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destiny-in-the-universe · 4 months

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Well. This is kind of embarrassing and I’m struggling just to write this but it seems I’ve hit a block on things I want to write- it feels genuinely like I’m about to crash into the deepest icy waters that exist, and I’ve honestly my mental limit this week and it’s only a damn tuesday; feels like I am not all here atm, and I just don’t know if I can carry out any ideas or plans right now

You might still see me reblogging and posting smaller content for a few days- or it’ll go away tomorrow, but fuck I just feel not myself?

I’m deeply sorry, it’s either burn-out or I’m just drained and need a bit to recover, ‘m not going anywhere. I will be back, I’m just… tired is all

~ Mod Danny (🐾) / Co-Front: Rivaille, Ray, Saiki

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rendevok · 2 years

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The sensation of waking up next to you ❤️💙

+bonus doodle:

…and they mimir’d happily ever after the end. ❤️

(ID under cut!)

Miles is roused from sleep by sunlight shining on his face. Slowly, his eyes adjust to the light, until finally, his scope of awareness broadens to a body he had been sleeping on.

Page 2

Miles looks up to the figure that holds him, and upon seeing, his eyes widen in recognition.

The bottom panel of the page shows minimal details of a window shedding light onto the bed and blankets as seen from a higher view in the room.

Page 3

On the other side of the bed, Phoenix rests, his head propped by the headboard. His hair is messy from sleep, and his expression is thoughtful. The light of the morning highlights his features.

The sun shines through the blinds of the window.

Phoenix finally notices his observer, and turns to look at him.

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Phoenix takes Miles’ hand in his, and lifts it to gently kiss the ring on Miles’ finger. They both move to share a kiss, and their hands shift to hold one another. Miles’ ring sparkles in the sunlight.

Page 5

They link their fingers as they kiss, and the morning creates a quiet atmosphere around them.

They part, but remain close, their fingers fully interlocked. Phoenix greets “Good morning,” with a tender, loving expression as he looks at Miles. Miles’ own expression is soft, unguarded, and fixed on Phoenix.

Page 6

Phoenix and Miles settle back into their shared bed; the morning sun illuminates them. They both smile softly, seeming happy and at peace. Miles rests his head under Phoenix’s neck, and his hand on Phoenix’s chest. One of Phoenix’s hands rests over Miles’ own on his chest, while his other hand holds Miles closer, revealing a matching ring of his own. Both rings shine softly in the sunlight.

Bonus image

A small simple drawing of Phoenix and Miles having fallen asleep again while holding each other as in the final page of the comic.

End ID.]

#narumitsu #wrightworth #phoenix wright #miles edgeworth #ace attorney #this is so sappy i nearly choked the entire time i was drawing it #aa #fan art #smooches #ah yes my favorite tag <3 #rendevok #this is vaguely set post AA5 but i truly have no timeline in mind i just want them married #like ding DONG bitches get ur shit together aren’t u tired of pining??? it’s time to go apeshitt and furiously makeout #i’m going to start mashing them together like dolls i dont care anymore!!!#NRMTS KISS RIGHT NOW OR IM BITING BOTH OF YOU #(a win win situation for me)#anyway if you can’t tell i am deeply in love with phoenix and projecting onto miles so hard #who doesn’t love making him down horrendous for a little flavor?#image description and alt text are the same because i suck at those still #writing that out was deeply embarrassing for me bc for whatever reason writing it out is something WAY more visceral than drawing it #i wish to evaporate nobody look at me unless you want to talk about them kissiing more then my dms are open

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stuckinapril · 7 months

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I’m finally biting the bullet and contacting a therapist today after being ambivalent ab it for so long… this hellsite has its many disadvantages but one thing I can say is it has truly helped me be less scared of pursuing therapy. Silver lining etc etc

#And to be clear I have nothing against therapy. I’ve seen it do wonders for other people #I think the reason it’s a point of defeat (just a little) for me to be like ok. I need a therapist. Is bc I’m admitting to myself that I #need one to begin w. And I get it’s not healthy but I always liked to think I could handle anything by myself #That was even the whole point of this blog. It was supposed to serve as a conduit for these feelings #And I’m not saying I don’t have a support system. I do. I have many wonderful friends #But I struggle to be vulnerable at all tbh and whenever I am I’m guilty ab it bc #I understand so many people have busy lives & I feel like an emotional burden on them by venting #Despite them telling me that it’s totally fine. Obvi a therapist is literally paid to listen so no guilt there #And I think that’s what I need #I’m not like on the brink of a psychotic break or anything but it’s just little things. I think it’d be nice to sit in someone’s office for #One hour a week and just go. That did bother me actually. I am tired actually. I do feel that way actually.#Rather than just burying my feelings w school and a busy schedule #I don’t think therapy will make me any less of a workaholic anytime soon but it’ll at least allow me to slow down one hour a week #And also not bottle shit up so fuckin much #But ya all of this is to say I’m drafting the email to her RIGHT now .#Starting the day off strong by oversharing on tumblr dot com

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graysanatimony · 2 months

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4 things you need to survive are food, water, shelter and photos of kris guštin

#‘s ass #kris guštin #joker out #I am incredibly tired right now oh my god #I’m like about to fall asleep #So I’m not functioning properly #sleep deprivation woo!#So I am going to bed now #Good night all #is me adding all the extra unnecessary and mostly unrelated shit in the tags annoying anyone?#I’m not planning on stopping anytime so sorry if it is #Does the first tag even make sense?#Like can you tell what I was going for

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jellyjamheadobb · 3 months

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snzluv3r · 4 months

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i actually feel so incredibly uncomfortable and isolated in this space right now and i know that’s silly because of how many people there are just like me who share the same feelings but idk…the fact that people even think this is defensible behavior is making me feel sick

#nothing quite like being reminded how disposable you are #during the pandemic that set the stage for everyone to show exactly how much they don’t care about disabled people #i’m tired of people not taking this shit seriously and i’m incredibly angry about it #because i know y’all who are reckless and ignorant and think you’re invincible are going to be the same ones begging to be let in #when they ultimately become disabled too.#and you know what? i’m not ready to give those people grace yet #been screaming it for years but nobody listens until it’s too late #have already had people with obvious long covid who spouted ableist rhetoric this entire pandemic #come to me asking for advice #and honestly? i don’t think you deserve advice #i have so much empathy but i’m TIRED #i don’t fucking care anymore i get that we’ve been lied to this entire time but if you actually wanted to do the research you would #and since i know nobody cares about protecting others #i think you would at least care about protecting yourself considering how selfish you’ve proven yourselves to be #this is at the entire world and everyone who refuses to wake up to the fact that we are screwed #disabled people have been telling you this entire time and it’s still a fuckimg joke #and it will only become serious when it affects them directly #i’m so angry right now #and honestly? if you feel like this is about you at all? in any way? that’s your sign #do fucking better. TEST WHEN YOURE SIXK #stop fucking going out when you’re sick unless it’s necessary #i’m so so tired

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shima-draws · 3 months

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Been having a rough couple of days. Send me asks?

#Long story short: I’m quitting my job! Yippee!! 🎉#Don’t wanna get TOO into it but I’m so fucking tired of being treated like shit and getting blamed for things completely out of my control #I’m done. I’ve BEEN done for months at this point #And now it’s at the point where my boss doesn’t think I’m doing my job right bc she keeps finding issues that again. Aren’t my fault #I’m sorry I can’t control everything for you! I don’t have that kind of power! I can’t make things magically happen the way you want!!#My other coworkers have been undergoing the same bullshit treatment so I know I’m not alone #But yeah I’m getting the hell out of dodge. My mental health has been sooooooo bad lately #I cannae. I’m going to end up dead in a ditch at this rate #Had the WORST panic attack of my life yesterday and my mom and I were both like. Yeah. It’s time for you to leave #Have fun running the department without me! Bye!! :)))))#Shima speaks #Vent #Anyway I’m a goddamn mess. Sorry. Lol!#I’m dreading going back to work on Monday I would literally rather claw my own eyeballs out #It SUCKS bc I know none of this is my fault but I still feel like shit anyway.#And I WANT to draw bc it’s the one thing that makes me happy but I just #Can’t. Right now. I’m not in a good emotional state #It feels like physical torture to sit down at my desk and put my pen to my tablet #Slams my head into the wall #I’m soooo tired girlies. I’m so over it #Anyway. Send me asks. Keep me company while I try not to have another breakdown. Tee hee <3

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frumentariae · 11 days

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vent. sorry i’m honesty hangry and upset

actually i’m still annoyed. has anyone in this damn fandom heard of filtering tags. for shit. they don’t like

also like not to be ‘what about’ but seriously if your biggest problems are fucking shipping wars on tumblr dot com i envy you. truly.

#misc: personal text #also not to Make It Like That but like #a lot of the people i know who like making art about the legion and/or caecade and vulcade #are people of color as well. like do y’all not hear yourselves. asking racially marginalized people who have historically experienced #slavery/forced cultural assimilation #and a host of other issues #if they LIKE SLAVERY and APPROVE of it IN REAL LIFE #fiction can inform reality yes but truly? it is not that deep. some people like dark themes in fiction. be okay with it #i’m indigenous. much of the legion’s narrative is specifically anti-indigenous. i am *literally the product of genocide*#i still enjoy exploring stories with it. because i can choose to like things. or not like them.#some people like to explore unhealthy dynamics in fiction. that does not mean they approve of it.#and DO NOT come at me saying ‘wuh wuh wuh well that means you approve of csam and you’re a pro shipper’ or whatever the fuck people are #saying now. because that is NOT what i’m saying and it is not the same. and you damn well know that.#a piece of creative work does not have to always make you comfortable. i like exploring morally challenging narratives. i like nuance.#i like grey areas in my fiction.#does that mean i condone that irl? hell no #because i know what im about. i know my values. and they’re not necessarily reflected in my storytelling or art #personally i think that exploring horror and toxicity in fiction is a good way to build reading comprehension (once you’ve ‘built’#the thinking muscles for it).#honestly i’m just so so so so tired of this moral scare around always Liking The Right Things #and if you like the Wrong Things and Wrong Media that makes you Bad.#it’s fucking dumb #learn to filter out the shit you don’t like. you are allowed to not like things.

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thefabulousfab-3 · 1 year

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No one talk to me I’m going to be processing that for the rest of my life.

#are there things I would change? yes of course but overall I’m happy #also I’m tired and can’t articulate my thoughts right now #but I love them and they fed should have talked some shit out #like that whole beginning nonsense when Ben dated Margot for no fucking reason #anyways should probably try to sleep for a couple hours #never have i ever #benvi #nhie spoilers #never have i ever spoilers

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blushy-tigerrr · 2 months

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vent in tags sorry

cw: mention of loss

#adding a long note to the beginning so no one sees the actual vent in the case that they don’t want to which is absolutely okay #okay that’s probably good #i feel like a failure today.#my car wouldn’t start on friday and i haven’t had a moment to actually call a mechanic until today #called early in the morning and he said he’d call me back with a time #i’ve reached out multiple times since then and have heard NOTHING #if i don’t get it fixed today i’ll have to take my partners car instead #and when i asked them if that would possibly be okay #they started off on a rant about how they were planning to do all this shit tomorrow morning and now can’t if they don’t have their car #but genuinely. how tf was i supposed to know about their plans?? why did they have to say it all like this is completely my fault???#i’m sorry that i’m still in a not so good mental place right now and might forget to do things in a more timely manner #i’ve had two grandparents pass away in the span of a few WEEKS. give me a little grace.#i give them the same understanding every day when they’re having a rough time #so why can’t they offer me the same thing?#i know they’re just stressed and tired and busy but FUCK SO AM I #i’m just. over it. i want to go to sleep.#and by sleep i mean literal sleep i’m not insinuating anything darker i promise #i may be in a rough spot mentally but it is not that kind of rough <3 i’m safe #just. very tired. and in need of support.#i feel like i’m always giving and rarely getting support in this relationship.#and now i’m just feeling like a burden and an inconvenience for even needing the extra support in the first place #the urge to run away and start my life over is strong holy shit

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t4tstarvingdog · 3 months

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huffs a big sigh. i need a guy to pet my hair and call me brave and let me burrow into him like some sort of creature seeking kindness and warmth

#timothy's txts.#everything is so hard when i am sleepy and also have NOT EATEN ALL DAY??? IS THAT WHY I FEEL LIKE SHIT???#no fucking wonder. jesus christ #i’m too tired for this. want to curl up in someone’s arms while we watch x files or mash #i can’t watch a modern show right now the saturation would kill me i think #i miss trapper john 😔

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floral-hex · 7 months

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woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so I’ve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.

#tumblr ate something like this but I think I deserve to shout uselessly into the void #shits rough dawg #I know it’s rough for everyone. I feel shitty even talking about myself. still… compelled to vent… big butts #haven’t really been on here much since it hasn’t really scratched that itch lately & just makes me feel lonelier #it’s cold #saw the Jazzercise studio open across the street. 5am for Jazzercise? wow. early.#and then everyone left an hour and a half later. lights out. everybody gone. weird schedule. I am perplexed.#went down the road and got a soda and I’ve been sitting in my driveway contemplating for the last 2.5 hours #guy at the gas station tried to talk to me but I just half assed a smile and nod and left #even though I know I’d love to just… talk to someone. I suppose it has to be ‘on my terms’ whatever those are #I miss having a therapist. or even just when my little brothers would talk to me. when anyone would. blegh #my insurance is still a mess and I’m about to run out of one of my blood pressure meds this week #maybe I’ll have a stroke. scary to think about. I think about dying a lot but that potential feels too real. just… pop! and I’m done.#I’ll try today to finally push to straighten it out but everything feels daunting #woke up with so much anxiety. about my health. my hearing. no money. my life. had to get out of the house even if it’s just right outside #hate to say it but I need(want) thc. haven’t wanted to spend money on it but I could have really used it this morning #can’t be sad if you can’t feel anything (jokingly but also not. whichever is less sad sounding)#actually treated myself to Dune 2 last week and it was so so good. wish I could go again. but it’s drugs food or movie right now. so…#I know. dumb priority but BIG SCREEN. maybe it’ll hit theaters again for the next awards season hopefully. just a real nice loud experience #anyway… I should go inside. almost 7am. need to take my brothers to school then drive my mom to her daily appointments #I’ve felt so hollow and angry and sad for so long it feels like. I feels so weak and sad and I’m tired of it. I’m so tired.#I’ve been eating about 1 meal a day and sleeping a lot. this is the worst my body has ever been. I feel like I’m just waiting to die.#is this relatable?#just have to look past it. it is nothing. this body is nothing. just enjoy your soda.#gonna look at pictures of butts now #ok gotta go I love you goodbye forever #you can ignore this #text

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bloodytornwings · 1 year

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TikTok when they realize that intrusive thoughts are actually intrusive and not some quirky little trait

seriously, this is so fucking annoying as someone who has intrusive thoughts

#mentally unstable #small rant #short rant #angry rant #intrusive thoughts #angry vent #tiktok is fucking insane #tiktok is a ticking timebomb on the mental and physical health of the next generation #tiktok #tiktok is a disease #can’t begin to count how many times I’ve seen bitches romanticize intrusive thoughts #it’s not fun. at all.#fucking tired of this shit #I’m like really angry right now sorry guys

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valoale · 10 months

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Is it normal to have a mental breakdown over the loss of the ability to smell and taste

Because I am

#man I can’t stop crying and laughing #I’m big on food and coffee is my life and I can’t even taste coffee anymore and I’m losing my mind #can this Covid kindly fuck off #its day 4 and I still have 38-39 degree fever and horrible aches and now I can’t taste or smell shit #I’m pissed right off #when is this hell going to end #vee talks #or should I tag #vee rants #instead #idk man this bitch is tired

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rbvcdeluxe · 3 months

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it’s 1 am and i haven’t gotten good sleep in like the last week and just attended some events today and also some other days i’ve been too busy lately and like yk i’m rewatching black friday for the third time today as always and idk if this is just the tiredness speaking but i’m looking at this not-so-great-quality screenshot i literally just took right now and all i’m thinking is “oh my god oh my god oh my god he looks so fucking great holy shit look at that lightning look at that pose this is amazing oh my god” and honestly i don’t know why this is all i’m thinking about. i paused my rewatch for at least 10 minutes just staring at this specific shot. what is happening. what is my brain doing. this shot is just amazing i don’t have much to say about it like jesus fucking christ please look at that lightning look like holy shitttt and also the clothes looks so fucking like joey is going so hard with this how does he manage to go this hard how does he manage to be this fucking amazing holy shit i literally need everyone to see this shot right now please i need everyone to appreciate how good this looks because i am literally dying as i’m writing this. i can’t sleep. why is this shot so powerful i could literally die just by looking at this like this is so good looking this pic is so visually pleasing this should be put in a museum and have everyone stare at it for 5 hours it should have its own museum where the only piece in the building is this everything else is absolutely empty its literally just a room with a printed image of this

i don’t think i’m ok right now

#everyone please look at this picture please it’s all i’m thinking about for the last 10 minutes #i’m writing all of this shit in a rush and as my brain is giving my thoughts #i’m just typing whatever shit comes to mind #this makes absolutely no sense i am not thinking about what i’m typing #i haven’t sleep in days besides a silly little nap and i am so tired and sick right now #starkid #hatchetfield #black friday

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bilestat · 3 months

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insane how quickly something small can tank my mood

#i am so tired of being cut off when i’m talking #esp when someone doesn’t even care enough to realize i was over halfway through a sentence #and doesn’t ask what i was saying #or when they just make it incredibly obvious they weren’t paying attention or outright don’t care what i’m talking about #even when i’m talking super excitedly #it makes me feel so fucking small and unimportant #like yeah i guess the shit i say doesn’t matter 99% of the time but it matters to ME #but it hurts so bad when i get cut off only for someone else to say stuff entirely unrelated #and to then just like. stream of consciousness ramble every thought that enters their head #like okay. cool. awesome. alright #my mom does that all the time i’ll be telling her something and then i’ll get cut off or she’ll wait til i’m done #to out of nowhere start telling me super in depth life histories of people she hasn’t seen since she was a child. or people i don’t know.#and it’ll always be so in depth about so many people idk OR so fucking vague i get confused as hell #in the typical boomer just needs to talk at someone or hear their own voice way (sorry ily mom)#and i know i can go on for ages about fandom shit that confuses her or she doesn’t know about but #idk. i do not have much else in my life right now. and i only have her and my sibling and very very few friends that aren’t online #and even irl friends i only see a couple times a year each if i’m lucky #i just hate my life lol and i need to stop before i spiral #i have already gone on long enough and will be embarrassed when i come back to delete this because honestly who gives a shit #i need to get over myself #to be deleted #personal

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