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Disability pride month hot take perhaps but myopia (aka near-sightedness) should be considered a disability and glasses should be free and accessible to anyone who might need it
#i mean what else reason would u have to not call it a disability#besides saving money on near-sighted ppl#fun fact glasses are a necessity for us and the fact that they are THIS expensive and inaccessible#is a genuine problem for those who might not have the money#disability#disabled#disability pride#disability pride month#myopia#myopic#ableism#glasses#astigmatism
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i feel like theres not a lot of great resources out there so i figured id just ask -- how would you recommend ways of living with/helping out someone else with npd? :)
youre right! most of the time when u look up NPD stuff its "THE ABUSER DISORDER: KNOW HOW TO RECOGNIZE IT AND DISABLE NARC DEFENSES SO THEY CANT TAKE ADVANTAGE OF YOU" which isnt. Great
all it really comes down to is listening to them n addressing their needs if they've communicated them to you. ill try to simplify it so i dont get too into details, though i will likely fail, and most of this advice will be based off my experiences, so idk how much itll apply to whoever ur talking about BUT:
generally (and w me especially) you can safely say that NPD mostly has to do with ego dysregulation. Our [as in myself and people w npd] mental health and general happiness tends to rely on how people perceive us, and if that perception is anything but positive, we feel like poopy doo doo dogshit. we kinda need to be paid attention to in a way that feels meaningful, yknow? compliment them, make sure theyre included in conversations (esp group ones), and try not to ignore em in any way. if youre talking to them and youre busy, for example, make sure you include that detail so they don't feel like youre brushing them aside. stuff like that. if they make art, and you genuinely like it, try going into detail as to why, whether its the colors or linework or what have you. if they write, tell them what you liked about the story or poem, etcetera. Tag them in stuff that reminds you of them if you have their socials, or send them things, show it to them, whatever.
lots of us tend to actually be very insecure, even if it doesn't seem that way, which might be important to keep in mind. sometimes we can get whats referred to as "narc crashes" (im not particularly a fan of the term narc, though theres nothing actually wrong with it, so ill just call it an NPD crash) where for whatever reason, we go from feeling great and secure in our egos and our stability and happiness and security to falling 600 feet down directly into hell no recovery absolutely awful 0% joy 0% light 100% agony. dogs with human teeth screaming at you and shit its really just no good. calling you a dunderhead
they usually (though not always!) come after a high where we feel fantastic, and most commonly the cause of a crash is we get hurt by someone, humiliated, or made to feel lesser in some significant way. for me, they're the worst when i no longer feel confident that people like me, and i become incredibly worried everybody secretly hates me. which is a very very very awful train of thought to be experiencing when you have the "EVERYBODY NEEDS TO LIKE ME NOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW" disorder. so if ur friend seems depressed or upset make sure to ask whats going on and bump up the praise and stuff up a notch. its the best way to recover for Me, at least. crashes dont have a consistent like. timeframe? i think it highly depends on the severity of what happened and whats being done to fix it, though im certainly no psychologist lmao
i feel like when folks w npd Are mean or unfair its because their needs arent being met, theyre doing awful, and they need support so they dont desperately lash out for it. god knows thats the case for me. thats another thing thats important to keep in mind i think
a lot of traits of NPD aren't pretty, and thats just a fact of the matter. its a disorder for a reason and all. even if we dont express the almost inherently negative traits all the time (usually because we are aware they are unfair to other people), its very likely that we are feeling them, and it does erode your brain after a while. The DSM-5 list of traits is probably the best way to go for this, as per this government website:
"A pervasive pattern of grandiosity (fantasy or behavior), need for admiration, and with lack of empathy, beginning by early adulthood, as indicated by at least five of the following:
Has a grandiose sense of self-importance (e.g., exaggerates achievements, expects to be recognized as superior without actually completing the achievements)
Is preoccupied with fantasies of success, power, brilliance, beauty, or perfect love.
Believes that they are "special" and can only be understood by or should only associate with other special people (or institutions).[milo note: its hard for me to find something specific to make bold in this definition, but generally, i do not express that i think that i am better than other people even if i think it]
Requires excessive admiration.
Has a sense of entitlement, such as an unreasonable expectation of favorable treatment or compliance with his or her expectations.
Is exploitative and takes advantage of others to achieve their own ends.
Lacks empathy and is unwilling to identify with the needs of others.
Is often envious of others or believes that others are envious of them.
Shows arrogant, haughty behaviors and attitudes."
Ive bolded the ones that would negatively affect people that, I, at least, try not to express but still feel, or feel the desire to do, near constantly.
As you can see, thats a pretty hefty chunk of them! I'm sure some people could take problem with every trait listed here, in which case they can suck my whole dick, but those are the ones I've noticed upset people the most, or make relationships the most difficult. I bring these up because if someone does express these, you need to keep in mind it is because of a personality disorder. That doesn't always make them acceptable, and if they are really upsetting, you should talk to them about it, but thats just like. basic relationship shit lmao. just try to be an eensy bit forgiving
Though the MAIN reason I wanted to bring up the traits is due to the 'entitlement/unreasonable expectation of favorable treatment/compliance' one. This can manifest in a whole lot of ways, but it is genuinely infuriating when someone ignores what i want them to do/what ive asked them to do/etc, especially if its for a reason that doesnt 'feel' solid enough, like them just not wanting to do it. it can be incredibly frustrating if someone with npd says they need something from you or want you to do xyz and it doesnt happen, so try your best to listen to them. if you cant do what they desire for whatever reason, make sure thats clear, and why. Most of us will recognize we're being unfair, but will still be mad; Just know its not because of you, its because of the disorder, and most people will not hold it against you because they're aware its unreasonable in some fashion.
i think thats like. the main things when it comes to meeting the needs of someone w NPD. to summarize and dumb it down:
make sure to compliment them in meaningful ways, especially when you really mean it
pay attention to them; try to prioritize them in conversation and such. it feels very nice. dont ignore them for the love of god
keep the crashes in mind, and try to uplift your friend as much as you can. reassure them you care about them, maybe not directly by saying "i care about you" but with your actions in general
listen to them and adapt to their needs as best as you can
remember that if they are being unpleasant its probably because of The Disorder and they are not doing well. dont let anyone be a prick to you but try to be kind. everybody goes through shit
if anyone has anything to add, or if you have any followup questions, feel free to ask ^_^ i very much didn't cover everything here, and again, this is mostly based off of my experience as someone w NPD, and everyone is different to some degree. The most important thing to do is ask about their needs, and try to adapt to them the best you can.
i think thats all i have to say for now tho so. sayanora. if i come up w anything else ill add it in an edit
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Baldr - info, opinions and worship (long post)
I am making this post as a devotion to Baldr<3
Family Parents: Odin and Frigg Wife: Nanna Kid: Forseti Baldr has numerous half siblings, but full brother to Hodr, the blind god He is one of the Aesir
Names and epithets Ways to spell his name: Baldr, Balder, Baldur Epithets: The white, the good, the bright, father of justice
Treasures Home: Breidablik Ship: Hringhorni Horse: Gulltopp (translates to Goldtop)
Baldr is the god of beauty, light, innocence and forgiveness. He is also seen as a god of purity, joy and peace. Some also call him a god of naivity because he always see the good in everyone, even people no one else is able to see good things.
We have little knowledge about Baldr in general. The most known story about him is his death. Some who is devoted to, worship or work with Baldr might not want to work with Loki at all due to this story. Baldr had dreams about his death which gave him long awake nights. His mother, Frigg, tried to help him by making everyone and everything promise not to hurt Baldr, all materials, weapons, sickness etc. All except for the misteltoe, which she thought was too small, young and harmless to make a promise. Now that Baldr seemed absolutely immortal the other gods tried their weapons on him, as nothing would hurt him. His blind brother Hodr wanted to join in, but couldn't because he did not want to hurt anyone. Loki had found a way to know the misteltoe didn't promise to not hurt him, and made an arrow from it which he guided Hodr to shoot at his brother. Baldr died from the arrow and Loki ran away. Later in the story we get to know Baldr would be allowed to leave Helheim and go back to Asgard if the whole world would show their grief after his death, and everyone did except an old lady. It is believed this old lady is Loki to make sure Baldr couldn't return to his family.
Controversy There is controversy whether or not you can work with Baldr due to him being in Helheim. Their argument is true, those who goes to Helheim can't leave it before all gates open and chains break under Ragnarok. But again, Loki is chained and can't leave his place before Ragnarok when all chains breaks and gates open under Ragnarok. If working with Loki is valid, then working with Baldr is as well! And please do not fear having your own beliefs on this. You are free to reach out to him whatever your reason would be.
Lessons What I have gotten from working with Baldr is to forgive. Forgive but not forget, and forgiving doesn't mean to let others walk all over you, and it's also important that you learn to forgive yourself. You also learn to appreciate and find joy in the smallest things, which I personally think has bettered my life quality so much. He wants you to know your worth but still show kindness to the world, and to help others who need.
Offerings and acts of devotion Meditation around a source of light (in the sunlight, by a candle, LED candles, fireplace etc) Help others who need (he used to guide and help his blind brother) Heal and care for your inner child Create something for him Pray to him Appreciate others Enjoy calm music Enjoy your fav herbal tea, raise a glass to him Keep candles that reminds you of him (I personally love the scented ones) Practice forgiveness and compassion, especially towards yourself Devote a plushie that reminds u of him or summer Symbols of light, sunrise, summer, and things you find beautiful, keep around, decorate or keep on jewelry Decorate with fairy lights and lanterns Take notice in your progress and look at how far you got Sketch, draw, write and other creative expressions Sunbathe (Remember sunscreen) Express or decompress Take a walk on a sunny day Practice regulating emotions, and feel your emotions Find healthy emotional outlets Spend time with the ones you love Do something that makes you happy Play with your pets Donate to organizations that helps homeless, sick, disabled etc Take care of yourself Make a comfortable and safe space for yourself Celebrate achievements, even small ones Clean trash around your neighborhood or in nature (also great offering to Jord, Gaia, or other personification of Earth) Practice open-mindedness, agree to disagree Honor your ancestors, learn about your family history (family were huge in the norse society, and Balder loves his family) Flowers, especially those strongly connected to the sun(Mayweed and Sea Mayweed is both known under the name Balder's brow in Sweden and Norway, they would make a great offering as well) He is associated to the colors gold, white, yellow and sky-blue carnelian, red jasper, citrine, goldstone, sunstone -Some say misteltoe would be a nice offering, but some believes you shouldn't, would recommend asking him before you offer it
Signs -I haven't found much of set signs that Baldr is reaching out to you, which might be because of the lack of information. However I have seen these; You randomly think about him over an extented period of time The rune Dagaz/Dagr Dreams become very symbolic Dreaming about him You can always reach out to him if that feels right for you! I personally see him in the sun and 7 of swords. He could also be big in meditation and dream interpretations because of his dremas before the story of his death.
#baldr#baldur#balder#norse#norse mythology#witchcraft#deity work#deity worship#paganism#norse paganism#norse gods#witch#witchblr#norse pantheon#norse heathen#pagan#pagan witch#norse pagan#norse pagan witch#norse polytheism#devotion#norse devotion
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22, twobat. heard u were talkin SHIT
22. While someone demeans your lover, standing up for them. Either in word, or by physically placing yourself right in front of them as a protective barrier. im thinking about emotional dysregulation and a strong sense of justice and how bruce is the reason alfred lost all his hair. in the words of karkat vants: anger can be a love language. alksdjnfsldjknfs i am NOT editing this
You get in fights for him. You've been getting in fights since no one gave your parents a chance to, something in you quick to snap and your fists faster than anyone could stop. You don't know how many strings Alfred had to pull to keep you from being suspended in middle school, but you know it was a lot, because he used to pick you up with a sigh written in the lines of his face, white gloves hiding the tension in his hands on the steering wheel. Sometimes he tried to argue with you about it. You never folded, because you were certain you were right.
Your school records are a mud-stained mess of arguing with teachers, getting in between a bigot and a victim, and the crack of your fist against someone else's jaw. You grew up stocky and angry, and you never had a problem taking things outside so someone else didn't have to. You think a part of you still feels like if you take on every fight yourself, no one else will ever have to get hurt. Regardless, it means that the college you get into isn't near as prestigious as everyone expects of you, and you know Alfred had to grease a lot of palms to do it. You think he's hoping maybe you'll keep your head down for a few years, and the intellectual challenge will be enough to keep your fists steady.
But then you meet Harvey, and he's simultaneously everything Alfred wants for you and everything Alfred doesn't.
He's optimistic in a way you aren't, level-headed and determined, but filled with the same drive for justice you are. Unlike you, he got in with scholarships and smarts, and he tells you stories about the kind of lawyer he's going to be one day, and the way Gotham will change. He flips some kind of switch in your brain, and your plan for the future starts to take a slightly different shift, accommodating for a world where you're not the only one who cares. He motivates you. He challenges you. He makes you better, and you think Alfred would like the person you become when you're around him.
At the same time, Harvey's a brown kid struggling with some kind of disability you'd never heard of before you met him, and the privileged fucks around you can smell it. So you get in fights. You're so quick to snap to his defense, putting yourself between them and him because you've never done anything else in your life, and Harvey tells you he's sick of patching you up, because you're bleeding again and he thinks it's his fault and he's trying to make you laugh.
It works. It always works when it's Harvey.
In later years, they'll call him Apollo. He's the handsome white knight who brings light back to Gotham, and he'll find it embarrassing and flattering all at once. You'll tell him you think it's apt, and he'll shove you, laughing like you told him a joke. But in college, he's the sun you orbit your world around, warming you when nothing else will.
The dean calls Alfred after you land a kid in the hospital. He doesn't need hospital treatment, but his friends don't know medicine like you do, and they panicked. He'll be fine. Alfred still calls you, cold, clipped anger in his voice, and you feel like you're eight again, angry and muddy and past the point of reason, the crushing feeling of a meltdown spiraling past what you can handle. Alfred tries hard to be a parent, and he tries to be a butler, and you're his kid and his spoiled charge, and this isn't the first time the two of you haven't nailed the impression of a functional family unit. You fight.
Med students aren't supposed to hurt people. Med students aren't supposed to snap and beat the shit out of other students. Med students aren't supposed to have meltdowns, no matter how crazy the workload is, no matter how much injustice happens in the medical field alone, no matter how much injustice your best friend faces at the hands of people you're supposed to view as mentors. Med students aren't supposed to recognize themselves in the textbooks. The dean is threatening you, and you're supposed to shape up.
In a few days, you still haven't gotten over it. Alfred isn't talking to you, you're not talking to Alfred, and a call from Leslie only makes things worse. You don't go out of your way to pick fights, but you don't need to, because people seem a little afraid to say anything after you sent that kid to the hospital. Harvey tells you it'll blow over with a grim confidence that you take seriously. It sounds too much like he's speaking from experience.
Then, someone makes a comment about your parents. It's not a particularly interesting comment- you've heard much, much worse over the years, and they've lost a lot of their effect. It stings- it's cruel- but you brush it off. You're in enough trouble already, and you've never cared about standing up for yourself the way you do about standing up for others.
Harvey's fist snaps out before you know what's happening.
The kid is flat on his ass, gaping up at you both, and Harvey is brimming with rage. "Shut the fuck up," he says, thick and growling. "You'd be fucking lucky if your parents loved you half as much. They probably only sent you here to get rid of you."
"Harv!" You grab his arm, tugging his attention back to you. You're torn between shock and worry, but worried for him, and what this will mean for him once the stupid kid reports him to the dean. You think for a terrifying moment that he could get expelled, and selfishly, you don't know what you'd do here without him.
You can tell he's furious, but he lets you drag him away, ushering the both of you away from the scene before things can escalate further. You stand in an abandoned stairwell and Harvey's fingers clench and unclench in your sweater as you hold his arms, giving him time to breathe.
"You didn't have to do that," you tell him quietly.
"Shut the fuck up, Bruce," he scoffs. His gaze flickers up to your face, thumb grazing the bottom of a bruise that's purpled in the past few days. You didn't get out of that fight scot-free, but no one ever cares about that. Except Harvey, who always cares. "You don't get to talk to me about when I should or shouldn't stick up for someone."
You don't have anything to say to that. The words all dry up in your throat as you stare at him, caught on the heat of his touch, the soft brown of his lips, and the determination in his face, like he'd do it all over again. You've never met anyone who understood you the way Harvey does, who matched your drive for justice and inspired you so completely. You look at him the way an astronomer looks at the stars, struck by their beauty and complexity- understanding, and yet endlessly wanting to know more, to know everything, to hold something you don't think you ever can. "Okay."
Something pricks embarrassed in his face, eyes shifting away suddenly. You think his cheeks are a little darker, but it's hard to tell.
You'll think about that moment for years. For years, when you hold his face and try to figure out how to tell him all the ways you love him, and when you watch him become the hero you always knew he could be, and when you watch him fall, holding his hand in the hospital and meeting his eyes across a rooftop, you'll think about what it was like to be so young, trying to put words to the way you wanted to press your lips to his. You tell him, once, that you think you're always going to see that little college kid in him, and he laughs at you. His laugh has turned raspy after years of smoking, and the shake of his shoulders makes the chains rattle, but it's the same laugh. "Maybe it's better that way," he says, grinning. "We were two of a kind, back then."
"Three," you correct.
His grin turns a little more sincere, a little more embarrassed. He says his words like a tease, but it's only to lighten the truth. "We thought the sun shined out of your ass."
"That's just the light reflecting off of it," you say, and he laughs again. You still love his laugh.
These days, you fight each other. You don't think it'll ever stop you from loving them both every bit as much as you did then.
#i might be unhinged for this i might be unhinged for this BUT LISTEN#asdljnsdf i dont have anything id say this will find its audience but i may have doomed it by committing the cardinal sin#of second person pov in a fandom that isnt hs#i just couldnt get my head around writing it any other way#asks#tumblr drabbles#ashysiashy#bruharvey#twobats#bruce wayne#harvey dent#when is it two face when is it harvey youll never know oooooh#two face#ok im just gonna hit post and stop stressing over this LSKJDNFSKLDJFNSDF
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I just think the au premise is bad on the face of it... Just bc its 'supposed' to be a swap au doesnt mean thats a good thing. Why do u feel the need to justify a decision like that when u criticize people for supporting Kittycorn? I'm sorry for implying u werent disabled, but even being disabled doesnt mean u cant be ableist or support ableist people. It just feels like u people are so desperate to hate on Kittycorn and support literally anyone else that ull support someone whos actually problematic....
I'm just trying to look out for u guys, ok? It can be dangerous to give the wrong people a platform. I don't want this to be one of those situations. Especially since u guys seem to want to isolate urself from others and stuff. Just think about it more, ok? If someone made an au of u where u werent disabled would u be ok with that? I really don't think so.
Please don't act like you're trying to "look out for me" when just moments ago you were calling me ableist and saying that I'm not disabled enough.
You do not know me. Do not try to psychologize me. I don't care if anything you did was in good faith, because NONE of that was okay to say. I am aware that I can still be ableist, but instead of talking about the actual ableism in the main comic you came to me to complain that some random creator was being ableist by erasing disabilities (which they didn't, by the by. The only ones that were removed were the ones that would NOT allow the patients to be staff at all. TUC would not help with being a nurse, whatsoever.) Jay still has dwarfism, Barry still has a weak immune system, Polly still uses its cane, Hemera still bleeds. They are being treated for the conditions that they can be, which is why Hemera's bleeding isn't as much of an issue; the reason it is in the main comic is because she is not getting treatment for it.
A character's disability not affecting every single part of their life does not make them less disabled. Despite what Kc shows in kits comic.
Also, you have to remember that these are fictional characters, okay? That's like saying that people can't make headcanons for characters that go against canon because it would be weird to do so to real life people. And it would be! But these are characters. These are not real people. And I don't "support literally anything else", I'm actually critical about my other interests as well. I like taking things apart and analyzing them, that doesn't go just for sc.
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What the fuck is wrong with your cyber dependent ass. Why the fuck do you hate people who go offline for five minutes. Oh, yeah, because you're too retarded and crippled to have a life outside of the Internet you worthless fuck. Real people with real trauma don't spend that much time online you dumbfuck. Real people with real trauma have real jobs and therapy, shit you don't have or else your pussy ass wouldn't throw around sui threats. Your Internet addicted trauma-free weak ass and zoomer screen zombies like your poser ass are why we have so many fucking toxic DID communities, and fucking frankly, why we have only DID communities because you fake ass fucks are fascinated by DID. I've already called out your fake pussy ass for faking CSA, your last post just gave me another tool in exposing your faker poser ass. I mean, we all know you're faking trauma and DID because you admitted yourself you ain't got shit that the "valid survivors" do and that's your fucking words not mine. Instead of chronic pain, chronic fatigue or chronic illness, your weak pussy ass ended up chronically online and we all know chronically online people don't have shit wrong with them physically and you can fucking bet they never had trauma a day in their lives. People who use the Internet too much like you are toxic ass bimbos. I hope your iPad gets taken away so you can finally go out into the real world, touch some fucking grass and for God's sake, get raped while you're at it. Then you'll know the pain us real trauma survivors deal with.
poor attempt at tryna be "gangsta" đč
first off i wouldn't be cyber dependent or wtv if we had people irl who supported us besides therapists, you don't know the situation you're just jumping to conclusions because you're a bigot
i don't hate people who go offline. I hate people who hate technology, hate the Internet, etc. and I hate people who are dumb like u n generalize the Internet as a whole as bad when it's not, it's js trolls like u on social media that make ppl think dat
besides resources on the Internet saved our life at our most low points, ofc wed defend technology especially Internet, how fkn ableist can u b
thanks, I already knew that and yk what? I can fucking kms if it would make u feel better bc I've hated myself for those reasons years before i was allowed on the internet đ
first off... do u even hv real trauma? sure doesn't sound like it from the asks u been sendin atp or else you'd know us trauma survivors flock online bc it's a dangerous thing to talk ab irl. for reasons I shouldn't hv to state if ur a real trauma survivor. which I doubt u r đč
your ask about me faking CSA because I wasn't hypermobile is a line of shi. ain't no1 out there who's rly been sa'd gon believe that or u.
uh bish how the fuck do u know wat I do and don't? for your fuckin information I hv been in therapy for DID treatment since dx in Nov 2022. n js bc I can't get legally employed doesn't mean I don't do shi for ppl that the body is able to do, which ain't much but it's smt like u js be tryna judge my life and what u think I do atp
also ik wtf i said.
I ain't fascinated by DID bitch I wish I didn't live w it. if u actually read any of my posts on our personal experiences you'd know how much I hate it. but mk, that doesn't fit wit ur narrative so u had to gloss over dat n move on
haha u contradict urself here. "chronically online people don't have anything wrong with them physically" bitchhh do u hear urself how u sound. first u were goin off on me bc I was too "crippled" which is an ableist slur for a physically disabled person now ur sayin I ain't got shi wrong w me. damnnn you js hate chronically online ppl atp like wtf is ur problem. being online literally every hour ur awake isn't healthy n I don't stand for dat but I also don't do dat either đ I'm online a lot and never go outside unless it's to go out in public but I do hella offline indoor activities too, bc yk that's a thing
i know imma bimbo, ur js jealous bc u don't have a sex life đ maybe if you stopped touching grass youd hv a sex life too
i already said this before n I ain't gon say it again i neva had an ipad. also thanks for telling me to get raped, i actually hv hundreds of times n as much as dat sounds like a stretch or made up, I can assure u 100% it's true n my fkn body is messed up from being raped so many fkn times. I've been raped again this yr and u don't know how many times I get sa'd by family members. u ain't no real trauma survivor or else u wouldn't wish dis on som1. fuck you bish.
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You never mentioned you were disabled in your original reply to that ask. Itâs also not on your pinned post. How in the world were they supposed to know that the response came from a disabled person? And before you say youâve mentioned it on your blog before (which I have no idea if you have or not) how do you know they would have seen it? They most likely found your response through the notes on the ask post. And just FYI, you can educate someone without calling them âickyâ or degrading them in any manner. They asked if the way they thought was bad, you could have said yes and explained why instead of calling them icky and assuming they would know your disabled. At the end of the day itâs just a damn opinion on the matter. Opinion is not fact just because it came from someone in the group in question.
so much to unpack this is insane im losing my mind this is gonna be a long ass response
op was geniune, i gave my opinion saying its a bit icky - thats not degrading??? i never called them an ableist, never said they were an awful person, i said in my opinion i think its icky - i didnt even direct it towards the person. i never said "youre an awful person for doing that." - i literally said "its moreso the fact that scripting out disabilities is icky"...
please point to the degrading. point to the meanness and evilness, the harshness...point to it. unless the person who originally made the ask to that confessions acc wants to come into my dms or my inbox and say they were personally offended, i really dont see how it could be degrading. maybe its the alexithymia but i dont see it, i dont get it.
ive talked abt being disabled on this blog frequently, literally i make a blog at least once a week talking abt being autistic : even if they were unable to find that out and assumed i was not disabled then they can simply take my opinion as something else i wouldnt care as much about that however i literally MENTIONED THAT YOU CAN SEARCH UP AND ASK DISABLED PEOPLE AND LOOK INTO SIMILAR DISCOURSE because then youd be able to see it from different perspectives as the term disabled is a large umbrella term. so i not only said my opinion as a disabled person who has frequently talked abt being autistic and has literally made blogs talking abt keeping my disabilities in my drs but i also gave advice on where to find other perspectives that will go more into detail of why disabled people dont feel comfortable with the whole "heal everyone!! we're gonna heal all disabilities to save them!!" mindset.
you have no right to say whether an opinion is a "fact" or not when your opinion on the topic is automatically invalid because you arent disabled - dont try to pull that shit on me when you know for a fact that being disabled means that id have more of an understanding on the social aspect of what its like to be disabled...because i experience it and i wont let any ablebodied person or any neurotypical person try to speak over me on that. also, ive mentioned im autistic AND have physical disabilities multiple times on here - even if its not mentioned in my original post i quite literally said if youre confused you can look into discourse regarding the whole "disabled people cant be in fantasy because fantasy = utopia which = everyone being healthy" thing because there are disabled people who have talked abt this multiple times and in my eyes there are similarities to that and the idea of scripting out disabled people because they have similar reasons.
also if youre who i think you are aka the person who deactivated the second i responded : if youre able to go that far into my blog to find a post where i said i was gonna go on a social media detox - you wouldve been able to find a post on me talking abt being autistic because i literally made a post a FEW DAYS AGO talking abt being a blk autistic.
^ incase u dont believe me for whatever reason, this was literally 2 days ago.
also im not an educator never claimed to eductae the person i gave an opinion - it is not my job to educate people. you are twisting a small paragraph of me saying "scripting out disabilities is a bit icky" into me being this harsh and awful person because i...didnt write an essay educating the person when i never claimed to educate them in the first place????
and again, i never attacked op the only person i attacked (which could be u if ure that account but im too lazy to do the whole "finding out whos behind the anon ask" thing) was the person who randomly responded to me, went through my entire blog to find a post of me saying i deleted twt for a social media detox and painted it as if im this limited person who "doesnt believe shifting is limitless and has a bad mindset" (which is insane???)
so to conclude this
speaking over disabled people where someone is asking disabled people for their opinion is weird. dont come into my inbox with this weird shit, unless its an apology because this is slowly creeping into ableism territory (before u even try to argue that its not - downplaying a disabled persons opinion on a topic that revolves around being disabled and speaking over them to then try to disregard their opinion being going "just because youre apart of a group doesnt mean your opinion is a fact" is insane. that is insane. call me crazy, idc thats insane.)
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theres no way i have this.
look, heres all the proof you need. im whining about not having DID lmao
who truly has DID and does that? no. body. thats all the proof you need
people who truly dissociate suffer from it. i dont. i love the numbness from my body that experiences so much discomfort (not even chronic pain not even pain like all other DID systems have just fucking discomfort, mostly caused by autism hypersensitivity) i love the feeling of being detached from my own flesh prison ugly undesirable embarassing body. i am fucking faking im prob psycho or sum shit lmaooo
i dont even dissociate that badly. other real DID and even OSDD systems be out here so dissociated they dont even fuckin know their name and feel like nothings real all the time. i never forget my name or personal information, i just forget what i just thought or zone out daydreaming or sum shit and say "whoops! i dissociated sorry" or if im lucky, have few seconds long derealization in little few day long episodes. i dont even fucking dissociate for real. definitely not enough to have DID
i never had severe trauma. i was too disabled and shielded. fuck, the disabilities i was born with prob mimic DID. brain damage to the hippocampus, a majorly affected part of the brain in DID put two and together lmao. who knows how psycho the brain damage made me. im autistic and intellectually disabled, all people with intellectual disability are perverts they get arrested for sex crimes more than other people lmfao ofc i was hypersexual at 3 there was no sexual abuse i am too ugly to be sexually abused or even desired ofc im faking being sexually abused to make me feel better about myself lmfaooo i just cant live with the fact i was born a worthless undesirable unfuckable ugly pervert
if i had DID i wouldnt fucking remember when i was 3 who tf u kiddin
im sensitive to yelling and the least little "threatening" tone or touch or even fucking hand signal. if i was really sexually abused id be triggered by sexual shit, not the least little thing like a trauma free scared little baby
if i had DID id switch out more, especially when triggered or in situations where it would help. idk if i even switch out, i prob js fall asleep, wake up and do shit in the early stages of waking up i dont remember. instead my alters are just back there and do nothing when im being retraumatized and i have to call out mentally loudly to get any alters to respond anymore. then just trying to communicate with them gives me a headache from hell. proof enough my alters are delusions and im some psycho. most of my "alters" are just vague faces with voices and not much of identity. most of them fade away. just like delusions.
i feel like im worthless unless i was sexually abused. my whole worth depends on it for some fucked up reason. i will get defensive toward the two people i live with who say it didnt happen, they arent honest all the time but when they say theres no chance it happened bc i was too shielded even tho i have memories of being alone w him (no abuse memories bc fuck no) i believe it and feel iffy when i even wonder if i was sexually abused. when i think about any other form of abuse i suffered or trauma i have, i feel like that means i wasnt sexually abused. i have no memories of it, i never did until someone pointed out that my hypersexuality at 3 was a sign of sexual abuse so i went diving for the memories myself. then what i got were a few random half ass flashbacks to the sexual abuse. if i was really sexually abused i wouldve had flashbacks to it waaay before i made myself remember. everyone else with ptsd, did osdd etc does
other people with DID feel broken and suffer because of their trauma. they remember it somehow and suffer from the effects of it. i just suffer from wanting to have the trauma to be valid, not knowing if the trauma happened and having things trauma victims have but no memories of the trauma. the only flashbacks i have are to things i deserve, things that other people would agree i deserve and arent anywhere near as traumatizing as it can get for a real sexual abuse survivor. things that dont cause DID and rarely cause ptsd. i have cringe ass trauma. i dont have valid trauma.
i dont really have DID and i wasnt sexually abused. i just held onto the idea as an excuse for me being a worthless, born broken, jealous, delusional psycho pervert who will never amount to anything, never matter enough to get a job, marry or have a family, never mattered enough to be smart or do normal kid things because of my disabilities, never got to be cool and wont be, am trying to be cool and matter when i never will, am so ugly my body doesnt deserve love and sure as fuck wasnt sexually desired as a little kid how fucking sick of me to even want that to matter, and dont matter because of my disabilities. im sorry for faking it all. no wonder my denial was so strong, it was never real anyway. now im gonna do some major fucking harm to my ugly waste of space and resources body and kill myself. im fucking sick and tired of living in hell from my own brain torturing me saying im worthless and not valid and more i cant say here. good fucking bye.
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the only evidence-- yes, these kinds of claims need evidence-- of marinin being racist i can find is in one tumblr post that has a screenshot of marinin being upset about getting a lot of aggressive comments for working on the cleopatra MAP. she did a map part- a 5 second animation- and got called a piece of shit by dozens of people, but i guess she's not allowed to be stressed? not to mention she is a person of color. but i doubt you knew that, because that would require you to take a second look at the situation rather than regurgitating rumors. it's just so sickening how badly people in this community seem to want to turn on each other. but i guess it's all worth it if you're making all the people of color feel very safe... by endorsing the harassment of a poc for making an animation you don't like. you're definitely making me feel very safe as a disabled person. i love knowing that characters like me should be relegated to inspo p*rn. love seeing people attack a creator for arbitrary reasons and then say "hehe see! i care so much about disabled people!". i love seeing that my opinion only matters when i'm agreeing with you and otherwise i'm just an idiot stan. i dont even follow marinin's content. it's just so stressful knowing what she's going through and how rabid the warrior cats fandom is. its scary, honestly. making art online seems like my only realistic way of making money and the thought that one tumblr post with shaky evidence could get me harassed for literal years is scary.
ok first off i need you to fucking stop making assumptions abt me bc i know of marinin just forgot all the bullshit they did. i dont knkw u and u sure as hell dont know me so the fact that in both ur shit asks youre comming up with false ideals just to show ur support to someone who has done bad over and over again is telling. secondly stop babying them just bc theyre brazilian its so wekrd u have to keep mentioing tht they are not exempt from being a shithead just bc theyre a poc lol theyre a fucking human which is evident in their actions. and you do not speak for every fucking disabled person bc i assure you disabled ppl were the ones that brought the issue w the tawny pelt map to light. and as a disabled black person fuck you literally the map was in bad taste and she responded in a terrible way its not tht hard to accept.
and if u really did some reasearch youd be aware that she was taking from native cultures, handled the issue tawnypelt map Badly, and she was literally deleting comments explaining how her actions were ableist and only responding to/liking the comments of ppl siding w her but yeah im biased and mean for acknoweding any of this. shes also literally friends w shit ppl and While searching im literally seeing her subject several minors to harassment solely for. adressing her ableist map in a chat and on their accs.and this was fucking not that long ago why arent you pissing yourself over the ppl discussing tht
and idk if you dont think a guilt trippy belittling responses to being held accountable isnt a red flag hm
the fact that you have to utilize this person being brazilian and upset about the process of facing accountability in Both asks as a way to make Me somehow brush off everything else is fucked up. no its not cool they were harassed but if u equate ppl bothered by her actions as harassment or hating poc then. that sounds more like a u issue.
literally. stop making this about a shitty animation stop minimizing the harm shes influencing. this is more than a fucking map ppl dont like this is abt someone who is obviously not fit for a huge following and you are proving that point gn
#whadda hell#also sooo many ppl talk abt 5his person#but you wanna argue with a confessions blog#shes a grown ass adult literally stop spesking for her#thts literwlly how she gets away w shit#bc u freaks have to pull shit from ur ass#for some popular wc creator#who doesnt even give a shit abt u#not a confession#text#anonymous#also ur literally defending a hh fan shut up
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disability in the Six Of Crows Duology; an analysis of Kaz Brekker, Wylan Van Eck, and the fandomâs treatment of them.
****Note: I originally wrote this for a tiktok series, which im still going to do, but i wanted to post here as well bc tumblr is major contributor to what im going to talk about
CW: ableism, filicide, abuse
In the Six of Crows duology, Leigh Bardugo delicately subverts and melds harmful disability tropes into her narrative, unpacking them in a way that I, as a disabled person, found immensely refreshing andâŠ. just brilliant.Â
But what did you all do with that? Well, you fucked it up. Instead of critically looking at the characters, yâall just chose to be ableist.Â
For the next few videos paragraphs im going to unpack disability theory (largely the stuff surrounding media, for obvious reasons) and how it relates to Six Of Crows and the characterization of Kaz Brekker and Wylan Van Eck, then how, despite their brilliant writing, yâall completely overlooked the actual text and continuously revert them to ableist cariactures.
Disclaimer: 1. Shocker - i am disabled. I have also extensively researched disability theory and am very active in the disabled community. Basically, I know my shit. 2. im going to be mad in these videos this analysis. Because the way yâall have been acting has been going on for a long ass time and im fuckin sick of it. I donât give a shit about non-disabled feelings, die mad
Firstly, Iâm going to discuss Kaz, his play on the stereotypical âmean crippleâ trope and how Bardugo subverts it, his cane, and disabled rage. Then, I am going to discuss Wylan, the âinspiration pornâ stereotype, caregivers / parents, and the social model of disability. Finally, I will then explain the problems in the fandom from my perspective as a disabled person, largely when it comes to wylan, bc yall cant leave that boy tf alone.
Kaz Brekker
Think of a character who uses a cane (obviously not Kaz). Now, are they evil, dubiously moral, or just an asshole in general? Because nearly example I can think of is: whether it be LotsâO from Toy Story, Lucius Malfoy, or even Scrooge and Mr.Gold from Once Upon A Time all have canes (the last two even having their canes appear less and less as they become better people)
The mean/evil cripple trope is far more common than you would think. Villains with different bodies are confined to the role of âevilâ. To quote TV Tropes, who I think did a brilliant job on explaining it âThe first is rooted in eugenics-based ideas linking disability or other physical deformities with a "natural" predisposition towards madness, criminality, vice, etc. The Rule of Symbolism is often at work here, since a "crippled" body can be used to represent a "crippled" soul â and indeed, a disabled villain is usually put in contrast to a morally upright and physically "perfect" hero. Whether consciously on the part of the writer or not, this can reinforce cultural ideas of disability making a person inherently inferior or negative, much in the same way the Sissy Villain or Depraved Homosexual trope associate sexual and gender nonconformity with evil. â
Our introduction to Kaz affirms this notion of him being bad or morally bankrupt, with âKaz Brekker didnât need a reasonâ, etc. This mythologized version of himself, the âbastard of the barrelâ actively fed into this misconception. But, as we the audience are privy to his inner thoughts, know that he is just a teenager like every other Crow. He is complex, his disability isnât this tragic backstory, he just fell off a roof. Itâs not his main motivation, nor does he curse revenge for making him a cripple - it is just another part of who he is.Â
His cane (though the shows version fills me with rage but-) is an extension of Kaz - he fights with it, but it has a purpose. Another common thing in media is for canes to be simply accessories, but while Kazâ cane is fashionable, it has purpose.
The quote âThere was no part of him that was not broken, that had not healed wrong and there was no part of him that was not stronger for having been broken.â is so fucking powerful. Kaz does not want nor need a cure - its said in Crooked Kingdom that his leg could most likely be healed, but he chooses not to. Abled-bodied people tend to dismiss this thought as Kaz being stubborn but it shows a reality of acceptance of his disability that is just, so refreshing.
In chapter 22 of SOC, we see disabled rage done right - when he is called a cripple by the Fjerdan inmate, Kaz is pissed - the important detail being that he is pissed at the Fjerdan, at society for ableism, not blaming it on being disabled or wishing he could be normal. He takes action, dislocating the assholeâs shoulder and proving to him, and to a lesser extent, himself, that he is just as capable as anyone else, not in spite of, but because he is disabled. And that is the point of Kaz, harking back to the line that âthere was no part of him that was not stronger for having been brokenâ.Â
I cried on numerous occasions while reading the SOC duology, but the parts I highlighted in this section especially so. I, as many other disabled people do, have had a long and tumultuous relationship with our disability/es, and for many still struggle. But Kaz Brekker gave me an empowered disabled character who accepts themselves, and that means the world to me.Â
Keeping that in mind, I hope you can understand why it hurts so much to disabled people when you either erase Kazâs disability (whether through cosplay or fanfiction), or portray him as a âbroken boy uwuâ, especially implying that he would want a cure. That flies in the face of canon and is inherently fucking ableist. (if u think im mad wait until the next section)
Next, we have Wylan. Â
Oh fucking boy.Â
I love Wylan so fucking much, and yâall just do not seem to understand his character? Like at all? Since this is disability-centric, Iâm not going to discuss how the intersection of his queerness also contributes to these issues, but trust me when I say itâs a contributing factor to what i'm going to say.
Wylan, motherfucking Van Eck. If you ableist pricks donât take ur fucking hands off him right now im going to fight you. I see Wylan as a subversion another, and in my opinion more insidious stereotype pf disabled people - inspiration porn.
Cara Liebowitz in a 2015 article on the blog The Body Is Not An Apology explains in greater detail how inspiration porn is impactful in real life, but media is a major contributing factor to this reality. The technical definition is âthe portrayal of people with disabilities as inspirational solely or in part on the basis of their disabilityâ - but that does not cover it fully.Â
Inspiration porn does lasting damage on the disabled community as it implies that disability is a negative that you need to âovercomeâ or âtriumphâ instead of something one can feel proud of. It exploits disabled people for the development of non-disabled people, and in media often the white male protagonist. Framing disability as inherently negative perpetuates ideals of eugenics and cures - see Autism $peaksâ âI Am Autismâ ad. Inspiration porn is also incredibly patronizing as it implies that we cannot take care of ourselves, or do things like non-disabled people do. Because i stg some of you tend to think that we just sit around all day wishing we werenât disabled.Â
Another important theory ideal that is necessary when thinking about Wylan is the experience of feeling like a burden simply for needing help or accommodations. This is especially true when it comes to familial relationships, and internalized ableism.
The rhetoric that Wylanâs father drilled into his head, that he is âdefectiveâ, âa mistakeâ, and âneeds to be correctedâ, that he (Jan) was âcursed with a moron for a childâ is a long held belief that disabled people hear relentlessly. And while many see Van Eckâs attempted murder of Wylan as âpreposturousâ and overall something that you would never think happens today - filicide (a parent murdering their child) is more common than you would like to believe. Without even mentioning the countless and often unreported deaths of disabled people due to lack of / insufficient / neglectful medical care, in a study on children who died from the result of household abuse, 40 of 42 of them (95%) were diagnosed with disabilities. Van Eck is not some caricature of ableist ideals - he is a real reflection on how many people and family members view disability.Â
Circling back to how Wylan unpacks the inspiration porn trope - he is 3 dimensional, he is not only used to develop the other characters, he is just *chefs kiss* Leigh, imo, put so much love and care into the creation of Wylan and his story and character growth that is representative of a larger feeling in the disabled community.Â
That being said, what you non-disabled motherfuckers have done to him.
The âhaha Wylan canât readâ jokes arenât and were not funny. Yâall literally boiled down everything Wylan is to him being dyslexic. And itâs like,,,, the only thing you can say about him. You ignore every other part of him other than his disability, and then mock him for it. Thereâs so much you can say about Wylan - simping for Jesper, being band kid and playing the fuckin flute, literally anything else. But no, you just chose to mock his disability, excellent fucking job!
Next up on âableds stfuâ - infantilization! yâall are so fucking condescending to Wylan, and treat him like a fucking toddler. And while partly it is due to his sexuality i think a larger portion is him being disabled. Its in the same vein of people who think that Wylan and Jesper are romantically one sided, and that Jesper only kind of liked Wylan, despite the canon evidence of him loving Wylan just as much. You all view him as a âsmol beanâ, who needs protecting, and care, when Wylan is the opposite of that. He is a fucking demolitions expert who suggested waking up sleeping men to kill them - what about that says âuwuâ. You are treating Wylan as a burden to Jesper and the other Crows when he is an immensely valuable, fully autonomous disabled person - you all just view him as damaged.Â
And before I get a comment saying that âuhhh Wylan isnât real why do you careâ while Wylan may not be real, how you all view him and treat him has real fucking impacts and informs how you treat people like me. If someone called me an âuwu baby boyâ theyâd get a fist square in the fucking jaw. Fiction informs how we perceive the world and yâall are making it super fucking clear how you see disabled people.Â
Finally, I wanted to talk about how the social model of disability is portrayed through Wylan. For those who are unaware, the social model of disability contrasts the medical model, that views the disability itself as the problem, that needs to be cured, whereas the social model essentially boils down to creating an accommodating society, where disability acceptance and pride is the goal. And we see this with Wylan - he is able to manage his fatherâs estate, with Jesperâs assistance to help him read documents. And this is not out of pity or charity, but an act of love. It is not portrayed as this almighty act for Jesper to play saviour, just a given, which is incredibly important to show, especially for someone who has been abused by family for his disability like Wylan, that he is accepted.Â
Yet, I still see people hold up Jesper on a pedestal for âputting up withâ Wylan, as if loving a disabled person deserves a fucking pat on the back. Itâs genuinely exhausting trying to engage with a work I love so much with a fandom that thinks so little of me and my community. It fucking shows.Â
Overall, Leigh Bardugo as a disabled person wrote two incredibly meticulous and empowered disabled characters, and due to either lack of reading comprehension, ableism, or a quirky mix of both, the fandom has ignored canon and the experiences of disabled people forâŠ. shits and giggles i guess. And yes, there are issues with the Grishaverse and disability representation - while I havenât finished them yet so I do not have an opinion on it, people have been discussing issues in the KOS duology with ableist ideals. This mini series was no way indicative of the entire disabled experience, nor does it represent my entire view on the representation as a whole. These things need to be met critically in our community, and talked about with disabled voices at the forefront. For example, the limited perspective we get of Wylan and Kaz being both white men, does not account for a large portion of the disabled community and the intersection of multiple identities.
All-in-all, Critique media, but do not forget to also critique fandom spaces. Alternatively, just shut the fuck up :)
happy fucking disability pride month, ig
#soc#six of crows#kaz brekker#soc kaz#kaz talk tag#kanej#grisha#grishaverse#ketterdam#leigh bardugo#bardugo#crooked kingdom#ck#wylan#wylan van sunshine#wylan supremacy#jesper x wylan#wesper#jesper fahey#shadow and bone#wylan van eck#jan van eck#ableism#ableist bullshit#ableist slurs#disability#disability pride month#i will punch you in the face#el oh el#laugh out loud
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Vikings characters + them getting sick
based on this request | Masterlist | requests are OPEN!
tagged: @demon-of-the-ancient-world; @alicedopey
In this imagine, Ragnar, Lagertha, Floki, Bjorn, Ubbe, Hvitserk, Ivar and Ecbert will be getting sick
A/N: thank you for requesting! This was really fun to write :)
Ragnar
he WHINES
demands that someone makes him soup, tea and maybe even warms his pillow or some shit like that
but refuses to sleep
stumbles through the house in search of affection
tries to stumble athelstan, who has already donned a hazmat suit
personally insulted by everyone who shrinks away from him, gets ppl sick
0/10 would not recommend
Lagertha
she rarely gets sick
i hc her as being like my mom when being sick, which means that she just sleeps a lot, drinks more tea than reasonable, sleeps again
gets up when she feels slightly better bc she has to
responsible
but also mean when sick
8/10 easy to deal with
Floki
one word. needy
Helga thrives off of making him soup and treats and coddles him
Floki loves it sm
gets wrapped into a thousand handmade blankets
so much love
no one but Helga could do it though
he gets kinda drowsy too, overthinks his life
10/10 if ur Helga, 1/10 for everyone else
Bjorn
he's a man he doesn't get sick
will not rest
will not sleep at all, out of protest
starts fights
only when he's on the verge of collapse will he let you take care of him
wants soup and tea, that's what Lagertha used to make him
but only from her
get ready to call her
2/10, uncooperative
Ubbe
self-aware king
i stan this man for being who he is and i firmly believe that he knows what to do
rests enough, drinks enough, eats enough
will melt if u show him some love
u will get angry at Aslaug for neglecting him
100/10, give him a hug when he's feeling better
Hvitserk
uh
Hvit has a bad past with substance abuse, and he doesn't know how to take care of himself
once he gets really sick, he'll just kind of... sit
you have to guide him
cooperative, but will make your heart ache for him
make him a tea, fluff his pillows
6/10, won't let you know how he actually feels
Ivar
dramatic, but doesn't let it show
firmly believes he will die, doesn't tell anyone
until the fever really hits
rambles for hours that he's 'strong' and doesn't need help
especially in viking times, the stigma around his disability lead him to believe that he has to compensate
chaotic fire gremlin, as always, but this time inefficient
-2/10 dramatic and uncooperative, pls stay away from him and send food via drone
Ecbert
sick but not sick if you know what i mean?
plays tottering old grandpa, but is definitely scheming
will trip you or similarly
ignores all advice
life is a comedy, he's the comedian that laughs at his own jokes
disowns aethelwulf when he thinks he'll die
-10000/10, you'll never recover
#ragnar#ragnar lothbrok#lagertha#ivar#hvitserk#vikings#ivar x reader#ubbe#ivar the boneless#ivar lothbrok#history vikings#hvitserk x reader#ubbe ragnarsson#ubbe x reader#request#sick fic#vikings tv#bjorn#bjorn ironside#ecbert#floki#ragnar x reader#vikings imagine
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I wasn't going to respond to this post initially but I feel like it's important that I do. I don't want to cause unnecessary drama but I would like to address this
You honestly proved my point here by saying what you said, specifically that this is a universal mental health experience. Though, I completely agree.
Let me explain.
I have PTSD, Autism and other disorders that are comorbid with NPD. I have such specific trauma from being Autistic that I feel like my whole life I've been seen as a weirdo or assumed to be shitty because of my awkwardness. This trauma caused me to develop an unhealthy defense mechanism of feeling the need to prove myself constantly. It completely broke my ego and the way I view myself is distorted. The highs and lows are nothing like BPD or CPTSD as in these moments I don't fear abandonment, but I fear myself. The fear can consume you to the point where you do act out and unintentionally hurt others because rose colored glasses make you believe it's right until you take them off. Having to battle that deep insecurity to make sure you don't hurt others not only drives you crazy, but drives everyone else crazy and it causes a loop until you take action to change.
You're probably thinking, "so many people experience that too". True. Completely true. Exactly. But why do you absolutely need to point that out? Why is it necessary to have a comparison? You're making the assumption that I am saying this is ONLY a narcissistic experience which that'd be whack as hell
This is where my point is proven. You're reading my post about experiences I've had as a mentally ill person, but assume in bad faith just because I mentioned my NPD. That is why I made the post in the first place. It's just a different way of experiencing a trauma we share
Other folks are treated very similarly like u mentioned, but if they were to mention their specific disorder within said experience you wouldn't say anything, right? Unless you'd have the same attitude towards someone else (which tbh I don't understand bc everyone has unique experiences w this so being open about what disorder it stems from is fine)
If I removed the word narcissist, what would it change?
The stigma doesn't come from our unwillingness to change. The stigma comes from people associating us with abusers that have an unwillingness to change. And then you call us out for victim blaming when we're just spreading awareness on outdated terminology, not invalidating your abuse
I want you to think about your own words for a second. Think about your hypocrisy.
Narcissistic Personality Disorder doesn't equal abuse in any way, that's basically every mental illness, disorder, disability, ot lack there of. Anyone can be abusive. Some asshole (not you) just decided one day to use our disorder to label an abusers self centeredness and everyone just ran with it like it didn't hurt anyone.
Also I wanted to point out "they frequently seek therapy to validate their narcissism rather than treat it" is such a WILD take like yes people do go to therapy to get a diagnosis? And the reason it gets untreated is bc there's literally no treatment for us. It's only stigma. I've been told I'm not a narcissist bc I'm not abusive so I couldn't even get treatment if I tried. I'm in recovery on my own because I don't want to hurt others. I wish I had resources to make the process easier. That perspective is just rooted in ignorance, blaming the disordered person instead of the system
Idk what "demanding recognition for it" means either like. Yeah I would like to be seen as a good person and validated for putting in effort damn đ I'm not gonna beg for forgiveness like a sopping wet pathetic yt Republican
Anyway I'm just trying to exist. You don't have to like or understand my disorder to just leave us alone. If you rlly stick to believing in narc abuse that's ur prerogative but don't go out of your way to make posts like this. You're just wasting ur energy on something you're ultimately gonna disagree with
Being a Narcissist means you've most likely faced people assuming the worst of you 24/7. Unintentionally or intentionally. I have done fucked up shit and it's okay to wonder about me repeating past cycles bc I'm not excempt HOWEVER. It's like EVERYTHING I do makes people question my morality now. It's like I'm expected to fuck up eventually. It feels so suffocating and like a ticking time bomb. It genuinely makes me believe it to be true. Like my destiny is failure :(
#seriously if narcissists were self aware at all they'd have a lot more friends in other mentally ill people#just wanted to put one of ur tags here bc I just noticed it#jokes on u I have cats#cats dgaf#narcissistic personality disorder#npd#narc abuse tw#tw narc abuse mentions#ableism tw#npd awareness#narc#cluster b#cluster b awareness#npd safe#cluster b safe
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Heyo, this is my first time asking (im kinda new to tumblr, so please dont judge) if you would'nt mind, could you do some headcannons (or oneshots, it dosen't matter) with all the demon bros and a MC who is crippled/paralized in their legs, and has to use a wheelchair to get around? Thank you!!
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This is the first time Iâve written about a crippled MC, so I hope I didnât fuck this up or anything. I found out that being paralysed in both legs is a disability called Paraplegia so thatâs how I titled this post. And yâall are too sweet, you are more than welcome anon! I hope I can portray this properly because I am not crippled myself so Iâve opted to do some research before writing this! I hope you like it! Also, I feel inclined to add that none of the brothers would treat you too differently if you happen to have a disability because youâre their human nonetheless :)
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The Brothers with an MC that has Paraplegia and needs a wheelchair to get around:
Lucifer:
-Lucifer was in charge of choosing the final human, exchange student for the program so itâs guaranteed he already knew about your predicament before you even arrived
-Him and Diavolo probably had many meetings concerning your disability before the program could commence, considering that being unable to walk would double the chances of you getting killed since you are obviously more vulnerable
-Not to mention all the treatment you would require
-Lucifer is not well versed in human illnesses and disorders, but he makes sure that he is educated enough on the matter before you get brought down there
-It would not be easy, but he is determined to help you survive your year in DevilDom for the princeâs sake
-First problem of the day was, of course, your wheelchair
-Due to lack of time, Lucifer was unable to instal ramps around the House of Lamentation which meant that for the first couple of weeks, someone wouldâve had to help you move around certain parts of the house
-He gave that highly prestigious job to himself because he didnât trust his brothers and thought they would accidentally drop you and your wheelchair down the stairs
-He talks a lot to you, even at the beginning, because he needs to establish your needs and what he should do to make sure you donât die for the following year
-You would have to tell him about physical therapy and how most commonly it uses heat, massage and exercise to stimulate your nerves and muscles, making it a great treatment for people with leg paralysis
-Once you two enter a more intimate and personal relationship, itâs more than likely heâll help you perform those things himself (instead of kidnapping a human doctor from somewhere)
-Lucifer knows you have no problem getting around with your wheelchair by yourself but there are times where heâll insist to push you along in order to give you a quick break
-I can totally imagine you two strolling around DevilDom and having cosy chats about RAD and your adjustments to DevilDom
-He has a softer side to him that heâs afraid to show most of the time, but he feels so at ease when youâre around, itâs hard for him to hold that part of him hidden from you
-Of course, your safety still remains his primary concern and he acts more like your guardian than Mammon does, even if he was originally supposed to look out for you
-He will accompany you almost anywhere. And if he canât, heâll have one or more of his brothers do it. And even then heâs probably lurking nearby, just in case
-He would always be willing to listen about your condition, if you wished to tell him whether you were born with the defect or why you ended up crippled later in life. Either way, heâs all ears
-If you would rather not speak about it, he wouldnât pry and respect your decision because he knows itâs not his place to pressure you
-Because of your paralysis, itâs quite obvious to demons that you are even weaker (physically speaking) than most humans and that usually puts a target on your back
-Howver, never fear, because Lucifer is pretty quick to put lower rank demons in their place with just a mere stare
-Oop one of them passed out from the fear, haha
-In conclusion, heâs the most responsible when it comes your comfort and safety during your stay
-He makes sure you are always left in good hands and and provides most of the requirements you need
-Yâall should see how his wings puff up when he senses a threat approaching you, he looks like a peacock ready to go on attack lol
Mammon:
-The second born is unsurprisingly a bit of a jerk at first
-He stays really grumpy the whole day of your arrival because heâs stuck babysitting you stupid human
-âLucifer câmon, whatâs all this workload for? The human canât even walk by themselves, why do I have to help them out?â
-Wtf Mammon you canât say shit like that
-Anyways, the following very few days, the only thing heâs thinking about is how much money he could sell your wheelchair for
-Heâs the literal incarnation of greed, what else did you expect from him?
-After a while, he starts feeling a bit guilty every time he thinks about it though
-Mammon is gonna take this secret to the grave (laughs in immortal) but he actually really likes pushing you around
-Maybe itâs because itâs a clear indication to everyone around him that you are HIS human, under HIS protection and therefore you trust HIM the most since he was your FIRST MAN
-He will insist on helping you get out of that thing when you need to go to bed and stuff every night and he will get pouty real fast if you let any of his other brothers do it
-You wake up to him trying to roll around in your wheelchair one night at like 3am
-At some point, he stole a wheelchair from the human realm to match with his human. You can guess the consequences of his actions
-I can imagine you having to face a staircase or something at school and Mammon being like:
-âFuck it, imma carry this fragile human instead; wheelchair and all!â
-Like you were a sack of potatoes or something smh
-Cue his brothers watching him from a distance as he heaves you and basically weight-lifts you up the stairs
-Ok but every now and again, he gets so sad thinking about you not being able to walk, like he starts crying kinda sad
-While you stand there like đ âWhy are you crying?â
-Heâs so quick to help if he senses youâre in danger too
-Itâs canon that Mammon is crazy fast if he wants to be so if he has even the slightest impression that your life is threatened, his feet are already moving
-He will charge at your immediate threat at around 120 miles per hour-do not try him when heâs mad
-âThe Great Mammon saved the day! Câmon MC, letâs go buy some ice cream. My treat! Ya better be grateful!â
-He says while the demon that tried to eat you lies on the floor with about a dozen broken bones
-Mammon is the second most powerful demon out of all of his brothers, even if he doesnât resort to violence often
Levi:
-He didnât really know how to react when you first teleported to DevilDom
-I mean, from the very beginning he considered you to be a human normie but at the same time, he felt bad you were stuck with his brothers for the rest of the year
-I think he would understand you would have an even harder time integrating yourself in their house because of your disability and he knows his siblings are really fucking annoying, always pushing you around and whatnot
-So, he kinda lets you hide in his room quite often
-You guys chill out in there all the time, much to the dismay of the other brothers who also want to spend time with you
-At some point, Levi definitely begged asked Lucifer to let you start online classes with him
-âBut wouldnât it be easier for MC to do online school from home rather than go to R.A.D since there arenât any ramps or anything around there???â
-âThe answer is no Leviathan.â
-âUgh fine! What a fucking boomer-ïżœïżœ
-For some reason, he gets so flustered whenever you ask him to push you around
-He blushes right to the tips of his ears and then he starts sputtering some nonsense that you canât make out at all
-But heâs more than happy to do it, especially if you guys are going to a convention or if heâs dragging you out to buy new merch
-You two would get along in the sense that Levi realises the struggles you faced all your life were tough to overcome and he believes you are just like him
-Usually left out by other people, ignored even
-He knows you always listen to him ramble on about whatever he is currently obsessed with and how much you check up on him to make sure he never isolated himself
-He wants to do that for you too! Talk to him about your hobbies, please Iâm begging you-he feels so bad whenever heâs doing all the talking
-If you ask him to help you with anything (getting something, helping you into bedâthat sort of thing), he legally and physically canât say ânoâ
-And he would get envious enough to stop talking to you for a day or two if you let his brothers do it instead (the second and third born are indeed similar lmao)
-S T A Y I N H I S R O O M, W H E R E Y O U C A N B E P R O T E C T E D !
-He will feel so much more at ease if youâre in his room because to him, thatâs his haven
-If youâre in there with him, that means youâre not getting involved in his siblingsâ endless and dangerous shenanigans
-Whenever youâre at school, he canât help but worry about your well-being
-Because youâre human! Youâre gonna get killed!! Do you know how much your organs sell on the black market in DevilDom??? 100x more than in the human realm, thatâs for sure
-Would they have a black market or would it be a regular market lol
-For some reason, he also likes staying in your wheelchair when youâre not using it
-I think he just takes comfort in knowing itâs something that belongs to you and smells like you and-
-OK Levi, sit back down
-He wouldnât treat you any differently if you had a disability tbh, but heâd be more concerned because you canât even run away or anything
-So heâs so fuckinâ relieved when you guys are just vibing in his room
-He could die happy knowing he kept his best friend/ partner safe
Satan:
-Satan would be even more prepared for your arrival than Lucifer would, in a sense
-Out of all of his brothers, heâs most likely to understand and recognise paraplegia (either from studying human illnesses/birth defects/disabilities or from encountering humans with said disability)
-Heâs a smart boy, alright?
-Always seems to be the first to notice if you need help or if someoneâs bothering you
-Though in the very beginning, he was pretty tempted to just let you get killed to see how angry Lucifer could get
-Seeing dear Luciâs misery brings him great joy đ„°đ„°đ„°
-Once you two manage to build a very honest and strong relationship, he feels more and more inclined to keep you out of harmâs way
-Pls, he would feel so honoured if you let him push you around (itâs like you asked him to h*ld h*nds or something)
-If you require treatment of any kind, he would be so happy to help
-But in a subtle way...?
-Satan makes it seem so smooth too like he doesnât mind lending a helping hand when in reality heâs all giddy inside
-*Kinda wants to rub it in his brothersâ faces but at the same no, because heâs definitely the bigger person here
-He wants to know how your wheelchair works
-Itâs got all of these neat mechanisms and he wants to learn how theyâre constructed because he never had the chance to inspect one before
-Heâs such a sweetheart about asking you as well and never pries about your disability unless you start elaborating yourself
-Most of the time, he acts all charming and very gentleman-like
-So people have a hard time spotting and acknowledging the building rage inside of him every time he sees you are threatened by some moronic low rank demon
-Satanâs usually chill when it comes to injuries, unless he can see youâre in horrible pain
-Thereâs nothing a few spells canât accomplish
-But when others purposefully try harming you?
-Itâs like he loses all the self control heâs been trying to perfect over the centuries and he canât help himself from at least breaking someoneâs rib cage
-Satanâs a weird one because heâs protective of you even though heâs more on the relaxed side when compared to his siblings
-He very much acknowledges that you made it this far in life with your predicament so he doesnât feel the need to baby you or anything
-Youâre strong and he knows this
-Itâs one of the many things he clearly loves about you
-That one time you rolled over Mammonâs foot with your wheelchair on purpose, he was wheezing
Asmo:
-Even now, he canât help but wonder what it would be like to be stuck inside a wheelchair for the rest of his eternal life
-I mean, heâd obviously still be absolutely fabulous, have you seen him? Heâs gonna be gorgeous either way
-But after the two of you meet, he definitely starts thinking about how he takes his feet for granted all the time
-It would be so difficult to complete his daily tasks without the ability to walk or run around
-Thatâs why he gets sad every time he remembers thatâs your reality and on days like that, youâve noticed he gives you a helluva lot more attention than usual
-He knows you donât need pity or anything so heâs just making sure his human has all the support they can get
-Paraplegia or not, shopping trips are still a go-go
-He loves buying you clothes! And he loves helping you try them on! Asmo takes it very seriously
-Might have a go at the employees if theyâre being rude to you
-You donât even ask him to, but he subconsciously starts pushing you around himself whenever the two of you are out together
-âMC! Look at that new shop thatâs just opened! Isnât it adorable? We have to check it out!â
-He canât help it! Thereâs so many places he wants to visit, he sort of just drags you with him wherever he goes
-Even at home, he always pops out of nowhere to coax you into coming to his room
-Yâall have so many skin routines to do each day
-Like heâs in your room most nights to greet you goodnight and tuck you in, with the rest of his brothers it gets so awkward at times
-Asmo just wants to see you smile, ok? He thinks you have a beautiful smile and laugh and he wants to remind you that youâre marvellous, disability or not
-And if anyone does anything to put an end to your self confidence, he will swiftly put an end to their life
-Please, heâs a pro at ruining lives, heâs been doing it for centuries
-Asmo has such a huge influence over the people in DevilDom, he just needs to make this one post on Devilgram to end said demonâs whole career
-I mean, who is he compared to him, Hmm? So donât worry MC, scum like that donât even deserve to breathe the same air as you :)
-That one time Mammon tried lifting you up the stairs and Asmo started shrieking, like put them down! Donât manhandle them like that, poor human :(
Beel:
-I know I sound repetitive, but he would be an overall sweetheart to you no matter the circumstances
-If Mammon is not by your side, then Beel definitely is
-His big, scary aura and figure usually scares off any threat in a 10 mile radius
-Most demons donât fancy being eaten by the Avatar of Gluttony, ya know?
-Idk why but I feel like heâd be the type to ask for oral consent every time he wanted to push you around
-He doesnât want to make you uncomfortable :(
-Surprisingly also the type to lift you and your wheelchair whenever an obstacle gets in your way
-You basically weigh the same amount as a paper plate compared to him, so he has no problem doing so
-He doesnât really understand your condition as well as Satan may do, but heâs trying his best
-You mean so much to him and he feels itâs only fair he learns more about your disability as a thank you for what youâve done for him
-He has a rough time keeping up with you when it comes to stuff like physical therapy because heâs very unfamiliar with it but that doesnât mean heâs not gonna help
-Of course, Beel believes that this is the second best way to show you how much he cares for you besides the obvious âI love youâ
-Giving you a hand whenever you need his support the most
-Thatâs his way of saying âIâm not going to let you down. I want you to trust me, the same way I trust you.â
-And knowing him, he will try to do everything in his power to keep you safe and sound
-After a while, youâre bound to notice heâs the first one to pull you out of his brothersâ pranks before you have a chance to get hurt
-Beel is always the one handing you stuff from high places you canât reach, without teasing you for it like Mammon might do
-Always the first one to remind you to get plenty of rest and to eat enough
-He wants to protect you and his brothers because he knows he failed to do so with Lilith so yeah, heâs a bit overprotective at times
-He doesnât mean to be overbearing, but he gets so anxious knowing youâre by yourself
-After a few months of getting accommodated with him, your disability is no longer brought up in the conversation
-Because he doesnât care that you are crippled and forced to use a wheelchair
-You are part of his family and he loves you no matter what
Belphie:
-He didnât really care, even when you first met and his hatred for humans was at its very peak
-It didnât matter that you had a disability
-All that mattered to him at the time was killing you to satisfy that deeply rooted need of vengeance inside of him
-Though he was sort of surprised his brothers didnât get to you first
-In general, heâs pretty chill about you being crippled in both legs
-It takes too much effort to worry about your well-being 24/7 after all
-Surprisingly, he does keep an eye out for you if his siblings arenât nearby
-Itâs his redemption arc people, heâs trying to be nicer
-But he has such an irritating way of showing his affection for you
-Do not let him push you around
-Heâs either going to a) fall asleep after 30 seconds and slump over you in the middle of RADâs halls
-Or b) be annoying and fling your wheelchair in every direction possible just to piss you off
-He likes messing with you because you give him the best reactions and he thrives on that
-Youâve almost fallen off your wheelchair multiple times because of this asshole
-Not that heâd actually let you fall, he just wants to see how easily he can get you to yell at him
-Speaking of said wheelchair, like Mammon and Levi, he also loves using it when youâre not
-Youâve woken up to him curled up and asleep in that thing quiet often and heâs gotten in trouble over it every time with Lucifer
-But he doesnât care
-And at this point, I donât think even he knows whether heâs doing it to get a reaction out of you or because he somehow found a way to make himself comfortable there
-He would low key use you as a mode of transportation every time you go to RAD
-Just clings the damn wheelchair and almost topples both of you over
-âBelphie, thereâs nothing stopping you from walking đâ
-âShh, just bring me to class and let me nap until then.â
-He doesnât mention your legs but he still lays his head on your lap often
-Might make you hold him like a bride every time you stroll around the house
-Itâs done out of love, I promise đđ
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Al~
#obey me#obey me asmodeus#obey me beelzebub#obey me belphegor#obey me imagines#obey me leviathan#obey me lucifer#obey me mammon#obey me satan#om#obey me headcanons#obey me hcs#paraplegia#âïž requests#đŻ general#âïž demon brothers
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okay now that weâre in the middle of a hiatus and the fandom is mostly calmed down
Iâm one of the very few people whoâs actually hoping for a Lila redemption arc? I donât want her to be friends with Adrien or Marinette or anyone sheâs really really hurt, but she is still like 14 and we donât know her full story and I honestly want to see her grow and be a person and make some actual friends and get some hobbies. Again, I think sheâs burned the bridge with a few characters, but that doesnât mean she canât ever be friends with anyone else
and anyway, my ideal takedown/ redemption arc for Lila is one where she unknowingly lies about having several disabilities that other students in the class actually do have
BUT I donât want it in a âoh actually, Lila, you dumb fool, I have real medically diagnosed tinnitus, so I know thatâs not how it works, haha everyone look at Lila the stupid liarâ kind of way
I want them to be like stupid levels of understanding and try to bond with her
(detailed explanation of my Lila arc under the cut, obviously donât read if youâre uncomfortable with the idea of Lila being redeemed)
Lila is like âoh... actually... I canât participate in the PE final... I have scoliosis... that I just found out about right nowâ and Juleka is like âoh! I have scoliosis too!â and Lila is panicking because sheâs about to be called a fraud, but instead Juleka just happily sits with her for the entire PE final and rambles about stuff and is super happy to have a bench buddy
Alix mentions that she has tinnitus and Lila is like âwait what? why arenât you in front of the class?â and Alix is like âoh, for me itâs kind of a waves thing? on good days, I can hear her from anywhere in the classroom, and on bad days, nothing can really help me hear? so Ms. Bustier just gives me lecture notes that I can read and it works for me.â And Lila is completely expecting to be called a fraud but Alix is just like âitâs super cool that it does help you, though! everyoneâs different! If you ever want to compare notes about what helps, you can text me!â
Lila starts to say the beginning of a well practiced and overly researched speech about how she canât go on a field trip because she has a super rare medical condition and Max just pulls her aside and is like âhey, I know it can be scary and you feel like you have to justify yourself, but you really donât have to give super personal information all the time. Itâs totally fine if you are comfortable, but really, I know from personal experience that Ms Bustier and this class are super understanding. You can just say âpersonal reasonsâ or something and weâll all leave you alone. Youâre allowed to have privacy.â and Lila is like âhuhâ
this is getting long but basically, eventually she talks to someone in the class with ADHD or anxiety, Iâm going to say Alya for now, so she literally catches Lila lying about knowing some celebrity, and instead of being angry or judgemental sheâe super discreet about it, she pulls her aside like âhey, I know it feels hard to make friends, but I promise you, people do think youâre interesting as you are, and we care more about you than the people you know.â and she doesnât even call Lila out for lying? sheâs literally just like âu dont have to know celebritiesâ
and then Lila actually finds out that thereâs at least one actual compulsive liar in the class. And, if you didnât know, Lilaâs not an actual compulsive liar, and Iâm not going to get into a rant about that now but... She lies on purpose, and tells planned lies with an agenda, whereas compulsive liars donât usually plan to lie or have a reason for lying. So anyway, Lila gets actually caught lying, and someone, lets just say Nino for the sake of picking a character, is like âhey i know its hard but you do still have to apologize, even if you did your best, you still messed up and youâve got to own up to it. I believe you that youâre trying to be better but you canât just use mental illness as an excuse.â and Lila pulls out the fake tears and is like âyou donât understand-â and Nino is (not in a rude way, just trying to be kind) like âI canât understand you exactly, no, but I literally did have a problem with compulsive lying and I have a therapist, so if you want to talk about it I probably understand more than you knowâ and Lila is like âoh.â
and anyway, Lilaâs arc doesnât come through someone sheâs harassed trying to defend her, and it doesnât come from her being traumatized into being nice, it just comes from her classmates treating her like a human person, and doing their best to understand her while also actually finding ways to make things accessible to her so she stops being able to get out of things. And then it turns to âhey Lila, just so you know, you donât HAVE to give explanations for not wanting to go places, you can just SAY if youâre uncomfortable.â and she starts getting called out on it a little bit more, but in a friendly way. Her classmates are just like âLila please just tell us what you want, I donât need your medical history, Iâm not going to do a background check, just, say you want to borrow a jacket and Iâll let you borrow it. I literally have an extra hoodieâ
But simultaneously, everyone with a disability âin commonâ with her starts latching on to her and opening up, and they actually hold her accountable for listening to their needs. And Lila, who already has the mindset of âoh u are legally required to help Disabled Person or everyone will hate you,â which is literally the basis of half of her plans, is now surrounded by classmates who are asking for her help with reading things because theyâre dyslexic, or asking her to grab a textbook from across the room, and asking her if she has any heating pads, and, well, Mylene actually bought her some heating pads when she was faking having cramps earlier, so she might as well lend those out so that she can get more credit with her classmates
And itâs not because she *cares* obviously, sheâs just doing it to get them to rely on her, and to get on their good side
and then sheâs invited to join the disabled students activism club, and it would look suspicious if she didnât join, so she agrees, and then whoops, she is now working to do actual charity work-- because itâs really nice to have such solid evidence for her claims, and some charity work that she can actually point to solid evidence for if she ever gets called out-- and honestly it is pretty stupid that its so hard to get accommodations on tests for students with anxiety, because arenât those the students who are the most afraid to talk to the teachers-- not that Lila cares. And itâs super dumb that no one even knows proper etiquette for helping people in wheelchairs,, and people keep Leaving Things in the Hallways that make it too narrow, and-- Lila doesnât care at all though, and she definitely doesnât care about her âfriendsâ in the club because theyâre not her friends, and she totally does not cry when she finds out that most of them are literally self-diagnosed, and then it turns out that Mylene was actually wrong, and she probably doesnât have Lyme disease like she thought, and no one judges her or treats her any different? theyâre all just like âoh thats great! glad you could keep getting new information!â
and Lila realizes that literally no one will be mad if it turns out she doesnât have any disabilities. Except also, sheâs starting to become more and more sure that she Does have several things wrong with her, because apparently itâs Not Normal to feel constantly on guard when sheâs around other people, and apparently itâs Not Normal to just have days where you literally cannot drag yourself out of bed in the morning and then get hit with terror that if you tell anyone about how numb you feel theyâll immediately think youâre unworthy as a human being, and sheâs like, oh, huh, i should look into that
and anyway Lila doesnât even try to be a good person at first she just wakes up one day and is like âwhat the heck when did i get actual friends and passions and hobbies,, i did not sign up for thisâ but she does start making an effort to be worthy of them and she ends up growing a whole ton once sheâs given a support system
and anyway i know lots of people are uncomfy with Lila and thatâs fine, but iâm continuously a sucker for âevil devil child is actually a pretty decent human being once their basic needs are met and they feel safeâ trope
#long post#lila rossi#miraculous ladybug#ml#i do not know how to tag this#trying to not tag my hate but also not attract the specific people who would hate on this#let me know if theres any tags that need to be added
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001 ghosts and 002 buddie !! đ
001: ghosts
Favorite character: ahhhh um either captain or thomas
Least Favorite character: the fucking posh neighbor who calls his dog bitches
5 Favorite ships (canon or non-canon): idk its not really a shippy show for me ?? but ig mikealison, captainhavers, robinjulian, kittymary and idk cant think of another lol
Character I find most attractive: thomas probably but thats leftover crush from horrible histories when i was a kid
Character I would marry: oof alison ??
Character I would be best friends with: the captain without a doubt we're already besties <3
a random thought: the reason the show is so good is because the actors write it themselves so they all know they're characters so well
An unpopular opinion: idk if i have any unpopular opinions ?? but i kinda think it would be cool if the show ends with mike seeing the ghosts somehow
My Canon OTP: mike and alison
My Non-canon OTP: the captain and happiness
Most Badass Character: thomas in the flashback to the moment when he died but the overdramatic one with the guns and grenade
Most Epic Villain: oh thomas' cousin?? the one who stole his gf that was like fucking evil but impressive ngl
Pairing I am not a fan of: idk if there are any?? oh fanny and the body of humphrey
Character I feel the writers screwed up (in one way or another): um i cant think of one
Favourite Friendship: oof so many but the captain and kitty
Character I most identify with: probably thomas in a weird way
Character I wish I could be: alison maybe
002: buddie
When I started shipping them: i can give you an exact date on this which is 19/01/22 but mainly because that was when i watched s2e1 id probably shipped them by like proxy because of tas for ages
My thoughts: i mean i have so many but most of them just amount to incoherent rambling about how they're a family and they keep choosing each other and they're in LOVE and they deserve to be HAPPY
What makes me happy about them: the fact that they are the least platonic best friends in the history of best friends, like touching ur homie on the shoulder is no homo but touching ur homie on the shoulder as ur thumb presses into their collarbone whilst u tell them there's nobody else in the world they trust more with their kid than you is decidedly homo
What makes me sad about them: the fact that they can't see how much they're loved by the other and that their timing is always so wrong and they don't think they deserve to be happy
Things done in fanfic that annoys me: infantlizing chris or like erasing his disability, thats the main one but i have many specific icks that I'm not gonna get into
Things I look for in fanfic: oh so much, mutual pining YES PLEASE, load me up on the unrequited not actually unrequited love trope, give me a good old amnesia au and im yours, you want a kudos gimme gimme gimme idiots in love, domestic fluff is a yes please, but ill be here for some hurt/comfort
My wishlist: um give me a genie in a lamp and my three wishes are - eddie healing, eddie sexuality crisis, love confession
Who Iâd be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: nobody. literally no one. they're soulmates, they built their lives together until they became one, there's literally no other choices for them.
My happily ever after for them: the ideal is them happily married for the rest of their lives and becoming girl dads and chris being the best big brother <3
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What's wrong with goldenpoodles? I'm genuinely curious because almost all of my dogs are mixed breeds and behave fine. So I'm curious if there's something else I'm missing
jeez this feels like bait but u kno what, you got me
alright, so it goes like this. the doodle really began with a guy in australia being like i need the temperament of a lab for a guide dog but these ppl are allergic to dogs, so i need a poodle bc they have hair, not fur. so he bred em together. years later heâs like damn that was a mistake.
now, why, exactly? alright so first of all he only needed that mix bc labs on average tend to adapt better to situations that are largely exclusive to service dog work than poodles do. i can go into what this means at a later date, but thatâs basically how it is. but either way, people jumped on this creation and it kinda spiraled out of control. soon, poodles were being bred by everyone and every breed. suddenly, they were a marketing scam more then they were a dog breed.
oh theyre hypoallergenic! all of them, all the time cause zero allergies! look theyre so much better than poodles! theyre friendly and easy to train, not like poodles of course, just like labs! theyâre better than labs bc none of them shed, ever! theyâre super healthy bc breeding labs and poodles together wipes out all their health problems, of course!
lies, lies lies. the aussie guy, whose name iâm not going to look up bc iâm lazy but who you can find if you google creator of doodles, straight up says that even the first litter(s) of labradoodles he bred had puppies that the people he bred them for were allergic to. he very carefully tested the litter and the reaction the person had before placing a puppy that was not going to hurt them.
think of the punnet squares we all learned about in 5th grade science class. you draw the squares and one parent has two fur genes and the other parent has two hair genes and what do you get? well if you have four puppies, one might have hairhair and the next one might have hairfur and the next one might have furhair and the next one might have furfur. and so guess what? only hairhair pup is going to be the best choice for allergic people. additionally, you can see why the non-shedding thing can be bullshit, and that in particular is also a guessing game. you may be able to test allergy sufferers against the pups, but that does not necessarily mean they wonât shed. hairfur, for example, may be a good choice for some allergic people, but perhaps theyâve got just enough fur to shed anyway. also, lets look at salukis (and frankly, most long-haired sighthounds). salukis are still considered dogs with fur, not hair. they also still shed, even though itâs just a little. and yet theyâre still considered good for allergy sufferers.
(ps poodles do actually shed. but they shed like humans shed. your hair comes out, doesnât it? like, esp folks with long hair, arenât people always complaining how you clog the shower drain? yeah, like that. ALSO obviously the situation is more complicated then super simple punnet squares and as an ex-groomer i have something to say about doodle coats but iâm going to save that for later, put a pin in it.)
oh and wait a hot minute there. i said best choice, didnât i, not hypoallergenic. well, thatâs because no dog is hypoallergenic. poodles, and a few other dog breeds, they have hair, like we do. but the thing is both humans and breeds with hair still produce the dander, though theyâre different kinds. breeds with hair happen to produce the least amount possible that dogs can produce, which is why theyâre a better choice for allergy sufferers, but thatâs still not a guarantee. my roommate Dakota is allergic to dogs. if i donât wash my dogs for an extended period of time (which has never happened, ever, in my life, idk what ur talking about), thus giving the chance for the dander my dogs still produce, he will have a very, very mild reaction when touching them. it can be countered by him washing his hands after touching them and also me just giving them a fucking bath, i need to stop forgetting, but still, there you go. ALSO people might not be allergic to dogs bc of their dander. they might be allergic to the saliva of dogs, which poodles or any other breed with hair still produces about the same as other dogs. so, yeah, not hypoallergenic, not at all.
the people who taut their hypoallergenic dogs for sale largely donât do the testing required to check if theyâre actually providing a dog to someone who wonât react to it. not acceptable at all.
so, labs are friendly and easy to train right? not at all like poodles, right? no. absolutely incorrect. some labs are friendly and easy to train. some labs, a lot of them when theyâre puppies, are nightmare fuel. personally, i have a theory that everyoneâs vision of labs in their heads are either a) service dogs or b) those old labs who are slightly pudgy (or morbidly obsess, which is a different topic) and who are graying in the face and just want to lounge around because theyâre seniors now. alright, so hereâs why thats bad. labs are a working breed. a retrieving breed. theyâre supposed to be bulky and strong and driven. service dogs are highly trained, to a point that most pet dogs will never see, and if you see them with their actual disabled handler, theyâll probably be around 2.5 yrs of age and out of their most wild days. old labs are well. old. sleepy. maybe a bit achey. and well out of their most wild days. oh, and itâs the same type of thing with goldens by the way, the other most popular doodle type. poodles are also easy to train, especially if their parents have a decent temperament. theyâre all about equal if you actually start training them when theyâre puppies and just pay for some training classes, like everyone should. in the puppy classes iâm in right now, Euphoria is leaps and bounds ahead of doodles, goldens, and labs that are her age or older. I train her properly and sheâs got amazing parents. thatâs it, thatâs the trick. not breed, not necessarily, and def not in this case.
I am once again going to say that labs and goldens are more often used as service dogs than poodles because of their adaptability, but itâs the ability to adapt to situations that most pet dogs will never have to worry about.
jeez this is a long post. iâve still got more to cover too. alright, on to super healthy, or âhybrid vigorâ as the nerds call it. uhh, itâs bullshit. thank u for ur time.
okay, but actually why on gods green earth would breeding two completely different breeds with little to no research make them super healthy? now i want to preface this with iâm (generally) pro-outcross projects. Euphoriaâs dad is half mini poodle and half standard poodle, which isnât technically an outcross bc all the variations are of the same breed, but if weâre going by genetic diversity alone minis and standards are different enough to actually be different breeds.
so, to be clear, outcrosses, given the proper thought and planning: good, results in healthier dogs (see: lua dals). randomly breeding two very different breeds together with no planning other than to sell the puppies to randos who wonât continue the outcross: bad. especially when youâre doing it to cash in and donât health test at all, or donât health test the major health problems with both breeds (if youâre doing an f2 breeding or anything like that). no the poodleâs health problems donât get canceled out by the goldens or labs or whatever the other partyâs health problems are, and vice versa. and yeah, iâve looked at a lot of doodle breederâs websites and yeah, most of them donât health test at all, or at least donât health test properly. do you know i own one doodle and currently live with another? yeah, i got them both from breeders and do you know how much health testing their parents got? if your answer is none, good job, youâve been paying attention. in my defense, i was like 13, i didnât know what i was doing.
alright, so those are the big points. this is kinda gonna be just... a mix of my other complaints. here we go, hope youâre ready for more. argument the first: i feel like itâs pretty disrespectful to reputable breeders. now, i actually have two reasons why that is. reason one: most reputable poodle breeders donât want their breeding stock bred with other breeds, for various reasons. iâve even met a few who used to be okay with it and then as the doodle scam got bigger and more out of control, they stopped being okay with it, even to the breeders who they had been fine with it in the past. that means a lot of doodle breeders out there have their breeding stock because they scammed poodle breeders into giving them pet quality, not breeding quality, dogs or because theyâre getting their stock from non-reputable breeders. i also feel itâs disrespectful to breeders who are actually trying to create new breeds. quite frankly, a breed with the size, strength, and adaptability of a lab or golden that doesnât shed and that has the train-ability of a poodle, lab, or golden sounds pretty interesting to me. did you know you can actually make that breed? and it wouldnât be a cross with unpredictable... well, everything. it would actually be a true dog breed.
Look at Silken Windhounds and Biewer Terriers who began both development in the 1980s. Biewer Terriers were recognized by the AKC this year, and Silken Windhounds still havenât been. And yeah, thatâs the problem isnât it? Making a real new breed takes a lot of time, planning, and care. People would rather just cash in. I think itâs sad and I think itâs disrespectful to the breeders who do work so hard to make actual new breeds.
and finally, unpin being an ex-groomer goddamnit. guess what? doodles are awful to groom! theyâre terrible on the grooming tables because people want to have in both ways: they want a dog that doesnt shed at all and they want a dog who doesnât need to be groomed. well guess what, that dog doesnât exist and you can have it only one way. and also, bring back the goddamn punnet squares because a lot of doodles have awful coats. if you have hairfur and furhair over there, guess what, their coat fucking sucks bc itâs not meant to be like that. it wants to mat bc hair but also it wants the mats to slide out bc short-ish fur but its too thick for the mats to slide out bc thick hair. and yes its more complicated then this and that means its often more awful then this. its awful, it makes me want to cry. and maybe itâs slightly easier to get away with it with a shorthaired dog like a lab, or, you know what, even a golden, okay, even a slightly long haired dog like a golden but people are doodling akitas? border collies? bernese fucking mountain dogs? i am crying. i am crying right now as i type this.
lets do a sum up to this disaster of a post. look, i donât go out there attacking or yelling at every doodle or every doodle owner i see, alright? or any of them really. i might engage in conversation to one thatâs interested, but thatâs it. i love my doodly Isis, okay? shes tiny and sheâs adorable and I love her more than life and i will never, ever get another doodle. i donât like the way theyâve gotten so prolific, i donât like the reasons theyâre now widespread, and i donât like almost all of the people that create them, including the ones iâve literally given my (parents) money to in the past. i wish they were better but i just cannot approve of them, especially not in the environment they exist in now. that said, i do support them in their original use case as assistance dogs, and i do not care about them if theyâre shelter dogs.
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