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them: “get off my back u frigid bitch” “its always an awful idea to have u here”
me: theyre n love :)
#waitress: i dont like ur sister. shes a terrible person. shes a bitch and shes ugly and i didnt want her on th team#me: aawwwww <333333#shit talking her as much as possible b4 defending her honor lest u appear too fond? i see u ;)#deetress#the gang goes bowling#sunny spoilers#ramblings#s16#i wish they had kept th lil bit @ th end where they had th waitress offer dee some fries tho#i thnk th waitress holding out fries to dee is th moment tht stuck n my head th most out of everything working on this season#and then it wasnt evn there lmfaooo#now realizing bOTH seasons th moments i remembered th most on set were deetress moments and then BOTH seasons they were diff in th show#they hurt me. they hurt me continuously. im weak
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House of the Dragon s01e05 We Light the Way // Game of Thrones s02e06 The Old Gods and the New // House of the Dragon s01e05 We Light the Way // A Clash of Kings by George R. R. Martin, Chapter LVI, Theon V // House of the Dragon s01e07 Driftmark // Game of Thrones s02e03 What Is Dead May Never Die // House of the Dragon s01e07 Driftmark // Game of Thrones s02e07 A Man Without Honor // House of the Dragon s01e07 Driftmark // A Clash of Kings by George R. R. Martin, Chapter LVI, Theon V // House of the Dragon s01e07 Driftmark // A Clash of Kings by George R. R. Martin, Chapter XXXVII, Theon III // A Clash of Kings by George R. R. Martin, Chapter LVI, Theon V // House of the Dragon s01e07 Driftmark // Game of Thrones s02e06 The Old Gods and the New // House of the Dragon s01e09 The Green Council // Game of Thrones s01e04 Cripples, Bastards and Broken Things // House of the Dragon s01e09 The Green Council // A Clash of Kings by George R. R. Martin, Chapter LXVI, Theon VI // House of the Dragon s01e09 The Green Council // A Clash of Kings by George R. R. Martin, Chapter XLVI, Bran VI // House of the Dragon s01e09 The Green Council // Game of Thrones s02e03 What Is Dead May Never Die //
#gotedit#hotdedit#asoiaf#theon greyjoy#alicent hightower#long post#(c)lsb#in the entitled quote ali's being somewhat irrational and unfair bc nyra did not take an eye she's not trying to keep it away#rhaenyra was only trying to protect her own little boy whose eye alicent felt entitled to#while theon thought asha wanted him dead when she came to wf to save him tho she didnt have to and hes wishing her ill#and then we don't have a direct reaction to 'now they see you as you are' but you can see the words before that getting under ali's skin#making her look even more hurt and bewildered by her former bff than she already was on this night when her son was maimed#compared to theon still hurt by robb's ingratitude months later and caring abt being liked in wf even after his men killed some of the folk#so that's more a vibes based thing but the rest should be self-explanatory#happy theon thursday!#the book citations are so detailed bc i had this fully edited almost a week ago scheduled for next theon thursday#so i kept coming back to the queue to look at my work and make small little edits#tv: house of the dragon#tv: game of thrones
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chiaki is such a good and interesting character. wish she was in a better game
#personal#do you ever wish danganronpa was better gkdjfjskkfks#literally the only interesting thing that the anime ever did. To Me. was make chiaki a real person#because if you just take the game on its own its basically. she was just a computer program. you cared about a person who wasnt real.#hajime fell in love with a computer isnt that fucked up#but. with the added context of her being a Real Person who Existed. and the reason the program looks like her is that deep down#they all just Wanted Her Back. like that fuckin HURTS DUDE#her death was the last straw it was the final thing. that grief is what drove them all into despair in the end#fuck the brainwashing bullshit. losing chiaki broke them.#like so few of them had anyone in their lives that just. unconditionally cared. without any strings.#but she Did. she loved them all so much. she wanted them all to be so happy. for themselves#and then junko drove them all into their own heads. and then she took chiaki away from them.#no wonder they didnt give a shit about anyone else’s lives. if this is a world that can take something as unconditionally caring and bright#as chiaki nanami and Break Her and Tear Her Apart and Throw Her Away. it doesnt deserve kindness. fuck humanity.#its definitely something they all have to reckon with for a Long time going forward#like. junko haunts the halls of the island’s facilities. but so does chiaki.#not nearly in the same way but shes there all the same#theres definitely a time early on when they finally feel up to talking about her and the other four are discussing who she was before#the Real chiaki yknow#and hajime has to be like. No I Know She Was Different. I Knew Her Too.#and just him having to tell the others that chiaki was basically his only friend when he was in the reserve course#they really have to mourn her twice. fuck dude
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I wish AI images didn't make me so intensely upset. Just the existence of them bothers me a lot, because it's just clutter without meaning or emotion or any genuineness. But recently something happened that made me very upset, and I feel so irrational saying this, but it really gave me this sick, heart-wrenching feeling, and I wish it would stop. My mom was looking through Facebook, and showed me this image of birds that to me was so obviously AI. But she wasn't 100% sure it was fake, only telling me after I had told her it was definitely AI, that she had been a bit unsure about it.
I hate how intense my feelings are about it, bcs it made me want to irrationally almost infantalize her without meaning to. It just made me overwhelmingly sad that this is state of things. That people are being fed this imitation, this trash, and aren't familiar enough to recognize it all the time. Every time I think about it, it hurts my chest.
#im in a unrelated hyper emotional state at the moment#so i think thats obviously a factor as to why this is getting to me so much#BUT IT REALLY DOES MAKE ME SO INTENSELY UPSET#and i feel bad bcs i was definitely infantalizing her without meaning to#i didnt want to make her feel bad but god it just makes me so upset#this is the future of things????#she just wanted to see cute animals pics :(#and an account posing as a legitimate photography account posts that fucking trash#it makes me so upset#sorry im probably being really over dramatic and irrational about this#but ir really does make my chest hurt every time i think about it and i wish it would stop#it just makes me so depressed with the state of the internet#like when i try to look up simple reference pictures#and a lot of the search result is blatantly obvious AI trash#and it makes me intensely sad that there's people out there that cant tell the difference as well#and are being fed trash and lies. it hurts so bad to me#i wish this would pass soon#i mean im still going to be upset about the state of things. but I'd like to stop feeling this wounded#needed to write this and put it out there in hopes it will absolve the weird sick feeling i have about it#catie.rambling.txt
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ok im just gonna say. i cant stand halimede and i wish ppl would stop putting her on my dash, i followed her for a bit and like yeah sometimes she makes funny haha jokes and sometimes she says things that are based but also sometimes she says stuff thats so violently transmisogynistic it makes me physically ill.
shes made multiple tweets abt how she loooves trans women bc being with a trans woman makes her feel so small and delicate and feminine in comparison, like trans women are just some accessory she can tote around to contrast how ~unfeminine~ they are and make her look more feminine in comparison??? she regularly says trans women who have had bottom surgery arent real trans women, she pushes like this narrow vision of what a trans woman can be while also making tweets abt how trans women have to make themselves smaller and do everything right to be seen as women.
like i get that its a bit. i know its an rp acct. but ive looked at the replies and qrts and seen so many trans women be hurt and triggered by her tweets bc she refuses to label her acct as an rp acct or a joke. not everyone knows she isnt being sincere, both trans women who are hurt by her words and liberals who take her words unironically and think thats an appropriate way to be a trans ally. and it fucking sucks.
#ive heard some ppl say the acct is run by a trans woman and if thats true girl get some therapy#idk like ppl can like what they like and no one is obligated to listen to my gripes abt her#but im rlly tired of seeing her tweets#headspace#halimede crit#negative#i dont rlly think she Shouldnt Exist cause i think all art has a right to exist but like#i rlly rlly rlly wish she didnt place kayfabe over real ppls hurt
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That sad realization that not only did the undiagnosed autism lead to me not realizing my "friends" were actually bullying me the whole time I knew them but I was also unintentionally doing something similar to neurotypical friends because I didn't understand how we thought differently
#i just want yall to know that when i first wrote undiagnosed my phone autocortected that to undigested so. yeah#you heard it hear folks. autism is undigestable. thats why we all got tummy problems#anyway this is why is struggling with communication and maintaining relationships is a symptom#although my relationships always seem fine to *me* because im oblivious as fuck#and this is why autism questionnaires need to be phrased differently#alsp yeah. thinking about that one time i went to a summer camp and i joked about a girl in mine and my friends dorm#who was sleep talking that night. and one of the counselors immediately shamed me for bullying#like we were all there and awake. everyone already knew and laughed so i assumrd it was funny#but then suddenly *I* was being mean...? i understand more now but i wish someone explained it to me more gently#why did everyone laugh it was mean? i thought they laughed because it was funny#still dont understand why people laugh if something is hurtful. i didnt want to insult the girl either#i considered us friends and i was just trying to include her in the conversation#it was still not ok though...#theres another time that comes to mind when i said matter of factly that my sister was a liar#in front of her boyfriend who then very aggressively silenced me#i didnt understand why you would lie if you cant accept being a liar#it wasnt meant as an insult it was meant as the truth#but maybe if it was insulting she should stop lying#idk it was really weird#maybe this is why i didnt realize people where insulting me#because to them they were picking on me#but to me they were either stating a fact or falsely accusing me#i get embarrassed too of course but only because its whats expected of me#that makes me feel scared and inferior and alone. and thats what embarrassment feels like for me#it feels like everyone is unforgivingly looking at me with a magnifying glass
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#i love my mother#but god sometimes i wonder if she loves me back#i do something good and im the light of her life#i do something mediocre and she expects better of me#its those words. those fucking words that have haunted me my whole life#“i expected more from you”#am i not enough? am i not fucking enough for you just the way i am?#if i didnt do the things ive done would you still love me?#or would you wish for a daughter who'd accomplish things you never did. a daughter who dreamed of things better than you did.#a daughter who was you. but better.#mumma i love you so much. so so much. i cant imagine a world without you#but why must you be like this#why do you want me to be the best?#im so afraid of disappointing you. its terrifying. gut wrenching. the very thought makes me sick#and yet. and yet. here we are.#“you're better than this”#BUT WHY MUST I BE#WHY CANT I BE ME#IS THE THOUGHT OF ME BEING MYSELF SO LOATHSOME TO YOU THAT YOU SHOW HURT EVERYTIME I DONT DO SOMETHING UP TO YOUR EXPECTATIONS#AM I REALLY THAT FUCKING UNLOVABLE#THAT I HAVE TO BE THE GREATEST AT EVERYTHING JUST FOR A SLIVER OF YOUR ATTENTION AND ADORATION#WHY MUST I BE AN EXTENSION OF YOUR WANTS AND DESIRES#WHY MUST I FULFILL THE PROPHECIES YOU'VE FAILED#WHY CANT I DO SOMETHING FOR MYSELF. FOR ME. THE WAY I WANT IT TO BE#GOD FUCKING DAMMIT I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ITS TEARING ME APART BUT PLEASE.#PLEASE.#LOVE ME. LOVE ME THE WAY I AM AND NOT THE WAY YOU WANT ME TO BE.#shanti ki ashanti suno
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everyone say thank u to my roommate for going to visit her parents this weekend so I can jack it loud and nasty 🙏
#i love her but there are some benefits to having the flat to myself.... love getting to wander around in just my boxers + a tshirt too#things i could do while she was still here if i wasnt a pussy 🙄#jk itd just make her uncomfortable and im too respectful for that#having a lowkey crush on her is an endless comedy to me bc we would be so woefully incompatible romantically#and also sexually.. historically ive only ever stone topped bc ive never been comfortable enough w anyone to let them fuck me#despite very much Not being stone or exclusively a top. and i think shes some form of sex repulsed anyway so like. sits there dead silence#and also shes so in love with her other friends and i showed up late to that party.... ive been feeling kinda guilty lately bc ik-#she misses them a lot and wishes we'd be able to stay roommates w them too. and im a pretty poor replacement for them tbh#and i love spending time with her but whenever i do i feel kinda painfully aware im not them like i could never fill that space#and asking to hang out more with her always feels like im taking away from time she could be talking to them. or even being alone ik she-#likes her own company and i get that a lot too so its chill but ahh.. man#i dont mean this in a bitter or jealous way at all like theyre all such sweet ppl i couldnt ever hold it against them#theyre kind of a 3 headed cerberus type situation and im like. the stray puppy they found on the side of the road#theres nothing they can do differently i was just born to be alienated from other ppl forever until i die. and someday i hope ill-#finally get used to it and accept i wont ever feel like im enough for anyone else or feel like anything else is enough for me#old wounds healed over 5082 times that still hurt to touch but i cant help pressing my fingers into them anyway bc its a familiar pain etc#anyway lost where i was going with this its just been on my mind again recently. i hate to be pitied i hate to feel like im only included-#bc they didnt want me to feel left out i hate feeling like a shoddy secondhand stand-in and its been a lot of that lately#also been a little annoyed bc sometimes it feels like shes trying to micromanage my social life and girl. we're not close enough for that#im sure its well intentioned but im not part of what they have going on i cant compete in that ring so dont try to push me into it..#ahhh. its all ok tho one of the guys is coming to visit next month which will be rly fun but ill try to give them some space too#its good at least im doing this processing now bc group situations can be spike traps of triggers for me sometimes#regardless of how good friends i am w ppl and ive already had a wobble a few weeks ago w how i cope and i dont want it to become a#fully fledged regular issue again bc its so hard to crawl back out of that pit. anyway losing coherence here im gonna stop rambling#and go make myself an early dinner and then back to drawing........#sorry for long tags if ur reading this blows u a kiss but go find a better use of ur time girl!!#.diaries
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Rise of the Mighty Morphin Power Rangers - The Green Ranger
The Power Rangers refuse to accept that killing her is the only way to free Tommy from Rita’s control, determined to find a way to end RIta without risking their friend.
One by one, over several battles with the Dark Green Ranger, the team are able to summon their Dino Zords, all inspired by a comment made by Billy when they first found the Power Coins. Once all five are summoned, they make a last stand, taking down Rita’s Dark Dragonzord with their newly formed Megazord, the Rangers fight on the ground, urging Tommy to fight her, don’t let her win!
Zack cries out, holding her back from the rest of the team, “Tommy! Don’t let her decide who you are! You decide that!”
Jason on her other side adds on, “You’re one of the strongest people I know! Fight her!”
Trini supports, disarming the Dragon Saber from Rita’s grip, “You have to be brave for us! For yourself!”
Billy, staff of the Power Lance pinning the Dark Green Ranger to his stronger teammates, “We’re not giving up on you! It doesn’t make sense for you too either!”
Kimberly rushes into Tommy with all her strength, wrapping her arms around her so tight that no power in the known universe could break her grip, face pressed into Tommy’s chest, “Please, you have to come back to us! You have to come back to me!”
From then on, Tommy officially joins the team as the Green Power Ranger.
#rotmmpr#mmpr#mighty morphin power rangers#power rangers#tommy oliver#green ranger#my art#me: i'm not gonna write out whole summaries with every design#also me: what if i just straight up wrote the team pleading with tommy to break rita's possession hmm-#i see EXACTLY how the scene would play out in my head and it makea me wish i could animate#and god. thinking about kim's ''come back to ME'' in particular hurt me heart i can hear the voice crack and the quiver UGH#each of the rangers lines to tommy in the scene would also have significance to either a future or past arc with her#eg zack saying she decides who she is is bc of a past interaction where he helps her with insecurities surrounding#still engaging with masculine interests as a trans girl by showing her that he still maintains some of his feminine interests#from before he transitioned and that's totally okay! no one else gets to decide what you can and can't do!#trini mentioning bravery ties to tommy helping her come out to her mom later on#stuff like that#...........i need to write out those season summaries lmao#initially i did also try having the purified dragon shield be silver so gold would stay associated with the evil empire but#that didnt look quite as good#anyway i love this design and it looks SO GOOD with the rest of the team especially
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there is a customer at work who isnt malicious at all but anytime i see her im like e_e please dont notice me. Please.
#she pretends im her grand daughter and announces it to everyone “shes my granddaughter” and calls me by her granddaughters name#And is very very touchy and today kind of set me off like. Maam. dont go up behind me and rub my back wtf#I had another old lady customer do that all the time (overly touchy) and i never said anything but once i just gave her a Look & she stoppe#I feel more bad with this lady in particular cuz idk i think shes mentally ill and lonely i understand i dont wanna hurt her feelings#I wish i could connect with her but i got issues of my own yknow. she icks me out when she says “i love you” i say it back but#I feel horrible but I dont really mean it. I dont love her and i wish she didnt choose me to be her pseudo granddaughter#My roommate says its nornal for me to be weirded out but i moreso just feel sad for her idk#Im not the kind company she needs. Im having trouble even entertaining her anymore. I used to all the time#Now i feel like a hollow shell lol...#Anytime i see her its just very short responses. I try to back away from her hugs and cant hide my discomfort#I always get into the weirdest customer situations .-. I stg.....
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Solas says I know a place and takes you to the middle of a swamp where he insults your culture, religious beliefs, and then dumps you.
#yeah im still thinking about this and its the next day#he might be telling the truth about the Vallaslin but my inquisitor did not let him remove it#I’ve played her as very proud to be dalish and believes in elven gods so it would be out of character even if solas says something else#maybe that’s what it represented then but it is not what it is now and she chooses to move forward#about the breakup … this is not the first time a man takes me on a date and dumps me 😭😭 but hey um wtf#honestly my lavellan does love him and is hurt but she has to be so many things to so many different people#there’s bigger things at stake and bigger problem to deal with at this time than whatever he's hiding or lying about#im pretty sure he was going to say something else not about the vallaslin#but his fear is dying alone becasue i saw it in the fade and yet !!!! he pushes everyone away he picks fights with everyone no matter whos#in the party he didnt come to the wicked grace game he never opens up beyond what he has seen in the fade. he is a fixed point#i wanna shake him by the shoulders and YELL WHATA RE YOU DOING you could have it all someone who loves you and a wonderf#a wonderful found family. he is kind and gentle but he is also so full of ANGER and he is so set on things being as he sees them.#Cole cant change because to Solas cole is always a spirit. the dalish are misguided and YOU Lavellan are just different YOURE special#the meaning of the vallaslin cant change because to him it represents slavery and it is in stone to him. things dont change with time they#are fixed. like things in the fade it what it was preserved. he is trying to hold on to a past that doesnt exist that has moved forward.#Solas says you cant change yourself by wishing. but i would say wishing for change is THE required prerequisite for change. a little though#a little idea a little wish that something was different better. but to#why cant you move forward Solas what the fuck are you holding onto so intesely#OKAY WHATEVER IM DONE WITH THIS ESSAY IM OVER IT ITS FINE ITS SO FINE
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I HAVE TO STOP I HAVE TO BE BETTER
#my moms still not talking to me and im not talking to her until she does it first bc that first day i kept going back and being ignored so..#yeah its petty and i feel ew bc i didnt wish her a happy mother's day yesterday (may 10th's mexican mothers day) but im telling myself its#whatever and i shouldnt care so much about it but i think deep down im just hurt and it just feels like i never made any progress because#she still gets under my skin so easily and i hate it and i just need to go to sleep.#des is tired#des vents
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i miss boxing
#sorry vent movement 🏃#thinking abt how nothings felt right since graduating high school but it feels even less right since quitting boxing last year#thinking abt how there was a 60ish yr old woman still kickboxing at my old gym and i planned on being like her#and doing kickboxing/boxing for the rest of my life as long as possible#but ‘as long as possible’ turned out to be like. 7 years.#and how that was supposed to be a constant. and it was a pillar of my identity and self image#but then my knuckle started hurting when i punched and then it started hurting when i did anything at all#thinking abt how its not fair#not fair that theres nothing diagnosibly wrong w my knuckles that i could fix theyre just ruined for some reason#thinking abt how i could try harder to fix my knuckles but i quit bc im scared to irreparably damage my right hand#bc i need that for like. any livelihood or joy in my life. haha#thinking abt how my family kinda makes me feel guilty for not trying harder and maybe i quit too easily#but also i thought quitting while im ahead to protect my hands was a smart move but everyone makes me feel like i just gave up on it#and ig i did literally give up but i wish it didnt feel so WEAK#thinking abt how its not fair and its not fair and its not fair#x
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tfw tomorrow i have to say goodbye to like 20 of my best friends and never ever see them again and they probably wont understand why i just suddenly disappeared because theyre 3 years old
#txt#it hurts so bad so bad so bad so bad idk how people just quit childcare no call no show#bitch ass sydney who didnt even come in for her last week#i just have so much real life love for these little babies :( waaahhhhhhh im so fucking sad#i cried in front of 4 different parents today (one brought me cookies and flowers and she also started crying)#sucks#suuuuucks#i hate that im so fucking good at this job and genuinely care so much#goddddddddddd i wish childcare wasnt so fucking underpaid and poorly run#im sure there are better scools than the one im at but . it seems that rhe majority are this way.
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found out that rascal's owner took him again while i was out, and he's probably not gonna be back since the semester's almost over. i don't even know if his owner's coming back next semester, if i'll ever see him again. if he'll ever see me again. why do they wait until im not around to do this? why do they never let me say goodbye to him?
#i didnt really get to process it bc i found out when i was hanging w a friend but. im processing it now#sigh.. i dont know. i dont know.#at the end of the day he is and has always been someone else's cat. i can't control what she does with him#no matter what i think of it. she can always take him away. but every time it happens im just. im tired yknow?#it's worth it to me to have him around. i love him dearly and i want him to be in a home where he's actually cared for (which i have done my#best to provide) but he's just. not mine. and every time it happens i back up and think man. im such a sucker.#i don't think people manipulate me often. not in an ongoing way i mean. i don't think ppl see me as valuable enough to most of the time.#but damn. she really found my weak spots didn't she. free petcare courtesy of one chump who can't live without animals around. sigh#he deserves stability but he deserves love more. this weird shared custody thing is better for him i think. and frankly i also love him.#im not the priority here but my feelings are like. there. him being taken away without even telling me first hurts. i'd like to be able to#say goodbye to him. im not saying he has to stay or this has to go on but couldn't they just.. consider my feelings a bit more?#just bc you're fine with dropping your cat off somewhere for weeks not knowing when you'll see him again and not visiting doesn't mean i am#and i kind of feel like my roommate is part of this. after all it's not like his owner can just break into our room and take him#and if im always out when they do it there's a chance roomie's just shipping him off whenever she gets sick of him.#she's done it before. even after she agreed so vehemently with me about never wanting him to go back to such treatment and stuff early on.#she's been spraying him for little reason lately too. and i mean i get being a little more cautious with some things bc her neck's broken#but she's really fixated on how much he smells and bites and stuff and talks about how if i wasn't around she'd consider eating him#and then other times she's like that's my pookie. i don't get it. like yeah i tell rascal to fuck off sometimes bc he hurts me but it's not#like a hateful thing. i dont resent him for it i'm just annoyed sometimes bc he's maiming me a little. he's my baby. how could i loathe him?#so it makes me think that roomie might be blaming his transfers on his owner bc she doesn't want me to judge her#and like. this is her room too. it's not her fault she's more bothered by the smell than me. if she doesn't want to be bitten and clawed all#the time i can sympathize. i don't wanna force her to house him. but i wish she'd just be honest with me i guess#like. what if his owner decides to give him away without telling me? i'd take him in in a heartbeat. even though i know it's a bad idea.#but i'm worried he'll fall out of my reach completely. and at the very least I'd like to be able to say goodbye first. that's all.
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im in love w him not only bc of who he is as a person nd how drawn i am to his personality, but also bc i feel like he's the only one who has ever wanted to see me. who i am, like deep down. he's the only one who i feel like i've ever connected with, in an easy nd genuine way. the only one who i feel has ever gotten me. he's the only one who's ever made me feel like we actually have a connection we're both in on, bc i havent had to pretend or put up a fake front for him bc he wanted the real image of me.
#unfortunately he has his own shit to deal w#so bc of one thing that was actually a mistake from me#he misjudged it nd saw it from his own perspective nd didnt understand mine#nd thus concluded that he saw me wrong nd didnt actually know who i am#nd then he had decided that so strongly he wasnt wven open to hear me out or try to understand what that situation was for me#that made me very sad nd hurt nd like#he doesnt actually like me as much as i like him#bc i would always always ask him nd hear him out before jumping to conclusions#i have asked him abt this but he is a wall nd doesnt wnna talk abt it#nd i cant force anyone so... yeh. it is what it is#i wish that we had the connection where he wanted to understandwhere i was coming from#instead of being like ughshe isnt the perfect image that i had constructed#so now im writing her off completely bc she doesntlive up to my expectations#but... my heart just loves him sm i can look past that#however... that is meaningless when i dont even know what he feels for me nd i cant get an answer out of him#maybe he doesnt wanna tell me bc he doesnt return my love nd he knows i'llbe hurt nd he'll risk losing me as a friend#i'd never stop talking to him tho.. that is the worst part#if imginna get over these feelings#i need to hear it straight from him. i need him to tell me thatno i am not in love with you#then i need to never talk to him again nd never lookat his social media#then it will hurt a lot but after a year or so i will only feel empty nd not hurt when i think of him#but i am tooweak to be the one to stop talking to him now#my entire day revolves around him nd i know its unhealthy but idk how to stop#since this obsession is unrequited i dont actually wanna feel it#but i have no idea how to stop#god this is driving me insane wtf is wrong w me??
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