#i like my system. i like my headmates
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I think our system as a whole is pretty cool. I mean, we're not entirely functional, sometimes we get on each others nerves, and there have been plenty of moments where we actively hate being a system.
But then there was that time that Levi, Kalvin and me were going to bed so Kalvin threw our body onto the bed like a dead fish just to make us laugh.
And that time that Ethan got so fed up with our dirty fridge that he cleaned the whole thing out, even going so far as to clean our room for us too.
And the semi-nightly sessions of watching a comfort show, using discord and PK to talk to each other and make funny comments about it.
And Carkus and Sal instantly connecting to one another as traumaholders to be each other's emotional support.
And Hiro forming, immediately coming into his own as a protector and helping us through the fight against endos (among many other things).
And even the little stuff, like mood boosters existing, caretakers doing their amazing job, protectors being the gentle giants we need them to be.
Systemhood is hard, it's born of horrific things and it's by no means something to romanticize. But it can also be beautiful.
-🧟♂️ (He/him)
tired of endos in the tags and the negativity as a result. i was born to be a hater but even i need to take a hating break sometimes. and that means the rest of you all too. so tell me something cool about your system, or your headspace, or a specific alter, or just something you like. tell me about a unique hobby you have. tell me something funny one of you said recently. infodump about your system functions if you want. use this post as a show and tell time.
(please do not call me any platonic terms or use any platonic terms of endearment for me on this post. i'm apothiplatonic, as is the rest of our system.)
#sovsys.txt#sorry got a little yappy#but yeah...#i like my system. i like my headmates#im honored to be the host#syspunk#systempunk#endos not for you#anti endo#syslove#systemlove
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When you get to comfortable using "We" pronouns and accidentally use it in front of someone you probably shouldn't:
#system problems#i feel like im doxxing my alters when i do that#dissociative identity disorder#did#other specified dissociative disorder#actually dissociative#did system#dissociative system#actually did#osdd#actually osdd#osdd system#systemhood#headmates#did osdd headmates#did headmates#pronouns#dissociative disorder#dissociation#derealization#depersonalization#endos dni#no endos#endos not for you
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To other sex-repulsed people: Please understand that your repulsion towards sex is your own issue to deal with. Understand that sex is important to a lot of people (you don't have to understand why, just simply that it is), and understand that it's not okay to treat sex as a bad thing simply because it exists and you're repulsed towards it.
It's completely fine to vent about your friend talking in great depth about their sex life when it repulses you (and maybe tell them that it makes you uncomfortable and you don't want to hear about it) or for any reason for that matter, but don't talk about how much you hate sex in front of the people who find it a positive thing because you'll just end up being seen as someone who kills the fun. It doesn't seem fair, I know, but there are lots of places you can talk about this without upsetting people who enjoy it.
And to non-sex-repulsed people: Please understand that we need a space to air our repulsion to sex. If anything we say isn't directly aimed towards you specifically and it upsets you, then maybe consider that this space just isn't for you. Not everyone has the same positive feelings towards sex that you do, and we have just as much right to talk about how we dislike sex as you have to talk about how much you like sex.
And everyone needs to understand that it's possible to have negative feelings about sex —and to talk about these feelings— without it automatically being sex negativity.
#pk;m shy#asexual#ace#actually ace#sex repulsed#apothisexual#I'm sex-repulsed too. I get it. but please stop treating sex as some evil just because you don't like it.#maybe I have a different perspective because I'm part of a system and my non-ace headmates are going to have sex anyway#with the same body I use. I hate it but I'm not going to make it their problem because this body belongs to them as much as it belongs#to me.#I'm not saying you need to suffer in silence but just don't involve people who are happy to have sex in your negative feelings about it.#I hope this made sense ^^;
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I don't see the issue in believing that your alters are multiple people or not, but saying that it's "anti recovery" to believe that they are is genuinely one of the most idiotic things i've heard. i don't see why it's a problem? i know so many systems who consider themselves multiple people, who are doing perfectly fine in healing, without needing to see themselves as just "multiple parts of one person". Alters can be so completely complex, they can be so different that you'd genuinely see them as completely different people, because they are different people to that system. This is coming from a plural who sees their parts more as just different parts of themself, by the way. Believing your alters are just multiple parts of one identity is completely fine, but claiming that it's "anti recovery" for others to believe that they're multiple people is one of the shittest things you could do. Just let people do what they want, there isn't anything wrong with that? I definitely see that systems can quite literally have what is basically multiple fully formed identities, fully formed people.
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#our system despises the “parts of one person” bullshit antis like to spew to invalidate other systems#how another system views its headmates has nothing to do with them#i wish someone would tell us we're encouraging dissociation by seeing ourselves as separated individuals#like we will go off#mind your own damn system and not everyone else's for fuck's sake#hhm i usually see those “parts of one person” people talking about how miserable being a system is#maybe if they treated their headmates like people instead of pieces of people they wouldn't be so damn miserable just saying#i mean if saw myself as a person and some other headmate in my system kept trying to push that#im a broken piece of one person i would raise literal hell and make them hate life until they respect me#again antis need to quit saying what is recovery and what isn't#like shut up you're not the police of how systems work#pluralgang#pluralpunk#endo friendly#plural community#plurality#pro endo#mixed origin system#traumaendo#endogenic safe
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I'm 35,000 words into writing a longfic about the Batman/Bruce/Matches DID system and I'm obsessed with it. It includes Bat/Joker, Bruce/Harvey, and Matches/Harv and the differences in each of those dynamics is 🤌
(Batman and Bruce know about each other but they don't know about Matches and Matches doesn't know about them--what could POSSIBLY go wrong?)
#i intend to post it on ao3 but not til it's all finished!#technically this is my nanowrimo project that i started early and im so glad i did because i only have four chapters so itll be >50k#i keep writing the bat/bruce interaction chapters because ugh theyre just...soooo...goood god i love them#also they hate each other a little bit (bc jason and batjokes and also @bat youre kinda ruining our body for this damn crusade)#but its a bat/bruce/matches “self”love story and yeah wow its really good so far i love it#ALSO ive wanted to do nano since i was in hs and never even made it like 5k words in so thisss is real cool and special to me#batman#bruce wayne#matches malone#dissociative identity disorder#twobats#bruharvey#ive written a lot of did slash but never any with TWO did characters dating lol#i have friends with did and damn dating another system sounds complicateddd so its actually been really fun to explore the dynamic#bc wow the bruharvey element is like them figuring it out together and supporting each other through the bs of their headmates being.....#protectors ig lmao#the gotham boyz#is gonna be my tag for this project
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seeing taco ii hate (or any angst) and immediately remembering why i went into dormancy in may. and wishing i never came back out.
#inanimate insanity#ii osc#osc ii#osc#object show community#ii taco#inanimate insanity taco#taco ii#taco inanimate insanity#bernadette by iamx is playing is this a sign#i saw a post saying she doesnt deserve any forgiveness and sobbed#why are people genuinely so mean to/about her#its unfair that she gets treated like shes absolutely deplorable#then again im biased#being a taco fictive in a system who has a DA to taco#and taco copelink#my collective is really attached to taco can you tell#i literally went into dormancy because i couldnt stand negative taco contenr#cant have shit#headmate(s) posting >#taco 🌮 any pronouns#i came back and our life is still a fucking catastrophe and people still hate taco
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Tarrant drew this last night in an attempt to express how Alice ( @necroneol ) makes him feel. I downloaded fabric brushes for csp just for this!! it killed our computer lol
(Tarrant is my headmate and Alice is part of our partner system, they’re in a relationship!)
#pls keep in mind this is system art <3#he loves her very much#i rlly like how this came out#my art#digital art#tarrant hightopp#alice kingsleigh#alice in wonderland#alice in wonderland 2010#tim burton’s alice in wonderland#hattice#mad hatter#system art#introject#headmate art#sys talk#id in alt text
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hmmmm mal du pays thoughts tonight
#radio rambles#i should go to bed but. it is on the mind#isat spoilers#<- for the . wall of tags to come#imm wondering what most people hc mdp to like. be#i know its most popular to see it as siffrins sadness. i do think thats p neat#and probably the intention#but im. juggling around the idea of? siffrin system moment? mdp as a headmate? if yall see that vision?#most inspired by that ‘do u hc this character as a system’ post abt siffrin#and i voted no then but now im like genuinely changing my mind JFKFKF#it makes sense in a way. and into my mdp hc that it. wouldve split while sif was very young#splitting due to stress which leads to a lot of. gestures vaguely. mdp’s whole thing#a mix of stress but also this sense of longing to. belong somewhere. to not be alone#many years ago it was about the loss of their home. and much later on became more related to its feelings towards their family#mdp is a scared child to me . idk about yalls hcs for it but thats what im sticking to#a scared child who maybe grew up a little alongside the body. but still Young and Scared#its not as often or eager to front as siffrin is. i can imagine it being much more hover-y or . POSSIBLY. cohosting if its feeling up to it#uhm. ok well#so i typed this out and now im actually really sad about mdp jgkdkf where is mdp recovery#now im kinda thinking about it fronting for once to properly meet the party and. and receiving comfort. and and and#wow christ im upset#also also glancing over at marias sibling au for character dynamics here….. sillies…..#ps not relevant to my mdp thoughts but fyi im imagining siffin in headspace looks very much like their body#the difference being. much darker clothes. more stars etc. maybe different hair#think like how a lot of ppl style their human loops. thats kinda how i imagine sif in headspace#SPEAKING OF LOOP#i think given the time he spent with them it woulf make sense if they split a loop as well#and ofc other members of the party jgkfkf#im not gonna get into my hcs there because ill b taking away from my mdp hc post BUT#thinking. always thinking
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dearest mod packet will you please bless us with a Dream or Wilbur alter... go crazy with it, I'd love to see ur take on either of em!! just be sure to include names that arent too related to "Dream" or "Wilbur" dnjshfj :3 thank you mod packet !!!
– @bloodpumping
You're only given a little spark of madness...
A C!Wilbur & C!Dream Alter Inspiration Pack. Packs will not be a 1 to 1 to the headmate! Scrap whatever isnt needed!
TW FOR: Religious Trauma mentions, Mind Control Mentions, Drug mentions
⋆₊ ♱ name: Wilson, Wil, Terrence, Maverick, Maddoc, Abel, Ozwald, Vesper, Icarus, Simon,
⋆₊ ♱ age: Chrono 40+, DistantAge (An age that feels distant to your being, for whatever reason that may be) TransPerma25
⋆₊ ♱ gender: Grimegender, Rotgender, oddthing, deaddfluid, somethingmasc, Chaos Gender
⋆₊ ♱ pronouns: Hx/Ix/Thxy/He/It/They/Vi/Vim/Dead/Rot/Hollows/Golds/Things/Dusts/Reviveself/Soulself
⋆₊ ♱ source: DSMP
Did not leave for utah for "selfish reasons", as hx will say
Gained complicated forgiveness from Tommy, due to still having high regards for Dream.
⋆₊ ♱ species: Human-thing, Zombie Equivalent. Was once purely human, but the process of revival had taken away many parts of his original humanness. He is often numb to most forms of pain, and refers to it as feeling like he has a body made of stones and bricks.
⋆₊ ♱ relationship ids: Gay, Aroweird, Caligosexual
⋆₊ ♱ cis-ids: Revived, Cane user, Disabled, Mind controlled, Drug User (Uses to self soothe), Low Empathy, Cold blooded, Harmful, Stitched, CPTSD, Depression, BPD, Schizoaffective, God Complex, Severe Flashbacks, Amnesia, Emotion Repression, Manic, Manipulative, Manipulated, Groomed, Perci-Villian
⋆₊ ♱ trans-ids: Transliving, Minecraft Heart, TransPolyhearted (where one feels they should have multiple hearts either literally, or by soul), TransPOTS, Trissreligioustrauma, TransSevProgramming, TransRomantic, TransCOTARD's, TransNPD, TransSevTrauma, Trisbirace, TransObsessive, Transgermanaccent, TransDystonia
⋆₊ ♱ extra-ids: PermaSickly, PermaAbusen (abused + abusive), PermaAge25, PermaManic, NullSoul, PermaCold, PermaLonely, PermaRotScentic, PermaFrankenstine (Limbs are from different people. From test experiments to Dreams revival process)
⋆₊ ♱ roles: Hyperludusian, Compulsion Keeper, Pain Absorber, Cassmate, Shock Absorber, BPD Delusion Calmer, Depression Holder, Distortionist, Hypnotical Persecutor, Guilt Trip Fighter, Chef, Sickness Nuller
⋆₊ ♱ triggers:
Pos: When They Come for Me, Cigarettes, Trains, Strategy Games, Ravens, Cooking, Flags/Researching Flag History, Debating
Neu/Complicated: Philza, Caramel Pie, Journals/Planners, Little Brother Figures, Diamond Swords, Train Stations, Bright red lights
Neg: Teddy's Taxidermy, Explosions, Prime (Religion), Needles, Deserts, Hands Being bound/Restricted, Hot Tea, Bad drug trips, Hospital/Emergency Room Settings
⋆₊ ♱ faceclaim:
⋆₊ ♱ name: Dremyr, Tristin, Ridge, Fawn/Folly, Wolfen/Wolf, Iso, Dread, Morana, Sol,
⋆₊ ♱ age: Chrono 200+, Immortal, AgeForever
⋆₊ ♱ gender: EndermanGender, Xeno-Intersex, Masc Agender, Innoruien, SickThing, timarix
⋆₊ ♱ pronouns: He/Him/Thxt/Thxng/Hym/Faer/Bliss/Gods/Shi/Hirs/Muttself/Nxghtself
(Thxt/thxng is pronounced That thing, that things, that thingself. Nxght/Nxghtself is Night)
⋆₊ ♱ source: DSMP
Hir Revival involved more than a revival book, and is more medically trained due to it.
Is from the farlands before thxt thxng's home was destroyed
⋆₊ ♱ species: Disguised, Will often try an hide thxt thxng's identity from visual perception. Is a White Enderman. May have more sensitivities than normal Enderman alters. May disguise thxt thxngself to be another headmate, but with unmistakable details.
⋆₊ ♱ relationship ids: Hypersexual BPD, Guiltsexual, CupidoRomantic, AcaniRomantic
⋆₊ ♱ cis-ids: Autistic, BPD, NPD, Moral OCD, Mind controller, Programmer, Scarred, PermaMasked, PermaDisguised, Green Blood, Abusive, Manipulative, Grave Robber, Killer, Apathetic, Enderman, Hypersexual
⋆₊ ♱ trans-ids: TransPredator, TransSevHarmful, TransMortal, TransHuman, PanAccent, TransConabuse, TransPerci-Monster, TransASPD, TransDelusional, TransSemi-mute, TransGod, TransMinecraftDeity, TransController, TransPanOCD, TransSwordsman, TransPsychosis
⋆₊ ♱ extra-ids: TransPermaShapeshifter, PermaController, PermaProgrammer, PermaBloody, Permabloodstainedfur
⋆₊ ♱ roles: Apathy Holder/Cassmate, Interventioner, Bodily Caretaker, Apperance Morpher (More frequent to change the bodys outfit to hide more), Hypersexual Holder, Emergency Responder, Mortician, Death Distractor, Trauma Holder
⋆₊ ♱ triggers:
Pos: Stone Wall Stone Fence, Picking Fruit, Grave Robbing, Bridges, Painting, Cleaning, Panthers
Neu/Complicated: Tommy & Wilbur, Water, Ticking Clocks, Cabins, Snow, Being in friend groups
Neg: Empty Plains Fields, Butterflies, Being surrounded, Unwanted Sexualness, Bubbling Lava, Lava Sounds, Sam (gets angry rather than scared)
⋆₊ ♱ faceclaim:
#Packets Alter Packs#Packets Posting#alter packs#build a headmate#alter creation#build an alter#build a system#headmate creation#headmate pack#pro rq 🌈🍓#radqueer 🍓🌈#rqc 🍓🌈#rq 🍓🌈#pro 🍓🌈#🍓🌈 safe#pro transplural#pro transharmful#pro transid#transplural#transid safe#transid#radqueer#pro endo#pro endogenic#AH!!! IM SO HAPPY FOR THIS BEING MY FIRST REQUEST!!!!!#I HOPE U GUYS LIKE IT TOO!!!!
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my favourite guy. full of so many issues. i love him
#sprunki lime#sprunki owakcx#possibly art#mutuals pleeease please dont make fun of meeeee!! /lh#not that you will but like. yk#couldnt find any art of him that truly encapsulated my thoughts on him. so i made it#in my mind. he uses a cane. and dresses in like. scene-adjacent clothing#simon gave him the cane. btw. if you even cared#the weird little dot things on him are meant to be pins. i have no idea if thats clear at all and honestly i kinda hate them now#but i wanted to give him a tiny bit more variety in his colours#this is partly all because of our headmate who is this guy#anyone else who is autistic and a multi/polyfragment system: stay off of tiktok!! or this WILL happen to you!! /silly
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shipping this canon ship that
cant people be friends? cant people have a bond that transcends romance and is so complex and meaningful that it cannot be labeled as family nor friend, it is not romantic but something more?? cant two people exist just to be friends and support the other why does it all have to boil down to sex and romance
#sorry seen one too many ship discussions and stuff#got upset#like okay i understand people like to ship my headmates like to cough donnie cough#but damn it gets exhausting#says the most romance repulsed alter in the system#idk tiny vent#wood wide web#bad vibe hours#system stuff
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Shout out to plural allies. Like. Genuinely. We love y'all. It's so rare for a singlet to really Get It, and oftentimes even after we come out it feels like we're still in the closet. So shout out to singlets who listen and who do their best to understand and who make the effort to treat us like individual people. We love you. We appreciate your efforts a lot more than you probably know.
#actually plural#actually did#plurality#multiplicity#osddid#did osdd#did system#positivity#i was feeling very emotional about a singlet friend's voice message#where they just. acknowledged that i'm a different person than my other headmates#and said that they were still working on figuring out some of my personality traits#like#oh#this person wants to know ME as in the alter and not just the collective#this friend also follows this tumblr so#if you're seeing this#hi! we love and appreciate you#(you know who you are)#and the positive feelings from that voice message are why i made this post#post by Ivy (she/her)
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Artdump 1/?
So yeah I’m sick recently and juggling college work like my life depends on it, so here’s some older art I did to fill the gaps of the 6ish months I’ve spent not showing my art but improving over the entirety of that time. This is mostly the traditional art I’ve done back in like May back when I wasn’t sketching on random pieces of paper like I am ow (rip sketchbook). Sorry if half of this is super grainy, I’m testing a new way to put stuff onto tumblr.
Starting with the more colourful ones coz if you're anything like me, you have a short attention span and like bright colours :]
#art be back ehfsdh#chonny jash#cccc#cccc mind#cccc heart#cccc soul#mostly fashion sketches#backstory: i met my current partner around this time and i've been working on a cccc au with him ehehe#also a bit of#miasworld#and random ocs#plus my partner eheheh#this is like me newly realising i'm a system so you've got a few early headmate drawings too
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spent the past couple of days making emotes of gay people. i may have gone a little overboard with it
#(the gay people in question being my headmates)#there are so many but. in my defense. they're really fun to make <3#'how come there are so few of liv compared to june and peanut' bc she told me to draw the gay boys#and then draw a couple of her being judgmental of them. and i was like yeah ok fair#pho.posts#pho.doodles#i don't really have a system tag. maybe i should make one
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Me when I have so many things to do but I don't know what to do and my panicking mind feels like it has got cement shoes on.
#we need a headmate who can calm us down and like slow the brain down or something#it's like I'm panicking but I don't even know it so it just looks like I'm stuck on my phone#whatever. I'm going to write a song. thank god my sore throat has cleared up#J. posts#ours#sysblr#osdd#did osdd#osdd 1b#did#syscourse neutral#endo neutral#plural#system#osdd system#traumagenic system
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Ageing is weird when you're a headmate
You have the body's age, your age as a headmate, and then the amount of time you've actually existed for as a member of the system
#Like you have how old the body itself is#And then as a headmate I'm mainly 19#But I've only existed for not even a year#I feel like my other sysmates who have existed for much longer than me like to baby me about it#Because while I'm not the youngest in terms of headmate age in the system I'm one of the youngest in terms of existence#I get the baby brother treatment#➼ In the cage#➼ Blue turtle inner workings
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