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they are terrible for this you have a problem and told them and they make fun of you? that is mean as fuck people who are supposed to care about you should want you to not feel horrible but maybe the friends feel badly for you with that look? like sympathetic?
yeah, but i'm... well not okay with this exactly, but i'm glad that they're respecting these boundaries at least. i'm used to being made fun of though lol, i'll take that then ig
and yeah my friends definitely feel sympathetic towards me, though probably don't know how to react bc they don't quite understand? which again is fair, these thoughts are irrational after all (at least the feeling dirty and scratching/hitting part, though this has probably resulted bc of me not establishing boundaries much earlier where i started to feel uncomfortable with it, which is a valid thing to feel ofc but didn't realise at the time)
#-johnny's asks#fun fact i only recently discovered that a nickname from my mum which i always took as ironic isn't meant ironically at all#they always called me “the brain” and yeah... i thought they were calling me stupid backhandedly but no#apparently that was serious#i called her out on it and she was genuinely confused like huh?#i know my mum she meant it#idk what goes on in their heads sometimes#at the same time teasing me for not being good at calculating in my head... well... i wonder how that misunderstanding came up lmao#what i wanna say is that they don't think it's that serious for me#which ig isn't as much anymore#but it's often that i feel left alone with these things when i could use a helping hand#but emotions aren't really a thing here so...#probably contradicted myself there a hundred times but it's all very complicated#i love my mum but also sometimes she has her moments where she's just being unfair without her realising#and she's under a lot of stress like fr#but when i try to help her she blocks it... unless she wants to complain#then i sit there for hours and hours and listen#which i also called her out on bc she never thanked me for doing that for her for four years and even staying home studying#and saving money through that as well#but she only thanks me when i call her out... which is sad but well it is what it is#i say after that rant wellllll#hello there tmi#sorry anon thank you for your support and concern <3
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Post-revolution Annie just posts random videos of Finnick and their son on the internet and they always go viral because people have only ever seen Finnick as playboy extraordinare and now they see Finnick being a dumbass father who's trying his best and it's very endearing and 90% of the time the camera pans out to an unimpressed Johanna or Katniss and it's great
#the hunger games#finnick odair#katniss everdeen#annie cresta#johanna mason#listen he's trying#he's never done anything like this before#he needs a minute#finnick ringing his mum like “MUM THE BABY IS CRYING ALL NIGHT WHAT AM I DOING WRONG 😭”#“mum he reached for my lobster can he have it” “finnick hes 6 weeks old”#“mum is he meant to be throwing himself off every surface??” “i mean you did so take that as you will” “NOT HELPFUL”#“can i take him swimming yet?? i want to show him the sharks 😁😁” “finnick hes 2 months old ffs”#Annie's just watching the chaos and texting Finnick's mum like “sorry mum dont stress it I got this”#Finnick's mum just sat there like “at least one of you knows wtf is going on”#jokes on her annie just has a million parenting books she flips through to answer her questions before heading to google#annies search history includes 'how old til baby can visit ocean'#'can i make baby food out of anything'#'how to tell my husband that hes doing fine but holding the baby like that is going to send me into a coma'
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We do have electric kettles but unless you were a dedicated tea drinker or enjoy pour over coffee (compared to other popular extraction methods). Not many have one.
Also we have plug covers.
Never said you guys didn't have kettles said you didn't have good ones which is true bc the voltage in your plugs is lower then the Irish/UK plugs it means the kettles take longer to boil and becomes more of an inconvenience i also never said you guys didn't have plug covers I just said you have to buy them separately they're not apart of the plug like the irish/UK plugs
#ask#anon#sorry friend your ask did bug me a bit#bc when i was writing the ask i specifically thought to myself#cant be one of those people who say America has no kettles bc i know thats not true#but yeah i know a lot of people will also say that most Americans are coffee drinkers and instant coffee isn't as popular#which is true#but also theres other things kettles can be used for from making food to hot water bottles#quickly boiled water will always have its uses in a house#but why buy a kettle when microwaving the water or even the stove is faster#funny enough i actually learnt this from an American my ex friends mum really loved her kettle#said the ones back home were slow and also sometimes badly designed?#dont know what she meant by that if anyone has any clues
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donna "it was never that far from the surface mate" noble not having a worry in the world leaving 14 and yaz alone in the living room at night to finish their movie while she goes to bed entirely unaware of the tragic lesbian romance of the century that those two concluded about an hour before donna re-met the doctor
#rose having pried into the situation and gotten like a hundred 'it's Complicated's from yaz looking at them like..................#donna meanwhile 'that boy is gay and that girl is a lesbian it's just two homos being homos you know'#rose 'i dont think those are the words you want to use mum'#'what is it offensive?'#'well yeah but thats not what i meant'#in the end donna is right of course she neednt worry#in the end rose is ALSO right of course theres gay drama going down 100%#i just think it's interesting that like. youve got all these different interpretations of the doctor right?#theyre like this whole spectrum of things. theyre the light and every colour is a different doctor but they all exist next to each other#simultaneously#and in this specific setup the way that donna is both right and not#and the way that 14 exists and 13 exists and theyre not the same person but also they are#its very holding two things at once#wait does donna know abt yaz bc of the metacrisis thing? i dont really understand the memory sharing#however if she 'cant remember' bc it's like 'looking into a furnace' im just gonna take that at face value bc it fits my purposes better
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really short and silly munson family piece, inspired by something that happened to me literally an hour ago
cw: spiders
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Eddie reared back with a yelp of alarm. "Oh my god- nope. Wayne!"
Abandoning the washing basket, and whatever organs had just fallen out of his ass, Eddie stomped around the side of the trailer, checking fruitlessly over his shoulder like he was being followed.
The porch lights were warm, orange and familiar, and they helped him to breathe easier now that he wasn't alone in the dark, face to face with a demon.
"What're you shriekin' about?" Wayne was settled on the front steps, smoke curling from a lit cigarette.
"There is a big fucking spider and I almost walked directly- ah!" Eddie flinched when something brushed his jaw, slapping aggressively at his neck and face until he realised it was just his hair. He sighed, relieved. "I almost walked right into it."
Wayne eyed him, exhaling smoke through his nose before nodding towards the corner Eddie had just come from. "You need me to kill it?"
He opened his mouth, prepared with an emphatic yes please, but paused. It's not like it had gone out of it's way to attack him, Eddie had just had the misfortune of almost walking directly through it - would have if he hadn't turned the torch on when he had.
"Well, it's kind of just minding it's own business."
"So I don't need t'kill it?"
Eddie glanced over his shoulder, wrinkling his nose at the inky shadows. His skin was still crawling, every unexpected brush belonging to a phantom arachnid. But a quiet sort of guilt pooled in the back of his throat, bittersweet and cold, at the idea of killing it just because he was scared. He shook his head, scratching his arm. "No."
He shuffled on the spot, hoping if he looked pathetic enough his uncle would take pity on him.
"Weren't you doing something?"
"Can't you finish hanging it out? I'm still recovering from seeing my life flash before my eyes."
"They're your sheets, Ed. I just washed 'em."
"But Wayne." He whined, entirely unrepentant about the childish nature of his behavior.
Wayne Munson remained unmoved, however, and Eddie was forced to brave the washing line all over again. God, he missed the time of about 10 minutes ago when he hadn't been aware of the hell spawn watching him mutter about pegs.
#i know steve is the one canonically scared of spiders while eddie literally has a tattoo of one on his chest#BUT i figured eddie suited my dramatics more#the actual real life event was a 20 minute ordeal in which i attempted to convince mum to let me abandon the task she'd given me#while being increasingly dramatic about how close i'd come to death until she hit me with 'what you want me to do it?'#thus reminding me she has literal arachnaphobia so. no i didn't want her doing it. so i threw her husband under the bus#and she just made me go out there anyway#i'm so glad we have two washing lines even though i had to cram everything onto it bc it meant i didnt have to be near the spider#which was literally the size of a 50 cent coin#and i almost walked straight into it - i turned my torch on and immediately screamed that's how close i was it was TERRIFYING#eddie munson#wayne munson#stranger things#stranger things fanfiction#eddie munson fanfiction#my writing#also yes i was hanging out the washing at night
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ever so slightly worried I’ll be insufferable next week, I’m going to Cardiff and I’ll try not to be the Leo pointing meme everywhere
I was already so bad in London, I’d point out show promo ads on the tube to my cousin and start telling her all about bands I think she could live without hearing about, and we’d look at a poster advertising a show at another venue and I’d tell her about some historic show that happened there in like 1977 and then we’d see some big tour announcement on the side of a wall and I’d be all like do you want an unsolicited ten-minute long history of this artist’s successes in the charts
I’m terrible about it, I have to try not to wear down my best friend next week, who is doing Cardiff with me very graciously, knowing what fresh hell that might entail for her
#You know how they say things like ‘believe it or not your friends are your friends because they like you#And if they didn’t like you or found you unbearably annoying they wouldn’t hang around’?#I really test the limits of that by just. Being as annoying as possible and praying that people don’t secretly get tired.#Because I would wear people the fuck down if I didn’t have the self-awareness to shut up at the right time#You’ve got to give people breathers. Even if they love you this can be too much#My own mum can find it overwhelming but that is also a very funny story to tell and it makes everything think my mum is sweet and cool#So it’s not exactly meant to be a sob story; you can go ahead and laugh; bless her she tries to keep up for my sake
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Hi btw being trans does not automatically grant you supernatural understanding of all esoteric trans knowledge. You actually need to put effort into learning or put effort into keeping quiet about things that don't pertain to your specific experience
#my cishet brother has a better grasp of transgender theory than my transgender bisexual sister because he like... did some basic research#meanwhile my sister confidently told me 'oh youre nit trans youre neutral' the ither week and i almost slapped her#miss maam i am nonbinary and i have been out as some kind of trans for ten years i will politely ask you to shut up ONCE#also in no universe am i 'neutral' but even if i WAS by definition i would not be identifying wholly with my assigned sex#WHICH WOULD MAKE ME TRANSGENDER ANYWAY#apparently shes been portraying herself as the only trans in the family despite the fact that ive BEEN OUT FOR A DECADE#like ms maam when i came out you were TEN YEARS OLD. i taught you what transgender meant! i know for certain i taught you better#i DEFINITELY taught you better than to TELL PEOPLE WHAT THEY ARE#like okay i guess if youre not into research and history and you just wanna exist without having yo be an expert that is fine#but DO NOT present yourself as an expert. you are an expert in YOUR BODY and YOUR EXPERIENCES#like. shes got severe 'no one has ever done it like me. i am the weirdest girl at the party' syndrome#while also having the personality of an edgy piece of toast#i love her but i have. been very angry at her and i cant even say anything about it#like. baby girl you are a very generic case of autism and transgender and bisexuality. youre not the most random unique case#'how could you understand?!' meanwhile im sitting there wildly neuridivergent and transgender and i got eldest daughter/third parent trauma#like hmm yeah i wonder what id know about it. i wonder how i could possibly understand. i wonder how i could possibly offer relevant advice#i give up#shes a fucking edge lord and our mum feeds into it rather than being like 'some of your experiences are actually universal'#anyway rant over#my brother is an angel and i eould die for him. worlds best ally#he has never once misgendered me or made me feel weird about it. unlike some other siblings who demands i punch her if she gets it wrong#like... no? stop being weird about it youre making me more uncomfortable than using the wrong pronoun did#mums like that too 'oh i messed up hit me!' like no#how old are you?#grow up im not gonna hit you back why would hurting you make me feel better? does hurting people make you feel better?#cause that sounds like something you should see a licensed professional about. i dont care if its a therapist or a bartender#just do it away from me#rant#personal#delete later
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my dad threw out my doll furniture :(
#cookie talks#negativity#not all of it but most of it#he emptied my actual box of it into the bin. all i have left is like. the stuff that wasn't in the box#i know it's not that big a deal i still have some left but I'm sad about it so#at least they still have beds#Ä#i want to confront him about it but he'll get mad#cus i knoww I'm too old to be playing with dolls#I talked to my mum but she just said i can make some myself#and i know that but I've had that stuff since i was two#and that meant a lot to me#+ my car i got from Santa :(
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You know you've fucked up when your child swears that they'll never parent like you
#vent.txt#home doesnt feel like home#my mum got angry at me for putting the wrong amount of oil in the pan and not reading the recipe#even though she just said “put *some* oil in the pan” so i thought it meant a drizzle or smthn#and then she proceeds to say stuff like “i dont know why i ask for your help”#i always say im not gonna help her again but i just want her to say shes proud of me#she never does with any of my interests#she just says “yeah it was good” after a ballet show and “I dont get it but whatever you like” when i show her art or poems i made#and she layghs at me whenever i share my interest of mha or musicals#“im sorry its just so ridiculous i cant help it”#or just “i really honestly dont care can you just leave me be?”#why does my best friend's mum feel more like my mum than she does?
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nothing’s gonna change between me and showing my mum pictures of my beloveds 🙂↕️🤍
#im so grateful to have someone who indulges me <3333#teen fiz showing her mother photos and videos of 1d members#to YA fiz showing pictures of the tannies to her jimin biased mum#‘he looks good and chubby’ my mum when i showed seokjin’s airport photo 🙂↕️#SHES NOT BODY SHAMING she meant seokjinnie looks healthy and glowing u just have to be asian to know that lmao 🥹🫳#anywayyyy!! she loves all the tannies but she’s DOWN BAD for jimin (as she should be)#fiz pops up
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pls wish me luck today, i've gotta try to figure out how on earth i'm gonna source my heart medication which is part of the current meds shortage and uh. not ideal. for me personally running out wouldn't be life-threatening, but it would suck! I've got some options for trying to sort it out so i'm hopeful but god. hate that for us you know!
#i will not give in to bleakness!!!!! lots of good things! however!#:( i have plans next week. like i'm meant to be meeting my sister who i barely see bc she lives too far away for me to drive to and hanging#out with my mum :(#don't really want to be dealing with any wonkiness from coming off meds you know!! it's not a big deal it's just 'little life stuff'#but also! life is made of little life stuff! :(#OKAY! I CAN DO IT! THE WORLD IS KIND OF SCARY BUT I'M STRONG AS HELL.
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feeling so emotional after the most fun wonderful and healing weekend 🥹
#i say weekend but it’s more the last couple days#slowly starting to process luke’s show on thursday and truly just feeling so much#the songs i hadn’t heard at boston calling were coincidentally the ones i was the most excited to hear and ahhh it was incredible#like place in me and comedown and i’m still your boy#i have no words#also!! motion!!#i did not expect to leave that show and have motion be one of my favourite moment of the night#it had been so long since i had so much fun in a crowd everyone was so hype<3#the pure joy i felt in that moment and how that was reciprocated by the people around me#priceless#starting line<3 still can’t believe i got to hear my favourite song in the world<3#fun fact i went to the show with my mom after my friend couldn’t go anymore#her coming to my rescue when i was starting to have doubts about going alone<3#and she loved it so much 😭#guys i love my mom#we made a whole weekend out of it and it was so nice#when i say this whole experience was so healing that’s part of it#to like have this much fun and to share that with my mom meant so much more to me than i realized#she knows wfttwtaf well and it was so cute to see her excited when she recognized a song 😭#also experiencing mum with my mom was indescribable#i just hugged her the whole time and kinda blacked out actually#so yeah!!!! this show turned out to be so much more than i could ever imagined#super happy with my experience with this tour and choosing to do boston calling and a show too#i can’t even talk about luke he was so perfect<3#more thoughts on this later when i reblog things probably
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My aunt is making memory boxes for her kids and grandkids with things like her fav perfume she always wears, voice recordings, birthday cards for the next 20+ years, etc (beautiful wonderful that’s gonna mean the world to them) and she’s asked me to do drawings of the sweets they have when they go to see her to also go in there which is so sweet and I’m honoured beyond belief and also. Terrified.
#she just told my mum she thinks she’s on weeks. and she essentially said it doesn’t matter if they’re not done in time#but I don’t want to not show her at all in case she has notes??? I think I’m gonna try and push one through#so my mum can send it her and see if it’s okay#she’s like. not even seen my art. I don’t wanna disappoint her…#and like I know how important the concept is I have a dumb little wrench I took out my dads tool shed when we were clearing his house#that almost definitely meant nothing to him but means the world to me bc it was his#I’m so glad for them. it’s such a sweet thing.#nothing can make this easy or okay but it will be good for the grieving process
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lmao mum was talking about these friends of friends i’ve met like twice ever and i didn’t remember who they were until i remembered being 12 years old and repeatedly whacking the dad with my book (while still keeping my page) for making a gay joke, after sitting through like an hour of the intensely feminist mum (heart in the right place, very misguided) insisting that i was oppressed and subconsciously ashamed of my body (i wasn’t) bc i refused to shave my legs but also ‘hid’ them by wearing pants a lot.
shaving is pointless if ur 12 and autistic and have no concept of the social expectation that gives many young girls that final push to start shaving, and pants are great when ur 12 and autistic and obsessed with collecting as many different colours of skinny jeans as possible bc they’re comfy and u love colours.
also their daughter was ANNOYING. she has a baby now tho which is alright bc i do actually think she’s smart as well as annoying.
#el has a life#literally just a stream of consciousness#complete and utter ramble#this is barely even information but i liked thinking it so idk have fun reading it if u want i’m not ur dad do whatever man live ur dreams#i’m so sleepy dude can u tell#actually autistic#with the gay joke the dad actually made that joke about the mum’s own brother#and i can remember what it was but i remember she didn’t like it#and i was holding a book so i said hey i’ll whack him with my copy of Percy Jackson and the Sea of Monsters if u want#honestly i was going to anyway i just thought it’d be polite to announce my intentions#and she said yeah go for it so i chased him around whacking him with my book for like five whole minutes#12 year old me committed to the fucking bit#and then i got told the fuck off on the car drive back home bc it ‘was rude’ and ‘made a bad first impression on him’#and mum went ‘i know you were only joking-‘ and i went ‘oh no i wasn’t. no no i meant it. see he’s homophobic and i’m holding a book.’#‘what else was i to do’#sorry i’m basking in my victory over this man i’ve literally only ever seen that one time#slay 12 year old me#i think i was older actually i think i was like 13 or 14#bc i wasn’t a girl or straight then and that is a big indicator around that time#i better not have covid
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currently thinking about how when i told my dad to tell my mother i would not be speaking to her until she apologised she just. straight up stopped even trying to contact me. like, not even a text. absolutely insane how much this woman refuses to admit that maybe she was wrong about how she handles some things. she cannot swallow her pride to even do this one really small basic show of respect. fucking mental.
#like…… i think she said ‘im sorry it came out rude’ right after it happened but. GIRL.#THAT IS NOT WHAT YOU SHOULD BE APOLOGISING FOR AND YOU FUCKING KNOW IT.#she knows full well that what she said was inappropriate invalidating triggering and insulting#AND that i have repeatedly asked her NOT to say it over the past few years.#and yet she just says ‘sorry it came out rude’???? like not ‘im sorry i said that’ not ‘i was wrong and insulting and disrespectful of ur#boundries that youve had in place for years now’#and like she keeps doing this again and again and again with so many fucking things#she just has no respect for my mental health issues or who i am or like just me as a person#its near constant. shes always subtly calling me dramatic and ridiculous and telling me that im stupid and that its all my fault#but the moment i try to bring up anything like this to her just just yells#and goes ‘oh i get it im a horrible mum well i tried my best and i put in so much work’ ect ect ect#like i was sharing with her biosocial theory and how i think that bcause we have never different ways of regulating out emotions#it meant i was never taught to do it properly/in a way that works for me and that combined with my autism and my trauma likely led to my bpd#and when i tried to explain that it wasnt anyones fault its just that we’re different ppl and there was no way she couldve knows#she was like ‘ohhhh so its MY fault? hm? I’M the reason youre like this!?’#and she looks down on me so fucking much for my ed and for sh and really just for any symptoms i show bc#why cant i deal with things properly like HER.#idk its so exhausting like i just want a proper apology from my own fucking mother but no.#shes doing the exact same thing that she berates and mocks and looks down on me for.#ugh i feel like screaming
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Been feeling very on top of my shit these last two weeks so of course that's when my mum wants to crack down on my lack of socialising. Ma'am I'm going to uni and focusing on myself right now, let's not get ahead of ourselves
#personal#+Extra#mother i dont have any friends in this city okay? they all live elsewhere but i get along with my classmates and im civil with my flatmates#lets focus on the positives aight? my damn extroverted mum and brother do not understand how i can be a uni student and not spend all my#time drinking and thats exactly why they didnt go to uni had serious relationships at my age while im sat in my room tryna remember to text#people back and to drink enough water at the same time but unfortunately i got limited mental space and never learned how to juggle#shes being very insistent about my lack of social life lately maam with what friends & what funds am i meant to be doing this socialising?#tbf i do kinda forget that other things exist outside of my flat sometimes i spend too much time in my lil box but she doesnt need to know
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