc of him you have no problem with money anymore. Your younger sibling get to live a very comfortable life. But without you realizing something or should I say someone have been keeping they'r eyes on you since day one. And they r holding themselves back from you.

......🌹.......🌹.......🌹.......🌹........

-🌹Yan! prince who felt disgusted bc his father brings you in. He don't understand why his father choose a girl instead of guys??. He felt disgusted bc your "poor" and you don't deserve to be in the castle. He felt disgusted everytime you smile or bow at him.

-🌹Yan! Prince who felt raging mad when his father announced that HE'LL be under YOUR care.?? how can someone lowly as you be taking care of him??. He's father must want to get rid of him bad. The king got mad at him saying no one was willing to be by my side bc of my temper. Well I suppose it's true. But can you blame me? I'm the prince I'm about to be the next king. I can't be seen nor be close to some lowly servant. God what would happen to my image. No princess wants to marry me.

-🌹Yan! Prince who kept on throwing tantrums like a 5 year old and pisses you off anytime he could so that you'll just give up and resign. 1 month, 2 month, 3 month, nothing. It's been almost 5 months and you're still standing. God what r you? Don't you have feelings? He felt pissed bc you aren't bothers by him. You r the first person that still here. Most servants or knights would leave within 2 day 3 if lucky but you. You last for 5 months.He knew that you won't budge so he has to turn his game a little.

-🌹Yan! Prince who started to hurt himself physically so that you would get in trouble. He hires someone ( more like threatening one of the servants ) to jump on him acting like a hitman to kill him while he's on a walk at the garden. Of course his plan is simple. You are basically attached to him like a dog wherever he goes you go. While he was walking in the royal garden he "suddenly" felt thirsty and ordered you to go and get him some water from the kitchen. You were bout to call for a servant but he stops you and tells you that he wants YOU to take it. You decline saying you have to be by his side at all times. He knew that you'll say that that's why he started to lie and that he doesn't really trust the servants and maids. He's scared that they'll put something in his water. You are considering his words and gave in. You're sure that he'll be fine. It's only a one minute walk anyways. So you left.

-🌹Yan! Prince who laughs at your stupidity and starts his plan. He told the servant to get behind him and put the fake knife on his throat. It was so perfect he knew this will bring you out for good. He then started to scream loudly and you and the other servant Including the king butler ran to where he is and saw that he is bout to get "kill". He saw your terrified face when you saw and he chuckled a little. He then whispered to the servant to push him to the ground and ran. But.....he felt that the servant didn't budge. In fact he tightened his grip and pushed the knife deeper into his throat. That's when he realized that was not a fake knife...that's the real one. At that moment he actually started to tear up from fear and actually for the first time in his life that he felt bad for what he had done. The servant whispered onto his ear saying something that made his eyes widen. "You are the reason why my fiance leaves me ..." The servant said while holding his cries . The servant then suddenly yells and claims that bc of the shit you pulled while he was serving you the king punished him so badly that his parents disowned him and his fiance left him. He closed his eyes in fear. No this can't be the end. When he started to pray for his life he suddenly felt the wind hitting his back. He no longer felt wet disgusting tears falling on his ear he didn't feel a sharp knife being held in his throat. When he opened his eyes. He saw that you knocked the servant down by hitting his head. he felt relieved.

-🌹Yan! Prince who was traumatized by the incident he sat in his room afterwards. He overheard from the servants that you were getting punished for your mistake leaving him alone. He doesn't know why but his chest tightened. He felt weird. He's supposed to feel happy that finally after months of trying to get rid of you he finally did it. Not just that he even got you punished. He was supposed to feel thrilled but somehow he didn't...the servant says that you got whipped at the back 100 times. But the king didn't throw you. Bc the king felt like it wasn't entirely your fault and based on your fighting skills it was a shame if he get rid of you just like that. So the king assigned you to be by his side. Plus the king knew that this is all his son game. But whatever it is it is still your fault bc you disobey the rules.

-🌹Yan! Prince who actually felt bad for something that he pulled for the first time. He heard the rumor saying you were by the king side now. But he's craving for your presence. His father assigned a new knight by his side and he didn't see you until 3 days later he finally got to see you again. While he was laying down on the bed he suddenly heard the knock. His knight came in and kneel besides him saying someone is here to meet him. Considering his tone it doesn't look like it's any of his family members. If it's his family members they would just come in without knocking. He taught for a moment and nodded signaling to let the person in.

-🌹Yan! Prince who was shocked to see your face after so long. He didn't know why but seeing your face made his heart beat faster. he knew he didn't see you for only 3 days but somehow it felt like it's been years. He felt warm when he saw you but quickly snapped when he heard your voice. You kneel in front of him considering he absolutely hates it when you are beside him. " My prince how r you feeling?. ". God has your voice sound so angelic before? Maybe it's always been angelic but he's the one that didn't notice that. He felt even more warmer when you asked how he was feeling. Really? How can you still ask and care for him after what he did to you. Without him realizing he was staring at you. You clear your throat and continue " Im not expecting you to acknowledge me I want to apologize for what happened. I wasn't supposed to leave you that day and it's my fault. I deserve every hit every punishment that was given. I just want to say thank you for letting me stay and serve you my prince. I know you don't care but I just want to say that I'm not mad nor felt hatred for you. " You inhaled and got up to bow to him. " And I think you are aware that I'm no longer serving you bc of what happened. I'm now serving The King. Thank you for letting me serve you my prince. ". After giving one last bow you left.

-🌹Yan! Prince who felt like his world is falling apart. No why...oh how he wished he appreciates your presence more when you were by his side. After he woke up from his sleep he went to take a walk at the garden and while he was walking he arrived at the fountain. He saw The King and you by the King side. He saw that there's a carriage that looks like a noble carriage. Then he remembers today is meeting day. Which he has to attend since he will make his debut as the king in a few months.

-🌹Yan! Prince who went into the meeting room with his new knight which he didn't even remember his name. And when he arrives the first thing he sees is you standing behind The King chair. Oh how your beauty stops him. He actually stopped walking your beauty just made his heart beat so damn fast that he was sure that the King could hear it. " Are you ready son. " The King spoke caught his attention. He nodded and went to sit near The King.

-🌹Yan! Prince who didn't even focus on meeting instead he's focusing on you. Oh how you look so pretty with your hair up. How he wondered if he would ever see your hair down. He had these thoughts on you when someone calling out his name. God it is his Father. " Are you alright my son? You look tired." . Oh no I'm completely fine don't worry bout me. Please continue.

-🌹Yan! Prince who won't stop looking at you even after the meeting ended. He doesn't know why but when you open the door for his father he feels jealous. That was supposed to be him. You were supposed to open the door for him not for his father. He quickly snapped out of his thoughts when you look at his way and bow at him while giving him a small smile.

-🌹Yan! Prince who never felt love or any feeling toward anybody suddenly started to masturbate while imagining it was your hand . He feels hot. All of his body felt hot oh how he wished you were on top of him kissing him while stroking his cock. Kissing his ear softly and whispering how much you love him, how much you crave for his touch. He cum so much that night. He didn't stop after one round. Oh no he didn't he kept on until he knew he had no cum left. And that's the day he was sure that he loved you.

-🌹Yan! Prince who has two sides one side is he always fantasize your wedding day on his mind every.single.day. that brings him so much joy. Another side of him is when he sees other nobles, knights, servants,maids get too close to you. No matter what gender, even the same gander as you. How he just wants to kill them the most gore way possible. Plug their eyes out so that they can't see your beauty any more. Cut off the hand that pats your shoulder or your back.

-🌹Yan! Prince who has a book that is twice the size of a dictionary. Everything and I mean everything. 2-3 stan of your hair, Your fave handkerchief, your fave food, drink,pet etc. The King actually knew bout his obsession and confronted him that day. He was bout to kill The King but the King knew bout it a long time ago. And he made an agreement. The King will let you by his side again but in one condition. He has to take The King place after his younger brother's party. Ofc mf says yes. He can have you back AND got to rule the kingdom a few months earlier.

-🌹Yan! Prince who became so touchy after you were by his side again. He kept touching your hand, playing with your hair. He would randomly run to you and hug you. His hug is tight so tight that it makes you feel like he's scared that you would fly away if he loosened it. And you were so sure most of the time you could feel he sniff your hair.

-🌹Yan! Prince who day by day becomes more and more bold. He would go to your room and steal your clothes. He would put his shirt under his pillow everyday and he would get mad if any servants or maid came to clean his bed. ( He doesn't want to get caught ). And that's the good thing lol he would make his own bed. Before he went to sleep he would hug and sniff the shirt and cuddle it as it was you. He would smell your underwear to masturbate. Different clothing different uses.

-🌹Yan! Prince who would win over you by changing his personality. Less rude, less stubborn. He even being nice to the servants but ofc it's all just an act. But with you? All the kindness, the affection is real. And he can't wait for him to be The King then you'll be by his side Forever.

Part 2 ? I take recommendations if you'll like ;D

[ideasarestuckinmyhead]

Oooooooo do you have any more headcanons for the Yandere! Listeners? That trope is so underrated😭

Yandere Listeners HC:

OH HO YES PLEASE!

Sugarboo:

At first they were obsessed with Alphonse but when Seth came in they almost killed him. But then they though of how sad Al would be and decided fuck it I'll be nice.

But then everything happened and Sugarboo got attached platonically. Can be turned Romantic if yall want bc why not?

This Sugarboo dosen't really like Jessie all that much and shows it. Like your one of the persons who hurt their romantic/platonic obsession how fucking dare you?

They also when Al gave Seth and them the talk before leaving gave them a serious stare and said "Alphonse, Seth, if it came to it I'll kill for you. I love you both and want both of you safe."

I think this tipped off Seth and Alphosne that you might be a yandere a but bc they would do the same for you.

When they did go with Derek in his car it took everything in them not to kill him right there. But once they did go back to where he took them they didn't just shoot him. They kept shooting, broke a glass and stabbed him some more since this pathetic pig caused so much hurt to their lover/s.

Casper:

They got lowkey obsessed with him in middle school but didn't realize till highschool. They tried giving lots of hints that they liked him but he didn't get it. Let's not even talk about the note.

Casper is more a lowkey yandere where they know Charlie would come to them eventually and if not they'd act.

Meeting an obsession young isn't fully helpful bc you would want to find them no matter what.

But when they had to move this fuled Casepr to make enough money to make Charlie and them live happily. That's why they know how to use a switch blade. They took on lots of different jobs, even assassination.

When Charlie said I did like you. It made Casper almost take him right there. Charlie most likely has a feeling but shrugs it off bc "My Casper? Naw." But Casper is behind him hiding a body that decided to fuck with him during his shift.

Star:

Starts of platonic bc they only just met him. They want to protect him from others to show him off bc he is a nice person. But they know he won't leave them for someone.

They also have special privileges since he considers them a friend right now. Like shopping, I feel like Star would be the one who would gift Faust many things to keep him with them. Like meaningful ones.

They don't talk about the stalker a lot bc they killed them. But the court ruled it as self defense bc the stalker had a weapon.

They have used their status as a big streamer to their advantage if someone got to ballsy with insulting Faust when he's trying to be nice to everyone...you don't even deserve his attention negative or not you fucking-

Sorry that this one dosen't have a lot the story isn't fully developed yet-

Rook:

Auron obviously knows. He likes it and is semi a yandere himself with how he told them he won't give up on them if they stayed.

Rook fell when they first saw him. So when he told them over that dinner date their obsession grew, at the first one they have they were trying to get more information without seeming obsessive since he's observant as well.

Rook has intimidated some people at the work place when they say they liked Auron or seem like getting too close.

They can be manipulative with their silver tongue, so it usually is them planting a thought that Auron would never look at them or Rook showing off how Much Auron tolerates them since he's never like that with anybody.

Trish does tell them a bit of things he likes (she definitely knows about their obsession) I feel like since Auron said something. About her intuition that she just knows they're a perfect match.

Angel:

Lucien know off the bat that Angel was a bit fucked in the had I Mena why keep a demon in your house? But he's chill with it.

Angel is a chill Yandere anyways I mean no one can know of Lucien. Sure Angel wants to brag but they won't ever let someone lay eyes on him.

I hc if Lucien ever needed to eat human flesh they would lure creeps and pesos to their apartment so that Lucien can feast. He's put up a sound barrier too so that the neighbors don't get suspicious.

Angel mostly keeps to themselves when outside of the apartment so no one thinks anything is going on with them.

And that's mostly what I think the boys would react with the listener being yandere and some hc sprinkled in.

[misc-obeyme]

CC I'M SO EXCITED, I FINALLY GOT ENOUGH CONFIDENCE TO COMMISSION THINGS FROM PEOPLE (it's like three different people AJDJWJF)

but the prices are good, two of the people needed it for emergency money so it was a good push to bite the bullet and message them. I'm so happy, I'm gonna have art of me and Mammon (and one is gonna be a sketch page of me, mammon, and a friend who also likes obey me). Also i lost my drawing streak, but I just drew a bunch of random poses today for fun, so it makes up lmaoo.

anyway I am here to ramble about the job my mc/I would have in the Devildom! definitely got roped into working at the bunny cafe for one (1) shift with Mammon (the daily chat is what gave me this idea).

Not sure how the cafe works, but in the anime, Beel is working the bar lolol. So I always imagined it as a bar with some food, and you could request certain servers by paying extra, and obviously give them carrots or tips. Like a mix between a maid cafe and a club I suppose is what I'm thinking?? (...Hooters? I've never been)

anyway I totally got coerced bullied into working a shift (I am always caving when it comes to Mammon </3). And my anxiety is terrible, I CANNOT talk to people (it's a wonder how I'm a manager), so I'd definitely stick to bussing tables and helping run super big orders with one of the guys. Maybe even have Beel teach me to make some drinks, because that seems really fun. Basically completely avoiding any kind of one on one service.

And I think there's been chats or devilgrams about mc gaining popularity and having a fan club, so imagine all these patrons requesting me, and the owner has to be like "unfortunately - no." And then someone is like, "I'll pay an extra $100 just to have her" and that's when the owner decides to ask if I'd be willing. Because it doesn't hurt to ask, right?

And I'm like, "Ha! I'd do it for $250", and like, I say it as a joke, but imagine Mammon overhears everything. He'd drag me to the table and say my price, and to everyone's surprise, the demon agrees to pay. Now everyone is like 👁️👁️ interesting.

and now I'm suddenly serving a random demon, and I'm nervous as hell (HA), and I'd honestly spill their drink or something on them. The bill comes, come to find they tipped way over 20%, and wrote a note about hoping to have me again. Now I've singlehandedly paid back a big chunk of Mammon's debt.

now THAT would change my mind real quick. I would do anything for money, I'm so easily convinced 💀 like imagine how much cash I could make in one shift. Anxiety who ??

It ends up becoming a part time gig, and I become the owner's favorite. I learn the bar for fun, and can be requested as a server for a big fee. I'd like to imagine Mammon works extra hard to earn the owner's favor and begs to work the same shifts as me (little does he know I request to work with him bc he makes me feel safe, especially if people get way too drunk)

I've literally brainstormed about this so much, and I've still got more ideas rattling in my brain, SORRY IT GOT SO LONG AAA

- ✨ anon

WOOO!! Congrats, ✨ anon! You are braver than I lol! I've been trying to work up the courage for months, but I keep talking myself out of it. Mostly because I want to commission art of my OCs and I feel absolutely ridiculous asking someone to please spend hours drawing this silly guy from my head lol. It's a me problem, I'll get over it one day. Anyway, I'm sure your commissions will turn out amazing! I hope you enjoy them!

OMG what but I love this idea!! Listen, I have the social anxiety, too (it's so bad wow), so I get it. But I looove that you've got things that help you work this job despite that! Mammon and Beel to count on when you need support and of course the motivation of just... making money!

And it's so sweet that you're making the money to help cover Mammon's debts. And I love that both of you are like... requesting to work together and the other person is unaware of it. That's adorable!

I'm always going to recommend writing your ideas down! It doesn't have to be story-style, sometimes just getting them out of your head in some form really makes a big difference! Especially if it's something you've never told anyone or written down before. Forcing yourself to articulate ideas in a way that would make sense to someone else (even if no one else ever sees it) really helps to make ideas more solid. Then you can expound on them even more! It's a never ending cycle for me lol.

Anyway, I love all of this, I think it's fantastic.

For my part, I'd absolutely be bunny-ing it up at the bar with Beel. I like the idea of him making Devildom drinks and MC making human world ones. The demons that are willing to pay top dollar for MC to wait on them are also willing to pay top dollar for MC's authentic human world drinks! Now you're really rolling in the Grimm!

[maestro-of-clockwork]

[[ dhmis tv show teacher ideas ]]

[[ so over time, i've gotten ideas for the dhmis tv show teachers and so while i'm still trying to mentally flesh them out, i figure i should jot the ideas down to hold you guys over til i have something concrete!

i'll have em under this cut so it doesn't take up too much space:

briefcase guy

i'm thinking he'd be the cut-throat businessman type, the kind who absolutely does not care who he has to hurt, betray or manipulate to further his career. he wouldn't hesitate to scam people if he had to, so long as he fulfills his sales quota and gets his way. it'd also be plausible if he was greedy in that way and cut corners to keep as much money as possible. also, no matter how much brendon will ask him for connections to publishers or at least a little exposure for his novel, he flat out does not care and thinks writing or creating art isn't a "real job". he has no name yet, but if you guys have any suggestions, feel free to say, though i'd like it to start with a "b"

mortimer (coffin guy)

now i know i said in the past that it'd be interesting that he could be the embodiment of death, but i think it'd would make more sense in the logic of the show i've established that he was also created by lesley & roy. another thing about that detail would be that there would be a reason that he's under their thumb like the rest of the cast is. as for his personality, it's different from the actual show, similar to how the web series teachers were different people behind the scenes. he's serious and deadpan most of the time, and someone who likes a bit of dry humor and sarcasm. he's still a mortician, but as i'm writing this, i'm thinking i should add the little twist of him practicing some of his skills on the trio. nothing is personal about it, of course. to him, he's just trying to get better at his job. that, and he never does anything that would outright kill them: he cuts them open and looks at their organs in a mock autopsy, but makes sure they don't lose too much blood and makes sure that every organ is back in its proper place.

lily & todney

lily and todney are just as strange as they are in the show (besides the messing themselves part bc let's be real, i don't feel comfortable writing that even though it's played for laughs). they're really uncanny, similar to antonio, except it's much more obvious. they have little self-awareness and act kind of like a hivemind in some way. i feel like they'd be like those twins in that one scene in the shining, staring people down sometimes until asked what they want before finally speaking. like not speaking unless spoken to, but only when they're not teaching about family at that moment...then they don't shut up speaking of their family, they barely have any sentience and are basically barely-living props but the twins adore them anyway and somehow have a kind of telepathy with them like they do each other. the twins and their family are mostly reclusive and stick to themselves, like how they describe a family. they're co-dependent on each other and don't realize it because they haven't been "programmed" to. going on the programming bit, it's a deliberate decision on roy's part that their mother isn't there. it's to create that conflict and feeling of emptiness it gives them to want to fill that void by trying to make doi their pretend-mom. they know he's not really their mom, but to them, a pretend-mom is better than no mom because "a family isn't complete without one".

warren the "eagle"

warren is first one i got to having ideas about. his insecurity, loneliness and desperation for attention and to be liked is what really drives him to do what he does. like in his episode, he's clingy and ignorant of other people's feelings in favor of his own because all he knows is what he wants and how much he wants it. he has some level of awareness but he craves a real connection so badly that he's toxic in how he goes about it. he wants to impress people with things like his podcast and his "business sense" to the point where there's no room for other's wants or needs. the kicker is that he doesn't think any of this is what drives people away. whenever he loses a potential friend, he takes it very personally. to cope with how hurt he is over these lost connections, he convinces himself that he was just too good for them, as implied in his presentation. he has no self-worth, so he builds these lies and pretends he's a confident and accomplished person when he really isn't. as you might expect, antonio's already got plans for him. after all, insecure people frequently catch his interest

choo choo man (i forgot the name i had for him)

this poor man is a fossil. he's very forgetful and doesn't really know what he's doing half the time, basically like the stereotype of an old grandpa you see in movies. even antonio would make jokes about how old he is, as ironic as that is. he's not a nice person even to older people when he's not taking naps, you can find him listening to old timey-music or rambling a bit about his pre-programmed memories as a train conductor and how life was back then. although his thoughts get jumbled up sometimes, you can still get an idea of what he's trying to say. i feel like he'd have really good life advice if you read between the lines of what he's saying, and would generally be an easy-going person

electracey

first off, i imagine they're very passionate about music and playing the guitar! they'd probably be the type of person who feels like music is a part of who they are, and that's how they express themself. i feel like you could ask them to play any song that famously uses a guitar and they'd absolutely be SHREDDING that guitar with almost supernatural skill. mostly it's due to their passion, but i think their being an android would help with that as well i also feel like they'd be an outgoing and upbeat person whose positive energy is infectious, and if the trio wasn't desensitized, i think they'd actually look forward to their lessons. speaking of, i also think they'd really take an interest in electricity, how it works, how it came to be, what you can do with it, etc.. they'd think it's super awesome that it brings people all these possibilities and especially what it's done to advance technology when it comes to music

aaand that's all the ideas i have for now! hope you guys like these concepts because i know i like em so far! ]]

[whenthechickencry]

Umineko EP4. Replay Part 4

This must have hurt Maria a lot even if Ange didn't mean anything bad by it... kids are really cruel to things they can't understand often.

I am pretty sure cage made of flesh is explicit wording used by Beatrice before too!

This is Ange at her most raw so far, she doesn't want to live. She doesn't want to keep going. She has no one on her side,,,,

And now we go back to Maria having her own breakdown over Ange's word to remind us that Maria truly is miserable. Having a 9? 8 at this point maybe? year old describe living as holding out is so heartbreaking....

It is interesting to see the contrast in how Maria and Ange do with magic when they are faced with a bad situation - Ange starts denying it entirely and Maria instead leans harder into it ie believing the Good and the Bad Mama thing. I don't think there's a right or wrong answer as to which is better, though, both are harmful to both in certain ways.

Maria brings up how NOT LONELY she is so you know she really ISN'T LONELY did you know Maria is NOT LONELY.

Maria is fucked up but then when the police WAS contacted. It just caused Maria's situation to escalate... obviously, I am not saying the good thing to do was ignore this obviously neglected child. Still, sadly that's the fucked up reality of how it is in real life for a lot of children who finally have their abuse reported.

Tearing up again.... this episode certainly takes the cake in that regard....

And yet, no one really helped Maria.... I don't know exactly the situation with abused children in Japan but I always imagined Rosa used her connections and money in order to keep Maria with her.

If you think about how Maria is very likely autistic, this is all the more horrifying, not that it would be good either way, but having someone be punished and be considered their way of being just for the way they were born is just too harsh.

The smile with which she says this is so fucking horrifying.

Beatrice is under the belief that Rosa made the toy, too.... it's funny, if she knew she could probably get it replaced for her....

Even at her lowest, she is still trying to not hurt the Rosa in her brain, haha....

You can judge Sayo for teaching Maria 'bad coping mechanism' and while, yes, it's probably not ideal for a child to have such thoughts, all her positive coping mechanisms were removed forcefully from her, so what option did Maria really have....

She does end up rethreading to that "naive belief" once the harsh truth of her parents murder is presented to her and she wants an alternate truth....

Yeah like getting dunked by a group of ~10 year olds anyways what Amakusa is saying is extremely important and true otherwise, and Ange really wants to be at that point where she can be happy with/satisfy herself, even with all her faults and trauma.

Ange's coming to important realizations about magic and how she has hurt others, something Battler will realize soon enough too... though I think her general view is not really correct, it's not that Maria was truly self-actualized in her life, it's that she constantly lied to herself about being like that. But she needed someone to understand and help her as she is not someone that would try to change her or remove her coping mechanisms bc they are strange.

Some people feel that Ange is too self-actualized for her to go back as she did in ep8, but like, I don't agree. First of all the temptation to deny her parents the murderers is strong and second even here she is still trying to find ways for her to be the fault for an incident that happened when she was 6. She still desperately wishes for control for her life and is still probably considering killing herself on Rokkenjima.

This is, ironically after talks about hating Beatrice, the sort of understanding Sayo always wished for. For someone to not only be able to respect her and her interests but also understand the deeper pain that lead to it.

"And while still unfulfilled, she met with death," Sadly describes most of the Umineko cast and that's always hard for me to think about for me...

B-battler? Okay, I gues... I am not sure George will appreciate that statement but I am sure Shannon appreciates the hint that maybe you didn't forget her after all (crushed hope on the end of this chapter)

Eeugh, I mean, Jessica didn't mean anything by it but it's kind of a cruel thing to say with full context....

Oh, I forgot about this, I guess Sayo just did her Krauss act in front of Maria...

Was it Sayo? They did solve it on like 30 mins when they really tried.... Also the hammy and crazy version of Kinzo is kind of entertaining lol.

The irony of all of this coming out of Nanjo's mouth when he's currently being both bribed to hide the death of his Dear Friend and being bribed to assist in a murder is funny.

Damn uh, yeah uh, yeah sure.

Rosa can't even be assed to prop Maria up in any way haha.....

Maybe I am biased but I think this is 100% more Sayo's view than anything Kinzo ever remotely thought, the "hoping for a magical miracle" combined with the test that are done later being about love....

Aka DO NOT DISMISS EVERYTHING VIRGILIA SAID PLEASE

This is so fucking funny to me? Uwaaaaaaah.

Immediately setting up both Beato and Gaaps' relationship and Beatrice's relationship with Beato, damn!

[maybanksbabe]

Do you think rafe actually knows what he was doing (seasons 1-2 and maybe like parts of 3 but that's pushing it) I mean like does he know that what he's doing is like actually happening and the people he's hurting are actually real people and not just like dark fantasies in his head

I remember rose saying something about how rafe's problems started when he was younger (or at least that's when she finally noticed) and a privileged kid seeing typical action movies and shows could have influenced rafe in his day to day life now but by doing these things that he deems ok because of this artificial view on the world, is actually what makes him practically all alone now, he isn't a dumb kid that makes dumb choices, no he's a man now that's caught up in his own head telling himself that he's always been alone and how it's always going to be that way while he's pushing everyone away (y'know how some characters start dealing drugs because they have no other way of getting money it's either that or they steal, or how some if not all of the characters in action movies are always handling big guns or how the hero starts doing crazy things in order to 'protect' your family, we see him do all of these things like killing sheriff peterkin bc he thought that he was protecting ward, he doesn't know how to work a normal job because he's a kook why would he need to learn all of that crap? He's a Cameron for that matter, he's the fuckin kook prince, his life should be all about sex money drugs/alcohol and because of that when he wants something that he knows ward wouldn't approve of he starts doing what he's seen other people do but the only people he actually kinda respects that don't have to ask their parents for money are the people on tv and what do they do? They steal and sell drugs so what does rafe do when he's in a situation where he doesn't have or think he'll get something that he sees as his to take? He sells the drugs that he gets from Barry and he steals the cross from the pogues without learning what the cross actually means to pope and the other pogues, the cross means a BIG ASS DEAL TO POPE and he doesn't bother to look further into it, why? Because Pope's a pogue and rafe's a kook, rafe was practically raised to think he deserves everything in his life without working for it, he does all these things that you would expect from an action hero would do in a movie or book but he fails to realize why those people did it and their fucked up reasonings for it and I think that's is what's happening with the whole cross situation... I mean think of it, imagine seeing in theaters about a boy that's lost everything, his father can't be with him because of his own stupid actions that only happened because he needed to protect his father because his dear old dad was really just trying to better his family and there's nothing wrong with that huh 🥺, his father is gone and it's his fault but at least his dad is still alive and that's enough for the boy, it's good enough for him to know that he's still out there because the boy needs his father even if he can never fully reach him after all that's exactly what their relationship has been doing his whole life isn't it?, but shit's hit the fan and now he has to 'save' what little family he has left in anyway he can, and how does he do that? By stealing something very valuable and restore greatness to his family no matter how badly their relationship is, in fact it seems as though that the boy turned hero in his eyes is actually offended that his sister doesn't understand why he's doing it so why should she even have it, in fact at this point the sister has already declared herself as not apart of the family even if the sister loves them, she's not family anymore so why does it matter that she almost died because of the hero's actions? I mean the hero actually already killed someone now and it was for the family and she's made it clear that she doesn't want to be his family anymore so why should he care? It's not like they liked each other from the start anyways

But we do see glimpses of him grounding himself in reality from time to time, y'know like how he asked for help because he's actually not fine and he's not entirely sure why he's done what he's done other than the fact that he thought he was protecting his family, or when he was pointing the gun at Sarah's head and was about to shoot like how he dead with peterkin but that's still the same girl he grew up with but it's still the girl that doesn't view him as family anymore it's like he's fighting this little darker side of him but not completely I mean she's still alive but the anger is there... The anger with always be there, it runs through his veins and what keeps him going ( his hatred for the pogues, his weird obsession with getting revenge, his violent ways of trying to get his father's love and is sadden by the fact that his dad doesn't appreciate his ruthlessness and anger not knowing that his father sees himself in rafe whenever he does those things and it terrifies him, sure ward loved rafe but he's terrified because ward also killed in order to 'help' the family he's also done some pretty fucked up things for his family and still loves Sarah, and I'm sure that rafe does love Sarah to some extent why else would he not shoot her on purpose when the pogues escape him and his dad? Wards sees this and tries to place all this blame onto this young man that is obviously hurting and hurts other people in order to cope with it, ward grew up poor and thinks because of that in some way that he deserves to steal and cheat too, and somehow treating rafe in the same way that he(ward) needs to be humbled definitely does seem like they might suffer from the same thing (whatever that may be) and in a way rafe must have picked up this behavior from ward. Ward feels this sense of entitlement because he's had a rocky start and now rafe has been raised with that same feeling of entitlement without going through what ward did pisses him off)

But both ward and rafe know what they're doing but don't know the full extent of what the consequences of their actions might actually have, do you think that rafe actually knew of the significance of the cross to the pogues and most importantly pope? No all he saw was a chance to finish what his dad started (which by the way is actually what ward did so I guess in a way that's another thing that ward fears, rafe following in his footsteps that only lead to death and destruction, death for those around them and destruction to their family) do you think ward knew how important it was for Sarah to help the pogues and finally be like them? No, all he saw was his smart little girl leading him to the gold for their family to have, not the girl so ashamed of her family that she might just feel her pulse sometimes and think about how the blood in her veins are half of her terrible dad's being and how she has to catch herself before going completely off the rails in fear of being like her brother, she's afraid of who she is and even gets sad when she's reminded by other about who she's related to and where she came from.

I think rafe really hates pope because some part of him knows that Sarah and him are more alike than most would think, y'know because pope is a pogue that doesn't really act like it I mean he's cautious of the situations that the pogues normally find themselves in and it's not just about going to jail like it is with JJ it's about how he actually wants to change from being a pogue to a kook, he doesn't want to have to work his ass off in order to go to a nice school, he doesn't want to be pogue anymore. And with Sarah it's about how can she do more to help (the first time we see her she's trying to help those little animals because they can't do it for themselves, which by the way I think is so sweet but it I'm wrong please ignore this, I swear I need to rewatch this fuckin show but these thoughts are invading my mind) and how can she escape the little bubble that her father built for her, she doesn't want to be a kook anymore, she doesn't understand the full experience of being a pogue (y'know when she was homeless, it was a really rough time for her I mean I would be for anyone but I feel like for Sarah it was especially hard considering where she came from and how she was used to being treated, and the only way she could get alcohol was by stealing it and how finding cleo was really eye opening for her seriously I love Cleo and how she's so important for Sarah and her arc ☺️) and how pope doesn't know what being a kook actually means (it's usually just dealing drugs and their parents questionable money but also emotionally unavailable parents no matter how hard they try *coughs* ward *coughing continues* and how people constantly undermine you because you simply come from money and expects nothing but disrespect and arrogance from you even if you're the sweetest person ever.

Rafe hates how pope and JJ are together because the guilt from everything that he's done to Sarah and how much he wishes that he can go back to when they were like that (I headcannon that rafe and Sarah used to be close when they were younger, I mean the way Sarah just looked at rafe when she boarded the jet instead of trying to kill him like how he tried to do her, I feel like that's just her being better than him or if it was that little part of her that still wishes that her brother goes back to the way he used to treat her even though she knows that it can't ever be a possibility ever again ☹️) and seeing that their seemingly opposites are doing so good together and now stealing her away from him and his family kinda sets him off (remember how rafe was really going at it when him, topper, and Kelce were ganging up on jj and pope? Yeah that might have guilt turned into anger because just seeing them makes him mad, is it because they are pogues? Maybe, could it be possible for him to lose his shit because they are everything that he can't ever be? Like how pope has a loving and supportive dad and mom and how jj has someone that's like a sibling to him always be by his side no matter how crazy his ideas might get? Yeah I suppose that could be it 🤷🏽‍♀️) but then theirs some more level of rage because even the thought of rage being jealous of a couple of pogues just sounds absurd doesn't it? Honestly to rafe it might even be shameful

It isn't until the next season and the third season that actually makes it clear to rafe that he isn't as good as a guy that he makes himself out to be, like he knows everything that he's done is bad now and how it's actually affected people... But it's already too late, he can't stop now, no no, not after everything that he's done, he can't stop and it makes him feel bad even moreso once he finally knows that ward is officially dead this time and how rafe's actually going to jail now

Anyways I don't know what I'm talking about please feel free to ignore this and remember to cherish your friends and loved ones ❤️ (sorry I'm not good at this whole 'writing' thing and I'm not even sure if any of this makes sense, sorry lovelies)

first of all you don't have to apologise this is such an amazing analysis of his character and I have to admit I'd never thought about it before in the way that you worded it.

More thoughts below the cut but TL;DR - I agree with everything you've said anon <3

I think in Season 1 specifically, he was desperately trying to seek Ward's approval and affection/praise because it's as important to him as breathing. He NEEDS his father's approval and he'll do whatever he can to get it, even if it means terrorizing a group of pogues for the gold. His whole life up to that point has been Ward and Rose just throwing money his way to keep him happy and out of trouble, he hasn't had to earn or work for anything until the gold came into play. S1 Rafe is a broken and neglected character whose sense of self has definitely been warped by Ward and Rose's neglect, turning their attentions instead towards Wheezie and Sarah. And exactly like you said, he's been known to have issues in the past, at a much younger age, and whilst we don't know specifically what those issues are, I can't imagine it would take much figuring out, based on his behaviour in S1.

His relationship with Sarah, at the beginning at least (as an older sibling myself) is strained at best but it doesn't really span beyond that until he finds out that she's involved with John B/the Pogues, and his perception of what she "deserves" does drastically change, in his eyes, Sarah is now also a credible threat to the family because she witnessed him shooting Peterkin to save Ward. She's a loose end and it no longer matters that they're related, she's an obstacle. I think if it had been followed more closely in the show, it would've been nice to see Rafe come to terms with all the harm he's done and the way he's completely ruined his relationship with Sarah, after shooting her (albeit I believe that he wasn't necessarily shooting to kill) and basically waterboarding her, there's no coming back from that, at least not easily, yk?

I definitely feel like the way he matured from S2 to 3 was a nice change of pace but also, could've been looked at a little more? I get they had a lot to fit into the season, but even just him talking a bit more about the work he's put into becoming a better person? When he's stuck at Singh's with Kie? That would've been nice IMO. If they'd stopped at S2 I would've said he needed serious professional help and medication etc etc but the "growth" we see in S3 makes me think that he finally had some kind of eye-opening moment that really made him look at how he had behaved, his lifestyle choices and decide to get help on his own terms, rather than being forcibly sectioned

[cometcrystal]

Theres this one customer i hate more than anyone else that comes in here.

He constantly skirts policy and sends his fucking secretary to cash large checks for him and get cashiers checks. And every time i try and get that cunts id she FIGHTS ME ON IT and it makes me so fucking mad it makes me SO mad. Ive posted about her before though. But we can't really enforce policy with him bc he has a lot of money and we dont want him to close his accounts. Kms

He also told my coworker a LOT of unneeded information about how all his girlfriends have been like 19 years old and he gave one of them an STD and was giving her money 20 years later after finally tracking her down because he felt bad. This poor woman has probably just tried to live her life AWAY FROM YOU and you think you can fix your fuckups with money?? I hate you.

Also he always calls me Gorgeous and i hate it. Hes dying from diabetes or something and i hope it hurts.

Anyway todays event was he asked why were closed on wednesday and we said it was for juneteenth and he laughed really loud and went THAT'S RIDICULOUS. And my coworkers laughed.

And part of why im in such a bad mood now is because he gave me ANOTHER reason to hate him but ALSO im gonna have to deal with mfs being racist about juneteenth next week and its so bleak!!! Its so dire!!!

Like my coworkers who are here today dont even seem to agree with me on the juneteenth thing. Like i thought that, even if someone is conservative, they would agree with me that Slavery Was Bad and emancipation was good, and a holiday celebrating the anniversary seems logical. like i would assume Most people would agree with me bc thats bare basics. But i guess not lol!!!!!!!!!!

And they were telling me not to let the customer bother me. Dont let him get to me. And thats not how it fucking works!!!!!! Not at all!!!!! Just go outside and enjoy :) being hot is a mindset. Ignore the sun. Dont let the UV rays bother you queen. Happy people dont get sunburn. Thats what you sound like to me.

Anyway. Im in a bad mood.

[suenitos]

your love post about dream just reminded me of something he said during a space. i can’t remember the exact words but it was something along the lines of understanding where his antis are coming from when they hate him for whatever he says or does bc you’re a different person in the perspectives of other people. and i remember being stumped when he said that cause that’s such a mature mindset to have? i love how he tries to do good, and at the same time i feel like he knows when to accept when he can’t change people’s minds. i obvi can’t read his mind but that’s how i interpreted it. but it just sucks now cause it’s a whole different story when it’s someone as close to him as tommy being at the opposing side :( i think we all know how hurt he is based on his likes, but i really hope it works out for him in the end, whether he makes up with tommy or not. i just want him to be at peace

i don’t know how articulate i am with this cause english isn’t my first language and i hopeeee i don’t sound too parasocial? 😭

good morning anon. youre so good dw about it i dont think you sound too parasocial at all. your english is great :) this got way too long so putting it under a readmore

i keep thinking about his "the internet is cold" statement and the way he doesnt immediately attribute someone disliking him to something malicious. he just kinda understands a lot of the shit against him is unserious at the end of the day and laughs it off which is admirable and maybe a bit scary (TO ME). i talked on priv a while back about him always reaching out to other ccs after they talk shit about him to clear up miscommunication over an assumption about HIS character, values, etc which is really mature and a minor droloism of mine but whatever. what makes this different is that it's someone he considered a close friend and very public shade/misrepresentation over another situation involving a personal project where he got burned by another "friend" like... thats just pure betrayal. i'd be pissed too! i'd be sooo mad OMG i'd rain hell on people.

the grind and fame seduces like no other... unfortunately most people value outrage and a quick buck and laugh over sincerity nuance and longevity and well thats the case with most dream discussions/mentions on the internet :( i feel conflicted because on one hand cc friendships and partnerships etc are awesome and amazing but there comes a point where most of the time shit happens (clout, money, etc) and they end messily so while i am sad about it sometimes it is the way it goes and not even dream is immune from that as a cc (snf munchy exempted). like its very danplan/try guys fallout to me (not exact matches but you get what i mean) its happened before and it has and will continue to happen to dream.

still feel really sad about it though because it was a really beautiful friendship born out of mutual respect and passion for the craft. loving people is scary as fuck because you dont know if or when they're gonna turn on you but we still do it anyway. i dont think its overly parasocial to say you wish him peace no matter what; at the end of the day he IS another guy and its not wrong to wish good on people you dont know. i hope it works out too :( many virtual hugs anonnie sorry for these walls of text jfc

[what-thisiscrazzzy]

The death of critical thinking that I see in takes about the ATLA live action. I personally don’t care about it and I’m not going to hate on it but I need people to understand that yes you can like it but other people can also be upset.

I’m not going to tag OP as I didn’t want to start an arguement but as a lover of “bad” media, someone who grew up on CW adaptations of favourite characters and a professional nitpicker who finds joy in critical analysis of my favourite shows I can say that this take boils my blood (prefer for a rant that might not be coherent bc I’m ill) :

Shows don’t have to be perfect, they can be flawed but:

1) they should aim to be good - The difference here is that sad money grab adaptations like live action Avatar have the capability to aim for good and just don’t try. People are upset bc they believe (right or wrong) that the show has missed the point of ATLA. That it has major structural flaws (pacing, characters, themes, etc). These aren’t just little ‘oops didn’t get that perfect’ things these criticisms are pointing to there being an issue with the creative team’s intent, understanding and skill at adapting the series.

(The original creators of the animated series left for as far as I am aware undisclosed creative issues but I think we can see that at some point this project was capable of being what people wished for.)

The source material is well loved and while live action has its limits it has the blueprints to be a hit. It just missed.

A beloved show already exists, the live action failed bc it didn’t understand it- why did it change KEY POINTS such as character’s personality? People are upset about specific LARGE changes. Not little nitpicks.

2) Yes shows are entertainment but they are also art - they are meant to say something not just be a cheap laugh. The original had deep messaging. Every comedy, sitcom, drama whatever says something. The shows that last have something that touches the audience. Even cheesey romcoms make the audience care, even if it’s as simple as love.

Can we stop with these ‘maybe the curtain is just blue’ takes!

Dude I love supernatural, I can enjoy a show that has some big flaws. But the difference is that one is an original story with some fucked plot holes and the other is based on an established media that is viewed as almost perfect (the og isn’t perfect, nothing can be).

I don’t think you know what suspension of disbelief is. We suspend our disbelief to believe in bending and avatars and sky bison and penguin sledding. Not to excuse bad characterisation

This for me isn’t about the show. I don’t care but I think takes like this where it encourages you to abandon critical thinking are the worst thing about fandom.

Go and enjoy the show. I’m sure it is fun. Im sure you can find so many lovely new takes on characters. Im sure there’s stuff that builds on the original and makes it better.

But never tell people not to nitpick. Not to criticise. Not to question if the creators understood the text correctly.

I promise Netflix won’t be hurt if people say it’s not good enough and they’d rather just watch the original.

(I don’t know why everything needs a live action adaptation anyway)

[scourgefrontiers]

Just some general advice as I see your posts on occassion on my feed and your current breakdowns on your financials but my guy you should probably get a standard job along side your art.

I say this mostly in a place of I've been there done that sort of thing, I used art to support myself for years while also working a regular 9-5 and while eventually I discovered that doing art fulltime wasn't my thing I can't stress enough that not going forward and getting a regular job to support yourself and your wife when you know you are just barely making it (in your own words) is a borderline lazy thing to do.

Your financials are a major priorty and it shows a lack of character when you can't see that you need to make an effort in a different position. And as someone who also immensely struggles with mental illness also I can tell you that getting that regular 9-5 can help alot with your health. Like for one it can get you moving so minimal excersise is taken care of, possible better money flow and a break from the computer also helps with settling your thoughts. It can be stressful and exaughsting but having a concrete ground of what you're doing along side of art also may give you some piece of mind.

I implore you to just start looking for a regular job to take off some of the stress and it could defo help you loose weight to just from little things that you crowd out

Joint pain is avoided with excersise, breathing problems lifted with regular activity and a little stamina training

San antonio is a booming economic city there are a shit ton of jobs you can get and i know it can be overwhelming especially when mental illness can hold you back but in a loving sense you fr just need to pick yourself up by the bootstraps and get shit done or else you're always going to suffer man

i super appreciate this sentiment and im not going to get defensive like my initial reaction usually is to someone telling me to "get a real job" b/c i do see youre genuinely trying to help me out and give me advice so thank you

my problem honestly is that i dont see myself as fit to having a "job job" as i am right now. i feel like all im good at/able to do is art, and thats why i put all of my effort into that. basically i dont have enough confidence in my abilities outside of art :(

constant thoughts of "what if it makes me miserable? what if i do a horrible job b/c its not art?" and etc. yknow? i feel like i need to work on myself mentally a little still

like to be fair i have looked for in person jobs around san antonio, on MULTIPLE occasions. ive had a few interviews even. ive held a job for a couple months at an aquarium (granted it was art--caricatures) but that was a couple years ago and i was in a worse mental place than i am right now so it only lasted a couple months and i was like..miserable, even though i was doing art. everywhere else i had an interview just didnt want me bc of my lack of experience (which is stupid bc i was genuinely making an effort to get these jobs and how else am i supposed to get experience if not from Your Business like????? cmon. anyway)

a major problem even outside of myself is that, between my wife and i, we only have one car. i am planning to learn to drive genuinely and getting my own vehicle, but right now we only have one ride between us, and she has a full time job so she cant take care of driving me to my job all the time and i wouldnt want to put that on her anyway. so thats also an issue we run into when it comes to me having a job job

trust me i do on occasion look for "actual" jobs outside of my commissions. ive applied to a lot and nobody ever gets back to me or if they do they dont want me, which both very much hurt my confidence in getting a job outside of art but thats another issue i think. if i want to get a non-art job i think i'll be forced to try a work from home route like data entry again or something

again, i thank you for wanting to help and i appreciate it and apologize for basically responding with a bunch of excuses but i want you to understand my position as well u_u/ i dont post a lot (if..at all) about when i do non-art job searches bc i never feel like theyll work out and so far they havent but i honestly havent given up the idea, i do think about this a Lot, way more than i let on, and i do go back and forth searching for non-art jobs on occasion when things feel really rough. so its not something thats lost on me

[ashen-char]

sorry for the late reply! had problems at work that the whole team had to put those extra hours and it left me with no time to open tumblr.

thank you so much for sending the interviews, they've helped me see ivan in a new light! he definitely doesn't have bad intentions but his actions ended up causing more harm then good at the end unfortunately for him and everyone else around him! i now believe he likes anora because of what she showed him and represents to him, a new kind of freedom he never experienced before he met her, he likes that in her. he definitely has a lot of growing up and maturing to do tho.

i said babied because i didn't remember a better word, i meant like when the parents give whatever their kid wants to shut the kis up, you know? instead of sitting down with the kid and try to understand their feelings and why they did what they did they just gave whatever they could so they would stop whine or act up, you know? i believe that's part of the reason ivan runs aways from his problems instead of facing them, he never had to do it! his parents probably didn't care if he acted up at school or did somehting wrong in life, at least nothing that would cause any damage to their image, and just told whoever complained about ivan's behavior to just call their secretary or representative and work it out with them, so he never faced any consequences about his actions, he saw that he could get away with no real consequences because his parents didn't fucking care if he broke a window at school for example, he just had to shove some money in people's face and they would forget, you know what i mean? he never saw his parents care enough to correct his behavior and say 'hey! you did something wrong? you fucked something up? you've hurt someone? well now you have to face the consequences of your actions and make things right!' so babied was definitely the wrong word to use, sorry about that! now that i think about it i should've used neglected! thank you for pointing that out.

i just think it makes full sense that the other dancers, specially the ones who aren't that close to ani, would think her and reader are together, the signs are all there! i just know when anora left they were like 'shit... i really thought her and reader were dating damn... they're so blind!'

SPOILERS FOR ANORA'S ENDING AHEAD!! DON'T READ!!

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okay see now i feel so embarrassed for saying i saw igor as kinda of anora's big brother figure, like this is really embarrassing bro, so disappointing.

anyways now it makes sense what you said about anora telling reader she would give them a lapdance to repay all the food they make for her, she did the same for igor when he gave her back the ring! MAYBE because it's the only way she knows to show she's thankful, she feels like saying it isn't enough and probably because she got so used to having to use her body so much she doesn't feel like her words are enough, she doesn't feel enough unless she uses her body, her sensuality because she got used to people wanting her for only one thing and doing things for her to have something in return and in all cases they wanted something sexual in return.

i think maybe it really was a test to see if igor would be like all the others and only do somehting nice thinking about what he would get as a thank you, but i believe he wanted her to be happy after all the sadness and tragedy she faced recently so he got the ring back for her, he understands not having anything and hanging on to 'little things' that you fought so hard to have but he wouldn't say no to a lapdance from her.

HELLO YES I WAS DELAYING ANSWERING THIS BC IT'S TECHNICALLY OUT NOW AND OUR HCS ARE VERY MUCH EITHER TRUE/FALSE NOW. split it into three parts again

READER:

imagine ani joining in on the Headquarters' girls gossiping about their partners. they're jokingly complaining, stuff like "ugh he always leaves his socks lying around. i'm working all night and i have to see that as soon as i walk in? he's lucky he's cute" and ani naturally starts talking about you. in fact, most of her stories are about you. to the point where she brings up your name in front of her sister, just something casual like "oh y/n told me about this show, apparently it's really good. let's watch it next" and she grills ani about who you are.

it's just completely normal for ani to inject you into conversation. the other girls tease her about it, asking when you're planning on tying the knot. she tells them they're being ridiculous and to shut up and finish their makeup.

another hc i have is that you'd introduce her to video games. ani doesn't have much time for hobbies, instead she'd probably just go out with her friends and party. you catch her wincing because of all her bruises from practicing choreo (especially her tricks on the pole) and basically put her on house arrest. you wanna show her that fun isn't just going out, and you can have plenty of fun staying in! she'd roll her eyes but find it sweet that you clearly care so much so she'd go along with it. ani would've sworn that gaming isn't her thing BUT you know her, you know what she'd like, what she needs and doesn't have in her life. you'd introduce her to cozy games bc her life is hectic enough and you know she loves to manage/sort stuff (she makes playlists and mixes galore). she'd absolutely get hooked on animal crossing with all the decorating and collecting. you have walked in on her cussing out a villager for being rude.

IVAN:

i still haven't seen it yet still but mikey's been saying interesting stuff in the recent content that's come out. in the one where mikey and sean annotate the party scene, mikey called to attention what anora thought about ivan then. she liked that he fixed her dress, covered her up, something subtle implied that he wanted her for more than sex. ani slowed down their sex even when she didn't have anything to gain from it, when it'd be easier money to have him keep rushing it. ani wasn't in love with ivan either, but neither of them had bad intentions. they both saw freedom in each other, they both liked that they could run away from responsibilities together.

and to reiterate i do not Like ivan, i don't like peter pan either. whether he was neglected isn't an excuse to run off without ani who was fighting for him, fighting for their possible future. it is unfortunate that he doesn't know any better. i feel like his childishness/running aren't even what i dislike about him, if anything it's relatable. rather, sean called to attention how ivan treats "the help" in toros and garnick, asking partygoers to keep an eye out for "those armenians" bc he wanted to snort coke without being in trouble. he yells at hotel staff as a joke. it's not a bad thing to aspire towards fun and hedonism, but what he does find fun is something that speaks to the distance between him and ani. he'll never know what it feels like to be on the lower rungs, to do service for other people, too used to being the one serviced. he wouldn't care. even if they were left unbothered by his parents, would he ever ask ani about her previous troubles in life? would he ever understand her?

IGOR:

it's a cute assumption! i like it, it was just funny with the knowledge of definitely not big brother dynamic. i've seen tweets like "the way ani talks to igor is the way i talk to my boyfriend" (implying that she's mean but he can take it, which i desperately wanna see). if we see ani's hopefulness/slight naivety with falling for ivan, then her brash and real side is with igor and that's what i'm curious about.

i need to watch their scenes together. i already like igor and ani better than ivan and ani (i mean, even just the fact that igor was the one who goes "i like anora, it's a pretty name"). the ending's unclear for a reason but i just want the best for anora you know?

[mindself]

Ruined fireworks yesterday i was in such a crazy mood. I barely even looked at them. Mostly thru trees i seem to get kind of crazy during fireworks for some reason. Maybe it's overstimulation. But nothing compared to this. River was very high, up to the benches and walkway where slightly lower. I thought maybe i should go in it. (Not even thinking about my cats) i wanted to do something no one else was doing

Well . I already had a headache all day. (Yesterday at sisters, drove back partly) and my leg hurt from the giant dog running into my calf while playing volleyball, which im really bad at, making my niece respect me even less. No fireworks on 4th bc rain. I hadn't been to fireworks for like 5 years, i think before covid bc no one wanted to go w me and i didnt want to drive in that mess, even less now that my insurance is skyrocketing. Mom agreed to go down even though 8 is her bed time. Parked a ways away to get place to park. Hard to walk bc my leg hurt. Instead of empathizing mom said walking is good for injury (?!?) That's what my dad always said. And im like, not even a day for rest? And she doesnt agree at all u need to rest to heal which makes no sense to me but she doesn't back down and at that moment i felt i needed empathy not a peptalk. And i was feeling bad bc headache just got over. And stress of being w ppl all week (2 days) and driving. Ans maybe im sick or sth ...

I sat on bench w sister and niece and she tries not to sit beside me again idk where that came from i knew her all her life suddenly she decides not to like me sit besife me or talk to me. You knie what that does to someone w self esteem issues and social anxiety. There is no way i can approach her i get mad. She asks sister and mom to play a game but doesnt w me. I might blow up. So i walk away. But that tutned out to be a bad idea too

Go thru crowd thinking theyre all looking at me and go look at the rising river. Interesting. Cool. And the fair... i have no moneey. The one time i decide not to bring my purse.... jewelry ina booth i have no money, sorry. Well at least i cant spend anything.

Im also mad at men for some reason. Probably the root reason-- dad never pays attentjon to me or acts like im a hunan being im all in a up and weird mood. I don't back down as men cone toward me i hit one w my elbow. That feels good to not give way to men all the time. I keep doing that by "accident. They say theyre sorry (1)

Then get to paying oart accidentally and panic theyll find me and so i go back thru crowd

But.

Someone took my seat on the bench beside my family and besides they dont care if im there so i keep going look for place. Want to do somethjng no one else is doing (1 guy on bench in water -- i wouldve done it if he didnt). Fireworks starting. I go down to some rocks at end of walkwat but some suspicious looking men there in a Group im like i dont want to be raped in the dark. I go uo and down agaij to flat rock just above where river surging. And i tear leaves off of buckthorn branches bc theyre invasive anyway. Some girl is down there ln another rock im tired by now. Can't see Fireworks very well but no other places to go now and too tired to look. Some other older lone large man sitting up there looking at me. Ugh i lay down on the flat rock.

Then someone comes down i think theyll see me but they dont and nearly step on me and the dog steps on my hair. After all this. I try to get io but my leg goes into water getting my shoe wet i hate wet shoes, they begin to smell, and i don't have money for more. I am so mad at that man and also his dog. I go up and say :i hate people audibly. That fat guy watching. Im like im not going to let them win and chase me out. People that feel theyre all that better than me bc they dont have old clothes and frizzy hair and glasses (i didnt want to do anything to look nice etc . I felt too bad all day. I thought it shouldn't matter and. Ppl blend in crowds..) i hardly see the fireworks. Then the man goes back up and . I . Run into him. "Accidentally"

[izel-01]

Still haven’t been able to find a job, been applying and even reapplying hoping someone would contact me but nothing and I cant stand the idea of calling and getting rejected

So obviously I had to cancel some luxuries that I’ve once had and one of those being Spotify premium, I had the family plan, but with the price change and having no income I can’t have that luxury rn

So I canceled and my younger sister is acting like it’s the end of the world like? I already explained to her that it’s not a necessity sure it’s really nice to have it but if I can’t afford it I have to cancel it and when she woke up to the subscription being canceled she was not happy

She offered to pay, I kept declining bc I don’t think it’s fair that she would pay for something that I originally was paying for and last payment I asked our “ mother “ for to lend me some money ( I’m keeping track how much I owe her it’s not much but still I hate feeling like I owe people money )

Anyways our mother said we’ll talk later about it, my sister and her did talk about it without me ( which idc ) but they kept making “jokes” saying shit like “too bad for those without Spotify premium having to listen to ads” and honestly it was annoying but I ignored them not giving them the time of day

But it hurts cause like I know I can’t afford these luxuries but at least I have a roof over my head and a comfy bed to sleep but it was nice and I miss it but it’s not a necessity and I have having to depend on her for money even though I try not to ask for anything especially since she has to save money for that stupid parasite she’s gonna have but that’s for another day

It just sucks bc I’m the eldest I’m supposed to be the example but I can’t even get a fucking job - I refuse to go back to food service it is not worth my mental health and the pay was not enough - the second oldest doesn’t want a job which imo is fine bc she literally raised the youngest 3 but she doesn’t want to cook, do chores, or learn to drive. And it fucking pisses me off sometimes bc at least she has a purpose living here unlike me

I’m in the way and I know it even if this stupid bitches say I’m not I know I am bc my sister, my best friend, says to “just move out already” , “it’s not that hard”, “nobody wants you here”, etc and ofc it hurts cause the one person who has been through everything with me, who made me suffer (not her fault when we were little but now she should know better), the one who I consider my best friend/my other half is saying this stuff to me in my face

It usually happens when she gets really irritated or when she just snaps at me for any reason which happens almost everyday and I know I may be a bit too much (tough playing with the little ones or “butting” in stuff) but it’s how I show my appreciation and love and concern but she says it’s not my “business” or sum other shit calling me names

One time a while ago around Dec 2021 I’m pretty sure after we had another argument she said something along the lines of “if I was tired then I would not get up cause nobody expects anything from you” and that really hurt I don’t remember the context of what was said I just wrote it down in my notes just her saying that

What do I say to that? How do I move on from that? I obviously didn’t forget but I’ve not forgiven her either. I cook for her I clean after her I try to help her in any way I can I defended and still do to this day from our “mother”- I remember once around middle/high school when our mother was yelling and was about to hit her and I stood out in between them saying she’ll never hit her again and this bitch (the mother) laughed and called me a hypocrite I’ll never forget that and to this day she says she doesn’t remember funny how the most terrible moments of my life she claims of having no memory of and ok my brain is shit cause I physically can’t remember shit at all but I remember that clearly tears in my eyes, scared to death of standing up to her, scared of her but I knew I had to protect my little sister

Anyways it just sucks that I already know I’m a miserable example of the eldest child, but for them to keep reminding me like i don’t know already doesn’t make it better and I can’t tell my supposed best friend bc she is part of the reason why I’m slowly losing my will to do anything and I’m pushing myself everyday trying to cook more help with chores even more to show that I do appreciate them letting me stay here bc according to my mum I’m “ no longer her obligation”

Like I stopped being her child once I turned 15… but she would never dream of doing this to the younger 4 but it’s fine bc at least they have a fighting chance in this cruel world I really want the best for them bc they didn’t asked to be here but it must be nice to not have to suffer what I did

Me and the second oldest like to joke saying we were the free trial and the youngest three have it easy, and jokes aside they do. Like in that show “Good Place” when the main character said sum about her mum sum along the lines of “ if she could’ve been a better mum for ____ then that means she could always change but I wasn’t enough for her to change” and that fucking hit me like a train… cause she did change not for her, not for us, but for them her 3 precious angels (about to be 4) and that “loving husband” of hers, don’t get me wrong that’s a good thing but it hurts seeing them be treated how I deserved to be treated to get that “family” I will always yearn for, it’s still not good tho but hey it’s wayyyy better than my childhood at least I hope it is bc then it would all have been for nothing