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callmegaith · 1 year ago

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"the hurt runs deeper than they're willing to show you... Beneath the resilient veneer, a touch of fragility. They need comfort"

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buttercupshands · 29 days ago

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Fell asleep before I could post it here

Stressful week defeated with a result of me forgetting how to draw Siffrin before I sketched again

Too focused to keep a hold on it in a way

So there was this, which I prefer with a neutral-sad face instead

Like this but I thought it was a bit too... That

After that I've redrew an expression from that one scene. Just because Ost said "Here you go "Do You Remember? (Our Country)" time!"

Same thing is why Mal Du Pays are here

#fanart #my art #isat spoilers #isat #isat siffrin #isat fanart #isat mal du pays #Also a starry hat exists now #I love their terrified expression #And I finally got to sketch Mal Du Pays in digital #Anyway I've passed the hard exam #And most of the other exams too which is great #But that took full control of my luck from me #Which is really like a super power in a way #I got the same questions for exam twice by pure luck of choosing the one I wanted and felt right #But when stuff you have no control over happens when you want it that's truly a good luck day #Which was yesterday today is neutral in that I think #I'm super tired because I was sketching until 8 am #in stars and time #act 5 spoilers #act 3 spoilers #I had to double remember that one because I wasn't sure #Anyway good morning and good night depending on when in the timezone are you #It's 11 am #sketch #artists on tumblr

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helianthus21 · 3 months ago

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honestly if there's one change book to TV that I'm super grateful for it's ageing up Daniel Molloy. that wet sack of a boy needed to ripen to reach Bogosian!Daniel level of sass

#on a more serious note it just adds sm to this romance for me #armand let him go he let him have one full human life #he got to grow out of his addiction both to drugs and to armand/armand's blood #he failed two marriages and fucked up two daughters yes but that's life #he had a whole successful career #spn #there's a lot to unpack with regards to armand's mindfuckery sure but it WAS an act of love #selflessness even #he wasn't backed in a corner bc the akasha thing is pushed to the back #and i do think book!armand wouldnt have turned daniel when he did #if he'd seen another chance for daniel #70s!daniel took none of armand's shit either #but present daniel is far more equipped to stand his ground i think #and armand is going to see #that the romance of daniel's youth isn't as fickle as he thought #bc daniel still feels a ravening and hopeless desire #i could talk about this for hours #devil's minion #iwtv #daniel molloy

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stuckinapril · 6 months ago

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You guys don’t know how much yearning for Baghdad takes up of my mental real estate

#I have so many videos saved of last year’s trip #Me and my cousin laughing and joking w my dad while getting ready #The fact that multiple men asked my dad for my hand in marriage (lmao)#Me calling my mom every night to make fun of my “suitors”#All the gorgeous restaurants #Forcing my dad to rate every dress I tried on whenever he took me somewhere #Being catcalled by guys was an unpleasant experience but it was still fun to laugh ab it w my mom #Me having a MASSIVE crush on a family friend #That one time my dad said all the dresses I brought were too short so he bought me a dress that #Went down to literally my ankles #But the family friend was gonna be there so I showed it to my mom and she was like #“You’d wear that??? The queen of mini skirts????” And then she IMMEDIATELY clocked me and was like #Ur behaving strangely. U must have a crush. Who is it.#The hot fuckin summer nights that I spent sitting outside w my cousin on the big swing in the garden #The capital when it was drenched in sunset #When my aunt’s husband took me to the University of Baghdad and I got to literally play act being a student there #Which was a profound experience bc it’s the university my mom went to #Sneaking into the library even though u needed a student pass for that (:#Shadowing my uncle in his laboratory #My first ever nishan !!!#No weddings sadly but I got to see the buildup to the wedding so #And I think getting to call the shots and fly solo from the states to Amman and then to Baghdad was sick as hell #My mom never let me fly abroad by myself before and now im probably gonna be going solo all the time #Help I need to go back #Bro I wish I could drop everything #But before I go to Baghdad I’ll probably have to go to Belgium first for my uncle #SO many stops before I get to where I rly wanna be #I never explicitly told my dad im not religious but I think he already knows im full of sin. Memories..#Omg and my bibi’s delicious food

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aroacewxs · 8 months ago

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vincent charbonneau is also aromantic: a personal interpretation and analysis from one aromantic

i'm scared of this not reaching the right people, but i just finished dead plate + got all the endings, and vince as an aromantic allegory is so relevant that it's driving me up the wall! keep in mind as you read that this is just my interpretation :)

the use of cannibalism as a metaphor in dead plate is interesting, as it usually illustrates a very obsessive love that someone has for another person or object, to the point where they let it consume them whole. however, i think you can also interpret the cannibalism as an obsession for trying to give the love that is expected of you.

"I've been told I don't cook with love -- which is a sentimental and meaningless review in the culinary world. I'm a professional chef, not a parent making a meal for their kid."

he can't cook "with love." i assume that he cooks by following precise formulas and measurements that guarantee flavour. flavour he can't taste. flavour he has read about, somewhat understands in theory, but can never experience for himself.

however, this doesn't mean his cooking is bad. he is critically acclaimed for his culinary skill. he opened la guele de saturne in his early 20's. it's no doubt that he's respected and feared in the world of food, but even with several awards to his name, he's told he's missing something. something supposedly crucial. something he doesn't give a damn about, but bothers him nonetheless.

"I can't stand eating. No matter the ingredient, no matter the recipe, everything tastes the exact same. It tastes like nothing, it makes me sick. But with… With you… maybe…"

there are several different interpretations of this scene, but i personally read it as vince living a delusion where if he keeps at it, keeps trying, forces himself to understand, he will eventually find what he's been searching for.

but he won't. it just doesn't work like that. not for him.

"If everything so far has tasted nothing to you, what makes you think I'll be any different? If you're really doing all this just so you can taste again, when it turns out I'm just like any other, what will you do? You would have killed her. You would have killed me for no reason. Are you really ready to deal with that? If this is your idea of trying to make yourself happy, I don't think you'll ever be full."

and rody was right. it wouldn't have mattered which part of him he tore off, it would have all just tasted the same. the same nothing. the same wave of disappointment and frustration would wash over him again and he'd be left a hollow shell with the knowledge that he had killed a person, he had eaten a person, he went through the whole ordeal, and it got him nothing. any hope that maybe this will be different, this won't be like the previous, would be crushed under his own heel.

to me, vince's obsessive search for his sense of taste is an unending search for this something you will never get. in the same way he will never taste, i will never experience love or romance in the way everybody expects me to. this isn't to exclude aros who do experience romantic attraction or do have healthy romantic relationships, and it's not to illustrate being aromantic as something unfulfilling or negative. but you can't deny that this acceptance carries a LOT of weight, and sometimes, denial is sweeter than making peace with it.

vincent charbonneau is my personal aromantic allegory, and whether or not it was intentional, i honestly felt very seen in his character, and i think that is so so important :) hopefully this all made sense,, if there is anything strangely worded i will make it clearer!

#dead plate #dead plate game #dead plate spoilers #vincent charbonneau #rody lamoree #studio investigrave #aromantic #aroace #arospec #actually aromantic #actually aroace #character analysis #character thoughts #cw cannibalism #this took some time to put together because i was constantly overthinking my wording and characterization #i act as if i will be stoned in public if i accidentally mischaracterize a character #also i have some opinions about our aro or ace rep constantly being psychopathic antagonists or aliens #like cmon let's diversify it a bit!#but vince's story hits a little too close to home for me.. agh. tears out hair. he'll never be full this way #there's also a few trivia about vince that point at AROMANTIC with bright blinking arrows lol. personally.#him not wanting to settle and wanting to live for himself instead #the fact that if he had never met rody he would have created a successful business empire #and died without ever having experiencing romance #idk how reliable this one is but him being uncomfortable with being broken up with #so for the two relationships he's been in prior to the story #he initiated the breakups for both himself

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lovesodeepandwideandwell · 21 hours ago

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Y'ALL today I went in for an oil change at my dad's place, and I was so braindead tired that I couldn't remember the model of my car for a solid couple minutes, and instead of taking advantage of me a helpless Woman I'm fairly certain the guy tricked me into getting my oil changed for free. There is mercy and unconditional love in this world.

#how he tricked me is i had a coupon for 4 free changes where my dad had used 1 and it was crossed out in black #and when i first went in i gave it to him to show him #as i was rambling uselessly about how i don't know if it needs full synthetic oil (coupon said it doesn't work for synthetic)#he gave it back to me and said it would be fine and i meandered away #and when i came back to pick the car up i tried to give him the coupon and he said he took it already #and the first free one was crossed out now in blue #he would not listen to me telling him it was already done #either he was also very braindead and didn't look right? or he decided to be Kind #my braindead was because i couldn't sleep last night (Full of Pie and Energy #and i've been trying to quit my bedtime tea but that night it really was necessary)#and then i took my sister to get the eras tour book and then we went to see Wicked at 9am! cause all other times were full #two activities i would not have done with just me on my own but they were both very fun and fulfilling #wicked was really very entertaining #and i only got creeped out by ariana's terrifying skinniness at one moment #she did amazing. great acting phenomenal singing

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lemm-moxx · 3 months ago

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Dammit I've thought of another joke comic type thing but idk to leave it as a comic or try animating it

#but if i animated it i would need to either voice it myself or get friends to help bc i don't like animating without voicelines #but everyone ik is generally camera shy #im not i took an acting class for 2 years not even god can stop me #at one point #i had to play a homophobic protestor and i got to scream STOP THE GAYS and stuff like THEY'RE CORRUPTING OUR CHILDREN in a southern #accent #i suggested this be put in btw #i made a sign with an american flag and a bald eagle as the background to “STOP THE GAYS” in that flame text you see everywhere #we had a audience for this aswell #i got full marks #anyway yeah #idk what to do #moxx's contemplations

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aurorashard · 3 months ago

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#i dunno man #everytime i read some new thing about covid and long covid #i just feel like im losing my marbles #im the only one still masking it feels like #nobody at my drs offices wear them even the soecialists #my therapist acts like this is an irrational fear of mine #so i dont talk about it as much #shes happy im not isolating myself. and not full of crippling guilt when i do go out #which is good #i agree with her on that #but. ive been numbering my bags with my n95s since i rewear them a few times #ive been using n95s since i took this job. three years in october #which is wild the longest ive worked in one place is just over a year--all seasonal work or short internships. not because i leave #or get fired/laid off #but im getting down to the end of the alphabet #i dont know what ill do when i do #literally as far as labels but also like. its a lot you know?#im debating trying new mask styles. i wanted to ages ago but hoped. i wouldnt need to wear them for much longer #now it feels like i always will.#so. second best time to plant a tree and all.#i want to get out and make friends and do fun stuff. but it's so fuckibg hard and scary #how can i make friends when i cant relax in small indoor spaces #when i. cant eat out at restaurants (due to food issues and masking)#when inviting people to my house makes me anxious for days #how can i make friends under those circumstances?#im so lonely. and so envious #of my friends who do stuff and gave partners. i want that for me but i cant have it. before it was because i moved. ecery 3-6 months #now its this. is it realky any wonder that i nearly cried reading that fic the other day #when Etho took off his mask. and it was treated so fucking kindly and like the trust geasture it was? that it would be. for me?#maybe trust is the wrong word. i dont know. comfort? feeling safe in a space with someone who respects me and my health?

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hauntingblue · 8 months ago

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I have connected two dots... yamato kaido and momo (and kinda shirahoshi with her top) have clouds above their shoulders... and luffy in gear fourth has them also.... I can see the signs

#momo must be so emotionally confused omg poor child. this guy says he is my father and treats me like his son and also this samurai who has #been acting like my father just died. and now i turned 28 and a dragon and i need to save this island or my shougnate will die. jesus #FUCKING ROB RUCCI!!! I SURE HOPE NOT ONE STRAY ATTACK REACHES THE ROOM FULL OF CP0 AGENTS!!!#now the government is going to invade wano AND TAKE ROBIN!!!!! ROB LUCCI DIEEEE!!!!! AND YOU WILL FAIL AGAIN!!!#now how tf did the heart pirates get there... who can fly on there or did they just tag along on momos tail #the dinosaur head snake???? hello?? qjdhakshsk and it worked.... sanji... 'thats what a brachiosaurus is!' well i do not think so....#wtf sanji.... so much of that wiggly dance he does with the heart eyes has brought him here...#talking tag #watching one piece #episode 1053 #poor killer man.... why doesnt he cut off the arm kid doesnt have... that should do it right???#jesus.... goodbye kid and law.... hawkins just hitting his head to a wall.... CUT OFF HIS ARM!!! oh no..... another self sacrificing mate..#YEAAHHH THE ARM!!!!! is he gonna take it and give it to kid akdjsksj OH HE TOOK THE STRAW DOLL!!! killer your brain is so huge..#the death card looking JUST like killer.... that was such a slay... they had this one thought out for a while.....#THE MUSIC!!! GOODBYE HAWKINS!!! KILLER OUTSERVED!!!! whats with the cutting of arms this arc.... kid now its your turn to slay (big mom)#episode 1054 #sanji having an existential crisis and queen just: WELCOME TO THIS MOMSTER WORLD #having issues with his body transforming doesnt help with the transfem allegations #APOO IS STILL ALIVE???? CUT OFF HIS HEAD!!!!#i was gonna say KINEMON!!! BUT I KNOW ITS THAT FUCKING KANJURO!!!!!! nami drawing the moon on his asscheek akdjsksj #KIKU AND KINEMON ARE ALIVE??? I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS THIS IS A TRAP!!! DON'T GIVE ME HOPE!!!#NOOOOOO THE CP0 IS IN ACTION TOO NOOOOOOOOO #they are breathing.... omg.... kiku..... ORICHI DIEEEE!!!!! i knew this couldn't end like this for her... i have been completely bamboozled #kinemon appearing like the first time... just legs.... amazing #how does big mom ikoku inside the castle are we insane... yamato can you like bite off kanjuros head off or smth... finish him off PLEASE #why do they have steel beams in kaido's castle. everything else is wood and stone. who designed this.#bepo being in law's mid episode animation akdjaksns.... thats really his beffo (bff) bepo #big mom being crushed by some beams doesn't sound right... kid should turn into magneto and start bloodbending... or repel her into the sea #episode 1055 #episode 1056

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coridallasmultipass · 3 months ago

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I am once again begging online shop payment processing companies to allow me to enter a separate name for shipping and separate name for billing!!

It's the same address, I'm just trans and have not legally changed my personal name, but I still prefer to receive mail as my preferred name! Like it's literally my professional name, I do business as my preferred name.

Annoying as fuck, and I don't want to chance my bank rejecting the payment (though I'm sure someone at my bank has put a note to allow it on my account by now, since I've contacted them a couple times before when I realized too late that the billing section didn't let me input another "address/name" section, and they said the payment was fine in those cases.)

Anyway, legal name changes should be free and non-advertised for everyone. Tbh, you should get a free name change every time you file your taxes on time as an incentive for good citizen behaviour. Once I am elected pres-

#i think the one i just used didnt even have a separate billing address option which makes no sense #guess they dont want anyone giving any gifts making the buyer pay twice for shipping like that #maybe it was a fault of the mobile browser but i highly doubt it since many desktop sites look like mobile browsers these days #just so fucking frustrating. what if i lived somewhere where my legal name would out me? (im in the closet rn so doesnt matter)#i dont want to fucking see my legal name. im already forced to see it everywhere else.#i dont wanna ruin my mood on a day when im supposed to be getting a package which should be a happy thing yknow #vent #transphobia #speaking of like i would change my name but i dont want to and cant afford the fucking ridiculous price for it #and i dont wanna advertise it in a newspaper either! shits expensive as fuck on top of the hundreds to file the court paperwork!#i already tried to do it once with money in hand and the receptionist told me that even tho it was for gender identity i could not...#...avoid the newspaper thing unless i also changed my legal gender marker. and i had to back out bc i have reproductive health problems #i dont want a gender marker change to fuck with my getting healthcare #(i did change the gender letter on my ID card later tho which only took a signature on a paper no hassle with anything)#it really really fucking sucks how all these little things add up all the time #especially when im closeted while living w family who wont even use my preferred name #the real kicker is that. both my dad and his dad used preferred names. my dad used his middle name #and i use part of my middle name. yet my dad even in death still gets the dignity of being called his preferred name and i dont #sexism at its finest #reasons why i dont even hint at being trans around my moms side bc i already got bullied by them for wanting to use my middle name #ive literally been asking them to call me my mid name since i was 12. and theyve been acting like im trying to be someone else #its the same middle name on my birth certificate they gave me. i dont understand why they wouldnt want me to use it #but yeah i stay closeted bc i dont wanna deal with the name drama amplified exponentially for gender #prob get kicked out too cuz theyre queerphobic as fuck and i cant work rn and dont have a car #id have to just go full feral and live in the woods with the lizards where i belong #Cori.exe #Post.exe #fuck lol just looked it up and u cant change ur first name if u get married. i cant avoid the fucking fee man. let me be cori #literally why is it cheaper to get married than change ur first name! bullshit! marriage has so much more legal implications #transphobic queerphobic aromanticphobic privacyphobic poorphobic shit ass fucking state ive literally been cori most of my life ffs cmon

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thatsleepymermaid · 6 months ago

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Not feeling well again tonight. I was in so much pain after being on the boat today. I must have turned gray and sickly too because my supervisor was incredibly worried about my health.

I hate talking about this and I hate bringing it up to my supervisors. I've been dismissed before from opportunities because of the pain and received bad performance reviews simply because I don't "take initiative" (In too much pain to do extra).

She's letting me have the day off tomorrow. I'm grateful, but I feel like I'm falling behind my peers. I see friends and acquaintances going on with their lives and I just feel... stuck.

I got accepted into an amazing master's program from UMiami but I deferred because I feel too sick. It's not just the pain, it's the feathers at the edge of my vision and the weird spasms as well. Even if I managed to land a job with good healthcare or my dream grad school, how am I going to keep it if I'm sick and in pain all the time?

There's something bigger going on here and I want to know what. But ever since this all happened I seem to have lost my trust in human doctors and managed to convince myself that I'm a hypochondriac.

#ow..#i miss my pre-2019 self #i only had mild arthritis #not whatever this is #one weird illness is all it took #my endo is acting up because it's my time of the month #which only happens every three months #but it's still bad #the excision surgery did make me feel better #for like five months #but i feel like I'm back at square one this time #I'm feeling hopeless #I don't want more wrong with me #i changed from medicine to science because of the EDS #but now the other thing is making it difficult to finish field work #am i doomed to a life of paperwork?#it feels like my body is dying around me #nobody is going to hire me like this #I can barely walk #i need to take a full week off every three months #and sometimes I have to chose between making dinner or going to work #I'm doomed #i'll probably delete this later #endometriosis #elhers danlos syndrome

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kateis-cakeis · 4 months ago

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people are really so weird and so fatphobic huh

(and oops most of my commentary is in the tags XD)

#people really out here acting like some chocolate is gonna kill you #idk maybe you should check how stats and data actually work and not just blindly trust things that get it wrong and such #because hate to break it to ya but increased risk does not equal absolute risk #it just increases the risk which is normally only by a small margin and doesnt mean anything in reality because it doesn't mean that it's #absolutely 100% going to happen that's not what risk or increased risk means #anyway this reminds of when a friend of mine took part in a study #and they were like oh yeah you have a 6% chance of a heart attack in the next 10 years #they asked if they lost weight would that decrease by a lot and the person was like uhh by like 1% it's really not the big deal everyone #makes it out to be people are just fatphobic because that's the society we've built that at all times you must be skinny #or you aren't worth anything or worse when people act like you're such a strain on the system #and that you dont deserve to have healthcare like i will scream #everyone needs to stop being so damn weird about it!!!!!!!!!!#it's literally fine it's so literally fine #you know actually thinking about increased risk with alcohol and smoking - to which is totally your choice and up to you btw #i knew someone who smoked like a chimney and drank like a fish and lived to his 70s and died of something completely unrelated #increased risk is just that increased by a certain percentage which is like not a lot in the grand scheme of things to really put it into #perspective when you have like 1 in 100 chance and the increased risk is 100% that just raises it to 2 in 100 which yes is just 1% to 2%#i will scream when people act like food is going to kill you - especially when it gets so bad people act like fruit is bad for you because #of sugar like i will cry i will start sobbing because all of this is why im pretty sure most people have disordered eating #if not full on eating disorders and that's the real concern how our attitudes make people change their behaviours and develop mental health #conditions because society is just so insistent on this one issue that you can't escape it's bad it's so bad and i hope one day #we get past all this and people can just live how they want without others getting on their backs #fatphobic people are the reason why so many people i know think they're worthless and ugly and i just that's so upsetting to me and yes yes #there's the major issues like doctors ignoring symptoms in favour of just lose weight! and then just send people into the world with 0 help #in that oh and oops now they've got an eating disorder when the problem in the first place was not weight <.<#and even if it was (which it rarely ever is) it's like okay where's the help then because there is no help and then study after study is #like oh btw dieting doesnt work lol and then what do you do what do you do im gonna start screaming hdfghsdfg #anyway sorry these tags are long im just so tired and so frustrated at the world and i hope one day people get over themselves

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violetwolfraven · 11 months ago

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God I hate Pinterest and I really need to stop reading the comments on literally any post on there

I just saw someone straight up say they’re afraid that show fans who haven’t read the books are going to take over and dominate the fandom and they’re afraid that their memories of the books are going to get overridden by memories of the show because of new show fans, and that’s a good reason to gatekeep.

Like okay, just say you’re a party pooper and go home.

Yeah this is about Percy Jackson but I’m not gonna tag it as that cause I don’t wanna get hunted for sport