#im sorry like. i was really hyped for it too
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a hughes sibling interview
hughes!sister x will smith au (samy + will)
the four hughes siblings are interviewed about their relationships with one another and growing up across toronto and michigan.
GUYS IM SO SORRY I HAVENT BEEN ACTIVE ITS BEEN SUCH A CRAZY WEEK AND A HALF. I PROMISE I SEE UR REQUESTS!! i was inspired to do this after seeing an old interview with jack and luke :) this is way more quinn, jack, luke + samy and not samy + will but i know you guys like reading about their sibling dynamic so i whipped this out
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THE HUGHES SIBLINGS are fan favorites in the hockey and american soccer world. they spent their childhoods in toronto, ontario, canada before moving down to ann arbor, michigan to pursue more opportunities in the hockey world and eventually, american soccer for their youngest member. we sat down with the four to ask them what growing up together was like and how they're feeling about quinn's soon-to-be captaincy for the vancouver canucks.
Q: tell me about your dynamics growing up.
jack: oh god, well that's an easy one. quinn and i were the "leaders" i guess you could say. we were always put in charge of luke and samy even though luke always got mad because he felt like he didn't need to be looked after.
luke: you guys literally acted like you were five years older than us—
jack: in a way quinn was five years older than you. four at least.
luke: whatever.
samy: i think we all have a very unique relationship with one another because we all go to each other for different things. like i go to quinn when i need someone to tell me what i need to hear but don't want to hear. jack's who i got to when i need someone to hype me up. i got to luke for just about everything just because we're closer in age.
Q: do you think your age differences made it hard to get close to one another? for quinn, how did it feel to be six years older than samy growing up?
quinn: i mean when my parents told me they were having another baby and it was a girl i was pretty excited actually. growing up, i always wanted a little sister. i don't think our age difference ever really made it hard to get close? we've all been pretty close in general.
samy: i love having older brothers. maybe i can only say that because we get along, but growing up with them really taught me how to hold my own. they toughened me up for sure.
jack: i always feel like a two year age gap between everyone is perfect. it's not a crazy gap where we're all in drastically different stages of life, but we're never too far behind one another.
Q: i heard you three taught samy how to play hockey. what was that like?
jack: always so fun. she always wanted to do what we were doing so we started playing with her on our rink back in toronto and by the time she was ten she was literally pushing all of us into the boards.
quinn: we definitively taught her how to be more aggressive on the ice and all of what she knows is what we taught her.
Q: samy, was it ever hard to tell your brothers you were leaving hockey to play soccer?
samy: i mean i definitely worried they would be upset because it's what they love and i didn't want them to think i didn't love it anymore because i still do, but we've all been super supportive of each other and they were really glad i was doing what i loved.
luke: i think it was nice having a different sport our family could lean into because whenever we watch hockey together it gets really intense—and well i guess watching soccer got really intense for us, but we all quickly fell in love with the sport to watch samy play.
Q: did you guys ever have any sibling rivalry?
quinn: not really, no. of course we got competitive with one another at the house and in the walls, but outside of the house it's nothing but love for each other. we support each other a lot and i think that's something that's always been really important to us.
samy: we always got into it sometimes, but it wasn't ever serious. it was a lot of just cheering each other on from the sidelines.
jack: every sibling is gonna have some sort of rivalry, but it never went further than small poking and prodding at one another. we knew it was just in good fun.
luke: if anything samy and i were the most rivals because we went at it at everything we did. cards, board games, hockey, swimming, soccer—it was so funny.
Q: what was moving back to the states like?
samy: being 12 it was kind of hard for me because i lived my whole childhood in toronto, but i was excited for the new opportunities and being able to support my brothers closer. when quinn was in the states and we were still in toronto, it was really hard not having him around, so i was glad to be closer to him and jack.
quinn: i guess..not that hard? i'd already been in the states for usntdp so i guess it was just nice to have my family close again. when i first moved at 15 that was a bit hard because i was so far away from my siblings
jack: i mean it's something i thank my parents for a lot because a lot of what they did was for us. they always put us first and always made sure we had the best opportunities to push ourselves forward so i'm thankful for that and them.
luke: i think i was just glad i wouldn't be alone in michigan starting usntdp. kind of sad because quinn and jack basically got to live there by themselves, but it wasn't that hard.
Q: did you ever think your lives would be what they are right now?
samy: no, not at all. if you asked me that six years ago i would say no way and be shocked that i stopped playing hockey full time but i'm really grateful for everything that's happened. i love being at umich and playing on a team that i love so much.
luke: i mean does anyone really think they'll be where they are now? i am grateful for michigan and new jersey, it's been really great.
jack: i think i'd wanna give my younger self a pat on the back. my rookie year was pretty tough and i honestly didn't think i'd make it out, but i'm glad i kept my head up and proved everyone who thought i couldn't do well wrong.
quinn: never in a million years would i think i'd become captain to a pro hockey team, but i am super grateful. it's been a really amazing five years and i love the team, i love the guys. they're all really great.
Q: final question: what is one thing you wanna say to quinn before he becomes captain tomorrow night?
jack: i'm really proud of you man. you've worked really hard for this and i know you're gonna bring the canucks some really great seasons as captain. you're dedicated and no one deserves this more than you do.
luke: i've looked up to you my whole life and i don't think i'll ever stop. you did a really great job basically raising samy and i and you're gonna do a really great job being captain to the canucks. they're real lucky to have you.
samy: i'm super proud of you and you really helped me find my way so many times growing up. i couldn't have asked for a better big brother. i love you quinny and i can't wait to see you become captain tomorrow night.
#will smith hockey#hughes!sister x will smith au#samy x will#samy hughes#will smith x oc#will smith imagine#boston college hockey#boston college#uofmichigan#umich hockey#luke hughes#jack hughes#quinn hughes#umich#umich soccer#umich blurb#umich fic#umich imagine#jh86#lh43#qh43#vancouver canucks#new jeresey devils#nj devils#canucks#canucks hockey#quinn x samy#jack x samy#luke x samy#nhl
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man I’m so fucking dissappointed in Arkham: Shadow. It’s literally just “what if we made The Long Halloween into a video game but made it worse”
#txt#batman#arkham shadow#im sorry like. i was really hyped for it too#i feel like its really bogged down by the vr tbh. story elements aside#the only part i liked was seeing the banter between harleen and jon. and#i kind of hate how jon was flanderized#and the retcons….kind of weird#the twist ending….really bad imo#it sucks bc there are some nuggets of good writing in there. its just overshadowed by shit
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💛🐶SCRIMBLY GOOD BOY HOURS
SKRUNKLY POTATO MOMENTS🐶💛
#oatchi#poochy#pikmin#yoshi island#super mario#drawing#fanart#PIKMIN 4#IN 10 DAYS#WHAT CAN I SAY#IM WEAK TO SCRUNGY#only watched family play 1st and 2nd pikmin but couldn't get into it bc it seemed so STRESSFUL#but for this game i plan to make an exception#the japanese here is just onomatopoeia for barking staring and sleeping lol#oatchi looking kinda too off model but i liked how this came out ill draw him better next time waaaaa#also i finally post fandom content during its hype WHAT SWEET HECKERY IS THIS#prob not really accurate but the idea of poochy interacting w another tiny weird dog thingy made my heart a bit too full#sorry for the tag vomit i have feelings lmao
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back from the dead (snort)
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WAIT WAIT ARE YOU TELLING ME DEMETER HAS AN EPITHET REFERENCING VENGENFUL FURIES?! WAHT??? >:D!?!
asdfghjkl thank you! really glad u like her lol shes becoming my favouritest to doodle lol. also not at all! i really love that you kept the aspect of her grief that so many are keen to twist to villainise her or erase completely to invalidate her. both are awful imo
heres a quote from le ask (soon i promise 😭😂): "Demeter and Persephone share a strong bond compared to the other gods. After Persephones "death" Demeter was never really the same. Demeter relives the painful cycle annually, and carries a deep rooted bitterness toward the other gods for it."
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i actually think its hilarious and awesome to see that demeter can be herself with those shes close with (one of my favourite things in characterisations is when you have what seems to be a stern and serious presenting person breaking character at a dumb or inappropriate joke or something to that affect, it kills me everytime its so funny!)
anyway demeter is NOT not be confused with gaia (my girl knows how to have fun lol). but much like the rest of us shes got issues to work with and experiences to heal and grow from *finger guns*. 10/10 i think u did her justice. so much so i drew this for u hehe
under no cicumstances should she meet micheal scott lmao. humanity will never hear the end of "thats what _ said" jokes. ever.
her hair is lime green btw the light is making her blonde :/
#absolutely more demeter and persephone content when i get to it lol#(im so sorry it sounds like im hyping it up im not i swear XD)#but i have so many thoughts abt the three of them specifically#theres honestly not enough demeter and persephone fluff out there. i need the wholesome mother daughter love and friendship#read the three versions of sephs abduction on theoi a while back and aside from the writing being beautiful and emotional#(or im just a sucker for homeric language lol)#it really delivered the anguish & pain. honestly she was really sensible about it too (eveyrthing will be forgotten just bring her home)#then when she was refused her grief did what no mortal nor diety thought possible#thats motherly (and parental really) love right there#NEED IT#but i also enjoy them being little shits XD#anyway#demeter#they could never make me hate you#fun fact she had deep red hair at first but looked like poison ivy too much so i changed it to green lol#astron#astral train#my art#i have no self restraint#send help#will probably come back later tonight for whats in my drafts already
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#i went to sleep at 3am and its 6am now bc i criedmyself to sleep 👍👍#sorry to ventdump my annoying insecurities again#i cant bring myself to do something i really want anymore#been having these thoughts since last year but this year its a lot more apparent#ideas are not scarce but the motivation/time to execute them are#i wish i could take an indefinite break on taking commissions bc by the time im finished with all of them im too burnt out/1#to draw for my blog and by the time it passes my motivation for these ideas also vanishes/2#I cant actually stop now bc im still an unpaid internee working for experience+portfolio so I need the money#I feel like shit whenever i can't get art done at the appropriate timing (ex: thematic holiday/character bday/event etc)#everything passes too fast and its already too late and the hype dies#its so hard to stay relevant and charismatic enough#Looking back I can't say im 100% satisfied with ANY art i posted this year#“was it worthy? is it still relevant? did I waste my time doing this?”#im too overly emotional over this (unfortunately) popular fictional lion beastman#“I want to yume/draw him more often/talk more about him!”#why? hes already popular enough. He has louder and more popular users who do that for him. nobody would care if it's you.#you'd get a swarm of hate. nobody would send you nice asks about it.#you don't get nearly half of the asks you used to receive back then. people just aren't interested in you anymore.#maybe you should delete your blog and start drawing trendy doodles of whatever is being hyped up at the moment.#.#if I can't execute original ideas what's the point of it?#I hate HATE having to do trendy art of whatever unfunny meme is being hyped up at the moment#but sometimes its necessary for the algorithm to boost you and to get some actual crumbs of engagement and new followers#what else can I do? being interesting on your own or having an interesting oc is no easy feat. I envy those who manage.
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that was the most disappointing escape room ive ever done
#so#my family really likes to do escape rooms#(well not my brother but it doesnt matter)#and my moms friends also like to do escape rooms#so i went with my mom and her friends to do this escape room tonight#it was supposed to be a horror room#and we were all really hyped#and my mom and i have done some horror rooms before#some better than others#but all of them were somewhat mentally stimulating and challenging#but this one was Not It#my family and i had done a room at this location before#and that room was a kids room so we werent as surprised when the room told us what to do and then we did it#but for this one it felt disappointing#and like they dumbed down the room#and there were even remnants of puzzles that seemed to have been taken out!!#and they kept giving us hints without our asking!!#60out as a company has never been top tier#but this location specifically we will NEVER return to#because of how badly they have fumbled their rooms#$40 is too much to get out in thirty minutes im sorry
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Day 12
Exactly one year ago I started playing Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorney. It wasn’t my first interaction with the aa games because a few days earlier, on October 1st, I tried playing one of them online (it was the second game, justice for all) and I immediately fell in love with the franchise. I didn't finish the case right away because I wanted to play them in order but my first official interaction with the games was the 'Phoenix has amnesia' plot.
If you haven't played any of the games (and somehow see this post) please consider doing so.
#i was always aware that the ace attorney fandom existed#i just wasn't a part of it#until last year#and then i developed a hyperfixation that lasted for 4 months#that is quite a long time (for me) since i rarely find fandoms that i really feel like I'm a part of easily#i mean im usually just a casual fan (or hater) and the hype only ladts a few days at best#there are exceptions of course#anywayz#inktober#ace attorney#aa#phoenix wright#should i tag edgeworth too? i mean he is there but meh#wrightworth#narumitsu#naruhodo ryuichi#fanart#art#sorry for the rant#also happy late birthday to Phoenix Wright#except if his birthday is on October 12th#then happy regular birthday#traditional art
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Hi ! I saw your art on my dash for some time now and just wanted to ask, do you read fanfic ? Cause of yes, I think you could greatly enjoy heartslogos' works on AO3, since they do a lot of Haikaveh with great characterisation ! Anyway, I hope you're having a wonderful day, don't forget to stay hydrated and take good care of you. You're doing so much great work for the fandom, it's really appreciated. May the Muses gives you inspiration for drawing as you intend to ! - 🎐Anon
uhh yes i read a lot. however, mostly kavetham (but also haikaveh sometimes) thanks tho
also thanks for thinking so, have a nice day as well
#🎐 anon#reply#i got this person recommended a million times now and im all up for recs and all but#if too many ppl rec me the same thing that is like getting hyped a lot i tend to feel turned off and not go into it until like#months later#so pls no more recs for now if u want me to read smth really bad or smth#dont know why im this way but always been like this so sorry about that akjbcjk
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I'm so emotionally exhausted
#being highly empathetic is so romanticized but it actually sucks so much#not just for me btw. like for everyone around me too#im great at supporting people short term but anytime you need me to reliably be there i just cant#because i feel so strongly anytime im around other people experiencing strong emotions that i burn through my emotional battery#in a matter of minutes#its also almost definitely a result of my trauma. so yeah definitely over-hyped#PLUS i hate being that person thats like 'sorry YOUR emotions are too painful for ME' like wtf#makes me sound like an ass#i think it cam definitely be phrased better while still saying the same thing (like 'sorry i dont really have the energy now. is that okay?)#but it still sucks. i want to be there for people. i dont know what to do with all these emotions that arent mine#like theres always 'work through the trauma' but how?? im emotionally exhausted!#plus i dont actually see any way to reassure what im scared about cause its not like a fear of being punished triggered by others emotions#its like. I was exposed to this thing a lot as a kid and now my brain responds to it really strongly#the thing itself wouldnt have been wrong in a different context but i was a child and couldnt process the things that i experienced#and i still dont know how to
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What's the storyline for your ocs?
nerdy straight A middle school student katherine quin and her pals realize that their government sucks ass and b/c they are impassioned naive youth, entangle themselves in a state of affairs that will stay w/them for the rest of their lives
more under the cut b/c i wrote a lot more than i thought i would kasfjksdfjksfj (i have big feelings abt this story)
i (officially) made the story when i was 14! all the characters are based off me and my experience 2 some extent (especially katherine i mean i made her bi, biracial, gave her a mole, made her like indie games etc). originally the story was going 2 have a happy ending, but as ive grown i have more of an appreciation for....well endings that are not so happy. im thinking i change it. it would make sense w/what happens in it anyway (the story of revolution is not as happy and triumphant as 11 year old me imagined when i first acted this out w/my brother. honestly like ive changed the story entirely 2 be my own but i still gotta thank my bro cuz the orig storyline that inspired it when we played legos 2gether was a conjoined effort and i borrowed many of the characters)! as im drafting it now, the story is not particularly happy lol
the story tells a sort of generational loop that katherine goes thru? if that makes sense? i wont go too much in depth b/c spoilers but its a story of history repeating itself again and again and the endless loops pain and suffering cause and how people are scared/too comfortable/too angry to change the cycle. i think that katherine being a history nerd in the midst of watching history unfold again before her very eyes grants her a certain point of view other characters dont have (except a few who have lived experiences). although this awareness will come later in the story when she's older
it will also touch on something young folks feel 2day where ppl frequently ask, "why is this happening today? havent we progressed?" and katherine will ponder that herself (although the situations that happen in the story are strictly to the story ajsfsjfd i cant talk abt and link real life tragedies it would be too much for me). and i think that as she gets older in the story and gains knowledge and wisdom from what she goes thru, she'll hafta bear this horrifying knowledge that the sands of time dont just erode the past, but the present and future as well.
i was not expecting 2 write this much KJSFKJSDJFKSJDF
anyway! i care this story a lot. its like my childhood and has grown with me as ive aged. im really compelled to make it the best it can be and i get a lot of imposter syndrome b/c i know the ideas i have and the story itself as a whole is good, but im worried my execution will fall flat. idk its kept me from moving forward w/it or talking abt it for years.
tldr; two can basically be summed up by this image:
are things going 2 get better? can they get better? questions i think about as i write and think thru this story.
#spacie splains#in 2020 when i first started making comics i sort of rushed it. it still needed more time 2 cook and develop in my head#especially since? i threw myself in2 it and had no idea where i was writing 2 and i feel like you can tell from the first 50 comics#the vibe was not what i wanted#so after grappling w/it for months i decided 2 start over#i want two 2 be good. its my passion project. its been my hyperfixation for years. i want this story 2 b good.#whenever i Type Serious my textccent goes away LKSJGKSDGHSJKG#I WROTE AN ESSAY SORRY LMAO#thanks for this ask! talking abt this helped tie up some of the loose threads in my head!#now that im thinking abt it....would two be considered an AU of the original story me and my bro did? KSJFKSLDFJSKFJS#OR IS IT A REIMAGINING?? TOP 10 QUESTIONS SCIENCE STILL CANT ANSWER#I DONT WANT 2 HYPE THIS UP I JUST REALIZED THIS MIGHT BE HYPING THIS UP#DONT SET YOUR EXPECTATIONS TOO HIGH#IM ONE GUY WRITING A STORY#im definitely gonna make some mistakes#i just really dont want this story 2 be surface level or juvenile or the typical 'lets save the world!' narrative#i want it 2 be more#idk idk idk i have too many thoughts in my small tiny head#i spent so long writing this ask holay molay#i spent 2 hrs rambling ong
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i know im behind on the sexyman polls but since i got to be exposed to him more do any jack skellington fans wanna tell me more about him? i only saw the nightmare before christmas once so im no expert but he seems cool and i wanna learn all the reasons why people love him!!
#tnbc#jack skellington#I WANNA KNOW MORE!! PLEASE GUSH ABOUT JACK TO ME!!!!!#i know abt him obviously bc i was team ingo but yeah im proud of you guys for winning:D#and by so much too!! you guys are passionate! i want to know how and why!!#i hope this doesnt come across as annoying haha#and yes. i am the guy that...did try and bribe people with train facts.#im sorry i consider the tumblr sexyman polls to be so ridiculously silly that i felt it was completely reasonable to employ silly 'tactics'#to win#was it overboard? maybe...? i really hope not#also it was an excuse to talk about trains:)#so anyway one thing i know about jack that i like#iirc ofc#is how once he found out abt christmas he was SO hyped#like he went ALL out#that man. that skeleton. he really wanted to have a part in christmas#honestly jack seems adorable#is that the appeal? that hes adorable? bc i agree#BIG spindly man#EDIT: i JUST double checked and it was 48-52 which is a p close match but still good job!!!!!!
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hey genloss is bad.
#sorry. i deserve to be a little bit of a hater.#ranboo 'i didnt cut any corners' beloved#girl you could have used all that money you spent on a production team to hire game devs.#why are you basing the entire thing on video game tropes and aesthetics when you could have just made a fucking game#and it wojld bave been decent#instead its just two guys awkwardly standing around in rooms for way too long#like. my guy. just make a fucking video game. youre not a good enough actor to pull this off#'i didnt cut corners' 'there will be little to no filler' BULLSHITTTTTTT. im calling bullshit#'i dont want this to just be put on a shelf with other horror short films' BROTHER YOURE NOT EVEN IN THE SAME GENRE#to reiterate something i said to aster earlier:#i would have genuinely liked this better if i had not seen any promotional material.#which is. the exact opposite of what promotional material is supposed to do#shrug emoji. my stance stays the same. genloss is bad and does not deserve the hype its getting.#go pay attention to horror creators that are actually good.#turning off reblogs becayse i know how the mcyt fandom is (ESPECIALLY on ranboos side of it) and i dont want to get death threats <3#but i genuinely have not made a hater post in so long so i think i deserve this#also this is something im passionate about.#and i feel like its being mocked and that makes me mad <3 sorry. i really wanted to like it#obligatory tag to say if you like genloss good for you youre allowed to i genuinely do not care#this is just my opinion as someone who has been rlly passionate about horror media for a long time#reaction time
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#i took a step back from so//shi a few years ago watching the ridiculous lengths other split management groups go to to show up together#and sorry to be me but suju especially. members will be in the hospital or have pre-scheduled solo concerts#yet have they shown up for official concerts as anything less than 8 since kyu was discharged#busy as hell sick and injured as hell but always together#hurts like fuck to see hyo being the only one consistently showing up#i understand tae is pissed right now but yoona and yuri are also still under sm? why not at least lil touch#with taeyeon's and sunny's lines redistributed#i saw a bunch of sones on twit hyping the girls up for doing the pink blood photoshoot#and great awesome#but hyoyeon was on that stage alone. idk.#hard to stay insane about a group that doesnt prioritize the group#when you can wait 10 minutes during the concert#and see 4 other groups that put the group first#idk. they were one of my first ults. lion heart was the first album i bought. sas.#sad lmao#says kenna#also sorry i really am making this about sj too much but#just remembered kyuhyun had a musical performance -the same day- as the concert and he did both#and zhoumi was gonna have a solo stage for the concert and asked to have it changed to an sjm one#that he had to coordinate on his own#and he did. ??#im not mad at wendy for not coming in on days she told management she would be unavailable#and tbh i dont have a clue what's going on with exo at any time nor shinee currently#but damn!!
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tired of seeing women prettier and more fashionable than me every time I open instagram
#not a reblog#its all either my friends or classmates so yeah im hyping them up but god i really wish i was pretty enough to post myself on there too#sorry im just tired rn. and also very bitter but thats been here forever so its like. fine.#conplaining <3#i need to do that less often i feel like all my posts have this tag#my mother always tells me not to compare myself but god its hard not to#my insecurity runs so deep#whatever its fine ill get over it
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Okay since the announcement of legend Z-A I decided to play X again bc it's been like ✨10 years✨ since I played it (and by that I mean, I was a baby pkmn player and couldn't beat the gyms so my sister played it for me so I don't know or remember the plot)
But anyways, I was looking up when you get certain mega stones so I could figure out what I want my team to be and tell me why MOST OF THE STONES ARE POST GAME???? WHAT DO YOU MEAN THE MAIN GIMMICK IS BASICALLY POST GAME?????!!!!! HUH???????? this is gonna be like gen 4 isn't it? Where I just don't understand the hype for the generation....
Omfffff you don't see the hype of gen 4 too????? Bro same lmfao
But oughghgh I should really finish playing X now I keep saying I would but my attention span is so shit and my only motivation to really play that game is bc of Diantha hahahah
Real tho the megas are post game?? Or like there's only a handful of megas you can get during playthrough which are the megas for the Kanto starters and Lucario iirc
This has the same energy as GSC like you can only get Houndour in Kanto post game lmfaooo
#on my knees begging tho that the villain of Legends Z-A is Dia's ancestor or smth#i saw a post on fb saying that the timeline of Z-A might be right after the war#as it said its going to urbanize and redevelop lumiose#or its set like before modern kalos a few years or decades maybe after the war??#idk but aughghgh#pls give me villain dia ancestor or give me death#will never give up on my villain dia agenda lmfao#lowkey wanna do more stuff for that au ngl#anyways#im also hype for the tcg pocket ngl hahahah#i always wished theyd fix and balance live but like.. yeah that game's couldnt be saved anymore lmao#but at least w pocket they showed us we can play the tcg game in it too so thats dope!#sorry just really experiencing the card game brainrot im like playing yugioh duel links again hahaha#an ask and an answer#ducydoo2000
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can't believe the sun and the star is out. shaking etc etc
#i get in august b/c of hold lists#which is fine my me b/c i never actually finished TOA when i originally read pjo/hoo/toa so im taking this time to do that#ik it came out like a week ago but it's really hitting me b/c im rereading hidden oracle#like. im going to get to see my boy!! my little guy!!!!#like. just the fact that people have read it. and that it's getting good reviews#like finally. after all of it! a real attempt at payoff#a real deep dive on his grief. everything he's been through. and how he's letting himself love and care anyway. fucking screams#i don't think it features any segments from right after gaea's war which is a bit :( but like still i just#i'm so fucking hype. just. for the person in the story who has the MOST reason to feel like the universe is against him#that he's inherently miserable or unlovable but it's just not true!!! and the way will helps him see that without looking away from his#pain#that on it's face#that premise is ridiculous. you're like anyone else. you're soft. you're soft. you're soft.#and that kind of idea- it serves a purpose. to give the suffering meaning. to justify it. to make it make sense#but the truth is it's not fair or cosmically divined. it just is. and it's not fair but it doesn't have to define him like!!! FUCK#sorry i just go insane crazy over those scenes at the end of BOO. the fact that it took 8 years to properly deliver on that is. gugh#i'm also just excited to be be back at camp half blood. <#excited for the fun stuff too!! not just the bummers#will is only in a handful of scenes ever prior to this book but he is painted so vividly and im so excited to see what they do with him#in an alternate universe there is a version of will that is just stale ass wonder bread but he's so interesting and rich and!!!!#like funny. i don't even mean personality just like. situationally#only medic in never-once-has passed an osha inspection the camp is inherently comedic#but on top of that straight man (ha) to a cabin full of dramatic children is. it's just ripe#even like the whistle thing is so fucking funny. it's such a good detail#the way his complete lack of skill in anything but medicine don't stop him from fucking around and finding out#the constant trapeze act of holding it together and open vulnerability to manage a level of responsibility that should not be on the#shoulders of a 16 year old! and he's doing a great job!#mmg. just. excited#pjo
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