#i’m just awkward about it
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here’s the thing. i’ve gotten in my own head. i feel like my fic ideas are too ambitious/bold for my skill level, specifically looking at writing sexy things. like i feel like if it’s gonna be weird conceptually it’s gotta be solid structurally, you know? but the little bit of smut i wrote like three(?) years ago makes me cringe (because i wrote it, and also i know it’s not totally amazing objectively, even though i published those short blurbs with the intent of revisiting/rewriting/expanding upon them at a later date) (also i’ll be so real, there’s not much irl inspo i can draw upon, if that wasn’t blatantly obvious) and i’m down to be self-indulgent and experimental but i also want to be proud of what i’ve written and hnnnnnnnnnngggggggg
#char chats#writing is hard#i could simply not write sexy things. but i feel like that would be therapeutically healing for Reasons#and also that’s what i *want* to write#i’m just awkward about it#only way to get more comfy with it is to just do it i know i knowwww#words of encouragement (however silly or serious) would be appreciated if you have some to spare#or legit practical advice 🤷🏻♀️#i love learning
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So what if I drew Marina in a bunch of Ellen Ripley outfits, what then huh??? What’cha gonna do hmm??? (Sigourney Weaver had no business serving like that)
#i’m in an awkward silly moment rn#where I have a bunch of different media & i’m indulging in each one#but only with the intention of potentially chuking pearlina into it#but also. I have so much work so it’s just all spinning in my head#we’ve currently got: alien. silver fang anime. a bit of warrior cats#+ whatever ashe is cooking on occasion#and some other stuff I cant talk about yet#rip#squid rambles#off the hook
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*cough* if you hate amber volakis i hate you *cough* (just kidding!) (i’m not.)
#house md#hate crimes md#text post#amber volakis#honestly this could apply to other women in the show…#think about park right…#people eat up awkward guys. but god FORBID a woman be awkward#i genuinely don’t understand the amber hate#like it is literally SPOON. FED. to the audience that she’s supposed to be a female house#NOW. that doesn’t mean her entire character should be boiled down to this concept#i also don’t like you if you view amber SOLELY as female house#you guys just don’t get her like i do#(some of you do though and i love you for that)#anyway sorry for the tag rambling but this is a AMBER VOLAKIS FANPAGE#i would say i’m an amber apologist but she did LITERALLY nothing wrong#…other than a few things but otherwise she’s literally an angel
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WE ARE | EP16
#we are#we are the series#we are series#tanfang#aou thanaboon#aouboom#boom tharatorn#my edits#weareedit#AOUBOOM MAIN LEADS WHEN???#i do appreciate them and the way they’ve been portraying tanfang#i know tan was a bit over the top 99% of the time#but every scene and touch felt so genuine#and i’m not gonna credit that to new#bc he wasn’t able to direct ppw in a way that didn’t make their kisses look a bit awkward#i know scenes have to look aesthetically pleasing in some way#and that’s why we keep having to deal the ‘no one would kiss with this much space for jesus between each other’ complaints#but like look at aouboom here#this is mostly them and their acting choices in my humble opinion#and don’t get me started on the pecks#ppw BARELY touched the other one’s lips when they had to do a peck kiss#like cmon the difference between ppw and aouboom pecks is insane#i’m sorry for picking on ppw but i’m a bit sad that some of their romantic scenes were a bit lackluster#especially that very last kiss which tbh i rather wouldn’t have seen bc it felt a bit awkward to me#but that may be just me#i need new to get a bit more frisky with kiss scenes when it comes to his directing#bc i feel like friskier kiss scenes only happen when the actors mostly do their thing after finding out what the director wants#(maybe i’m completely wrong about new but tkdkfdkddkdk)#and don’t get me wrong idgaf if there are kisses or not but if there’s a kiss scene you should commit instead of holding yourself back idk#and ppw definitely need a better director to help them achieve that bc jojo was definitely better at directing them
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HAPPY GERARD DAY HELLSITE!!!!!!!
YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!!
#UGH oh my fucking god I’m so in love with them I could CRY his smile :’) what a lad#he’s just cheesin#as he should tbh he literally awkward photo grins just like me#anyway I hope he has a wonderful day and that he’s happy!!<3333#I’ve really genuinely had such a great time getting into mcr this past month it’s been so fun#thank you michael romance sir(s) I love being annoying and insufferable about things :)#gerard way#gee way#jared wee#gerald wave#jordan whale#gerry keay (real) (I swear)#mcr#my chemical romance#my chemical fucking romance#my chem
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Home was the only place left.
Prints
#something about diluc coming home after 4 years just beyond exhausted everything no longer in his control severely wounded#trodding on his horse through his cecilia garden during the wee hours of the morning. adelinde will surely get a scare. oh well.#bending canon that he had his vision. anyway. wanted to make a piece that had some vague storytelling behind#it for the viewer to come up with their own assumptions#is the blood on his arm his or an enemy’s??? it’s up to you#i started this painting august 18th of 2022 lawllll i hated every moment of it but godbless it’s done#diluc#my art#genshin impact#diluc ragnvindr#diluc fanart#shoutout to my right arm for referencing the awkward angle of holding the sword#nice thing that i’m muscled ❤️❤️❤️
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Just watched boys night. Will never be normal again.
#please they are so deeply awkward with each other it’s my favorite thing ever#these kids were entirely socially isolated and lonely until they met each other#I’m so glad that they just kind of don’t know how to be friends sometimes#PLEASE#popular kids who are so cool and also SO not cool I love them#the bad boys#(some of them aren’t even boys if you think about it..)#fantasy high#d20#d20 fantasy high#dimension 20#d20 fanart#fantasy high fanart#fhjy#fabian fantasy high#fabian seacaster#fabian aramais seacaster#gorgug fantasy high#gorgug thistlespring#riz fantasy high#riz gukgak#fh#the bad kids#I’m playing a game right now where I try to let myself post doodles instead of only finished work and it’s so much harder than I thought#undescribed#not described#my art
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i meant to put this together days ago but here’s pim gifs from the new episode let’s all pretend it still just came out lalalala
#I’m about to be so insufferable about this pitiful little thing it could make a grown man cry#anyways#think the 5th one is my favourite i Love the awkward hopeful smile he does#AND THE LAUGH AFTERWARDSSSSNDD i feel like this isn’t actually as unpopular of an opinion that im thinking it is but#i Love that face so much. yknow like when it goes sorta detailed for a second like in the second last gif. that#I love it so much. it only happened like maybe twice in s1 and now its happened 2 times in the first ep im being so fed#HES SO CUUUUTTEEJEJKORUYYFUYU THUGYGUYG#seriously i could just. go on about all of these each for like 20 minutes#ok bue#smiling friends#pim pimling
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I have an agenda.
Long hair teenage sabo.
#one piece#sabo#you cannot convince me that he did not have a long hair phase#like if he grew out his hair to hide his scar he has to have tried more to hide it more thoroughly#I found a fic recently that followed sabo’s growing up in the revolutionary army and it was really really good#I want to see more amnesiac teenage sabo acting awkward around his peers because even back on dawn he had only two friends#more of kids being insensitive and asking about his scar which even he has no idea how he got#and koala and him being antagonistic towards each other#and them slowly becoming friends#anyways I’m so. I tried going onto YouTube to see if there were any good video analyses of sabo#and like yeah I can see why sabo would be a divisive character#but I also completely forgot that there are one piece readers who have not an ounce of media literacy#or respect for female characters#something something ‘sabo is like an oc insert because he exists so distant from everything and just in time to replace ace’ SHUT UP#or ‘favoritism towards sabo because he has a hot girl following him around and more hot girls in the revolutionaries’ I AM GOING TO GO INSA#KOALA IS HER OWN CHARACTER AND AN EXTREMELY INTERESTING ONE THAT DOES NOT EXIST JUST TO BE EYE CANDY OFF OF SABO’ ARM#SABO IS AN AMAZING CHARACTER IN LINE WITH THE THEMES OF ONE PIECE AROUND FREEDOM AND EQUALITY
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People who read Percy Jackson as innocent children, how confused were you by the “Percabeth in the stables” scene in MOA? I’m curious to know what you understood of it, particularly as it’s meant to be a book targeted for kids and tweens.
#for some reason i’m just immagining rick#sitting at his desk writing the scene and#laughing maniacally when describing the horrified look on Frank’s face#and thinking about the awkward questions kids would ask their parents who#decided it would be a good idea to read it to their kids as a bedtime story#honestly why is that so fucking funny to me#percy jackson#pjo fandom#percy jackson fandom#pjo hoo toa#percy x annabeth#percabeth#pjo percy#percy pjo#pjo annabeth#annabeth pjo#percy and annabeth#annabeth chase#annabeth percy jackson#pjo memes#pjo books#pjo#mark of athena#pjo hoo#percy jackson and the heroes of olympus#percy jackson heroes of olympus#heroes of olympus text posts#heros of olympus#heroes of olympus#the heroes of olympus
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But we just can’t keep away
When you know me like you do
It’s supernatural got me howling at the moon
#infamous if#infamous#seven lawless#infamous oc#infamous violet#violet rose#here it is#tadaaaaaa#*awkward hands gesture of excitement*#also this is HEAVILY based off violet perspective#and what little I know about the fight and the party and the break up#she drank a lot to cope at the beginning I think#also I believe that both of them are at fault and violet knows it too#she just finds it hard to be open about it when sev keeps saying certain things#and she bites back as a self preservation mechanism#I’m leave this here and leave now#song is blender by 5sos#it’s really good#the sound does something to my brain#and the lyrics are really nice too#I’m satisfied with this I like this both in style and colors#but I went too hard on the texture and it turned out kind of muddy#but better done that perfect so we take it#my art
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thinking about this one Superbat fic I read where they had to fake date or whatever but in it while they’re still in pre- relationship, they like fall asleep in the same bed, play games with their kids, and like shower while the other one is also in the bathroom and it’s like “oh yeah they’ve dealt with shit from crying into the others shoulder to literally trying to fuck each other during sex pollen episodes; there’s no world where they’re not the epitome of comfortable with each other even if they don’t think the other one returns their romantic feelings” and I just have to say I agree and I think about that hc at least once a week
#Even in the regular canon continuum most of that shit is still canon and it would make sense that they’d have that mindset ab it lol#I’m bad at explaining my thought process#married#wtv#in love#but just like they’re best friends and romantic relationship#literally whatever#There’s just no world where they’re not comfortable with each other in any and all states of being because they can accept each other as#Bat and supes#Bruce and Clark#Mr Wayne and Mr kent#Vulnerable or putting on a mask#And also I just love the hc that they’ve absolutely made out a couple of times and even more and despite it not making them realize their#Feelings are returned#it did make them closer after a week of Clark being like super awkward about it#superbat#superbat fic#superman#batman#bruce wayne#clark kent
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a little more steddie Star Trek au! Most of these are scenes from @sparklyslug’s amazing fic t’hy’la !! (although ones technically a redraw- I wanted to spruce it up a bit) and the last one is an extra doodle of them about to sneak a kiss :)
#the ones with a heart on the corner are from the fic!#I was a little lazy to give Eddie tattoos lol so I used a lightning bolt brush#sorry about the awkward cropping.. my brain isn’t working today#I did shorten Eddie’s hair#I’m in the habit of it at the moment#harrington you have the conn#stranger things#steddie#steve harrington#eddie munson#steddie fanart#steddie Star Trek au#stranger things au#I’m going to draw another steve with the kirk window lol another idea just popped in my head
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Prompt:
Jason, newly established crime lord known as the Red Hood, attends a meeting where the Batman gets dragged into the room halfway through, hopped up on the newest strain of cuddle pollen and about to be auctioned off to the highest bidder.
#jason did not sign up for this shit#he just wanted the traffickers to drop some stupid hints about where they stashed their cargo#he did not expect to have to rescue his quasi dad#and god dammit he’s not gonna cuddle his dad#he’s NOT#(he’s totally gonna cuddle his dad)#look they’re both very awkward about it#well at least until they fight and Jason loses the helmet probably#or not#nothing puts a pin in pit rage as much as seeing a family member suffer#but Jason is very salty about it the whole way throug#oh maybe have Bruce think he’s hallucinating#cuz you know I’m a sucker for that shit#prompts#batdad#jason todd#batfamily#batfam#dick crashing through the window and switching from violence to CUDDLES in .1 seconds flat#bruce wayne#dick grayson#robin#red hood#Batman#Jason and Bruce#fic#ideas#cuddle pollen
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cw: this got long sorry 😔 but creepy/perv bakugou, recording, film major bkg x art major reader, masturbation, coercion, dubcon before it just becomes con, voyeurism/exhibitionism
as an art major, you typically did some works for a few students on campus; for their plays, as background pieces while they danced, a cover for their released songs. it wasn’t out of the ordinary for people to ask you to create something for them, and you enjoyed it more often than not. but, you weren’t usually the art itself.
Bakugou is a friend’s friend that you’ve seen a few times, ran into at the library or at coffee shops. he’s a film major, and always looks so unhappy about the whole thing, as if he didn’t choose it himself. you joke to Mina that you think he’ll graduate and become one of those directors that hate everything and yell at the actors constantly and later on get sued for being a dickhead. you never say it to him though—you’ve never spoken more than a couple words to the man.
it’s why it shocks you when he approaches you one day. it’s after one of your painting classes, and he stands outside the door with a frown and his hands shoved in his pockets, his eyebrows scrunched as if pissed at the mere sight of you. he asks you, in that low and gruff tone of his, if you could star in his final project for the semester. says it’s supposed to be a film made with this criteria and that, but, you’ve kind of checked out on the conversation after the first sentence.
“You mean, you want me to create something and that be the star of your film?” you ask him, feeling so intimidated at his stature. he always seems to loom, his hair shadowing the lights above, creates a cast over a portion of his face, makes his eyes look…unsettling. like they’re looking straight through your flesh, can find the marrow in your bones. he scoffs like you’ve offended him, rolling his eyes into his skull, mouth pulled tight.
“No.” his voice is firm, gaze concentrated only on you, like the halls are empty and you’re the focus of his lens. “I want you to star in it.”
his words confuse you—you’ve never presented yourself as an actor before, never alluded to wanting to be in the spotlight if not for what you create with your hands. but he shuffles on his feet, looks desperate even. there’s some hemming and hawing for a minute or so—why not choose Mina?—she’s busy—why choose me?—‘cause you’d be perfect for my short film—what’s it about?—you’ll find out once you get the script.
and even after you hesitantly agree and get the script—you still don’t understand what you’re doing. why you’re here, why you’re the only person, why it has to be a solo film, why there’s damn near zero lines in the entirety of the have-to-be forty five minute film.
the scenes are all so long, and maybe it’s because movies aren’t your forte or chosen major, but you just don’t get it. one scene; you’re staring at yourself in the mirror while Bakugou holds a small, black camera over your shoulder. he’s eerily quiet behind you, whispers out a faint fuckin’ go when you have to wash your face in the sink, makes you do it over because your movements are too jerky and unnatural.
the rest of the scenes go that way; you doing regular at home activities, being put under a lens, quietly barked at to do this and move that way and fix your hair and remember to frown.
“Isn’t there another way to film this?” you ask him on the fifth day of shooting in his spacious loft. there’s a bubble bath scene coming up, one you dont understand the importance of, but Bakugou tells you it’s the most necessary part of the entire thing.
“No,” he grunts out, looking at you from under his lashes as he sits on the lid of the toilet. “But I’ll make it soapy, so the camera won’t see much.” the camera? much? you weren’t worried so much about what the camera captured as you were the man behind it. he looks at you with such intensity, you feel naked already despite the robe you wear that’s suspiciously already your size.
he leaves the bathroom when you sink in the hot water, returns before you can say it’s okay, hears the water splashing and thinks that’s good enough. he kneels on the floor beside you, camera pointed directly in your face, makes your chest hot and your skin feel prickly. the scene passes on regularly enough; you run the water over your arms, tilt your head back as you sigh, whisper the few lines scripted, lean back and close your eyes, sigh again. it’s almost relaxing, makes you forget about the friend of a friend recording you naked right now. almost.
“Touch yourself.” Bakugou suddenly demands, hushed and quiet behind the camera. your eyes immediately shoot open, looking to him in question, how he’s eerily still in his spot hovering over you.
“Huh?” you ask, unsure if you heard him correctly, looking around the rounded lens in your face, trying to ignore the red blinking light. but Bakugou only frowns.
“It’s a masturbation scene. Touch yourself.” he repeats, voice louder, more demanding this time. your stomach twists at the thought of doing something so intimate in front of him. he’s a handsome guy, for sure, even made you consider asking him out after this, figured he was just serious about his work and awkward about certain things. but…something had been off about this entire thing since the start.
“But—but I don’t, I’m not,” you stutter, sitting up a little, the bubbles covering your chest starting to disperse with your movements. but Bakugou only sits a little higher on his knees, finally pulling the camera away from his face for the first time since he’s asked you to do this for him.
“You want me to fail?” he asks, booming voice eerily quiet in the silent bathroom, carmine eyes dull, shaded over with something terrible. “Then do it.” he tells you when you shake your head quickly.
you stare at him until he gets back into position again, camera back pointed at you. when he doesn’t say anything else, you swallow thickly, wondering if the art that will come out of this will be worth it. so you listen, sneak a hand under the water, start touching yourself in a way you never have in front of anyone.
is it bad to say that it’s exhilarating? being watched and recorded by someone who breathes so heavily every time your voice hiccups? being directed to touch your chest next when the suds start to disappear and your nipples start to peek through? is it bad that you want him to send you this portion of his film, only, just so you can watch yourself again and again? make a portrait of yourself with your fingers on your nipples and your knees raising from the water and your head thrown back from the intensity in oil pastels?
“That’s a wrap.” Bakugou announces when you finish, head spinning and still panting. you look over to him, how he closes the camera, the obvious bulge in his pants. “I’ll get you a towel.”
you wonder when’s the next time he’ll need you. or better yet—maybe he could be the star in your final drawing project? you had finished it already but, what was the harm in starting over with him as your muse? as naked as you are? camera not blocking his face so you can paint the similarities of his blushing cheeks and eyes when you direct him to look at you? to touch his chest? to play with himself just like that?
#this got. so long. sowwy#but I thought about this ummmm Sunday night#but I was DRAINED from writing 7k words of scorned past midnight and then having to edit it skdjfkf#so I was like. okay. put this idea in the drafts. NOW ms dory memory#anddddd I love this so very much#would’ve loved to turn this into a full fic#but it’s so exhausting trying to write long fics recently bc of this multichap#I’m just not used to it and I can’t do two things at the same time#and I already have like 9 fics on my list to write!!!! lol#but there is something so alluring about film major bkg 2 me#I think hes awkward and comes off as mean but he really is just that serious about his work#but he’s#also a creep for you LOL#definitely think he agrees to become ur muse for art as like a trade off#and you get that boy into SO many humiliating positions 😵💫#I need. to lie down. anyway.#I wrote this at 1am and was scared to post it then cause I didn’t think anyone would see it#so here it is in the morning :)#bakugou treats! 🍬#—new treat in the streets! 🍫
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Still working on how I want to draw Gid, the dimples are nonnegotiable
#fanart#gideon nav#gideon the ninth#the locked tomb#really trying to channel the boyish douchebaggery while keeping that sheltered awkward innocence underneath#like she can give you a wicked smolder but if you pay attention to her for more than a minute that face will crumble and she just o//x//o#GOD I’m so mentally well about this series
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