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I'm fucking terrified

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I have no way to distinguish dreams from reality and it's so disorienting

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Ough I'm getting stupid brain zaps from running out of my antidepressants

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what do you mean you havent used mindfulness techniques to accept the state of the torture labyrinth as is yet. its like youre not even trying

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whatever

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Took a nap cause I was tired from nightmares last night only to have more nightmares -_- woke up absolutely DRENCHED in sweat ugh gross

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I had such a fucked up nightmare last night

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I'm a useless piece of shit :3

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I was born to be a mad scientist but when they were making me, they added in the madness and the obsessive personality but they forgot the crucially important intelligence

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Teeth weak as fuck why can't you be like bones

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Had a nightmare wherein my mom tried to reconvert me to Christianity lol. "How can you not believe God is real?!" Bitch I don't even believe I'M real

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I'm going to be homeless. It's like... not sinking in for me. Everything is fake nothing matters I'm gonna die anyways so whatever

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Accept that you need to move on unforgiven and rhat you arent owed closure from anyone. Theyre aloowed to protect their peace or just not take it. Its kinda harmful and problematic to force that onto anyone for your peace especially if youre the one offending.

Um while you're not wrong I think you maybe misunderstood the situation. When I said no one accepts my apologies, I don't mean that like they refuse to forgive me, I mean that like they literally deny I've done anything wrong and it bugs me. I'm fine with not being forgiven- hell, I probably SHOULDN'T be forgiven. But having people just straight up deny I've done anything worth apologizing for feels wrong

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My body hurts but I deserve it

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I desperately need to apologize for everything but no one I know will accept my apologies and its frustrating. Why won't they just let me apologize!!!

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hey man everyone loved how convenient and easily forgettable you were on earth. u were the least inconvenient person out there. my buddy told me you were super helpful and nice and didn't take up any space and just slid away from their mind as soon as they stopped looking at you. it was really impressive how little of an impression you made on anyone. sucks that it didn't save you man.

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Nobody knows how to help me, none of my friends, not even the professionals