#intermittent explosive disorder

[ur-fav-is-disabled]

I won’t lie, I’m probably gonna get flamed for requesting this but someone pointed out Postal Dude has a handicapped license plate so uh..

Can I request Dude w/ IED and schizoaffective disorder? Thank you!

The Postal Dude is Disabled!

Disabilities: Schizoaffective Disorder & Intermittent Explosive Disorder (IED)

Definitions:

Valley Behavioural Health System - An impulse-control disorder characterized by sudden episodes of unwarranted, impulsive and reoccurring anger. (IED)

Mind.org - A mental health problem where you experience psychosis as well as mood symptoms including: hallucinations, delusions, mania, depressive symptoms and disorganised thinking. (Schizoaffective Disorder)

[narcissisticpdcultureis]

npd + ied culture is what the fuck do you mean you left me for that other whore? i’m all you need!! don’t think i don’t know, either. fucking piece of SHIT!!!

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[spaghettimakesflags]

Rage Attack Flag

[polygamousfistingchaos]

all servers ive found for these subjects are adult only spaces or completely dead. was wondering if i should go through the trouble of making my own or not.

[snakeskinass]

Unpopular Opinion

Self-diagnosing is invalid.

It can spend false information and harm the people who actually have said disorder.

(Just look at the "endogenic systems".)

[colombinna]

i think the best way to learn about anything is hearing people's stories about it. and the more and more i experience life and stories and listen to other people the more i'm convinced that the Prime Way to unlearn ableism is to internalize that It's Always Harder For The Person Who Has It Than For Those Around Them

It doesn't matter the disorder, and oh boy do I know it's hard to live up by that irl, but hey that's the daily exercise in sympathy (the action of caring about others) we should all practice as human beings bc we're here to make the world better than it was when we entered it.

[actuallycassidyiambusy]

Are you ok?

If I'm being honest, no. Not really. I've shared my conditions on here before and they've been getting away from me lately. Maybe a few weeks ago? I think idk, my psychiatrist and therapist stopped taking my insurance, so now I have to start over with someone new (once I actually find someone else who takes my insurance)

They didn't even have the courtesy to tell me. I found out when my prescriptions weren't refilled.

I've been off meds for a little over a week now and still haven't found anyone and it's been taking a toll on my mind. Like, I can't fucking focus, I feel like a time bomb and even my sleep paralysis is back. It's scary how fast a downward spiral can occur. People wonder every day why others lose their battle with mental health. We can't get the proper help or someone to even fucking talk to us unless we are able to fork out thousands of dollars out of pocket...all because of the fucked up system America is so proud of.

I've been sketching a lot bc it helps calm my mind a little.

[sirenium]

I feel like it isn't talked about enough how traumatizing growing up with intermittent explosive disorder is. I've had this self image of monstrousness metaphorically beaten into me from a very young age, constantly told that it's all my fault if things escalate from somebody triggering my anger, how I just don't have enough control over my emotions and that's the only issue. Never mind the shit people expect me to just take and accept, it's MY fault if I explode because apparently my needs and feelings don't matter at all.

And then I'M the one who has to apologize for hurting the other party's feelings, as if that crime wasn't committed by them onto me as well. I won't apologize to someone who isn't remorseful for hurting me, I don't care how much I hurt them in return. You backed the coyote into a corner and get surprised when it attacks. My ability to not accept bullshit anymore has been labeled as 'going backwards in recovery' because that 'recovery' was just being told to bottle up everything and walk on eggshells, and I'll be damned if I'm going to do that anymore.

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[ur-fav-bpd]

Malina from The Emperor's New School has BPD and IED!

(requested by @il-sicario1 ^_^)

[narcissisticpdcultureis]

questioning npd + ied culture is receiving negative criticism and feeling such a strong surge of emotion that makes you want to collapse on the floor and scream and shout and cry and sob out of the sheer rage you are experiencing

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[colinodonoghueseyebrow]

Does anyone here have any experience with Intermittent Explosive Disorder, or know anyone who does? 😕

[crmsnmth]

Intermittent Explosive Disorder

Out of the darkness, I hear faraway sounds A coughing fit with extremely high reverb Every sound carries an echo in it's knapsack The lights appear much too bright And pain shoots like lightning through the Complications that seem to make up my nervous system

I can hear myself breathing, quickly and ragged It's too loud in the still finding focus of the room A deep slow urge punches through the fog End it, you've lost control A dog gets beat only so much before it attacks the master And I'm chasing my tail yet again Just hoping for a little taste

My breathing and your coughing And in between an accusing silence Telling me something I don't want to hear Accept it, you've got no choice now Hanging in the air between us, heavy and crushing With the crackling of the static blurring my vision

Close my eyes for just a second Because suddenly I seem so sleep deprived and violent I don't understand what my heart is doing and there's blood on my hands again.

Readjust and figure out what's going on My hands ache as I cleanse them Still, my breathing is loud and tearing The canvas is painted, the picture is real I think I can figure this out

Horrified Vilified homicide suicide

Everything makes sense on the mouthpiece of a Colt 1911

[klaudioeromy]

Flashes

[colombinna]

Confession time for people with PDs, EDs, and all of the scary disorders. Don't be an ableist weirdo, some people's struggles just don't look nice.

Anybody else incapable of looking at what other people make without immediately categorizing it on - better [in quality] than [what] you [make] / - lesser [in quality] than you [make] (and very rarely: - [of] similar [quality] to [what] you [make]) and feeling stuff accordingly? I love when seeing other people's stuff makes me feel inspired to do my stuff as well, but I find that only happens when the person's reality is too different from my own (specifically: they're much older than me), otherwise i WILL feel like shit for seeing someone my age or under doing better than me and I WILL feel superior/arrogant (ooh scary nasty feeling I know! Blame my brain tho!) If I'm doing something better than other people near my age or older than me. Knowing that there are people doing "worse"/"lesser" than me actually helps soothe myself when I go into a spiral about other people being better than me. I kinda hate that (except when I hate the person themselves, for being a bigot or annoying or whatnot, yeah ofc I'm better than you at [thing], you're a loser little bitch!) I wish I could be the kind, sweet, all loving person I've always wanted to appear to people, but I'm too angry for that and I'm finally beginning to accept that and adjust the ways I fight for a better world to how I am. I may never be the super sugary sweet teacher/colleague that's all fluflly and lovable, but I'll never stop fighting and organizing to make injustices stop.

Since I'm always the one who has to fix problems, I'll see them through and I'll see that it's all done right.

[dirt-apple-productions]

When people say that they have a right not to forgive others and they have a right to hold a grudge I just think back to when I was little and it was impossible to control my temper because I had Lyme disease that caused IED and my dad wouldn’t talk to me for weeks or sometimes months on end using that same justification and idk I feel like people don’t realize that when they say “I don’t have to forgive others and you don’t have to either” they’re saying that was a-ok for my dad to do to me