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the devil's minion

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— Melody S. Gee, “Each Crumbling House”

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i just know armand would have owned at least 50 roombas & watched them scutter across the floor of the apartment like roaches as he commanded while daniel continuously tripped over them when he came stumbling back home from the bar

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Eric Bogosian as Daniel Molloy INTERVIEW WITH THE VAMPIRE | 2.03

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not marius saying he chose armand and not bianca bc he was younger and more helpless and easier to mold

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Assad Zaman discussing his first stage role as Zead in Steerage (2009)

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Book Armand: I’m only desired for my perceived boyish innocence which I very intentionally play up, but I despise everyone who falls for it. Such is my fate.

Book Daniel: Wow I look at you and see some type of freakazoid as yet undiscovered by science. An abomination, if you will.

Book Armand: stalking you stalking you stalking you wear this necklace iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou

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There’s this potential in vampire Daniel of embracing his own monstrousness only to get tripped up over the fact that there are other parts of him he’s still got buried. And not just memories (although I’m all for that).

Daniel as an old man is presenting this very specific curmudgeonly identity, and it’s a very armored acerbic one. There’s already something hunter-predatory about him in the way he navigates extracting a story. The transition to vampire does not seem so difficult from there.

And yet.

In embracing that monstrousness he might eventually realize there are things within him that didn’t die with his humanity. Things he thought he killed years ago, long before Dubai. But they’re still there. It’s harder to keep them at bay amidst all that new freedom, that wild hedonistic abandon.

And it’s the sweetness. The sweetness! The boy who ordered cocktails that taste like after-dinner mints, who was full of bubbly, bumbling energy, who had faltering romantic ideas and so little ability to execute them, who secretly dreamed of being special, who leaned into Armand’s hand on his cheek. “He’s still in there.”

And— all of these things are tethered to his sexuality as well. “I did what I had to,” he defends, and then the reality is that he could not have been more eager, more expressive, more hungry.

If vampirism is about having to come to terms with oneself, to cast off whatever human shames you still cling to, it’s not his monstrousness that Daniel is going to struggle with. It’s his sweetness. Daniel always speaks with so much contempt for that boy he used to be. How the cynic loathes those parts of him that could not be more genuine. Too much sincerity, too much feeling. He doesn’t want to believe any of that is still inside him. But it is, it is.

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cashier: ok that'll be $20

me (visibly sweating): ah, yes, of course! a perfectly reasonable price for a grilled cheese and a small smoothie! that was exactly the price i expected you to say when i ordered a single grilled cheese and a smoothie and my vision is NOT getting blurry as we speak! i am a perfectly normal temperature and my speech patterns are natural and even because this is the countenance of an individual who expected to pay 20 american dollars for a single grilled cheese and a smoothie!

cashier: where's all that blood coming from

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Han-seo eating in Ms Kwak's restaurant sometime at the start of his alliance with jipuragi and after taking one bite he goes awfully quiet. Ms Kwak already bristles and is like "is this simple dish too simple for Mr Wannabe CEO?" but then she sees there are tears in Han-seo's eyes and he says "this tastes exactly like my mother used to make it". And well it's over for Ms Kwak.

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"i could not get enough of her tender baby woman flesh" ofc you'd say that you fucking pedo

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ERIC BOGOSIAN as DANIEL MOLLOY INTERVIEW WITH THE VAMPIRE 2.08

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Han-seo eating in Ms Kwak's restaurant sometime at the start of his alliance with jipuragi and after taking one bite he goes awfully quiet. Ms Kwak already bristles and is like "is this simple dish too simple for Mr Wannabe CEO?" but then she sees there are tears in Han-seo's eyes and he says "this tastes exactly like my mother used to make it". And well it's over for Ms Kwak.

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oh (ar)mandy....

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Thought experiment, just hear me out:

So Daniel “I don’t remember, that’s why I’m asking” Molloy could be remembering bits and pieces of 70’s-80’s Devil’s minion now that he’s remembered the majority of what happened in San Fran. BUT instead of it being memories that make sense, it’s all out of order and they don’t make any sense similar to how he remembered San Fran.(this is usually how memory loss works, but not how it’s often represented in media) so what if he’s remembering Devil’s minion except for the important stuff. Then you layer on the fact that his memory has been erased so what if, even with all his will power he can’t remember Armand’s face while all the dm stuff is happening. And I can imagine the horrifying feeling of trying to explore these memories and seeing the soiled sheets, feeling the bite on his neck, feeling his hands tangled into someone’s hair and telling himself “turn your head, look at him, all you have to do is turn your head, he’s right there!” But he can’t because the man’s face is just a black hole, an erased memory, an identity he can never confirm on his own. UGH it’s violating, it’s horrifying, and yearning for more all at once.

I’m theorizing that erasing a “whole” memory(multiple events, faces, feeling, actions, etc.) is a lot harder than erasing one persons face from someone’s memory. So what if that’s why there were so many cracks in Daniel’s false memory that allowed him to recover what was lost PLUS this was made easier because Louis was helping with his own memories. I really think that if Armand just tweaked Daniel’s memory to forget his face, it would hold longer since Daniel would still remember fucking up his life, all the lows, all the highs(literally) and of course he would attribute any lapse in memory to “well I remember being high so I was probably on another bender” when in reality there is a nightmare twink standing behind him the whole time but he’s just so perfectly out of frame so Daniel doesn’t see his face. And it’s everywhere he looks, a picture has a perfect smudge to cover this man’s face, his memory has literal black spots over this man’s face, and then none of his friends remember this strange man. Like could you imagine being haunted by a faceless man that you feel a magnetic pull towards. AND even when you can’t remember, you still feel him there, he’s in every corner, every room, every bed, every lover, every town, every city, every state and every country. So it’s so real when Louis says, “You were there, Daniel.” And all he can say is “I don’t remember, that’s why I’m asking.” Cause he’s so painfully aware that he was there, he just can’t shake the feeling that someone else was also there.