#BUT WHY MUST I BE
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#i love my mother#but god sometimes i wonder if she loves me back#i do something good and im the light of her life#i do something mediocre and she expects better of me#its those words. those fucking words that have haunted me my whole life#“i expected more from you”#am i not enough? am i not fucking enough for you just the way i am?#if i didnt do the things ive done would you still love me?#or would you wish for a daughter who'd accomplish things you never did. a daughter who dreamed of things better than you did.#a daughter who was you. but better.#mumma i love you so much. so so much. i cant imagine a world without you#but why must you be like this#why do you want me to be the best?#im so afraid of disappointing you. its terrifying. gut wrenching. the very thought makes me sick#and yet. and yet. here we are.#“you're better than this”#BUT WHY MUST I BE#WHY CANT I BE ME#IS THE THOUGHT OF ME BEING MYSELF SO LOATHSOME TO YOU THAT YOU SHOW HURT EVERYTIME I DONT DO SOMETHING UP TO YOUR EXPECTATIONS#AM I REALLY THAT FUCKING UNLOVABLE#THAT I HAVE TO BE THE GREATEST AT EVERYTHING JUST FOR A SLIVER OF YOUR ATTENTION AND ADORATION#WHY MUST I BE AN EXTENSION OF YOUR WANTS AND DESIRES#WHY MUST I FULFILL THE PROPHECIES YOU'VE FAILED#WHY CANT I DO SOMETHING FOR MYSELF. FOR ME. THE WAY I WANT IT TO BE#GOD FUCKING DAMMIT I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ITS TEARING ME APART BUT PLEASE.#PLEASE.#LOVE ME. LOVE ME THE WAY I AM AND NOT THE WAY YOU WANT ME TO BE.#shanti ki ashanti suno
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can we stop pretending like it’s so super easy for trans men to pass. “oh just put on a baggy shirt and cut your hair-“ it literally doesn’t work like that and I refuse to believe you actually think it’s that easy
#I do as much as I can pre t and I still get misgendered constantly#it’s to be expected and I understand#but I wish people would stop making it out like it’s so easy to pass#bc it’s not!#and when you talk about how easy it is it a) makes people feel like they must not be trying hard enough and that’s why they don’t pass#and b) undermines the difficulties experienced by trans men#trans#lgbtq#ftm#trans man#transgender#transmasc#transgender man#trans pride#donnieisaprettyboy#ftm problems
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I have some questions about karaoke night, Alex Hirsch. Very Important Questions. Which I will happily scream at a poor hapless baby triangle who can have no answers for me, and possibly also does not have object permanence yet.
Follow-up that is I guess suggestive, but let's be real here, Bill's a fucking triangle:
Dude slipped right into his birthday suit, lmao
this is so stupid :D
Anyway, I don't care what anyone says, this brilliant individual knows what's up - Bill is absolutely way more of a monsterfucker than Ford could or ever will be, full stop.
#fanart#billford#bill cipher#stanford pines#gravity falls#book of bill#i watched gravity falls because i was curious about all the Toxic Old Man Yaoi on my dash and wanted context#turns out most of the context was in the book of bill tho lmao#look they either banged or married or both while drunk and i will accept no other possibilities#you don't use the phrase 'and one thing led to another' in a PRIVATE JOURNAL if what happened wasn't salacious in some way#i mean - ford didn't exactly grow up in The Most Inclusive Time Period???#dude was probably like 'gotta use this wording for plausible deniability - NO ONE can know i boinked the talking triangle'#in other news - i must bully the baby billy#don't know how much more GF stuff i'll toss up here but i have a few other little scribbles in the works. probably won't color them tho lol#also don't ask me why bill's bowtie stays where it is despite his “pants” being under it. just. just fucking don't ok???#EDIT: oh and since i see this a lot in this fandom for some reason: DO NOT REPOST THIS PLZ K THX :D
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uni work is keeping me busy but nothing will stop me from doodling jayvik as howls moving castle
#my art#why must school exist#ALL I WANT TO DO IS DRAW JAYVIK#jayvik#jayce talis#viktor arcane#arcane#arcane fanart#league of legends#jayvik au
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*kicks down your door* It might seem like a plot hole that no one thought about the possibility of Dracula being invited into the asylum by Renfield (or any other patient) but actually it speaks to the way Renfield’s personhood is being denied mainly by Jack Seward, but also the rest of the crew in part through their reliance on Seward’s expertise. Which also ties into the way they have decided to shut out Mina at the very same time. It literally just did not occur to them that the patients living in the same building as them would have any claim to the residency that allows someone to grant the permission a vampire needs to enter a home. But of course the asylum is the patients’ home just as much as it is Jack’s! They live there! In short this fatal blow dealt to the heroes at this crucial juncture comes about through both their sexism and their ableism. Good night. *puts your door back on its hinges again and leaves*
#dracula#dracula daily spoilers#dracula daily#re: dracula#not sure about the tagging etiquette during the offseason so i will tag spoilers just in case lol#this thought came to me while i was falling asleep that’s why it’s unhinged#pun not intended but intentionally kept#anyway there must be literary papers about this right#<- has lost sight of what i learned in dracula class and what i read on tumblr#i am now actually going to sleep though
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every year the time passes and i say "wow i can't handle the passage of time" and the time continues to pass and the cycle repeats
#looking back at my passage of time posts from early 2022.#girl imagine existing in late october 2023???? why must i deal with this#text
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"Please... Please, fix him."
#rota fortunae#roxirinart#roxirinhsr#Finally finished this!#CLICK FOR HIGHER RES pls tumblr… why must you crunch everything I love into dust…#Ratio asking Big Robot (Nous... I hope it's obvious ;-;) to help fix Baby Robot :')#I don't do big scenes like this with backgrounds and stuff often! So I hope it's good! Aaaaaa#Had a lot of fun with the lighting in this one if it wasn't obvious hahahah#hsr fanart#hsr#hsr aventurine#aventurine fanart#aventurine#hsr Dr. Ratio#dr. ratio#ratiorine#aventio#hoyofair#hsr rota fortunae#hsr ratio
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more dragon
#my sketches#one piece#monkey d luffy#monkey d dragon#monkey d garp#real talk and jokes aside i think dragons childhood with garp wasn’t all that bad#since he actually was a marine at some point right so he must have at the very least respected garp#garps way of raising a kid that actually wanted to be a marine must have been somewhat different too#all in all i think leaving luffy to garp wouldn’t sound like such a weird thought to dragon ??#i get why hed go there i mean#garp tho……………..#what was that man even thinking………………….
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Central Room pt.1 <<Previous Next>>
ComicArchive/ About / Linktree
#linkeduniverse#here the focus is on the dungeon setting#featuring this infamous trio block puzzle—a series staple and a must-have for our dungeon#TimeTwilightandSky have their own block puzzles#but they’re not used to the classic 2D stye#To make things tougher they can't reset the puzzle by leaving and re-entering like we can!#why is it so difficult to type here? tumbler wants to automatically hashtag every single word now???#i havent used tumblr in years i dont keep up with the changes...
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Broke: Anakin doesn't have any jedi friends his own age because he didn't fit in/Palpatine isolated him
Woke: Anakin doesn't have any jedi friends his own age because all his classmates keep trying to sleep with his Master and it's driving him crazy. If ONE more person asks him for Obi-Wan’s number he's gonna scream.
Ahsoka: Skyguy! Did you know the senior padawans put out a yearbook?? You'll never guess who won MILF (Master I'd Like To Fuck) of the year!!!
Anakin, not looking up: It’s Obi-Wan.
Ahsoka: ...huh did you already see it?
Anakin, with a thousand yard stare: It's always Obi-Wan. It's been Obi-Wan for the last 10 years Snips.
#Anakin once Byla starts dating: oh thank Force Aayla you're the only bitch in this temple I can trust here have a friendship bracelet#Anakin has accepted that everyone wants his Master carnally but why must they involve HIM in the process???#anakin skywalker#obi wan kenobi#ahsoka tano#jedi order#star wars
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My Great Grandma who loved her babies very much
Reference that I used for the face!
#I was scrolling through pinterest and saw this woman and I was like: She looks EXACTLY like how I imagine Stan and Ford's mother to look#my art#gravity falls#mabel pines#dipper pines#ig??#caryn romanoff pines#caryn pines#mabel voice: she must have been one hell of a mother to have had to deal with Grunkle Stan and Grunkle Ford when they were kids!#DO YOU EVER THINK ABOUT HOW SHE MIGHT HAVE DIED THINKING STANFORD AND STANLEY NEVER GOT THE CHANCE TO RECONCILE#DO U EVER THINK ABOUT HOW SHE MUST HAVE BEEN PLAGUED WITH REGRETS AND WHAT-IFS OVER STAN BEING KICKED OUT- WISHING SHE COULD HAVE DONE MORE#DOES THE THOUGHT THAT STANFORD MIGHT HAVE NEVER GOTTEN THE CHANCE TO VISIT HER AT HER DEATHBED OR HER FUNERAL SINCE HE WAS STUCK ELSEWHERE??#EVER HAUNT YOU AT NIGHT???#DOES IT EVER OCCUR TO YOU THAT SHE MIGHT HAVE KNOWN ALL ALONG ABOUT STANLEY- SINCE SHE'S THEIR MOTHER AND “WHAT KIND OF MOTHER CAN'T#RECOGNISE HER OWN CHILDREN APART“#THEY MEET AT STAN'S FUNERAL LIKE: “STANLEY I DON'T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED- NOR WHY THAT CASKET AT THE FRONT IS EMPTY RIGHT NOW AND WHY WE'RE#CURRENTLY ATTENDING YOUR FUNERAL- OR WHY YOU'RE EVEN DRESSED UP AS FORD RIGHT NOW.“#“I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON STANLEY- BUT I DO KNOW THAT ONE OF MY SONS DIDN'T DIE IN A DITCH SOMWHERE IN THE FLAMING WRECK OF A CAR CRASH-#AND THAT'S ENOUGH FOR ME.“#SHE GOT THAT MOTHER'S INSTINCT#stan twins parents
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Boop!
(Part 2)
#twst#twisted wonderland#my art#jamil viper#twst yuusona#twst mc#twst yuu#jamil viper x yuu#jamil x mc#shiokawa mayu#jamimayu#snakes have these puppy mouths#or kitty mouths if you must#that are just really cute pls look it up theyre like :3#be gentle when booping though#also my friend said “hes so vengeful all she did was touch his nose this is why he's single”#and i died#this is some frog prince type stuff#but snek#this took an EMBARRASSING amount of time btw#but its out of my system now#oc
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What if instead of being resurrected and staying their age in the afterlife, the twins instead went back to the age they were when they were last alive (aka, lil babees)?
Bonus:
Nari was not emotionally prepared for this get him some soft blankets to build a nest with stat!!
#cotl#cult of the lamb#cult of the lamb fanart#cotl comic#cotl narinder#cotl lamb#cotl narilamb#<- not rlly?? But sorta. I'll tag it#cotl aym#cotl baal#aym and baal#cult of the lamb aym#cult of the lamb baal#also while I headcanon they were complete babies when sacrificed I drew em more toddler age here#cuz id be better than drawing two lil jellybeans on the ground lol#mewnie art#Tumblr.... why must u butcher the quality... whyyyyy
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part 1 of my Theseus' Guide chapter 8 animatic because i just dont know when i'll have the chance to do part 2!
#gravity falls#billford#stanford pines#bill cipher#gf theseus' guide#if there are errors in this well. its not done anyways. i just shoved some text in and tried to make the timing make sense#but i havent watched it back so. shrug!#holidays and moving why must you exist. let me plaaayyyy
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half a warm-up doodle, half consoling myself because I have thrown so many keys at him and yet he refuses to come home. >:( please sir...your stats are so good and your elements are ones I need...please...
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#i did unexpectedly pull a dorm ace and thus FINALLY complete my collection of dorm heartsboys#so some good came out of it at least!#but i'm down to 20 keys now and i gotta think about that kalim card#i had suspected we might have a kalim ssr coming up and i told myself i would be okay without him when i was planning out my key usage#but uhhhhh then i saw the illustration...#guys#guys it is SO PRETTY#i love stripey sensei and i want him for both aesthetic and strategic reasons#but kalim is over here looking SO sparkly#i'm like a magpie caught between a set of keys and some shiny bottlecaps#WHY must i be forced to make DECISIONS
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I have been Sacked.
#I cannot believe I was fired from KFC.#Why does every job fire me?#Surely I am not the problem.#It must be society...
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