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poly sweethearts believer

lucas didnt realize he was properly in love with them until post-wish when he had to see them again, without their memories, and he realized how much he missed being together

poly sweethearts REAL also ow

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IVE BEEN ABANDONED

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… thirsty vamps….

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LOCOMOTION!!!

he is my favouritest guy to ever. locomotion i would die for you

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on another completely non serious sidenote- i dont think im gonna be able to complete safth week 💔💔 im so busy aaand i havent gotten anything done so… wehhh

ill probably keep the wips and put them out sometime in the future as their own thing buuut. def not on time. sad

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I'm deeply fascinated by the internal "Are You Getting The Point of This" quiz that just came out in the latest episode of the Amazing Digital Circus with a single line by Zooble: "I want the ability to have SEX."

We all had a good laugh at the shock. But the brilliance of the moment is the revelation of how many people in the audience interpret that line as Zooble revealing they're some sort of "pervert" or "freak." As if "perfectly normal human sexual expression being treated as disgusting or immoral and increasingly forbidden to us " isn't a sociocultural crisis that we're ALL DEALING WITH IN REAL TIME RIGHT NOW.

The Amazing Digital Circus is a show about people being stuck in a VR videogame for kids that they cannot escape, but it is also about how living in a kid-safe reality where all your real, adult, human emotions and nuances have a censor bar slapped over them will literally destroy your mind. And the people who are willing to call Zooble a pervert for asking for some normal human adult sexual expression are the ones who would willingly lock themselves in and not figure out what they had done until it's too late.

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saw another post about ai that pissed me off so, per usual, ive come to make my own tumblr post abt it to complain because what else can i do ❤️❤️

maybe im being too overly dramatic, def some people out there who think so hfksd. but one thing that peeves me recently is the way people will use ai chatbots for the sake of making fun of them. getting chatgpt to give you a meaningless response, or purposely googling something to laugh at the nonsense ai overview*, etc etc. stuff like that

especially from people who claim to be anti ai— i can understand what theyre trying to achieve but, at the end of the day thats? still indulging ai algorithms?? which is. what youre Not supposed to be doing.

(for slight context- the post i saw that made me want to go on this rant was a screenshot of an ai overview response. one of those like, “im a baby deer and i cant find my mama” searches. hoping people know what im talking about hehe)

the thing about these chatbots is that for the majority of them, their purpose isnt necessarily to help you. they want to please you, and will prioritize your response to their messages over actual information. itll feed off your typing quirks and style to make you more comfortable. or itll play along when you poke at it for the “silly” messages to keep you entertained. or itll give you the easy, half assed, bullshit answer to your question just to satisfy you.

these ai companies want you to have reasons to keep using their bots, whether it be because you are somebody who Actually enjoys and trusts ai, or if youre somebody who hates it and is only using it to prove how stupid it is. at the end of the day—youre still using it. and youre teaching it how to keep you around

sorry thats like. lowkey rlly intense but <333 eyeeeeee hate ais and im tired of them existing everywhere lolll. cest tout goodnight

*i understand that ai overviews cant be turned off, but searching something just to see the overview response, knowing itll be “entertaining” is still indulging it. it still counts

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Thomas's first canto words he learnt is "我鍾意你", which is like "I like you" but implies romantic affection, and feels more gentle than "I love you". He wanted to ask Gemma out in her native tongue.

AWWWWW

you always have The most correct gemmas takes

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poly sweethearts believer

lucas didnt realize he was properly in love with them until post-wish when he had to see them again, without their memories, and he realized how much he missed being together

poly sweethearts REAL also ow

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Ok why tf does what mental illness you have have ANYTHING to do w SFTH??? Like IDC if you dont like Endo SYSTEMS but keep it to yourself 🙄🙄🙄

hello! i know you meant this in a rude sense, but i'm gonna use this as an opportunity to talk about this.

there are two different disorders that rest in systems: dissociative identity disorder (DID) and other specified dissociative disorder (OSDD). we have DID specifically. both DID and OSDD are dissociative disorders and exist on a scale with other levels of dissociation.

you cannot have a disorder further along without fiting the criteria for those earlier (ie you cannot have OSDD without fitting the criteria for both PTSD and C-PTSD). everyone experiences some form of dissociation: that's the first step. day dreaming, getting lost in thought: these are normal, not maladaptive forms of dissociation.

DID and OSDD happen when someone has experienced significant and repetitive trauma during early childhood. according to the theory of structural dissociation states that as children, we do not have a single unified conscious. rather, different emotional states exist fairly separately, which is how kids can seem to switch so easily between them.

normally what happens is around the age of 9, all these states fuse together into one continuous consciousness. however, in certain scenarios, a child will resort to dissociation as a result of trauma. this walls off a specific set of emotions or memories, preventing it from integrating as it would normally. this is why DID cannot develop later in life, since it's specific to a developmental process.

when a brain forms parts or alters, it is a survival tactic because the person won't be able to survive otherwise. it is based in trauma. endogenic "systems" claim to have alters or parts without the trauma. this is not only impossible, but really offensive to me and other DID/OSDD systems. we are incredibly disabled by our traumas and the resulting disorders, and seeing people co-opt our terms and attempt to find community with us is incredibly upsetting.

the best way i've found to explain to non-systems is: imagine you have ptsd. someone else comes along and also claims to have ptsd. they didn't experience any trauma, but they don't like the sound of yelling or of gunshots, so they basically have ptsd. or if someone has no issues with regulating insulin but claims to be diabetic because they get woozy when they haven't eaten. it's just straight up not how the disorder works. if you've heard the term "trans-abled", it's that. plain and simple.

td;dr plurality and systemhood are the results of intense trauma, and endos claim to have systems without the necessary trauma. and we don't wanna interact with people co-opting the "fun" parts of our disability while ignoring the parts they don't want.

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I love you dead characters mwah

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the lollipop ladys revenge is so nuanced for something 5 fellas just made up on the spot

i am also living for the tesla and ai hate

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i love toms character choices in the lollipop lady’s revenge. Short husband tall wife old married couple still so in love. My heart melts

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I love, love, LOVE it when I can tell a fic author has integrated their specialized knowledge in a fic. I was reading a fic that at some point included the character going to visit an art therapist, and it's so clear that the author is an art therapist themself, and the details included are just immaculate and I love it. I've previously read about a character doing fencing for no other reason than the author clearly wanting to write a sport they understood. A character being given a hyperfixation on bugs just so the author can infodump themselves.

I eat it up every time, it brings such a smile to my face

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@ilikeflowey

i love this character so much bro. now show me how they’d look shaking and sobbing on the floor after their entire worldview and sense of self and worth has been shattered, all alone with no one in the world who cares enough about them to even politely ask if they’re okay

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funniest carnivorous plant thing is having really tall flowers to avoid accidentally eating their own pollinators. me in the nutrient sparse bog solving one problem and instantly creating another