#ill just complain the whole time

[roach-works]

life update: a lot has changed and is continuing to change!

so, i moved to portland. i'll be going back to school in april (yay, community college) to get an associate's in Architectural Drafting, and until then im trying to get back into character illustration so i can start doing commissions again to support myself through the degree, since there isn't really much in the way of part time welding jobs.

the internet is a lot different now, and instagram's overwhelmingly slick and commercial-- incredibly intimidating to approach with the intent of building a following! i really want to dedicate myself to anthro art but im still chipping cautiously away at the very edges of the scene, on reddit and furaffinity and insta and... im not sure, bluesky? telegram? i know making money on the internet's always been tough, but i feel really bad for fresh younger artists right now-- the bar seems so high and complex! it's like if you can't hit the ground running, you'll get run over.

anyway this isn't a desperate lament, just an old dude preparing to get back into shape and whining the whole time.

[newttxt]

launching a rescue mission!

from utilities included, ch. 8

masterpost

[frobby]

mc when they go into a book and fuck shit up: why is the story different!!!

My brother in christ YOU CHANGED THE STORY!!!!!

[eobsinj]

✨ marco bezzecchi - assen 2023 ( twt | ig | fb )

[crittertalez]

ik most of the wc fandom seems to hate how jayclaw talked to frostpaw/dawn while she was in her coma but honestly i just cant see it as anything but comforting or at the very least not as outrageous as others see it being. like im sorry but i cant look at this

and go auuuugghhh how dare jayclaw tell his dying daughter she doesnt need to live for other people and it should be her choice what she wants to do and she should choose what makes her happy. do i like the idea of frostdawn having given up and died? not exactly? but with how this scene transitions into tree busting in to be like NO YOU HAVE TO STAY ALIVE BECAUSE THE FATE OF YOUR COUNTRY LIES SOLELY ON YOU i honestly think jayclaw is being way kinder here by telling her no you deserve to be happy youre allowed to do whatever you want

the *best* option here is that jayclaw or someone else tells frostdawn that if she chooses to live it should be for herself and not for anyone else. but no one tells her that! no one! frostdawn is what, just over 1 year old? shes barely an adult (in cat ages, 1 year = 15 human years, ~18 months is when they get into their 20s and by 2 years theyre actually an adult and not a junior. at 15 months like frostdawn shes like a high school graduate) and yes she should get to live! but not because her country Needs her. and between the way shes treated by the other riverclan cats and how jayclaw treats her here ill take "father in the afterlife gently reassures his dying child that she'll be okay and deserves to choose what will make her happy and what will make sure she suffers the least" over "grown ass adults tell this teenager that she Needs to save her country and everyone she loves will die if she's not there to talk to God for them"

[qoldenskies]

FIRST DRAFT DEFEATED!!! its 54k words currently

[pastempomat]

i'm not trying to blame my problems on others etc etc but it's the second fuckin time this month i'm sick even though i wasn't leaving the house like at all

[milkweedman]

rly wish i could knit or spin while lying down bc my migraine is a little better when im lying down but then im bored out of skull. but if i try to do anything that involves raising my arms for more than a minute it is absolutely agonizing so unfortunately, sitting up in bed with the lights off and knitting it is

[nicklukenelson]

Can we pretty please acknowledge how creepy the logan x Kendall plotline is for a second? That is a 25 year old sleeping with a barely legal adult. Under false pretenses ! Weird as hell.

[puppetgearing]

ALY

I WILL KILL (/POS) YOU

[discoshhtick]

It's really interesting to me how varied the reviews on veilguard are - I've seen so many people praise it, talking about how amazing it is. Both new and old fans - but just as many people saying how terrible it is and filing for a refund after 2-3 hours.

I fall somewhere in the middle of that rn, I'm nowhere near the end of the game and have been disappointed by a massive pile of things in it - but also see some good in it still. I love the characters above all, even with some really, really painfully awkward and badly written dialogue. If all of the dialogue was that I would've probably dropped the game, thankfully there's both good and bad dialogue. Some of it works, while some absolutely does not.

Above all to me it truly does feel like a dragon age game bc I have to overlook a pile of jank to find the enjoyable bits LMAO, that for me has been the experience with all of the games

[windupaidoneus]

this need for approval is a fucking disease it is absolutely mind boggling that i need feedback on what i say & post or my mind decides everyone takes a look at it & goes yep here goes this annoying freak again talking about his annoying freak things. & im not even like that with everyone. it literally does not fucking matter oh my goddd grow UP! im normal now. i understand my minds machinations. misto is nodding in approval at me

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[halogalopaghost]

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[bugsmoocher]

i am having my personal 9/11 today