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crossbackpoke-check · 1 day ago

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glad to see that d3 vid made it to you as well because ohmigosh... i've watched it like 6 times already and it's still just as wild and good as the first time. like the way they all had an answer?? imagining them sitting around having conversations about who they'd like to marry on the team - not to mention the way babies were mentioned more than once. these kids are/have been on tumblr and ao3, they know what's up lol

(also side note one of the guys who said mason, he said it was bc mason was a good cuddler which sent me too - so you guys have cuddled. regularly. like WOW.) not even gonna talk about the one who picked his brother though wanting someone to do your taxes is so real

rotating "hopeless romantic + old school" in my mind, like what does that even mean?? flowers and chocolates and kissing you goodnight at your dorm room? does he pull out a chair for you before you sit down? idk, it was such a sweet and genuine answer

tldr i love them all and can we get more teams doing this please? i've never paid attention to d3 in my life but suddenly i need to know more

- @bondedpairs

every time i watch the video i just start laughing so hard, it brings me so much joy and i cannot thank kasper moregraceful enough for bringing it into all of our lives 🥺 *

AND now i get to pitch that i think everybody should watch more college/local hockey to have that type of joy all the time!!! tickets are usually pretty decently priced, you get your narratives right in front of you (my notes app has some. thoughts) and you get the same emotional attachment and watch your guys develop throughout their careers!!! a lot of the time you can find really fun social media for college teams in particularly because of student media programs but if you are not already an ahl watcher: may i recommend stalking their youtube channels. lehigh valley phantoms spelling bee videos are one of my favorite things in the entire world and the milwaukee ads have a lot of fun content too!!

#it’s called having an emotional support ahl fourth liner for a REASON #and the reasons are a multitude #how are you cole bardreau. i love you baby we can get hors d’oeuvres with dinner #hi bestieeeee 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰#anyway lol you caught me after going to said local hockey team and watching them smash god’s favorites 8-3 so i am evangelizing #did i watch them trip and slip slip around the ice yes was it so much fun also yes.#i love my wingies to death and my big teams but there’s also something super nice about being able to go to a game in person (and also saw #a post from the grizzlies [ten out of ten team you should follow them!!! they did a video like this asking who people’s valentines would be #it’s on my blog tagged with the utah grizzlies i think] with one of my guys who just signed there and i was like 🥺🥺 so. in the same vein as #me checking out a book abt minor league baseball that’s gonna break my heart i get really romantic abt semi-pro/pro/college hockey leagues #liv in the replies #ok now to what you actually asked which was like. RPF and to that i say: agreed and i was gonna look up Bryson and the team roster because #i am here for the goalie romanticism plot. i at all times think you should romance your goalie your goalies should be wined and dined #*UPDATE FOR EVERYONE I JUST GOOGLED THE ROSTER AND DO YOU REMEMBER HOW I WASN’T SURE HOW TO SPELL S(H)(E)A(W)N??? YEAH GUESS. G U E S S #I JUST LAUGHED SO HARD TEA CAME OUT OF MY NOSE I CAN’T BREATHE NOTHING COULD HAVE PREPARED ME FOR THIS. TRYING NOT TO WHEEZE &FAILING LIKE #SHJON. HIS NAME IS SPELLED SHJON.#also mason does not in fact have a roster photo. rip they were like actually… that’s our polygamous housewife… also mason already KNOWING #the joey voyles sugar daddy checks out btw. ALSO CANNOT BELIEVE THAT SETH SAID HE WANTED SHJON TO DO HIS FINANCES & SHJON’S THE ONE SAYING #YEAH I’D GET A SUGAR DADDY AND THEN THE GOALIE CALLS HIM A HOPELESS ROMANTIC??? WHERE IS *THAT* FIC WITH THE GOALIE SUGAR DADDY #OK DIJON MUSTARD BOY #anyway i want to daydream in the hopeless romantic + old school world with you… chin in hands kicking my feet giggling… making the goalie #take a magazine quiz with us to see if his crush (shjon) likes him back. mcelroy baby so many other guys would marry you didn’t you hear #AND NOW I NEED TO KNOW THE CORRELATION BETWEEN POSITION AND NAMING UR LINEMATES VS YOUR GOALIEEEE #gonna compile a list of facts about Mason that are just: WAIT ALSO NO ONE ELSE KNOWS THIS THERE ARE TWO (2) MASONS ON THE TEAM!!! i assume #they’re all talking about holler but it should be noted. anyway. Mason: can cuddle good personality would make 7ft babies can color good #colorado mesa university

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crossbackpoke-check · 3 days ago

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hello everyone. i apologize for posting a random d3 acha team from colorado but this video has the most incomprehensible yet homosexual energy that i've been boggling at for several minutes now.

several things going on here after the social girl asks who they would marry on the team

the multiple guys who said they would raise kids in a way that suggested actual pregnancy would be involved

the guy who said his teammate was breedable

the guy who said his brother

the guy who said his teammates because he has a "massive--"

the coach looking visibly relieved that he was not asked who of his players he would marry

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#KASPER I JUST LAUGHED SO HARD I ALMOST THREW UP COULD NOT *BREATHE* MOUTH OPEN TO THE FLOOR #THANK YOU FOR YOUR SERVICE (this is exactly what the doctor ordered. straight shot of 5HT) (you'll understand context when i post wip wed)#i don't. i genuinely don't have any words i just need all of you to watch this it is 2:12 of straight (ha) blatant homosexuality #like it's not even homoerotic they're just so comfortably gay that it runs back around and i'd believe they're straight #like wrestlers. for a sport that from the outside looks soooo homosexually coded wrestlers are (for the most part) so comfortable #in their own sexuality and very confidently being like yeah i'm straight and they're chill. that's the energy here. AND THAT ALL OF THEM #HAVE AN ANSWERED QUEUED UP???? social girlie i am kissing you on the mouth for this but please can we get name labels.#i need to know who the popular guys are. who the FUCK is mason? bryson? and why are they all marrying him. i want to see larry.#also every time they say “our babies” i take the world's most unhinged panic shudder breath because i am in the living room and can't SCREA #“bryson. for sure. 'cause he's the hottest ginger in the world” hello?? “it might be basic but.. bryce” so do you guys just REGULARLY #have discussions about who you'd marry? do u all just collectively know bryce is beautiful HOW IN THE WORLD IS NAMING ANY OF YOUR TEAMMATES #A BASIC ANSWER???? also this is so late but prevs so agreed breedable is like. not even horny here. insincere. you can tell he's doing it #for the giggles even if he DOES think larry is cute and breedable. wait bro come BACK i deeply need to know the implications of #“only one--maybe two--reasons” with a VERY pointed look at whomst?? bc for sure i thought the first reason was his dick but WHAT'S THE 2ND #NOT BEN 😭 BECAUSE HE'S MEAN TO ME 🥺 YEAH AND I BET YOU LOVE IT god sometimes you do ask to be hit like a mac truck and. delivered.#YOUR BROTHER??????? well i guess if s(h)(e)a(w)n is going to do your finances (sorry. didn't know how to spell which shawn/sean)#ooohh 😳 i'd marry joey 🥰😇 'cause he could be like my sugar daddy 🤗 HI FOR THE LOVE OF GOD HELLO #HE'D!!! MAKE!!! A GREAT HOUSEWIFE!!! WOULD YOU CARE TO ELABORATE ON THAT STATEMENT ABOUT BRAYDEN??? also i do not have the world's best ear #but can someone. did he say mason because he can color really good? otherwise i don't know what word in the english language that is.#SPEAKING OF WORDS NOT IN THE ENGLISH LANGUAGE the mutual hopeless romantic pining bro (which one is s(h)(e)a(w)n & now he has to pick #between marrying his brother & the goalie ig (i'd pick the goalie) ALSO “he's old-school” does that mean he kisses u on the mouth after u #make a save or WHAT. i hope to god s(h)(e)a(w)n is the one that says “eli (goalie?) cause he's a tender loving guy”.#colorado mesa university #<- i think. because i am 95% sure a has sent me them before and/or i've seen them because i remember those jerseys lmao #and the amount of echl/ohl/ncaa/alphabet soup college hockey/whl/del content i have saved should be embarrassing. however.#i know i said i didn't have a lot to say but at the end of it all this is still so ??? incomprehensible correct. unfathomable. homosexual??

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crossbackpoke-check · 3 days ago

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tagged by ko @tofumilanesa for wip wednesday! big shout out to writevember for making me feel like i can actually call any of these works in progress… your guide to my emoji code under the cut

wip!

🪻🐈‍⬛ - the doc title is still just. YOWLING but i am like 7/8 of the way done with omega yamo fic and hopefully salem isn’t reading this so i can just drop it over a year later with no warning <3

🫃2️⃣ - DEWEY^2 P2!!!! she is almost done (i am lying) but she is so close i can almost taste it. sorry to my pwp that grew its own feelings baby

😇🤭 (🕒 -> 🕜) - rip i’m not telling you about this one until it’s posted but it IS complete aside from being ao3 formatted and the eight billion edits i inevitably do right before full-sending it

☁️💧 - cloud petey fic, which exists mostly as an embarrassingly large tag on a different blog and is condensing into a narrative about as well as water at 30° N/S. the time loop fic also falls under this description

eternally in progress (short list)

🌑🐕 - tyler borzoituzzi exists… there is an index of scenes/plot points… it plays like a movie in my head…

💯❕- fantastic! ‘verse

👁️👻 - stevie brandon seeing ghosts au, which has eight different (now nine i guess but you haven't seen the mustache adam post yet) plots. sorry

just. rotating like a microwave

🍎 - because they didn’t have a pomegranate emoji, this is what i used for the fic that feels like it should be a 50k connor bedard character study hanif abdurraqib/cathal kelly thesis about legends and mythmaking in sports and eating your young. yes i know pomegranates aren’t actually pomes and apples are but it’s fine

🦈 - the one cat da fuck they doing over there meme but about the sharks just like. in general. more on this at five

tagging @colap1nto, @songsandswords, @whitenikes, @gordiemeow, @acheronist, and anybody else who wants to share!!

#i regret to inform the public (beloved mutuals who read my tags) that we have hit the doldrums re: creativity.#got SO excited because i had no prep for tomorrow and got out unreasonably early and proceeded to do nothing 🤩 zero motivation/inspiration #anyway. being a big baby. have looked at dewey^2 for too long and now hate it which makes me sad because i was on SUCH a roll solving plot #and really i just need to pick something else from my (looks at smudged hand) 10000 other documents but none of them are calling my nameeee #maybe i’ll ao3 format 🕒 -> 🕜 or maybe i’ll read wandering stars (did finish a book this morning) and then hope something strikes me #preferably very aggressively like with the force of a train? OHHHHHH YOU GUYS MAYBE I COULD MAKE SOMETHING FOR HOLY JUMPING MACKEREL FEST #because you know what DID hit me upside the head like a 2x world champ coming from behind with the steel chair WAS BERGY & JOE GUESS WHO #joey first of all did not deserve to lose those games and second of all i am SO immensely delighted i don’t know if it’s on here yet i am #so sure at least one of my beloved drw moots (beth and nik are likely culprits but all of u would) has it on here yet BUT THERE’S SO MUCH #BERGY VERY BLATANTLY CALLING JOE A NERD BC HE KNOWS ALL ABT HIS TEAMMATES &LOVES THEM!! BERGY NOT KNOWING A SINGLE FUCKIN THING ABT ANYONE!#the absolute unsurprised yet still heartbroken disbelief & disappointment of joe saying ‘he uses black tape!’ oh that’s rent-free forever #anyway.#liv in the replies #p.s. it's fic friday now don't worry about how late i am #as always ask away ask about anything in post tags y'all know i love to yap u are always welcome in the inbox or dms #i was trying to be slightly less mysterious about all of these but i am a secret-keeper sorry and also you need to live inside my brain #in order to understand half of what i'm referencing sometimes. sorry.#also there are some un-hockey fic projects i want to do but i have. so little time in my life for anything sometimes that we will make do

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crossbackpoke-check · 4 days ago

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doin’ that hockey with Dewey

#SOMEBODY GIVE THAT MAN A CHILD PLEASEEEEEEE #also brings me a lot of joy to see dewey1 keep up w/improving accessibility in hockey & youth programming for underprivileged communities #after being in minnesota and taking over dumba’s program with dewey2 :’) proof it meant something i guess #i’m not crying but i am saying sometimes when i see jon merrill in his protect trans kids shirts i break down & this is getting there #the bar is on the floor! i know! but you can still be touched by moments of humanity! so to see somebody carry over their work is lovely #brandon duhaime #washington capitals #and he’s STILL wearing those fuckass sunglasses & i STILL am daydreaming about the wishbabies fic that fits perfectly now that he’s on wsh #brandon sitting exactly like the kids in the last two pics like yeah. yeah <3 they love him enough to copy him or some things never change!#looking so attentively at the kids to make sure they’re doing alright that the socmeds can’t get a straight on picture of him like ok!!#and i love his pink roller blades they make me so happy #also for me personally. GUARDS! make connor dewar obsessed with the little sharp uneven edge of his crooked incisor. bc i am.#if you think i have zoomed in to absolutely unreasonable levels for fic nuance purposes well. thank god (capsmin) for 4k high image quality #UPDATE EVERYONEEEEEE 11/14 POSTING THIS BECAUSE. i did use it copiously the other day i feel like i should share with the class but ALSOOOO #MY BONES ARE HEALED IT’S ***** **** WEDNESDAY THE DEWEYS PLAYED EACH OTHER TONIGHT I CAN’T BELIEVE THE UNIVERSE COINCIDENTALLY ALIGNED #ALL OF THESE THINGS THAT I DID NOT INTENTIONALLY PLAN TOGETHER YOU GUYSSSSS DEWEY^2 P2 IS GOING TO BE UP SOON!!! IF I HAD MY SHIT TOGETHER #IT WOULD’VE BEEN DONE ON THIS AUSPICIOUS DAY BUT I DO NOT!!! I AM TAKING IT AS A SIGN I *WILL* FINISH & POST BY **** ** *** **** SATURDAY!!!#i’m not actually here if you see me here in the next. three days bully me until i make the dewey^2 announcement.#also i arranged the 8-track into the order today too so. really i just have three (four?) scenes to conquer and then we’re done #pspspsp if anyone wants to make sure this isn’t terrible. please. It sounds like I have never been in an argument in my life based off this #but also i have arm wrestled with ~12 different versions & will STILL probably come out the loser. begging on my hands & knees etc etc 🙏😭

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crossbackpoke-check · 6 days ago

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descent - henrietta goodman

detroit free press // AP // AP // gonzalez // detroit news

#no yeah. yeah. it makes sense.#absolutely cannot elaborate. something about the bones of it you know? this with the skeleton one about fight night #darren mccarty #detroit ride or die #colorado avalanche #fight night at the joe #S T O P #know me know me know me #i-#need this to live in a little flip out picture in my wallet actually

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crossbackpoke-check · 6 days ago

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#mmmHHMMMHGJDKSODJIH #these are the kinds of things we DREAM about. oh to be an alternate with my wife the captain gently fixing my collar #and running a longing hand down my chest afterwards to ��smooth it out’ when she really doesn’t have to #AND I’M NOT MAKING ANY OF IT UP!!!!!#@ god i see what you have done for others can you PLEASE put me in contact with the department of pwhl wags i think my application got lost #am i a skilled and accomplished professional athlete no but do i have a lot of other redeeming qualities yes just say the word—#also i love erin in the corner live slug reacting even though she’s not looking because she KNOWS what disgusting cuteness is going on #and then laura turning to face her like erinnnnn erin how does it look!!! and erin’s like. the exact same as the one i’m wearing.#but YES your wife fixed it for you it looks very nice and laura’s just like 😄😄#laura stacey #marie-philip poulin #erin ambrose #pwhl montreal #montreal victoire #anyway i don't ever really have any valid commentary other than AWOOGA whenever i reblog pwhl content and i feel so bad about it #like. uh. do u want to see my jersey thoughts? i have those! i can do a jersey ranking or commentary if asked i think #(not now tho. probably shouldn't tomorrow. no idea when i have time because: when do i ever have time that i do not have to forcibly make)

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crossbackpoke-check · 6 days ago

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Macklin Celebrini shares a special connection to Draymond Green and the Golden State Warriors

#‘weird in the tags’ god bless thank you for putting this back up ko and i were LITERALLY just talking about the mack massive daddy issues???#like you know what good for op to curate their own experience! block at will! but i cannot stop wheezing about it like what did you EXPECT #i am soooo chill and normal at all times and not using that as fuel to be even freakier BECAUSE I DIDN’T EVEN GET THE CHANCE TO BE WEIRDDDD #like i WILL play around w/daddy issues but i’m not a huge darkfic person kink tomato whatever but it did make me SO reactively like oh BET!#anyway. much to furiously gnaw on in this video including the fact that rick is definitely categorized as a dilf and i think all of mack’s #friends definitely wanted him. who stacy’s dad’d mack and made it very very obvious they were coming onto rick freshly from mack’s room all #messed up. (i need to side note for everyone that angel of small death & the codeine scene came up on shuffle mid-writing this &. thoughts)#gotta also prev literally everyone on this because: YES just go in the notes and read the tags but i need this one because it made me laugh #steve kerr watching rick treat his kids like his players: hey rick do you ever just... watch a movie with them...#god’s most stilted FaceTime on camera makes me 🫡 about what they’re normally like but TEEKAYS!!! yes??? it IS a command. because that with #rick saying ‘you know i need to make sure they excel in all parts of their life i take pride in seeing them as people’ about his athletes #with mack talking about picking a goal every day even if it’s not the hardest (we don’t need to discuss him saying it’s weird if he’s not #doing anything yet) but how often do u think rick gave him goals that aren’t related to physicality. like there’s a fic side 2 that (weird)#but also just something about rick saying that about his athletes and applying it to his kids like yes i understand but one of these things #is not like the other. one of these things is completely dependent upon you for their life and so you shouldn’t be ‘considering’ all parts #of them as if it’s a separate goal? aim? like that is first that’s a management strategy not a familial love. which i’m sure exists BUT #did u learn to be that way w/ur athletes bc u had kids or b4 /pos or bc when u had kids that were whole humans u went oh. &realized u had t #does lead to what feels like a very cyclical loop like i want to know if any of the kids ever changed their sport or changed their mind or #if that was considered giving up or if it was that if you were good enough he was proud of you so you tried harder even if you didn’t like #it because to keep at this this was to have his love and attention on you so. circular yes? we understand what i mean here. feedback loops #he loves you because he gives you purpose you give him purpose he is shaping you into a Whole Person delicately considered and thought out #anyway excellent detail for mack characterization here even outside of the r. celebrini content with his older brother saying he was always #looking up to mack the ‘i feel weird if i have a day off’ (baby i can project SOOO many issues onto you) mack i need to ask you if you #struggle with making decisions and feeling unmoored in your own life while being exactly where you intended to be. did someone in your life #make sure you had everything together because MAN could we unpack a lot there if we speak. it was out of love but love can still fuck u up #macklin celebrini #san jose sharks #golden state warriors #also i think everyone else needs to hear the statement that mack has possibly THE most potential for a cross-sports romance #but is so effectively cockblocked by being rick’s kid & living that existence that it’s never occurred to him. mack we could’ve had it ALL

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#having an absolutely sane & normal time here guys because why was my first reaction upon seeing jeek’s head WHIP the fuck around like that #‘yeah i’d hunt that for sport’#HELLO?????? excuse me??????#anyway the much more rational part of my brain is using this as justification that of COURSE jeek can see ghosts. who else is he looking at #and yapping to. what does a baby girl have such dark eye circles for if not to indulge me in my haunting stories and be beautiful #u know how some people have a biological clock or like. the ovulation horniness swear to god mine’s 5ks &hunting jeek for sport. intertwine #He Is A Prey Animal. To Me. beautiful big eyes & a shifter universe where he has fucked up digits to skate around on like a haunted deer #joel eriksson ek #minnesota wild #stevie brandon seeing ghosts au #like also i just can HEAR the scene in my head of this but of course i don’t totally know how jeek feels ghosts like quinn of course thinks #of it as waves and jeek has the edge of malevolence or at the very least of spirits needed to be appeased that don’t necessarily care one #way or the other? the very first jeek sees ghosts posts has the actual lore but right now i am thinking just. emotions? like jeek feels the #sense of eyes and watching just the pinprick of Not Right and a shiver down his spine whips his head to try and sense it before someone #chirps at him ‘what’cha got there boy?’ and that’s when his head whips the fuck back around to yap at them because he’s aggravated of #course he’s a little aggrieved jeek knows there’s something there now and nobody else does and now he’s got to be responsible for keeping #an eye out on his man AND the vague menacing presence lurking just out of sight. i think i would like ghosts to be scared of jeek and #that’s why they won’t quite let him see them because jeek knows the Old Magic the folk magic about ghosts and he believes. which means he #can get rid of them. quinn believes but he rationalizes—stevie never believed in ghosts—anze is a good question but jeek will make ghosts #go if he doesn’t want them to be there and sometimes they’re not ready. after all jeek did say he’d be a ghost hunter and sometimes hunting #is putting things out of their misery. without predators no ecosystem can survive and jeek is less a predator than a mercy it sounds too #cruel but it’s not quite a symbiosis either the right interaction framework will come to me in time. anyway. jeek snapping around and not #actually seeing anything but knows it was there by the vacant still space it left behind the absence of feeling i know i OH WAIT DID I?#like give jeek the classic horror movie ghosts symptoms. jeek gets the changing temperatures (maybe that’s the overlap between all of them?)#and he gets the rattling bones and the things swinging like jeek never properly talks to a ghost or sees them in the way quinn sees echos—#jeek gets purposes. little quests one could say to fulfill and conquer boons to offer and salt over his shoulder. ghosts are not a thing to #be kept jeek tells brandon &neither are regrets. time is always chasing us &not everyone makes it a ghost is a past that couldn’t be outrun #also i finally went back to my own posts & looked & i WAS right down to the fact that jeek has to do something (mylings ask to be buried) &#the stevie doesn’t believe in ghosts is in the same vein as henrik ‘you say that like they’re still here’ ‘because they are’ quote. oh GOD #thank you to my brain for finally spitting out ‘well anze believes in ghosts as much as he believes in anything else because why wouldn’t

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crossbackpoke-check · 9 days ago

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🤙🤙 (kavin_mistry)

#HELLOOO BEAUTIFULL HOW ARE YOUUUU I MISSS YOUUUUU (shouted across the country)#truly the brief moment we had it all when we had gi & gemel. but i love to see him thriving!!! didn’t he adopt baby sharks in san jose!!!!#jan rutta #givani smith #san jose sharks #detroit ride or die forever & always #spinning the schedule post like a dial so that it comes out randomly and brings me joy

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crossbackpoke-check · 10 days ago

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I just need you to know I was reading your tags on the Sillinger/Fantilli Deadpool/Wolverine gifset going "YES THE EYE CONTACT! AND COLE'S WHOLE FACE JOURNEY! AND *OH MY GOD* ADAM'S HAND ALMOST BUT NOT GRIPPING AT COLE'S BICEP" like that near grip Adam took had me fainting like a fucking Victorian era man who saw a woman's bare ankles like W.H.A.T.

I neeeeed to write them omg.

ANON. ANON!!!! please. write them!!!!! and send me a link if/when you do 😇 i’ll prepare my fainting couch (the floor)

#shout out to the columbus blues org for last year deciding they were going to pair up adam and cole for all their nhl (???) playoff media #we really. i still have the world’s worst powerpoint presented by adam and cole in my drafts somewhere and i can’t post it #bc i wanted to make a fake PowerPoint to put on the screen as a joke & it was funny but i didn’t write it down before I went to bed so :/#liv in the replies #also like. what was up w/that nhl?? why them 😭 not complaining just so confused. adam hype wasn’t at its peak NOR was tate mcrae revenge #so they really were like. Hmmm. I like these two little freaks. this one is well-trained. let’s use him #like do you ever think about the blessing that the UMich social girlies bestow on nhl media teams by training all of these men so well.#they do not skip a SINGLE question they will be bullied into it they will give you an answer even if it’s stupid god bless.#adam fantilli #cole sillinger #columbus blue jackets #i REFUSE to admit defeat at the hands of the umich boys #worm. worm. WORM!!!#as we all know i don’t have the slightest idea who cole sillinger is irl but i DO want him to be involved with his teammates.#love thy goalie love thy stunning star prospect… OHHHHH NARRATIVE UNLOCKED OH NOOOOO COLE KNOWS HE’S NOT THAT GOOD SO HE TAKES CARE OF #EVERYONE ELSEEEEEE OH NOOOOOO this message brought to you a) by my elvis merzlikins agenda at all time so that whole sentence but b) by me #mid-realization trying to be like Cole’s not like. bad right you can’t say this but then remembering everyone pulling out his stats to do #him dirty while the whole tate mcrae breakup/release of details was going down and i was like oh actually. like he could be. ALSO on that #note which was so messy i do have to say that news was a shock bc i knew cole sillinger from years prior when everyone held him up like a #bug they pulled from under a rock like who is THIS after he sat front row at fashion week to support his gf so. the threads of this ALSO #come from the initial vision of ‘damn isn’t this a nice one?? a nice hockey??? like lmfaoooo you guys he’s the wag and loves it’) but. this #is also my failing as a storyteller that I love this and will put it in everything but. service kink accommodating for others to give what #he thinks he can’t to allow them to be better. also just. i watched him clean adam fantilli’s floors you can’t go up from that. ANYWAY

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crossbackpoke-check · 11 days ago

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instructions for the journey by Pat Schneider

#for this to come out of my queue incidentally today of all days. ik ik but the kismet sometimes think we need this AND it comes w/narrative #THE!!! CATERPILLAR!! AND!!! THE!!! CRYSALLIS!!!!!!#the chrysalis and the caterpillar #coming into your body after all these years and how now you have to sit with it. you have to sit with the pain and feel it #i just think sometimes about the coming out raw tender skin wet and unformed of emerging from a life you once had and everything hurts #and there’s nothing to push through & there’s no goal to reach beyond becoming & that’s not a record you can break a milestone to be set #don’t grieve for it #coming out of the long winter the winter of your life i KNOW there’s another poem i’m thinking of with that but i just mean sometimes #you spend so long on a sheet of ice only to have it crack beneath your feet it was only ever inches thick it was never enough to bear you #if all else fails. if all else fails. here’s something you can’t hold #and i think about how you test for nerve damage how we can’t differentiate wet from cold & the body raw when your nerve endings are damaged #i don’t know. i don’t know. a dawn hearalded by bells pulling the siren to start the game coming back to a place you once knew and i know #i don’t technically have anything for the caterpillar and the chrysalis but because alexandra and i were talking about it I can’t help but #richie and carts #the kids calling him uncle mike while he babysits and they nap and he washes their plates in the sink and it hurts and it’s raw #& he thought he’d gotten over this he thought he’d be okay but he feels himself slipping right back into that love like an old pair of shoe #and how it feels when you knew somebody when you were younger and to see them now and grown up and your edges don’t quite fit together #the same as they used to and it’s rubbing you raw the uncertain fit of it the cognitive dissonance of once and almost again.#proprioceptive dysfunction your body’s not where you left it you’ve lost yourself in space&time & you’re putting your foot back down wrong #and you don’t want to acknowledge it you don’t want it to be over (nicke & tj still on LTIR. for example.) but you have to.#that feel it as a command is just. MAKE! DO! here i am making unmaking doing undoing. building a new life. even if it kills me (guys who #retired & could never come back. paul kariya. sometimes when you give it up it has to be for good a skin you’ve outgrown. u can’t go back)#hanif abdurraqib all things do not pass. sometimes that which does not kill u sits heavy until turns into a single counterforce that might #and the poet of an ordinary heartbreak even this is a prayer. even this #it’s easy to lose this tenderly unfolding moment #trade deadline tragedy #(also i have been so lying to all of you. i don't per se have a narrative but i HAVE for quite a bit now been saying jumbo/patty as this.#this was just in the drafts first & then in the queue so this is from SO long ago. APRIL. rip richie carts but it's still true in some ways #& by that i mean ko’s solidified my jumbo/patty brainworms & validated me so <3 but anyway. evidenced by my 8000 tags i don’t have anything #in any way RESEMBLING a plot i just have a million poems where i point & go 🫵 caterpillar chrysalis?? which is a reference to ANOTHER poem)

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from the back catalogue of my beloved rabble-rouser cathal kelly. this time on connor bedard and making boys into marketing tools...

#MR. KELLY!!!! MR. KELLY I LOVE YOUR WORKS!!!!!#god. cosmic kismet that i have a bedsy god-vessel blessing breakdown and then wake up to IMMEDIATELY see cathal kelly on the dash #should’ve known he would have something to fuck me up about it i have SO many quotes from him saved because they make me feel %<€|*|*€<^•#especially because my hold just came in for there’s always this year yesterday and i started reading it the universe really was conspiring.#(what does it say about me personally that i had typed it as ‘there’s always next year’ because i thought that was right and didn’t realize #until i was reading it today that i had done that. emotional violence i think. also Future me here: finished it & i Cried. just fyi)#yes i have so many annotations and i’m through first intermission it’s fine. one of them does happen to say bedsy it’s totally fine #WHAT ARE YOU NEW? WHAT’S FAIR GOT TO DO WITH IT?#Among all the things Bedard has to do at the moment I wonder if enjoying it is anywhere on the list?#<- i am OBSESSED with the way cathal kelly is murdering him in this article. don’t talk to rookies etc etc CALL HIM OUTTTT like he fully #acknowledges that bedard is carrying the weight of an unborn legacy on his shoulders so it’s a trip to the media who should be talking also #to the veterans of the team and not just bedard like he’s set up for failure here regardless of what he does they’ve already written his #narrative and i LOVE that kelly doesn’t let him get away with it. says fuck you if it doesn’t matter why NOT be the story of the century.#you are not a passive figure in this narrative! you are choosing to be! (there is also the alternate reading of the last line that kelly is #wondering if it’s even possible for bedard to enjoy his life @all but i love the idea of kelly questioning the entirety of the mythological #construction that connor’s bought into. in your steps of the hero’s journey you’re so hellbent on completing did u stop to think about joy?#god. if i could do it without having to invent an entire character i would put cathal kelly as the voice of god in this fic by which i mean #connor in a press conference and cathal kelly invisible in the mass of flashing lights & camera lenses the reflections & eyes an amorphous #mass that asks him this to make him question it that asks connor what are you doing with your life what does it mean to be alive and that’s #what makes connor realize he can pull out the blessings. tries to answer kelly’s question but it gets stuck in his throat feels a tightness #in his chest (yes i want this one to have something to do with his heart) connor’s silence gets filled before he can make an answer tries #to say wait wait who was that can you repeat the question but no one knows who it was this is sUCH a heavy wink wink nod. also i know i #said voice of god and i need everyone to know i can’t think of the proper literary term for what i want but there is one believe me. ALSO #i will admit that i haven’t seen interview with the vampire & therefore this could be SO off base but from what i see you guys posting abt #this is giving daniel molloy questioning the vampires vibes (except without the psychosexual armand tension). like maybe it’s just me #picturing connor in that grey room that some of the interviews happen in but that is aesthetically (v much not actually) how this not-convo #happens. sorry for assassinating iwtv i promise i will watch it eventually it looks good it’s just. new media curse. ANYWAY NOT RELEVANT #hello prevs ur unhinged for that one this sounds like the epitaph to a 50k behemoth fic ->#connor bedard #cathal kelly

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#oh connor i’m so sorry you look gorgeous here but it did in fact make me decide you’re going to blink out your eyeballs in #HELLO PREVS UR UNHINGED FOR THAT ONE this sounds like the epitaph to a 50k behemoth fic ->#connor bedard #which funnily enough does kinda have its own title even if that’s not the filing tag bc i don’t have the wherewithal to actually add it #chicago hockey #like. the way connor rubs his eye how beautifully hazel they are here i don’t know if he actually wears contacts but i want him to have an #itch he can’t scratch it hurts like there’s something in his eyes and he finally just rubs it like the second gif and feels something slip #presses his eye back into the socket feels something folding underneath the eyelid and he can’t see at first when he opens it and it freaks #him out his eyes watering maybe he’s already in the bathroom/locker room i don’t know exactly but he wobbles his way over to the mirror #keeps blinking keeps rubbing his eye finally gets a grasp on it like it’s got hooks beneath his eyelid little feet trying to hold on as if #it doesn’t want to come out and he finally pulls it out blinks once twice and then in the mirror he can see the heterochromia the crumpled #little disc he ripped off of his eye the tear tracks stained dark greenish brown like oil leaking he can smell the rot inside his nose salt #and tears all the melanin dripped out of his eyes to leave him with what he was born with no shine no sparkle NO VISION. as in.#blessed to see what everyone else can’t to look at the game differently and i don’t know if i want connor to lose both of them at the same #time (i don’t think so) but i DO have the like directly afterwards where connor talks about ‘The color came back after a few days /#darkening to the grey they used to be without anyone able to know the difference. if Connor looks closely he can see the flatness of his #left eye & the unnatural shine to his right / the rings of color just a hint too vibrant to be unremarkable / the layers piled over each #other like so many veils / curtains drawn over the spindles of black reaching towards his pupil the hole in everything where there is no #light to escape. eyes are a window to the soul / & connor’s not sure he want to look at whatever’s looking back out at him w/o something in #the way. the red irritated veins in his left eye stay for a good week afterwards and the guys all laugh joke about the kid getting into #fights getting into (who on chicago before bert was there would have weed i need to google the roster)’s weed but he’s glad for it the #slow healing of something that’s his something he can trust. i think at some point maybe connor loses the other eye NOT from him pulling it #out i did say that little bit about parasite hooks and the pupil of the center of things & so maybe i’m a little bit obsessed with the idea #of the blessings taking connor’s eye away from HIM the last little self contained world forcing him to decide if he wants it gone he’s #going to have to lose the whole thing (oh that got SO much darker than i wanted lmao but maybe connor shows up to Mason with an eye patch #and it’s a cliff-hanger and you don’t know whether or not he did anything until Mason takes it off and sees the scar but his eye is fine he #just had the equivalent of like. a floater popping behind his eye that kind of surgery to remove a little mass that he tosses to Mason who #puts it with his ever growing weird ass collection of god-pieces he’s going to stitch back into connor. except connor says ‘maybe you #should leave that blessing out’ and whenever mason looks close enough (he does. often. kiss kiss) he can see the way connor’s right eye #dilates just a second too long too much the perfect flares of color in his left eye that connor gave up. he does just fine with only one

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Lucas was sooooo confident that it was a chicken...

#i’m not here this can’t hurt me i am fortified with goulash and i am KISSING MY CAT ON THE FOREHEAD INSTEAD OF SCREAMING IN THE LIVING ROOM #I JUST!!!! I JUST CLEARED MY DRAFTS (ish) I JUST HAD A BREAKDOWN DRW SOCMIN YOU CANmT DO THIS TO ME PLEASE LET ME LIVE LET ME B R E A T H E #i will speak one word of defense for them which is that the sounds we use to vocalize animals are different in different countries #& in different languages which is really cool when you’re talking about accents & vocalizing sounds but sweetie u didn’t get the animal…#BUT LUCAS THAT’S NOT A CHICKENNNNN I can’t BREATHE I am laughing so hard this is everything to me. mo hearing lucas say ‘a chicken’#and that second of silence says so much like he looks at him honest to god searches his soul and sees lucas isn’t kidding and then loses it #the way mo smiles at the screen first… mo’s fucking QUACKINGGGG like ok points for versimilitude i guess but you could’ve just said quack 😭#mo big full body laugh vs lucas big full-body laugh swinging the camera all the way around EYE have emotional motion sickness watching this #the fuck-ass ribbit to the strangles (please imagine the weird small text you know exactly the one i mean) ‘tHat’s nOt a froG 😮‍💨🫣🫨🫵#lucas raymond #moritz seider my beloved #detroit ride or die #super rookie cohabitation polycule #‘this is NOT it’ do you. are you trying. lucas can i PLEASE TAKE YOU TO THE ZOO WHY DID YOU MAKE A CHICKEN NOISE TRYING TO RIBBIT 😭😭😭#PLEASE LET ME SHOW U ALL THE ANIMALS this is literally my dream & I don’t think I could do it with a straight face but the chaotic energy 🫡#mo CURLSSSSS #I don’t care if you were trying to nope out of the animal sounds activity by calling it not it I WILL be making u go up to all the exhibits #truly encapsulates their relationship in one video. sweet baby ray ray my pet rock 🥰 and mo cheshire cat grin evil. beautiful.#because it was nawt that funny i do also have to roast Lucas for his reaction like if i were mo i’d be on the floor dying but lucas. lucas.#lucas your crush is visible from SPACE #NO EXACTLY ->#a bonded pair of orange cats #with one shared brain cell... 😭#we just got a new baby to be friends with boris (little black cat) because we’re gonna lose effie p soon here and so far they have been #so stupid and so attached at the hip just like their namesakes and now every time i see them i’m just gonna be like. 🫵#mo (boris the menace black cat also very stupid) & lucas (theo god’s biggest idiot orange cat in love with boris)#that voice crack on how does a fROg sound *proceeds to not make a noise anywhere close to a frog*#i want to know if he would’ve known it was a frog if mo hadn’t told him 😭

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You're the best friend that I ever had Been with you such a long time You're my sunshine And I want you to know That my feelings are true I really love you -You’re My Best Friend by Queen

#NOOOOOOOOOO NO NO NO NO NOOOOO THE PSYCHOLOGICAL DAMAGE IS TOO MUCH I CAN’T!!!! I CAN’T I am WAILING #if there was not a cat sleeping on my lap I would be bouncing off the walls vibrating shrieking & as it is I am BARELY holding it together #Mojo(e) Jojo’s Top 2353 Super Rookie Cohabituation Psychological Damaging Hits. oh my god it is one TKFO after another here let me BREATHEEE #moritz cat affectionately slapping the shit out�� of lucas… burying his face in mos shoulder just CLINGING on for dear life redfaced&sweaty #has anyone. have we. this is another reason i need to get good at discord so i can TALK about this but the PERFECT! perfect size difference #where lucas slots right into mo’s shoulder drives me incoherent. He. mo affectionately bullying him every time but ALSO the way he is!!!#touching him!!! caressing his face!!! i!!! lucas’ big full-body laughs oh i CANNOT that lions video haunts me in my dreams every single day #lucas your crush is visible from SPACE #ok ALSO the progression from lucas jumping on mo to the sheer joy when mo catches him to the fact that i am NEVER forgiving you for the #gorgeous cinematic moment that is the on the knees spinning celly into mo’s arms that i still cannot believe is even REAL on that music… 😭😱👿#mo catching lucas… always AND THEN WE GET TO THE MORITZ IS SO DOWN BAD FOR THAT LITTLE GIY MY PET ROCK mo staring longingly at him hello #we can SEE you and then their ritual of sprinting into each other?? that is well known enough the equipment guy/staff is standing off to #the side waiting for mo to blast past him and mo crawling his way into every celly with lucas ohhhh please. lucas’ little excited hops!!!#mo secret smile buried in his hand AND THEN MO HELPING LUCAS OFF THE ICEEEE lord knows i have already had such a breakdown about the photo #Shopping of them into the titanic pose 😭😭 and then THAT interview where they lose it into giggles you have one (1) brain cell between you #AND IT’S RIGHT ON THAT PART OF THE MUSIC WHYYYYY also them just. making out in front of fabs & dyl in the cellies akdjwkdjw have some COUTH #every single time they skate up behind each other and head bonk i simultaneously gain 10000 years of live and lose 10000 years. ESPECIALLY #the tender one right close to the end before they start talking about mo coming to defend lucas like BOYFRIENDS IN LOVEEEE SEIDER’S COMING #moritz seider my beloved #lucas raymond #detroit ride or die #super rookie cohabitation polycule #fancam!#the loop is also personally devastating because i just watch this on repeat over and over. and every time i see something new like the #slowmo roast of lucas heart-eyes’ing at mo in the cooking video 😭 lucas he was burning meatballs don’t look so down bad!!! challenge failed #YOU’RE MY BEST FRIEND YOU’RE MY SUNSHINE SUN WAS SHINING SO WAS MORITZZZZ

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Mo & Lucas showing off their travel day outfits | Oct. 25, 2024

#i just had to do a BREATHING EXERCISE and i am still shaking like a thoroughbred racehorse with LMN paresis #oh my god. shut UP. SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UPPPPPPP PLEASEEEEE #does anyone remember the story about how mo & lucas used to have to go pick up cookies for the team before road trips.#yeah i don’t think that’s what this is but seeing that big takeout container in lucas’ hand made me think about it like yeah SURE i’m normal #the matching sweatshirts the black pants white shoes uniform but mo in his beanie and lucas in his hat so they have their own style GOD!!!!#mo’s tufts of hair sticking out are SO dear to me. please just once can i french braid your hair mo pleaseeee <- me n lucas both actually #what is lucas reading!!!!!!#also i love the signatures and i know the wingsmin does it for a lot of the pictures but every time i see it i’m like well that’s dope.#moritz seider my beloved #lucas raymond #detroit ride or die #rookies of the year #super rookie cohabitation polycule #also i’m not gonna lie i don’t think they’ll ever put out merch with the black wings logo simply because the team loves wearing it too much #socmin really knew exactly what we wanted with this photo spread too. lyon & kitty my beautiful joe smiling simme & berggy together MOOSE!!#i’m back. i’m full of tumeric and verve for life (garam masala). yes i did have to pace around in a circle while looking at this #sometimes i’m just speechless because it’s like. what fanfiction even is there. they just do these things in real life & i have to see them #the strongest case ever for i understand but it does not compel me like that chart abt good media/bad media/interesting gaps/complete story #they are sitting so firmly in the ‘what am i supposed to DO with all this story’ i am just here to bear witness to the madness.#by which i also do mean whatever is going on with lucas’ abs and mo’s chest. what are those sweatshirts made out of paper?? clingwrap??? 👀#ok. y’all are going to watch me either be the greatest detective in the world or give up in five minutes as i try to figure out what book #lucas is reading. it’s thin and there’s a horse and a german shepherd on the back cover and i feel like I’ve read it before #update after ?????. i know it’s a personal memoir i swear and maybe it’s the art of racing in the rain but i don’t think so. my search #history is going to be recommending ‘back cover’ to everything now bc i am certifiably losing it. also it may just look like noah kahan’s #album cover and I don’t actually know what this book is at all or maybe it’s not even a dog (german shepherd) and a horse at all!!

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Lucas: Like most things since we came here, both me and Mo had gone through pretty similar things. To have him through that as well was nice. Someone to ventilate, and you know, who gets it as well. Ken Daniels: Did you know — you mentioned Mo — did you know you'd be buddies with him as you are from the first time you ever met him? Lucas: No, no not at all. Probably the opposite. I remember I was playing against him when he was playing in Sweden — my last year in Sweden as well — we were playing against each other, and I thought he was… Ken: You can say it. Lucas: Yeah, [he’s not] fun to play against. He was just like… So I was like, “what's this guy's deal?” But uh, then I met him, and you know, we just clicked from the start, and yeah we're uh… yeah, happy to have him as a friend. Daniella Bruce: So what you're saying is [that] it's way more fun to play with Mo than against Mo? Lucas: Yeah, a hundred percent. A hundred percent. I mean, it's fun, though. Like you play against each other in practice, it's always fun, you know? We’re two competitive guys, usually go at it, but um… much rather have him on my team than against me. Ken: Are you [and Mo] like minded? And if you are, give me what you’re most like minded about and maybe the biggest difference between the two of you. Lucas: Yeah, I'd say we're both, I think uh… our humor is very similar so we have a lot of fun, um and then he's uh, he's maybe a little bit more structured than me, you know. He likes his things like… He likes it, you know, clean and tidy and like all this like… if it's me, it's more like “yeah, all right like we'll figure it out.” But um yeah no, we have a lot of fun.

#they don’t make words for the noises that just came from the depths of my throat behind my closed teeth i am going to pass out thank you #nik how could you DO THIS TO ME (i love you so much) (i had to physically force myself to read this without throwing my phone away i CAN’T)#ILL. SICK. TWISTED. STICK FIGURE GUY ON ALL FOURS WITH BLOOD IN HIS MOUTH RABID AND TEARING UP THE WALLS. that’s how i feel. unwell. feral.#but also i am just flat on the floor face down shrieking into the bog in the bottom of a very very dark hole where no one can find me ever.#could you!!! be normal about each other just ONCE!!!! i have been slowly amassing 2353 content because i can’t face it fully without losing #it but we may have reached critical mass exposure levels and you’re just gonna have to suffer through all of it with me in real time #lucas your crush is visible from SPACE #lucas raymond #detroit ride or die #ken daniels #daniella bruce #<- because i love her #moritz seider my beloved #<- because he’s the subject of this interview and i am going to SCREAM about it #every single one of these gif sets from this interview you made are a) beautiful and b) so emotionally damaging to me personally.#they’re writing the fanfic themselves!!! not to mention ken asking for the people about them living together and being like 👀 what you were #too messy?? and lucas is like 😅 nooo i was on my best behaviorrrr i kept things clean & OH THE LORE DROP OF THE SECRETLY ENEMIES TO LOVERS!!#like i know mo played for the shl but i didn’t realize they were there at the same time (lucas is baby) so to hear them playing against #each other… ohhhh rich text. why did every beat reporter not ask them about playing each other!!! where was this!!! (unless they did and i #just didn’t see it which is very possible) but the confirmation that mo sucks to play against ajdjwkdj he’s SUCH a big body and bc lucas is #a forward and mo is d i can see the beautiful animosity growing. in the nebulous couch island universe where jv fits much better i CAN #also see lucas as the completing parallel & that way we have four nations but i personally do prefer the 1st narrative. or really polycule #cat is in my lap asleep for moral support and any time i need to scream i am simply going to kiss him on the head so aggressively.#do you think they also do this with alex debrincat sorry that’s a tangent because my heart is thinking about conspiracy theories re: lucas #moving out and my polycules. why else would mo say ‘we’ in the halloween candy videos. if not WE as in **** who is retired & can live here…#super rookie cohabitation polycule #also every time i come back to it i just laugh at ‘what’s this guy’s deal??’ like lucas buddy please elaborate. in WHAT way #is my wife a huge bitchhhh (because mo is and i love him) i think the sticking point for me here is where is my frölunda/rögle rivalry era #& how do we. I SWEAR we have stories abt the 1st time they met but i. ‘we just clicked’ no sorry imm gonna need 10k fic actually. COME BACK #ok. getting fortified with my leftover murgh masani & naan before i fish the rest of my drafts. yes this is a reasonable time to eat dinner

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