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[mindself]

Forever

Does anyone else just randomly feel like they're annoying everyone around them and that they should just disappear for a while to give everyone else a break from their existence, or is that just me?

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15 years since collefe

Living w parents

.... im trying to get my own business which isn't the basic notthing business of pet sitting i have

I cant get traction...bc my mind doesnt work, not if i dont get 8 hrs of sleepand i rarely do nowdays not that i did get anything done before...

Maybe theres just something wrong w me.

No one wants anything to do w me. They dont want to be nesr a loser.

Kaitlyn  

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note to self: one day you won’t feel the need to escape your reality. you will want to be in it, to embrace it fully.

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there is no way to hate myself into becoming a person i like.

there is no way to shame myself into a better life.

i can’t motivate myself to heal in the same ways i encouraged my own destruction.

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“Of course it is exhausting, having to reason all the time in a universe which wasn’t meant to be reasonable.”

— Kurt Vonnegut, Breakfast of Champions

[mindself]

To not be led by emotions...very hard for someone who feels so strongly

[mindself]

What about starting an international relations masters degree by age 40

My boyfriend didn’t go to university until he was 28 because he didn’t feel anywhere near ready when he was 18. He graduated with first-class honours, went on to do a Masters, and is now a history teacher. It’s so much more important to do things when you’re able to fully commit to them and do them to the best of your ability than to rush to do them by an imaginary deadline.

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Riiiight.

[mindself]

Having sideblogs is so funny because you could be having a full on breakdown over something on one blog while pootling away as normal on your other blog and no one is the wiser

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joyfulsmolthings

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people judging your actions when you’re at rock bottom and using them to define you as a person is unfair to you

[mindself]

don’t!!! fake!!!! your!!!! interests!!!! to!!!! make!!!! someone!!!! like!!!!! you!!!!

[mindself]

Perhaps the people with no sense of rhythm or humor are doomed.

[mindself]

Being stressed in withdrawal the day before trump visits my town... maybe not a good combination

[mindself]

Mad mad today

Is it the withdrawal (which isn't supposed to happen) or sth else