#cw: vent

[mosovi-vian]

Tired.

Season 3 only made birdman even more special to me. I see myself a lot in Hunter, and while it could just be me projecting I really think his behavior in the past two specials reflects where I am in my own healing journey. The one step forward two steps back then two step forward one step back part of his recovery stage in life hits home. I guess this is vent art?? Abuse recovery is a bitch, and new trauma can always form even when you're making progress. I think that's why Flapjack's death really stuck with me. This is a time in Hunter's life when resiliency is especially needed, and I'm glad that Willow and his friends will be there to support him through it. This character has given me a lot of insight into my own past experiences and inspires me to reach out to find my people in the world, and I cannot thank Dana and the crew enough for the show.

[jjinx1998]

xxtc-96xx Callout post

To start I want you to know I didn't want things to have to come to this but after recent developments and discussions from others I cannot ignore what's been going on for years now. This is a problem revolving around the user @xxtc-96xx , the comic Endertale, and the Undertale fandom. I will try to explain what I know and offer proof when I can, but there might be some sloppiness as this is my first real post on Tumblr. If there is any technical issues about this post, please let me know so I can fix it.

Let me start from the beginning. I have been a long time fan of xxtc-96xx since about 2016 (I will refer to them as TC to make it easier). I have enjoyed looking at the art they create for many years, mainly the ones revolving around Endertale.

Endertale is a fan comic that TC made of the game Undertale. It's a very decent story with a pleasant art style. I would recommend it but I cannot and I will get to why. You see TC has suffered from something that just about any creator can relate to, burnout. The most recent comic page being posted in 2021 though there was already a hiatus established before that.

While they made it long clear that they needed to go on break for personal reasons, people wanted to ask for when they will continue it. Some of them calm and reasonable and other's were very much not nice. TC answered them honestly at first.

Then it started to devolve into troll responses or just not answering.

Not just on Tumblr but people kept asking on Deviantart as well. In fact people are still asking today in 2024. It has gotten so frequent that TC felt it necessary to change their profile header to this:

And it has stayed that way for so long I lost track of when it started. To be fair, even I found the frequent questions to be overwhelming and they just like every artist who makes stuff for free is entitled to take a break from their work. However this post isn't a complaint about how long it takes to finish a comic, it's about something that started because of the wait.

See, their original reason to take a break was because they were too busy with personal matters for them to commit to an actual comic. But as their history up to today has shown that's no longer a valid excuse. As time went on they started to show an interest in the Pokemon fandom. specifically the pokemon known as Mewtwo. To make a long story short, what started as small doodles grew into a whole bunch of fancomics and animations. To compare, they have drawn nearly four times as many Pokemon drawings compared to Undertale. Now, it is perfectly fair and acceptable to find an interest in a different fandom. And while I personally prefer Undertale over Pokemon I completely supported their decision to focus on other fandoms and enjoyed what they made. I also understood their issues with the fandom at the time, some people were rather aggressive, rude, or demanding the comic to be completed, a comic that's completely free that they make no profit out of. I even recall one point they tried to unsuccessfully drag a different content creator into this issue as if it would somehow work.

However I started to notice they had a warped perception on the fandom. Rather than blame the few people that harassed them online with constant asks, they believed that the entire fandom as a whole is to blame as declared it all toxic. Something they insist on repeating to all their fans and making them believe their opinion as fact.

Now for the record I am very aware of how toxic this fandom was and can be at times. I was around since the beginning and have seen just about every drama that has come. From the fans harassing you for not doing the pacifist route in the first time playing, people arguing if either Frisk or Chara is a really bad person, arguing over Frisk's and Chara's gender, is genocide the right choice, is Toriel the bad guy or Asgore, and a controversy revolving around a certain creator of the au Glitchtale (the last one TC coincidentally emulates their "Delay work for one week for every ask" and finds it amusing). I know this fandom is not the best but I love it all the same, it's as much a part of my life as it is for TC. I know I am not perfect at showing my interest for Undertale, as this image of a private ask shows.

Or this time I made a obviously joke ask and apparently I didn't realize a lot of people don't understand sarcasm.

Or when I tried to ask this sincere and nonaggressive question, one of the few times TC isn't putting up some kind of attitude.

Or this other ask from me.

At the end of the day this is just a comic. No one has any right to demand them to continue it or make death threats, this is completely unacceptable. However, at the same time this doesn't mean the creator should dehumanize the entire fandom or punish the few that are being respectful. They wait and what do they get, people mocking them and bullying them. That's what I realized in the past week when I engaged in the comments of a few posts. TC allow their fans to bully the fandom.

I tried to be as calm and reasonable as I can and yet I get called out as a toxic fan. And in the end did TC scold everyone else, no, they basically told me to shut up. I overestimated the fans intelligence and if they could handle basic logic, read the comments for yourself to see my point. As someone with Asperger and anger issues, it's a god given miracle I am still trying to maintain my composure within this insanity that has been going on for years. I have spoken with several content creators who asked to remain anonymous about this entire fiasco and we have similar conclusions about TC.

TC has been through a lot of painful and hurtful comments over the years that they did not deserve in the slightest. They are entitled to do whatever they want with their comic and works. Saying a fandom is or isn't toxic is unhelpful as you fundamentally miss the mark on how fandom culture works. As a creator, it is not right to hang this hiatus over people's heads and string them along. TC does not respect their Undertale fans in the slightest and mocks those who is still waiting. They indirectly encourage their other fans to bully and dehumanize the rest.

I held back on making a comment about all this for two reasons. One, TC's fandom terrifies me. They are complete smug hypocrites who spend way too much time on the internet that they don't realize that if they use their words in real life they will get punched in the face for it. Two, despite everything I still believe that TC can change. I like to believe the best in everyone and that there is hope that maybe this time TC will realize they have become the very thing they hate. That hope has faded to cinders. I'm done with TC, my only concern is the people remaining to wait for the comic.

To everyone who is waiting for Endertale and/or following TC because you like their Undertale stuff, leave them and never come back. They do not respect you, they look down on you, they laugh watching you wait, you deserve better than them. Even if they do finish the comic eventually it will not be made out of love or passion.

DO NOT harass and bully them because of my words. I will not tolerate any attempt to do so.

My final words are for TC if they even decide to read this:

TC, I know we are not friends, you made that clear long ago but I was hoping we could've been. You were a huge inspiration for me in the past and was what pushed me to attempt learning about art. I looked up to you and tried to support you when you were feeling down. You are no longer that person.

You do not have the right to condemn an entire fandom as toxic and declare it as a fact of life. It's people like you that keep the fandoms so divided to this day. It's because of people like you I am scared for my life if I ever mention Undertale in public. Your fixation on the sins of the past prevents us from moving forward. I do not excuse what happened but the past is in the past, get over it and grow up, you are an adult so act like it.

You say you don't owe us any comic or works, well at the same time if you want to mistreat the fandom I care about then I or anybody don't owe you any respect yet I did for nearly five years.

Why? Because I cared about how this all made you feel. What do you see when you look at me, another obsessed toxic fan who should keep their mouth shut or a PERSON with their own thoughts feelings and beliefs?

One of your problems is that you think nothing ever seems to be your fault, just the fans who keep asking. Well maybe they wouldn't have asked if you didn't leave them hanging for almost five years. To me, it no longer matters if you finish Endertale or not.

Maybe you still think it isn't your fault, then that makes me the idiot for hoping you can be better. You hurt me, really hurt me. I don't think I can ever trust someone like you again.

Do you know what I really want?

Your apology. I want you to make a genuine apology to me and the fandom at your actions over the years. I won't block you because being the idiot I am I hope my words mean something to you and you'll want to chat.

But until you wise up ask yourself this familiar question,

Do you really think you are above consequences?

[system-venting]

i don't know if you guys are still active or not, but if you are, i'm going insane right now and have nowhere else to go, so hi.

im losing my fucking mind. i'm splitting very badly and am in the middle of a BPD episode, so take everything I say with a grain of salt, but FUCK man.

our partner system got mad at us for making a friend. not even somebody we talk to necessarily, just a mutual. they *flipped* out on us and lost their minds, and are currently still flipping out on us as we speak, despite it having been over a day now.

i don't fucking get it. they have friends. why cant we have friends?? our relationship is already weird because we're minors with a three year age gap (us on the lower end of it, being 14). it's easy to make us uncomfortable because we have trauma and are paranoid we're being groomed and controlled, and they *know* of this paranoia and still do this kind of shit where they very blatantly try to control us.

ive brought this up with them, I told them it made us uncomfortable as soon as it happened and tried to communicate it, but they immediately shut us down and explained how we were somehow in the wrong for "waking them up to that." waking you up to WHAT?? I didn't give you any devastating news, I told you we MADE A FRIEND. CRAZY FUCKING CONCEPT, I KNOW.

i don't even know what to do with them at this point. I'm stuck comforting them after they threw us into an episode and trauma response. I honestly am just appalled that they're acting this way. this is something we've talked to them about a number of times and they continue to do it. gross.

We are still active- well one mod is, the other mod's system is going through smth so they can't handle the vent page. Anyhow-

We.. honestly understand that situation, and it is really difficult. We were lucky enough to get them to mostly listen, and when they started up again our protector was plain out like "nope. Bye. Goodbye. No more of this.". It's.. difficult to get out of, but I wish you the best, if anything you could try to break up but obviously I know its hard and isnt always on the table for most.

Also, Not to make it worse, but it might be grooming. Our system was groomed by someone three years older than us and they mainly would manipulate and gaslight or guilt trip, and honestly your situation reminds us of our own

Grooming by definition is:

"Grooming is when someone builds a relationship, trust and emotional connection with a person [typically young but can be any age] so they can manipulate, exploit and abuse them. Children and young people who are groomed can be sexually abused, exploited or trafficked. Anybody can be a groomer, no matter their age, gender or race."

[imonthenoflylist]

Does anyone else break out in tears because they have to leave the house or is that just me?

[onemoreattempt]

Why is it that when I get sick I can’t ever just get a normal illness? Like I can’t just get the flu, we’ve gotta have bronchitis in there too. I can’t just have strep throat, I also need a sinus infection and an ear infection (which took 10 weeks for the medical system where I was to actually fix btw l, and during that time a medical professional told me I could get meningitis). And now, when I thought I got normal bronchitis, it turns out I have fucking pneumonia?!?!

[slobbler]

whelp. i guess im not at TOTAL rock bottom. i mean yeah, i might be still living in my childhood home with 20$ to my name, have had to cancel my transition, have lost almost all of my close friends, the air might be so smoggy it burns my lungs to go outside, my car might be almost out of gas, my brain might be falling apart, and my country might be about to experience the culmination of 70 years of conservative conspiring, but like...

uhh. i still have a home. i at least have tumblr? i have my mutuals who i don't talk to often but i still like a lot. i have smut, i have a vr headset, that's pretty cool! i have my headmates, i have therapy for the next month or two, i have a car even if its low on fuel, i have my health, mostly, and i have that one friend! i have a cute voice & body even without estrogen and i still have my animals and mom and brothers. i still have hope i still have the move soon i still have hope i still have hope i still have hope!! my god, i still have hope!!!

i have hope and desire and, my god, i never used to! i still have myself and my positivity and i still have my mutuals and my friend and family and i have love in my heart!!! it might not be enough to save me but it's enough to fucking try!!!

i have to try. for myself & for my sisters & my family & my friend & for the friends i have yet to make.

thank you all for being here through the good and the bad. i might not show it but it means the world to me that i have you here!!

love, cornslobbler

[cardnompfs]

Not gonna lie, I am feeling anxious especially for what happened for the past few months in this year. That's why i haven't been posting a lot since or even drawn a lot either

I just, I dunno-

For someone who wishes harmony and comfort it's challenging, And my anxiety seems to spike up even some little things that could of been bad-

I just never knew how tough and challenging that can be

[17-noodlebird]

TADC EP. 2 SPOILERS INCOMING

CW/TW: Vent

I'm gonna go out of my to say that there are some glaring double standards in terms of how Caine and Jax are being treated by the fandom right now. People have been raising torches and pitchforks over someone who simply didn't understand what he was doing and is in need of help and guidance, while Jax, who was simply being a whiny man child who craved violence and was just simply not a good person that episode, got off scott free. IT'S LITERALLY PINK DIAMOND VS. THE OTHER DIAMONDS ALL OVER AGAIN, AND I CAN'T STAND IT!!!

Just because Caine is an AI, that doesn't mean he doesn't have human qualities, and I'm glad I'm not the only one with this assessment. Even his VA, Alex Rochon, pointed out how Caine isn't being intentionally evil, and even knows what it feels like to be in Caine's position due to being on the autism spectrum. I find Caine to be relatable myself, because I know what it's like to screw up over and over again and it hurts. A lot, actually.

What I'm saying is that we need to be cutting Caine some more slack, and we should dial down the hate for him, because sooner or later, Gooseworx is gonna catch wind of this and call us out on it the same way she did with the content farms.

Yes. I can understand that Gummigoo "dying" was hard on all of you, but I see more hate from Caine (who had good intentions, and just needs to someone to help him) than from Jax, who should be getting the hate he deserves for being an immature bully, but isn't on this platform, and it sucks. A lot.

I try to stay away from the toxic parts of the fandom, but I think it managed to creep its way here somehow, and I'm heartbroken about it. There's so much in Caine that I see in myself because of my own struggles with being autistic, and it really hurts because autistic people in real life tend to struggle with those same double standards almost daily.

Guys. Please. Do better.

For everyone's sake.

[pjunicornart]

cw: gore, blood, slight nudity, sickness, vent

Decay

Vent art art of how I'm currently feeling right now. I feel like my body is decaying. All I wanna do is stay in bed, and I'm always too hot or too cold. My lungs feel like they should be removed from my body. I feel like shit, and I have no idea how to fix it.

Making people look sick is a hidden specialty of mine. Don't worry, Lewis... because @thecrispykoala made a big fuss about it I'll draw you less "sicky" later. With a fixed chest, I promise.

[unothief]

hey i normally try to keep my home life off my socials but things beetewn me and my mom have rapidly deteriorated and i'm trying to assemble any option to get out of here sooner rather than later, if you have anything to spare i have a cashapp here: $unothief this has happened twice now in the last few days, in which she's acted this way and she has a long history of this, any money i receive in that cash app is going into my savings account to use to get me out of here ASAP.

[stillsolo]

someone instantly blocked me when I told them I'm not okay with them godmodding my muse's thoughts and feelings towards their muse. like, buddy, you can't dictate my muse. that is legit goddmodding. I don't care if that's part of your bio / muse lore. this is extremely basic rp etiquette. and it's funny because the second I had an issue with them, they started telling me they wanted to leave the community (again). okay, I'm genuinely sorry you feel that way, but if you didn't try forcing me to change my muse's thoughts & feelings towards your muse, like ... ? idk man. I have whiplash at this point. I'm so glad I have receipts out the wazoo and i know nothing I said was out of line. people are entitled and not afraid to manipulate you.

[system-venting]

tw suicide

i formed four years ago to stop our girlfriend from committing suicide every time she attempted. why am i back in front to stop our ps from fucking killing themselves. why do we keep getting tangled with bad people. im so stressed and anxious and our headache is horrible i dont want to know who else popped into existence in the innerworld. i want him to stop trying to fucking kill himself but hes just saying more and more stressful shit.

we were in a simmilar situation, sometimes the best you/yall can do is explain that you/yall can't deal with it currently and that it does affect you/yall a lot.

I don't know if I should recommend this but in the end our ps who did that ended up being quite bad so we cut them off.

[divinityunleashed]

Today has been... a day.

I'm not going to get into specifics. Muns I interact with on Discord know what I've had to deal with today, outside of the internet stuff.

I just...

Sigh. I can make mistakes. After all, I'm like the rest of you, a human being. I can easily make a mistake and not notice until it's too late. It's just when that mistake escalates into something and I'm not allowed the chance to defend myself is something I wish never happened.

I'm not going to reveal what this was, because Tumblr drama is stupid and shouldn't exist. We should all be happy and spread positive vibes, and play our favourite characters with some of our other favourite characters.

I just wish that whenever something happens, we are given the freedom of speech to defend ourselves and explain things. I had that taken away from me. I tried to defend myself, and now I literally can't.

I'm sorry for dropping the mood today, and I am thankful for my close friends here for supporting me as I vented about what had happened in one of their Discord Servers. I'm super happy to have my mutuals sticking with me when I open up and speak about things.

Sometimes, I just wish I never had to speak at all, that things could just go smoothly. Swimmingly. Without ANY drama. But no. Apparently on Tumblr, that's almost impossible.

I'm just gonna lurk for the remainder of the day, maybe send in a few asks to some friends.

My apologies, folks.

[susartwork]

I'm dealing with some emotions right now.

To be honest Idk either what's getting me, but I'll be ok soon, I know it, so don't worry.

I'm just saying to my mutuals that I might be less online ÓwÒ

I'm also pretty unmotivated, so ye I'll draw veeery slowly as I did the past days. (And oof I'll draw just whatever the frick I want)

Comic coming soon btw

Take care of yourself y'all ♡

[syrips]

kinda funny how repeatedly being kicked out of groups after they welcomed/invited you in will mess with your sense of trust and security

like sure i wanna join your group, let me know when you plan to kick me so i dont get too attached, thank you

[my-ears-are-burning]

Anyone else wanna tear out their inner ears and become completely deaf instead of partially? No-one else?