#i’m just not the best at being social
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Hi
so I’m guessing you already kinda know about me since you knew my name
but I don’t really know that much about you
do you mind if I ask you some questions?
you’re under no obligation to answer any of them and you don’t have to say why you don’t want to answer. I’d just like to get to know you better
Well, the way we (as a system) work is that I don’t remember specific incidents wherein Ari’s interacted with you, but I have a vague idea of who you are. You’re one of Ari’s nicer friends, aren’t you?
I don’t mind in the least, thank you for being so respectful. However, I barely front and I do have a slightly warped sense of identity, so be warned.
#sorry if i’m coming across as rude or aloof#for the record i think you’re a great person and i’m grateful to you for being ari’s - and by extension our - friend#i’m just not the best at being social#asks#michael talks
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When I said Spain were violating child Labour regulations I didn’t think they actually were 😭
#lamine yamal#sure someone’s already shared this but help 💀#just rest him for the game man let him do his homework 😭#euro 2024#spain nt#I’ve actually looked more into this and it is a real law albeit unlikely to be enforced and €30k is a pittance in international football#just funny that if he plays it IS technically against German child Labour laws#but then again so was his debut for Barcelona’s 1st team when he was 15 so ! carries.#<- not to be misconstrued as being a hater I’m being tongue in cheek#wish all the best to him he’s a great young talent etc etc but yeah. Barcelona and Spain’s track record wirh teenage players does irk me#a little. hope we see some global restriction on professional minutes for minors but that’ll never happen 🤷♀️#it all feels great doing stuff young for your age when you’re 16 but then you turn around a few years down the line and realised it was#fucked up and you missed up on so much social development#praga
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“you don’t owe anyone anything” actually you owe everyone everything!!! you OWE your table server and your coworkers and the elderly person you pass on the street and the dog on its walk and the child toddling along in the park and the driver trying to merge next to you and the pregnant person standing on public transport KINDNESS in return for theirs!! the connections we build are what give life meaning!!!
#a buddy of mine is a server and is getting ROASTED on twitter for complaining about#how often nowadays people will just completely ignore her when she greets them and asks how they are and what can she get them started with#and when they DO finally acknowledge that she Exists they’re rude about it all#and how demoralizing and dehumanizing it is#and of course people have taken this and decided that being told it’s rude to ignore that your server exists is actually ableist#like jesus fucking christ you people can’t do anything huh#like i’m serious i’m ND and have terrible days where i go mute sometimes and you know what i do?#do my best to not go out places that require social interaction but if i Must then i’m not a prick to the people i come across#because my issues aren’t their fault. and i owe it to them to not make their lives harder.#anyway i’m so angry for bailey people are so awful grow up and have some fucking AGENCY
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a book with geralt 😃
a book with geralt without ciri 😐
a book with geralt without yennefer 😔
a book with geralt without dandelion 💀
#he is going to be going THROUGH IT#he is going to get up to some absolutely poetless behavior#and by that i’m expecting at least one suicide attempt from him#maybe it’s just me and my ‘suffered socially in middle school’ type of memories#but being alone is so soooo painful and going back to that geralt before his best friend and his wife and his child is going to be like#remember when geralt didn’t have much reason to live remember that time in his life#geralt as a near-middle age adult: oh my god this guy is so sad#geralt as a young adult: 😶💀 [speechless at the suffering]#unless dandelion does show up in this somehow but that would pose more logistical questions#imagine we see posada and they meet then and it’s revealed that edge of the world actually takes place with them like 19 and 26 or some#unexpected consideration like… reading eotw back i’m going to be like wait… how old WERE you two here how long ago WAS this#because characters unlike people are immortal because they are ideas#so when you imagine geralt and dandelion even ‘a long time ago’ i just imagine them slightly younger#whatever is done dandelion’s age will never make sense because count 38 and subtract 15. this is his age when ciri was born.#and yet he is hanging out with geralt here in his 30s because friendship is so eternal it slipped the author’s mind to change them#unlike in-universe netwitcher headcanons about jaskier being immortal i believe dandelion is immortal in a meta sense of his presence is so#necessary for geralt’s character that despite logic he must be there for him in the same form no matter the circumstances#geralt and dandelion meeting as young men: [each thinking to himself] ‘huh this guy is stupid and looks gay’#and then an epic best friendship was formed forever. i love you ❤️#the elbow-high diaries
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Grinds my teeth to dust…. i wish touch didnt have so many Implications. im just trying to survive out here
#after all this i need a cuddle and a movie But who do i ask withoit them thinking im coming on to them#i need to paint a giant doomsday-guy-on-the-street-corner style sign to wear around my neck that says I AM AROMANTIC ASEXUAL#born to hug and kiss all my friends forced to stand around hands in my pockets#im scared to death of people misinterpreting my behavior or feeling uncomfortable#od be so much more relaxed like at a core of my being level if this was a nonissue#dude im desperate i might just ask the guy i almost fell asleep on tje otjet night#the ice is broken and he already knows my deal#(fantasizing about snuggling with people i like) im so fucked up ….#it’s also made way worse by tje fact that I apparently come off as very flirtatious#im playful and i love people Sorry …..#im like All or Nothing . oh my god lol#i had a friend who called me her ‘koala’ because i was constantly clinging to her#we were 7 so it was socially acceptable#99% of the time we were together i was wrapped around her legs or torso. i miss you so much sybil#the start of the end was when i innocently restrd my chin on my friend’s shoulder to watch what he was doing#and the next day someone asked me why i did that#i was like huh…? he’s my friend?#why wouldn’t i?#then i felt all weird about it And ive felt weird about it sincd#unrelated but my best friend is autistic she has misophonia and hates touch But im the misopjonia exception(real thing) AND#i’m one of the only people she hugs. straight up my biggest flex ever
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Jumblr is trending again cuz it’s where zionists like to go to hide (obviously not everyone in the jumblr tag, there are some genuine great posts about Jewish culture and takes and all sorts of stuff, and I wish that was the entire tag, but unfortunately most of what I saw just now was people trying to justify a genocide)
Looking at those posts…the mental gymnastics people go through to convince themselves that Israel is somehow morally correct here and anyone supporting Palestine is evil and anti-Semitic is crazy. I mean those posts are practically unintelligible
#you can see in real time people jumping through insane logical hoops to justify genocide#I really hope people are able to wake up and realize they’re being used as a tool of colonialism#non Jewish-Americans are like that too#that’s why education and learning are just as an important part of activism as protests and boycotts and donating#also I’m so sorry if this came across as offensive to any pro-Palestinian Jewish users#I’m not the best at articulating what I mean but I think it came across okay#please let me know if. ot I really don’t want to hurt anyone#palestine#free palestine#free gaza#gaza#ceasefire#israel#save palestine#gaza strip#save gaza#don’t stop talking about palestine#arms embargo#us politics#tumblr#social justice#social activism#activism#solidarity#human rights#from the river to the sea palestine will be free
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i do not like thanksgiving (week)
#1. late november? it’s Dark. all the time. pure darkness#also my dad is neurotic for no reason about the electricity bill despite how much money he spends on random other crap#and he will get really nasty with you if you leave a light on for one nanosecond longer than it needs to be on#so like only if you’re in the room which means the house is dark all the time and you’re expected to just walk around like that#even though having a light on at your destination if you’re moving back and forth helps#like sorry i don’t want to feel depressed and sleepy all the time#2. family over means i have to socialize even though i straight up have nothing to say#i think this one is self explanatory i think we all know the feeling of having to perform around relatives and to be friendly#i really do try my best i’m not like a hardcore introvert i’m just boring and easily bored#if i have nothing to say but i am expected by law to be present at the gathering#i will cope with looking awkward by constantly snacking on whatever food is present#so i just eat like a ton of crackers or whatever over several hours#and i feel like absolute crap#like blehhh wdym peanut m&ms will make your body annoyed at you#3. i can’t cook i’ll be so real so i can’t even feel like i’m being helpful#i would gladly help out i’ll just always need someone to hold my hand and i’ll be in the way#so it’s better for me to stay away#but then it looks like i’m just lazy#or again antisocial#and then that means i gotta do cleanup and dishes#4. going back to the Darkness and sleepiness. all of the above things are bad enough over say christmas#but at least then i can relax bc the semester is over it’s a real break#but thanksgiving? man i am still busy. i have to work from home. i am stressed#my instinct is to hibernate and relax bc of the darkness and holiday vibe#however i’m not allowed to#but it’s hard to be productive#harder still when you have to operate under someone else’s rules#peach rambles
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I wish being genderqueer/nonbinary didn’t feel so darn lonely sometimes. It’s tough knowing I’ll always be seen by most people as something I’m not, and have to deal with whatever assumptions they project onto me. I often feel like I don’t fit into the broader trans community because my feelings about transition are so conflicted, not to mention the pressure to “choose a side.”
#just venting here mostly#perhaps influenced by the insularity of social media communities#idk it’s hard#can’t engage with any kind of theory post without being reminded that I’m an outlier at best
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I think the most depressing thing that’s happened in my life over the past couple of months is watching an otherwise intelligent friend descend into paranoia and conspiracy. maybe ex friend now, because I don’t feel all that inclined to talk to him these days, but it’s still sad to be a bystander to this who can’t help even if you try to intervene.
#something I’ve been trying to get better at as I’ve gotten older is trying to avoid situations that#spurn incredibly strong emotions in me that impair my social function.#it’s not fair to the people around me and it’s not fair to me either. i deserve better than treating myself like that#and I’m starting to wonder if how someone answers ‘how willing am I to pull my own pigtails’ is correlative with extreme paranoia#social behavior isn’t really my bag outside of being in the world and observing it yknow#but a common denominator here has definitely been seeing someone come to this crossroads#and just choosing to engage anyway instead of telling themselves ‘I need to remove myself from being…#…so fired up constantly. it’s starting to boil my brain.’ they just can’t quit it.#the best kind of evidence – white hot anecdote#but there’s something about this that does seem functionally similar to addiction. just in how compulsive it is.#is anger addiction possible? I guess that’s the burning question.
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Well, I actually have the most mundane of questions, but it’s been so long since I’ve been in an English class that I feel like I’ve completely forgotten (and I’m curious how you do it): how do you go about reading a book as a class? Do you assign them the chapters to read at home and most of them actually do it? Or do you give them class time to read? Do you have the kids who try to spoil the rest of the book for the class? Basically, how does one teach a book in the year 2024? 😀
And do you have your students annotate inside their books? (I know the English teachers in my school require the students to do that, and I get why, but I inwardly shudder every time I see a student marking up a page.)
Haha I love this question because I too am always asking myself how DOES one each a book in 2024?
It’s sort of a combination. I absolutely assign reading every night (almost) unless it’s Shakespeare or any play in which case we read it all in class. But for a novel there’s a couple chapters a night. I read aloud to them a lot too. Sometjmes I make them read aloud to the whole class, rotating kids who read. Sometimes I assign a chapter to be read in class silently with questions or quotes due at the end of the reading. Sometimes I put them in groups and make them read aloud to each other. There’s no one way that works for sure and of course ultimately I have no control over how much they read and I’m not naive enough to think that most of the reading assigned for homework doesn’t get skipped most of the time buuuuuut.
My bottom line is that I believe it’s my job to get excited about the actual text itself (easier for me in some cases than others but overall pretty easy because it does fill me with excitement) and then commit to taking them on the journey of the story with me. And my goal—that I’m sure I often don’t reach—is to make that experience so much more fun if you have actually read. And the way that I teach is pretty text heavy which is why I always make sure I’ve read the chapters for the day and am not just relying on my memory because the way I do it is just sort of absorbing it all up like a vacuum-cleaner, schwooooop, and then either pulling stuff out of the reading to look at directly or directing them to do the same thing. So the big thing that I have going for me, if any, is buy-in. Is getting kids excited about actually reading the actual text. I also speak often and passionately about the evils of sparknotes etc. not because they help kids get better grades or whatever but because they present you with the husk and shell of a story, stripped of all that makes it interesting, and that by reading that alone they’re reading something so dry and dull and are not achieving what I always want them to achieve —which is, have an Experience with the Literature.
Again, it never works perfectly by any stretch and there are so many ways I want to explore in my quest to get better at it but overall I think, at my very best, I can create this wave of energy and excitement in the story itself which is the most organic and ultimately most helpful way to get them to want to read.
Also no haha. I don’t let them annotate! Though occasionally kids DO of course. But sometimes they bring in their own copies in order to do that. The spoilers absolutely happen and are annoying but I sort of get by it by moving on very quickly and/or talking about how it’s often not the ending but how you get there that makes it interesting. Because that’s just true!
#gosh does this answer make sense#I am so passionate about doing it well and there are huge gaps in my teaching in terms of concrete stuff#but I am doing ….. Something in terms of bringing literature closer to them#and that’s what I want to do!#also love love love the bonus of getting to reread great works over and over until they start sinking into my brain#and I think (well I usually don’t think about it) but I think that the experience for them of watching me read it again#(and sometimes literally I won’t have time to read I need 10 minutes to finish this chapter and tell them to shut up)#(while I sit there and read it)#reminds them that I AM committed to doing the work with them. that I am actually doing it and that I want to!#and idk I think that is both a rarer experience and one that’s kind of underrated in terms of how much warmth it can create#because I have nothing in common with 16 year olds we couldn’t be friends in real life without it being very weird/possibly inappropriate#but in class we have a Thing to be friends about#we have a shared goal! and not just an arbitrary one but a deeply beautiful one#idk. there’s still a lot of boredom a lot of pushback a lot of disinterest#but I’m always amazed at how often kids do want to …. idk sink their teeth into something real#it’s REAL food for their minds. and the hunger for it is there even if they decide they’re too lazy to join the group#my goal is to —merely by the situation itself—make you feel left out of the fun if you refuse to do the work#so you can CHOOSE that but it’s less fun. it’s cold. it’s boring and it’s isolating#because refusing to do the work and insisting on being a little toad SHOULD come with natural social punishments in the form of exclusion#from the best kind of fun. it often does NOT. but yeah. I think I’m also getting better at shutting down toad behavior from adolescent male#this is where teaching co-Ed helps because there are some girls who are like ‘if you stop my learning I will kill you’#not ENOUGH girls but some#ooooof this is a long answer but literally always on my mind#thank you for asking!!! also haha I assumed you were an English teacher yourself!
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i actually feel like crying. it should be illegal to drift apart from your friends
#there are these 2 girls i went to school with#one was my best friend in elementary school#and the other was my best friend for all of middle school#and in high school i started drifting apart from the middle school one#but THEY randomly got really close in like 11th grade#and they’re still best friends now and post together all the time#(i actually rarely EVER go on personal social medias but whenever i see a post from one of them i always check up on what theyve been doing)#(in like a lovingly curious way not a creepy way)#and them being friends has NOTHING to do with me like i stopped being close w both of them before they ever even became aware of each other#well it’s actually kind of ironic bc while i always loved my friend from elementary school my middle school bff kind of hated her#and in middle school i would’ve given ANYTHING for the three of us to hang out#so it’s kind of i guess bittersweet? that they’re friends now#again i haven’t been close to either of them for years and years but it’s still just strange to me that they are so close#i don’t really think i’m jealous (?) because we are very different people and i don’t know if i’d even like being friends with them anymore#but i do kind of miss them and the friendships we used to have if that makes sense#it’s more like a longing for what USED to be rather than a desire to be part of what they have now#also like i said it’s still just weird and hard to conceptualize them being such good friends now
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#my best friend got engaged today and I am so so happy for them and their partner but#I am also jealous and sad that it's not something I have#I'm figuring out how and when to end my current relationship and she found her forever.#I will absolutely never tell her that it's upset me in any way but I need somewhere to say that I'm dealing with that#This summer my social circle has included 3 weddings 2 engagements and an elopement#I love that I’m surrounded by happy people but it’s a lot of change and I feel like I’m being left behind while every body else moves on.#and I truly just needed a minute to be sad about it without inflicting it on my friends.
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Say what you want about artfight’s website, but it is genuinely the best way to find amazing artists. Every year I spend hours going down rabbit holes and opening tabs of defences upon defences that lead into more defences until I start seeing people I’d followed 100 pages earlier attacking other people that also have amazing art.
Genuinely not having algorithms that manipulate and force feed you things it already thinks you like makes the experience so fucking refreshing. It’s like you’re always discovering something special and new and that’s because you are, you’re finding new artists you’d never come across otherwise and that’s beautiful.
Almost every new artist I find happens in July if it’s not in the real world and if you’ve never been down a rabbit hole of defences I HIGHLY recommend it.
If by some miracle you’ve found me that way, I fucking love you man.
#art fight#a ramble about the best month to be an online artist#honestly fuck social media for the way it’s sucked our souls out and made finding new artists just sad#art is meant to be discovered not shared via 3 websites that hate you for being an artist#can you tell I’m avoiding writing my thesis#art fight I love you so much#the authenticity of discovering art is so interesting and close to my heart#pls talk to me about it
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this morning i was just living life as usual and now i have applied for one of my dream (seasonal) jobs and have mountain goats tickets so like. :))
#GOOD DAY!!!!!!!#work was also really fun - had some great conversations with my coworkers and got a lot of things in order#expect to accomplish a LOT tomorrow too!#and lots of social engagements#when will schoolwork get done? unclear.#but it WILL get done#and all will be well#pleased with myself for being SUCH a freak that i managed to apply before the job was advertised ANYWHERE#i caught it just a few hours after it was posted#i wanted to catch it almost immediately#but it’s probably best that i didn’t… i think it all worked out for the best#and VERY pleased about tmg tickets :))#nice of them to wait until i’ll be JUST recovered enough to go to come within reasonable driving distance#BUT before i start this new job (IF i get it) which would make me unavailable on weekends#perfect timing!!#anyway - all i need now is an interview date for this job and i’m SET#i’m still a little nervous but RELIEVED nervous instead of dread#which is MUCH preferred
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the hurt and betrayal and lack of closure just cutting off an 8 year friendship, no phone call that we had scheduled & my phone number blocked, leaves behind is such shit. and the reason??? makes it so much more fucked.
#if i left any messages unanswered the last couple days#i’m just dealing#truly#i’m doing my best and this whole thing makes being social harder#but i’ll be okay i have to be#vent
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Hm. Uncanny valley Vash. Thoughts.
#have I been drawing for the uni au? yea. did I loose the files in an unfortunate incident I won’t elaborate on? also yea#it made me really sad because it was a funny bit. and I could recreate it but mm I don’t feel like it rn#so it’ll take some time. however ☝️#I do feel like drawing. and I have! but for myself like I always do. sharing some stuff here is a courtesy 🤨#OQNENWK JK well. half kidding. I entirely draw for myself and I’m happy it reaches ppl who like it too! and now#I’m hoping to reach cryptic Vash enjoyers because my god YES.#it’s the best thing ever because honestly. same I also am an uncanny creature (idk what is socially okay sometimes without being too weird#about it. I know you get it. you’re in tumblr)#and actually wouldn’t it be funny if at some point the people who know Vash just brush it off eventually as#“oh is Vash just staring into the void and suddenly went walking away?? haha oh yeah typical Vash’’#like it’s the most normal thing ever. but it still puts people a little off#I love me some weird Vash :)#trigun#vash the stampede#trigun stampede#vash#lenssi rambles
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