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Random NSFW Headcanons
Ot7 x Reader
Summary: Random spicy headcanons about the members
Warnings: 18+ mdni, smut, unprotected sex(donāt do this), breeding kinks, mentions of edging, oral(m. & f. receiving), bondage, sensory deprivation, dom/sub dynamics, somnophilia, voyeurism, idk thereās a bunch of stuff lol
A/N: You want my hcs? Iāll give āem, heheheš Hope you like them!
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Jin:
Okay, Iām gonna make some of yāall real happy by saying, although I still think heās mostly switch/sub leaning, he does have a dom streak in him. Like as much as he loves letting you lead him like a puppy on a leash(sometimes literally), nothing quite gets him off the same as taking control and pounding into you until youāre his empty headed baby, only able to whimper is his name.
Heās also a big fan of sensory deprivation, both giving and receiving. Blindfolds, handcuffs, etc. He loves the heightened sensitivity that they create, turning even the lightest touches insanely intense.
Has a major thing for cumming in you that itās bordering on a breeding kink. Like tell him that you want him to cum in you, and heāll propose on the spotš
Yoongi:
Heās definitely into bondage and shibari(heās been tied up/handcuffed wayy too many times in music videos to not be, lol) tho it would take a bit of coaxing to get him to admit it. Thereās just something about trying out different knots and restraint styles, both on him and you, that intrigues and excites him.
Lowkey into angry sex, but not when heās angry with you. Itās more those days when he comes home frustrated from the studio and he just wants to scream, so he makes it his mission to make you scream instead, hehe.
Has recorded himself getting off for you and thought about sneaking it into the background sounds of one of his Agust D tracks(might have actually done it, but he wonāt admit it bc heās a menace and likes to fuck with your head, so youāre just sat listening to every little detail on his demos, lol)
Hobi:
This boy is a certifiable freak, you cannot convince me otherwise. Like except for a relatively small list of hard noās, heās open to playing around and testing out pretty much any sort of kink/scenario that you might be interested in.
Lowkey very into the idea of watching you fuck one of his friends rapline whats up?, guiding them on just how to touch you, watching the way your face scrunches up in pleasure, just to turn around and fuck you into oblivion afterwards.
Man adores having his head between your thighs and actively begs you to ride his face. And donāt even think of arguing that youāre too heavy or whatever, bc heāll spend the next hour worshiping your body and showering you with so much praise that you wonāt be able to think, let alone remember any of your insecuritiesš«
Namjoon:
Although weāve established heās definitely more of a daddy dom, he definitely has a weakness for you taking the lead or being on top(āpro rider, hohohoho riderā I had to, I'm sorry). Something about him being under you, watching the way your body moves on top of his, feeling the way you take him so perfectly, just makes his brain go hazyš¤¤
Idk if heās fully aware that itās a kink/thing, but heās definitely into temperature play. Ice cubes, hot wax, even just blowing cool air over his skin makes him tingly in all the right ways.Ā
He loves to tease you at the worst moments. Like you could be on phone with a friend or whoever, and heāll let his hands start to ghost along your arms, down your sides, across your chest, between your thighsā¦ seeing just how long it takes before your voice and focus start to waver, quickly hanging up and giving him your full attention
Jimin:
*cough*ropebunny*cough* Sorry, what?
No but fr, he loves being tied up in different pretty styles of shibari, but he treats it like an art form, with different silk ropes and ribbons. He wants to feel pretty and treasured, caressed with soft voices and sweet words, regardless of if youāre teasing and edging him to tears.
Lowkey into semi-public sex, teasing you at dinner with his friends with his hand creeping along your thigh under the table till youāre squirming and begging him to find an excuse for you both to be excused for a minute. Dude will fully have you shaking and seeing stars and then walk out of the bathroom like nothing happened.
Definitely the biggest fan of aftercare out of all the members, like he treats it as more of a sensual spa night for the two of you; candlelit baths together, gentle massages to work out any tense muscles, cuddling in bed that might turn into cockwarming or a very sleepy round two...Ā
Taehyung:
Definitely into taking photos of the two of you, both on his phone and on his retro film cameras. Man turned his guest room into his own studio/darkroom and learned how to develop film by himself so that no one else but you would see his artwork.
Loses his goddamn mind every time you go down on him. Like if you ever wanna make his mind go completely blank, all you have to do is let him feel your warm, wet mouth close around his length, and heās absolute putty in your hands.
Feel like heās very into lingerie, both for you and himself. He loves feeling like a pretty present for you to open and play with, and vice versa. You literally came home on your birthday to him waiting for you in some pretty little silk number with a bow on his head as your gift.
Jungkook:
Although Iāve said before heās a dom leaning switch, when he subs, he lets go completely. He loves letting his mind shut off and being at your mercy, letting you take control and turning him into a needy whining mess.Ā
For the similar reason, he has a major dumbifacation kink, both giving and receiving. He loves the idea of being fucked to the point that your mind goes completely blank and all you can think and focus on is how you make each other feel.
Definitely has a thing for somnophilia, again both giving and receiving. The thought of touching and teasing each other, your bodies reacting purely out of instinct, seeing how long it takes for you to wake up so that you can fuck each other properly, the whole thing makes him crazy. His favorite way to wake up, 5 stars, highly recommendš¤
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#bts x reader#bts x y/n#bts requests#bts smut#bts headcanons#bts reaction#bts reactions#bts scenarios#seokjin x reader#seokjin x y/n#yoongi x y/n#yoongi x reader#hoseok x y/n#hoseok x reader#namjoon x y/n#namjoon x reader#jimin x y/n#jimin x reader#taehyung x y/n#taehyung x reader#jungkook x y/n#jungkook x reader#7ndipity
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Ep 22-23 Commentary
Ha...I was inexplicably nervous for eps 22-23 and it looks like I was right to be (-: What a rollercoaster. Spoilers below!
I've just come out of ep 23 and uh????? holy shit????? ZYC????
Ok ok but to backtrack, let's do my comments semi-chronologically:
Ep 22:
A carry-over from ep 21 that I have to mentionāheck yeah PSJ give WZY hell. She doesn't have all that many lines but she sure knows how to make them count. Also seeing PSJ and WX get screen time just the two of them makes my brain go "yay <3"
Back to ep 22, loved the fake-out sundial ayeee that was a nice Chekhov's gun that also brings the real sundial back into relevance for later. Also me eating up the PSJ and ZYC crumb of an interaction has brought to my attention how starved I am of their screen time together.
This whole ep was a great lament towards the feared inevitable. Every sad downcast look from ZYC, every complicated glance WX gives him. A wonderful, terrible crossroads for these characters. I love that for ZYC especially, it's such an incredible mess of emotion coming to a head. Bad enough that he's come to care about the demon who killed his family and ruined his life, bad enough that he's sworn a blood oath he regrets and tied himself to punishing someone he no longer finds culpable, bad enough that ZYZ's life or death depends solely on his choice and ZYZ is constantly practically begging for death when ZYC wants him to live. How much immensely worse it makes the whole situation that WX is literally ZYZ's soulmate. And obviously the whole team has only grown more and more attached to ZYZ, too. ZYC's personal turmoil aside, how heavy must that responsibility and guilt be? For the finishing blow that only he can deliver to also deeply threaten every other person he cares about? Everyone understands in the abstract what must happen and why, but just like seeing ZYZ lose control firsthand, the gulf between understanding and experiencing is so unimaginably wide. If he kills ZYZ, can there really be no resentment from his friends? From WX?
Also it seems ZYC only wears cloaks so that he can give them to other people lmao
Ah fuck, the farewell drinks. I didn't even factor in how ZYC might not survive the encounter (''': The drama truly was like hm can we possibly give ZYC a worse day than that night his whole fam died? Maybe give him a bunch of new family members and also the blade and the fate and the sole responsibility to potentially irrevocably scar said family members with? And he might die in the process too? (-: haha maybe? (((-:
Oh. Oh. Addendum. I forgot this til I saw it mentioned in another postāZYC recounting his oath as he watched WX smile when they discussed reviving the tree...I could feel him weighing those words against his own life, against ZYZ's life, against WX's happiness. One way out of this impossible situation is indeed to doom himself. I'm in pieces.
Damn if WX isn't dedicated heart and soul, going into the sundial like that. I'm sad no one could keep her company for those 300 years but also I guess that's kind of an impossible ask (and maybe not survivable for the other non-goddess mortals? I'm admittedly very unclear on sundial time loophole logistics). It would have been nice to see someone offer though, even just to be turned down.
Ooh I like the soul needle fake-out, given this show's penchant for retroactive "actually we had a plan all along" moments. A good subversion of the narrative's own style.
Also I saved this for the end because it doesn't really fit the linearity of my comments but what the fuuuuuuuck oh my god I absolutely flipped out at this scene:
I am at once rabidly intrigued and at the same time not sure if I'll be satisfied with whatever payoff will come for this so I don't want to overindulge in theorizing and setting my own expectations too high. Maybe this is just a fevered hallucination, maybe it means nothing (I hope it means something). But damn!!! What a gorgeous man crazy scene.
In conclusion, ep 22 had some good stuff for me. Plot development and reflection and tension enough that I may have been satisfied with just that one episode. But they gave us two, so onward to ep 23 comments!
Ep 23:
I like how many solid reasons the team has to suspect ZYC being possessed. Even though I withheld judgment during my watch given how quickly the show usually confirms that kind of stuff with a possession mark, just simply casting that doubt made the whole build up that much more intense.
ZYC slowly walking down the corridor with the whole grounds lit a somber and haunting goldā*chef's kiss*
ZYC's monologue to a catatonic ZYZ is so important to me. The closest we'll get to his internal monologue about this whole situation. The kinds of things said when we think there's no conscious listener.
Okay so, having finished this episode and looking back, Li Lun's hands coming up from behind ZYC was not to denote possession (at least in this episode), potentially is a visual from ZYZ's POV, and seems related to the above screencap. I am so, so curious. Once again, I'm stopping myself from further speculation because I want to be surprised but ahhhhhhhhh
PSJ shooting at Ao Yin is so gorgeous. Her action scenes seriously never disappointāthe creativity of her fight choreos!! Also very cool that the whole team is getting to take part in the action, not just the two male leads.
Bai Jiu possession was not on my bingo card but I sure do love that we literally saw the possession take place and I still didn't connect the dots. Good shitttt. Also oh no ): ZYC was telling the truth about the soul needle, he was just tricked ):
Seriously from the Ao Yin case to getting PSJ released to reviving the Divine Wood to getting tricked by possessed!Bai Jiu to making pear soup to fighting ZYZ to fighting Li Lunāwhen will ZYC get a single goddamn vacation day holy shit.
Also when will WX tear up that contract so ZYZ can stop having a mild heart attack every time he wants to kiss her ): &I love that they saved the 300-year montage for this moment. While their ship doesn't give me brainrot personally, who could be unmoved by that incredible and undisclosed sacrifice? That's soulmatism.
Okay, I'd seen clips of them filming the ZYC and Li Lun fight but damn I did not expect it'd be happening right now!! Right after already taking damage from ZYZ? And my god is Li Lun brutal. The two actors did such an impressive job on this entire fight, what with Li Lun's ease and ZYC's suffering. I really appreciated the extensive hand-to-hand combat after Li Lun literally obliterated ZYC's sword. (Also though, given the origin of that sword, I kept hoping for a flashback to ZYC's brother once it broke, but alas, no dice.) Anyway, the show does not play around about ZYC whump it seems. I was very very shook by that throat punch; that shit legitimately looked like it hurt.
Honestly, I had a hard time with the extended ZYZ and Li Lun conversation at the very end because oh my god someone please heal ZYC lmao. But of course, that's the end of the episode~~
Y'all...check on your local ZYC stans because I was not okay after all that (': I need a heaping dose of comfort after all that hurt, but as always I'm cautious of hoping for much from canon itself. So yeah! Ep 23 was solid, but I would probably be in better shape if today's release just ended on ep 22 ((':
Time to go wait for the cast's Hi6 episode to drop so I can heal my battered heart ;-;
#fangs of fortune#zhuo yichen#tian jiarui#fangs of fortune spoilers#gonna go watch TJR on blind box travel to tide myself over til hi6#thank god he is the literal embodiment of sunshine irl he never fails to make ppl laugh#i assume i will need much of that by the end of this drama#also not to MJTY on a FoF post (MJTY spoilers incoming!) but this level of TJR whump just takes me back to GSJ nearly killing GYZ#I was so hollowed out by that and since GYZ wasn't one of the leads I was trying very hard to resign myself to the fact that he might die#bc of course he was my fave#it ended up okay but he had GSJ to care about him#who does ZYC have ): obvs he has the whole demon hunting team but tbh more and more I see him as an outsider to ZYZ and WX's soulmatism#there's a heavy depth to ZYC's feelings for both ZYZ and WX#and I would say so far it is kind of unrequited in both cases (or at least any reciprocation is comparatively underdeveloped)#rip#why did i go and make myself sadder#episode commentary#meta
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What if you were Vought's secret weapon against the supes? What if instead of Soldier Boy, the Boys employed you to help take down Homelander? What kind of chaos would a demonic femme fatale supe and Billy Butcher get into?
Blood Moon (MDNI 18+, triggering content, taboo content, dark content, do NOT interact if you do not wish to be exposed to the DARK FICTIONAL IDEAS in my fics.)
thunk thunk thunk One after another, after another, Butcher threw darts into a long-destroyed poster of Homelander on the wall of their office. Eyes, nose, mouth, forehead, throat. He'd gotten him everywhere at least once and still the star-spangled prick was breathing out there in the real world. "We gotta talk," a voice cut through the aching silence. Queen Maeve entered the office with an air of someone who didn't care whether or not she was welcome there; what was he gonna do about it, anyway? He needed her help, no matter how much he wanted to spit on whatever it was she was handing him. "What's this, then?" A file folder with some barely-there information about a potential weapon Vought had been developing back in the day with the potential to completely wipe out any and all superheroes. Butcher raised a skeptical eyebrow at the reading, looking up at Maeve, who stood with her arms crossed as if daring him to have something negative to say about her tip. "What am I to do with this, eh? It's a load of bollocks, if ya ask me."
"If we can find thisā¦weapon, whatever it isā¦ maybe we can use it to blow Homelander's fucking brains out." Butcher nodded his understanding. It was exactly what he wanted, what he needed. "If it is real, not some fucking fable.." He looked over the bits of pieces of information once more. "Worth a look, I supposeā¦what else 'ave I got t'lose?" Maeve pressed three icy-cold vials of a bright green liquid into his palm as he continued to read through the file. He looked down, brows furrowed in question. She didn't wait for him to ask. "It's Temp V. One shot makes you a supe for 24 hours. I meanā¦they think. It's still in trials." Butcher huffed incredulously. "Oh, great. So powers, maybe. Maybe my bollocks swell up like footballs, yeah?" "If you're going after this weapon, or Homelander, or whatever else comes from digging into all of this? You're going to need it." He leaned in, sneering, filled with a frustration for his lack of progress, his constant feeling like he couldn't get ahead of these fucking super wankers. "And what makes you think that me, of all people, would want to turn into one of you?"
She set her jaw, not allowing his words to sting. She'd heard worse. "This is our best chance to kill Homelander. Don't fuck it up."
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The warehouse was littered with broken glass, bent metal, bullet casings, but most shockingly, the pieces of Vought security guards strewn about. Some had been lasered in half by Butcher's heat vision, some had holes punched clean through their chests by Hughie's sudden excessive speed and strength, and some had simply been broken, essential bones snapped like they were no more than sticks of raw spaghetti by a single one of Butcher's hands. It was a gruesome scene, surely, but they were done now. Time to reap the reward: the weapon Vought was hiding away. The weapon that had the potential to kill Homelander. And all those other supe cunts. Hughie was breathless, naked (a result of his Temp V powers), and looking up at the enormous container that held whatever the "weapon" was. He shook his head, pointing up at it. "Whyā¦why are they keeping it in a cryo chamber?" "Dunno, let's find out." Butcher carefully placed his hands on either side of the container and with the ease of someone peeling a sticker from its backing, he snapped the locks of the chamber and removed half of the thick metal wall to reveal- A woman's form stumbled out, body shrouded in frost: you. Your muscles were clearly weak, giant black leathery wings looked brittle, though you kept them curled around you as if for protection. You were barely able to stay upright, one hand clutching to the now jagged edge of the chamber's wall. Your breathing was ragged, your eyes, burning red with barely-contained rage, scanned around the room, taking in the carnage left behind by the two men standing in front of you.
"Would ya look at that," Butcher shakes his head, stepping forward to observe you. "Rise and shine, angel." When he catches you glaring at him, sizing him up, even in your weakened state it was obvious you were preparing for a fight. "We're here to bust ya out, not lock ya up. Now how 'bout yeh drop the attitude an' let us give ya a hand?" Your jaw tightens, clearly debating whether it was worth it to rely on anyone, even in your current predicament. But, your legs continue to betray you, buckling slightly as you try to stand. With a deep, shaky breath, you extend your hand. Butcher catches it, the corner of his mouth twitching into a smirk. "'Atta girl. Ain't so bad lettin' someone else do the heavy liftin' once in a while, eh?" As soon as you're stable, you yank your hand free from his grip, your eyes flashing as you start to gather back your strength. Your wings unfurl slightly, walking a step behind the two men who'd released you from your frozen prison, mind already scheming your revenge.
#billy butcher#billy butcher brainrot go brr#billy butcher x you#billy butcher imagine#billy butcher x reader#Spotify
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#āļøš„©.txt#ignore me. i am angry and volatile and im not going to talk at all about this again. im just gonna log off after this#the way transness gets discussed online in binaristic black and white thinking with no room for nuance#and no room for any people who's experiences vary from a perfectly passing white cis persons experiences#make me want to blow my fucking brains out#im so close to muting every single word to do with transness online so i never have to see another braindead take#from some fucking freak who's never been offline a day in their lives and has no idea how the real world works#i swear to god the trans community online makes me hate being trans more than the guys who wanna bounce my head off the concrete do#the way people online talk you'd think bigots check what your genitals and pronouns are so they make sure theyre attacking you CORRECTLY#anyway none of you have any solidarity with intersex ppl ppl of colour disabled ppl butch lesbians the list goes on and on#you have no solidarity with anyone who isnt white and perfectly binaristic in a cishet understanding of gender#fix your fucking hearts. actually talk to people offline for once.
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tdov was like a week ago already but I just wanna say when I came over to vacation slash help my sworn brother move flat he told me, "ever since you said you wanted to get top surgery I've been thinking about it. it's straight up number two on my bucket list"
#bakuspeech#number one is a house bc obviously. if u can own a house wouldnt u#he was very drunk at that time of the evening. I was not bc I have the constitution of a hot air balloon and any stimulant will blow me up#(relatively new development. france fucked me up big time turns out)#we held hand on his bed for like the whole evening. it was honestly very funny in hindsight but we were extremely earnest in the moment#and Im like. working on this thing as well. I dont got meds or therapy lmao Im bootstrappin here#but yeah early last year his bf offered to get me meds and I... turned it down... I think I was worried abt like. idk. something#but one year past looking back Im fully like that was a stupid move you shouldve gotten meds. youve once again fucked urself baku#but yeah with that kinda realization Ive also come to realized I've somewhat? accepted. that I'm just gonna be. like this#this in light of a number of likely chronic stuff too (hence my balloon-like constitution lmao) and#that's kinda bled into the rest of me without me really noticing#but him bringing that up fully unprompted... kinda jolted me out of it#its just. really incredibly sweet. that someone doesn't want me to settle for what I make do with#and like. preps for that work. just kinda held my hand and told me it's possible to do this actually#I didn't really express how I felt very well in that moment I think my brain is very bad and I process emotions with like a day of delay#but. well. Im thinking abt it Right Now. so yknow thats the kind of impact that had on me lol#not super sure why I wrote all this down here really. I think I just want a good n nice reminder that object permanence is real#and I exist in my friends' life even when Im going insane in a hole by myself#and with the power of friendship we can alter the universe's plan for ourselves and also kill god#that's that. anyways I eat lunch now and then pass out probably. last night was... eventful lmao#but!! very good things on the horizon hopefully. well manifestly we hold hammers and we use them#have a good day lads. let's go out and slay monsters under a highway
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(spoilers for dcmk ahead)
detective conan seriously needs to stop wasting our time and end already. gosho just keeps introducing more and more characters that we either don't care about or are just there to be the love interest.
i love dcmk, i really do. but, and i can't believe i'm saying this, it's too long!! and, trust me, i'm no slouch when it comes to length. (aka, has rewatched one piece at least 10 times).
but it's dragging out! it's clear that gosho has realised he has fans who will stick with it regardless, because the overarching plot is interesting, but how are we supposed to stay invested if we rarely get to see the plot?
there are less episodes where the black organisation appears than there are tv original episodes. don't get me wrong, i love... some of them, but i love the plot-heavy episodes so much more.
it has, canonically, only been six months since shinichi was turned into a child. SIX MONTHS! AND DCMK HAS BEEN OUT FOR 28 YEARS!!
we don't need each character to have a romantic sub-plot. we don't need an in-depth backstory for each character.
we don't need to see each and every case they come across.
i'm all for slice of life - i love it, in fact. but not when there's such a strong plot behind it.
i feel like the desperate revival arc should have been the turning point, where it starts to be more head-strong in the plot, maybe throwing in a kaitou kid chapter/episode for a break. but it doesn't.
instead, we are 210 chapters into the Rum Arc with no sign of it stopping soon. the bourbon and akai arc was 276 chapters, and we all remember how long it took for that to end.
i'm at the point where i just pick and choose episodes to watch, (thank you detectiveconanwiki), because nobody cares about the will they? wont they? for anyone but shinran and maybe heizuha but that's been dragged out more than enough.
seriously, heiji didn't realise he had feelings for kazuha until 600 episodes in? and he called kazuha 'his' but pretends he didn't because it wasn't as amazing as shinichi's confession? i stopped caring the second momiji was introduced because, oh, can't have a love story without an obstacle! FUCK OFF
ran's character went from a strong female woman who was struggling with the fact that the love of her life is gone, to 'help us, shinichi!'. like- come ON! she grew up with shinichi and you're telling me she doesn't have any deductive prowess? what happened to her suspecting conan of being shinichi? BECAUSE IT SEEMS LIKE SHE'S FORGOTTEN ALL ABOUT IT
and it's so hard to come up with your own ending, because there's still so much that hasn't been answered.
what is the aptx 4869 being used for? (have my own theory, and wouldn't be surprised if it was right). what is the 'silver bullet' haibara's parents were working on? what's the black orginisation's goal? is karasuma renya still alive? what is vermouth's relation to him? why hasn't she aged?
AND SO ON AND SO FORTH
JUST GET ON WITH IT GOSHO
#dcmk#detective conan#spoilers#i love this show but it makes me want to pull a rikumichi and blow my brains out#the romantic subplots are too much now#it was cute at first then i just got sick of it#can yusaku and heizou just combine their braincells and figure this whole thing out please#or better yet#shinichi heiji sera and hakuba do it#maybe invite kid along for the ride#and can haibara just tell conan what he needs to know?? she knows he'll just continue to investigate without her so JUST SAY IT#yknow what fuck it#might just make my own detective conan without the hundred side characters#just focus on the main characters and the antagonist#dcmk critical i suppose
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Honestly still salty about my 22 y/o sister who last night called asking to kiss someone the first time āweirdā, ācringeā, and even āmillennialā??? And itās so wild to me for a young woman to have such an anti-consent standpoint.
Like youāve said you donāt get accosted at bars, and hooray for that. But as someone whoās been groped in what can barely be considered a crowd once or twice, Iām partial to establishing that someone respects and considers me early on.
And Ik youāve only dated from your friend group (I do not), so you feel more comfortable reading each other, which once again, great. But that doesnāt guarantee safety or that theyāll magically know what you want in the future when youāve established that itās cringe to ask and better to guess.
Thatās how people get it wrong and cross your boundaries without knowing. And then youāre hurt but feel like you canāt blame them because you didnāt say anything and how would they know? Misunderstandings that can often be avoided by establishing clear and open communication about consent from day one.
Starting off your very first physical and sexual interactions with clear verbal consent is an easy way to set the precedent of asking for consent. Like cool youāve been going out with this dude for 8 months and never seen a dick. Regardless of your pace, you should be thinking ahead and establishing how youād like to be treated in sexual scenarios as soon as humanly possible.
I guess I thought society had moved past āitās just kinda weird and awkward to ask thoughā, āyou donāt have to say anything to knowā, ājust feel it outā, etc.
Itās also so clear how this prude, sex-negative culture makes it so that you can be comfortable engaging in an act but still feel icky about asking about / for it.
#this is such a long ramble and making a mountain out of one example#but from what Iām seeing from her friends#other people in their early 20s on the internet#and the reason that this conversation came up in the first place#which was love island contestants#there are people not more than 6 years younger than me and my peers who are almost illiterate about sex consent and intimacy#itās mind blowing#and like on a more personal and subjective note theyāre missing out on so much#there was nothing hotter to me than when we were making out and heād look at me all lusty and ask do you want me to fuck you?#I would turn into a puddle and lose capacity for coherent thought lmao#thereās a huge part thatās about HOW you do things#and these inexperienced children will see one awkward example and be like yeah no consent is weird and cringey actually#like stop and use your brain for a second dude#vent#mine
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now look at this
#pinemartart#rw oc#rain world oc#iterator oc#oc: Tactful approach revengefully thrown#rw iterator oc#this is tart's icon yayayayayaa#THIS TOOK WAY LONGER THAN I WANTED AUUGHHHHHH IT TOOK LIKE. um#nine hours. i think#this drawing fought back ...#but i like how it came out so.#and i experimented a little#those fucking hands .... drawing the sketch and then the lineart..... made me want to blow up#tumblr is going to compress this </3#honestly the shading could be better ....... but i didn't wanna spend another ten billion hours on it#so i just went with lighting from behind / rimlight#just realized i shaded the wires with a different light source than the rest of the drawing................................................#oh well there is also a light coming from the top . somewhere#lets pretend it makes sense#btw near the end of this i was watching the worst movie ever made with my friends. it was so.................. i don't even know#my brain was shutting off at that point so
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Hmm
#thanks for coming to my ted talk#vent#I know itās just the 2 am talking#on top of some very shit events occurring today#but I feel like making some decisions that will ruin my life#not in a a danger to myself or others kind of way at ALL donāt worry about that#I mean like#destroying personal relations with my peers kind of way#Iām so utterly and completely fucked#my future roomate bailed on me 2 weeks before school starts#so if anyone wants to live in Muncie#my place is wide open#fucker#what is her problem#like legitimately#Iāve been making myself sick over this for going on#SEVEN HOURS#I canāt sleep#Iāve just been so utterly fucked over I donāt know what to do#and Iām not gonna have even an inkling of a solution until my apartment complex emails me back#and itās a fucking weekend so who knows when that will be#if I think too hard Iām gonna cry about it#Steph is such a life saver tho. listening to me scream about this and playing video games drunk on call with me#fuck#Iām going to blow my goddamn brains out. but not actually#I guess on the bright side I might get to live alone
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I really dont know how im ever gonna feel like a real person and im really really tired of trying so hard and never getting anywhere
#Every time i try to fix or change this it makes it worse and i feel like im obsessed with trying to figure out whats wrong with me#Studying myself like a fucking bug#I had to drop out of school and i can barely go outside and im so angry that i keep ending up back here#Im trying really hard rn to give myself grace but at the same time i have to fight this urge to disappear so hard.#My existence keeps shrinking and i started at a disadvantage anyway so i really dont know what my life is going to look like now#Since it was never normal to begin with. Idk. I havent been on here bc my brain is broken my bodys broken I've been doing a lot of#Drinking and staying up late watching the x fi/es from the floor two feet from the tv stuff like that.#Anyway i keep thinking abt how i really want top surgery but i have to blow up my life first and i dont feel like i have it in me#But i think im gonna do it anyway we'll see
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i once read something that described kendall as taking up maximum space at the dinner table, scoffing everything down and even picking at the food stuck between his teeth at the end . and itās like. what a wild misunderstanding of the character. heās constantly wilting, has literally never finished his plate and itās actually. odd how absent he is at every dinner table , constant dissociation thatās framed as normal as everybody chats around him
#like donāt get me wrong he can definitely put on a show. and he probably likes to. but itās so obviously fake. like you can#pretend the whale is a shark but at the end of the day itās still a fucking whale . constant moaning and wailing etc#like i cannot think of any dinner scene in succession where he is fully present. family or otherwise#idk how much sense this makes really. but that bit about him disassociating even in the credits made me think#like . this stems from me writing 1k abt kendall ed the other day. but like yeah heāll order the 8 ounce steak in front of you and eat it#like heās normal but the meat stuck between his teeth will drive him crazy#heāll go to the bathroom for a straightener that doesnāt work and heāll want to blow#his fucking brains out bc he canāt stick his fingers down his throat here but my god he wants to#sorry. anyway#tw ed#.
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re last answer: please don't stop, being very unhinged about these two pretty white boys is helping distract me from the sharks losing streak rn so bring it on
https://www.tumblr.com/bondedpairs/764566430180147200?source=share
(sideblog woes but there's the link for you) anyway in the vid they talk about going over to each other's houses to have dinner and things and while that is a delicious example of their codependence i love it bc through an rpf lens there is definitely some old man ******* going on. they can have the dilfs and each other.
(someone else mentioned kept boys which i could write an essay on but i fear being Perceivedā¢ļø)
anyway if you have anything to add to this please do, if not ignore me and i will hide under a rock until the stress-related insanity has worn off and i am a functioning member of society once more š
- @bondedpairs
ty for the video!!! and please, WRITE THE KEPT BOYS ESSAYYYY i promise i will read it with my hands over my eyes if you donāt want to be perceived. do it scared!! do it anyway!! weāll all love you for it!!!
#like. i donāt know how to explain how narratively aware will smith is to me. he knows heās being put into the codependent rookies arc.#heās aware that zeev buium transforms into a dog. he knows that he and mack arenāt getting together because mackās gotta work it out first.#& in a less unhinged way i simply mean that will smith has an air of both self-conscious thought & projection i think is maybe fascinating.#but not in a way in which i actually know this or think that he thinks about himself and how he comes across. he just Is Something ????#the best way i can explain is one of my alltime favorite fics i use it like a shorthand citation bc i love it so much but catchascatchcanās#many worlds universe but specifically the second tk/pat story second person you the ouroboros spits out its tale nolan walks off screen.#like that is the kind of narrative awareness i am trying to explain that no matter where i put him will smith knows heās inside a story but#not in a way where heās trying to do anything to it. heās just present there. this makes no sense to me either please understand#liv in the replies#bondedpairs#happy to have brought you something in your times of woe!!! āalso hope things get a little less stressful for you!! <3#weāre 2gether p much 24/7ā no go on i say in my nature documentary voice. watching them like bugs under a rock rn observing from a distance#this DID get me to actually watch the video. agreed with puckpocketed saying rich text and ur tags like. YES the daddy issues popped out.#just wants to make sure heās having fun!! checking up!! mack the prime irritance in willās life!! foisted off on one another w/ no choice#itās like when your parents are friends so then you have to be friends with their kids in a way and then also like. youāre the only kids#close in age to each other but theyāre NOT but it is definitely not like. i would choose you for any lifetime it is very will smith hockey#(once again) very aware he has to wait for mack to settle down. like now that iām saying this i DO want clairvoyant will smith which is not#where it goes in the first half but just in the sense of like. those silly posts that are like āinvested early in stock!ā & itās a picture#of braden holtby & his beautiful bisexual wife brandi back when holts was a hipster who wore skinny scarves & now everyone thinks heās sooo#like that but itās will smith saying my god you are insufferable but youāll be fantastic in five years. get in the fucking car.#(yes i am drawing extensively from the one picture where will has COMPLETELY tuned him out (there is a football reasoning reference here?#with the patriots? neonfretra drew this also but it was a tweet about the teams. thereās layers to this here ANYWAY) weāre building a life#i realize after the fact i addressed neither the dilf (gilf?) fucking here nor the content of the actual video & polycules to which i say:#brain scrampled egg. the burnsie/joe/patty/(pavs???) polycule just exists to me and the kids intersect the venn diagram but in a much#smaller portion than they intersect each other in both ways (will/mack joe/the guys)#also as for the content of the video. youāre gonna have to give me at LEAST (how long did it take me until i actually started posting tzjd?#i hate that this is my metric but it really was like. i see everyone yelling about them & iām like ok. [please ignore the irrational hatred#i have for tz at the time it has to do with moritz seider and also whenever i see him on the ice something awakens in kill mode] and i DO#blame tzjd for my 800 drafts and it took me like. a good while before i finally went OH kay. i see it. okay i can get invested. horizon at#a 45 degree angle moon in the late waxing gibbous winds scented of orange & blowing S by SW from the vortex cycle etc etc ass conditions)
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this was meant to be a funny post, but then it got deep imao
not a relationship person, but i believe in their beliefs
#me when i lie#it always comes round to june and iām always single and itās quite honestly homophobic#imaooooo nah itās not that deep iām just coming on my period hehe x#literally keep saying the same thing about relationships#like i shouldnāt get into one just because iām lonely#and rush things and completely blow up my life on impulse#but i donāt know any other way#need to learn to take it slow and *actually* take it slow#because the last time i ātook it slowāā it all went wrong#basically i want a relationship at some point but when all your relationships are the same#it really gets to you#and i keep thinking about (redacted) and how much i fucked it all up#but also like would we really have worked out?#if iād actually believed everything she said would we be okay?#do i not have a life? or am i not allowing myself to have a life?#bc literally i think iāve gotten so used to being on the floor that iāve forgotten how to get up#and like if i really tried i could actually get what i want#and i know that sounds obvious but like bear with me#iāve basically shoved myself into a deep dark hole and covered myself up with dirt and then forgotten i can dig myself out#i *can* be with someone seriously#like yeah itās uncomfortable and scary and it means facing up to certain things that make my stomach hurt but i will never have a life if i#donāt do these things#i canāt allow myself to basically get pushed back into the closet#i canāt allow myself to be infantilised and treated like shit all the time#like even if iām surviving purely via spite for a while itās better than the alternative#instead of constantly talking about the same thing and how nothing ever changes i should actually change it#again obvious but iām usually miles behind bc my brainā¦ isnāt great is probably the kindest way i could put that#and thatās okay. like itās hard but itās okay#even if iām living out my teenage years and doing the things iād wished iād done then at 25+ thatās fine#thereās a whole fucking world outside my bedroom door so maybe i should go actually see it?
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You know I thought for awhile that I was just a rare type of person who sure, liked people well enough but was okay being alone didn't necessarily need anyone and NO. NO. NO. OH MY GOD . YOU GIANT DUMBASS. NO HAHAHA NOOO NOPE
#tide of consciousness#See what was confusing me is usually when people talk about life partner they mean romantically sexually#And also I have yet to meet someone who gets me in the way I want someone to get me <- I think <- good chance I have and squandered it#<- that may be the evil brain talking though#But anyway so I was misconstruing the fact that the people I know and like currently are not people I want to spend my life with#With the idea that there is no one and no chance I will ever want that#And also heteronormative allo society despite my best efforts Is in my brain#And I'm only just realizing how badly I would really like to find a person or maybe people who do make me feel like. I could want that#The idea that there could be someone out there that I would want to spend my time and space with forever is mind blowing#Because honestly and this is of course the mental illness but I have kind of been under the assumption that maybe I am just like. Weeell#Evil and broken and cruel and selfish and HAHA. you know. The usual#Because you know only recently I got my first taste of 'a person is actively choosing you and wants you over all things'#And then I fucked that up because that was my first time believing anyone could care about me and you know you always fuck that one up#And that sucked and is still in the process of sucking but it has also made me realize#That there is actually a way that I would want that. Maybe#Like in a way that worked. I'd really like to have a person like that maybe#And honestly that's a nightmare to have to realize#Because before it was like hey! I guess I just don't have to worry about that!#And now I'm like FUCK. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO DO THIS#because special secret I've never actively tried to connect to people in my life ever#I don't know how you do that! I don't know how to actively form relationships!#I just wait for someone to grab me and pull me along! It's terrifying to think about trying to discover that#AT 20!#I know it's not unusual especially in this day and age in fact it's kind of an epidemic#But you're supposed to learn how to socialize when you're a little tiny baby!!! I don't want to figure this out now I can't even get a job!#Fucking shit that's a lot of words um#Every 6 months I remember that I'm deeply deeply deeply lonely and it's the worst and then I wilfully ignore it until I rediscover it again#Every day I discover a new layer to how utterly wretchedly self loathing my brain is and its the worst#Peeling back a layer of paint and surprise! You've subconsciously thought you were fine being alone because secretly you believe#That it is impossible for you to be anything but alone! Yay!
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several days and 15 thousand words later, i am relieved to report that the suffocating urge to Write Something has been sated and no longer has me in a chokehold
#Seven.txt#writing stuff#thinking of that post thatās like āu Have To make art or all the ideas stay stuck in ur brain and make u sickā bc yeah thats been the vibe#wish i wasnāt so all or nothing about it tho. but alas. iām that way with everything in my life#i either expect 10k in a day from myself or i donāt write at all for weeks. or months :)#and my average pace is about 500 words per hour. so u can see. how that might be a problem. given how many hours are in a day.#and thatās obviously not sustainable. but idk if itās adhd or what but itās So hard to quickly start and stop tasks just Whenever#i struggle to be one of those ppl that can consistently write like. 500 words a day every day and then wow! soon you have a whole novel#nah. once i get myself in the Zone then iām Goinā and i canāt stop until iām Done or i collapse from ignoring my bodyās needs lmao#itās something i should make an effort to do though bc iād love to be consistently chipping away at things instead of working in bursts#anyways this is a lotta negative self-commentary for what is actually a Positive post! bc yay!! i wrote a thing!! Two things actually!!! š#i got the follow-up to last yearās Matt oneshot done And i wrote the next chapter of Heaven in Hiding after uh. a year and some months#i wanted to blow the dust off the olā keyboard by starting with writing some less. uh. high-stakes(?) stuff#not that i didnāt put my all into writing them. i always do. just that ik theyāll have less of an audience so ill cringe less if they suck#so then i can hopefully do justice to the [N]MbD stuff that iāll be putting out next! ehehe *rubbing my hands together* Finally#the next two [N]MbD fics r already written but the first little one needs a final edit#and then the Big one for. uh. someone (u kno who u r) needs a bit of rewriting i think. i wanna make it Better#so release schedule will be 1. Matt ā¢ 2. HiH Ch.3 ā¢ 3. [N]MbD small fic ā¢ 4. [N]MbD Big fic#then iām gonna write a lil Boothill comfort oneshot. then iāll edit/maybe rewrite and post that Dew (Ghost) OCD comfort oneshot#i āalso wanna keep writing the last couple chapters of HiH before i unintentionally abandon it again#and after/amidst all that maybe iāll manage to get ES Ch.6 written and posted before the end of the year š#anyways ik iāve made posts like this before. talking abt all these Plans of mine. and most of those things r Still stuck in the pipeline#so donāt put too much stock into this plan. i could have another Bad couple of months and get None of it done#but god i sure fucking hope not. iād really like to cling to my creativity. if for no other reason than that it makes me happy
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i really want to rewatch fullmetal alchemist. and madoka magica. i never finished either and it feels like a crime
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