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*gritting teeth* I can be nice and leave people alone when they're doing something I don't like... Even if they ARE nuclearizing my favorite found families
#gopher rambles#complaining#“a is the dad. b and c are the uncles. d and e are the kids” shut up shut up please#they're a group of (primarily) unrelated adults. as someone who has a found family dynamic with someone irl that happens to be analogous to#traditional familial bonds (we are siblings in all the ways that matter); that isn't the only way people can be found family!#its not even the primary way!#damn dudes. y'all never talk about mentor&mentee dynamics without them being made into Parent 2: Electric Boogaloo#what about complex dynamics where one person sees the other as analogous to family. but the other sees more distance between them#AND STOP INFANTALIZING ND CHARACTERS. JESUS. BEING ND DOES NOT MAKE YOU THE “CHILD” OF THEFRIEND GROUP#gahhhh#vent ish
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Maladaptive daydreaming.
#daydreaming#maladaptive daydreaming#maladapting daydreaming disorder#maladaptive behaviors#maladaptive coping#dissociation#immersive daydreaming#dimond speaks#yeah so adding this to my list here lol#my therapist helped me realize i dissociate a LOT and the primary way i do it is through vivid daydreams#they usually happen at work but they also pop up if i'm having a bad day or... anytime really.#i've also come to the realization that i have at least one of these a day which is not good fgsjh#my therapist says they're not inherently bad especially since they do have a positive effect on my emotions (if its a good daydream)#but it's gotten to the point that it's affecting the way i work#and they can last for a LONG time too#i haven't timed them but i do know they've been over 30 minutes at work before#this is either due to ADHD autism PTSD or a mixture of the three lmao#weeeee#anyway. this post isn't really intended to be a vent post#it's more like a 'this is my experience' type post#it just kinda comes across as somewhat vent-y#but that was because i wanted to try and immerse the reader into what its like to have these daydreams#like mine look NOTHING like this but making it more generic would help others understand it#the void is the general dissociation from reality#then you emerge in the dream#i can feel things as if i'm there- the sun the wind and sometimes even physical touch#and i'll stay there until something snaps me out#strangely i can get my work done while i'm doing this- i just wont have any memory of doing so. it's like being on autopilot#anyway. I hope this post was helpful to someone out there#if you also maladaptive daydream YOU ARE NOT ALONE! it's valid and you're not 'faking' anything. it's a genuine trauma response.
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anti-makeup long rambling under the cut
Whenever even some rfs or GCs try to downplay the bad effects that wearing makeup has on women's psyche and just say it's bad because women are forced to wear it but otherwise it wouldn't be harmful (and they cite like human history of humans decorating each other) I can't help but disagree because I think there is something distinctly damaging about painting over your facial features.
Your face is something that gives of strong indicators of human emotion, people look at your face so the slightest clue in how to read you, it gives people first impressions of you as a person and to always have a "beautified" version on display, whether for art or sex appeal inevitably makes the "neutral" bare-face seem like an inferior downgrade. Your "bare" face suddenly becomes undecorated or a blank canvas when it shouldn't be. The term "bareface" even existing without question from many women proves it, even if some women do in fact walk around makeup-less and it's not actually that uncommon.
Not to mention makeup is used to express something and it's not always a good thing because humans use items and beauty standards as class signifiers - and painting your face is one of them....Which is why I don't think that even if we (by whatever miracle) get to a point where woman are never pressured to wear it -whatever that tangibly means - it would still be damaging because it will ALWAYS be remembered in HISTORY and we will see these images of women as beauty standards to emulate as they are symbolic and are inherently tied to some form of beautification. The damage is already done and individual women are bound to like their "makeup face" better so I don't think there is any way it won't be damaging. Even a non-male influenced version would cause harm as even in this current patriarchy women are enablers (gotta be honest) and invent new forms of competition via appearances. Men have very little complexes about "barefaces" (it's not even a concept to them) because they is NOTHING to compare their "bare" faces to in the first place. Young boys do not have an absurd right of passages where they feel the need to become "men" (and bloom into these sexual beings via appearances) like young girls transitioning into women go through. The libfem "expressing my sexuality" via wearing hyper-sexualized clothing (and other aesthetic modifiers) mentality is a perfect example of how women pick up appearance as an expression of sexuality, something men aren't socialized to do or perform. So saying makeup is harmless is pretty shortsighted IMO as it will delve into something women are tacitly pressured via trends to participate in - the only thing that changes is male control of these social pressures.
I just think women are better off not messing with their faces to enhance features and shouldn't be common practice PERIOD.
#ic.text#long post#i will always be very very anti- makeup#one of the reasons being because some feminists vastly underestimate its damage#i dont think womens self esteem issues can soley be formed under patriachy btw all it requires is some social pressure from whomever#even OTHER women which is the very reason why beauty standards are so hard to get rid off#despite so many women 'not doing it for men/themsels'#like okay but its still social currency and a point of relation for women#and plus i dont agree that women can NEVER be motivated to look a certain way just for male attention#i think its just the result of a very natural OSA attraction that#but in the world we live that 'expression' gets influenced via patriachial beauty standards#( this isnt my primary reason for being anti-makeup as first and foremost im against the male- influenced version)
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I have so many thoughts about the 'Summer willingly joined Salem' theory and none of them are good. It's right up there with 'Qrow is Ruby's REAL father' as far as frustrating yet somehow popular theories go. Like, it's interesting, I'd at least give it that, but as far as canon goes it would just straight up be bad writing 😭
#my post#rwby#summer rose#salem#like the theory goes that raven knows right. why would raven not tell anyone#we already know that she warned qrow about the fall of beacon and like. everyone abt trusting ozpin#summer joining up with salem would be putting her family in danger in ravens eyes#WHY would raven go through all that effort to try to convince yang not to join the war only to not mention SHIT about summer on salems side#also. i think the theory just doesn't engage with the primary theme of rwby all that well#and also its way too late in the story to do a twist like that#idk. it bothers me a lot. as someone who LOVES salem and what we know of summer#i even like the ship. but not in that context.#forgive my ranting this has been bugging me for months
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AND NOW FOR. SOMETHING BETTER. That tbh I DO really wanna pick up again. Something I DEF was keeping under wraps, holding it esp close to me.... but I got distracted and oh god I can't remember when I started this but it CANNOT be a year old at this point... surely it was just a bout of off-season Halloween fever.......... surely.....
REGARDLESS. HALLOWEEN DUO UPON YE (only sharing scraps/glimpses here!)
THEMATICALLY. A bit of a mishmash between Little Red Riding Hood and the Big Bad Wolf, but the wolf is also just your average werewolf.
This was esp early in Mani's development, me trying to get a feel for it... and I thought the coolest/funniest way to do that would be to Sothis its ass. You thought you were just a formless apparition that lives in somebody's head? WRONG. GET PHYSICAL FORMED, IDIOT. (It is worth saying, this is just one really weird uniquely cursed Halloween night. Put that thang back where it came from OR SO HELP ME.)
Also ALL of the storytelling you can do w a duo unit. Goes crazy. Goes insane. ESPECIALLY in this case, where it's just two of the "same" person. INSANE.
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Please note these are all somewhat early notes!!! And tbh Mani lore is so fucking complicated I have trouble completely capturing it, myself. So... a lot of the information here does hold up. But in some ways, I think I may do things a bit differently... maybe just the presentation of it. I have gotten to the point where Mani has some really distinct mannerisms. So I'd lean heavier into those!
I think I may end up reworking Mani's look, but it is very classic lolita inspired. (Also!! Mimics the silhouette of Moe's typical robe/bloomer look... for a Halloween alt, goes CRAZY). MEANWHILE. MOE.
Moe..... aren't you cold.... or is the fur enough to keep you somewhat warm..?
#moe tag#mani tag#moe alts#in the WAY back of my head. i was experimenting w askr sibling halloween alts too.#but really i just wanted an excuse to put sharena in the cutest black cat themed outfit#initial thoughts just a black cat OR. VERY inspired by that one card captor sakura look where she's got that black/hot pink frilly dress#and then i could make a kitty and ouppy best friends joke w moe and sharena...#meanwhile i was thinking of a matching alfonse/lif look (idk if they'd be a duo but thematically they're matchies)#either jekyll and hyde style or frankenstein (leans into mad scientist tropes)/ frankenstein's monster#extremely. unserious. def for funsies. my primary focus was the moe/mani duo though!#I HAD.... SO MUCH LORE FOR IT.... EVEN LINES FOR IT........ I WAS GONNA GO ALL OUT ON IT...... and i still want to!!!!!#but FUCK!!!!!!!! I GET DISTRACTED AND FORGET!!!!!!!!! SO MUCH‼️‼️‼️‼️😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔💔#anyways i think the only adjustments i'd make on moe is paying closer attention to its anatomy.#like... the struggle.... i try to give it my own body type. but i get dysphoric about it. so it ends up thinner than it's supposed to be 🧍#and ofc adding more spikes but that's a given. i was gonna do that anyway.#my art
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thought my school was finally going to try & help me next year but it sounds like theyre just trying to get me to act normal without actually helping
#idk it all sounds very familiar#i have to 'prove i can do things i dont want to do' and theyre going to help me 'fix my behaviour bc uni wont tolerate it'#but the behaviour they mean is just me being disabled#its about how i freeze up sometimes i think#and i cannot bring myself to do whatever im supposed to#sometimes i cant even move or speak#thats the behaviour they mean#but i cant just make that go away#ive been trying all my fucking life#also??? i go to school every fucking day?? does that not count as proving i can do things i dont want to do#surely they dont think i want to be there#idk man this is exactly the kinda stuff they said in primary school before they started punishing me for being disabled#like giving me extra work bc i froze or something#or send me away to work alone in a room & not talk to any of my peers bc i didnt manage to talk to the teacher#force me to make eyecontact for a full 10 minutes while giving me a lecture about why eyecontact is so important#or not allow me to go outside for breaks#that kinda stuff#it sounds like they have the same idea?#so im very worried about going back to school in september#they were supposed to attempt to help more this year as well but outside of one thing they didnt really do anything#and now they want to 'be more firm about it' ????#i dont trust that#mine#also !! ive been getting told all my life that whatever the next stage is they wont tolerate my behaviour there#in primary they said id never get past first year in secondary#in secondary they say i wont get through uni this way#seems to me that really its fine#yeah i need help sometimes#but also i could probably go to uni & itll be fine#ill have my diagnosis & ill figure out who i need to talk to & how i can get the help i need
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"The best teams are made up of a DPS, a support, a sub-DPS or secondary support, and a sustainer" FAV CHARACTERS RAHHHHHH
natasha became a fav bcs I used her sm LMAO
HASHTAG BREAK KILLS THE WORLD
#asks#who needs harmony mc (sory) WHEN WE CAN BREAK EVERYTHING RAHHHH#its fun how these three are like acheron in a way where they can ignore weakness types#even if two of em are single target#well xueyi has a blast skill but her ult is her primary source of dmg#hsr#mourn 🌧️🐈 !#im so jealous btw i didnt get boothill and firefly hasnt come home yet
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also like i partially found out i might be intersex because i was looking at trans stuff and there was like "(however many) months on t and finally seeing some bottom growth" and like pictures of t-dicks and i was like.... um.... that's kind of just what my clit looks like anyways. so i was like "hey google give me a quick rundown on this" and learned what clitoromegaly was and then i was like. hm. intersex resources. and it's like a sign? symptom? side-effect? of certain intersex conditions
#i mean like pcos runs in the mums side of my family but i dont have all the symptoms of that#i do also have like. more hair?? than the average afab person#like dark hair on my stomach and chest and back#and my face. whats disappointing about the face hair is that it isnt enough to be able to grow a beard#so i cant even fuck with gender that way#tagging as nsft just because of like genital mention#genital mention#nsft#shoutout to transmascs on t who show their t-dicks on the internet it was really helpful#also i dont know how to describe it but like. my natural face shape is kind of masculine??#like it would be plausible for a cis amab perisex man to have my face without looking feminine#if you get what im saying??#if it sounds like im reinforcing sex or gender essentialism please say i am struggling to find words#unshoutout to the boys in primary school who made fun of me for having hair under my arms and starting a whole decade of insecurity-#-about having hair on my body lmao#for the record i dont think certain face shapes are indicative of gender and all im just going by like. patterns?? in afab vs. amab faces#also not that i think afab vs. amab is the entire categorisation of human sex characteristics but um. working with what vocab i have here#i think what also really kicked it off. was relating to a fair few experiences intersex people have socially#particularly intersex ppl who were afab and faced a lot of pressure to make their bodies conform to feminine beauty standards#and it was like.... oh lol.... my mum did that to me!!#it comes from her own internalised shit bc she has pcos (idk if she identifies as intersex even tho she could if she wanted) but still.#dont project that onto a 10 yr old lmao. she keeps buying me hair removal products#ALSO floored by an experience i have. in which apparently half my friends dont feel pressure to shave their legs#because the hair on their legs is like. light and thin and barely visible and i was like?? huh??#what do you MEAN your legs don't look like your brothers/fathers if you dont shave??#im starting to think they dont shave their arms. their arms might just naturally not have a load of hair#i dont shave my arms though. cannot be bothered with that and also like. why would i do that#also you know that like. happy trail i think its called?? on “men's” stomachs??#yeah i have that naturally yeah thats right im naturally sexy#if you cant tell i am putting “girls” “mens” “boys” “womens” etc. in quotes to indicate that is just the normal society way of saying it
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dear internet stop throwing pictures of beautifully toasted bagels slathered in cream cheese at me i don't have a toaster i don't have room in my teeny kitchenette for a toaster a toaster is a luxury here in japan as are bagels as is cream cheese
bagel places here that ask me "do you want that heated up" make me want to cry tears of joy even though all they mean is they're gonna stick the bagel in the microwave for ten seconds so it's slightly warm-ish but not enough to crisp up or melt the cream cheese a little
#food#closest bagel place to me has two options blueberry bagel or white choco chip#its fortunate that i love blueberry but anyway that shows the general mindset towards bagels here they're sweet snacks more or less#hard to find everything bagel or onion bagel etc#i havent been home since before covid but my primary reason for wanting to is i neeeed a nyc bagel#and real mac n cheese and real grilled cheese#and pasta that isnt spaghetti with something something cream sauce#oh and i really miss american bbq which means it sucks that i'll be going home in winter bahahaha#never expected to stay here as long as i have but otoh food cravings aside what real motivation do i have to live in the us#obvs my parents and i do want to see them and wish we could live close#but as for life in the us itself... living here is so far a lot easier in a multitude of ways#the biggest downside is my being a foreigner. gotta reapply for that visa every few years#and even though i speak japanese every day the business-style japanese of workplaces is totally different so im limited in terms of jobs#aaaand when im home in the us i have the opposite problem... i miss japan and japanese food instead xP#why cant i teleport that'd solve everything#fizz's life#why are people reblogging this??? X'D
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the fact that the us government can continue funding and arming a genocide despite massive public opposition really highlights how inherently non-democratic the united states is
#almost like the idea of a representative demcracy is both historically undemocratic and inherently is incapable of being so#by historically i mean that representative democracies have always meant the creation of a category of ‘citizen’ that is above ‘non-citizen#even the civilization where the term democracy comes from was patriarchal and had fucking slavery#not chattel slavery but (hot take) non chattel slavery is still bad.#also fundamentally one person can literally not represent the wishes of a large collection of people who have only geography in common.#theyre going to want different things!!!#now the idea of if democracy is inherently a virtue is like. another topic. but i will say that like seeing the history of like the#popular sovreignty movement wrt to slavery really made me question it. just because a lot of people want something to happen doesnt#actually mean it should happen. white people voted to legalize slavery#kind of where the old ‘minority’ terminology comes in. just by numbers alone in the states that had these votes it wasnt like in the south#where in the south because of plantations the actual population majority in some places was black.#but in those midwestern new states even if everyone person there could have voted. white people would still be the vasy majority.#honestly to a degree pointing out that none of the societies that have claimed to be democracies have truly been democratic is…#i guess the primary value in it is to challenge people who take state mythologies at face level#a very large population that i often forget exists.#the ‘they cant do that its illegal’ types.#anyways. if we consider that every society in documented history has had some type of violence and oppression#and if we believe that people are NOT inherently selfish/violent#it follows that what we need to do is something different than what we have been doing.#not just different from what we are doing right now. but different from what we have been doing for the past centuries#but also i can imagine that societies and ways of living that aren’t legible to the status quo or just went undocumented for other reasons#may have been more egalitarian. and we dont know due to erasure (either intentional or non-intentional)#both erasure and a fundamental inability of historians to comprehend it. similar to how cishet historians who cant fathom the idea of#transness or lesbianism talk about things.
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Hello! Thought I'd say THANK YOU for your laios-marcille posts and rts, they might be one of my favorite dynamics in the series (or in any series) *because* of the layers it has, there is so much going on and I love how it's shown. And I'm glad I found ppl who see it in a similar way. They mean the world to me and ch 96 makes my heart all warm bc they CARE so much! They all know each other so well. This whole party is a family!! And found family has complex dynamics, it's not clear cut and with easy labels. That goes for them too.
Ahem, sorry for the ramble lol I'm just happy
YOU ARE SO WELCOME I obviously love them a lot too and I'm very glad I can occasionally manage to condense the "!!!!!!" emotions in my brain into coherent enough words to talk about it. They care SO much T.T
#I think it was around about when I realized that - despite Kabru & everyone assuming that Laios would become the lord of the dungeon...#that it was going to be Marcille. Or at least Marcille first.#who would simultaneously give into temptation but also in doing so kind of incidentally save Laios#from being the primary/initial target of the winged lion#that was when the layers of their dynamic really started to hit me#THE RABBITS PART liiiike the way he protects her but also puts her through that. The way it leads up into her becoming lord of the dungeon#they are so similar. even when they don't see it.#anyway! yeah I think its a good dynamic!#ask
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I was kind of getting into this with the tags on the other post but it's interesting to have the comparison of having watched Lawrence of Arabia before knowing things about him (and also being 12) and after knowing a bit more, because I think that the movie does fundamentally touch on the theme that he's not a hero, even as he is at times - and he's a not-hero in a very interesting and particular way. I do think that the way that his story is told in it does inherently become a bit of a tale, in which he becomes a character, and so loses some of his complexity, but I do think that he manages to resist a lot of things by the inherent nature of what he did. Personal myth-making in The Seven Pillars of Wisdom (which I have not read but do know things about) aside, I think things about him are in fact very hard to redefine, such as some of his more masochistic tendencies, his queerness, his uncomfortable place within the British Empire, his own self-aggrandizing, his relationships with the historical figures contained therein, his cycles of burnout, and a whole bunch of other traits which make him not what people want to see as a hero, inhuman and too human by turns. What I mean to say is that while the film certainly takes a particular stance on him, he still resists easy categorization, especially in moments drawn from primary sources, and I think that knowing how complex he was and wanting to see him complicated, the movie does a good job allowing for that reading as well.
#not a cohesive rant but i enjoy how un-collapsible he is#what i mean is that the movie taken as-is gives a particular reading of him but if you want to add in other readings they also work#i think this was what the other person was saying about most takes on him really being quite bland#he's a guy who resists simplification and forces the story therefore to also resist simplification#you can't tell it without the betrayal at the end and elucidating the betrayal at the end requires taking a particular stance#and for all its orientalism and poor characterization of the arab characters they still remain complex if you want to read them that way#as does the british imperial military structure. none of them are getting out of this with an easy ending#i think that's what makes it such a good movie even after all these years like it holds up to the scrutiny#i guess that's what i'm getting at here. it's not just lawrence it's all of it#but i think that's because of the primary sources they used. i think it would have collapsed much more otherwise#sorry i have a lot of Thoughts about this movie it's rattling around in the brain for sure#perce rambles#freak in the desert
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...broke ass
#just had to pay 2600 total for my emergency visit i hate america#800 for the physician WHICH WAS BILLED SEPERATE#and then 1800 for the the hospital#what the fuck!!!! im poor!!!#i have enough in my savings to pay it since im coda with my money#and its the reason why i have so much in my savings for situations like these#bUT STILL IT LITERALLY TAKES ME A YEAR TO SAVE UP EVEN 1000 I GET PAID 17 AN HOUR BITCH!!!!#i hate america#i hate this place#im just mad that i had to pay 2k#for the hospital to check my blood pressure and give me an anti nausea tablet#thats all they did#shouldve just gone to my primary care doctor#stupid car crash#stupid driver couldnt fucking wait for me#i haD THE RIGHT OF WAY#im not at fault (stated by police and my insurance) and now im down 2k#anyways fucking whatever#im just mad
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SORRY i keep coming here to yell !! you got me thinking about cdramas (& t dramas) i enjoyed and then forgot about :"] i watched 如果奔跑是我的人生 earlier this year and the ending lost me, but i was quite captivated by its 20+ episodes before. it centres around parental relationships (asian) and, i don't know much about dance at all but a main character is a dancer and her story made me feel things. the performances were sick, in my unprofessional opinion! I'm Fine is a gorgeous ost track. btw.... i've started rewatching 不良执念清除师 again and i CANNOT RECOMMEND IT HIGHLY ENOUGH. i've been thinking about it (on ep 5 LOL) and i actually don't think the ending dropped the thread or ball or 链子 or however that saying goes (im fever SORRY.... i think it was cathartic and beautiful in the way a galaxy is— i just could not get enough of those guys T__T 不良执念清除师 is about sulky teen (??) guys moving through the world with so much heart. it's about LOVE and ART and how the living go on after tragedy, it's about how. how (PARDON ME....) we get to keep everything we've ever loved for even a fraction of a moment & what we are doing is worthwhile even if it is very small !!!!! it is a show that is, in Voice from IMBD's words, an outstanding Taiwanese drama that excels in every aspect, because it was made with so much care and love...(meta!) also, gay people
first of all No Apology thank you for coming to yell!!! you have a big heart full of love for the world and it moves me!!!! i went down this rabbit hole on m*dramalist after watching 我们的少女时代/our times (2015)-
(tangent incoming) this movie Shook the secondary 2 scene in singapore when it came out everyone and their dog was sobbing about it and i listened to 小幸运 Religiously despite never seeing it myself. Having Seen It Now, it is a sweet little thing and it makes me feel desperately old. it also made me CRY, what can i say i’m a sucker for distances and ships passing in the night and i was soooo happy when liudehua appeared and then adult xutaiyu showed up and he Fuck Ass Hair. my lord, his hair looked like SHIT. PICKLED SEAWEED……… i couldn’t cry after that because i was so busy clenching my asscheeks out of sheer despair FUCK HAIR AND. AND!!! A TOO SHORT BLACK BLAZER ON SKINNY JEANS??? I MEAN REALLY??? I KNOW 2015 WAS NINE YEARS AGO but i don’t recall fuckass hair being the in thing then…. this memory i do not have…. you have to understand how emotionally devastating this was to me…… (tangent end)
(tangent part 2) (please look at the way they styled this poor man’s fuck ass hair. i don’t care how earth shatteringly sweet they were in high school if my first love turned up ten years later and he looked like this i would simply walk away)
(tangent end)
the point is, that i then went through vivian sung’s acting history to see what else she’d been in bc she was soooooo lovely and realized that 不良执念清除师 was in said history and then remembered this ask! and your heartfelt words about its story! and i was like Oghey, i watch—
just finished the first episode and mein gott yiyong is such a Teenager…… man i look at 18 year olds and i’m like i don’t remember being like that but i Know i must’ve been, once upon a time. but the range of emotions the script wrung out of him in one episode was kind of insane and his actor is kind of vibey as hell (perhaps this is my sign from god to finally watch your name engraved herein…) and vivian sung is still epic as hell and sooo goofy and i’m excited! i think of u in my head for some reason as the epic tight as hell short chinese dramas anon, i Trust your eyes. they’re good eyes. i’ve also locked down the first 20+ episodes of the other drama you mention here, especially because yang chao yue is in it and she was Breathtaking in the double T T T thank you for the recs! where do you find all of these? i don’t know but you must be doing good out in the world. be well anon. meet a chicken
#replies#there’s something about watching taiwanese movies and dramas that makes me feel…… Strongly and Distantly alike#my mom hung out with taiwanese kids at her primary school so she picked up like. half a taiwanese accent?#and so i picked it up too. and listening to the chinese in oh no here comes trouble#it’s wild because i can tell that the way i speak is closer to this than it is to folks from china#but it’s also not quite the same. but whenever we visit relatives in taiwan strangers will hear me speak and be like welcome back!#you’re from around here aren’t you? and it feels so strange that the only place that sees me as one of its own#is so far from where i grew up and even further from where i was born#a life both adjacent to and far from my own…….#but i am excited about this Bus Drama. i love a little horror a little sadness. i’m also looking forward to the Gay People op#strongly anticipating#i have not met any Gay People since i left my college in may. man i sure do miss em. gay people
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hey Tunes, do you know whats happening in the Miguel tag? I'm too afraid to check it out myself so thought I'll ask you.
essentially the atsv screenplay was released two or so days ago, which you can read in its entirety here, and there has been valid crirtique regarding the language utilised to describe Miguel within said screenplay, including allusions to bloodlust and the screenplay describing him as an animal twice I believe.
#insofar as my own personal thoughts this does really make me concerned that theres a real lack of consciousness to#emphasizing miguel's anger and the nature of his being in that he's half spider as primary tenets to his character#its deeply concerning to me that regardless of whether the authorial intent was more in vein of providing direction to animators#or was an attempt at shorthand for his emotional state to emphasize his threat AS an antagonist#that this kind of language pertaining to a moc wasnt examined more closely and that it wasnt something picked up upon throughout the#creative process (because lbr Lord + Miller + Callaham are notorious for creatively echoloating their way to the final product and even the#screenplay we HAVE has elements which never made it to the film that exists right now)#its concerning that this mindset on part of the creatives (esp in contrast to Spot as others have pointed out who doesnt contain the same#kinds of language descriptors) that this is something that appears to have been integrated carelessly and without consideration as to just.#the implications of always referring to a moc within bestial terms and characterising his emotions as such. and i think thats something#which is important to point out and criticise as part of the authorial intent (which is what i read the screenplay AS yknow)#but yeah tldr theres been a lot of issue taken with the language used there and i think its a very warranted point to make critique of#and its one i personally hope the creatives HEAR and reflect on. because theyve shown they can do so in regards to characters like Peni or#elements like getting the texture of Miles' hair wrong at first#ask games#anon
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a recent encounter in the wild of a person i used to be friends in primary school, really made me think about how much has changed since then. because that friend is the same as i remember them, in the best meaning of that sentence, and im just. well💀
#delete later#shut up kody#i used to be the most outgoing kid you could imagine. probably twice as annoying..............or thrice#supposedly i had no shame to just come up to someone and boom. an instant friend#probably half of my primary school knew me and my mum. random kids would come up to her just like that#(she likes to recall that. i think she sometimes misses that kid too)#anwyay its so surreal to think about now#because current me and past me????nah. thats two completely different people lol💀#and that friend tried to be so nice. they were like#'oh we can go to that one hangout spot u used to really like'#and i do not remember having a favourite hangout spot. or any spot. primary school is a big fat blank for me memeries wise#she suggested bringing our old field hockey team together for a match#didnt really want to so instead of being mature about it. i blatently lied that i couldnt play anymore#didnt even bat an eye#anyway so rn. the idea of being that outgoing sounds like a nightmare tbh lol#and feels so distant too ig#so on one hand its so bittersweet#and on the other. its almost upsetting to be reminded. so vividly. of the life i could have had if i didnt grow up to be like i am#because that old friend is still the same. living their best life#theyre still the same and im. well. im not#and sure#maybe thats okay#cause we all evolve and grow in different ways blah blah blah#but i dont think i like being reminded of who i used to be#i dont think i like that at all
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