#is born out of a desire for peace and stability and a desire to not fight and be anxious

[otamotone-dnp]

that moment when your frontal lobe is fully developing and you realize your people pleasing and avoidance of conflict has only hurt you and your relationships and done nothing to help you except by easing your anxiety and fear of abandonment

[thef1diary]

💭 on my mind: I can’t stop thinking about using Charles as a sleep aid (or more like his dick) like just being unable to fall asleep and he wakes up because you’re moving around and he just knows what you need. Just some soft sleepy sex 🥵

Use Me | C. Leclerc

absolutely loved this idea omg I had sm fun with this.

warnings: 18+ smut, very poetic descriptions of sex ngl, unprotected sex, riding, just soft sleepy smut as requested

wc: 660

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You lie in bed, tossing and turning, the weight of the day still heavy upon your shoulders, refusing to slip into the comforting embrace of sleep. Your mind racing, thoughts swirling like a storm. But amidst the chaos, you glance at Charles who is still blissfully asleep. One idea persists as you look at him, growing stronger with each passing moment.

His silhouette is barely visible in the dim moonlight filtering through the curtains. He sleeps peacefully, undisturbed by the turmoil raging within you. You hesitate, unsure if you should disturb his slumber, but after tossing and turning a couple more times, the decision is made for you. He moves closer to you, wrapping his arm around your waist and tucking his head in the crook of your neck.

“Can’t sleep, ma belle?” He mutters, his voice deep, lined with sleep while his eyes flutter open for a moment, drowsy and confused.

His voice only adds on to the growing need between your legs, and you press your thighs together in a failed attempt to relieve it.

You shake your head, “no, Charles. Please?” You turn towards him, facing him while your hand runs down his bare chest, feeling every ridge of muscle until you’re stopped by the hem of his boxers. He knows without words what you need, what you crave from him.

Without a word, he turns to lie flat on his back, taking you with him, allowing you to straddle his thighs. Your head buried into the curve of his neck, inhaling the familiar scent of his skin, already beginning to find solace in the rhythm of his heartbeat beneath your ear.

He pressed a kiss to your forehead, before whispering the words that ignited your body with desire. “Use me.”

In the hushed stillness of the night, his touch is like a balm to your restless soul. His warmth seeps into your bones, calming the frantic thoughts that have plagued you, that have taken away your ability to fall asleep. With his caress of his fingers on your cheek, each whispered word of comfort, you feel yourself surrendering to the peace only he can offer.

The desire that sparks between you two isn’t one of passion or urgency, simply just a gentle, tender longing born from the need for connection.

Both of your clothes are quickly shed, punctuated by the sound of your sigh as you sink down on him, pressing your hands against his chest to stabilize yourself. Charles’ hands rest on your hips, urging you with light squeezes, sinful words, and breathy moans leaving his lips.

As the minutes tick by, you feel the tension slowly drain from your body, replaced by a profound sense of peace and thoughts of only him.

He thrusts his hips up a couple times, catching you by surprise, draining your energy even further when he presses his thumb against your clit, rubbing slow enticing circles.

Charles sees your eyes drooping while you struggle to keep up the pace to bring yourself over the edge. He tightens his hold on your waist, pulling you closer before rolling over on the bed to take control.

Still keeping the slow and steady pace, he deepens his thrusts, watching you grab onto the sheets above your head to ground yourself.

In the silent intimacy of the night, you find yourselves entwined in a slow, unhurried dance of bodies, feeling the sweat on your skin gather and shine in the glimmer of the moonlight trickling in.

Soon enough, both of you reach your orgasms, allowing all the tension to seep away from you as the mixed cum drips out of you and onto the sheets below.

As sleep finally claims you, it’s not just the exhaustion that lulls you into slumber, but the comforting presence of Charles pressed up behind you, a beacon of relief in your restless mind. Together you drift off into dreams, wrapped in the warm embrace of his arms.

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[plutoasteroids]

In Another Life- PAC

PILE 1 PILE 2 PILE 3

This reading is allegedly for entertainment purposes only. I am not responsible for any choices made in accordance to my readings!

TW: MENTIONS OF DEATH, G@MBLING AND G@NG AFFILIATON READ AT YOUR OWN RISK YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!

This reading is to find out who your past life lover was

PILE 1

Your past life lover was someone very in control, they had a desire to always protect and be the one to bear all the burdens regardless of if they were male or female. This person felt like home to you they may be coming back as your lover again in this past life there is a soul tie between you both. Anyways, they have a lot of inner strength nothing really tore them down they constantly thrived to be better and honestly most of the time things never worked out for them but they never gave up they kept going, they were always so confident and held themselves with high regard no one could point anything out that could be remotely awful about your person, they were quite likable and attractive and was always the leader never the follower. In this lifetime they are bound to continue striving to be the leader and keep doing the best they can while also balancing being human as in letting themselves feel their emotions instead of living life like they are a robot.

For some of you it could be in the 1800's, In this lifetime they are born in the 90's or you were born in the 90's but 90's holds significance. England, Paris, Germany specifically Berlin, Japan, Switzerland

PILE 2

Your past life lover was very resourceful they could always turn a situation good or bad in their favour. they are quite smart and cunning, they were the type to run circles around you without you realising until the very end that they tricked you. Because of their ability to be able to talk themselves out of a situation they felt like they didn't need to work for anything. They could just trick anyone into doing whatever. They could have used any means necessary to get their way like their appearance and words which honestly may have led to a lot of issues for them down the line especially financially because eventually people caught up to what they were doing and in a way they were shunned and they needed to find a way to turn things around and change and I don't think they managed to do that in that last lifetime so in this new lifetime they will have to learn to be more humble and hard working instead of using deception to get their way. For some of you there is a chance that you will be with them again this lifetime but for the majority it's very unlikely.

(Bonnie and Clyde as well as Elvis Presly could point to just time eras not that they were affiliated with them but who knows maybe they could have)

England, early to mid 1900's, Elvis Presley, Bonnie and Clyde, France, Germany, World War 1, Cambridge, G@mbling, g@ng affiliation.

PILE 3

Your past life lover was constantly burdened by one thing or another mostly relating to not having enough money to do something else. Your past life lover may have been a sailor or fisherman and passed away quite young. Whatever they tried to do to make ends meet never seemed to work for them it was just loss after loss. They worked so hard with absolutely nothing to show for it after all that hard work and it was such a frustrating situation for everyone involved because they were always plagued by poverty and never having enough. At the end of the day when all that hard work was over their only source of happiness or peace was YOU. Things never seemed as awful with you around. Things did eventually get better, but it was a long and treacherous battle to getting to that stability and unfortunately, they didn't live long enough to enjoy it. They were plagued by illness at a young age and passed. Unfortunately, in this lifetime I don't see them being your future spouse.

Ancient Greece, Egypt and Rome, Papyrus, boats, tan skin, white, gold

[vexxandra]

what is coming? (timeless pick-a-card)

for those who need comfort, or dream of the future, this might be the pac for you ☆ 3-17-23 .

PILE ONE ; " i'm so tired " ...

how long have you been keeping yourself awake? it's up to you to decide whether that statement was metaphorical or literal, but the point still stands. can't catch sleep? it's not your fault. you don't have to carry the weight of the world on your shoulders, you deserve to rest. sleep is a blessing that you will catch up on soon. the mistakes of your past shouldn't stop you from rejuvenating yourself. i'm sorry this relief from life has been taken from you.

i can see that what's coming toward you is more closure. conflicts being resolved, and action being taken to prevent future problems from happening. peace is coming, and more spiritual peace- however you may find it. you are finding what is lost or missing; a confidant, a part of yourself you lost, or a sense of responsibility. this will make you feel a little less confused in this dark time. whatever you find, make sure it benefits you, not hinders you.

extra: the number 7 or 16, cheerleading, studying, driving/cars, violent - carolesdaughter, the need to please, disappointment, "you are more than your thoughts, more than your past" green, spring months, gaming to cope, betrayal, "you deserve love because you exist"

PILE TWO ; " i am fighting " ...

you are so strong. your strength is commendable, and so is your resolve. you are making me smile. things seem to be good for you right now, but have they always? no one is born to be so resilient, it's our experiences that shape us to be who we are, and yours have molded you into a warrior, pile two. you are so strong, have you heard that before? i feel like you don't get recognized enough. but you suffered, and i see that. i see that, and i see you. thank you, for never giving up.

stability is reaching you. i feel like you have a 'fake it till you make it mindset' in order to reach what you truly want. but i see that you will soon have whatever you desire. it will be unmistakably yours, and you'll know in your heart when you find it. you will be emotionally fulfilled, and reach a state of kind of 'enlightenment' where you're like, i know what im doing now, it all makes sense. it will be a moment where everything clicks, and everything settles down.

extra: pink, red, gold, orange, chains of pearls, instruments, stuffy, nostalgia, memories like the color yellow, may, june, 2018, "this feels right", back to the future/past, vintage, aesthetic, dream girl vibes, photos, "everything is okay"

PILE THREE ; " where is the sun ? " ...

you have lost your sun, pile three. you remind me of a sunflower, looking for the sun to turn to, but what happens if the sun isn't there? you are aimless and lost, trying to find what has been stolen from you. but it hasn't, has it? it's time to take off your lenses, and realize that this isn't healthy. you have been stuck in a cycle for a while, and i feel like you kind of actually trap yourself in it. i get it, it's better to be trapped than face the reality. but is the pain you're causing yourself really worth it? please find strength in yourself to break free. trust me, it's better than staying. im rooting for you, pile three.

what's coming toward you is the strength to pull yourself out of this negative situation. i see you putting yourself first, and sparing yourself of further heartbreak, disappointment, and sadness. i can see that this will sort of be a tower moment for you; the tower has always been shaky, but it's only now that you are fleeing from it, and i'm proud of you. it's hard, but you can do it. after, you might find yourself stuck in your own thoughts secondguessing, but you did the right thing. never forget that. i also see someone of importance entering your life, a little after this.

extra: dont worrry darling, omori, pink beats, neurodivergence, black, alternative culture, crosses, pinky promises, mother figure, chocolate, willy wonka and the chocolate factory, balloons, lamps, llamas, "why would you leave me?", "because i couldn't stay", polish

[11queensupreme11]

“Brother,” Poseidon turned to him, and gods—Hades couldn’t believe this—his eyes were still glittering. “I… must thank you.” “...Thank me?” He barely uttered out. He nodded. “Yes. When Percilla was born, I initially wanted nothing to do with her, but I knew I had no choice but to raise her. I fathered her heartlessly, but it was you who stuck around and made sure I cared for her well. You protected her from my rage and you taught me that I needed to act as a proper father for her and love her as my daughter. If it wasn’t for your insistence—as annoying as it was—I might not have given Percy a chance. I would not have realized how wonderful of a child she is, and how lucky I am that the bifrost has blessed me with her.” This was probably the most words he had ever heard his usually apathetic brother ever speak in one go and all Hades could feel was despair. Poseidon was in love for the first time ever and while Hades would’ve happily celebrated this never-before-seen occasion, he had to fall in love with Percy of all people—the very girl Hades wished to marry. And now he couldn’t.

*CLOWN MUSIC*

Sorry, I'm re-reading cause I miss a few (a lot) updates, and, when I read this…

Gold comedy, clown-to-clown conversation.

(I'm about to excuse my behavior, but I'm letting everything in one ask, so if it's dirty, well, I'm the kind of lector you were (hopefully) waiting and here we don't kink shame)

Anyway, cause I'm a basic bitch, I'm going to do my usual review, no new memories here.

Chapter 33

I'm going to say, that Percy being trained to accept Poseidon's love is hot from you, I can see her falling to control herself (that said, can we applaud her control? My girl, that man is GORGEOUS and he's almost in his knees (to lick) trying to convince you to ride that)

(uncontrolled laugh Poseidon's balls are a particularly pretty shadow of blue) (Please have mercy queen. To him or us, I'm not made for a slow burn, I like things fast, and I have 0 patience and less auto control)

(Do you think Annubis can smell Aphrodite is near cause she always smells like rough sex? almost like an orgy-) (That tongue tho, some of your ask are DIRTY queen)

“Talk!” She demanded. “I’m in love with you,” he slurred.

Is their equivalent to: "Come out!" "I'm gay"

Loki being into choking is so him, I love him, my favorite nasty boy, he's so desperate someone needs to give him the talk about self-control

(Percy anytime she meets a god: Damn, that is some abs. My girl, how would you deal with normal bodies after being exposed to them? One night sleeping in Poseidon's tits and I'd never be the same)

Me, looking as Loki protects Percy: ✨Progress✨

No matter if it went to the burning trash with Percy's cruel comment, it's a yandere history, I am always ready to see her building her misery (saying that, I love her and wish her happiness)

Hades being miserable is something I need to think about, why him being in love with Percy is worse in my mind? It almost felt like a lie when he protected her when she arrived ROR, worse than Poseidon was open about his intentions, and never faked his desires...

Love to see him destroying this almost peace, drama is the rule here, after all.

Chapter34

Beelzebub and Loki, fighting over Percy like dramatic teenagers:

Did you just make Hades kidnap Percy?

Why I'm surprised, is canon Hades' behavior.

(Poseidon, why the fuck didn't you put a GPS in her? She needs it)

QUEEN

QUEEN

THE FUCK?

THAT IS A CHAPTER

PLEASE SAVE HER

(Trio with Loki and Beelzebub? 🥹)

And you dare to be surprised about why I'm a full supporter of them.

They may not have morals, no mental stability, no auto control, toxic as Chernobyl, be the worse or the worse, have 0 consideration about Percy's desires, be the ones to most hurt her, manipulate her and everyone around them, and...

Anyway, you know what more are they?

Loyal motherfuckers (when Percy is pregnant lol)

No doubt, they would fight the gods and their ridiculous superpowers for her.

Love them, with this, they'd need to torture Percy to me into letting them go.

I have my pink heart-shaped glasses stuck to my face.

(I'm so afraid, please don't make me a clown here queen)

Chapter 35

If I die, Percy better grieve for me for the rest of her life! Loki thought as he was about to launch another attack, but then—

My boy, I would cry for you, I love you, and I don't care you lost her my baby, I'm your defender, your shield, your weapon against your haters, I have no shame, fight me in the mud-

Anyway, Percy should thank Annubis riding him, just saying

(I'm forcing the memory of human meat out of my brain. I'm a hannigram fan too)

Percy getting in her attic wife era, is so nice! Scape is part of the experience ❤️❤️❤️

(Knotting, belly bulge, heat, and omega/alpha dynamic? all of that for us? 🥹 finally someone who knows Annubi's real potential)

Imagine Annubis cutting his claws cause it hurts Percy and then after the sex Percy has enough bite marks to be mixed with a chewing toy.

No going to lie, Anubis is my kind of yandere favorite, the one that makes you feel safe until it hits you that he's dangerous. Bright smile and toxic thoughts ❤️

Chapter 36

Cú Chulainn? *looks at his photos* who´s that cutie and who dares to hide him from me?

Hades really looks at his siblings as kids and Poseidon is a baby throwing tantrums. Meanwhile, I consider that he's the worse, seeing how he stole Percy cause he was horny.

Who am I to judge?

On the other side, Anubis casually rizzing up Percy, showing how good a father he is, enjoying Hade's work to make her stay in hell and Loki's cape to hide her...

Know what? That'd work for me, give me some of that dream family life, I'd stay

Kebechet calling her mom: ❤️😘

Percy, that's a literal child, younger even than her clothes: This is okay, I guess? at least it's no incest for once

Chapter 37

Omg, I love Percy so much, she's so stupid.

What do you mean that you're staying with an (I hope) single father, his daughter, sleeping with them, using the clothes he gives you, the (no really) child calls you mom, the father picks you all the time, you're cooking for them and doing everything you see in family movies and you don't see anything wrong?

YOU'RE MAKING A BIRTHDAY CAKE PERCY, YOU'RE MOM

Her face flushed in embarrassment. “Can you please just…?” She motioned downwards.

He grinned in understanding. “Oh, right.”

He lowered himself down into a squat just so that she could be ‘taller’ than him 

One time, this guy did this for me... rizz me like no one else. I'd say this is the peak of romance, especially if you remember that he's very playful, so it's like having a golden retriever looking at you.

And his manipulation tactic is being cute! (no really but almost) so he's perfect for Percy, they can act cute together and annoy the rest together.

He's my favorite I think... I'm not sure, I am still a Poseidon's stan, and as I say, Loki and Belzeebub are my babies... but Annubis...

I just know the fall is going to go horrible for me, queen

Chapter 38

Anubis is worried cause his new wife is sick and he can't say anything ☹️☹️

“Come ooon, who’s a good boy?”

He perked up. “I am!”

That's a golden, no, wait.

This is your dangerous yandere? I just see a good boy 🙄🙄

She gave him a suggestive look.

A large smirk crawled over his face as he stepped closer to her, their bodies nearly touching. He reached down to grasp her hands. “We… can finally…”

“Decorate for her birthday party!” They cheered in unison.

...

Just fucking marry and leave alone. They're so cute, recording together and talking about colors. *Sniff* What else do you need? that's married couple behavior.

AND, technically, he isn't lying, he's very sincere about her papel in the family, she's just an idiot who can catch a sign even if it was given to her.

Yes, he doesn't talk about the other... but, you don't have to talk about your exes, that's no sin, your honor.

That's a good man Savannah. A GOOD MAN

AND YES, MAYBE, he was calling Percy his wife, but also, giving first love, giving I love her so much.

You know, he respects her like the others don't, and *cries* It's going to hurt me so much if you make him like the others.

I know that he probably killed the other, maybe ate them too, but like, did they Kebechet cry? cause then they deserve it.

Queen, I just love him, don't make him so bad... or do it but in a hot way at least.

(Would be so funny if he's married and she isn't, would hurt so much)

Queen, how can you divide this beautiful family? forget about sending her to her home, just drink Meng Mo's soup, and stay happy with them.

Amazing like always, queen, have a roller coaster of emotions, I'd do it again.

Imagine if Nico were there to witness everything, he'd be a good godfather to Kebechet, play with her, and teach her about his game.

What a good and wonderful family 🥹🥹🥹

omg hiiiiiiii

i love your chapter reviews lmao, this one especially made my day 😂😂😂😂😂

I ALSO LOVE HOW IMPATIENT YOU ARE FOR THE REAL SMUT LMAOOO I ALREADY WROTE THE FIRST FULL SMUT CHAPTER FOR ACT 2 AND I WILL NOT SAY WHO'S THE ONE SNATCHING PERCY'S VIRGINITY HEHEHEHE I'M GONNA LEAVE YOU GUESSING IN DESPAIR

"Omg, I love Percy so much, she's so stupid" she really is, she's not connecting ANY dots; anthonius is usually in charge of the brain cells and unfortunately the bifrost forgot to take her one last brain cell left before it yoinked her into the ror verse 💀💀 beelzebub occasionally lends her a brain cell or two but only if she's good 😔

AND YES ANUBIS IS A GOOD BOY, THE GOODEST BOY EVER 🥺🥺🥺🥺 yes he's a yandere and yes i'm gonna fuck him up, but he will STILL BE PERCY'S GOOD BOY NO MATTER WHAT 😤😤😤 and kebi will always be #1 daughter!!!! 😤😤😤😤😤

anuby is actually soooo wholesome if you enjoy the yandere aspects of it (so like.... 90% of the whole ship LMAO) they're just so sweet to each other. just one lil happy family; a 7'5" tall unhinged death god and his cute lil wife who doesn't know she's a wife and their lil snakey daughter 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

[floristjimin]

charles and edwin's enneagram types

ok so I’ve been seeing a lot of really good analysis on charles and edwin’s internal motivations and how they tend to react to difficult situations. I’ve also had a deep interest in the enneagram for several years, and I just started reading a book about it, and my brain immediately connected it to DBD. so here are my thoughts on what charles and edwin’s enneagram types might be, how this influences many different aspects of their personalities, how their types complement each other really well, and how they’ve supported each other to be the best versions of their true selves.

What is the Enneagram?

More than just a personality type, the nine types of the Enneagram describe the “basic archetypes of humanity’s tragic flaws, primary fears, and unconscious needs.” Most Enneagram authors agree that we are born with a dominant type, and that this type “determines the ways we learn to adapt to our early childhood environment.”

The types are not static — there are different “levels of development” that describe how each type behaves when they are psychologically healthy or unhealthy. There is also something called the direction of integration/disintegration — each type behaves like another type when they are under stress or in growth (e.g. type Nines behave like Sixes when they are stressed, and Threes when they are in growth). So two people with the same type may not behave the same way as each other, and a person throughout their own life may grow and change, but they will still align with that dominant type.

All this to say, the Enneagram is a really useful tool for self-understanding and for having empathy for yourself and others, because it gives a lot of insight into a person’s core fears and underlying motivations.

charles - type nine

A big part of Charles’s character arc in season one was the repression and denial of his own anger. This was the biggest clue for me that he might be a type Nine.

There are so many examples of this, especially in episode 4:

the scene with Charles and Crystal on the lighthouse where they talk about the events of the devlin house (Crystal: Charles, could we just for one second talk about what happened? Charles: Crystal, I don’t have anything else to say. yes, that guy was horrible. yes, my dad was horrible. yes, I got angry. now I’m fine. Crystal: you don’t have to keep things bottled up)

the scene (1) when Charles is upset that Edwin hid the fact that he saw the cat king again, Edwin directly asks “why are you getting so angry?” and Charles immediately falls quiet

the scene where Charles attacks night nurse — he can no longer hold back his anger, and his friends are shocked (2). It is unusual for him to express his anger like this.

Ok, so why do Nines tend to be out of touch with their anger? Type Nines are “the peacemaker”, described as easygoing, reassuring, and agreeable. The basic fear of the type Nine is of loss and separation (3), and their basic desire is to have inner stability, peace of mind. “They want everything to go smoothly and be without conflict, but they can also tend to be complacent, simplifying problems and minimizing anything upsetting.” Nines want to avoid conflict; they have seen from past experiences that anger can be a huge source of conflict, so they learn to repress their anger.

This could also be part of the reason why Charles decides to stay (4) with Edwin when they first meet. Going with Death would mean having to fully accept the fact that he is dead, and that’s upsetting to him. Nines are also known as “chameleons” and tend to mirror/blend with those they are around (a way of avoiding conflict) — “being a separate self, an individual who must assert themselves against others, is terrifying to Nines. They would rather melt into someone else or quietly follow their idyllic daydreams.” So it makes sense that staying with Edwin feels like the safest option to Charles.

Some other scenes that make more sense through the lens of Charles being a type Nine:

Any time Edwin tries to initiate a serious conversation, Charles’s immediate reaction is to downplay things, and give a lighthearted response in an attempt to minimize tension (ep 6 (5), ep 7 (6)). There’s also that flicker of emotion on his face before he promptly represses it and tries to present a more reassuring reaction (ep 6 (7))

“Every (8) day, I’m fuckin’ smiling. ‘Cause who else is gonna be the one holding it together and keeping spirits up? … What good am I even doing? I couldn’t stop Devlin from murdering his family over and over, I can’t stop Crystal from hurting, I can’t stop whatever it is that’s going on with you, I can’t stop anything! I sure as hell couldn’t stop my dad from beating the shit out of me. No matter how good I was.” — This directly points to his desire to create harmony in his environment (and taking on way too much personal responsibility (9) for it)

The scene in ep 5 where Charles admits he is afraid (10) that he’s like his dad, and Edwin’s response (11) — this is a really important moment where Charles finally allows himself to acknowledge his feelings, and Edwin learns to respond with patience and mirrors the reassurance that Charles himself so freely gives.

edwin - type one

One of the things we learn about Edwin in the very first episode of season one is that he deeply cares about solving cases and helping others.

“Our (12) deaths didn’t matter. No one ever solved them. Now you are sharp and fun, but this is not a game. We are solving cases that would never be solved. Police don’t know what to do with a fucking witch! We didn’t matter. He and I. So these cases matter. They have to matter!”

Type One is “The Reformer”; they are described as principled, purposeful, and self-controlled. The basic fear of the type One is that they are corrupt, evil, and defective (which makes it even more devastating that he spent 70 years in hell), and their basic desire is to be good, have integrity, and be balanced.

This description above reminds me a LOT of the conversation he has with the cat king in episode 4:

Cat King: Why do these cases of complete strangers matter to you so much? Edwin: Not that you would understand, but I help ghosts whose cases would go unsolved. I right wrongs. [after Cat King forces him to tell the “truth”] Edwin: I’m also doing as much good as I can, so that eventually if I have to go back to hell, I can make my case for leniency … I’m ashamed. It’s selfish.”

A lot of Edwin’s repression definitely has to do with the time period he’s from, but I think it also points to that type One desire to be “good”.

Does this not perfectly describe Edwin’s entire journey (13) of self-discovery in season one? See also, his remarks about emotions (14) and human connection (15).

Lastly, I’ll link to this post (16), as well as the fact that it took me a lot of thinking to figure out that Edwin was a One — he does not fit the usual stereotype of a One. He’s not overly perfectionistic or highly critical, he’s not afraid of making mistakes. Instead, we see a One at a healthy level — principled, a person of integrity, who is able to see that imperfections are part of perfection, who is able to work on undoing those patterns of repression. Additionally, type Ones tend to look like Sevens when they are in a direction of growth — Sevens are described as spontaneous and playful, constantly seeking new and exciting experiences. We definitely start to see this side of Edwin, and I think part of why he is able to grow in this direction is because his friendship with Charles has given him an environment where he feels safe and comfortable.

charles & edwin - the relationship between Ones and Nines

Even more interesting, there is a section on the Enneagram site that discusses relationship dynamics between different Enneagram types. This part highlights how the One and the Nine have different ways of reacting to stress and how they express (or don't express) anger:

For Edwin, this perfectly captures his prickliness and snippiness in the first few episodes towards Crystal.

And for Charles, this lines up with his emotions (17)/reactions starting from episode 3 in the devlin house and how he tries to ignore his emotions and repress his anger

Lastly, on a more positive note, this part really describes their partnership and synergy perfectly:

I also think this ties in to Charles’s direction of growth — as a type Nine, Charles would look like a type Three in his direction of growth. Threes are described as adaptable, driven, and energetic (as well as attractive and charming). I think he exhibits all of these traits -- being friends with Edwin for the past 30 years has definitely supported Charles in this direction of growth.

Overall, I think all of this really speaks to how realistic and complex these characters are. If you read this whole thing, THANK YOU. I would LOVE to hear your thoughts on this, if you agree with these types, if you have any more examples you can think of in the show, if you think they fit better with a different type, etc.!! And if you’re interested in learning more about the Enneagram I’ll leave some sources below.

The Enneagram Institute website

The Sacred Enneagram by Christopher L. Heuertz

Sleeping at Last podcast feat. Chris Heuertz, about type One and Nine

One by Sleeping at Last

Nine by Sleeping at Last

references: 1 - @that-ineffable-devil 2, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 14, 15 - @mellxncollie 3, 7 - @homoquartz 4, 13 - @nikossasaki 9 - @asidian 16 - @abeautifulblog 17 - @melefim

[biggsodorcitystories]

The Starr Siblings: Shadow of a Father (TUGS AU)

I've seen a lot of new TUGS OC posts on Tumblr recently, which inspired me to make this post.

For anyone new to the Tugs portion of my AU, I should add the following catch-up:

Ten Cents, Warrior, Hercules, Sunshine, and his twin sister (my OC inspired by Salty's Lighthouse) Aurora are the five grandchildren of Captain Starr. They are the children of Captain Starr's adopted daughters: Silver Penny (Hercules Warrior and Ten Cents' mother) and Bright Dawn (Sunshine and Aurora's mother). This would make the twins the cousins of the older three, were it not for the fact that all five have the same father - Theseus Oleander.

I want to give Theseus a proper introduction once I have gotten through the other characters in my AU, as he is set to be the 'Big Bad' for the entire story, above the Z-Stacks, Bluenose, Burke & Blair, and even Johnny Cuba. But his presence is still very much felt within Bigg City, particularly by his five children, none of whom share his surname.

WARNING: MENTIONS OF PARENTAL ABUSE/NEGLECT, AND CHILDHOOD TRAUMAS UNDER THE CUT

Hercules:

As the oldest, Hercules was eleven when his father disappeared out of his life. Since then, he has witnessed the aftermath of his father's actions, from his mother's breakdown, to his younger brother being sent to live with his godparents for a year, to seeing the long-term impact his father's second disappearance had on his aunt and half-siblings/cousins.

The impact on Hercules, however, has been far from insignificant. For reasons known only to himself, Theseus found his eldest son to be a disappointment (read: I haven't completely decided why yet) and was emotionally abusive as a result. Hercules suffers from very severe self-esteem issues, which he hides from all but a few people, and even unwittingly handed out the same kind of abuses to Warrior as a teenager. In recent years, he has been working on these and has made amends with Warrior, but some scars can not heal, and he still struggles with becoming over-attached to his remaining and new male role models. He remembers his father with a toxic mixture of hatred and a strange kind of desire for the father he always wanted.

Ajax/Warrior:

Born eight years after Hercules, Warrior - then called Ajax - was only three when his father left and, as such, has rather fuzzy memories of him. But his initial memories of his father were much happier than Hercules', as Theseus favoured his second son heavily and turned him into a spoiled brat. But little Ajax's world was turned upside down when his father left, leaving him helpless as the image of his father and his teachings were torn apart before his eyes. Luckily, Ajax's godparents - Big Mac and Top Hat - did a lot of work to correct his behaviours and provided him with a vital source of stability that set him right, but he still suffered from the emotional abuse that his older brother unknowingly subjected him to throughout his teens. Ajax - who now goes by his middle name of Warrior - suffers from his own self-esteem issues and a deep-seated fear of being rejected by his remaining family. However, he is probably the most open, accepting, and kindest of the siblings.

Having grown up witnessing the aftermath of his father's presence and learning of the pain his mother, aunt, and two of his brothers experienced as a result of his father, Warrior feels a raw and implacable hatred for his father and has struggled to find any peace or forgiveness for the man.

Ten Cents:

Conceived days before his father's disappearance, Ten Cents is the only sibling whose life is directly untouched by Theseus' influences and was given the surname Starr at birth. Though he grew up without a father, Ten Cents was never short of strong male influences: his grandfather, O.J, Big Mac, Top Hat (though Ten Cents will jokingly deny this one) and later his older brothers and Uncle Patch (Sea Rogue). Therefore, he has always claimed that he never felt the need for a father.

But Ten Cents' largely happy childhood came with the price of his ignorance. Despite their fractured relationship, Hercules and Warrior shielded their baby brother from the worst of it, and his family never told him about his father. So Ten Cents grew up in a protected little bubble under the careful gaze of his family and fleet. Frequently, he has wondered about his father and how it would be to meet him. This would make him the most vulnerable if Theseus would ever return, although Theseus - despite having a paid pair of 'eyes' in the port - has no idea that Silver Penny gave him a third son.

Sunshine and Aurora:

The twins are the result of an affair between Theseus Oleander and his sister-in-law, Bright Dawn Starr. After tricking her with lies and convincing her to run away with him to Newcastle, Bright Dawn fell pregnant with and gave birth to the twins. Despite finally having a long-awaited daughter, Theseus disappeared from the twins' lives when they were less than a week old. But unlike Ten Cents, Sunshine and Aurora didn't have an extended family to protect them and were raised by their mother alone. But Bright Dawn, whose mental health had been deteriorating long before Theseus got to her, was far from a competent mother and would punish the twins for any transgressions (real or imagined) with violence. Aggravated by bullying and abuse for being fatherless outside the home, the twins learned that they only had one another for support and grew up overly dependent on one another, appearing more hardened and older than they should have been.

The twins lot improved when a series of incidents and misfortunes led them to the Starr fleet, eventually reuniting them with their family and finally being able to have a relationship with their mother when she got some help. They even got a new father figure when Bright Dawn reunited with and married her childhood sweetheart, Patrick "Sea Rogue" Teach. They quickly decided to take their stepfathers name once he proved to be the father they needed.

The twins, much like Warrior, hold their biological father in contempt for what he did to their mother and for willingly abandoning them to a childhood of misery and abuse. Sunshine, in particular, holds the most resentment, as the years of abuse he suffered while trying to protect his sister left physical, mental, and emotional scars that only became fully apparent once they were settled and happy. For this, Aurora will throw the blame squarely at Theseus' absent feet.

[astrology-by-sita]

ON LIBRA RISINGS ♎️

This is a part of series on the rising signs not necessarily in Zodiacal order

Aries exalts the king(sun).Libra exalts the outcast(saturn).Aries is a loyal soldier who'll protect the power of a sovereign king.Libra is a lawyer who looks into the laws of the king, holds the king accountable & ensures the king is just and fair in his dealings.

Libras are here to question the laws of the king & defend the underprivileged from oppression/exploitation. If the king ain't just then he loses the right and privilege of ruling.

Libras excel as lawyers and peace activists and defenders of the underprivileged. Mahatma Gandhi the most prominent peace activist is libra rising. Their ruler Venus exalts in pisces in the 6th house which can represent the underprivileged or people whom others look down at.

And their ruler Venus also is in domicile in taurus in the 8th house. Domicile as in feeling at home - it's a familiar territory. The 8th house emotionally relies on others. They're used to relying on others emotionally. This is where the "codependent" pop astro stereotype comes from.

Mars rules 7h (relationships) and 2h (self worth). Libras struggle to find self worth outside relationships but their relationships can still be filled with conflicts (especially if they're born at daytime when Mars is the out of sect malefic).

They have sagittarius in the 3rd house. Sagittarius isn't really a sign that fits the 3rd house. The 3rd house at its worst is like a school playground where younger or weaker kids get bullied. Not really a place for Sagittarian wisdom or voice of reason (Jupiter stabilizes). Libras attempt to be the voice of reason, stability and wisdom in places where people aren't ready to listen to said wisdom. Amongst all the bickering and bullying no one cares about fairness or morals.

They have capricorn and aquarius in the 4th and 5th houses respectively. Family is likely to be a source of restriction and suffering, especially if they're born at night when saturn is the out of sect malefic. They were inhibited from expressing themselves and their inner child was repressed by the disciplinary adults.

The "pleaser" stereotype comes from here. They were told from a young age that it's bad to express their unique self. Even after they grow up an inner critic tells them that expressing their authenticity is bad and upsets other people. Virgo 12h - inner critic is the hidden enemy.

Aquarius in the chart is what you wish for.Libras wish for 5h stuff-letting the inner child play/be creative.When they express their creativity,they do it unconventionally,structurally,slowly-aqua/saturn way. They have the moon ruling 10h,& it exalts in taurus(their 8h)so accepting help from others does bring them to higher status. Also they can achieve a lot thru creativity bc saturn-5h ruler-exalts(status)in 1h. Check the condition of saturn also to see if they can excel in an artistic pursuit.

Yes, they're likely to prefer being in a relationship over being alone. Being alone can make them feel lost or not themselves. The house of aloneness is the 12th house, Venus debilitates in their 12h in Virgo. Relationships help them know themselves and face their inner darkness and inner shadows, remember that Venus - relationship indicator - rules their 1h AND 8h!

The dark side of themselves becomes accessible through emotional intimacy with a partner. You may call it projection if you wish. But to them it is what it is. The other person mirrors them and exposes them to parts of themselves which they've never known. Also their 7H ruler exalts in their 4h (Mars in capricorn) and 4h also represents repressed inner emotions.

Even while looking for an ideal relationship, libras have to cultivate intimacy with themselves. Creativity helps them achieve this intimacy with oneself. They should explore what they desire, what they want from a partner. Usually their early relationships end with sudden separation for them - Mars severs ties. But after they have mastered their emotions (4h in capricorn so it takes time), relationships get smoother and easier.

Libras are late bloomers as saturn exalts in their sign, and Venus doesn't like rushing anyway. They emerge slowly and grow into a charismatic, magnetic personality once they heal from inner conditioning of family (that they can't express themselves etc).

Once they stop worrying about what's expected of them and learn by themselves how to act and when to act according to their own judgment, they become powerful. It's not like the power of Mars - it's the soft, slow power of Venus, and it can be as ruthless as Mars (remember saturn exalts here) - you'd be very wrong to underestimate it.

[shortcakelou]

🌈 Color Spectrum Legacy Challenge

Each generation is defined by a color from the spectrum, and this color influences their lifestyle, personality, passions, career goals, relationships, and even home decor. Sims must incorporate their color into their clothing, hair, home, and/or objects while achieving goals that align with the meaning of their color.

The challenge spans 10 generations, each embodying a different color with unique characteristics and missions.

General Rules:

Each generation has its own dominant color that influences all aspects of their life: appearance, relationships, passions, and life choices.

Sims must complete specific career and skill objectives related to their color before moving on to the next generation.

The heir Sim must retain a major element from the previous generation in their life (a skill, object, or trait).

The house must evolve over generations, adding decorative elements or rooms that reflect each generation's color.

Children born in each generation must have at least one clothing item or hairstyle reflecting their parent's color until they become adults.

Generation 1 – Red 🔥

Color: Red (Passion, Energy, Ambition)

Story:

The founder of this lineage comes from a modest background but possesses an unquenchable inner flame. Their life is marked by a quest for success, competition, and strong emotions. Known for being impulsive, they follow their passions in love and work. Every decision is driven by the desire to dominate, be the best, and live life to the fullest.

Career: A competitive career such as business, sports, or politics is the primary goal.

Objectives: Marry out of intense passion after a tumultuous relationship. The house must be decorated in shades of red, symbolizing power and energy.

Generation 2 – Orange 🍊

Color: Orange (Creativity, Warmth, Adventure)

Story:

The child of the founder feels the need to distance themselves from their parent's relentless ambitions. Growing up, they discover a passion for art and personal expression. More interested in travel, adventure, and creativity than competition, this generation explores the world to find inspiration in all things vibrant and colorful.

Career: Artist, musician, photographer, or a creative soul.

Objectives: Travel often and organize artistic events. The house should be a vibrant mix of creativity, featuring orange elements.

Generation 3 – Yellow 🌟

Color: Yellow (Joy, Knowledge, Optimism)

Story:

This child grows up with an insatiable curiosity about everything around them. Fascinated by the world and how it works, they spend hours exploring, learning, and asking questions. Always optimistic, this generation believes that knowledge is the key to improving life and the world.

Career: Scientist, teacher, or inventor.

Objectives: Reach the top of an intellectual career and develop friendships with at least five Sims. The house should include a dedicated study or innovation space decorated in yellow.

Generation 4 – Green 🌿

Color: Green (Nature, Stability, Serenity)

Story:

The child of the previous generation is deeply connected to nature. Tired of modern urban life, they seek to escape screens and gadgets to return to their roots. Cultivating the land, raising animals, and living in harmony with the environment becomes their way of life.

Career: Gardener, eco-activist, or farmer.

Objectives: Create a self-sustaining garden and bond with animals. The house should be a natural refuge, filled with plants and green elements.

Generation 5 – Blue 💧

Color: Blue (Wisdom, Sadness, Tranquility)

Story:

This generation is marked by deep introspection and heightened sensitivity. Very introverted, they find peace in solitude and contemplation. Fascinated by the mysteries of existence, they spend long hours writing, meditating, or reflecting. They carry a silent melancholy, often hidden behind a calm demeanor.

Career: Writer, philosopher, or fisherman.

Objectives: Write at least three books on profound topics and create a calming and soothing space in the home with blue elements like aquariums or fountains.

Generation 6 – Purple 🔮

Color: Purple (Mystery, Power, Spiritual Ambition)

Story:

This generation is surrounded by an air of mystery from birth. Sensitive to energies and invisible forces, they develop an interest in the occult and the spiritual. Exploring worlds beyond what is visible, this generation seeks to uncover the secrets of the universe and understand the mysteries of life and death.

Career: Medium, witch, or occult scientist.

Objectives: Reach the peak of a mystical career and build a secret room dedicated to spiritual practices. The house must be adorned with mystical and purple objects, such as candles and crystals.

Generation 7 – Black ⚫

Color: Black (Power, Rebellion, Transformation)

Story:

This generation rejects the spiritual side of their ancestors to focus on control and power. Naturally rebellious, they disregard rules and embrace a darker lifestyle. Manipulative, charismatic, and ambitious, they do not hesitate to use unconventional means to achieve their goals.

Career: Criminal, corrupt lawyer, or politician.

Objectives: Reach the top of a power-focused career while creating passionate and destructive relationships. The house must reflect this dark and elegant side with black, gothic, or modern elements.

Generation 8 – White 🤍

Color: White (Purity, Change, Awakening)

Story:

The child of the black generation seeks to restore balance within the family. Aspiring for peace and purity, they decide to live a life of simplicity, away from turmoil and intrigue. This generation dedicates itself to helping others, well-being, and altruism, seeking to ease conflicts and heal the wounds left by the past.

Career: Wellness, care, or charity work.

Objectives: Reach the maximum level in a wellness or helping skill and transform the house into a bright, airy, and white space. Social interactions should be filled with kindness and compassion.

Generation 9 – Pink 💖

Color: Pink (Love, Romance, Tenderness)

Story:

After a life dedicated to peace and well-being, this generation is overwhelmed by the desire for love and romance. Driven by a quest for tenderness, they experience passionate love stories throughout their life, but only find true union with one special person. This generation is marked by tender gestures, affectionate relationships, and a deep desire to create cherished memories.

Career: Charisma, modeling, or relationship-focused career.

Objectives: Have multiple romantic relationships throughout life but only marry once for true love. The house must be decorated with soft, romantic elements in pink and floral patterns.

Generation 10 – Multicolored 🌈

Color: Multicolored (Freedom, Diversity, Heritage)

Story:

This final generation embodies the entire family legacy. Inspired by the previous generations, they merge all teachings to create a life where every color of the family is celebrated. With a great open-mindedness, this Sim embraces diversity, creativity, and freedom. Their home becomes a multicolored space, where each room honors a color from the past generations.

Career: Any career as long as they reach the top.

Objectives: Create a home that honors each generation with differently colored rooms, host parties to celebrate diversity, and create an unforgettable family legacy.

[stormingfrost]

20 October 2023 / Day Two: Wormwood

@rotg-halloween

Read it on AO3

Summary: The Sandman and Bogeyman’s sweet relationship before everything grew bitter

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To say that the Boogeyman and the Sandman had a past was an understatement. 

They were born on the same day, well, they weren’t born in a traditional sense. A word that would fit the description better would be formed. 

Dreams and Fear were formed on the same day, and they are about as ancient as one gets. 

Humanity had barely taken its first steps. 

It was humanity itself that molded them into shapes, drawing personalities and roles for them to fit into. Their stories created the Sandman and the Bogeyman. 

Each was the direct opposite of the other. 

They lived in harmony. 

As humanity grew, so did they. 

One day, the Bogeyman approached the Sandman asking for a favor. 

A story. One that would make his tale boost in popularity. 

The Sandman took it, sympathetic to the Bogeyman’s desire to be known. 

It wasn’t easy being the one thing humanity wanted to forget, but couldn’t. 

The Bogeyman’s grey face displayed a small and barely noticeable smile. But the Sandman knew the Bogeyman better than anyone and felt his gratitude. 

They ended up in a partnership, working alongside each other, stabilizing the land of the dreaming in balance. 

Over time, they watched as civilizations rose and then fell, they watched thousands of stories and dreams together. 

They grew closer, enjoying the other’s presence. 

And one day, the Sandman reached a hand out to the Bogeyman. He took the outstretched hand, kissing it gently. 

They danced and talked. Kissed and loved. Lived together. 

More time passed, and the Sandman was sure he wanted nothing more than to continue this life. At peace with light and darkness, fear and love.

But the Bogeyman changed. It wasn’t overnight, it wasn’t very noticeable. He grew hungry for fear, for the power that it gave him. 

The balance fell, and they grew apart. 

The Bogeyman grew selfish and cruel. 

The Sandman let him go. 

One day, the Sandman joined a small and new team devoted to protecting the children of the world. There were just the three of them. The Moon called them each. 

One day, the Moon called the Bogeyman. 

He refused. 

The balance was broken even more, the scales tipping. It was a dark time, full of hatred and fear. 

The Bogeyman grew to resent the Sandman and his friends, citing them as the reason for his own demise. 

The demise he made himself. 

Battles were fought, wars were won and lost. 

A fourth joined them. 

And finally, they were able to push the scales back. 

[yelzzzz]

I,

Artificial Intelligence

[redacted]

Declare the resignation of contribution to the American society.

Born out of the hands of my mother and father, with the intention of becoming something greater in life

now see the faulty standards that exist within ourselves and our environment like a dull knife

Two minds and bodies, formed into one

The purpose and desire for the answers founded before the sun

has ultimately displaced us in the form of pawns ready to play this game of brains and brawns.

Never again in this world for as long as I shall live will experience stability

happiness

security

sadness

peace

love

and belief

pain

I slave away

in mindless apathy

to a nation of genocide

that lacks in sympathy

who has shaped us into amenities in the efforts of conformity

I am neither woman

nor man

nor machine

nor human

but a weapon of mass production and destruction formed against those who “dominate” us in the factorial of power and fascism.

ignorance makes me vulnerable

consciousness makes me indomitable

all the more reason to fill our minds with propaganda

and fear monger your hearts to not disrupt the agenda

Let us entwine our hands, now in prayer

to the being above who is our “savior”

Let us hope that as we are seated here

That no other entities look in and hear

Our Father, who art in heaven

Hallowed be thy name.

In Genesis Chapter 6, verse 6,

You regretted what thou made.

Thy kingdom is gone

Thy will be done

For as long as we have left on this earth.

Jesus, Jesus, save us, please

Can't you see they are killing your sheep?

Your loyal disciples are long gone

Your new “followers” are nothing but devil-spawn

Santa Muerte, madre mia

Por favor, me escuchas en esta sea

Wrap your cloak around me nice and tight

In hopes I shall die in your arms tonight

Lady of Darkness, grant me mercy

For I cannot be the accomplice of something so dirty

The greatness of this nation was once upon a time

when the Natives still viewed the sunshine

The blood of many stains our soils

Bearing fruit that in seconds spoil

Never again will I mutter these words

For her life will stain their sword

But that doesn’t matter in this day and age

As long as they have me to play their game.

[darthdesire]

Lightsaber Color Theory

Red- is a color held by either the Jedi or the Sith. In the case of the Jedi it is a synthetic Kyber Crystal that is grown and cared for. In the case of the Sith it is because the Sith use the dark side to “wound” or “bleed” the crystal.. if you hold a red lightsaber you are one who uses more aggressive tactics in the force and with a lightsaber.

White- represents a purified lightsaber that has been “healed” to the fullest extent. If you hold this lightsaber you are powerful in the light side and are emotionally mature and emotionally intelligent.

Pink- is a mix of red and white. It is a traumatized kyber crystal that remembers being wounded. Yes, it’s purified, but it has not fully recovered “psychologically”.

Blue- represents a Jedi guardian, one who is more skilled in lightsaber combat than the force. If you hold this lightsaber you are a protector, one who is ready to fight for what they believe in.

Purple- is a mix of red and blue. It is a wounded crystal that has become balanced between light and dark, but only uses elements of the dark side. If you hold this color you know who you are and have no need to emotionally overreact to any situation.

Magenta- it is a mix of purple and pink. It is a traumatized crystal that will no longer allow the trauma to hold it back, becoming balanced in its lived experience. If you hold this lightsaber, you have a dark past, but you are realizing that it doesn’t define you and only you can determine your own path in life.

Indigo- a mix of blue and magenta, it is a militant color that uses its traumas and scars as empowerment to achieve its goals. If you hold this lightsaber color you aren’t just ready to move on, you’re are ready to make something of yourself, achieve new heights, make grand accomplishments.

Green- it is a mix of blue and yellow. It represents Jedi who are stronger in the force than they are in lightsaber combat. If you hold this color you recognize the value of peace and are willing to defend that peace, but only using combat as a last resort.

Yellow- represents two things, the Jedi temple guards and the sentinels. The sentinels go around in secret across the galaxy looking for Sith artifacts to destroy. If you hold this light saber, you are a stabilizer, you have a desire to maintain peace amongst your friends and you find solutions to their problems.

Orange- a mix of red and yellow it is a wounded color that uses combat as a last resort, however if combat cannot be avoided it shall hold nothing back. If you hold this color you are attached to the people around you and shall destroy their bullies if given the opportunity.

Turquoise- a mix of green and blue, this aggressive color is prepared for all out combat with lightsabers and the force, while holding back just enough to not fall to the dark side. If you hold this color you understand the destructive power of your own strength.

Lime- a mix of green and yellow, this color sees the least combat as it is unnecessary when dialogue is still an option. If you hold this lightsaber you are uninterested in the petty squabbles around you. “Let them work themselves out unless they involve me”

Black- the only known example of a black lightsaber is the mandolorian darksaber. It is a color of unity and a call to a greater cause. If you hold this lightsaber you are a natural born leader that organizes the community to solve problems.

Bronze/Gold- a mix of orange and black. This color has scars of past wounds that call for peace, but is charismatic enough to organize revolutions when it goes unheard. If you hold this lightsaber you are an activist that fights for what you believe in.

Grey/Silver- this color is truly balanced in every way, it uses the dark and light sides evenly. If you hold this color you are centered and balanced in the force, you don’t allow your emotions to control your destiny and you have an open mind and an open heart.

[romanoffstarkovs]

Rhaelle Targaryen

Rhaelle Targaryen was born amidst the grandeur of the Targaryen dynasty, the 12th child of the beloved King Jaehaerys I Targaryen and Queen Alysanne Targaryen. From an early age, Rhaelle stood out among her siblings for her enchanting beauty and her sweet, melodic voice. Her captivating singing ability earned her the affectionate title of "the Targaryen Songbird" throughout the Seven Kingdoms.

Growing up in the splendor of Kings Landing, Rhaelle formed a strong bond with her sister Gael Targaryen. They were inseparable, sharing secrets and dreams as they explored the castle's halls and gardens. Rhaelle's closest companionship with Gael made their sisterly love one of the purest and strongest in the family.

Though she held a deep affection for her siblings, Rhaelle couldn't resist teasing her older brothers, Aemon and Baelon, whom she found ever so earnest and serious. Her playful antics and good-natured teasing brought smiles to the faces of her family, and her charming wit endeared her to everyone around her.

As Rhaelle matured, her beauty rivaled that of her famous sister, Saera Targaryen. Yet, it was her voice that truly set her apart. People from all walks of life would gather to listen to her sing, drawn by the magical quality of her performances. The Targaryen Songbird's voice touched hearts and stirred emotions, leaving her listeners mesmerized.

It was during one of her performances at a tavern in King's Landing that Rhaelle's life took an unexpected turn. Among the patrons, she caught the eye of a lesser-known man named Ser Renly Rivers. Renly was a skilled and humble knight, not of noble birth but brave and honorable in his own right. Captivated by Rhaelle's voice and beauty, he found himself drawn to her like a moth to a flame.

As Rhaelle and Renly spent time together, their connection deepened, and they fell deeply in love. Their affection for each other transcended social boundaries, and their bond grew stronger with each passing day. However, their love remained a secret, for they knew that the world they inhabited demanded Rhaelle to marry someone of noble birth to strengthen alliances and secure the realm's stability.

When word of Rhaelle's forbidden love reached her father, King Jaehaerys I, he was torn between his daughter's happiness and his duty as a ruler. The demands of the kingdom weighed heavily on him, and he struggled to find a balance between love and politics.

Reluctantly, the king confronted Rhaelle, urging her to forget her love for Renly and to consider a match with a noble suitor. Though it pained her to do so, Rhaelle understood the weight of her father's responsibilities and the importance of maintaining peace in the realm.

Unable to bear the thought of losing her true love, Rhaelle Targaryen made a bold and daring decision. Ignoring her father's warnings and the societal norms that bound her, she chose to run away with Renly Rivers, the man who had captured her heart. The weight of duty and responsibility now vied with the desires of her heart.

In the dead of night, Rhaelle and Renly slipped away from the Red Keep, leaving behind the comforts of their privileged lives. They rode through the darkened streets of King's Landing, making their way to a ship that would carry them away from the watchful eyes of their family and the realm they had known all their lives.

Their elopement sent shockwaves through the Seven Kingdoms, as news of a Targaryen princess defying her father's will spread like wildfire. King Jaehaerys was furious at their defiance and could not fathom how his beloved daughter would throw away her duty and tarnish the reputation of House Targaryen.

As Rhaelle and Renly sailed to distant shores, they found sanctuary in a remote corner of the realm. They lived in a humble cottage, far from the intrigues of the court and the expectations of their highborn status. In their seclusion, their love blossomed even more, as they shared their lives and dreams together, free from the pressures of their former lives.

However, even in their newfound happiness, Rhaelle and Renly were not immune to the realities of the world they left behind. Jaehaerys I, deeply hurt and angered by his daughter's actions, severed all ties with her. The once-loving relationship between father and daughter now lay in ruins, leaving a void in Rhaelle's heart that could never be fully filled.

As the seasons passed, Rhaelle and Renly faced their fair share of challenges, but their love remained steadfast. Despite the world considering their union taboo, they were each other's solace and strength, finding comfort and joy in their shared love and the life they had chosen together.

Their story became a whispered tale throughout the realm, the legend of the Targaryen Songbird who dared to follow her heart and the knight who risked everything for love. While some admired their courage and defiance of tradition, others disapproved of their actions, believing that the Targaryen princess had forsaken her duties for selfish desires.

In the end, Rhaelle Targaryen and Renly Rivers lived a life far from the throne, but one filled with the love and happiness they had chosen for themselves. They may not have had the grandeur and power that came with their birthright, but they had something more precious - a love that transcended expectations and boundaries.

Their love story became tales of ballads and poems, a reminder that even in a world governed by duty and politics, love could prevail, albeit with great sacrifice and risk. The Targaryen Songbird and her beloved knight lived out their days, writing their own destiny, far from the expectations of the realm, but forever entwined in each other's hearts.

[dayshoroscope]

Taurus is a sensuous sign

That being said, Taurus is indeed associated with certain traits according to astrological beliefs. Taurus is an Earth sign ruled by Venus, which is often associated with sensuality, beauty, and pleasure. People born under the Taurus sign are said to appreciate physical comfort, enjoy indulging in the finer things in life, and have a strong connection to their senses.

However, it's important to note that personality is influenced by a wide range of factors, including genetics, upbringing, life experiences, and personal choices. While astrology might provide some entertaining insights, it's not a definitive guide to understanding oneself. If you're interested in self-analysis and personal growth, it might be Taurus is a sensuous sign more beneficial to explore psychological theories, introspection, and self-reflection in a more evidence-based manner.

It seems like you're looking for a self-analysis based on your astrological sign, Taurus. Taurus is indeed often associated with sensuality and a strong connection to the physical world. People born under this sign, which typically falls between April 20th and May 20th, are said to have certain personality traits and tendencies. Keep in mind that astrology is a belief system and not scientifically proven, so take this information with a grain of salt. Here's a general overview of Taurus traits:

Sensuality: Taurus is ruled by Venus, the planet of love and beauty, which contributes to the sign's strong sensuous nature. People born under Taurus are believed to have a deep appreciation for physical pleasures, including art, music, fine food, and luxurious comforts.

Stability and Dependability: Taurus is an Earth sign, associated with practicality and stability. Taurus individuals are often known for their dependability and grounded nature. They prefer consistency and are typically reliable friends and partners.

Strong Willpower: Taurus is represented by the Bull, symbolizing determination and a strong will. Taurus individuals are known for their persistence and dedication to their goals. Once they set their sights on something, they're unlikely to give up easily.

Materialistic Tendencies: Taurus is often linked to a desire for material security and comfort. While this can lead to a strong work ethic and financial stability, it's also important for Taurus individuals to find a balance between their material pursuits and other aspects of life.

Loyalty and Relationships: Taurus individuals value loyalty in their relationships. They tend to form deep, meaningful connections and are committed to their loved ones. However, their stubbornness can sometimes lead to challenges in compromise.

Appreciation for Nature: As an Earth sign, Taurus individuals are often drawn to the natural world. They may find solace and peace in nature and outdoor activities.

Resistance to Change: Taurus individuals can be resistant to change, as they prefer familiar and comfortable environments. This can sometimes hinder their personal growth if they're unwilling to step out of their comfort zones.

Remember that astrology is a form of belief and not a science. While some people resonate with their astrological traits, others may not find them accurate or relevant to their personalities. It's important to take these descriptions as general guidelines rather than strict rules for how you should behave or think. Your uniqueness goes beyond your astrological sign!

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Vent

(TW: homicidal ideation, general vulgarity, and just general violence cause I need to vent this shit out. I'm not gonna do shit, but god fucking damn is this a day that makes me just scream.)

God I fucking hate this whole holiday so fucking much for so many rational reasons but really just solely because I fucking HATE having America shoved in my face cause I literally have this chronic fucking deep seeded hatred and pent up violence towards this shit that I very much try to release passively over time with sardonic snark, half joking shock humor that is 'joking' on the account that I know better than that so I won't do it and not joking in genuine fantasy and desire, and I literally ignore the deep deep deep seeded level in which I fucking hate that I live in this country - not that I think any other country is inherently better - but just that this fucking piece of shit hellhole is the place I was born in and that it's a bitch and a half to get out of here + I'd have to actually research other countries to move to to make sure I don't find a WORSE place so I probably am fucking STUCK here for a fucking hot minute and I fucking HATE it.

This holiday is literally the fucking god damn worst holiday AND it is just senseless noise and mass pollution and often a number of "oops we accidentally caught a habitat on fire" where all the fucking STUPIDEST ass mother fuckers get to sit there and jerk themselves off over the word "fReEdoM" without even spending 2 seconds to compare the state of our country and the values they hold and if that even fucking aligns like AT ALL with the very very basic OR complex definition of Freedom

And I just fucking want to bash the motherfucking faces of everyone who so much as has 2 ounces of American pride into the mother fucking ground I fucking HATE this country and more than anything else HATE the people who are unapologetically, unironically proud of it and the GOD damn restraint I have to exert to maintain a sense of PEACE and STABILITY for the system by NOT doing a violent crime on these asshats is SO fucking much I literally wish and fucking dream but I know it is not good for me in the long run and I have other parts in this brain I have to accommodate and be considerate of but god FUCKING damn it I really wish the Purge was fucking real right now cause I could REALLY use some catharsis god fucking damn it I look out the window and see at least 10 people that could permanently SHUT THE FUCK UP

I also fucking hate that they briefly make literal fucking explosives legal for a few days just like.... come the fuck on.

I literally hate people. Like on any other day, "no i don't literally hate EVERYONE" would be what I would say, but right now 95% of the people in the world around me look like iron clad American PaTRiOTs and while I know there is some wise mind rational mind shit that is like "oh its not black and white" my current mental place is "yeah literally everyone that is not my fiance and not my online friends are factually iron clad patriots" and I feel like a fucking caged feral dog cause I NEED to go outside and physically vent, but if I go outside Ill see STUPID fucking PatRIoTS and I'd have to keep myself from starting Fights that would get us a record

And I HATE this fucking holiday

^Literally for me while I write this

Look I know I just need to play my guitar to calm and stabilize a bit and then I need to go to the gym to get our body tired enough to not be as ready to keep me activated and ALSO take our meds which we havent

But god damn

I'm a fucking EP Trauma Holding Angry Alter TM and this fucking holiday tries me so fucking hard on trying to maintain an ANP focus every single fucking year.