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skrunksthatwunk · 10 months ago

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found out that rascal's owner took him again while i was out, and he's probably not gonna be back since the semester's almost over. i don't even know if his owner's coming back next semester, if i'll ever see him again. if he'll ever see me again. why do they wait until im not around to do this? why do they never let me say goodbye to him?

#i didnt really get to process it bc i found out when i was hanging w a friend but. im processing it now #sigh.. i dont know. i dont know.#at the end of the day he is and has always been someone else's cat. i can't control what she does with him #no matter what i think of it. she can always take him away. but every time it happens im just. im tired yknow?#it's worth it to me to have him around. i love him dearly and i want him to be in a home where he's actually cared for (which i have done my #best to provide) but he's just. not mine. and every time it happens i back up and think man. im such a sucker.#i don't think people manipulate me often. not in an ongoing way i mean. i don't think ppl see me as valuable enough to most of the time.#but damn. she really found my weak spots didn't she. free petcare courtesy of one chump who can't live without animals around. sigh #he deserves stability but he deserves love more. this weird shared custody thing is better for him i think. and frankly i also love him.#im not the priority here but my feelings are like. there. him being taken away without even telling me first hurts. i'd like to be able to #say goodbye to him. im not saying he has to stay or this has to go on but couldn't they just.. consider my feelings a bit more?#just bc you're fine with dropping your cat off somewhere for weeks not knowing when you'll see him again and not visiting doesn't mean i am #and i kind of feel like my roommate is part of this. after all it's not like his owner can just break into our room and take him #and if im always out when they do it there's a chance roomie's just shipping him off whenever she gets sick of him.#she's done it before. even after she agreed so vehemently with me about never wanting him to go back to such treatment and stuff early on.#she's been spraying him for little reason lately too. and i mean i get being a little more cautious with some things bc her neck's broken #but she's really fixated on how much he smells and bites and stuff and talks about how if i wasn't around she'd consider eating him #and then other times she's like that's my pookie. i don't get it. like yeah i tell rascal to fuck off sometimes bc he hurts me but it's not #like a hateful thing. i dont resent him for it i'm just annoyed sometimes bc he's maiming me a little. he's my baby. how could i loathe him?#so it makes me think that roomie might be blaming his transfers on his owner bc she doesn't want me to judge her #and like. this is her room too. it's not her fault she's more bothered by the smell than me. if she doesn't want to be bitten and clawed all #the time i can sympathize. i don't wanna force her to house him. but i wish she'd just be honest with me i guess #like. what if his owner decides to give him away without telling me? i'd take him in in a heartbeat. even though i know it's a bad idea.#but i'm worried he'll fall out of my reach completely. and at the very least I'd like to be able to say goodbye first. that's all.

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guiiay · 3 months ago

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yeah... yeah

#art tag #league of legends #arcane #sevika #sevika arcane #ada wong #resident evil #.... dont look at me #her this entire season was so. shes so fine #at the beginning i kinda hated her hair in the trailer but the VERY MOMENTTT i saw miss sevika move i was like okay wait it's growing on me #AND THE BLACK TANK TOP MREEEEOOOWOWOOW #damn act 3 they treated the piltover zaun conflict so unseriously and it's kinda stupid they ran my girl through the dirt #sigh. SIGHHHH #on a final note i know she probably wouldn't wear something like this never in like a million years #it does not matter. my worlds have collided and she came to me in a dream #for now... for now sevika dons the ada wong og re4 dress. take it as you will

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hinamie · 5 months ago

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the new jjk cafe fits have been living in my head . no thoughts except yuuji in a letterman

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #itafushi #fushiita #yuji itadori #fushiguro megumi #megumi fushiguro #jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #havent had yuuji fight me this hard in a MINUTE omg far left took forever i redrew his face and hair like 10 times minimum #he looks good now but like rly yuuji i thought we were past this i thought we were cool :((((#i put Hand On Thigh and this is how u repay me.....#sighs #whatever this took a million years longer than it should but im finally happy with it im finally done ths all that matters #i dont know what yuuji's pants look like in the official art but i ripped them as a treat fr me :)#ik theyre probably just regular jeans but i think yuuji deserves to show a lil knee #real talk tho yuuji's fit is so so good i love it so much. megumi i am ehhhhhh but it's on brand fr him #plus i like that they dress him like he's canonically cold all the time lmao yuuji in a light sweater n megumi in a thermal and puffer coat #its what they deserve

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ichthyolid · 6 months ago

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preteen yuri will be real right now !!

#gravity falls #mabifica #mabel pines #pacifica northwest #mabcifica #<- ?? i dont know #sighs wistfully. 12 year old me wouldve liked this drawing #ichthyart

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oniomn · 7 months ago

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Alan, or Allan if you will

#i genuinely dont know how his name is spelt sorry #hi guys its been a while ive been very busy touching grass but i do hope to find more time to draw silly stuff #sighs wistfully. i miss making starkid fanart #smiling friends #smiling friends alan #allan red #smiling friends fanart

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wilsonmybeloved · 4 months ago

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ive literally never interacted with the rats smp ever besides like once

but ren and martyn exist. and a lot of my other favorite creators. so we're going headfirst into rat yaoi. raoi, if you will. ratataoi?? ratatouille yaoi? ...ill work on it

#i also am one of the poor souls who misread ren's specialty as snuggling. sigh... dreamers continue to be dreamers #rats smp #mcyt #art #digital art #my art #rendog #renthedog #martyn inthelittlewood #martyn itlw #martyn fanart #is there a duo name for this. like.#rentyn #that sounds like renting thats kinda funny... cuz theyre.. theyre in a hotel.... yeah ok #okay how about this one #treebark #is that it. is that their duo name. is that a trafficblr only one i dont know how mcyt works despite being here for the majority of my life #hello #whatever we continue on with regular boring tags because wooahhh exposure woahh guys pay me in exposure (dont)#i formally apologize if you are really taking time out of your day to read these tags. you will not be receiving compensation #rats smp fanart #rats smp season 2 #rats smp 2 #rats in paris #ratshipping #i guess #yeah #yeah i can't deny it im sorry for trying #did you know this is the end of the tags #truly it is

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cabinette · 26 days ago

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Loose comic I made in the middle of the night.... I think John would like a camera!!!

#noel can take a look at the photos and go awww thats nice. why are there so many of me #sjdjsk i dont actually know where i was going with this #i will probably make more drawings when i have the time though #please imagine: John begging arhur to go to a park and go take pictures of birds #describing the pictures hes taking the ones he wants to get developed #begging begging BEGGING ARTHUR TO STAYYYY GUCKING STILLLLL while theyre taking pictures of various birds #sighs sweetly #malevolent #malevpod #malevolent podcast #john doe malevolent #arthur lester #private eyes #art cabinet #malevolent fanart #charlie dowd #detective noel

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kongkhoi · 20 days ago

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taking rins virginity......

make him lay down and coax him into your wet heat and watch him. watch him try to catch his breath. sit there for a while. kiss at his neck. keep his hands trapped under your thighs so he cant do anything. not like he has the brainpower to anyway.

and it's new! strange, new, mind melting stimulation. and you feel so warm, so warm around him, he thinks he'll die.

he instinctually bucks his hips up to his own chagrin—a big mistake, because it makes him whine and stutter even more desperately.

in fact, he's being a little loud.

"rin-san," you coo. and you can swear you feel him twitch from the tinge of a smile in your voice. "what would your teammates say if they heard you like this?"

he can barely muster a 'shut up', and even then the sound of his voice so shaky makes the tips of his ears flush redder. i sound like a girl from a shitty porno, he thinks. though his breaths are heavy and his head is light despite his complaining.

rin itoshi cums, way too easily, right then and there, when you shift your head to make out. all lazy and languid, no movement necessary.

#almost creams again when you move to pull out bc the friction was so hnnhgh tastey #i think he wouldnt know what to do with himself . sighs dreamily #i hate him . for not being in my bed rn #who typed this out. im scared #super self indulgent and i dont actually know how to write but !! whatever yk #i feel so weird abt rin rn what is this #>h.rin #>hiel write #rin smut #itoshi rin smut #rin itoshi smut #bllk smut #blue lock smut #rin itoshi x reader

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juicelooped · 2 months ago

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