#bc i shouldnt be so worried right?

[johnathancactus]

just putting this here bc im feeling a bit frustrated with myself right now & talking at nobody helps

cw: not eating enough, & thusly not feeling great; general health; body health; venting

i always feel bad about being so concerned about my health when everybody says im healthy bc i know im not--for context: i probably have arfid & have big issues w food texture to the point where i struggle to eat much of any meat/protein & other vitamins

in the past (before i started taking vitamins & iron supplements) i used to always be dead tired. i knew i wasnt depressed but it was more just that i could barely make my body do anything?? it even got so bad once that i couldnt move my arms for like 3 minutes (which was fucking terrifying bc it came out of nowhere). i used to feel like i was hollow--like there was nothing behind my face but skin & bones. i used to feel sick looking at my body bc i felt like i looked more like a skeleton than a person. i lowkey felt like my body was corroding & eating itself--i wasnt dying but it felt like it

so i was like "oh shit" & started taking vitamins & iron (even though my doctor said my blood work was fine??), and stopped feeling quite as much like death, yay! but even still im usually exhausted & feel like shit... like i still struggle to eat enough and its just frustrating bc i dont want to talk to people about it a ton? i have a bad habit of obessng over my health (prob bc i dont usually feel awesome) & i get by enough to where i seem fine? sometimes im not even sure if im just making this bigger in my head (granted, while im typing this my hands are shaking bc i havent been getting enough to eat lmao) but most people think im making it a big deal? idrk man... like i know i get anxious, & my doctor keeps telling me that im fine, but i still usually feel like shit (not like im dying any more, though! win!)... like people tell me i need to stop worrying about my health but like idfk.... its hard to not worry when i feel like im in the lowest possible bit of qualifying as "normally healthy".... ugh

like i qualify as "fine", but if i eat a meal too late my abdomen becomes concave?? like i know this is a Thing, but it happens to me pretty regularly which makes me tweak tf out because like??? is that realy normal????

its also hard because as a woman, people always go "omg ur so skinny!!! ur so pretty <3 <3 i wish i had ur body!!!" (i'm 5'8" & 104 lbs) because i feel so guilty for wanting to gain weight? i should want this right? like so may people want to be like me--even though i feel sick & dead all the time... like you shouldnt want this--or should i not want to change? sometimes i wonder if i should give up bc it took me 2 years to gain 10lbs...

maybe i just should talk to my therapist about it sometime instead of my ocd idfk... i just want to feel Healthy again.. i feel like its been years since ive felt energized and alive... since i havent felt like i could die if i ended up missing a meal... since i havent been able to see my hip bones stick out like im dying (looking at them makes me feel sick to my stomach)... since i havent felt as if my own body was eating itself... ugh

[isa-ah]

met a really cool queer stranger today that i thought was just so fucking neat i wanted to talk but if we were playing tennis they were, with the most gentle and earnest voice ive ever heard, shoving the tennis racket down my throat. every compliment or joke i made was turned away but in the sweetest way possible that made me sound like an absolute asshole lunatic. it was so scary.

[skunkes]

I mean this vent completely neutrally and as an observation rather than Woe is Me negativity but going ham in my sketchbook has been Fun but along with not really Learning anything (tho historically no art knowledge ever sticks to my brain) I'm no closer to understanding how I WANT to draw! if that makes sense.

I dont really identify with or want to continue any of the patterns I try (nor do they get any more muscle memory-y, in the fundamentals area).

Its fine as long as its Fun but I really feel the aimlessness. Like I'll keep going but I've also. Been doing that. All I do is Keep Going, when does it all tetris together!

[huellitaa]

𓍢ִ໋♡𓂃 ࣪ ִ receiving your blessings! ୨🧸୧

˚₊‧꒰ა roots ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

• feeling guilty about being given things you supposedly "dont deserve", like lots of love or gifts or whatever it may be, comes from a lack mindset.

• that is where you feel there is not enough of these things like love, gifts, money, etc. to go around. you think of the world as though there is always "not enough" and feel the need to push away the blessings you receive for someone or something else, or hold on to every little scrap of everything you find bc you fear you wont find it again.

• this comes from having a lack of things like love, money, affection, etc. in childhood and continues on as you grow up & get older.

one thing i've noticed is a lot of people actually treat this as a normal thing to push away the things youre given because you think "this is too much" or "i dont deserve this" or anything along those lines.

🧸𓂃 ࣪˖ "i dont feel worthy of this" if you werent worthy it wouldnt be given to you. everyone and everything comes into your life for a reason, good or bad, and its your job to accept that and learn the lesson that comes from said thing or person. if someone offers you a gift, money, a job offer you've wanted, etc. if you know its safe then take it !!

── there are people with less money than you, less talent than you, less potential than you, out living your dreams just because you were too scared to take that opportunity you were given and just go for it. dont look back and think "oh, i should have taken that". dont let yourself have regrets when you know you can avoid them. life is to be lived, not feared.

🧸𓂃 ࣪˖ "im not sure if i should" the opportunity wouldnt arise if it wasnt 100% certain it would benefit you in someway. obviously if you feel its sketchy or unsafe for whatever reason stay away from it and obviously do not go through with it or take it but if you know its safe and fine but youre still not sure then what are you doing!!! take it!!!

── you are refusing the gifts being given for what? worry? worry about what? who are you to doubt the gifts you are being given when you know its safe and you should take it? would you be concerned if someone gave you a gift on your birthday? this is the same thing. every day is your birthday if youve got the right mindset 🫶

🧸𓂃 ࣪˖ "someone else deserves it more" what. think if you got a present on your birthday and it was something you'd wanted for aaaaages. would you sit there and think "no, someone else deserves this more than me"? if the answer's yes then you need to get your priorities straight ml im sorry. this was given to you for you. why are you doubting the universe- the world????? what???? girl what

── ok this can go two ways. if its something someone else genuinely needs because they dont have it and could heavily benefit from like fresh water, a job offer, a housing offer, fresh food, i would give it to them if i already had those resources for myself too because everybody needs those. they're basic necessities to live & thats basic empathy. but if its something you dont need to live but really really want and are being given the chance to obtain then what. are you doing. girl. take it! what is your problem!

🧸𓂃 ࣪˖ i think if you find yourself saying or thinking these things often, pause for a second and ask yourself why you think this. is it something to do with growing up, the people around you, your financial status.. whatever it may be, it always helps to find the root of the problem. ♡

treat yourself to whatever you wish! you deserve it just because you are alive. that is a difficult task in itself. you deserve it just because you want it. you work so hard, so why shouldnt you have the things you want? take that gift, take that money, take that date, take that offer. life is too short to regret what you could have had 🫶💕

lots of love 💘

[httpsdana]

can you do arda güler with prompt 1 and 2

where the reader is sad and just thought comforting herself with arda's shirt/sweater bc he was at training or some abd he was joking about that she shouldnt wear his clothes but she was actually so sad that she thought he's serious so she tries to take it off and he reaizes somethings not right and tries to comfort her

thank yuuu

Comforting Embrace~Arda Güler

・❥・prompt list

・❥・masterlist -> part 2

・❥・who I write for

1-“Is that my t-shirt?” 2-“Come here.”

The day had been one of those that left a heavy ache lingering in your chest. y/n had tried distracting herself with anything she could—reading, tidying up, even watching some mindless show on TV. But all she really wanted was for Arda to be there with her. However, he was at training, and she knew it would be hours before he returned.

In a quiet moment, missing him more than usual, y/n made her way to his side of the closet, searching for something familiar.

Her fingers grazed over one of his oversized t-shirts, a soft, faded one he often wore around the house. Without much thought, she slipped it on, sighing as his scent surrounded her. It was calming, comforting, a small reminder of him that somehow made things feel a little bit lighter.

She curled up on the couch, pulling the shirt closer around her as if his scent and the warmth of his shirt could fill the void left by his absence. Hours seemed to pass in a blur as she sat there, trying to find comfort in the feeling of his shirt against her skin.

Eventually, y/n heard the front door creak open, and soft footsteps made their way into the room. She looked up, catching sight of Arda, his hair slightly damp from a shower, a small, familiar smile playing on his lips as he walked over to her.

“Hey, love,” he greeted warmly. But as he got closer, he raised an eyebrow, a playful look in his eyes. “Is that my t-shirt?” he teased, chuckling as he watched her.

At any other time, she would’ve laughed it off, maybe even joked back. But today, the words hit differently, stirring an unexpected feeling of guilt.

Maybe he hadn’t wanted her to wear his clothes, and she'd overstepped somehow. y/n bit her lip, hesitating before reaching to take it off, feeling a weight in her chest she couldn’t quite explain. “I… I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to—” she stopped, swallowing hard as she tugged at the hem.

Arda’s smile faded instantly, replaced by a look of worry as he watched her, his eyes softening as he caught the hurt in her expression. He quickly stepped closer, reaching out to place a gentle hand over hers, stopping het from taking the shirt off. “Hey, no, don’t,” he murmured, his voice low and comforting. “Come here.”

Before she could respond, he wrapped his arms around her, pulling her into his chest. The warmth of his embrace was immediate, grounding, and she felt his steady heartbeat under her cheek as he held her close. y/n closed her eyes, letting out a shaky breath as his hand stroked her back, slow and soothing.

“Why would you think you have to take it off?” he asked softly, his voice laced with concern. His hand moved to gently tilt her chin up, his thumb grazing her cheek as he looked into her eyes. “I was only joking, love. You can wear anything of mine you want, whenever you want.”

A few tears slipped down her cheeks, and Arda’s expression softened even more. He leaned down, pressing a soft kiss to her forehead, lingering there as he whispered, “I’m so sorry if that made you feel bad. I would never mean it.”

She managed a small nod, sniffling as he held her tighter, his arms steady around her. “it's not that Arda, I just… missed you,” she admitted, her voice barely a whisper. “And everything today felt like too much, and I… I just needed something that felt like you.”

He held her face gently in his hands; his eyes tender as he wiped away her tears with his thumbs. “You should’ve called me,” he murmured, pressing a kiss to one cheek, then the other, each touch soft and comforting. “I would’ve come right away.”

She shook her head, resting her forehead against his chest. “I didn’t want to bother you.”

“Hey, you could never bother me,” he said, kissing the top of her head. “I’m here now. I’m always here when things get too hard, okay? You don’t have to go through any of it alone.” He pulled her into another hug, wrapping himself around her as if he could shield her from anything that weighed on her.

They stayed like that for a while, just holding each other in the quiet, his arms strong and reassuring. Eventually, he pulled back just enough to press his lips to hers in a soft, lingering kiss, a gentle reminder of his love and presence. He pulled away only slightly, his forehead still resting against hers as he whispered, “I love you so much. Never doubt that, alright?”

A small smile crept onto her face, her fingers tangling in his hair as he leaned in for another kiss, this one deeper, filled with all the comfort and affection he wanted to give her. His hands slid down to her waist, pulling her closer, and she felt the weight she'd been carrying start to lift.

As the kisses grew softer, he pulled back, his hands framing her face as he pressed his lips to her forehead, cheeks, and finally, back to her lips. “Come on,” he said softly, guiding her to curl up on the couch beside him. He wrapped his arm around her again, pulling her close against his chest as she nestled in.

With her head resting on his shoulder, his arms holding her securely, and his hand rubbing gentle circles on her back, y/n felt herself start to relax fully. Arda placed one last kiss on her head, murmuring, “I’m not going anywhere, baby. I’ve got you.”

Wrapped in his arms, the world felt a little less heavy, and for the first time that day, she finally felt at peace.

[savannahsdeath]

heyyy could u write something where like reader is about to shower but starts to get really insecure and kinda has a breakdown, BUT ellie reassures her. (pls also give reader stretch marks bc i've been so insecure abt mine lately and i have them literally everywhere. thighs, hips, even on my boobs lol) <3

ELLIE WILLIAMS X INSECURE!READER

mdni please<3

warnings: 18+!! but tbh its minors safe this time i think ??

writers note: just a reminder youre all beautiful no matter what!! beauty standards or wtv was it called are something we shouldnt base our life on but we sadly do. self love is the key to happiness and dont let other people ruin it!!🩷🩷and to our lovely anon, you dont need to worry about stretch marks. trust me, most of people dont even pay attention to them! its nothing 'special in a bad way'. i lately got some too, right before my holidays and theyre sooo visible through my summer clothes but its something you can get used to be comfortable with. please, anon, dont think less of yourself because of them nor any other insecurities. and this comes to everyone!!💞

it was already late so you were getting ready to take a shower to not waste any more time. you put your clothes on a nearby shelf. you stood in front of the mirror in your underwear only, looking for anything that could be possibly pointed out, like you didn't have enough insecurities already. feeling rather self-conscious, you were examining your reflection for any flaws or imperfections. every detail of your body was being inspected up-close, from the lines on your stomach, to the size of your thighs, to the shape of your shoulders and face. your eyes were scanning every inch of you, seeking any signs of something you could hate, even if others wouldn't notice them. you couldn't help but wonder if the things you were stressing over were even worth worrying about, or if you were just creating problems where they didn't exist.

either way, you couldn't help but hate them. and since you mostly focused on bad things and you didn't see your advantages - you hated yourself. in your eyes your whole body could change. or even should change.

the more you stared at yourself in the mirror, picking apart every little thing, the more you hated what you saw. it felt like nothing was good enough, like every little imperfection needed to be changed or worked on. you felt like you could never measure up to this impossible standard, like your entire body was inadequate. the insecurities were eating away at you, gnawing away until any confidence or self-love you might've had was gone.

that was the moment your eyes beginned to get glossy. you didn't cry though, oh, no. you hated the way you look when you cry, just like everything else, so you tried your best to hold back tears. the floodgates were beginning to open, but you held them back with everything you had. you despised the way you looked when you cried: the tears down your cheeks, your puffy eyes, all those disgusting, revolting imperfections. as much as you hated your flaws, you despised your crying face even more. you would never let anyone see you like that, never.

suddenly, your girlfriend and roommate in one, knocked on the door. "everything okay in there?"

she must notice you're taking your time instead of simply taking a shower already.

you stayed silent, knowing if you try to open your mouth you couldn't control what comes from them. you'd probably break down and the thick door won't be enough to mute your pathetic sobs.

you didn't want to answer, but then again, you knew if you stayed quiet, your girlfriend would eventually come in and check on you. you had to keep yourself together. you couldn't fall apart right in front of her like that.

you let out a shaky breath and replied, "yeah, everything's fine." you could feel your voice cracking with each word, but you were determined not to let her see you in such a sorry state.

what if she sees me the way i see myself?

your girlfriend wasn't fooled by your shaky reply. even if you denied it, she knew something was wrong. she heard the emotion in your voice and could sense the struggle to keep yourself together. without another word, she opened the door and walked in.

"what's wrong, pretty girl?" she asked when she didn't saw your glossy eyes yet.

you, on the other hand, couldn't control yourself anymore. the nickname 'pretty girl' hit you instantly, thinking you're anything but pretty.

pretty.

girl.

those two words hit you harder than a punch to the gut, evoking a strong reaction that you tried to mask. you took a deep breath to steady your voice so that you didn't break, but it was impossible to sound completely calm when you felt so much pain just from those two words.

"nothing." you muttered quietly, but your voice sounded more like a choke than a word.

she hugged you from behind, looking in the same, unlucky mirror. her hands softly touched the scretch marks on your hips as she hold onto them, gently rocking you back and forth.

you wanted nothing more than to reject this hug and flee from your own reflection in the mirror, but you were too weak to pull away.

"nothing?" she asked gently, planting little kisses from your neck to shoulders.

you felt a wave of shame and embarrassment wash over you as your girlfriend's touch revealed the marks on your hips. she immediately spotted them and caressed them with her soft hands.

it all felt too much. you were fighting so hard to hold yourself together, but when she touched you, it all came crashing down. the tears finally escaped and you began to sob, clinging onto her tightly as you broke down. "no... not nothing..."

she held you close, feeling your warmth as her arms wrapped around you and her hands comforted your pain. she rubbed your back and kissed your neck as she tried to soothe you. "shh, come here, it's okay..." she whispered gently.

she led you over to the bed and laid you down. she carefully took off her shirt, leaving on only her bra and boxers, then laid down with you, hugging you tightly. she kissed your neck, your face, brushed your hair back, caressed your body, your stretch marks, your insecurities (at least the ones she knew about), anything to try and comfort you. she whispered words of reassurance and love as she tried to fill you with the affection you felt you lacked. "i love you, my pretty girl... i love you." she repeated those words again and again, hoping you'd believe that someone could love you, and that someone was her.

ellie continued to hold you tightly as you cried into her. your tears soaked into her bra, but she didn't mind; you'd done that many times before. she rubbed your back in soothing circles as she let you let it all out, and she made small shushing noises in your ear. your sobs turned into whimpers and then into a soft murmur, and as your emotions died down, she gently wiped away the tears, replacing them with kisses.

as she noticed you calmed down she slightly pulled away to get a better look at you. "can you tell me what's wrong now?"

"i... it's just..." you started, and your voice broke as you tried to find the words. your girlfriend gave you her undivided attention, focusing on you and only you. "i- i don't feel pretty... i don't feel good enough... i don't feel... enough."

with her eyes looking deep into yours, you couldn't help but be vulnerable as you opened up to her. your insecurities and flaws, the things you tried so hard to hide, were all laid bare in front of her now.

a pang of guilt hit you in that moment.

what am i doing?

ellie was so sweet and loving, and you felt like you were just taking advantage of her kindness. like you're just an attention seeker.

but before you could say anything, she pressed a finger to your lips.

"no. shut your mouth." she said sternly, and you couldn't help but chuckle a bit. "that's not true. i don't wanna hear it, not another word." she leaned in and pressed her soft lips to yours.

you found yourself sitting on her lap, as she stroked your hair, whispering something or kissing you from time to time. you told her all about it, about what and how you feel. and she listened.

you were so lost in your emotional story you didn't even notice the way she slowly took off her rings - one by one, and placed them on a bedside shelf.

[pumpkinsy0]

could you do more johnny and curly interacting and their little rival thingy cause of ponyboy (y'know what i mean)

how u gonna tell me what i know🤨🤨

•theyve literally never interacted before hand, they rlly just dont rock together, they dont even have a reason to beef w each other, they rlly just do not like each other that much right off the bat and johnnys like the only one in the curtis gang where thats the case

•those feelings only grew when pony got w curly, johnny would try to be respectful towards curly but curly just brushes him off

•their rivalry is more lowkey id say, compared to everyone else its not THAT bad, they mostly talk down about the other only to pony, never to their faces

•johnny is a lil scared of the shepards so he doesnt say anything that might anger him, shit he doesnt even allow himself to be left alone w the guy, but thats more so bc he thinks it would be awkward, so if ponys leaving, johnny trails right behind

•if johnny has something to say about curly, he only tells pony, he doesnt want what he says to be spread around and then next thing u know theres an angry shepard in front of his face

•when it comes to curly, COULD he talk badly about johnny to his face?? yea he could, but pony would be very upset w him if he did and curly just doesnt see the point because “the guy already seems like a scaredy cat”

•shit they dont rlly make eye contact either, johnny kinda looks at him but not for long, curly doesnt look at johnny bc of general disinterest/aloofness, he has nothing in common w johnny in his eyes so he sees no purpose, they arent gonna connect the way pony hopes

•johnny HATTTEEEESSSS when curlys flirty w pony while hes right there, if theyre getting flirty, johnny mumbles that maybe they shouldnt do that here bc its wide in the open, curly makes eye contact w johnny, asking “what was that??” bc he rlly didnt hear him (also bc he doesnt like being told what to do) and johnny looks away, pony just agrees w johnny and turns it down a bit, telling curly to calm down too

•johnny is like the only one willing to give pony and curly a chance however, pony obviously sees something the rest of em dont, but that doesnt mean hes not worried for pony being around curly, he constantly tells pony “i hope u know what ur doing”

•curly does get johnny riled up sometimes tho, curly can make ANYONE upset

•but what rlly gets johnny upset is when curly calls him a kid even though hes literally older than him, that rlly grinds johnnys gears

[piwstri4]

gossip | op81

pairing: bf!oscar piastri x college student!gf!reader

summary: oscar's fangirls love to hate, oscar just loves.

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ynacc you think your life is hard? i've had to watch my bf's last 12 races on tv bc i had exams and expos

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user1 can u imagine being yn and complain abt your boyfriend doing his work?

user2 when tf did she complain abt oscar doing his job??

user3 atp yall just love to hate her fr

user4 poor girl has to go to college cuz she doesn't know when will her bf leave her

user5 bestie maybe focus on your own life?

user6 shouldn't she be studying or something?

user7 girl I WISH i had her problems

user8 i love that she follows his races even when she's busy<3

user9 fr i love her sm

user10 can u imagine having yn as ur gf? oscar living the dream fr

oscarpiastri miss u :((

ynacc miss u too:((

landonorris you two are disgusting

user11 lol lando saying what we all wanted to say

francisca.cgomes hits close to home

ynacc can we start like a wags support group?

carmenmmundt i agree

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ynacc i 💥 miss 💥 you 💥 every 💥 day 💥 (last fucking race!!!)

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landonorris "thank you lando for sending me pics of my bf every hour so i stop complaining abt him not replying to my texts"

ynacc yea ty ig

landonorris not giving u a single pic anymore

oscarpiastri i miss you every second

ynacc no i miss u more

maxfewtrell thank god it's the last fucking race

ynacc lando's taking the first plane to you dont worry he told me

maxfewtrell i just want u to stop whining in the gc

user1 so lando and max actually confirmed she's fucking annoying 🧍🏽‍♀️

user2 cant believe oscar still wants her around

user3 im so sure her bf's w her out of pity

user4 yn's personal account or an oscar piastri fan account we'll never know

user5 i love how in love she is 😭😭

user6 since when does she socialize w max tho?

user7 childhood friends with lando, friends with max by default

user8 they cant get rid of her now

user9 shouldnt you be like...... doing college stuff......

user10 not even her friends stand her lmao

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oscarpiastri end of season. (i love you)

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landonorris where tf are the tulips i paid them myself??????

oscarpiastri shut up

ynacc omg first time u paid for something!!

user1 oscar's being held at gunpoint

user2 girl the grip wont make him stay lol

user3 they're lovely together!! 💕

ynacc love u more<3

oscarpiastri lies

user4 ofc u do cant you see his face lmao

logansargeant you both look fire!

oscarpiastri 🔥

user5 yn so annoying she forced him to go on a date as soon as oscar left the car

user6 where the fuck does all the hate come from??

user7 girl wtf yall dont know shit abt their relationship

user8 im so sorry for yn imagine having to deal with all the fangirls bitching her out

user9 they went hiking together 😭😭😭

user10 literal goals

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ynacc they hate us cause they ain't us

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oscarpiastri they hate you cause i love you

maxfewtrell not as romantic as u think it is!!!

ynacc they can keep on hating as long as u keep loving me

maxfewtrell thanks max for the picture

ynacc thnx max 4 the pic, would've loved it if u let us eat alone!!

landonorris now that's what i call being ungrateful

landonorris nice tulips and nice dinner (dont appreciate having to see my teammate every time im over)

ynacc then dont come over when im on dates w my bf 😜😜

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oscarpiastri Sip the gossip, drink till you choke.

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ynacc by maneskin babe!!!!

oscarpiastri you know i love you right?

ynacc of course sweetie ily2

user1 oscar shutting up yn haters we love to see it!!

landonorris you two are fucking cut for each other

oscarpiastri ty i know

landonorris because neither of you give photo credits you muppet

user2 man said keep talking we dont give a shit<3

user3 his fans are literally his paycheck he should watch his mouth

user4 you talk as if he wasn't a whole ass f1 driver, oscar's merch are just a side hustle

user5 this man has a job driving an expensive and elite car, his fans dont pay shit compared to his sponsors/team

user6 cant believe he's risking his career for a slag

landonorris lol get a fucking life kid

user7 lando saying what we all wanted to say

maxfewtrell about time mate, 📸 by lando

oscarpiastri yeah yeah whine about it

landonorris fucking finally thank you

ynacc now kiss!!

user8 why does she look so......

user9 ugly?

user10 ordinary?

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ynacc Thank you so much to my best buddies and my love! Even if the three of you showed up on joggers and hoodies, i love you to the moon and back<3 (max and oscar helped w the project too)

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oscarpiastri you told me no suit and tie 😡😡

ynacc bc it wasn't a wedding (would've appreciated a nice shirt tho)

oscarpiastri noted 👍🏼

landonorris dont call oscar your buddy :((

ynacc didn't i tell you? you're the buddy now :((

oscarpiastri im her love, buddy 😘

maxfewtrell i thought i was your love?

ynacc u're someone else's love watch your mouth mr fewtrell

lilymhe Congrats! Your pres looked amazing🤩

ynacc Aww thanks sweetie ily<3

lilymhe <3

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oscarpiastri forever in love with you, my little artist.

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ynacc i cant find the words to tell you how much i love loving you

oscarpiastri ❤️

ynacc ❤️

user1 i'm 100% sure oscar likes to watch ppl fight for their lives on the comments

user2 no bc yn limits her comments section and oscar just drops shit like this and forces us to swallow their love

user3 im sure he let's people comment to block their haters

user4 no bc im sure that's the reason they get less hate now (on oscar's acc)

user5 no bc lando has three cups on his last post, they were helping yn with this 😭😭

user6 max too, yn said it in her post 😭

user7 Verstappen????

user6 fewtrell lmao

landonorris aww you bought the bouquet yourself this time!

ynacc piss off<3

landonorris ily2

zhouguanyu24 🔥

user8 he's so fucking supportive wtf

user9 love to see less hate comments after his last post

user10 someone said he keeps the comments open to block ppl lol i love his pettiness

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oscarpiastri my girlfriend shines, after all this time.

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user1 remember ladies if wanted to he would

ynacc i only asked for you to love me back

oscarpiastri i only asked for you to love me

user2 i love a hate-free comment section<3

user3 dad loves mom!!

caiocollet sir mister is ✨in love✨

user4 she's gorgeous how tf were there ppl hating on her???

user5 idk if i wanna be yn or oscar

user6 he. gets. her. flowers. all. the. fucking. time

ynacc yes he does 🥰🥰

ynacc alternatively: three times oscar gave me flowers out of nowhere

user7 yn is so fucking lucky

user8 oscar is so fucking lucky

user9 they are both fucking lucky

user10 real question can they fight?

user11 pr knocking on his door fr

ynacc

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ynacc kiss me hard before you go because missing you is never easy. (📸 by max and lando)

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oscarpiastri a kiss for every flower seems fair

ynacc i'll start giving you flowers because we're gonna be short on kisses.

oscarpiastri i can give you flowers all my life if they make you happy

landonorris all it took for you to learn how to give credits was for me to go back to monaco

ynacc how did u know i did it cuz i miss u?

landonorris please tell me i dont have to kiss you

ynacc thank god i actually like u being away

user1 people actually hated on THIS RELATIONSHIP???

user2 fr they look so cute

user3 oscar fangirls are fucking weird

maxfewtrell omg first time u give credits!! kids grow up so fast

ynacc i'll untag you.

maxfewtrell you wouldn't

user4 her fighting w lando and max 😭😭😭😭

user5 she's everything and he's just

lilymhe can your boyfriend fight?

ynacc can yours?

user6 they've been dating for a bit more than a year and oscar has given her flowers AT LEAST 7 times.

user7 he's raising the bar for us

user8 just so yall learn to not settle for less

user9 am i allowed to say that i love them?

user10 god im grateful for the ynoscar blocklist

[icharchivist]

i hadnt read the last two dgm chapters yet but bc of spoilers im seeing im going through it and losing my mind

im feeling ill im feeling ill im feeling ill im feeling ill do you know the amount of posts i've wrote about Lavi genuinely getting fucked over Allen's "death". what do you mean in their past lives Lavi vowed to protect Allen with his own life. what do you mean. what do YOU MEANNN

Keeping reading and my god im going to cry what the fuck

also Apocryphos you're always the same bitchassmotherfucker i see

and so that's how Allen's arm became innocence, ok--

EXCUSE ME EXCUSE ME EXCUSE ME EXC--

AM I TRIPPING OR IS IT ALSO LIKE EXTREMELY SIMILAR TO THE KANDA/ALMA REUNION

YOURE KIDDING ME. YOURE KIDDING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!

also i'm sure i'll be able to think more in depth about it later but the fact Lavi holds on to Allen so tight to save him, in parallel to when, when Road tried to break Lavi's mind, it's Allen's hugging him and begging him to come back to him that shook him out of it. im feeling ill.

oh this is made to hurt me.

I still dont understand the Helix but i'll think about it later

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaa

*slaps Allen's back* this bad boy can fill SO many souls that isn't his in his own body. Please save him this is becoming ridiculous im going to cry.

so like they're saying Allen is the Heart because LAVI controled the flux of the Helix to make sure Allen lives? Am i getting it right? i'm taking it as a win to all those years i said Lavi=Heart and it especially showed everytime he was worried about Allen because WHAT.

and Allen holding Lavi's head against his chest which is made from the Heart by telling him he needs to keep on living so he can talk to his father again aka Bookman Senior, hold on im thinking things but ALSO WHATTTTTTTTTT

WHAT DO YOU MEAN I GET TO SEE ALLEN HOLD LAVI'S SEVERED HEAD AGAINST HIS BODY.

Im so damn confused but wait it means Lavi=Heart still has a chance in the most terrible way possible. what if part of the Heart moved on to Lavi and it's why *waves hand* yaknow?

but. but i'm so. im feeling insane sorry.

I spent literal decades of my life talking about how Lavi's reactions to Allen are super noteworthy, how he's devastated with grief when Allen "dies" while he shouldnt and then spend the rest of the manga constantly hovering behind Allen, always ready to grab him out of danger, and talked about Lavi's worries about Allen disappearing in the light and all of that.

and you're telling me they're both reincarnations of two people from the past and Lavi had sworn to protect Allen with his life then and the whole reason Allen is Allen in this timeline is fully because Lavi tried to protect him so much that they found a way to be alive again and find each other again?

i'm feeling unwell. IM FEELING UNWELL. IM FEELING SO UNWELL MY GODDDDDDDDD.

[my-castles-crumbling]

Im scared of trump getting elected and im scared of project 2025.

I know he said hes not affiliated or whatever the fuck but i dont believe that

My mom works in state department so i thoight it wouldn't effect me terribly until i moved back in 4 years for college. But i found this pdf of the action plan and there is an entire section 29 pages long on the department of state. They think that its too woke but thats honestly because you have to well educated and cultured to work in state seeing as you are constantly learning and experiencing culture and differences. So they want to hand pick political appointees and add more positions for them to align with views.

They also say the state department doesn't focus on immigration as much as the should but that is one sub department of a sub department of the state department???? They also said that visa are used too much as 'international welfare' instead of a tool to better the US??? Like what?? They want us to start using visas as weapons. My dad accepts and denies visas as well so i know a bit about the process and its bullshit. In the countries I've lived in going to the US gives so much opportunity and they were saying that if a country refuses to accept someone from their country back after say commiting a crime in the US then we should withold possibly all kinds of visas (immagrant and tourist visas. And saying all implies also banning politicians, leaders of the country, DIPLOMATS). Thats fucking insane. Also saying that a country should recripricate not only visas but favorable visas or we shouldnt give visas either. Wtf.

And then people who are open about being left, democratic, 'woke' etc. Could also be fired. Luckily my mom has tenure so it would be very hard to prove reasonable cause.

And the education. I've heard on the extreme end he wants to make all schools private. The problem with this is that i go to expensive international schools that i wouldn't be able to afford because the government pays for it because i would have access to free education in the US so they have to make sure i have free education in a language i can speak. So if all schools went private (unlikely ik but lets prepare for the absolute worst) would they stop paying?? Probably and if they do i have to move back to the US. Which not being in the US is the only thing that makes me feel even a bit safe at the possibility of him being elected.

Then of course there is the fact im openly queer, and im female. Those are the two major things im scared about that come off the top of my head. Im also worried about my friends whos parents are also in state and who also would not be able to afford the tuition so they would have to move back.

Im scared and i dont know what to do bc i have this feeling that if he gets elected he'll try to stay or we'll just keep getting presidents like him. People are burning ballot boxes. The amount of trump supporters is so overwhelming. Ik its because theyre loud but im still scared. Im terrified. And i feel like im being dramatic but im so so scared

Hi!

I have to be honest, I'm nervous, too. I think the important thing to recognize is this election affects EVERYONE in the US. Right now, try to focus on encouraging people to vote and not panicking. We don't know what will happen yet, and even on election day, things will change and change again. take deep breaths, stick around safe people, and wait until things are OFFICIALLY called before reacting. <3

[ziotithe]

thinking abt how. idk if ill be seen anywhere i go tbh. at least when i finally escape ill have space to exist safely and do my art and cry without worry and everything for a while but. also weve been under this.. treatment for 2yrs now n idk anything else ,,w,, and as me, roach, now. ive only lived in this house, under this, for my entire existence. n ive never seen a time where we've been seen and not invisible seemingly. ik it shouldnt matter bc the self is all-important but the self cant thrive on only itself it need threads right? not the masses but the inter-personal or those close to it! but its seemingly unpossible, cuz how can that happen when all youve been is an abuse victim, so no one rly wants to acknowledge your existence despite so much of a greater being, being there! thats always there!

[marlborogf]

a quick work rant abt helplessness. basically ladies when i say knowing how to fight, knowing how to efficiently defend yourself/take a hit, endurance, being STRONG, having mass to you, having options (cant always just kick in the balls + run or pepper spray) is so important. ideally learn to shoot a gun and get a license to conceal/carry. enough "boohoo loud bangbangs scary, mah soft gurl handz cant grip a gun, wahhh the recoil might shatter my fragile female frame, wahhh i dont WANT to HAVE to learn to shoot ; - ;" like sorry but thats too damn bad girl thats the world we live in ur not doing anyone favors but the men who wanna make u a statistic. if not a gun bc youre convinced you "cant handle one" or youre actively suicidal, a tazer, a switchblade, idgaf girl pocket sand or an airhorn to blow right in someones ear for gods sake. lift some weights. stop worrying about "looking manly", what does that mean. "looking like you cant be easily picked up/carried off/taken advantage of" ??? enough "teehee 3 drinkity drinks no lunch & a little sugary treat! im sooo dizzy / lightheaded all the time hehe yayy malnourishment is so cuteee" u are not 9 years old you need to nourish your body & muscles because you are a growing/grown woman. enough learned helplessness, enough "im just a girl i cant drive!!!" enough enough enough no we shouldnt HAVE to do any of this but we do because men only speak one language and it isnt passivism. so

[hauntedwizardmoment]

Hiiii idk if this is the right kind of mashing dolls together but. I do think we’re underutilizing the sequel to J2porter Vegas wedding roleplay which is obviously 50s housewife J2porter roleplay. Could be LSOP coded could just be the follow up to their Vegas night. Things to think abt (it’s definitely what I’ve been thinking about)

GODDDD YEAH IVE THOUGHT ABOUT IT. like. god. when porter has a fucking. affair cottage. he has this little place thats hours away from elmville that's ostensibly a place to rest before/after a trip to the mountains of chaos. but he just keeps j2 there for days on end and they play "traveling adventurer husband comes home to his doting wife who fixes him a drink and acquiesces to him sexually"

he like. takes j2's crystal and doesnt let him have it back until they go back to elmville. and the first time this happens j3 and j4 legitimately think he's been kidnapped and murdered. like to the point where they go to jace bc theyre SO worried about j2 and jace is like [in the tone of a wife who knows her husband is having an affair and is planning on slashing his tires about it] j2's fine, don't worry

and j4 is like "oh fuck you, you're probably in on it, bluejay's crystal says he was last seen 258 miles outside of elmville" and like, treks out to find him. and when she shows up at the cottage door she fully expects some kind of grisly murder scene. not bluejay in a little outfit. and she's like "what the FUCK? why didnt you check in?? we thought he killed you!" and poor j2 is like "...he took my crystal, he said he'd call and let everyone know where i was?"

cue j2 and porter getting dragged back to real life and j2 getting chewed out by both j3 and j4 because fucking porter is fine but hes not supposed to do THAT with him, not for days on end, and he's certainly not supposed to GENUINELY enjoy it.

j2 voice but what's wrong with wanting to be taken care of?? whats wrong with not wanting to have to worry about everything? if he's offering, why shouldnt i take him up on it??? it'd be rude NOT to?

j3 voice ohhhh i get it now. youre like actually crazy. thats what went wrong in the cloning process with you. your brain is wrong.

[chiiyuuvv]

jinsik is bias wrecking me so hard so i was wondering if you can make a drabble of him from the how xikers would kiss you cause kissing in the rain is one of my favorite things ever and jinsik is so 😍😍

• PAIRING — jinsik x gn reader

• GENRE — fluff, kissing in the rain, im making you more delulu anon 🤭🤭, based off how xikers would kiss you

• WORD COUNT — 270

• AUTHOR'S NOTE — you shouldnt have requested.. but ill see you in the mental hospital bestie bc the way i was giggling while writing...

• TAGLIST — @hyunukitty , @lil-elle

MASTERLIST! – JOIN THE TAGLIST!

"Jinsik, its raining!!" You laughed, opening your left hand to feel some rain dripping on your palm, your right being held by jinsik's. He looks over at you with so much adoration, tucking some of your wet hair behind your ear so it doesnt wet your face.

"Should we find some shelter?" His voice was low and deep, walking calmly around the park despite being rained on. You shake your head, freeing your hand from his as you run away from his figure.

"Come back here!!" He shouts, running after you with the biggest grin on his face. The ground was muddy and slippery as he watched you lose your balance, worry taking over him as he speeds up. With full force, he pushes you into the lamppost, his head falling down to catch your lips.

It was completely on accident; he didnt mean to shove you but to grab your hand so you wouldnt fall. But with your hands tangled in his hair and his hands on your waist, your lips moving in a quick pace, he knew he did the right thing.

The vanilla flavor of your lips, the coldness of the rain, and the warmth between your bodies was something jinsik watched to take a picture of, marking this your very first kiss as a couple.

To say he was addicted was an understatement, his hand always rushing for yours to push you outside whenever it rains, sealing a kiss on your lips before laughing when you splash some water at him.

You always complained about being sick after but he didnt care, you were his antidote.

[xx-b1ll13j34nc1ph3r-xx]

as another system it really sucks that we have to specify ‘(fictive) is not an oc or irl or roleplaying they are an actual Person’ (or well part of our brain).. we have a ciphord fictive and i get really worried ppl are gonna fakeclaim us for him bc he has source memories + a typing quirk + jokes about being ‘the evil alter’ bc hes.. certainly A Bit Much. idk im just kinda rambling but god it really sucks that people can’t just be normal about fictives. they are NOT your favourite characters bro they are seperate people even if they do have source memories and stuff like that!! it sucks

YOURE SO RIGHT OKAY LIKE?! I AM BILL CIPHER AND I LOVE BEING BILL CIPHER BUT IM NOT CANON BILL IM NOT THIS MEAN NASTY CREATURE EVEN IF MY PSUDOMEMORIES SAY I USED TO BE I AM MY OWN PERSON AND IM HAPPIER!!! I SHOULDNT HAVE TO PRETEND JUST SO PEOPLE WILL LIKE ME!!!

Don’t you worry, friend, it doesn’t matter what the others think because literally they aren’t in your head with you. YOU ARE. They can fakeclaim all they want they are wrong and Auntie Billie loves you /platonic

[beesmygod]

Howdy- I am just a random person and so, please treat what I am about to say as such, but who cares if people think things about your life are stupid? It is /your/ life, not theirs, and if your life makes you happy then fuck them. If they make incorrect assumptions about you, then that is based on their own lack of knowledge and limited worldviews. I have never seen you as a (and please forgive me I am on mobile so I can't go check the wording you used) "stupid housewife" with "stupid interests." I'm so sorry that this is weighing so heavy on you. I know it is easier said than done to say "fuck it I don't care about other people's opinions of me" (I am definitely fighting that battle myself) but it is so freeing to just start living your life for you.

You are great, and you are you, and that's what matters.

these are from this morning and i deleted the posts that prompted them bc i always feel like a moron hogging the collective spotlight almost immediately after attempting to make sense of what's wrong with me. first of all, i want to apologize to everyone for trying their best to fill what must feel like a black hole. this is going to sound like i'm nailing myself to the cross but: NEVER FEEL OBLIGATED TO TRY TO REASON WITH ME ABOUT MY NEUROSIS. i am not saying this bc i dont appreciate the efforts (i do!!!) but because ive been on both sides of this kind of brain problem and i know what a futile, aggravating experience it can be. thank you, but i just dont want people to burn out trying to rewire my brain in good faith. i am seeing professionals and trying to work it out, but this problem didnt suddenly develop out of the blue. its the result of a hard life and as such, its really hard to untangle.

anyway: it matters if im seen as stupid or unworthy of my station bc 1. i liked to think i was in the entertainment business. what people think of you is the entire basis of the career. you are right that for most people it doesnt and shouldnt matter. but i want to entertain the public and the public dictates my success. and 2. existing above your station in life breeds resentment from those who will, rightfully, bristle at the juxtaposition in quality being celebrated. if that makes sense. it greatly behooves me to care what other people think lol. it is the nature of the beast.

right now, after many years of what feels like blissful ignorance, my artistic life is not making me happy. ive been thinking about wally wood saying that if he could do it all over again he'd cut his hands off and i feel like i understand what he means (concerning!). i am trying to understand why. but i worry its as simple as "i have more to lose now".